Crystal Meth Addict interview-Ashliegh
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- čas přidán 22. 09. 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Ashliegh, a crystal meth addict on Skid Row.
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The more I watch Mark's videos, the more I come to realize that 99 percent of the problems in this world seem to stem from childhood abuse or abandonment.
Love your kids please.
Dr. Gabor Matè is one of the world’s best authorities on addiction, and his belief is that all addiction has roots in childhood trauma
Maybe some people are genetically predisposed to addiction, but it’s the childhood trauma that triggers it regardless
No it's drugs.
@@GLC-1979
No, you're wrong. Drugs come later in life. They don't start off as drug addics when they're little. When they're little, things happen to them that form who they'll be as adults..then, those adults take drugs as a way to numb the pain. It all starts as fun and games when trying drugs, but quickly they become reliant on them because it takes away the trauma they received as children.
Thus, it ALL STEEMS from childhood trauma
@@GLC-1979drugs are a tool to try to escape trauma for many. Drugs are a symptom to the real cause.
This is very true. I worked in case management at a few prisons and almost every single inmate had a horrific childhood.
Thank god those children are in a safe place and nowhere near her
Hopefully they are. But I'm starting to think bc 2 are with her mom her mental health stems from that living situation so I doubt they will be ok
Unbelievable that a mother could ever call their children, even if they were given up, could call them parasites! And her only use for them is organ donation!? That's so messed up
she first used her mom as the pinnacle of love then we hear her creative forms of discipline
Yeah, she ought to have an iud. I'm not a meth addict but feel her
That exactly what I was thinking!! She's very mentally I'll!
The biggest gift of "love" is the fact she is not influencing those poor kids any more
No joke. No tiny human should have to deal with this mess. And 12:51- if pregnancy is an abomination- bit*ch use birth control. Basic sex education holy sh*t
This must make you feel good, telling everyone else what love is. Kudos!
@@papaboomcertainly you don't think her using her kids for satanic purposes and taking their organs to be immortal is your definition of love? Or you defend her for that?
Not love but pure selfishness on her part. She puts herself first.
@@theshapeexists coming to this video and patting yourself on the back for NOT being a delusional meth-addict is also NOT an accomplishment on your part... which is my point.. all the women (or men) here who are giving themselves props by attacking this (obviously sick) person are themselves (I am guessing) not the cream of humanity (yourself included.)
when they were talking about love, you could hear the curiosity in her voice when she was asking Mark about love. You can tell in that moment that she has never felt what love is. When Ashliegh asks, "would you say it's more pain than pleasure?", you could really tell she has never felt what love is. Mark is right. If you have to ask questions about love, you've never felt it. My heart hurts for her.
But she says she "loves" Satan
She never felt love for her four children but she didn’t kill them so she gets some credit
She's so lost. She 'loves satan' . That's for shock value. She doesn't have a sense of self worth and to get attention she says she loves saten. It's so sad. I hope her kids never try to find her.
@@jennifers.3818point made, she's never felt love.
The "having children so Ican take their organs to be immortal" was dark
Well she does have at least 3 upside down crosses, 666, Satan representing the Devil himself soo
Seriously! That was hard to listen to 🤯
I'm struggling through it atm...I'm not sure I wanted to hear this level of selfishness.
She said parasites, not children. 🤷🏼♀️
It's called DEMON possession. She has been taken over
No drug will rape your soul faster than crystal meth.
Well said
If one smokes a bag when will it wear off? I mean the drug
@karabograce6292 That totally depends on the strength of your stuff. Usually, it will last all day but if it's weak, half of the day. I never ever did meth but I know tons of people in my area that have.
Meth is truly a demonic drug
@@karabograce6292 Round here for smoking we have 4 standard tiers of duration or "The Legs " . 6 mins . 6 hours . 6 days .. Or 6 feet deep . So odds are 1 in 4 to get a free ride to the morgue . Shrug * Choose wisely friend .
I thought opioids were the worst
"Is that what you would tell your 4 kids? That you have so much love to give?" Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn
IMO - that was crap and ML should have left his personal judgements out of it.. it was like the lowest hanging gotcha journalist moment in the history of media. "gotcha - psychopathic meth-head' - kudos.
@@papaboomthat’s not what you say in this type of interview
@@papaboomYeah, it was a bit of a low shot but I guess we're all human. It was incredibly disturbing hearing her take on her babies.
I think he honestly was curious as to how she would answer this question.
@@lauriecalkins781I think so. She wasn't affected by the brutality of this question at all. She was unable to detect that it was a dig and she just answered it straight up. Although her answer revealed no insight, just showed her inability to detect the dig.
The notion of her kids not asking permission to grow inside her.... and then to do it not once but 4 times? they didn't ask to be conceived. It was her fault they were. But that never registered with her.
She knows how babies are conceived but it's their fault because she was just hoping she won't get pregnant ?
I’ve never heard so much word salad in my entire life… and I work in psych
Have you ever heard Meghan markle speak? 😂
Her convo about kids reveals how dangerous she is. Meth makes lost people feel intelligent.
False confidence
💯
Her sharing her views on her kids .. yeah I don't like her. Quit getting pregnant if you feel that way.
A morbid grotesque goblin. No other way to say it. Hell awaits them all.
@@TheCyberMantis yea she wants hell. So that's less of a punishment and more or a paradise for her.
I was very impressed by her literacy, and then I realized she is suffering psychosis. Great interview 👍
Can you explain the first sentence please?
Anyone who uses the word "like" constantly is not a highly literate person.
@@survivor030406lies. like is used as a filler word and idk abt other people but as for me, pretty intelligent. Interestingly enough, i write different from how i speak. so while i can write a grammer error free, clearly precise and accurate paper, i dont verbally use half of those words on a day to day basis.
@@survivor030406She is still well spoken, regardless of the word filler.
Yes!
I've heard other women talking about how they felt like they were "infected" with a "parasite" during pregnancy. It's usually a huge indicator of Postnatal depression.
One of my friends suffered for the first 2yrs of giving birth. Then she went on to become one the best Mums i've ever seen.
im sure she used while she was pregnant
“because a lot of things are disguised as love but they actually arent” SO REAL
like meth and satan.
agree. what many people call love is just attachment and fear of being alone.
Hearing her talk about her children, this is the type of person who would sell her children for drugs or sacrifice them to be tortured. Shocking 😮
these are the type you read about that actually sacrifice their children to satan. remember that there are bad seeds born that way. it is in the dna. history is full of them.
Often it happens
no bc if she was that type of person then that would have happened instead of her putting them up for adoption, wouldn’t it?
@@Vivi-cq5kx maybe she was more sane at the time she got the kids. Also they could've taken those babies straight away at hospital, because of her drug use and her being unfit for a mom
Mark is finding more and more interesting humans to interview. This channel is a dream for people who are fascinated by human behaviour like I am and many others.
Not really🥱😴
Indeed
Indeed
some people send Mark requests to be interviewed (and paid presumably). He asks they send a video and he selects the people he wants to interview for his channel.
@@unknown-sx8snWhy are you here then if you find it so dull?!
Her diatribe about children and babies is simple self reflection of how poorly she feels about herself.
This is the best argument for abortion I’ve ever seen. Anytime there’s a debate between pro-life and pro-choice people, they should just bring Ashleigh onto the stage and let her talk.
Birth control should be free
Not an excuse to murder your baby
I might of missed it but did she state she wasn't allowed to have an abortion? I believe she chose to have those children. i would assume her point of view about her children is a symptom of her current meth induced paranoia. Not sure how this is a prochoice argument or are you suggesting we decide who is unfit for motherhood and force abortions???
My comment about birth control keeps getting deleted, wonder why … it should be free tho…
My comment got deleted too.
Trauma at its worst. I had to dig deep for compassion on this one. Wow. I have never heard anyone talk about children this way.
She's so obviously mentally ill, that it actually shouldn't be hard at all to feel empathy for her. I am more worried about the people in the comment section who choose to not see it, because of their believes
@@thematriarchy2075why do ppl tend to blame mental illness for everything? That is so saddening and sickening at the same time... dont get me wrong i have compasion for everybpdy who needs help, who wants help... But let us not forget about all the ppl that keep this wheel running silently, trying their ultimate best to stay sane, righteous and humble... where at the same time ppl that rob us from our energy, love and MONEY life in the best of conditions careing only about oneself not worrying about makeing this world a better place... i get so tired of all of this...
@@thematriarchy2075❤
I think of fetuses that aren't able to live on their own as a type of parasite. It's what they actually are, something only able to survive, by taking things from your body. That's a parasite. But I also know babies have souls, I know they are humans, and I don't think birth is weird. And I don't love Satan. Lol. But when the abortion argument comes up, that's my position. 🤷🏼♀️
So glad she gave her children up for adoption. Like what Amy said I have never heard anyone talk about children the way she did.
Mark is unknowingly hilarious. “I don’t know if Im gonna get to the bottom of what love is in a quick conversation with a girl with an upside down cross on her forehead”😂
Weeeee
Yea I replayed that one 😂
@@newkingdom6750 Your telling me you watched it twice 'wow fare enough !
I enjoy his quick but subdued wit and humor 😂
Oh, you mean his undertones of sarcasm & disgust? I'm gonna go out on a limb here & surmise that he's not a fan. I can't imagine why. She seems like a dream.
The PATIENCE Mark has.
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to meth. Spent my whole life fighting meth addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Amen God bless people. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, meth, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Belgium. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of Dr.benfungi. Did straight shrooms in few days. Left me like a blank slate after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. Shit saved my life, all thanks to Dr.benfungi
Congrats! I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you. I always admire those who beat their addiction. Knowing it's possible to fix your life knowing there's people out there that have done what I thought was impossible gives me hope I will make it through as well. Those who share their experiences don't know how much it helps when you're about to give up, it gives you the strength knowing somone who actully know what it's like to go through this tell you it's possible, it's not the same somone telling you you can do it when they have no idea what it's like, but hearing somone who knows what it's like that helps a lot since you understand it firsthand and made it out gives so much hope. so thanks for sharing.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction?
Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's
something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
I have never REALLY been shocked by these interviews. UNTIL THIS ONE.
I mean, yeah... 😂
As an addict, occultist and a whore i cringed massively at her🤢
I know exactly what you mean.
same
If people only knew that Jesus (Buddha, Allah) are all satan.
People don’t know Santa = Satan… they call him Old Saint Nick.. now go google “Old Nick” and tell me what it says.
People need to realize that earth is hell.. all of your favorite celebrities throw up 666 .. the ppl who control television are called the National Academy of Television Arts & Sciences … that acronym is NATAS .. which is SATAN backwards. … this is why they get the worldly riches (root of all evil).
Even NASA is Satan scrambled up.. that’s why they say “T minus”.. the T is missing and their logo has the serpent tongue. NASA literally lies about everything they say or do… don’t laugh at flat earthers.. they have the truth.. while you believe in a globe spinning and flying thru space which is total chaos.. you can literally step outside and see you’re not on a globe flying 67,000 mph.. you wouldn’t see the same stars every night if that were the case. They tell us we’re on a globe because there is no more to explore on a globe.. meanwhile they are out finding and hoarding lands and natural resources to themselves.
This was shocking and to know that her children may hear refer to the ones she gave birth and gave life to as parasites and soulless is so sad. But I'm so glad she gave them up and I seriously hope and pray that they all are living the best life without her!
I’m sure they have no idea and will never have any idea who their real mum is. Imagine they grow up and ask, you don’t want to show them the photo of her, they probably think she’s dead
Yeah the real horror would be if those kids were still in her life.
They will grow to be great - in spite of this actual human parasite that is their bio mom 🦠
Sadly many folks that are pro abortion have this same exact feeling.
@@69Fabulosityand lots of (MOST) people who are pro-abortion don’t remotely think this way…
all those upside down crosses just show how the devil has an entire hold on her soul
It actually doesn’t show that. Her poorly done tattoos show her inability to make rational decisions that’s all. Pretty sure what has ahold of her is meth induced psychosis; i doubt Satan would want her in his league
When the devil gets you this is how you will end up.
Yes! That’s what I was thinking
Amen.
When meth gets ahold of you.
At least her kids can watch this back one day and never regret not knowing her
My mom is mentally fucked and trust me I’ll never stop being upset that I don’t have a “normal” mom
This is the rawest and realest channel on CZcams no stupid dancing no fake people bragging and vlogs just legit gritty powerful interviews
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
I actually respect her honesty. Most people can’t be this honest with themselves.
Yeah, I'm surprised how judgmental commenters are being.
@@KD-rs6xx She created her image of the disgusting person she is with her words in this interview and that's how she is perceived by the commenters. Oh wow, consequences.
@@KD-rs6xxwants to harvest her kids’ organs -“so judgmental”. Get over yourself, please. You are as delusional as she is
You respect her? For being honest? Thats like saying you respect a murderer for them saying that they brutally murdered multiple people out of cold blood.
@@KD-rs6xxYou are extremely lost jesus christ
She talked for 40 minutes and didn’t tell us a damn thing lol
Proves you can talk a lot but not say much!
I heard her. And I listened to her in many other ways than verbally. I think she communicates loudly.
Considering all she’s been through for the last 23 years I think she said... she’s pretty well spoken and her thoughts on reproduction are really interesting... sad but poignant... but never the less, interesting. For lack of a better adjective, she’s thoughtful too. ie posing a question to the interviewer and then actively listening to his answer. She’s a Very intelligent young lady, these drugs once they grab you, are soul destroyers.
When you are blocked by dark entities you don’t feel emotions and therefore love becomes more like a tool to get what you need.
Drug addicts smell like cigarettes 🚬 cause they chain smoke until their next hit. And meth addicts ramble to where they don’t know what they are talking about 😅
Mark had her shook with that “why do you love Satan” question lmao I’m actually laughing out loud at her response
She went in circles around that didn’t she?
She obviously doesn't know WHY she loves Satan...
Exactly what I was thinking, she can't explain why she actually loves Satan as a spiritual figure in her life so she throws it back onto someone else to deflect the question.
Maybe she should keep her nasty legs closed if she doesn't want to have parasites. What a joke. She is nasty AF.
And even she didn’t know why lol 😂
I grew up in Ft. Worth. My best childhood friend and I ran into each other in Los Angeles. I was a cop and he was ruined from drugs. Sad doesn't even began to cover it.
Drug abuse and trauma has led to some serious sociopathy in this one.
Comparing her children to parasites & that their bodies should be sold as body parts & that children don't have a soul...she lost me. Then saying she knows what love is...she is capable of love more than anyone else. Getting pregnant 4 times & blaming the fetus for growing inside of her for 9 months. I call BS. 😳🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🙄 Brutal interview.
Her mind and morality are broken probably a combination of ignorance, trauma and drugs
Shes got a demonic creacher in her its fully taken over soul shes far gone that's not even her talking that's a demon people wont believe what I'm saying but it's clear has day light her body is there but shes not so very sad the devil can onley attracts to the weak and that's what she was 😢💔😱
Agreed
Hard to watch and listen!
She is a lost soul, by every definition of the term.
What an intriguing interview. Ashliegh's questions, particularly about love and being in love, are so fascinating to watch. However disturbing it can be sometimes, I always appreciate being able to get a bit of an insight into other people's minds. I really hope Ashliegh gets out of this life she's living and stops being so afraid.
I loved it when she was asking Mark all these questions so she could get a balance of another side….i found that fascinating…..she needed me as a mom….patience and space and hugging and conversations, good and difficult.
According to her she had a good mom..she is just a messed up individual.
This video takes the channel name “Soft White Underbelly” to a whole new level.
Naw 😂
Errbody should just stop commenting now. This takes a cup 😂
Literal translation 😊
😂💩😂.... I was waiting for the stand up 360 😮
😂😂😂
Actually there’s one more where the girl was put into a dog crate for days and the dog… she I think also has a cross tat on her forehead. That one actually was the worst thing I’ve ever heard. You should watch that one. Clearly is always a distinction on horrible experiences and pure evil.
Thank God she's not raising her "parasites". Wow. I don't think I have ever heard someone describe pregnancy in such a bizarre way. What a lost human being. 🥺
Fortunately she's not raising any of those children...
99.9%of People Are Stupid and She is Definitely One of Them As Well as Satan
Satan has her so tightly in his grasp. What she's saying doesn't even make sense. She's so blindly deceived. Awful.
@@stacylembro what…stop Stacy
Nasty comment from it ain't it. Satans helper. Eggghh
Thank you so much Mark for all your interviews . Your channel changed my perception on many things, for the better.🙏🏻
As some one who suffered trauma and abuse as a child at the hands of an addict parent I am forever grateful that for whatever reason I turned out ok. Knew to work it out for myself. Knew it wasn’t ok. Knew I had a choice to continue the generational pattern or change. I knew healing was the priority even as a teenager. I pray for my children that the genetics won’t overpower the example I have set them 🙏🏼
Damn that’s a blessing💯do you deal with any mental illness/disorder or personality disorders or did you get really lucky?
@@doneill7506 I certainly have the addict genetics. I could drink every day, for that reason I have never tried drugs and I ask those around me to be transparent about any drinking I do do and monitor me so I can be help accountable. I have a lot of rules for myself. Either never more than two follow three drinks alone, keep count when I go out, check in with my husband etc. Mental illness….i have ocd, emetophobia, anxiety, control issues. I manage everything fine these days. I spent a lot of hours in therapy and am never afraid to go back if I feel overwhelmed by anything. Life is a journey of self help and evolving. Talking to myself like I’m still a child and affording myself compassion and empathy as to why I am not ok sometimes.
This is like watching a Satanic alien learning about the human condition
Ikr? "Define abuse", "define being in love"
Hahaha perfect analogy
😂😂😂Holy crap, that's a good one.
Define Satanic Alien.
Get the off this channel, you’re a disgusting human being
I love how calm Mark is no matter whats being said. I sympathized until she started talking about her children. She's calling them parasites like they chose to be. Like she didn't consciously participate in the act of conception without protection and go through an entire gestation to give birth. She's talking about children like they are a stolen vehicle at a chop shop. I hope she got a tubal ligation. When he hit her with the "is this what you would tell your 4 kids... that you have a lot of love to give?" 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Dictionary definition of a parasite is actually also a child
@@David-ss9lh That is 100% percent false.
Some people aren’t meant to be mothers. Least she’s honest and gave them away.
@@FallenAngel9979 I agree
@@slimdiggity9188it literally is though.
I feel as though every explanation she gave was a literal mirror of how she feels as a person.
Love your work Mark, have watched tons of interviews, but this one made my head hurt. Geeeeeze.
This is by far my favorite CZcams channel. I used to stick needles in my arm and grind for a shot every day of my life. 8 years sober with a house and kids and husband, this stuff is beyond interesting to me. Thank you for sharing and being gentle with our fellow humans. It’s completely relatable but I always wish nothing more than a sober life for these people.
👍👏🖤
Congratulations on your continued sobriety. ❤
So proud of you. Hearing stories like yours gives hope for this world
Congratulations love 💕💕
Well done- so happy for you. 5 years in recovery here. I relate to you wishing sobriety for her and others here. I literally said that out loud to my partner.
It seems so unobtainable while we are in active 🥹.
Keep up the best life you can🥰
As soon as he asked her if she had children, I was like “please don’t say yes.”
Unfortunately… They all seem to say yes.
they always do, birth control takes responsibility and her priority is drugs
Seriously. I’m the most normal, boring bitch ever and have no kids. Yet the dumbest people have 3-6.
this is a great interview. i did not expect so many of the comments to be people expressing shock/judgement and saying she's beyond help. what i see is a person who has had a really hard life, who has been betrayed by people she was meant to be able to trust.
i don't think she's obligated to love her children. i see where she got to her conclusion, however messed up it sounds...
but it doesn't seem like she has a lot of vitriol or like she wants to hurt her children, just that she feels wronged by them.
i'm not saying she is in a great place, i'm not saying she's not guilty of some objectively bad things. but she's not beyond compassion and she's not beyond help - she's still coherent much of the time, and i don't know, i see someone with a heart who is just lost.
if she was able to recover from drug use and in an intensive therapy program where she can work through her trauma, i think she could turn things around and have a better life.
this is actually heartbreaking… this is what drug induced psychosis looks like. as someone who has been diagnosed w/ psychosis episodes…
Dang! Thank God she gave her kids up.
Maybe she shouldnt have been having them in the first place?
Yes, we certainly don't need to clone her.
I'm actually surprised she carried them to term with that mentality she has regarding children
@@moisturisedgnome11811000%
Her innocent children aren't parasites. She is the parasite on society.
It makes me sad when I see people being asked if they had any abuse growing up and the person responds "What would you consider abuse" ? 😞
Certainly not being spanked with a wooden spoon or having soap put in my mouth ..
Her “abuse” doesn’t drive people to be come a meth head. She’s like “I couldn’t have a boyfriend and couldn’t wear the clothes I wanted to wear. “Whaaaaaa!” Society has created the do nothings and purposely have nots. They’re fine having nothing. Go look at Seattle. Go look at L.A. with people shitting on the streets and when you offer them a job they says”nope I’m fine.” She’s one of them. The “I don’t feeeeel like doing better.” This girl is the part of the “gimme” generation. Gimme shit for free but I won’t work for it. She’s horrible.
That’s all she could give us
She even said she blocked a lot out.
What she states is normal discipline in the 80s and 90s. Soap, belt and wooden spoon!
She is extremly disturbed. Wow.
If you are going to be judgmental, don't watch this channel and do not comment. Your comments are out of place.
Yeah she didn't ask to get pregnant (even tho she surely did something that caused that 😏), but the children surely didnt ask to be born either, they did not "invite" themselves in her body without asking and are surely not "parasites"... I understand drugs can make you think in a fucked up way but that is just too much...
wonder whether they were born addicted
I'm pretty sure she is mentally deranged and sees children as clones
I hope she's using Birth Control.
Well if any of them were a product of rape, then I can kinda understand her perspective. But it’s still fucked up
What is something living inside you, taking from you, that's not able to live outside you? That's a parasite. People may not like it, but early stages of a fetus is exactly like a parasite, no matter what you do to get it. Don't have unprotected sex, well, don't go swimming in certain waters. I know babies have souls, and I don't think kids are clones or should be used as organ farms. But technically speaking, before they can survive outside your body, they are parasites, technically.
Mark, your empathy and compassion is remarkable. Truly inspirational, thank you.
Especially, those he interviews who include "like" in every sentence.
And what did that empathy and compassion solve NOTHING ITS WORTHLESS BE HONEST THESE PEOPLE NEED THE TRUTH NOT EMPATHY
@@brandondecker8407 Too many "stunning and brave" comments to these videos. As though phuqing yourself up is to be celebrated these days.
I’m hooked on your channel, so interesting to hear people of all backgrounds talk about their life, thank you Mark
She is great interviewee! Amazing mind, original thinker. She considers and discusses. I wish her the best.
“What happened to your teeth?”
Goes into some crazy stories how her teeth got knocked out.
Reality: been doing crystal meth for 20 years.
It's taken us a long journey to get to this point, but they've finally published the real "Soft White Underbelly" interview video.
Comment of the year, you win
Too funny!
LOOL best comment. Thank you
facts
Haha, good one😂
Damn she’s really articulate. Finding the right words to say exactly what she means. Wordsmith.
I was such a nihilist before I started watching these but ngl these made me love humanity again I'm not even lying. Be honest and love each other people we are all in this together
Agreed…I am embracing spirituality again after watching all these videos.
My sense is that her view on kids is informed by her own experience as a kid. Someone made her believe she was a parasite and good for nothing that made her mom’s life worse than if she hadn’t birthed her. She has internalized that experience as a coping mechanism. Better to believe all children are parasites as a general rule than that it was her own unique experience. 😢
I thought the exact same thing. It's a very specific thing, to name a child a parasite. 🥺
My narcissistic parent kept calling me a rat or a parasite as a child and teenager. It’s so sick
I have no sympathy for her. I sympathize with her children who didn't have a choice. I had a horrible childhood full of trauma and I would NEVER treat my children like this. It's disgusting. Her past is no excuse.
I agree. What strikes me often in these interviews is that people will say they had a good childhood, then go on to describe a horrific childhood. To them, it’s normal.
Good point
I’ve known someone who was addicted to meth, who also had these intense thoughts that make no sense, to me. I wonder what part of the brain meth affects that creates this? Thankful for your patience Mark!
Seems so...such wild imaginative thoughts. I would like to see a scan to a meth addict's brain as compared to a normal one. I listened without judgement but towards the end, I couldn't understand what she was trying to express.
@@Azulakayes I don’t think the thought gets completed outwardly, maybe in their brains it does . I’ve struggled to understand for years.
@@candy123258ur right in there brains they completed the thought but by the time it should come out they already thought of ten more thoughts so they just get lost while talking and eventually in their own minds aswell
Lack of sleep does crazy things to the brain. I gotta say that she is the fattest meth addict I've ever seen.
It affects multiple areas of the brain. Very sad
She changed subjects like I change my mind lol 🤷♀️
This is Demonic possession
Demons don't exist!!! Duh! 🙄
@@k_j_n1242 That's Satan's biggest lie to deceive mankind - that he doesn't exits.
Many of the interviews I have watched on this channel have the same satanic mark and energy. They need a priest.
Very heartbreaking - knew someone very much like this with a similar relationship with her mom. Breaks my heart, I hope everyone realizes if you ever become parent please show your children love and acceptance
This was my favourite in a long time simply due to how much she got Mark to open up and share his own thoughts. Loved it.
You noticed that too?
she probably thought in her weird twisted mind that he was attracted to her. very narcisstic
I am THANKFUL this woman isn’t caring for any children.
Using cap lock is worse than anything she’s ever done
Lots of people judging,and saying I’d do this,I wouldn’t do that…. Mostly women I see. I like her style. She honest. I like that she dresses that she don’t give a f u ck. she’s had a hard time,she doing her best. The haters on here are maybe bigger sinners than this lady. People should wind there necks in. How many of you b I tches commenting would sit down and expose themselves like she is? Not many…… outing herself on this platform….
Calling children parasitic in uterine….yikes…….they crawled up and what ?……sorry she is so very messed up…
@@terrytownsend5583yeah and she said a lot of valid things honestly.
She speaks of pregnancy and how it affects her life negatively like those who are pro choice. I find this poor creature to be demon infested and a sad lost soul. What a mess this world is in...she deserved better when she was born and yes she was born innocent and full of promise once upon a time. Tragic.
Mark, i commend you. I really don't know how you handle this kind of thing internally, but you're a stronger man than me
The craziest parts was not what she was saying but the fact that she is so open and nonchalant about it . That's what shows the psychosis.
Satanism is basically just worshipping nature. That's not the way she talks about it at all
She makes no sense and the words I do understand makes her very unlikeable to me.
And this is exactly why we need state run mental health hospitals, but a certain group decided to take them away. We just leave the mentally ill to their own devices living on the street doing drugs, shitting on sidewalks, harming the public, but society thinks they’re doing a good thing by ignoring these people and letting them live the way they want to live. society sucks for this. They think they’re having a heart and doing the right thing when instead they’re harming the rest of society the sane people are the sick ones and are the assholes
Purely and completely disturbing.. mental illness exasperated by drug abuse truly defines how dangerous this woman is to herself and society
Exactly
I think what she said about being on hard core psychiatric drugs at a young age was really eye opening. I've always thought that I couldn't see the appeal of doing a drug you know is so dangerous and what she said makes a ton of sense.
Most of these people are incredibly intelligent. I'm grateful for these videos they show to not judge a person by sight but by what is inside, its so interesting to see their theories and stories.
It's sad to hear about how much she loves her mom and how sweet she was and then a couple of sentences later relays all these awful things her mom did to her. There's such a tragic dichotomy there.
“Then a couple of sentences later, relays all these awful things her mom did to her”??? She got spanked, and wasn’t allowed to wear inappropriate clothing…. Oh, the unjustness of it all…😳🙄🤦🏽♀️🤣 This girl was making some bad choices ( doing drugs at 12), and her mom tried to intervene…🤷🏽♀️ I’m soooo thankful, that she didn’t keep any of her kids, and more thankful that they’ll hopefully never be able to meet her..🙏🏾
@@foxyroxy7189 right then calls her babies parasites when shes the actual parasite
My thoughts, too. Her mother did not want her going down a bad road. How horrific!! She should not have been able to have any more children after the first one. Disgusting that they can keep procreating after ruining one child's life.
I was spanked with wooden spoons and rods but that isn't abuse that's discipline haha. I wasn't allowed to do drugs or drink as a teen or do what I want.
Confused teens do get rebellious and go the other way when they don't get their way I can attest to that but discipline and guidance aren't bad.
@@foxyroxy7189exactly - took the words from my mouth
Moments of lucidity and intelligence that pivot to obvious mental illness and long-term drug use. What a rollercoaster ride, yet feeling compassion she seeks/gets the help she needs. And topic of children. Wow.
God bless your child. This precious soul that you only can heal. I’ve been in her shoes as far as addiction goes and her interview breaks my heart. She’s got to be exhausted in every way imaginable. That’s an horrible feeling.
😧. Whatttt? Wowwww. I have no words. Mark I’ve watched so many of your videos through out the years but really!!!!
Wow this one was tough to watch. I think this is a good example of how drugs affect you mentally. I do wish her the best.
Amen 🙌 wow wish her better 😢
What did you think about the part when she spoke about babies been aliens?
@@towerofresonance4877I think that’s the meth taking it’s toll on her brain… what do you think?
Wow..she is gone ! So glad she isn't raising those kids..they are lucky !! I just can't pity this woman.
I couldn’t even finish watching it.
The thing that really gets under my skin with this video, is you can see she has considerable comprehension of complex ideological constructs and a solid grasp on the English language far more than the average SWU interviewee. Yet her ideas about life and relationships are horrifically and disgustingly skewed to a degree that is almost terrifying. It's obvious to me that given different circumstances she could have been a scientist or an engineer or an academic but what was shown to her by life has transformed her into this stunted, damaged person. I hope she can discover a way out of her current predicament but I doubt it. I wish her well.
She can't answer simple questions though, she's all over the place. I don't see what you're talking about.
I actually see your point exactly. She has/had a beautiful mind that trauma and drugs destroyed.
Academics are self important blow hards.
Ehhh this is beyond a stretch. There’s nothing complex here in regards to ideological constructs or the English language. She has made little to no points in her answers, what so ever. I’m going to have to disagree. There are endless others that have been on this channel, that I would agree with what you’re saying. This person is the furthest from that.
She's "been in therapy" for years, since a very early age... Her Mother "really loved her", but was a "tyrant" who beat her... Her mind and value system has been totally destroyed: can't think of a worse person to have been allowed to reproduce based upon her perception of the value of children! 100% devoted to herself and her love of Satan. P.S. It would be hard to imagine the total dollar amount of her therapy and legal defense costs to Society: has to be in the multiple hundreds of thousands. Concept of being a parasite is a world she should be very familiar with!
You are a genius on these background scenes.
Wow! I cannot believe this person. Absolutely wild , crazy and creepy.
A a devout Christian I must admit, she is completely right about one thing (unfortunately): that's the statement about how so many so called "Christians" are lacking in love for their neighbor. She's spot on. 😢
sometimes a person has to cut if off with another one who uses, steals, manipulates and lies - there is only so much even a 'christian' should take.
Yes!!
@GDG123ful absolutely. That is true, too.
Exactly cause why would I help someone that doesn't help themselves, "they know what they're doing" "well not everyone will go to heaven you know" "I tried telling them about the Bible (as if food clothes shelter and consistent love is not an option) - this what many Christians think
When she said that her crystal meth use is used for religious purposes and is her direct connection to her Satan I was like…. Yep. Hit the nail on the head there. Welcome to chaos.
Also according to her the process of making meth is black magic sorcery and not chemical synthesis😂
@@rickshawredemptionShe's just playing a RPG, she's doing her lil quests.
Finding artifacts to trade with a druid , in exchange for some elixirs.
Yeah its kind of like Christians using wine as a direct link to Jesus. The only difference is that alcohol has killed far more people then meth has.
I thought the same thing!
Meth is definitely the definition of chaos! I've was an addict and cook for 8 years I know first hand. Been clean for 17 years now thank the good Lord above
She makes me really angry but the good thing is that she makes my mom look like a saint, jesus Christ
The word like needs to be abolished ….
Saying she needs ‘help’ would be a gross understatement
I am roughly the same age as this woman. In our very early teens, my childhood best friend was sent away to have electroshock therapy and be put on various medications. She was the daughter of two "functioning" alcoholics; both of whom held respectable careers. Before she was sent away, my best friend was a hilarious, creative, and intelligent girl who sometimes got into trouble, but nothing out of the ordinary. When she returned, she was completely different. I rarely talk to her now, but we have communicated via Facebook here and there. She goes on and on about conspiracies and she often talks about the abuse she experienced growing up. Now, I'm not writing this saying I sympathize with this interviewee. I am a mother and her comments about children were really difficult to hear. I just find it interesting the similarities in her childhood experience and her current frame of mind that seem to parallel that of my childhood friend.
So many things she said made my jaw drop. The harvesting of organs for personnel use of immortality, was a shocking statement. I normally don't make negative comments and live and let live, but this was Way out of my cognitive box of love and understanding. Drugs or no drugs, just wowed by this, this morning. Appreciated a few of Marks comments and or questions. And I'll leave it at that...💙🌎
Oh you have no idea how deep this well goes.
Her rantings on pregnancy for spare parts is already in practice. They are called organ farms. It's a multi billion dollar business.
This shows u that Good and Evil truly exist and folks still say theres no such thing as God 🤦🏻♀️❗️Pick wisely! Bc there is both realms.
Agree 💯👍 I felt the EXACT same... Even about not usually thinking or posting negative but I realized at one point that I got lost in this interview 😂...
Man,organ harvesting from kids is a huuuuuuge industry, look it up. Very rich people also use cloning technology, there are wicked Cloning Centers in hidden places. Look it up. And yes s@tan controls that arena for now
Thank you Mark for your videos💓..your questions are well placed..👍
Would love an update even though it's only 6 months ago.
She would be a great person to do a master thesis on mental illness and self medicated with drugs .
Sure. She needs an exorcist, not a psychiatrist. You're fooling yourself if you think you can figure out Satan without the help from God.
I can see it now. "Like... like... like... like..."
I’m at the beginning stages of my doctoral dissertation; you’re giving me ideas and you’re right.
She'd be a great person to write a paper on what it is like to be an absolute trash can. I've never seen his interviews that made me so sick. She says she has love in her heart? Puuuuhhhhhlllleeeaaassee. She's a POS mother, and I hope she experiences horrible bad things her whole life.
Really??!! I don't find her interesting in the slightest.
Saying the only reason to have children is to use them for body parts because they don't have a soul, is outright the most uncompassionate and unemphatic thing I have ever heard uttered in my entire life. And i genuinely do not believe anything will ever top it. Damn. I didnt know human beings existed with that kind of thought process.
That was wild. Hard to top, I agree. My guess is it’s a result of psych meds at a young age messing up her brain, drug use now, and the philosophy of a person who didn’t feel valued as a child and therefore still sees no value in people.
No, it's depraved. And we're surrounded by depravity these days.
I completely agree. I think devotion to Satan in mind and on the body can invert your perspective (see her tattoos) of what is good and true in the world. Still, she has as much dignity as any one of us. Which is why I prayed for her!
It is happening all over the world every single day. They are being used for horrific purposes. Think about all the kids that go missing.
A lot of people are that now and days..I see a lot of people joking about how useless kids are and how they "hate" kids..Thats a strong word to use
Mark doesn’t like being questioned.
She is so well spoken. I hope she is able to get clean.
lol! saying 'fu@k every sentence and 'like'- not well spoken at all
No, Michele. She's not.
Seeing her pause and trying to understand what falling love means... it was eye opening for me. It may explain why she sees her kids the way she does. Imagine being born to this world only knowing misery throughout your life, you wouldn't even know when you are breaking the law by just existing. Whats right or wrong for her maybe completely the opposite of what it means for us.
Her entire personality is just a facade to protect her psyche from becoming attached to anyone because the idea terrifies her. That or she's got ASPD
Some have a predisposition for psychological disorders Short term or long term use of street drugs can cause a break in the psyche and begin a torturous road of psychological issues that may cause, schizoaffective, schizophrenia , DD, BPD, Bipolar disorder ect or possibly a full-blown psychosis. Sometimes detoxing and getting on temporary mood stabilizers can help stabilize the person's chemicals in the brain but a lot of the time the post acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) can swing the addict right back into a relapse. So many slip right through the cracks alot of them can't climb their way back out.
This is what a strict christian upbringing gets you
i doubt she only knew misery. many of us have experienced what she went through or even more and didnt turn out this way.
She's wrong
In Christianity, the upsidedown cross is associated with the martyrdom of Peter the Apostle. The symbol originates from the Catholic tradition that when sentenced to death, Peter requested that his cross be upside down, as he felt unworthy of being crucified in the same manner as Jesus. Also, as someone who reads runes, they DO NOT have anything to do with Satan.
Thank you💫🧙♀️💫
Seeing her face change when they talked about love actually made me cry omg what a world
I hope her kids never see this
The way she got stumped when asked “What do you love about Sa*an?” Was craaaazy.
She just loves attention...
She’s his daughter
That made me laugh. Because it's an oxymoron! 😂😂 she was almost offended to even be asked.
All she had to say is he’s a liberator snd light bearer I was so disappointed
@@noonefromnowhere7945 *the Ultimate Liar/joker
The way she was just utterly perplexed at the mention of love, right after speaking of her children as parasites and considering the possibility of just using children to harvest organs..... absolutely insane. I hope and pray she can get off meth and get the help she needs to truly feel love for others and to be loved herself.
I think this chick is too far gone.....
That’s So Sad! Fear is the worst! You shouldn’t live in fear. I understand that you’ve been through so much that caused you fear. Hopefully you find peace and less fear
Genuinely fascinating.