No Subject Is Terrible - Diabietes and Hope, Depression and Passion
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- čas přidán 23. 08. 2018
- A wise man once said that, "No subject is terrible if the story is true, if the prose is clean and honest, and if it affirms courage and grace under pressure." But does that also apply to our lives? Because we each have our own personal story filled with the little comedies and tragedies of our day to day existence. This is my story, of Passion and Depression, of Hope and Diabetes. It is a story whose ending has yet to be written, and whose context might still be rewritten.
Headphones are recommended for this video. I tried to re-record this louder, but it was hard enough to speak about such intimate things, much less do so with confidence and power in my voice. But it is vitally important to speak about the things that are hardest.
I feel that for a CZcams creator to make a video speaking about your real life is analogest to a fiction character breaking the forth wall. While in all your videos you know you are speaking directly to your audience there is normally the disconnect of speaking as a character, whereas here you are speaking as your true self. I do appreciate when creator take this short forays into the real world and allow me a chance to understand how you cope with life when the camera is not on.
That is an excellent analogy, I really do feel that either willfully or subconsciously a creator can make a character out of themselves. Either portraying themselves as perfect, or exaggeratedly flawed for comedic purposes. And so it is important to me that I strive to follow in the footsteps of those creators who have been able maintain a genuineness, and cultivate honesty with the people who watch their channel. Because Its just nice to know who you are really watching, what they really think about the subjects they cover, and what their flaws and virtues truly are. : )
I'm writing this book (limited omniscient), and there's these two major characters; call them S&M.
S is becoming a major player, but the story has yet to be told through her eyes (maybe never), what you know of her character is from M, who loves her dearly, to a point that she doesn't even know just how deep her love is; all we know, is that S is a powerful mage who finds joy in simple things like music and good food, and wants to be a house-wife. This isn't to say she's lazy, she does her homework on whatever is expected of her, and as a consequence, does not fail.
M is a mage half-breed who's out of her depth in the environment S is shackled to. There are high hopes for S for what she is, what she was born as. M does her best to fulfill those hopes by guiding S in that direction. She thinks that S's "innocence" is the most important aspect of her character, and protects it jealously.
S is not excessively reluctant to be herded, but she doesn't see it as a fulfilling life. However, in the process doing a voluntary experiment, she is rendered unconscious.
M has agreed to join a diver (D) into S's mind to guide her back out. This is where I'm at with their arc of the book. M is about to see things from S's perspective.
S loves M and cherishes the attention M gives her, but M is her only friend, nothing more; M is confused by just how much this hurts her. M finds that S is devastated by her inability to cook, wanting desperately to ask M to teach her, but fearing M will say exactly what M knows she will say. Told from an early age that she will be great, she will be great, she will be great; great for what? All her successes are put into the context of being great for some faceless husband just out of reach, ever out of reach.
M and the D find S in a cave under a mountain of failure. The first time she's failed to accomplish something she was told to do. S is staring into a darkness that D can't even fathom; more than the turmoil she's seen in a hundred patients, something else is also staring back at S, and it's "old" to S but not really.