People Share Their Deepest Secret Anonymously (Episode 22)

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  • @douxchats2868
    @douxchats2868 Před rokem +2554

    The lady who said she'd wish a car would hit her...this has been my life for at least ten years. Knowing there is one other soul on the earth who has this same thought doesn't make me feel better, just less alone.

    • @cblw14
      @cblw14 Před rokem +83

      I felt the same way for awhile but it shifted after knowing Jesus.

    • @leviismyoppa967
      @leviismyoppa967 Před rokem +36

      Sometimes I feel like that and I just sit or lie down until it passes.

    • @quinhoprimeiro1049
      @quinhoprimeiro1049 Před rokem +57

      I felt that way too, what helped me was literaly leaving organized religion and becoming an atheist

    • @billwilliam9419
      @billwilliam9419 Před rokem +40

      I join you as well....not necessarily get hit by a car, anything that ends my life without pain would be better. I remember when I turned a year older, I prayed to God to shorten my life if possible....not that I'm even depressed. I just no longer have the will to live but for sure I won't commit suicide

    • @CRJR94
      @CRJR94 Před rokem +29

      @@quinhoprimeiro1049 that’s so sad, my faith is the only thing that saved me. I’m sorry you lost your faith

  • @Queenlibra22
    @Queenlibra22 Před rokem +1193

    Prayers go out to the first young man ❤️❤️❤️❤️ and to the lady who said she'd wish a car would hit her and everybody else who told a secret.

    • @CRJR94
      @CRJR94 Před rokem +44

      You’d be surprised how many people feel this way.😔

    • @Queenlibra22
      @Queenlibra22 Před rokem +7

      @@CRJR94 💔💔💔💔

    • @minionstealer
      @minionstealer Před rokem +9

      The Chinese woman 😔

    • @Queenlibra22
      @Queenlibra22 Před rokem +3

      @@minionstealer 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔

    • @melissabrown9179
      @melissabrown9179 Před rokem +11

      I have felt that women's pain , it's a very lonely place...😞

  • @musicandpoetry_8
    @musicandpoetry_8 Před 9 měsíci +8

    “I wish I would just get hit by a car so I don’t have to live anymore” felt that, being passively suicidal about life is such a shit feeling

  • @teresmajor6954
    @teresmajor6954 Před rokem +645

    To the girl who said she doesn’t feel like she has a personality because she changed it a lot for people to like her... I never knew there was someone out there who felt this way too.
    At some point growing up, I became like a chameleon, changing myself to fit into other people’s needs because of the negative words I was told. I never knew who I truly was.
    So, guess what I did recently... I broke up with whomever I was dating, cut off those friends whom I couldn’t be myself around, and spent more time discovering my true self. May seem too late, but at least, the best gift you can give yourself is your attention. Not just giving it to others and neglecting yourself. Coz anyone who has been at the receiving end of my love and attention knows how freaking priceless it is.

    • @yasminammouri
      @yasminammouri Před rokem +8

      i feel you, i'm exactly the same and i always felt this way and got this mechanism of changing my personality and kind of being a mirrorball (taylor swift oops ;)) of the version people wanted me to be. i hope you're doing good!

    • @elizab6529
      @elizab6529 Před rokem +6

      The best gift you can give your self is your attention.
      This resonates so deeply with me. I appreciate this gem and everyone who shared!

    • @mbear958
      @mbear958 Před rokem +4

      I’m curious to know if your autistic, (sorry if this is off topic) but I also can relate hard on this… I’ve lost all my connections to my friends and also broke up with my bf, due to not being authentic and just maintaining being someone who I wasn’t for this long is mentally exhausting to do everyday. I carried the guilt, knowing I’m lying to them and myself, just so I can protect my own self. Now that I’m 18, I’ve haven’t learned anything about who I am. It sucks to skip a step on life when many of my peers have already figured out what they want to do and who they are. I really admire you cut off your relationships it’s really hard to and ik it probably cost you a lot of time thinking. And I also wish you very well!!! Your already a step ahead to finding yourself! Even if small minded people don’t appreciate you, I will and many others will who will love the way you exist. Live your life! We are here in this time period so make the best of it and it will become a good future for history.

    • @teresmajor6954
      @teresmajor6954 Před rokem +6

      @@mbear958 Aww, thanks for your kind words. And No, I ain’t autistic, just a girl who struggled with low self-esteem for over 15 years. Constantly reminded that I'm stupid, ugly, and unlovable.
      But I'm better now, hahaha 😂
      You’ve got your entire life ahead of you. As long as you’re breathing, it’s never too late. Who cares what the world thinks? They will gossip no matter what you do, so, might as well enjoy the ride and let them say what they want.
      Peace ✌️

    • @jasmineolivia9984
      @jasmineolivia9984 Před rokem +2

      I completely feel this. You explained this all so well ❤

  • @luisdireito
    @luisdireito Před rokem +655

    The last girl expressed exactly how many people feel about Christmas but don't have the guts to say. I for one can't relate anymore to the concept of Christmas I have always known, let alone relate to pointless family and acquaintance gatherings and hanging out with some people who I only see once a year, people who don't know me, and who mean nothing to me.

    • @hermiesrokmysox
      @hermiesrokmysox Před rokem +36

      💯- I hate holidays. They just make me feel guilty and sad and fake. I get such bad anxiety this time of year because of this. I’m so sorry to everyone else who goes through this.

    • @luisdireito
      @luisdireito Před rokem +17

      @@hermiesrokmysox Many people feel just like you, but they are guilt-tripped into repeating the same old habits and "traditions" every year. Christmas used to be my favourite time of the year, it was for many years, but it changed radically over the last couple of years, and now I actually dread it (except for Christmas songs). I used to feel guilty, sad and fake as well, but then I decided no one could force me to spend the holidays with them just to play house and pretend we're happy families, just so they could feel good about themselves. Since I decided that, I feel less anxious that time of year.

    • @erinmctague7188
      @erinmctague7188 Před rokem +11

      I used to enjoy the holidays but no one makes them feel like they used to. I could feel love and and everyone having a good time now that’s gone

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem +1

      Lol not “many” people feel that way losers who choose to be depressed feel that way

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      @@luisdireito tradition literally builds society you stupid fuck 😂

  • @khalilahd.
    @khalilahd. Před rokem +731

    Wow what a mix of confessions. Some random and some really sad. The one that really hit me was the First Gentleman and the woman at the end. It just seemed like she had a really good reason for not wanting to be around her family but didn’t want to talk about it. I hope she’s okay 🥺

    • @Queenlibra22
      @Queenlibra22 Před rokem +10

      I pray they're all ok ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @sy_dianne5224
      @sy_dianne5224 Před rokem +6

      The last one got to me too, because it's the same way I feel about Christmas with my family, I would rather spend it alone.

    • @blythetaylor4063
      @blythetaylor4063 Před rokem +2

      Yeah it’s embarrassment and cries for help. The embarrassment ones make me sad because, next to the cries for help, it makes it clear that people hold intense shame for things they should let out. The cries for help are more tough, because you don’t know what uncertain future they are going back to, if they can find their joy again, and the solution is not as clear.

  • @radfoo72
    @radfoo72 Před rokem +155

    The story about the thong rash fetish
    was funny until the woman turned around and was smiling.
    Then it became HILARIOUS🤣💀

  • @melissaball9711
    @melissaball9711 Před rokem +73

    The Asian woman talking about not wanting to spend time with her family. I feel that. Sometimes you have to do what is best for you and not anyone else. I think its ok to separate yourself from family if it is toxic. It took me a while to realize it. Now I create my own traditions and that makes me happy. Sending her love ❤️

  • @carolmorris5753
    @carolmorris5753 Před rokem +231

    To the Asian girl at the end - you’re NOT alone. I’m American, but also did not grow up in the ideal family. At 63 years old, I dread the holidays every year because I have to act like all is good. I dream often of moving far away from them, but I have too many responsibilities to walk away from 😢

    • @charlescharliecharlotte
      @charlescharliecharlotte Před rokem +3

      Gorl forgive and forget. Stop holding onto to the past and give your love freely!

    • @shonb989
      @shonb989 Před rokem +1

      This is literally my same exact feeling. my family and I live in 2 different states, same time zone but far enough you would plan to drive. And im glad I got away. Its just my children and I and I love it. I can make it through thanksgiving but Christmas I dread ever single year. Its also my moms bday. she is still here so i try to be happy. because I know i will regret it once she's gone. I plan to move to another side of the country once my kids are older and out the country when Im grown. you're are not alone Carol.

    • @mahoganysoul1798
      @mahoganysoul1798 Před rokem +15

      @@charlescharliecharlotte Some people just want to be heard. You don't know how deep some peoples issues run, so telling them to forgive and forget isn't that simple.

    • @ashleymarie8714
      @ashleymarie8714 Před rokem +2

      Coming up on the holiday seasons I really identify with her & you Carol. It is painfully hard to accept my unconventional family, especially when prompted like festivals or day to day interaction. Currently it has become this overwhelming feeling of insecurity because my partner has the ideal conventional family… Battling my insecurity and jealousy is very difficult. To think it can get in the way of one of the few positives in my life is beyond frustrating. Just know you are radiant because of your independence and sheer ability to acknowledge you deserve more.

    • @carolmorris5753
      @carolmorris5753 Před rokem +1

      @@ashleymarie8714 I totally understand the feelings of jealousy and insecurity around your partner’s family. I will say that it is a gift for your partner to have this - a gift for you. I was taken in a few times when I was younger by friends’ families when things were really terrible for me. I was so astonished to learn what a “real” family was, how they treated each other with love and respect. Jealous? Sometimes, but mostly very grateful to have experienced their generosity and kindness. I think back often on those days and smile 😊. May you experience the same in your life 🥰

  • @silviariestra901
    @silviariestra901 Před rokem +248

    The woman who wishes to be hit by a car just broke my heart. I used to feel that way when i was a lot younger and had severe untreated depression. I used to walk on the middle of the road just to see if I could get hit by a car. Obviously it never happend but as soon as i heard her secret i remembered that time in my life and how bad i felt. I really wish her the best and that she gets the help that she needs to get rid of the suicidal thoughts 💔 Also the Chinese woman brought me to tears. My fam and i also used to pretend we were a normal happy family but we never actually were none of that. The shipping of your book will be international?? I'm from Spain and would like to get one ❤️

    • @Queenlibra22
      @Queenlibra22 Před rokem +4

      I hope your ok and healing now ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @silviariestra901
      @silviariestra901 Před rokem +3

      @@Queenlibra22 i actually am in such a better place now. Thank you so much and wish you the best too :))

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      You people brought this depression epidemic onto yourselves now live with it

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      And you should live for others that’s how society functions

    • @silviariestra901
      @silviariestra901 Před rokem

      @@Saber23 lol sure, you clearly don't suffer with mental health issues to just say such a stupid thing and i hope you never do...

  • @ChuaXiong
    @ChuaXiong Před rokem +16

    I appreciate the balance of these secrets. No matter how sad or funny, it’s still a secret.

  • @veroniquel7263
    @veroniquel7263 Před rokem +81

    My secret is I love to watch those episodes and I feel less alone when I relate haha

  • @Ahjusshi_Brown
    @Ahjusshi_Brown Před rokem +50

    That Second Lady who said she’s religious so she doesn’t want to take her own life but she wishes every day that a car would just hit her spoke to me bc when I was young (like really young) I was exactly the same way. Looking back I just never felt like anyone in my family loved me and I always felt so alone so I would cry in the bathroom and pray for God to kill me and take me out of misery.
    One day my mom “caught” me in one of those moments bawling my eyes out and she did everything in her power to pray with me and help me get out of that place. So I pray that God also helps her out of the dark place she’s in and helps her to feel a sense of purpose and worth. It’s hard to do on your own so I also pray that God can send someone that can help comfort her and build her up until she’s strong enough to stand on her own and live life with joy once again.

  • @Cheese_crackers
    @Cheese_crackers Před rokem +16

    “I don’t know what’s up” ….. ahhh my gosh we all do some weird stuff and that line is what we all feel inside

  • @KZesty
    @KZesty Před rokem +63

    The person sharing about the Asian festivals and the family, my heart breaks for them. I wish I could give them a hug and listen to what they have to say.

  • @exs3574
    @exs3574 Před rokem +370

    People don't tell you that kind of things at all. Most of us keep wearing masks and trying to hide or at least not to expose what's inside. All of a sudden you play another video and realize again that you're not alone. Thank you ALL for sharing your emotions. If we were more open to each other maybe the world we live in would be better 👍
    Thoraya - RESPECT ✌️

    • @Surftouka
      @Surftouka Před rokem +4

      👍

    • @epicNolstagia
      @epicNolstagia Před rokem +3

      well said 🙌 every video leaves me with emotions I can't fully understand or describe

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      Not really these people are usually exceptions not examples most people are fairly simple and all that whole “not alone” crap if you thought you out of 7 billion people is unique in their problems you must have just been delusional

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      @@epicNolstagia I can describe them: sympathy, empathy, and compassion there

    • @epicNolstagia
      @epicNolstagia Před rokem +2

      @@Saber23 Try sampling any random people and you'll realise the fairly simple are the exceptions and while we know that our problems are not new, what makes them unique to each person is the circumstances in which they encounter them ranging from location, age, social status, personality etc

  • @momo_sbtg1000
    @momo_sbtg1000 Před rokem +130

    i shared a secret that i never could share with anyone before because i am ashamed of it. It felt really good to get it off my chest. Thank you for your great content. I know it helped me and im pretty sure it helped a lot of other people as well knowing that they are not alone with their struggles.

  • @domingosnhamussua3070
    @domingosnhamussua3070 Před rokem +27

    I never told this to anyone: my secret is I don't know who my father is, my mom doesn't know who got her pregnant. That brokes me everytime I remember

    • @majadinicc
      @majadinicc Před rokem +7

      so sorry to hear that. thank you for sharing this and wishing you the best

    • @XiBMCiX
      @XiBMCiX Před rokem +2

      My mom got pregnant at 18 by a much older man who left her when she told him back when she first came to America. For some reason she gave his last name to me probably hoping that he would try to look for me but to be honest I don't care to know him and if I did he would end up hurt really bad or dead. Usually people ask me what ethnicity my parents are from and I only tell my mom's side, when they ask about my dad side I just tell them I don't know and don't care.

  • @pieboy107
    @pieboy107 Před rokem +18

    The one about not having a personality because they just change it to have people like them hits me hard. Wow!

  • @kakathi4776
    @kakathi4776 Před rokem +119

    Secrets are hard to keep to yourself especially when you're hurt. At some time you reach a point when everything that you'd keep bottled up just gets overwhelming and nobody knows what's wrong with you. I encourage everyone who feels that way to find somebody/anybody to share your secret with. 💛 I hope everyone in this video stays healthy or gets better.

    • @drapido728
      @drapido728 Před rokem +1

      Thanks for the advise, but I don't want people have to deal with my middle class shit problems.

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      @@drapido728 shit the fuck up bruh most people are middle class and dealing with “middle class problems” you ain’t special my guy

  • @grandma460
    @grandma460 Před rokem +8

    To the woman from China. I can only say that your pain sounds and feels so raw. Praying that you feel peace. You are so kind and sweet, one can easily tell. So many families are soooooooooo messed up. You are not alone. Our families can be formed by our friends and kindred spirits. But I feel your loss and will pray for you. 💜💙

  • @amazinggrace313
    @amazinggrace313 Před rokem +26

    That's up what that dude did to his mother giving her water from the toilet! Him not regretting it is what blows me away .

    • @lindokuhlekhoza7571
      @lindokuhlekhoza7571 Před rokem +1

      I laughed😂 but he was young and it was such a long time ago

    • @mazzee
      @mazzee Před 2 měsíci

      I don't know how would you even think of doing it to your MOM ...

  • @maryee4829
    @maryee4829 Před rokem +62

    lmfao the thong thing is wild but you go girl

    • @AthenaIsabella
      @AthenaIsabella Před rokem +17

      No joke love that she turned around, she was so beautiful and self accepting I love her!!

    • @titamartinez162
      @titamartinez162 Před rokem +14

      I didn’t expect her to turn around 😂

    • @austincde
      @austincde Před rokem

      I was gonna say you know what my pets like when I scratch near their tailbone too 😆

  • @lauracanedo1446
    @lauracanedo1446 Před rokem +6

    Honestly, my deepest secret: I feel like people love me conditionally. I feel like if I don’t do things a certain way and live my life a certain way, I could be cut off any minute by my loved ones. I feel vulnerable because I don’t have income and I feel like people like to attack me because of my OCD and depression. Every day I worry about what my life would be like if my family cut me off. I buy excessive amounts of clothes to make sure I have enough because I don’t ever want to be dirty or exposed. I think of my stomach growling and my son wanting food. I feel if I say something wrong or do something that someone doesn’t agree with, I’m done for. I’m a stay at home mom, I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke, I don’t party, nothing. My life is revolved around my son, but I still feel like everyone judges me for everything and deep down inside, it kills me.

  • @sarahp7007
    @sarahp7007 Před rokem +6

    I've never told anyone this. I'm not sure how to fully express it. I spent 14 months in the troubled teen industry. I was a good kid, I was just struggling so bad with my mental health. when I went in I was treated like an animal. I would run away only to be placed in a series of violent restraints, I became someone that I didn't want to be. the person that people were trying to make me out to be. I got back almost a year ago. I have struggled ever since. i have had nightmare after nightmare. I don't know how to process everything. If I tell people I worry they will leave. these videos help me realize that I am not the only one carrying heavy stuff deep down.
    to anyone who is struggling with the same stuff, I hear you and you are not alone.

  • @username15yearsago52
    @username15yearsago52 Před rokem +197

    Thoraya one suggestion, I think you should apply a light kind of blurry filter cause sometimes tattoo and clothing can be revealing to people they know. When they walk away, it means they don’t want people to know so maybe it would be nice to have little more privacy in a way. I don’t know how editing works but this is just my suggestion.

    • @blueskies773
      @blueskies773 Před rokem +19

      Smart username lol. I was confused for a sec.
      Yes I thought this the entire time.
      If I had seen my friend this particular day, I would be able to identify them from what they’re wearing, their body shape and voice.
      It’s not really anonymous for those who desire anonymity.

  • @lacemsboo
    @lacemsboo Před rokem +29

    The book sounds like it’s gonna be juicy! Great video and it’s exciting that you’re gonna write a book, keep soaring. You’re such a rare light in this world.

  • @jessicaann9357
    @jessicaann9357 Před rokem

    I am so glad that you’re back!! I’ve missed this so much! Thank you for everything & and I wish you nothing but sheer success!

  • @cameronx8711
    @cameronx8711 Před rokem +23

    I feel so much less alone when I come to your channel , you really are making the world of difference

  • @caleledhmei12
    @caleledhmei12 Před rokem +26

    These videos are what life is about. To continue on, we must face our worst fears and accept the pain thrust before us. We have to persevere, and with support, that can go a long way.

  • @micahsnow346
    @micahsnow346 Před rokem +26

    I can tell that this was filmed at Washington Square Park right by NYU’s campus (used to go there). Most of the people responding are students at that school. If you are a believer please pray for that student body, there is so much depression and suicidal thoughts hanging over that school.

  • @elizabethmusco5359
    @elizabethmusco5359 Před rokem +12

    The second one. It's hard being successful for others but having no purpose or success for yourself. It really does drive you to feel hopeless and tired. And I just feel so much less alone hearing her say what I've felt

    • @jennifermadrid5881
      @jennifermadrid5881 Před rokem +1

      You’re really not alone, I’m going through the same thing right now and it is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life and I’m only 21. I want to live but sometimes it’s hard to not think if I really should

  • @cinnamonrollypoly
    @cinnamonrollypoly Před rokem +6

    Everyone has something that they'd rather people didn't know, and many will hold that to the day they die. But isn't it fascinating how, if your identity is kept secret, willing people are to share? It really opens your eyes to realizing that, no matter how bad it gets, or how alone you feel, there is always someone out there who understands.

  • @faizelhoosain4055
    @faizelhoosain4055 Před rokem +7

    That's why it's always important to love and respect everyone cause you never actually know what they're going through
    Please take your mental health seriously. Once it gets a point that you feel the world no longer needs you, that's exactly when you HAVE TO drop everything and seek help, medical or natural.
    To anyone experiencing this, the world needs you!

  • @browndreamer1427
    @browndreamer1427 Před rokem +28

    My secret is
    1. 5 years ago, My best friend told me that the world would be a better place if i just stopped breathing and that caused me so much hurt. But a year ago we met again, i forgave him when he told me he was suffering from cancer which i later found out was all an elaborate lie.
    2. I feel so overwhelmed because my parents have such big expectations from me. I feel so suffocated when I'm around my family because they constantly ask me what I'm doing or where I'm working, it stresses me out so much, and it makes me feel like such a failure in life.

    • @mowl
      @mowl Před rokem +1

    • @classicambo9781
      @classicambo9781 Před rokem +1

      You only need make yourself proud. Do what you want to do - truly. I sought external praise for decades on a background of SA that made me feel worthless and it took a long time but now I just do what makes me feel good and gives my own life meaning.

    • @browndreamer1427
      @browndreamer1427 Před rokem +1

      @@classicambo9781 ❣️

    • @raspberrybriars
      @raspberrybriars Před rokem +1

      I’m sorry your friend treated you so badly. You don’t deserve to be treated that way.💗 I understand the feeling of dealing with the pressure of other people’s expectations. It’s difficult. In the end though we have to know we’re making ourselves happy and honestly, if they’re that caught up in what you’re doing they probably don’t have enough going on in their own life.

    • @musikinspace
      @musikinspace Před rokem

      Cut off contact with that friend. None of that is normal. You are dealing with a really twisted individual

  • @user-cc2sv8fp5q
    @user-cc2sv8fp5q Před rokem +7

    My heart is with the last person. You are not alone. Some day you will have your own family that will love you, hear you and understand you. And people who gave you birth will become less important to you, like some distant relatives. It happens that we are born in a family that we dont fit in. It is just one of the trials that life gives us. I coped with it, left my parents at 16, live far from them. Sometimes we communicate, sometimes dont. They dont know me,dont understand me and dont care about me and its ok with me because thats who they are. Thank you for saying it out loud, it feels better for me not to be not alone too.

  • @Ankesadventures
    @Ankesadventures Před rokem +23

    To the last guy: I feel you so much! I know the feeling of not wanting to spend the holidays with my family and being surrounded by people who don’t have the same experience ❤ love goes out to you!

    • @eva-w
      @eva-w Před rokem +5

      You might wanna change it to "last person". To me the voice sounded female actually...

  • @shreyalove715
    @shreyalove715 Před rokem +3

    low-key missed this series. glad its back!:)

  • @NoPulseGames
    @NoPulseGames Před rokem +5

    I'm so glad I found this channel. I really needed something to help me realize just how special life is and to stop holding back. Quit stopping yourself from telling anybody anything. If you don't get what you need off your chest, you will only come to regret it in the future!

  • @hannahvelez6838
    @hannahvelez6838 Před rokem +11

    The butt scratching woman made me laugh 🤣🤣

  • @fallingbaby
    @fallingbaby Před rokem +3

    The lady who admits ti being jealous of her friends successes is SO relatable , for years I've been ashamed to even admit that to myself ,but by simply hearing another admit to whats considered something selfish makes me feel less alone, and that doest justify the selfless of my jealousy , I've been working in it and I feel it less , its just hat its hard being around people who have more privilege than yourself, its hard to nit feel inferior.

  • @JDSabre
    @JDSabre Před rokem +17

    Thoraya, you're really doing a service for the world with these videos.

  • @Hope-fo8wl
    @Hope-fo8wl Před rokem +9

    My heart goes to everybody going through something. We all are really going through a lot in this world 😥

  • @sacredtarotbysophia2543
    @sacredtarotbysophia2543 Před rokem +12

    I love your videos
    Prayer to all especially the guy with cancer and the lady who feels like she doesn’t want to be here anymore, I know what that feels like. ❤

  • @peanut_butterr
    @peanut_butterr Před rokem +1

    Sending hugs thoraya❤️✨
    Thank you for being a beautiful human being!!

  • @espectroarcoiris
    @espectroarcoiris Před rokem +12

    To the Chinese woman who talked about Mid Autumn Celebrations; you are not alone sister

  • @llnn0011
    @llnn0011 Před rokem

    I think these kinds of videos helps people feel that they can relate and that we are all very similar! Love this

  • @novalyn.acidgin
    @novalyn.acidgin Před rokem +3

    The first and last ones hit me hard. ♥️ Always love your videos.
    Keeping an eye out for the book! 🌹

  • @Enchanted_590
    @Enchanted_590 Před rokem +5

    Knowing these secrets hurts. I truly wish I could help these people in some sort of way. I wish these people the best.

  • @seandunn1128
    @seandunn1128 Před rokem +41

    As always, thank you Thor. You look good and healthy! As an older man I'm always surprised at the insecurity and pain that people carry and hide. What you provide as a venue and the very nature of humans to reach out is the gift that grounds us back in humanity. Your channel is an example of recognizing our interdependence and how it often fails, but that we flock back to each other like moths to a flame. Peace

    • @daniliveson1
      @daniliveson1 Před rokem

      What a beautiful and thoughtful comment :)

  • @vijzon
    @vijzon Před rokem +2

    7:50 I wanna give this person a hug so bad!! 😭The way their voice quivers, it's heartbreaking

  • @J1W5M7
    @J1W5M7 Před rokem +31

    Thank you for giving us a platform. Telling my story feels surreal. What a beautiful idea you've created. You should smile, you're helping people more than you realize.

    • @L1MBO12
      @L1MBO12 Před rokem +1

      You were in the video?

    • @J1W5M7
      @J1W5M7 Před rokem +1

      @@L1MBO12 No I wrote to her on another platform

    • @L1MBO12
      @L1MBO12 Před rokem

      @@J1W5M7 Oh cool!

  • @carloscarion1748
    @carloscarion1748 Před rokem +1

    This site has touched my heart so much,My family life, my childhood my adulthood, my love, love lost, on and on. I only wish I had someone that I could talk to frankly as a child I got an adult, because there’s so many questions that we never answered for me and I always carry the wounds

  • @lovingmayberry307
    @lovingmayberry307 Před rokem +6

    To the woman who said, I will not do it again, I HOPE. Please learn to take responsibility for your own actions.

  • @elizabethdevries8028
    @elizabethdevries8028 Před rokem

    We all have secrets. It's deeply freeing and beautiful to share them with one another. Thank you Thoraya.

  • @wrenadams7550
    @wrenadams7550 Před rokem +19

    The confession of the last girl hit me home. I don't know you but trust me I feel the exact same way. I am literally in tears while listening to you , I m also tired of pretending of having a conventional family ,they fucked me over .I m also trying to get away .hopefully someday.
    hope you get all the happiness in the world and just don't feel alone because somewhere someone feels the same truth ,they are just scattered all across the universe.
    -
    across the world(india)

  • @gothsinn23
    @gothsinn23 Před rokem +29

    Every one of these people is incredibly brave, even the sillier confessions are a testament to that bravery. It just really goes to show that you never truly know everything that people are dealing with, and that the bubbliest of people can have the weight of the world on their shoulders. You always have a choice how you treat others. Always choose to be kind.

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      Not brave when it’s anonymous

    • @gothsinn23
      @gothsinn23 Před rokem +2

      @@Saber23 Not entirely. People who live in these areas might know these individuals' voices/bodies/mannerisms/way they dress and recognize them. It's not complete anonymity just because their face isn't visible.

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      @@gothsinn23 then the video is just straight clickbait and that's assuming the 1 in 1 million chance the people they know actually end up seeing the video

    • @gothsinn23
      @gothsinn23 Před rokem +2

      @@Saber23 Or we can just recognize that it takes bravery to be vulnerable in front of strangers, whether anonymously or otherwise, and leave it at that?

    • @Saber23
      @Saber23 Před rokem

      @@gothsinn23 go ahead nobody is trying to stop you

  • @hoangjackie3653
    @hoangjackie3653 Před rokem +3

    I’m scared of dying. But I can’t stop but wishing to sleep and just never wake up. Sound like a wonderful dream.

  • @GratefulOne
    @GratefulOne Před rokem +1

    Thoraya, you're such an inspirational person for me, you know..sometimes I imagine my self talking to random people and have a deep talk with them, have a true connection with them..but the thing is that i'm really shy and afraid of rejection...so I hope that oneday I'll have the courage to do it.

  • @lindsayb7811
    @lindsayb7811 Před rokem +15

    Just existing is so difficult for so many people. I too can relate to secret number 2. No amount of antidepressants can erase wanting to disappear.

  • @meriamj5150
    @meriamj5150 Před rokem +50

    I'm sending prayers to the second one it's so hard to be living a life even though it's "successful" in people eyes but you're feeling useless , bad or down and trying to please everyone but yourself and feeling you don't matter just like everybody else. Sending love and prayers to her and to anybody here reading these
    You're not alone 🌹❤️

  • @kayachamling
    @kayachamling Před rokem +3

    Sending lots of love & hugs to the first guy.....🙏

  • @lailakhoshkar126
    @lailakhoshkar126 Před rokem +4

    A book! That’s so exciting. Thanks for the work that you do, Thoraya.

  • @robertbeining141
    @robertbeining141 Před rokem +3

    Congrats!!! Look forward to reading the book. Will be happy to share a secret.

  • @OneOfNone23
    @OneOfNone23 Před rokem +2

    Be grateful everyday y’all. Love you guys. ❤️☮️

  • @christinerichardson6596
    @christinerichardson6596 Před 10 měsíci

    One thing I have noticed is that we all have something in common! I could relate to so many people in these videos! Made me feel even closer to my fellow humans! New subscriber! I needed all this! I was feeling separate from my fellow human beings! Thank you!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @gadjodilo22
    @gadjodilo22 Před rokem +1

    and i am tierd of keeping things to my self, trauma, abuse and the way that you really feel is not supposed to be a secret. if you are not feeling good you are not feeling good. pretending that you feel good and forced to pretend that you feel good only leads to more disconnect with the people around you and worse even to own self. i cannot believe that we are made to hold so much inside. i am also writing here cause in some way its annomous the ones that are around me will never know this is how i really feel.

  • @kristibunny1620
    @kristibunny1620 Před rokem +14

    Herpes is super common and love isn’t stopped or blocked by a small medical condition that most people don’t even know they have. They didn’t tell me that when I was diagnosed but I slowly discovered the type of people that wouldn’t be interested in me as a person still aren’t the kind of people I want in my life anyway.
    Hit by the car lady. I lived a long time that way. I finally got out of the bad situation I was in and got to know myself beyond my trauma. It was hard but so so worth it.

  • @cinnamoncat2731
    @cinnamoncat2731 Před 8 měsíci +1

    The woman who said she felt like she didn’t have real personality cause she molded to make people like her… OOF I *felt* that 😮‍💨

  • @ealyp1
    @ealyp1 Před 10 měsíci

    These videos give me so much hope and idk what for but I love these videos

  • @mezzy7361
    @mezzy7361 Před rokem

    Super cool that you are working on your book. I'm proud of you and your team ❣️

  • @seablue711
    @seablue711 Před 5 měsíci +1

    I shared my deepest secrets with someone who promised me he was my friend. He used them to try to destroy me and abandoned me when I was drowning. I’m never going to forget and nobody gets close to me anymore. Everyone I loved betrayed me at the same time, and how I loved them-I dedicated my life to giving my energy, money, and effort so others might be provided for.

  • @fernandot6712
    @fernandot6712 Před rokem +2

    6:34 its been literally my life for the past 5 years and its so hard to "explain" what it feels like. Is like you know its better to be alone but hard at the same time

  • @reynard2ki
    @reynard2ki Před rokem

    Why do I watch your videos? I'm a 52 year old man (admittedly, with anxiety and depression) and every single one makes me cry. Sometimes the tears are from feeling bad about what someone went through, and sometimes it's tears of happiness, seeing that someone has overcome something.

  • @nikkideslauriers3707
    @nikkideslauriers3707 Před rokem

    I am sending lots of love and light to you and your guests. Big hugs.

  • @yashthehuman
    @yashthehuman Před rokem +2

    going to watch this before I go to sleep tonight, thanks :)

  • @majakochman4251
    @majakochman4251 Před rokem +6

    I've had a hard time for a long time with never having the opportunity to share my secret with anyone. It means a lot to me that I was finally able to do so. thank you so much

  • @CatroGainsbourg
    @CatroGainsbourg Před rokem +7

    To the Chinese lady, you are not alone. And to the lady who said she had her heart broken the day before - I hear you, xx

  • @scrumps101
    @scrumps101 Před rokem +2

    To the first guy, the one with cancer. Please tell anyone and everyone who you feel safe with. You need support and love right now, as much as you can get. You deserve love and support. You might think that you are strong enough to get through this on your own or telling just a few select people but I promise you that it will be easier to bring people in and share this. The long term PTSD you likely will face after you survive this can be overwhelming. Getting love and support to help you through this now will and can very likely help lessen the severity of trauma from a life threatening illness in the future. Much love, respect and hope to you my friend. ❤❤

    • @MrNoName7474
      @MrNoName7474 Před rokem

      My biggest regret was not reaching out to my friend before he passed from cancer. Didn’t hear about the diagnosis right away because covid sent us home from college. I guess I just assumed he would beat it and I could support him once classes came back. It hurts so much to know that he was closed off and probably needed a friend the most and I didn’t show up for him.

  • @HugsXO
    @HugsXO Před rokem +1

    Congratulations on your book!!! I wish you well.

  • @frankrault3190
    @frankrault3190 Před rokem

    Prayers and good intentions, lots, to the woman who sometimes doesn't want to continue her life!!! ❤❤❤

  • @corpsenymph9499
    @corpsenymph9499 Před 11 měsíci +1

    5:57 As a US citizen born and raised I feel the same way. It's common to feel that way even though it hurts, because in a sense you feel like your disrespecting the home you were raised by. Your not wrong for feeling happy that you don't celebrate with your family anymore, chances are you had to carry a lot pain and suffering that is impossible to speak about without be judged heavily for it by your community. I'm proud that you spoke up about it, even if it's discreetly.

  • @mayn7115
    @mayn7115 Před rokem +3

    I felt for the first lady because I've been there and done that. But it isn't worth it. Please find something in life that make you happy, that you enjoy to do. Make a bucket lists of thing you want to do, where you want to do and make them happen.
    I see myself in the Chinese lady's story. In the past few years, I realize that my parents and my extended family are toxic and I no longer in touch with them. It's very painful and I know that I can't be the old me again. Because of growing up in a toxic family, I was/ am attracted by toxic ppl most of the time from relationships, friendships, workplaces,... Idk when it's going to end although I be aware of these kind of people.
    It was very sad when I visited my hometown, I didn't see my family and have no home to go, got to travel around and stay in hotels. When I'm back to the US, ppl asked me about the trip and family, I had to lie or try to avoid to tell the truth.
    Sometimes I'm very hopeless and depressed of knowing no one cares for me and I'm all alone in this world.

  • @cato.732
    @cato.732 Před rokem

    8:14 you are not alone. This is where I wish all people who have similar struggles with family could come together and be each other's families during times like those festivals.

  • @user-wi8cv7pm4k
    @user-wi8cv7pm4k Před rokem +1

    Thank you for providing a platform to share our secrets.

  • @soundhealingbygene
    @soundhealingbygene Před rokem

    Thank you for uploading these some of them make me cry when I don't even know how to do it or why. I guess I'm just getting older and I really don't have anyone to talk to. That's just the way life has been I guess. Trust me when I say this you do not want to get hit by a car you may end up living or have a traumatic brain injury like I did. I struggled for years with anger suicidal ideation depression anxiety and that traumatic brain injury just made things worse. so I live alone with no friends no lover. Not much of anyone checking up on me other than my mom and dad who will soon die. Shout out to the person who said she doesn't feel like she has a personality. I feel like this all the time like one day I'll feel like one personality and the other day I'll feel like another. But mainly depression and anxiety.

  • @hnsfamily
    @hnsfamily Před rokem

    Love these , these make me/us feel more normal. Also do one about alcohol , drinking alcohol made me? Or the worst think I done while drunk is …also add some solutions to these issues, and to the last person that talked about teh family stuff well that’s the same for me as well, and I would absolutely buy taht book

  • @gadjodilo22
    @gadjodilo22 Před rokem +2

    me too, not that i am not grateful for life, but I am down in a hole. i have never been here in this place in life. i have had the most amazing experiences in my early life in the last 10 years have been dealing with trauma, loss and totally loss of motivation for life. complete loss of motivation. no living. so i relate to the first lady. I am surprised how many other live like this. This is not the way to live and walk through life, i know it as knowledge but far from practising it in life.

  • @marlenelehano4996
    @marlenelehano4996 Před rokem +1

    Prayers 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 to those who has been suffering with either health problems/some kind of abuse. For the guy who has been diagnosed with cancer, I understand how u are feeling because I have been diagnosed with brain cancer little over 2 1/2 years now n it’s very challenging for me but I NEVER give up! Wen our Savior decides that it’s my time to be in HIS Kingdom above, I’ll be ready because then I can be reunited with my mom who passed of heart problems at age 38, my dad who passed last February due to cancer, n my sister who passed in June at age 56 to breast cancer. Please everyone, please be kind to one another n don’t judge people by the cover of the book. Remember, life is precious so be humble.
    Blessings to all...
    Aloha from Hawaii 🌈💜

  • @sovickaMaggie
    @sovickaMaggie Před rokem +1

    I´m sooo excited about the book ♥

  • @nivekje
    @nivekje Před rokem

    something everyone needs to hear is that what you seek in the world is most of the time already in you.

  • @caffeinatedkat3
    @caffeinatedkat3 Před rokem +1

    I love these. These are my favorite that you do ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Alisha-zd6hw
    @Alisha-zd6hw Před rokem +5

    Listening to people's confession is kinda healing for me. I too wanna confess :
    1. I'm irresponsible
    2. I'm ugly and fat
    3. I'm not loyal , dependable and trustworthy
    People hate me and I think my heart deserved to be broken... Because of my foolish decisions

    • @sofiapeters6130
      @sofiapeters6130 Před rokem

      Who ever made you feel this way is wrong! You are deserving of love and you are amazing!

    • @PossibleBat
      @PossibleBat Před 5 měsíci

      You are allowed to make mistakes and be human. You aren’t born to be productive. You aren’t born to please others. You deserve peace.

  • @UnkWeilL
    @UnkWeilL Před rokem +1

    7:25
    I totally feel you and i DO believe there are o lot of others who feels the same way

  • @Artinthesexyway
    @Artinthesexyway Před rokem +1

    The last one is literally my life. I feel you girl 💙

  • @TheAmazingKris
    @TheAmazingKris Před měsícem +1

    The first one caught me off guard. Been feeling it myself, but instead of being religious, it´s only because my mom still here and I want and can´t do it. Thank you.

  • @hafedhabdulhafeedh3195
    @hafedhabdulhafeedh3195 Před rokem +7

    I am a big fan of this channel!
    God bless you!

  • @musicandpoetry_8
    @musicandpoetry_8 Před 9 měsíci +1

    The girl who said I don’t feel like I have a real personality because I change it for everybody..same!

  • @carinavozoses2377
    @carinavozoses2377 Před rokem +11

    22th video about sharing a secret. This shows that everyone needs to tell something to the world because they think anyone there would listen to them. Thoraya, I won't get tired to tell you the good you are doing to the world. Keep going and don't give up!
    Hi from Spain :)

  • @Realgaelmusic
    @Realgaelmusic Před rokem

    Can't get enough of these videos!!