A Mom with Postpartum Depression

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  • čas přidán 6. 03. 2024
  • Kerilyn is diagnosed with postpartum depression and anxiety. She feels guilty for experiencing a deep sadness after the birth of her daughter. Kerilyn tries to hide her feelings, but senses that others can see her struggles. Although she often feels invisible, Kerilyn wants others with postpartum depression to know they are not alone.
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Komentáře • 503

  • @sophie1564
    @sophie1564 Před 3 měsíci +685

    Postpartum depression, as well as postpartum psychosis/anxiety, are *such* important topics that are often underrepresented and not talked about enough. Kerilyn should feel so proud that she is raising awareness.

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +22

      I really thank you for this 🥹 the opportunity to be able to advocate for this topic has been incredible!!!

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před 2 měsíci +2

      It used to be widely discussed and called the Baby Blues. I remember learning of it with my prenatal care. It was almost expected. There was no shame around it. It's all social media.

    • @sophie1564
      @sophie1564 Před 2 měsíci +5

      @@edie4321 That's an interesting perspective. I personally feel that the term 'Baby Blues' sounds a bit too light and reduces the impact of how difficult and disabling post-natal depression can be. I'm glad that interviews like this can reduce stigma and shame around it 💛It should be discussed in all prenatal care!

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 2 měsíci

      @@sophie1564 this 👏🏻 in my opinion “baby blues” per say are just a PART of postpartum depression that is just another thing to conquer. 🥲

    • @PAPPADASH
      @PAPPADASH Před 24 dny

      It's only important in first world countries. People in 3rd world countries and even more so who live minimalist in small communities and live off the land just don't get depressed period. The issue is people don't know their neighbors, they have no group they belong to and really they have no value to a community. Depression is something easily fixable but not by psychiatrists. The other issue is now you go to a psychiatrist, they put a label on it, and validate that you feel different and now you are a "Victim" of this label, and disease, so now you focus on that with a psychiatrist which will take forever with minimal improvements. If you have a chemical imbalance in your brain that is different, but DR's are so quick to just put a label on stuff, and for some reason people in 1st world, America think that they should never feel sad, and never be unhappy, that just isn't the case life is hard, you should feel sad, and depressed sometimes for a while, but you need to fix the underlying causes.

  • @TheOneTwitchingDeadGirl
    @TheOneTwitchingDeadGirl Před 3 měsíci +634

    I don't think people realize how long this lasts they only see the severity of surface level.
    You go mom, I feel this still nearly 5 years later.

    • @elisacampos9532
      @elisacampos9532 Před 3 měsíci +12

      I think i had it for 4 years

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +9

      Thank you for the insight and kindness - We’re not alone!!! 👏🏻🥹

    • @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646
      @nutrirebyanaluarrivillaga2646 Před 3 měsíci +6

      Sending you a big hug! I am 10 yeast post partum and still feel it :S

    • @yourstrulyOceano
      @yourstrulyOceano Před 3 měsíci +3

      Still going 😮‍💨

    • @stefanieh.8808
      @stefanieh.8808 Před 3 měsíci +5

      Six years without realizing it, finally in therapie, feeling a lot better but still feeling it, though not as often. We are way more than you'd think.
      We have to block out societys expectations and don't give each other such a hard time. Being a parent is hard and we're often expected to do it alone. That's not healthy at all!

  • @vchar89
    @vchar89 Před 3 měsíci +409

    Her mom stepping up and getting her that first therapy appointment after noticing her behavior was different is huge. That kind of love and attention is just so important to someone experiencing PPD. An amazing parent and Kerilyn is too.

  • @sadiessupermommy
    @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +420

    Hey everybody, this is Kerilyn! 😊👋🏻
    I want to thank from the bottom of my heart not only to Chris and the SBSK team for their time with me during this interview but for anyone who’s chosen to hear my story. 🫶🏻 Last year when I was searching for this same topic on CZcams, Postpartum Depression was very far removed from social media and I hope this can touch another mama out there looking for someone who feels the same. I appreciate all the kind words of encouragement and support (I will try to be as responsive to as many as possible) more than you guys will ever know.
    I hope one day I’ll be able to show Sadie this video. She turns 2 this coming Monday and is continuing to flourish in every way; minus the terrible two’s striking us a bit early… (any toddler parents with tips for tantrums would be fantastic and always welcomed)! 😅
    Lastly, in case no one’s told you today… take a break because you deserve it, you’re doing a FANTASTIC job. ✨🫶🏻

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +7

      So nice of you to reply! This has certainly sparked a lot of conversations.
      Tantrums? hm. Only thing that worked for me was walking away. Staying and trying to talk them out of it is pointless. Even now, my young (7 and 9) grandkids will get into these horrible sulks. And they always seem to happen when I am trying to take family photos. I now say, "All you have to do is smile for the photo and then you can go back to sulking. "

    • @planetarygo11
      @planetarygo11 Před 2 měsíci +4

      Stay strong lady ure great

    • @rileybeeckler593
      @rileybeeckler593 Před 2 měsíci +10

      my sister passed away from PPD, so i am so grateful that you have shared your story🩷 i wish she could have seen someone like you and felt seen, isolation is the worst for PPD. you are doing a fantastic job being a mom and thank you for sharing your story!

    • @solangesandinoarana6093
      @solangesandinoarana6093 Před 2 měsíci +2

      Your video Is the best description of what I've felt and struggle during 7 months. Thanks for bringing up your PPD experience, it keeps me moving and feeling I'm not alone in this Situation.

    • @allofyoucomehome
      @allofyoucomehome Před 2 měsíci +4

      Kerilyn thank you for sharing your story. ❤ I’m going through this right now, and hearing your story and reading the comments means so much.

  • @catherinekellogg1771
    @catherinekellogg1771 Před 3 měsíci +234

    I have been there. I had postpartum after all three of my children's births. The first time was just like Kerilyn's. The third time I was put into a hospital for 9 days. It is a tough row to hoe, and Kerilyn you are doing well to be up and dressed. Give yourself a LOT of grace!

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +13

      I feel that. I ended up with Post-Partum Psychosis when my son was 5 mos old and was in the hospital.

    • @frillylily8005
      @frillylily8005 Před 3 měsíci +7

      ⁠@@shalacarter6658 If you don’t mind me asking? What is postpartum Psycosis like?

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci

      @@frillylily8005 It is basically Postpartum depression with psychosis. For me, it was rapid mood swings. Crying one minute, screaming the next. I felt like someone had hold of my ponytail and was jerking my head back and forth. Then, I started to hallucinate. I had auditory and visual hallucinations. That is when my therapist told me to go the hospital. I was there for a week.
      The psychiatrist there became my psychiatrist and I was later diagnosed with another mental disorder, because, basically, you will only be diagnosed with post-partum for a set amount of time; after which you should be tested for other disorders.
      Did that help?

    • @onetimearound1275
      @onetimearound1275 Před 2 měsíci

      @@frillylily8005If you do a search online you should be able to find information- Mayo Clinic & healthline on google should have some sound information- utube may have some personal accounts- good luck 👍

    • @NitroTime88
      @NitroTime88 Před 2 měsíci

      Lmao you f***ing with me? Y'all are the ones that SPREAD YOUR LEGS so deal with the CHOICE you made, no one forced you to have kids, maybe people should get evaluated mentally before having kids but that would require people to have common sense oops forgot everyone prefers to play the VICTIM instead because taking responsibility for one's actions is too hard.

  • @balaam_7087
    @balaam_7087 Před 3 měsíci +234

    This must be difficult. As a man, I wouldn’t presume to know the first thing about the experience of childbirth or any lingering negative emotions thereafter, but it can’t be easy.
    My first instinct is to hope you understand you’ve done no wrong and your feelings are at the same time valid, but this may not be the right approach either. I would just like to let you know that in this vile world full of wicked people, there are still plenty of us who would not dare judge you and would welcome you with open arms.
    If nothing else, the fact this video may very well help someone else in a beneficial way is a very positive thought to hold onto.

    • @MissTeaq
      @MissTeaq Před 3 měsíci +22

      This is a beautiful comment… Thank you for sharing and shining your light.
      💐🌸✌🏽🙏🏽✌🏽🌸💐

    • @Purpie_Slurpie
      @Purpie_Slurpie Před 3 měsíci +9

      beautifully said, thank you

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +39

      Hi… kerilyn here, I just wanted to say that this made me cry in the best way possible 🥹 thank you for even attempting to understand, it’s so much more meaningful than you’ll ever know!

    • @jessamonet2634
      @jessamonet2634 Před 3 měsíci +13

      Thank you for being understanding and empathetic to what women go through… I wish more men were like you.

    • @briannenurse4640
      @briannenurse4640 Před 3 měsíci +5

      I think reminding someone that their struggles aren't their fault and that their feelings are valid is always going to be at least a decent approach, if not the correct one.

  • @Grubnor
    @Grubnor Před 3 měsíci +157

    I try to always warn new dads to keep an eye out for this. The moms rarely recognize when they need help and the dads need to know this isn't something they have control over.

    • @vero9348
      @vero9348 Před 3 měsíci +9

      In my experience I've seen this in mom's who already experienced severe anxiety beforehand, would you say it can happen to women who did not experience that? Honest question

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci

      @@vero9348 I had a history of depression. But was not medicated for it. I had a great pregnancy. Happy as a lark.

    • @jaehee9519
      @jaehee9519 Před 3 měsíci

      Post partum depression can happen to anyone who gives birth regardless of a history of depression or not. ​@@vero9348

    • @batacumba
      @batacumba Před 3 měsíci

      @@vero9348absolutely because a lot of it is driven by hormones which go crazy during and after pregnancy. People with otherwise no mental health issues can experience this.

    • @ravenscarlettanis13
      @ravenscarlettanis13 Před 3 měsíci +4

      Dads can get post-natal depression, too. I know they can’t give birth, but some dads struggle with post-natal depression, too. I read an article about it once.

  • @datura087
    @datura087 Před 3 měsíci +241

    She reminds me of myself and I don't even have kids! You've got this momma!

    • @julievanderleest
      @julievanderleest Před 3 měsíci +9

      Same here. I’ve never had kids either. And I related to this in a lot of ways.

    • @aleeshanwnderlnd
      @aleeshanwnderlnd Před 3 měsíci +5

      I was going to say this too. I do have a niece and nephew and I always worry about them when I watch them do anything

    • @Majah1923
      @Majah1923 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Same here it makes me want to cry.

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +4

      This makes me SO happy, thank you for the kindness. 🥹🫶🏻

    • @CarterKey6
      @CarterKey6 Před 3 měsíci

      If you haven’t had children you absolutely cannot relate. It’s extremely unnatural to not bond with your child. Evolutionarily speaking if this is a natural condition we wouldn’t be here.

  • @cryptidian3530
    @cryptidian3530 Před 3 měsíci +150

    Sharing her story is a huge step. We're here for you, Kerilyn!

  • @angko-pe
    @angko-pe Před 3 měsíci +94

    It took me 2 years to get out of ppd. It was horrible. But I got there in the end.
    I'm so proud of you, Mama, for speaking up about the struggles of ppd.

  • @familyoffour247
    @familyoffour247 Před 3 měsíci +69

    My daughter is 15 months and I'm still struggling with postpartum depression. The driving comments hit me harder because we were tboned. I am always so anxious driving her or if our other child is in the car. Thank you for sharing your struggle with PPD/PPA. You are not alone. ❤

    • @mmgs1148
      @mmgs1148 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Hope u have the support that you need to keep going, i really feel for people with struggles like this, because i have seen too much judgment on the woman :c

    • @familyoffour247
      @familyoffour247 Před 3 měsíci +1

      @@mmgs1148 thank you for your kind words and thoughts! ❤️ There is really nothing like PPD/PPA. I wish everyone had as much support through it as possible!

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +1

      Same!
      We were hit by a drunk driver when my 2nd son was one mos old.

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +1

      I hope you consider a support group. Maybe your therapist can recommend some toyou.

    • @familyoffour247
      @familyoffour247 Před 3 měsíci

      @@shalacarter6658 thank you, that's actually a great idea. We just moved, I'll see what's available in our area. Thanks for your support!

  • @Crisk1467
    @Crisk1467 Před 3 měsíci +34

    My boy is 16 months I still struggle with this and have literally 0 support it’s so hard thanks for bringing light to this topic

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +4

      Have you been able to look in to any support groups? Ask your pediatrician. Or just google support groups in your area. Blessings!

    • @susangillette7317
      @susangillette7317 Před 3 měsíci +1

      All the best to you, I remember how hard it is

    • @angelsandoval9671
      @angelsandoval9671 Před 2 měsíci

      Why no midwife after baby was born

    • @Crisk1467
      @Crisk1467 Před 2 měsíci

      @@angelsandoval9671??

  • @user-od3be8ny4o
    @user-od3be8ny4o Před 3 měsíci +26

    I so wanted my son. So wanted him. I had the most awful PND. I honestly hated being a mum, probably for around two years. I was so depressed. So sleep deprived. So sad. He's seven now. My absolute world. Life now is so good. Anyone reading this who's in this awful place, I hope you come out of it soon xxxx much love

  • @lesyeuxsansvisage1157
    @lesyeuxsansvisage1157 Před 3 měsíci +85

    My Mum’s OBGYN said “Moms need breaks. Leave the baby with someone safe, and take a walk, or go for a drive. Just remember, it’s okay to need help. You’ve just gone through creating life, and it’s not easy, but we can find ways to help.” Apparently it was really uncommon for a doctor to do that in the 80’s, but considering my Mum did have PPD (diagnosed 20 years later), it helped her tremendously. That OBGYN saved her life, in a time before meds, when women were just tossed away.
    I mention this, because I know it can’t be easy. I just want this lovely lady to know she is amazing, and brave to talk about this. As silly as I may sound, I believe in her, and I know she’s got this, and you have a whole community supporting you 💖

    • @datastorage-tz8wd
      @datastorage-tz8wd Před 3 měsíci

      i read a study regarding that which said something different. that leaving a baby crying alone repeated times causes long term trauma.
      gonna link if i find it again.

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před 2 měsíci +4

      I had my children in the eighties, and was widely discussed, and almost expected, back then it was called the Baby Blues. No shame given whatsoever.

    • @NitroTime88
      @NitroTime88 Před 2 měsíci

      No they don't need a break! If they were bold enough to spread their legs and do the horizontal mambo then they're either parents or they're not but a true PARENT doesn't take breaks! That's a bunch of new age crap that the liberals brought over. If you need a break as a parent than you ain't a parent!

    • @00zarzu00
      @00zarzu00 Před 2 měsíci +1

      @datastorage-tz8wd true but it’s better to leave a baby crying for awhile then to abandon them forever, suffocate them, or shake them - even to death - which is unfortunately what sometimes happens with new parents (not just with ppd). you need to be able to ask for help is the number one thing, i think.

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před 2 měsíci

      @@datastorage-tz8wd, I was traumatized by the people that told me I must let my baby "cry it out" when they were young. I could not last. Why would anyone suggest such? Oh yeah, the world is upside down.

  • @Milaperadotti
    @Milaperadotti Před 3 měsíci +18

    She is so sweet. Her anxiety is so bad. I am the exact same way. Keep going to therapy ask for help when you need it. Take time for yourself! Remind yourself every day that you are a good mom.

  • @morganthuemmler4936
    @morganthuemmler4936 Před 3 měsíci +48

    Thank you for sharing your story 🩷 this is so brave and such a good way to show that moms experiencing post partum depression are STILL good mothers, they are still trying. I can't imagine how it feels for her and the guilt the experiences.

  • @aubreytietjen8100
    @aubreytietjen8100 Před 3 měsíci +33

    I had very similar symptoms with my children. I had debilitating anxiety and panic attacks. I spoke with my obgyn because it usually occurred during specific times of my hormonal cycle. I was able to get on an anxiety medication that relates to a woman's hormonal cycle. It has totally changed my life. I hope this helps someone 😊

    • @PurpleNoir
      @PurpleNoir Před 3 měsíci +1

      Glad you got help ❤ I’m happy for you

    • @stacieborchert8596
      @stacieborchert8596 Před 3 měsíci +9

      Do you mind sharing which med? I have the exact same issue, but no doc has ever helped.

    • @aubreytietjen8100
      @aubreytietjen8100 Před 3 měsíci

      ​@@stacieborchert8596citalopram

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před 2 měsíci +1

      What medicine might that be. My daughters have hormonal mood disorders and were treated with birth control pills. I sure hope you're not being given benzos or any of these other addictive anxiety meds. This is why I'm very curious. My 36 year old son has been destroyed by Klonopin. Thank God, my daughters were not given them.

    • @aubreytietjen8100
      @aubreytietjen8100 Před 2 měsíci

      @@edie4321 citalopram

  • @wowzatrishiebunz
    @wowzatrishiebunz Před 3 měsíci +11

    This condition has haunted me for years after surviving severe postpartum depression in 1996 & 1997. Thank you for sharing this.

  • @chazzyloveee
    @chazzyloveee Před 3 měsíci +24

    She is so much like my mum and I feel like I’d behave the same way if I had a kid because I already have depression and anxiety. I can imagine myself having the exact same anxious train of thoughts. You got this Mama!! You’re taking on a very strong battle ❤️

  • @tinavogel7966
    @tinavogel7966 Před 3 měsíci +25

    Being a parent is so hard especially without a support system. I relate so much with you!!! My kids are between the ages of 11-19 now and I still struggle. Hugs mama. Take it one day at a time. Ask for help. Keep telling your story ❤

  • @sonnybobsquarepants266
    @sonnybobsquarepants266 Před 3 měsíci +16

    Kerilyn, i have anxiety and depression ( not postpartum but depression). You are doing a terrific job, not just for your baby, but for yourself too. Sending love from New Zealand

  • @js8303
    @js8303 Před 3 měsíci +71

    Stay strong mama! We may be strangers, but I’m so proud of you❤

  • @MrZombay
    @MrZombay Před 3 měsíci +13

    She's a good artist! Hobbies are so important.

  • @evelynmariasaravia8888
    @evelynmariasaravia8888 Před 3 měsíci +8

    I suffered PPD with my first baby and had no idea. I remember telling my mom I felt so sad and didn’t know why and she just said to me “wow, you should feel grateful, not sad!” That made me feel worse 😢 The way she described it like a dark cloud, it’s exactly how it feels! Thank you for being so brave and you really are doing your best! 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻

  • @supereee7
    @supereee7 Před 3 měsíci +10

    I’m in the process of fighting postpartum psychosis. It’s been very difficult. I’m glad she was able to share her story to bring more awareness to postpartum mental health issues ❤❤

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +2

      Are you set up with a psychiatrist? Are you on meds? I had pp psychosis and it was horrible. I ended up on the psych ward after my violent mood swings and hallucinations. It was the best decision

    • @batacumba
      @batacumba Před 3 měsíci +1

      So sorry you are experiencing this. I hope you have the help and support you need.

  • @sf70388
    @sf70388 Před 3 měsíci +11

    Thank you so much for this video. I had postpartum depression that turned into postpartum psychosis and I relate so much to a lot of what she’s saying. It’s nice knowing I’m not alone!

  • @John_Fisher
    @John_Fisher Před 3 měsíci +18

    It's March now, so happy birthday to the little lady and congrats to Kerilyn! This milestone is another testament to you doing a great job in caring for your precious gift and learning to care for yourself so that you are able to care for both of you. Congrats to dad as well!

  • @marybailey8925
    @marybailey8925 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Oh honey you will get over this. You remind me of myself 31 years ago. I had PPD after both my girls. One is 31 now and the other is 29. Being in a support group helped me tremendously. Medication did too, but I know not everyone wants to take that route. You and your daughter have so many good times to look forward to. Having my girls is the best thing I ever did. Sending hugs to you and your little girl. ❤

  • @loribieniasz4258
    @loribieniasz4258 Před 3 měsíci +12

    Kerilyn thank you for being so brave! So many of us have struggled with PPD and we see and hear you! If you lived closer I would ask you to go to a park and take a walk with your wee one! You have made it 22 months. You have so many huge milestones to celebrate with your girl!! I wish you all the best and we are here if you ever want to chat! Feel the love and enjoy your little girl !

  • @dragonfly1745
    @dragonfly1745 Před 3 měsíci +36

    I think the first step is realizing you did have post partum depression and listening to your mom when she said you needed to see a therapist. You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for but seeing a therapist has obviously given you tools to work through the PD rather than burying it and ignoring how YOU feel. The fact that your daughter is 22 months old and thriving is proof that you ARE an amazing mother and doing the best you can despite having PD. I'm sure your little girl will be better as she grows because she has such a wonderful mother who obviously loves her and cares about her. Kids don't care what they look like or what they have, they care about who loves them and made them feel important and cared about and you have and are doing that for your sweet baby. She will look back on her childhood and KNOW her mother cared about her and loved her unconditionally. Thank you for sharing your story and letting others know they are not alone in this journey and it will get better. Keep doing what you're doing. YOU ARE AMAZING! 🥰

  • @vero9348
    @vero9348 Před 3 měsíci +8

    This is DEFINITELY not being talked about enough. Thanks.

  • @kittywafffles
    @kittywafffles Před 3 měsíci +7

    Thank you for sharing! Solidarity and empathy- postpartum depression has been so hard. I am struggling with OCD postpartum and sometimes it feels like I’m drowning, but it’s so worth it for my daughter. Being self aware and (trying to) use coping skills are the only things that keep me going a lot of the time, at least it can feel that way. We can do this, for ourselves and our babies 🩵🩵🩵

  • @Majah1923
    @Majah1923 Před 3 měsíci +6

    Me already having mental health issues. This makes me even more against having a child. I couldn’t imagine not being there like my child needs or how I want to be. You are doing great and you are strong. Keep being a great mom you got this!

  • @aaanycolour
    @aaanycolour Před 3 měsíci +7

    Thank you for highlighting Kerilyn and this diagnosis 🤍

  • @ryleemock1384
    @ryleemock1384 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. You’re doing great mama, there’s a warm light in you that radiates and I know loved ones around you see it and feel it.

  • @copcal
    @copcal Před 3 měsíci +2

    Praying for you to get the right friends and support, that's so tough. You're incredibly strong, and an amazing mom! Take it one day at a time. Thank you SBSK for your forever dedication to telling real life hard to talk about and honest stories. Bless you all!

  • @Am_Brew
    @Am_Brew Před 3 měsíci +9

    I love your artwork Kerilyn, your beautiful paintings reveal a lot about yourself and the type of person you are. Just keep doing your best Kerilyn that's all anyone can ask from you.

  • @hayleygebhart1764
    @hayleygebhart1764 Před 3 měsíci +1

    I had also went through postpartum both of my kids this was 27 years ago it wasn’t talked about then, you are helping a lot of moms for awareness that a lot of them feeling the same way as you ,they are expecting to be perfect they are also comparing to other mom’s . Keep sharing. ❤You are a very good artist. 😊

  • @zzzaaannnn
    @zzzaaannnn Před 3 měsíci +4

    she's a good mom, with a good heart, i'm sure her daughter love her so much, stay strong

  • @tylerjameson6769
    @tylerjameson6769 Před 3 měsíci

    This conversation was so beautiful and so necessary. As someone who experienced both postpartum depression and psychosis, this video means a lot to me. Kerilyn, you are a WARRIOR. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your strength and resilience and growth is inspiring 🥹💕

  • @enbybus3840
    @enbybus3840 Před 3 měsíci +8

    Thank you for sharing your story. We still need so much more awareness. My two closest friends watched me sink further into depression and then stopped talking to me entirely. I am 18 months post partum now, still struggling and still so sad about the friends I lost. Thank you.

    • @shalacarter6658
      @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +2

      Do you have a support group? Talk to your pediatrician and see if they can help.

    • @00zarzu00
      @00zarzu00 Před 2 měsíci

      at least you have a child. anyway those people were clearly not real or good friends.

    • @enbybus3840
      @enbybus3840 Před 2 měsíci

      @00zarzu00 I'm not sure what that's supposed to mean? I physically couldn't have PPD without having had a child.

  • @TITANESPIKERMAN2
    @TITANESPIKERMAN2 Před 2 měsíci

    Mad respect for your honesty and openness.

  • @dianegoldfarb5692
    @dianegoldfarb5692 Před 3 měsíci +3

    You have tremendous insight and love. One block on the tower at a time and eventually you reach the top!!! you're almost there.

  • @kathydelucia3892
    @kathydelucia3892 Před 3 měsíci +2

    Thank you for having this Mom on. People have no idea how difficult it is to live with this depression. Bless her heart.

  • @Cati.Colours
    @Cati.Colours Před 3 měsíci +5

    This is so insightful, thank you for sharing and being so brave!

  • @user-xi8xz2ov1d
    @user-xi8xz2ov1d Před 3 měsíci +1

    I’m proud of you keri, you’ve been taking big steps the last few months and I’m extremely happy for you. Congratulations on finally putting your story out there 🙏🏼🙏🏼it’s about time.

  • @EmEm872
    @EmEm872 Před 3 měsíci

    Chris, thankyou for talking with people who have such a wide range of diagnoses. ❤

  • @saraharmstrong8150
    @saraharmstrong8150 Před 3 měsíci +3

    Gosh, it's like you're telling my story! There is hope, things do get better. Loves and hugs ❤

  • @sadiautumn
    @sadiautumn Před 3 měsíci +4

    I've been feeling depressed in January because I had stress from school, my friends. I was diagnosed 1 year ago with ADHD and 2 years ago with OCD. When anyone says they're depressed or have anxiety or going through a hard time I have the need to comfort them.

  • @courtneyremarks1133
    @courtneyremarks1133 Před 3 měsíci +5

    I dealt with postpartum after my 9yo was born,it took me 3yrs to start getting better. It was the most happy/miserable time of my life. I couldn't get off the couch other than to care for my daughter's needs. My husband and I almost split up,he couldn't understand what I was going through. Which us ironic because we ended up splitting up because he has bps,npd,and schizophrenia all which he refuses to seek help for. It's taken many years of help,therapy,meds ect luckily when I had my 2yo i already had gotten my mental health under control.

  • @nat.in.nature
    @nat.in.nature Před 3 měsíci +7

    Love this. You are doing a great job!! ❤️And your paintings are absolutely magical! 🍄

  • @jamievackicev4905
    @jamievackicev4905 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Thank you for sharing your story. Feel you mama.

  • @xxaavviieerrrrr
    @xxaavviieerrrrr Před 3 měsíci +1

    i really hope she gets well and stays healthy and has people continuing to support her

  • @geraldbuttinger491
    @geraldbuttinger491 Před 2 měsíci +1

    What a nice, talented and awesome person! I'm sure, she will make a great mum. Her daughter is lucky to have her.

  • @LaMaca02
    @LaMaca02 Před 3 měsíci +9

    You are admirable and strong. Your daughter is lucky to have you :)

  • @13kisska
    @13kisska Před 3 měsíci +6

    Thanks for sharing your story! I know so many moms who had PD, including myself 💙

  • @stacylynn1821
    @stacylynn1821 Před 3 měsíci +1

    Kerilyn, just wanted to let you know that you’re doing a great job. And I absolutely love your paintings,they are amazing! I’m sending lots of love your way 💖

  • @LaPetitePunk
    @LaPetitePunk Před 3 měsíci +2

    Well, this is timely! I just left my house yesterday to go spend some time at my mom's house. 5 months postpartum with my 2nd and i saw a lot of warning signs for PPD, which I had with my first. I knew I had to act fast before barreling down a very dark path. Lots of love to you Kerilyn, you are not alone.

  • @mica1k
    @mica1k Před 3 měsíci +4

    women are truly amazing. what they go through in pregnancy and after pregnancy is beautiful to watch, yet they struggle so much after giving birth. ❤ thank you to all women in the world

  • @jummett
    @jummett Před 3 měsíci +1

    I hope you see all the comments and realise how relatable your experiences are.
    I hope you are able to feel less alone sometime soon.
    I know you are exactly the mom your daughter needs.
    Thank you for being brave enough to share and...thank you to Chris, as always!

  • @tonyaboggs5367
    @tonyaboggs5367 Před 3 měsíci +6

    You are amazing you are a mother you did so much for your child in your body is going through so much even after giving birth. Keep pulling through your super strong. I had my son and did not even know what postpartum depression was I just cried every day for about a month it sucks so bad I wish I knew I can at least reach out and get some kind of help but I did not know but I'm okay now. That was 23 years ago but I was okay months after

  • @kimberlytownsendpalmer8219

    I experienced something very much the same. It will get better. You are a great human being & and devoted mother. Your child is lucky to have you.

  • @blackclouds909
    @blackclouds909 Před 3 měsíci +11

    So proud of you!! The judgement we get if we talk about it is just wrong. You did so well! 💜💜💜

  • @just_peace
    @just_peace Před 2 měsíci

    Whenever I hear the interviewed people mention that they love to draw or paint it makes me so happy. I'm so glad drawing is so accessible nowadays, it's such a great hobby for so many types of people that don't want to or can't socialize very well (at the moment), and you can express yourself with it. Great drawings! She's a great person, glad she's keeping in mind her kid's future mental health/attachment style in mind while making decisions. The girl's grandmother is so wise for advising Kerilyn to get therapy. Hope she grows up a happy person with a happy mom, you guys deserve the best.

  • @Neonrena
    @Neonrena Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you so much for bringing attention to this. My mother was diagnosed with this when I was born and it took her years to get properly treated.

  • @youngneil6456
    @youngneil6456 Před 2 měsíci

    Wow I appreciate you talking about this on your channel!

  • @SaywhatIwant2
    @SaywhatIwant2 Před měsícem +1

    My mom had this. Im glad she's with me today.

  • @Mother_daughter_adventures
    @Mother_daughter_adventures Před 3 měsíci +1

    I’m not a parent but it seems like the concerns that she has go through her mind are completely valid. I’m so glad you have such a great support system!

  • @genealogygeek6973
    @genealogygeek6973 Před 3 měsíci +4

    I had severe ppd for about 6 months. It was brutal. Thanks for sharing your story.

  • @stephenieolson8535
    @stephenieolson8535 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Very lovely, thank you for sharing your truth

  • @kkallthewayyrigs6574
    @kkallthewayyrigs6574 Před 7 dny +1

    My mom had ppd after my first sister was born. She lashed out at me a lot, I’m still healing from the trauma. I wish it was more well known in the early 00’s and wished she went to a hospital and spared us all from the trauma 😢 She did apologize.. when I was 23

  • @shalacarter6658
    @shalacarter6658 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Oh, Kerilyn!
    You are just like I was!
    My pregnancy was all I could have asked for. And if I thought about post-partum depression, I thought it would last no more than 2 weeks. But, I didn't get it until he was around 2 months old. And because I am an over-achiever, by 5/6 mos old, I had developed Post-Partum Psychosis.
    I wish all mothers who have questions and concerns about breast-feeding would contact a local support nurse. Ask at your pediatrician, your therapists or the hospital. Our pediatrician was a breast-feeding consultant, which was so helpful.
    I am 58 and still have moments of depression because I had to stop breast-feeding my elder child at 6 mos and could not do it at all for my 2nd child,.
    Blessings!

  • @BbyShrk
    @BbyShrk Před 2 měsíci

    This definitely made me cry as I went through the same after the birth of my son. Hugs mama , you are doing an amazing job 🫶🏽

  • @abdullahak2204
    @abdullahak2204 Před 3 měsíci +5

    Thanks for sharing!

  • @andreafahnestock9349
    @andreafahnestock9349 Před 2 měsíci

    Kerilyn- you are so awesome and I just know YOUR mom is so proud of you too. It sounds like you are a wonderful mom to your little one. 💕

  • @beccafranklin6683
    @beccafranklin6683 Před 2 měsíci

    Hearing you talk about this brought me right back to when my son was born. Having a baby is so intense, I remember being emotionally all over the place, constantly worrying and judging myself for worrying. The level of responsibility is completely crushing and I think it’s completely impossible to know what it will feel like before the baby comes along.
    Well done for talking about this, it’s so common but I don’t think we are often very open about it.
    For me it has got better, we have recently had a bad period of time where he had a bad accident and the anxiety really came back. But know he’s better I’m just struggling to relax and know he’s not going to get hurt again.
    I think your right, it really is life long worry ❤❤

  • @maryrenee18w
    @maryrenee18w Před 3 měsíci +2

    I know how you feel. You are not alone at all. Sending hugs from one mama to another 💓

  • @lannah080907
    @lannah080907 Před 3 měsíci +11

    ❤❤❤ No doubt you just made ALOT of new friends and part of our group!! ❤❤❤

  • @bingewatchforever1587
    @bingewatchforever1587 Před 3 měsíci

    Thank you very much for sharing.
    I know depression and anxiety myself, but putting a newborn into the mix must take it to a whole other level ...

  • @alyssamatos2387
    @alyssamatos2387 Před 2 měsíci

    PPD and PPA was the most debilitating thing I have ever been through. The insane trauma from it triggered bipolar in me. I'm so happy this is finally a topic on here and the conversation can keep going! She is amazing for sharing her story ❤. For those going through this now, you are not alone and absolutely can survive this!

  • @lindapirruccio8210
    @lindapirruccio8210 Před 3 měsíci

    I deeply feel for her. I've been there 4 times. God bless her gentle heart.❤

  • @lovins88
    @lovins88 Před 3 měsíci +53

    Thank you for sharing your story. My daughter was born with a cleft palate. I never wanted to give her formula or bottle feed. The depression I had right after her birth was unreal! Here is a link to my story.
    czcams.com/video/ONS8yCDRYX0/video.htmlsi=yHIC2jfDP-7R0lSc

    • @darak4187
      @darak4187 Před 3 měsíci +2

      My son was born with a cleft lip and palate. I get what you are saying. Luckily, I was able to pump for him. My kids after him I was able to nurse and it was so much easier than pumping. My cleft baby is now 18 and in college! Time goes by so fast…

    • @sadiessupermommy
      @sadiessupermommy Před 3 měsíci +1

      I’m so happy you guys made it through together!! 🥹 thank you for your story and so happy mine touched you, too!!!

  • @jjeennnnnn
    @jjeennnnnn Před 3 měsíci +13

    I've always felt invisible 😢. It's a terribly lonely way to live. I also had ppd. Big hugs momma.

  • @noeliarocio4367
    @noeliarocio4367 Před měsícem

    She seems very sweet and a good, caring mom. I really wish her the best ❤

  • @mistyduke6373
    @mistyduke6373 Před 3 měsíci +6

    You are a great painter, Kerilyn. Keep it up!

  • @oliviaberthiaume9881
    @oliviaberthiaume9881 Před 3 měsíci

    Such a good and important video. So grateful for you both ❤️

  • @julievanderleest
    @julievanderleest Před 3 měsíci +12

    Wow, so much of what Kerilyn described about how she was feeling, I relate to. I’m not postpartum but the feeling of being invisible and unnoticed in a certain crowd, I have felt that too. Struggling with getting through day to day life. Hugs to you Kerilyn. You’re not alone. Praying for you.❤❤

  • @lindahamilton800
    @lindahamilton800 Před 3 měsíci

    It takes awhile - like a few years - to adjust to that new level of awareness. You're getting better at it every day. It took me a long time to figure out that for a lot of new mothers PPD starts out as anxiety over the 50,000 new and different ways for your baby to die. I didn't have full-blown depression (just through dumb luck), but the anxiety lasted for eons. My girl is 23 now, and I still worry - just not all the time. It does get better. You are a Great Mom, and your daughter is wonderful, and gonna grow up wonderful, too.
    ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @yairakatz8688
    @yairakatz8688 Před 2 měsíci

    Thank you for sharing! SO important to talk about.

  • @evelynsimonmendoza8805
    @evelynsimonmendoza8805 Před 2 měsíci

    You're so brave for sharing.

  • @MayaMaia311
    @MayaMaia311 Před 3 měsíci +2

    This topic is extremely important to spread awareness. People live more and more individually, with lack of emotional support and informations and comfort from more experienced. I feel so bad that somany women have to go through this stage alone. I also experienced postpartum depression 12 years ago, i just realized that this was it years later. I made it through with looooots of books about mental health, some therapy and programs that help to explore the origin of your anxiety and depression. It took a lot of work and it did not come over night, bu my message to all you is : it does not have to take forever! If you set your mind to change your thoughts and mind, you can make it! I send you good thoughts and support ❤

  • @elizab3770
    @elizab3770 Před 3 měsíci +2

    thank you both for sharing that artwork, i love it!!

  • @welivetoshine
    @welivetoshine Před 3 měsíci

    Thank you for doing this one, Chris. It's not talked about enough. My son is 4 now and I'm still not the same after giving birth. It's awful.

  • @Sinja62
    @Sinja62 Před 2 měsíci

    I had PPD after my youngest was born. He’s 22 now. I felt overwhelmed and was teary. It would strike at any time. I developed anxiety. I made it through it, likely due to support of nurse visits. He is #4, and has 3 older sisters. I take meds for anxiety/depression now. Not all meds I took worked well. It took time to find the right fit. Mothers’ have a big responsibility! Accept help when you can! It makes a difference. Sending 🙏.

  • @celia27668
    @celia27668 Před 2 měsíci +2

    Sending my best to her 💟

  • @Flashdenam
    @Flashdenam Před 3 měsíci

    You’re not alone. When my daughter was born, I was constantly washing my hands to the point of them cracking and bleeding. I was so paranoid of SIDS. I constantly checked on her breathing while she was sleeping. The anxiety is so real. My daughter is now a teen and my anxiety has gotten better, but there will always be worries. Our children are our everything. Sending lots of love, mama! You’re doing a great job with her!

  • @berufsberater5381
    @berufsberater5381 Před 3 měsíci

    Thank you for this Interview. It reminds me to the time, when our first son was born. I felt the same.

  • @sarahleubner6425
    @sarahleubner6425 Před 3 měsíci

    I feel for her so deeply, I had PPD/A as well & it was relentless. I ended up going to therapy & eventually starting an anti-depressant & even that terrified me for a good while before it began to work a couple months in..my little guy is 6 now & it all just seems like a bad dream way back in the past, so PLEASE don't give up hope if you're going through this. It's not your fault & it will get better.

  • @sarahmonteiro5418
    @sarahmonteiro5418 Před 2 měsíci

    Been going through this for 6 months on and off. It's hard especially without of help of family or therapy. Hoping it clears up but it's a work in progress.. some days are good others are a struggle. Wishing anyone going through it a warm hug and we will get through it together. ❤

  • @briannaguenkel7751
    @briannaguenkel7751 Před 3 měsíci

    Wow, every time I watch his videos the one he so genuinely wants to connect with every person he meets is the type of person I wanna be