I totally get you. I'm 8 months off Valium and still getting waves. It has definitely gotten better, but the waves can still be really bad. Panic attacks, bad heart palps, not being able to tolerate light or sound and after a couple of days it goes away again. It's torture for sure, but we just have to keep going. Glad you're having windows, we will get there ❤
yaa!So glad you're starting to get better! The longer off you get the better it gets. Great job fighting this!Screw what anyone else thinks. If they get lucky to not get this severe withdrawal,they'll never understand just how horrific it is
Benzo healing is not linear. I can not stress how important is it that when you come off a benzo you should NEVER touch another benzo ever again due to kindling. PLEASE make sure everyone stays off alcohol because it binds to the same GabaA receptor as a benzo. You will heal in time.My advice is to eat healthy, work out and accept the symptoms.
I've been wondering how you've been feeling. I've been following you since the beginning. I'm glad your doing a little bit better. I'm only 2 months ahead of you and still symptomatic but getting better everyday. We need to stay strong and continue to help our fellow warriors who are still in acute and so very lost in life. Your a good person and deserve all the blessings life has to give you!
ya i know lots of people around this time off, 7-12 months. all of them still having symptoms. but it seams around the year mark people start to make a turn for the better. so i'm very hopeful for that
man, it's something else to actually hear someone else say something about having thoughts questioning the universe and just really crazy intense thoughts as well as having no idea that we could even feel so many sensations. Hope you're doing well. I've been dealing with this monster for about 15 yrs. I'm 36 now.
5trezip23 wow, in withdrawal for 15 years . or just taking the drug. And yea man those thoughts are insane, I think it's related to the anxiety maybe though.
Holy smokes mate you sound so much better in this video. I am really happy for you and you should be very proud of what you have done mate, because its tough I know. I wish you all the best as you continue to kick this drug out of your system. You have come a long way from those darker days I must say, and I am very glad for you. Hope to see a 1 year video free post soon...................say YES I DID IT!!!!! great stuff sixlow cheers mate.
i cold turkeyed from xanax binge taking it in high doses over the course of two months and it has been nothing short of hell. i'm really glad you post these updated videos, it sort of gives me an ease on things and i'm glad to hear from the perspective of somebody who understands because all of my friends and family seem to think this is all in my head, or that it could be another health condition instead of benzo withdrawal. i was drinking alcohol which made me feel better after i stopped taking xanax only to realize that it made my symptoms worse when the alcohol wore off. i thought i was healed due to the fact i was drinking which temporarily made me feel better until i sobered up because alcohol (just like benzos) binds to the GABA A receptors. hopefully i one day will recover too but i highly reccomend avoiding alcohol during benzo withdrawal especially if you cold turkey. thank you sixslow for the advice given. glad to hear you're feeling a bit better since the beginning of this nightmare. i commend you and wish you luck in the rest of your healing and the same goes to anybody else who is currently dealing with this nightmare such as myself.
ya man i wish someone would've told me to avoid alcohol for a long time. i wouldn't be in this mess. i really need to reiterate that in every video i make just so people know. alcohol is just like taking a benzo, will only make you worse and prolong your healing. i'm glad you realized it was making you worse and stopped before it got too bad. hang in there bud, i know it's rough.
Thank u for making these videos I was up to over 50 mg of xanax a day I almost lost my life I have been clean since July and still in withdraw I love ur videos because it’s very accurate and u give me hope
Hey its Aaron from reddit. Just wanted to post on here that I'm so happy things are improving for you even if it's just a little bit. Glad you're having some windows of relief. Keep going, it's really inspirational seeing how far you have come.
Appreciate it man, i still have days, like last night, where i wake up at 4am and i'm confused, scared, think i'm dying. This shit plays with your mind in so many ways, i still do hope I get back to normal and am able to enjoy life.
Sixslow! It so nice to see you, I know you still having some withdrawal but you are going to get better little by little but you are a fighter by the Grace of God and you will fight to you will said iam so, so much better I pray to God that he will keep giving you the Strength you need to fight this. God Bless you.
Hey. You're looking so much better. I'm in month 10. I'm still riding those waves. the pain gets heavy certain days. Yesterday and today was pretty bad. Most my symptoms are gone, but there is that deep brain/nerve/bone ache that doesn't want to go away. It makes me feel extremely agoraphobic. I do hate having the windows and then getting thrown back into shit so easily. I don't know what to do. I've even considered energy healing with a reiki practitioner. I hope for the best for both of us.
man, keep up, im 1 month off and did not cold turkey, but im in the same situation. Now I feel like its getting worse every day. I hope you will get better soon.
I felt like that for months, I kept thinking, wtf...why am i getting worse not better. I literally felt even up til 6 months off, kept thinking i was getting worse. It's crazy the tricks this shit plays on your mind.
glad ur getting better even if its slowly..keep making these video's cause it does help people, u have helped me more then u could know., just seeing that u are getting a little better even if its slowly, helps to know it wont last forever..stay strong and all the haters can fuck off...Thank you for what u are doing...
appreciate that man, really. this shit is the hardest thing i've ever done in my life, every day i think about killing myself. but knowing i am helping other people helps me push on.
Antwon Smith stay strong bro...it gets better with time...sixlow is proof of that....when u have thoughts like that find someone to talk to that understands..
you're not stupid :-( you're a warrior. ppl have no idea what it's like to enter the world of hell ,they say to see a psychiatrist because they have no idea what it's like ,these are real feelings and real symptoms that we deal with ,we don't need to cover it we need to fix it ,doctors know exactly what drugs do but avoid and pretend they don't ,believe it or not even antibiotics cause this ,I know it sounds crazy to those who don't have it believe me you're blessed ,I was there once too
Hey dude . Glad to see you again. Was wondering how you were. I'm 4 months and 18 days out. Just sort of coming out of a bad wave as I'm typing this. What you are saying is so true. When you are in a window you feel yeah this is not so bad until that wave hits then you forget all about how good it felt and you wonder if you will ever come right. Fkn sucks man... but we are healing! I saw you since the beginning and I myself was there too... felt like I was going crazy ... these days I just need to work on accepting waves when they come... doesn't always play out that way... keep going man.. this is also the hardest few months of my life... I want to jump off the balcony many times (15 floors up) but I know that is not the answer... this too shall pass... see you in a month... (yes people do not cold Turkey! We both know the hell that ensues after that...) ps screw the wannabe drs and assholes who post negative things. They are naive . It's easy to say those kind of things if you've obviously never experienced it... they don't matter..
yup! it's so hard to accept the waves, i still struggle with it. and yes, i've often thought about suicide, thankfully i never did it no matter how bad things were. thanks bud, hang in there, we got this.!
I'm at the seventh Month out Cold turkey 🦃3 mgs of Xanax a day and I like you are going through the exact same thing but my gut is bad and I think that your video is refreshing
awesome man. been going through each video, currently experiencing the same thing but with klonopin. At what point did the brain fog seem to fade if at all? thanks in advanced, you're an inspiration
I’m not crazy, I’m not stupid, it’s Benzo withdrawal. So well said, it is terrifying to go through and no one understands which makes it worse. I’ve been tapering almost 16 months and I’m almost off of klonopin. It’s been a terrifying and painful journey so far. I hope it get better soon. I want to thank You for posting all of these videos of your experiences because it helps me feel that I’m not going crazy through this ordeal. ☺️
Oh wow! You look great sixlow!! Good to finally see an update. Did you try to do a live stream the other day? I thought I saw that but it was removed... It's been almost 6 months for me. I was on klonapin 5 mg per day for almost 17 years. Did a very fast taper. It took me a few months to feel somewhat normal. The physical shit wasn't as bad as what I'd expected but the mental was worse. My withdrawals weren't near as bad as most people I've talked to but they were still intense. (I still feel like I'm one of the lucky ones). Some of the stuff is still lingering. I went through this crazy state of feeling like things were just very strange. Nothing seemed "normal". Even the act of eating seemed very unusual. I experienced (still experiencing) ego death or existential crisis. I have very bad anxiety and have a hard time being around & talking to people. This is what bothers me the most. I want to be back to "myself" but I wasn't myself either before benzos, if that makes sense. I get very uncomfortable and feel out of sorts around people. I found that working at a very busy job helps right now cause it kinda takes my mind off all the bs. This is just some of what I've experienced. It's amazing how many people you thought were your "friends" will split when they realize how bad off you are. This drug is the worst poison man has made imo. Good luck to everyone.
can I ask if it was 0.5mg of clonazepam or 5 mg. I take 0.5mg 5 times a day = 2.5mg daily. I am beginning my taper now. It took me two years to get off Effexor from 300mg to zero. I've been off since Christmas. I'm scared but know I have to do this. I need to speak with my pharmacist about the half-life and perhaps he can guide me on a proper taper. I will not tell my doctor yet because he will only reduce the prescription and make things far worse. I kept the Effexor taper secret until I was down to 150mg then I felt I could safely tell him.
Alys N1dr It was 1mg. So I was taking 5 1mg per day. The half life is very long. One of the longest of benzos, in fact. I think you are right not telling your dr about it yet. As long as you are doing fine tapering on your own there is NO need to tell him yet. I tapered wayyy too fast. I still don't feel quite back to normal yet and it has been six or seven months now. I have my doubts sometimes on whether I should start taking them again or not. I do not feel like myself. I don't sleep well anymore and I have a hard time socializing with people. I feel awkward around people most of the time and wonder if I will ever go back to normal. I have been taking these medications since I was 16 years old and I am now 37. I wonder if quality of life would just be better if I were on them again. I don't want to sound like I am giving up but I honestly have to look at quality of life when it comes down to it. I just feel like it has been so long and I am still not the same. I have terrible social anxiety and I am sure it is only worse because of the medication. I wonder sometimes if I would just be better off with them. I go back-and-forth on it on a daily basis. please don't think I am trying to scare you. I definitely think you are doing the right thing. This is just how I'm feeling about my situation. Good luck to you and if you have anymore questions feel free to ask. I had no one to talk to when I was going through this. It's nice to have someone that knows what you're going through to talk to. 😊
thanks for the response. you have to do what you need to. I am wondering if I should go back on a tiny dose of SSRI but get rid of the clonazepam only. But the fact is these meds. changed me physiologically and mentally. I'm in the age range that if I don't at least try I'll lose what I have left of me. I was never afraid to leave the apartment. I didn't always pace like a caged animal. I used to cook, I used to enjoy movies and music, now? They just make me anxious. I want to be a woman in her 50s, I know I'll never be the person who I was at 16, or 24, or 35, or 42. The older I get the shittier my body gets naturally, I don't want to wait too long before my body can't heal. right now, having just woke up, I'm in a tingle, anxiety mode. I plan (please god) to go the pharmacist today so he can explain fully about the half life of tabs, and have him recommend a taper that will work for me. Just have to ease into the morning, take a shower, get dressed and go, after I eat a bit of breakfast. I hope to reach out to this community, if I am able. It will probably be in panic mode, but, thank God for all of you. Be well. Good luck. And remember do what you have to do for you. No one is judging, this is your life, your journey. BTW - you and I are in the same time frame of taking these meds. I started when I was about 25 with Prozac, stayed on that for a few years, then took a break as I was functioning, then went back. It wasn't until 2004 that I was introduced to a large dose of both Effexor and clonazepam. So yeah, we've been on these meds/drugs far too long.
I already spoke with her and she at first said I had to speak with my doctor, then I asked her to look up my history from about 2 years ago and how every two weeks I switched from Ativan to Clonazepam and back, how this particular doctor was not on board. I only asked what she felt comfortable explaining which was the half life, and when I reached a steady state etc., She advised me (which I hadn't been doing) to take my tabs on a schedule, same time each day so that I don't have holes where the panic will come in. I thought I could taper as if I were quitting smoking, put off the first cigarette of the day and then put off the next and so on. She said NO. Maintain a scheduled dose, wait 6 weeks at least to reduce. I kept my Effexor taper secret until I was down to 150mg, then I told my doctor. He was okay prescribing me lower doses, but on my schedule. I think bc the horror of 2 summers ago, me in his office every two weeks freaking out he will not interfere unless and until I ask. Also, I believe he gained respect for me as it's been since Christmas with no Effexor. Still scared, but I am going to try to do this properly, I realized that if it took 2 years to get off of Effexor, so I figure, another two years perhaps less of getting off the clonazepam will not kill me. I have to be patient, and I believe my doctor will support the slow taper but, I'm still not ready to tell him. Thank you for the contact details. I know what is in store for me, I hope I will have the strength to reach out. I am so grateful to this community you have no idea. I remain as I said scared, but hopeful. Alyssa
And 1 thing I forgot to say. CONGRATS YOU! Like so many of the people in this community are saying, it will get better. YOU HAVE BEEN FREE 7 MONTHS, from what we are both learning, we may never be 100% but heck I'll take, hmmm... 85%? That would be okay. If I could push through the anxiety if it gets to just plain old nerves and I just have to psyche myself out the door to the job I hope I will someday be able to get? Then yeah, that'll do. Oh, and I'd love to either get back some old interests I had and maybe get interested in some new stuff. Be as well as you can, this being said from a person who hasn't hit the hard parts yet, ughhh.
Hang in there buddy and stay with it - like you need anyone to tell you that! Glad you plan to keep doing the videos. Every time I see a new one, it strengthens my resolve to continue tapering (I'm starting my 6th month). Sometimes I have a moment of craziness when I just get sick of chopping pills smaller and smaller and they crumble or parts shoot off and I lose them. Makes me want to say fuck it and just stop. But I know I can't ct, your videos have drilled that into my mind. It seems like every video I catch something that I missed before. Last time it was how you'd gotten down to about 117 pounds once. This time, it's that you still can't even drink a beer? Did I get that right? Do you mean just while we're tapering, or still feeling symptoms, or that we have to quit forever because it may trigger symptoms again? Good to hear you can ignore the jerks who try to blame you. I see a regular Doc and a therapist, but I'm keeping them in the dark about my taper. I'm afraid if I tell them, one will decide to stop my prescription before I complete taper.
yea man, dont CT, stick with the taper. it took me 2 years to taper my first time. i would just grind it to powder and get a scale and weigh it if i was you, that way it's super accurate too. and yea, i did get down to 117. at my worst i was down to 110 a few years back. obviously super skinny for a 5'10 male. and yes i can not drink beer/alcohol, you shouldn't either. drinking alcohol is what threw me back into withdrawal, it's basically the same thing as taking a benzo pill again. you gotta be careful, even avoid tinctures cause they have alcohol. and yea, most doctors don't understand so i'd also be weary about telling them about your taper. if you're doing good alone then just keep on going man, dont give up. it can be 10000x worse if you cold turkey.
You sound very calm and you voice seems much more relax compared to your early videos. It is great to see the long term results of someone making it through the withdrawls as I am just starting myself. To know it could take a year just for my brain to repair itself really scares me. I just hope I will be in an amazing place in a year. Thanks for keeping up these videos.
killersolo5 not everyone takes a year or more. It varies a lot. Remember this is my third time in withdrawal and I cold turkeyed. And I was drinking . So I messed up bad. Either way, you will get there man. It's rough , but ride it out. Don't fall.back on the drug
Hoping you still check the comments here...I am 2.5 months off benzos and really suffering a lot :( I saw on one of your videos that you had white spots in your throat and I have that now too. Did you ever find the cause for it? Having major health anxiety and this is really worrying me. Congrats on your healing and I hope you are doing well!
I never found out what the white spots were, I wen't to the doctor and had a test for strep throat, it was negative. The doctor said it was probably just white blood cells fighting a cold or something. It eventually went away after a week or 2 and it hasn't come back since. It gets easier, it will take a while though!
So glad you are feeling better! I am right behind you at 6 months. I took 1.0mg Klonopin for 15 years. :-(. My symptoms are mainly mental: intrusive thoughts, paranoia, fearful, sensitive to sound and stressful situations. I forced myself to work starting from the first day of withdrawal. I really don't know how I did. It has been so tough. I have a desk job and sit right in the front where there's a lot of foot traffic. I wanted to ask u if u ever get startled by people at work? Do your symptoms increase when talking to people? I have been struggling talking to people without feeling so tense and also when people look at me...
haha, it's funny you say that, yes, i do get startled by people at work. ALL the time, i work at a desk to, people will come up to ask me a question and it makes me jump. I'm very sensitive to sounds/lights. i have to wear glasses inside sometimes because the light is too much. and yes, my symptoms get worse if i'm talking too much, i will have to go lay down in a dark room or go be by myself until i calm down. it's very weird, hard to cope with. but i'm sure you know, you gotta work. at least it helps pass the time
Thanks for the response! Wow I thought I was the only one. I've always had some type of social anxiety when I was much younger but nothing like this. I even experience symptoms when talking to my family. These symptoms are so insane. Hope it dies down. Just got to ride it through and keep going. Keep fighting the fight! We're all here supporting you!
thank u u have helped me a lot the symptoms u are xperiencing are moreover similar to mine the panic attack i too couldn't feel my limbs and my chest area sometimes i also couldn't feel my body like i used to u have clearly explained the withdrawal journey of yours soon u will be 100% symtom free.....how is your head pressure??hw is appetite and libido?? how is ur panic attack now compared to before taking pills??
my head pressure is still pretty bad, especially right now cause i have allergies. my appetite comes and goes, today i've barely eaten cause i have lots of stomach pain, and my libido comes and goes as well, i'll go a week with no libido, then another week where it's extremely high. my panic attacks now are way worse compared to before, but my panic attacks before were caused by drinking alcohol. i never had panic attacks before that. either alcohol or anxiety pills caused it for me.
Just wondering how your doing I'm experiencing the same things your experiencing the weird sensations in my legs arms the head pains the my anxiety through the roof it's all crazy and weird I try to ignore it it's worse when I'm outside but if I'm home a little more relaxed I'm coming off ativan cold turkey short term yes and your not alone in this ive been to drs they think I'm crazy my fiancé thinks I'm crazy but I had to show him your video to make him believe me but I think it's nerve damage from the benzos never will I ever again I have had multiple suicide attempts it's horrible stuff
Thank you for your video. Looking for info. Just of prescription xanax 0.25mg 2 weeks and looking for info on how long these horrible PAWS are going to really last.
My OCD and intrusive thoughts are out of this world. I will playing video games games and a million thoughts will be racing through my mind, and I'll still be playing well, lol.Watching tv is extremely difficult my mind will get fixated on a random object in my room and now I'm trying to concentrate on what I'm watching at the random shit my and gets stuck on, Its hard for me to have a conversation, because my mind won't slow down and shut the fuck up to let me even process words people are saying to me.
yea my mind is always on, and thinking about some f'd up stuff like how i'm gonna die, it never stops. it's intrusive thoughts, a very common symptom. it'll go away in time. mine is slowly getting better. i can usually focus on a game or a movie now and forget i'm in withdrawal for a bit.
The Weird feeling that you can't feel your body...yep I've had that happen to me once, it was like I lost my strength n body turned to jelly, was really a horrible feeling , it only lasted a few minutes for me...
sixslow remember that panic attacks are not dangerous, it just feels like your gonna die or have a heart attack, but your young and your heart can take the rapid pumping for hours... when I got the panic attacks I was scared that my heart would give out or that It would cause damage to it, but no I looked it up in medical journals and no it's not harmful, after knowing this when I had them I didn't do anything, just sit n play on my iPad, yep just ignored them n told myself it's just the benzos withdraw, although it was not easy to do in the beginning
luckily my heart doesn't race, i just feel like i can't breathe, or i'm gonna die or blackout, i can't feel my body or limbs, it's horrible. but yes, i just have to remember it can't hurt me, no matter how scary it is. thank you
sixslow yeah I still get the can't breathe feeling, it's funny cuz you actually are breathing fine just feels like you can't, this whole thing is a big mind fuck, I don't even care anymore, my heart rate drops real low at night and feels like it's gonna stop n I just can't worry anymore, it's like if I haven't died in this past year of these symptoms then I probably won't... so no need to stress yourself out
It comes and goes, but ya it has gotten a bit better. There are tons of gaba receptors in the stomach so it gets messed up pretty bad. Try an eat fairly clean and take a good probiotic has helped me a lil bit.
Im 5 months in a 10mg a day cold turkey withdrawal and I still feel like im dieing... horrible symptoms. Can barely take a walk with my kids and get through the whole walk.
God brother, nothing works BUT Ginkgo Cycles. I wanted to die for 8 months until I found the Ginkgo thread on Benzo Buddies. The fear keeps you from trying anything but after trying everything I totally lost hope and Ginkgo was my last ditch effort and IT WORKED!!
I spent thousands of dollars on supplements, try 5 mg twice a day for a week and you won't regret it. The first few days your symptoms will increase a lot but just push through and thank me later!
@@Snide01 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take benzos only 15 days then quit no taper still feel dp. dr 445 days sober now when it get better 8 hour broken sleep daily
Hey man this is SpawnLurker if you remember me from a couple months back. So I'm like 2 and half months off of .5 mg Klonopin and I can't believe I've made it this far.. Right now I'm off of ALL MEDS but I personally think that I'm withdrawaling from Klonopin. For the longest time eveyrthing looked very 2demensional on the klonopin and very flat and boring. To say the least it really fucked me up good. No joke. So I've had a traumatic and very painful experience like us all benzo withdrawalers and I just wanted to also say that now everything looks 3 dimensional but also looks very fake and plastic at the same time. Is this part of benzo withdrawal? As well as I havent experienced this unitl the benzo withdrawal. Also like up my neck and into the top of my skull my head sort of tingles and burns. Almost positive this is benzo withdrawal and I'm almost done. Please anyone thats been on Klonopin tell me what you experienced. Also you too Sixslow. It would be m,uch appreciated if you can respond ASAP. I've been through hell on these things as I'm a very sensitive person. Also my body all over feels very weak and fucked up. Like uncoordinated. Not usaully like this.. Thank you for your time :) Also I was on the benzos for about a month and a halfs time. Like I said on my Spawn Lurker account haha. Also its like I'm brain dead and my cognitive abilties dont work well. Also noticed a hushed voice I have coming off these things as well. As when I try to talk very loud or anything my fucking head burns. And my anciety gets worse. Finally starting to feel like my head isnt disconnected from my body like it did maybe a couple weeks back into withdrawal as well. Feeling in 1st person now in other words. Also my whole body feels jelly like like everyone says. This whole experience has been creepy af for me.
Ultra Shot at work right now so my reply will be short. Yes that's all withdrawal . The world used to feel fake to me. I felt crazy, like I lived in an alternate reality. I felt like I was in a dream. I had lots of pain and pressure and burning in my brain and head and neck . I can reply more after work. Just rest assured it's all normal.
I've been on Klonopin for 4 months taking 1 pill a day here and there literally like every few days or so.. I'm feeling like shit and hopelesss and wondering how long withdrawal lasts. Please and thank you. :)
Hey man just wanted to say thanks for the reply. Shows you care about other people. Much respect for your journey and I appreciate you helping me. BTW I'm 5 days off the Klonopin now and I was actually only taking .5 mg the whole time so would you say my withdrawal could be gone in 2 weeks total? anyone? I go to the psychiatrist on the 28th which is 8 more days away..
Spawn Lurker personally I don't think it would be gone that fast. But that's cause I'm super sensitive to these drugs and 4 months at .5 of klon could mess me up. Plus everyone I've seen and talked to has had a rough time when on for more than a few months . that's why I always suggest a taper. .5 of klon is still no joke. you can see how you feel in the next 8 days. dr. Ashton says it's ok to reinstate within the first month after you stop taking it. any longer and you could make yourself worse
sixslow Bro thanks so much, I only took like a .5 mg a day like every 4 days or so and that was over 4 months, so really for only a month and a halfs worth total then for only taking every 4-5 days. Idk man my Dad said withdrawal would be gone within like 1-10 days but the benzo withdrawal timeline which I personally do believe in says that it peakss at 2 weeks for people but not that have been on it for a long time like you I guess. And goes away in 5-10 days. But I feel a little better then the last comment I posted. but I'm a highly sensitive person like you and can relate to your pain. i'm personally a christian and its all thats kept me going man. have faith and I wish the best of luck to you.
sixslow Btw my dad is now a Nurse practitioner and knows alot about this kind of stuff. He's a decently smart man overall but I just don't believe that this feeling like my nerves are shot in the back of my head and neck is going to go away in 8 more days. IDk man can you relate to this? and its bad, I mean really bad.. lol
Taylor Michele Francis so the kind of gold standard is 10% reduction of your current dose every 2 weeks. some go faster. some go slower depending on how they feel. So if you're taking 1mg of Xanax daily, your cut to .90mg daily . this can be done with a small digital scale or eater titration. I can help ya further if you need more help with either direction . there is no length of time to taper for...some people taper in 2 weeks, some people 3 years. It took me 2 years to taper because if I made large cuts I would get debilitating symptoms.
booze withdrawal fucks with your mind so bad trust me i was an alcoholic for 7 years . got the idea when i was drunk that taking morphine to end the misery because i knew the anxiety and panic attack , derelasation that always came the day after . but ever since then they but me on valium at the ER for a week so i didnt have cramps or seisure etc . ever since then i have been addicted to valium and xanax i had a taper program that i fucked up recently so now im on 5 mg xanax daily and fooling the doctors that im fully funcional and that im only taking 10 mg valium a day . but in reality i am taking xanax .
Jolie Espinoza YES. It takes several months, but it does get better. Even if you’re in a wave you’ll know you’ll get through it, there’s nothing you or anybody else can do for you, but you’ll get the understanding that your brain is fixing itself to get back to homeostasis and it’s smarter than drugs.
Sam Evans I often feel as if I'm not breathing, or forgetting to breathe. all of my breathing stuff has just been feeling though, no physical issues with breathing .
iv been watching al your videos and can relate to everything but my breathing is a big issue atm might be gi problem making it hard to breath right but your looking well im glad its easeing up for you your 4 months ahead of me i hope it gets better ✌
Sam Evans now that you mention it. often I would feel intense pressure in what felt like my stomach, it made it feel like I couldn't breathe . doctor said I had a hiatsl hernia and my stomach was actually pushing up into my diaphragm which made it feel that way. he had me drink full glass of water every morning and drop my whole body onto my heels to pull my stomach down .
sixslow yes like it puts pressure on my diaphragm and the colon aswell that can be full of air can push up on the diaphragm and stomach spasms or hh its one of them its horrible feels like somthings stuck just under left ribcage
Ghoulin Rouge it has gotten better than it was. I see it slowly improving, but I still have bad nights where I wake up at 3am with panic and confusion. I usually get 7 hours of sleep now
It could be, that would make you feel alert and possibly anxious. Also histamine raises cortisol. And having too much glutamate in relation to gaba causes anxious/alert feeling.
@@sixslow did antibiotics make you feel like when you first ct bensoz? My body feels like buzzing like i need to run or do something or else it feels like cortisol all over my body. And wake up with rasing heart sweating too help 😔
I totally get you. I'm 8 months off Valium and still getting waves. It has definitely gotten better, but the waves can still be really bad. Panic attacks, bad heart palps, not being able to tolerate light or sound and after a couple of days it goes away again. It's torture for sure, but we just have to keep going. Glad you're having windows, we will get there ❤
Kimmy are you healed?
yaa!So glad you're starting to get better! The longer off you get the better it gets. Great job fighting this!Screw what anyone else thinks. If they get lucky to not get this severe withdrawal,they'll never understand just how horrific it is
So happy to hear you are still hanging in there! ❤️
Benzo healing is not linear. I can not stress how important is it that when you come off a benzo you should NEVER touch another benzo ever again due to kindling. PLEASE make sure everyone stays off alcohol because it binds to the same GabaA receptor as a benzo. You will heal in time.My advice is to eat healthy, work out and accept the symptoms.
I've been wondering how you've been feeling. I've been following you since the beginning. I'm glad your doing a little bit better. I'm only 2 months ahead of you and still symptomatic but getting better everyday. We need to stay strong and continue to help our fellow warriors who are still in acute and so very lost in life. Your a good person and deserve all the blessings life has to give you!
ya i know lots of people around this time off, 7-12 months. all of them still having symptoms. but it seams around the year mark people start to make a turn for the better. so i'm very hopeful for that
man, it's something else to actually hear someone else say something about having thoughts questioning the universe and just really crazy intense thoughts as well as having no idea that we could even feel so many sensations. Hope you're doing well. I've been dealing with this monster for about 15 yrs. I'm 36 now.
5trezip23 wow, in withdrawal for 15 years . or just taking the drug. And yea man those thoughts are insane, I think it's related to the anxiety maybe though.
Holy smokes mate you sound so much better in this video.
I am really happy for you and you should be very proud of what you have done mate, because its tough I know.
I wish you all the best as you continue to kick this drug out of your system.
You have come a long way from those darker days I must say, and I am very glad for you.
Hope to see a 1 year video free post soon...................say YES I DID IT!!!!! great stuff sixlow cheers mate.
i cold turkeyed from xanax binge taking it in high doses over the course of two months and it has been nothing short of hell. i'm really glad you post these updated videos, it sort of gives me an ease on things and i'm glad to hear from the perspective of somebody who understands because all of my friends and family seem to think this is all in my head, or that it could be another health condition instead of benzo withdrawal. i was drinking alcohol which made me feel better after i stopped taking xanax only to realize that it made my symptoms worse when the alcohol wore off. i thought i was healed due to the fact i was drinking which temporarily made me feel better until i sobered up because alcohol (just like benzos) binds to the GABA A receptors. hopefully i one day will recover too but i highly reccomend avoiding alcohol during benzo withdrawal especially if you cold turkey. thank you sixslow for the advice given. glad to hear you're feeling a bit better since the beginning of this nightmare. i commend you and wish you luck in the rest of your healing and the same goes to anybody else who is currently dealing with this nightmare such as myself.
ya man i wish someone would've told me to avoid alcohol for a long time. i wouldn't be in this mess. i really need to reiterate that in every video i make just so people know. alcohol is just like taking a benzo, will only make you worse and prolong your healing. i'm glad you realized it was making you worse and stopped before it got too bad. hang in there bud, i know it's rough.
Thank u for making these videos I was up to over 50 mg of xanax a day I almost lost my life I have been clean since July and still in withdraw I love ur videos because it’s very accurate and u give me hope
Gina Biannchini did you heal
I get everything you’re saying 💯 and thank you for sharing your story.
Hey its Aaron from reddit. Just wanted to post on here that I'm so happy things are improving for you even if it's just a little bit. Glad you're having some windows of relief. Keep going, it's really inspirational seeing how far you have come.
Appreciate it man, i still have days, like last night, where i wake up at 4am and i'm confused, scared, think i'm dying. This shit plays with your mind in so many ways, i still do hope I get back to normal and am able to enjoy life.
Sixslow! It so nice to see you, I know you still having some withdrawal but you are going to get better little by little but you are a fighter by the Grace of God and you will fight to you will said iam so, so much better I pray to God that he will keep giving you the Strength you need to fight this. God Bless you.
thank you so much nitza, great to hear from you again! thank you for praying for me this whole time
2 weeks off benzo’s, thanks for sharing these 🤞🏻
Glad you're doing better from this fucked up torture!
Hey. You're looking so much better. I'm in month 10. I'm still riding those waves. the pain gets heavy certain days. Yesterday and today was pretty bad. Most my symptoms are gone, but there is that deep brain/nerve/bone ache that doesn't want to go away. It makes me feel extremely agoraphobic. I do hate having the windows and then getting thrown back into shit so easily. I don't know what to do. I've even considered energy healing with a reiki practitioner. I hope for the best for both of us.
man, keep up, im 1 month off and did not cold turkey, but im in the same situation. Now I feel like its getting worse every day. I hope you will get better soon.
I felt like that for months, I kept thinking, wtf...why am i getting worse not better. I literally felt even up til 6 months off, kept thinking i was getting worse. It's crazy the tricks this shit plays on your mind.
sixslow so true, this is a nightmare
Spot on with everything you said ,feels like a breakdown like your body's been hijacked.
glad ur getting better even if its slowly..keep making these video's cause it does help people, u have helped me more then u could know., just seeing that u are getting a little better even if its slowly, helps to know it wont last forever..stay strong and all the haters can fuck off...Thank you for what u are doing...
appreciate that man, really. this shit is the hardest thing i've ever done in my life, every day i think about killing myself. but knowing i am helping other people helps me push on.
sixslow my boy, I think about killing myself everyday 2. this shit is awful man. keep pushing brother
Antwon Smith stay strong bro...it gets better with time...sixlow is proof of that....when u have thoughts like that find someone to talk to that understands..
Iron Man thanks I really appreciate that
I’m getting shocked on how many on CZcams are going through benzo and antidepressant withdrawals. Much more common than I ever thought!
you're not stupid :-( you're a warrior. ppl have no idea what it's like to enter the world of hell ,they say to see a psychiatrist because they have no idea what it's like ,these are real feelings and real symptoms that we deal with ,we don't need to cover it we need to fix it ,doctors know exactly what drugs do but avoid and pretend they don't ,believe it or not even antibiotics cause this ,I know it sounds crazy to those who don't have it believe me you're blessed ,I was there once too
Hey dude . Glad to see you again. Was wondering how you were. I'm 4 months and 18 days out. Just sort of coming out of a bad wave as I'm typing this. What you are saying is so true. When you are in a window you feel yeah this is not so bad until that wave hits then you forget all about how good it felt and you wonder if you will ever come right. Fkn sucks man... but we are healing! I saw you since the beginning and I myself was there too... felt like I was going crazy ... these days I just need to work on accepting waves when they come... doesn't always play out that way... keep going man.. this is also the hardest few months of my life... I want to jump off the balcony many times (15 floors up) but I know that is not the answer... this too shall pass... see you in a month... (yes people do not cold Turkey! We both know the hell that ensues after that...) ps screw the wannabe drs and assholes who post negative things. They are naive . It's easy to say those kind of things if you've obviously never experienced it... they don't matter..
yup! it's so hard to accept the waves, i still struggle with it. and yes, i've often thought about suicide, thankfully i never did it no matter how bad things were. thanks bud, hang in there, we got this.!
I'm at the seventh Month out Cold turkey 🦃3 mgs of Xanax a day and I like you are going through the exact same thing but my gut is bad and I think that your video is refreshing
awesome man. been going through each video, currently experiencing the same thing but with klonopin. At what point did the brain fog seem to fade if at all? thanks in advanced, you're an inspiration
I’m not crazy, I’m not stupid, it’s Benzo withdrawal. So well said, it is terrifying to go through and no one understands which makes it worse. I’ve been tapering almost 16 months and I’m almost off of klonopin. It’s been a terrifying and painful journey so far. I hope it get better soon. I want to thank You for posting all of these videos of your experiences because it helps me feel that I’m not going crazy through this ordeal. ☺️
When u are completely off you will cold turkey..sorry..
You sound a little more focused and look better in each video.
yea i'm gettin there, i notice i still have some trouble finding words but eventually i'll be 100%!
denimlabels I agree!
Oh wow! You look great sixlow!! Good to finally see an update. Did you try to do a live stream the other day? I thought I saw that but it was removed...
It's been almost 6 months for me. I was on klonapin 5 mg per day for almost 17 years. Did a very fast taper. It took me a few months to feel somewhat normal. The physical shit wasn't as bad as what I'd expected but the mental was worse. My withdrawals weren't near as bad as most people I've talked to but they were still intense. (I still feel like I'm one of the lucky ones). Some of the stuff is still lingering. I went through this crazy state of feeling like things were just very strange. Nothing seemed "normal". Even the act of eating seemed very unusual. I experienced (still experiencing) ego death or existential crisis. I have very bad anxiety and have a hard time being around & talking to people. This is what bothers me the most. I want to be back to "myself" but I wasn't myself either before benzos, if that makes sense. I get very uncomfortable and feel out of sorts around people. I found that working at a very busy job helps right now cause it kinda takes my mind off all the bs. This is just some of what I've experienced. It's amazing how many people you thought were your "friends" will split when they realize how bad off you are. This drug is the worst poison man has made imo. Good luck to everyone.
can I ask if it was 0.5mg of clonazepam or 5 mg. I take 0.5mg 5 times a day = 2.5mg daily. I am beginning my taper now. It took me two years to get off Effexor from 300mg to zero. I've been off since Christmas. I'm scared but know I have to do this. I need to speak with my pharmacist about the half-life and perhaps he can guide me on a proper taper. I will not tell my doctor yet because he will only reduce the prescription and make things far worse. I kept the Effexor taper secret until I was down to 150mg then I felt I could safely tell him.
Alys N1dr
It was 1mg. So I was taking 5 1mg per day. The half life is very long. One of the longest of benzos, in fact. I think you are right not telling your dr about it yet. As long as you are doing fine tapering on your own there is NO need to tell him yet. I tapered wayyy too fast. I still don't feel quite back to normal yet and it has been six or seven months now. I have my doubts sometimes on whether I should start taking them again or not. I do not feel like myself. I don't sleep well anymore and I have a hard time socializing with people. I feel awkward around people most of the time and wonder if I will ever go back to normal. I have been taking these medications since I was 16 years old and I am now 37. I wonder if quality of life would just be better if I were on them again. I don't want to sound like I am giving up but I honestly have to look at quality of life when it comes down to it. I just feel like it has been so long and I am still not the same. I have terrible social anxiety and I am sure it is only worse because of the medication. I wonder sometimes if I would just be better off with them. I go back-and-forth on it on a daily basis. please don't think I am trying to scare you. I definitely think you are doing the right thing. This is just how I'm feeling about my situation. Good luck to you and if you have anymore questions feel free to ask. I had no one to talk to when I was going through this. It's nice to have someone that knows what you're going through to talk to. 😊
thanks for the response. you have to do what you need to. I am wondering if I should go back on a tiny dose of SSRI but get rid of the clonazepam only. But the fact is these meds. changed me physiologically and mentally. I'm in the age range that if I don't at least try I'll lose what I have left of me. I was never afraid to leave the apartment. I didn't always pace like a caged animal. I used to cook, I used to enjoy movies and music, now? They just make me anxious. I want to be a woman in her 50s, I know I'll never be the person who I was at 16, or 24, or 35, or 42. The older I get the shittier my body gets naturally, I don't want to wait too long before my body can't heal.
right now, having just woke up, I'm in a tingle, anxiety mode. I plan (please god) to go the pharmacist today so he can explain fully about the half life of tabs, and have him recommend a taper that will work for me.
Just have to ease into the morning, take a shower, get dressed and go, after I eat a bit of breakfast.
I hope to reach out to this community, if I am able. It will probably be in panic mode, but, thank God for all of you.
Be well. Good luck. And remember do what you have to do for you. No one is judging, this is your life, your journey.
BTW - you and I are in the same time frame of taking these meds. I started when I was about 25 with Prozac, stayed on that for a few years, then took a break as I was functioning, then went back. It wasn't until 2004 that I was introduced to a large dose of both Effexor and clonazepam. So yeah, we've been on these meds/drugs far too long.
I already spoke with her and she at first said I had to speak with my doctor, then I asked her to look up my history from about 2 years ago and how every two weeks I switched from Ativan to Clonazepam and back, how this particular doctor was not on board. I only asked what she felt comfortable explaining which was the half life, and when I reached a steady state etc., She advised me (which I hadn't been doing) to take my tabs on a schedule, same time each day so that I don't have holes where the panic will come in. I thought I could taper as if I were quitting smoking, put off the first cigarette of the day and then put off the next and so on. She said NO. Maintain a scheduled dose, wait 6 weeks at least to reduce. I kept my Effexor taper secret until I was down to 150mg, then I told my doctor. He was okay prescribing me lower doses, but on my schedule. I think bc the horror of 2 summers ago, me in his office every two weeks freaking out he will not interfere unless and until I ask. Also, I believe he gained respect for me as it's been since Christmas with no Effexor.
Still scared, but I am going to try to do this properly, I realized that if it took 2 years to get off of Effexor, so I figure, another two years perhaps less of getting off the clonazepam will not kill me. I have to be patient, and I believe my doctor will support the slow taper but, I'm still not ready to tell him.
Thank you for the contact details. I know what is in store for me, I hope I will have the strength to reach out.
I am so grateful to this community you have no idea.
I remain as I said scared, but hopeful.
Alyssa
And 1 thing I forgot to say. CONGRATS YOU! Like so many of the people in this community are saying, it will get better. YOU HAVE BEEN FREE 7 MONTHS, from what we are both learning, we may never be 100% but heck I'll take, hmmm... 85%? That would be okay. If I could push through the anxiety if it gets to just plain old nerves and I just have to psyche myself out the door to the job I hope I will someday be able to get? Then yeah, that'll do.
Oh, and I'd love to either get back some old interests I had and maybe get interested in some new stuff.
Be as well as you can, this being said from a person who hasn't hit the hard parts yet, ughhh.
Hang in there buddy and stay with it - like you need anyone to tell you that! Glad you plan to keep doing the videos. Every time I see a new one, it strengthens my resolve to continue tapering (I'm starting my 6th month). Sometimes I have a moment of craziness when I just get sick of chopping pills smaller and smaller and they crumble or parts shoot off and I lose them. Makes me want to say fuck it and just stop. But I know I can't ct, your videos have drilled that into my mind. It seems like every video I catch something that I missed before. Last time it was how you'd gotten down to about 117 pounds once. This time, it's that you still can't even drink a beer? Did I get that right? Do you mean just while we're tapering, or still feeling symptoms, or that we have to quit forever because it may trigger symptoms again? Good to hear you can ignore the jerks who try to blame you. I see a regular Doc and a therapist, but I'm keeping them in the dark about my taper. I'm afraid if I tell them, one will decide to stop my prescription before I complete taper.
yea man, dont CT, stick with the taper. it took me 2 years to taper my first time. i would just grind it to powder and get a scale and weigh it if i was you, that way it's super accurate too.
and yea, i did get down to 117. at my worst i was down to 110 a few years back. obviously super skinny for a 5'10 male. and yes i can not drink beer/alcohol, you shouldn't either. drinking alcohol is what threw me back into withdrawal, it's basically the same thing as taking a benzo pill again. you gotta be careful, even avoid tinctures cause they have alcohol. and yea, most doctors don't understand so i'd also be weary about telling them about your taper. if you're doing good alone then just keep on going man, dont give up. it can be 10000x worse if you cold turkey.
Thanks sixslow, much appreciated! No alcohol for me then, and I'll get a scale.
You sound very calm and you voice seems much more relax compared to your early videos. It is great to see the long term results of someone making it through the withdrawls as I am just starting myself. To know it could take a year just for my brain to repair itself really scares me. I just hope I will be in an amazing place in a year. Thanks for keeping up these videos.
killersolo5 not everyone takes a year or more. It varies a lot. Remember this is my third time in withdrawal and I cold turkeyed. And I was drinking . So I messed up bad. Either way, you will get there man. It's rough , but ride it out. Don't fall.back on the drug
Have you fully recovered? Do you take anything to supplement the benzos?
Hoping you still check the comments here...I am 2.5 months off benzos and really suffering a lot :( I saw on one of your videos that you had white spots in your throat and I have that now too. Did you ever find the cause for it? Having major health anxiety and this is really worrying me. Congrats on your healing and I hope you are doing well!
I never found out what the white spots were, I wen't to the doctor and had a test for strep throat, it was negative. The doctor said it was probably just white blood cells fighting a cold or something. It eventually went away after a week or 2 and it hasn't come back since. It gets easier, it will take a while though!
So glad you are feeling better! I am right behind you at 6 months. I took 1.0mg Klonopin for 15 years. :-(. My symptoms are mainly mental: intrusive thoughts, paranoia, fearful, sensitive to sound and stressful situations. I forced myself to work starting from the first day of withdrawal. I really don't know how I did. It has been so tough. I have a desk job and sit right in the front where there's a lot of foot traffic. I wanted to ask u if u ever get startled by people at work? Do your symptoms increase when talking to people? I have been struggling talking to people without feeling so tense and also when people look at me...
haha, it's funny you say that, yes, i do get startled by people at work. ALL the time, i work at a desk to, people will come up to ask me a question and it makes me jump. I'm very sensitive to sounds/lights. i have to wear glasses inside sometimes because the light is too much. and yes, my symptoms get worse if i'm talking too much, i will have to go lay down in a dark room or go be by myself until i calm down. it's very weird, hard to cope with. but i'm sure you know, you gotta work. at least it helps pass the time
Thanks for the response! Wow I thought I was the only one. I've always had some type of social anxiety when I was much younger but nothing like this. I even experience symptoms when talking to my family. These symptoms are so insane. Hope it dies down. Just got to ride it through and keep going. Keep fighting the fight! We're all here supporting you!
@@celestemartinez4406 how r u now my friend
@@celestemartinez4406 hey how are you feeling now?
thank u u have helped me a lot the symptoms u are xperiencing are moreover similar to mine the panic attack i too couldn't feel my limbs and my chest area sometimes i also couldn't feel my body like i used to u have clearly explained the withdrawal journey of yours soon u will be 100% symtom free.....how is your head pressure??hw is appetite and libido?? how is ur panic attack now compared to before taking pills??
my head pressure is still pretty bad, especially right now cause i have allergies. my appetite comes and goes, today i've barely eaten cause i have lots of stomach pain, and my libido comes and goes as well, i'll go a week with no libido, then another week where it's extremely high.
my panic attacks now are way worse compared to before, but my panic attacks before were caused by drinking alcohol. i never had panic attacks before that. either alcohol or anxiety pills caused it for me.
Just wondering how your doing I'm experiencing the same things your experiencing the weird sensations in my legs arms the head pains the my anxiety through the roof it's all crazy and weird I try to ignore it it's worse when I'm outside but if I'm home a little more relaxed I'm coming off ativan cold turkey short term yes and your not alone in this ive been to drs they think I'm crazy my fiancé thinks I'm crazy but I had to show him your video to make him believe me but I think it's nerve damage from the benzos never will I ever again I have had multiple suicide attempts it's horrible stuff
Thank you for your video. Looking for info. Just of prescription xanax 0.25mg 2 weeks and looking for info on how long these horrible PAWS are going to really last.
Larry Redfield you only took .25mg for 2weeks? Or you stopped taking it 2 weeks ago?
Do you also got a strange aftertaste in your mouth and a strange pressure in you head even months later?
My OCD and intrusive thoughts are out of this world. I will playing video games games and a million thoughts will be racing through my mind, and I'll still be playing well, lol.Watching tv is extremely difficult my mind will get fixated on a random object in my room and now I'm trying to concentrate on what I'm watching at the random shit my and gets stuck on, Its hard for me to have a conversation, because my mind won't slow down and shut the fuck up to let me even process words people are saying to me.
yea my mind is always on, and thinking about some f'd up stuff like how i'm gonna die, it never stops. it's intrusive thoughts, a very common symptom. it'll go away in time. mine is slowly getting better. i can usually focus on a game or a movie now and forget i'm in withdrawal for a bit.
The problem with Zanaflex is they stop working after about a month so you end up taking more and more.
The Weird feeling that you can't feel your body...yep I've had that happen to me once, it was like I lost my strength n body turned to jelly, was really a horrible feeling , it only lasted a few minutes for me...
yup! just like that, happens during my panic attacks, haven't had it happen in a while now thankfully
sixslow remember that panic attacks are not dangerous, it just feels like your gonna die or have a heart attack, but your young and your heart can take the rapid pumping for hours... when I got the panic attacks I was scared that my heart would give out or that It would cause damage to it, but no I looked it up in medical journals and no it's not harmful, after knowing this when I had them I didn't do anything, just sit n play on my iPad, yep just ignored them n told myself it's just the benzos withdraw, although it was not easy to do in the beginning
luckily my heart doesn't race, i just feel like i can't breathe, or i'm gonna die or blackout, i can't feel my body or limbs, it's horrible. but yes, i just have to remember it can't hurt me, no matter how scary it is. thank you
sixslow yeah I still get the can't breathe feeling, it's funny cuz you actually are breathing fine just feels like you can't, this whole thing is a big mind fuck, I don't even care anymore, my heart rate drops real low at night and feels like it's gonna stop n I just can't worry anymore, it's like if I haven't died in this past year of these symptoms then I probably won't... so no need to stress yourself out
@@firewithin9877 how r u now. My friend
Six slow how is the pressure feeling in your stomach ....I'm going through the same feeling..does it get any better...pls help
It comes and goes, but ya it has gotten a bit better. There are tons of gaba receptors in the stomach so it gets messed up pretty bad. Try an eat fairly clean and take a good probiotic has helped me a lil bit.
Im 5 months in a 10mg a day cold turkey withdrawal and I still feel like im dieing... horrible symptoms. Can barely take a walk with my kids and get through the whole walk.
How are you doing nowdays cted as well after 20 yr
how you feeling now buddy.
God brother, nothing works BUT Ginkgo Cycles. I wanted to die for 8 months until I found the Ginkgo thread on Benzo Buddies. The fear keeps you from trying anything but after trying everything I totally lost hope and Ginkgo was my last ditch effort and IT WORKED!!
I spent thousands of dollars on supplements, try 5 mg twice a day for a week and you won't regret it. The first few days your symptoms will increase a lot but just push through and thank me later!
Snide 2 how is the ginkgo going?
@@Snide01 how r u now my frd
@@sangeetalambh6389 Great!! Been off that crap (Benzos) for over 7 years now..
@@Snide01 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take benzos only 15 days then quit no taper still feel dp. dr 445 days sober now when it get better 8 hour broken sleep daily
I honestly have more to say but I can't think straight right now
Hey man this is SpawnLurker if you remember me from a couple months back. So I'm like 2 and half months off of .5 mg Klonopin and I can't believe I've made it this far.. Right now I'm off of ALL MEDS but I personally think that I'm withdrawaling from Klonopin. For the longest time eveyrthing looked very 2demensional on the klonopin and very flat and boring. To say the least it really fucked me up good. No joke. So I've had a traumatic and very painful experience like us all benzo withdrawalers and I just wanted to also say that now everything looks 3 dimensional but also looks very fake and plastic at the same time. Is this part of benzo withdrawal? As well as I havent experienced this unitl the benzo withdrawal. Also like up my neck and into the top of my skull my head sort of tingles and burns. Almost positive this is benzo withdrawal and I'm almost done. Please anyone thats been on Klonopin tell me what you experienced. Also you too Sixslow. It would be m,uch appreciated if you can respond ASAP. I've been through hell on these things as I'm a very sensitive person. Also my body all over feels very weak and fucked up. Like uncoordinated. Not usaully like this.. Thank you for your time :) Also I was on the benzos for about a month and a halfs time. Like I said on my Spawn Lurker account haha. Also its like I'm brain dead and my cognitive abilties dont work well. Also noticed a hushed voice I have coming off these things as well. As when I try to talk very loud or anything my fucking head burns. And my anciety gets worse. Finally starting to feel like my head isnt disconnected from my body like it did maybe a couple weeks back into withdrawal as well. Feeling in 1st person now in other words. Also my whole body feels jelly like like everyone says. This whole experience has been creepy af for me.
Ultra Shot at work right now so my reply will be short. Yes that's all withdrawal . The world used to feel fake to me. I felt crazy, like I lived in an alternate reality. I felt like I was in a dream. I had lots of pain and pressure and burning in my brain and head and neck .
I can reply more after work. Just rest assured it's all normal.
Thank you so much brother. You don't know much you mean to me right now
Thank you so much. Means the World. You're a blessing. And alright man. But yeah I'd appreciate it if you hit me up later for sure bro!
I've been on Klonopin for 4 months taking 1 pill a day here and there literally like every few days or so.. I'm feeling like shit and hopelesss and wondering how long withdrawal lasts. Please and thank you. :)
Spawn Lurker shouldn't take too long. you haven't been on it long. maybe a few weeks I'd guess . but could be months it depends on the person
Hey man just wanted to say thanks for the reply. Shows you care about other people. Much respect for your journey and I appreciate you helping me. BTW I'm 5 days off the Klonopin now and I was actually only taking .5 mg the whole time so would you say my withdrawal could be gone in 2 weeks total? anyone? I go to the psychiatrist on the 28th which is 8 more days away..
Spawn Lurker personally I don't think it would be gone that fast. But that's cause I'm super sensitive to these drugs and 4 months at .5 of klon could mess me up. Plus everyone I've seen and talked to has had a rough time when on for more than a few months . that's why I always suggest a taper. .5 of klon is still no joke. you can see how you feel in the next 8 days. dr. Ashton says it's ok to reinstate within the first month after you stop taking it. any longer and you could make yourself worse
sixslow Bro thanks so much, I only took like a .5 mg a day like every 4 days or so and that was over 4 months, so really for only a month and a halfs worth total then for only taking every 4-5 days. Idk man my Dad said withdrawal would be gone within like 1-10 days but the benzo withdrawal timeline which I personally do believe in says that it peakss at 2 weeks for people but not that have been on it for a long time like you I guess. And goes away in 5-10 days. But I feel a little better then the last comment I posted. but I'm a highly sensitive person like you and can relate to your pain. i'm personally a christian and its all thats kept me going man. have faith and I wish the best of luck to you.
sixslow Btw my dad is now a Nurse practitioner and knows alot about this kind of stuff. He's a decently smart man overall but I just don't believe that this feeling like my nerves are shot in the back of my head and neck is going to go away in 8 more days. IDk man can you relate to this? and its bad, I mean really bad.. lol
Advice for tapering? How long did you do it for?
Taylor Michele Francis so the kind of gold standard is 10% reduction of your current dose every 2 weeks. some go faster. some go slower depending on how they feel. So if you're taking 1mg of Xanax daily, your cut to .90mg daily . this can be done with a small digital scale or eater titration. I can help ya further if you need more help with either direction . there is no length of time to taper for...some people taper in 2 weeks, some people 3 years. It took me 2 years to taper because if I made large cuts I would get debilitating symptoms.
We are all here for gods glory. To serve God and except Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior and have eternal life.
Is anyone having severe nerve pain. Nerve damage? With headaches?
booze withdrawal fucks with your mind so bad trust me i was an alcoholic for 7 years . got the idea when i was drunk that taking morphine to end the misery because i knew the anxiety and panic attack , derelasation that always came the day after . but ever since then they but me on valium at the ER for a week so i didnt have cramps or seisure etc . ever since then i have been addicted to valium and xanax i had a taper program that i fucked up recently so now im on 5 mg xanax daily and fooling the doctors that im fully funcional and that im only taking 10 mg valium a day . but in reality i am taking xanax .
Did u lose ur job?
wish you the best
Does it really get better
Jolie Espinoza YES. It takes several months, but it does get better. Even if you’re in a wave you’ll know you’ll get through it, there’s nothing you or anybody else can do for you, but you’ll get the understanding that your brain is fixing itself to get back to homeostasis and it’s smarter than drugs.
did you have any breathing problems?
Sam Evans I often feel as if I'm not breathing, or forgetting to breathe. all of my breathing stuff has just been feeling though, no physical issues with breathing .
iv been watching al your videos and can relate to everything but my breathing is a big issue atm might be gi problem making it hard to breath right but your looking well im glad its easeing up for you your 4 months ahead of me i hope it gets better ✌
Sam Evans now that you mention it. often I would feel intense pressure in what felt like my stomach, it made it feel like I couldn't breathe . doctor said I had a hiatsl hernia and my stomach was actually pushing up into my diaphragm which made it feel that way. he had me drink full glass of water every morning and drop my whole body onto my heels to pull my stomach down .
sixslow yes like it puts pressure on my diaphragm and the colon aswell that can be full of air can push up on the diaphragm and stomach spasms or hh its one of them its horrible feels like somthings stuck just under left ribcage
how is your sleep now?
Ghoulin Rouge it has gotten better than it was. I see it slowly improving, but I still have bad nights where I wake up at 3am with panic and confusion. I usually get 7 hours of sleep now
sixslow that gives me hope. thank you.
Please help is it cortisol what am feeling in my body?
It could be, that would make you feel alert and possibly anxious. Also histamine raises cortisol. And having too much glutamate in relation to gaba causes anxious/alert feeling.
@@sixslow did antibiotics make you feel like when you first ct bensoz? My body feels like buzzing like i need to run or do something or else it feels like cortisol all over my body. And wake up with rasing heart sweating too help 😔
@@sixslow am 17 months off but i just got off antibiotics
you should've smoked weed lol you're anxiety would go through the roof but your stomach and nausea would be helped
horrible