I REALLY tried not to cry | "Everywhere at the End of Time" | Live Reaction/Analysis
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0:00 Intro
1:00 Everywhere at the End of Time. What is it?
2:10 Stage 5 Breakdown and Visualization
2:58 Stage 6: Intro Commentary
7:30 The Beginning of the End
10:00 I Start to Break
11:01 Acceptance
12:17 Closing Thoughts
14:15 Take Care of Your Mental Health
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Depressing fact: typically the last thing people suffering from dementia do is hum their favorite song. When they do eventually forget that tune, they usually die within a couple of weeks.
I've learned so much from the comments on this video, it's amazing.
@@InductionStudios yeah, dementia really is something huh?
Btw great vid, you’ve earned a sub 👍
@@robsterboy5612 huh
I'll be hummin' the pizza time song.
imagine humming sicko mode and then just dying
Granny what are you listening to?
"I have no fucking idea"
this had no right being this funny 😂😂
Now johnny pass me a beer
My name is samu-
*PASS ME A BEER*
This is funny because I’m done crying for a while
@@baconator1785 fun fact: champagne helps prevent dementia
@@minorcomet282 wait what the fuck???
I thought alcohol would help to lose memory's
Everywhere at the End of Time: a psychological horror made entirely of sound.
(., _ ,.)
Yeah, and the only reason it is so horrific is because it actually fucking happens.
Yea that’s the point 😂
666 likes?
Dementia is like a horror game. Except we don't know that we're playing it until it's too late
my granny has alzheimer, i've never paid attention to that, always so naïve and young. But now i live with her, yesterday when she finally realised she couldn't do her crochét like before she said "no.. it cant be, i was always so good, my mother taught me..", and then two minutes later she was laughing at the tv.
this record shattered me.
She probably realised she couldnt do her crochet several times after that too huh? My great grans had it too. It was awful.
This comment fucking shattered me, god damn...
This is sad and terrifying
I know it’s been 3 years, but I hope that she is ok.
@@meznight she passed away two years ago, sadly :( i miss her so much
"I was not expecting to hear music again."
Well he technically didn't, It was his funeral.
What did he mean by that?
@@LorcaLoca Being isolated silence and strange noises for so long you begin to not expect things like that.
@@flavy4027 It's however you view it, but the conclusive ending everyone comes to agree..
Stage Six's return of music is a significance of death, release, the seldom waves end to hear music once more. You're so far gone... you're still in that empty abyss but the torture you endured in the horror prior is finally coming to an end. Likely a singular memory returned that was so vivid...
And it ends. You have finally passed away. The mental torture you've endured is done...
@@flavy4027 I believe that it is supposed to simulate the fleeting return of lucidity and memory that occurs right before death in neurological disease cases. The last memory burning as bright as it can before the dull and everlasting darkness of death.
I put this track on while I was asleep, and I had the most terrifying dream of my life.
I cannot imagine how scary it could get. Stay safe.
Why you do this!?
Oh no
Now I want to do this. It probably won’t go well, given my experience of being trapped in dreams and being unable to differentiate reality, but it’ll be a “fun” experiment.
Edit: So apparently people are super wholesome and worried about me, so I’ll update;
I haven’t tried it yet, I’m too scared to. However, I won’t leave you disappointed with a summary of a Dream I had shortly after I left this reply (tw: gore)
Basically, I was in a tower with other people. It was a video game like world where you could die and respawn. Seeing as this was one of my dreams, every last bit of pain was available for feeling. This includes the final boss fight at the top of the tower, of which I think my mind has blocked out because of how harsh it was.
Despite this, I still have an idea of what happened inside the fight because I had a flashback when going back up the stairs. I remember feeling multiple swords stabbing through my chest, followed by very real feeling blood dripping everywhere, and crying. I could not scream.
If ya wanna know what being stabbed to death feels like, I felt sharpness going through about 7cm, followed by a lot of tingling inside. (Probably from euphoria)
Now you know why I don’t wanna try the original comment :D
OMG what in holy hell were you even thinking??? YIKES
The last 5 minutes sounds like a thing called 'Terminal Lucidity' Where for 4 minutes you can hear church choir and the music is coherent again. This usually happens leading up to death and is a moment where the person suddenly remembers/has a heightened mental state, this lasts for a few minutes to days even. And the last minute, which is silence, is most likely to refer to death, the end of everything
I dont think they would hear church choir maybe some Of then Cause they really like it
@@thegamesbrotherssvk5135 I think it relates to yknow heaven because they are about to pass away, so we associate it with the end of everything. It means that that’s it, that’s the end of everything.
@@0ddestMouse Nope. It's actually one of the first songs Caretaker ever did. So yes, it's Terminal Lucidity. Caretaker is remembering before death.
God's bringing him up
Doctors say that the last thing that most people with dementia remember is their favorite song. They'll usually be humming that most of the time. When they finally forget that, that's when they're about to die
That's so sad :(
My grandma died from it, so i can confirm :(
@@dioincenerito did you come Back to life or something?
@@tilsgee no, maybe you misunderstood me lol. My grandma died from dementia so that's why i said that i can confirm
It's just crazy how our body work. It's really scary that we will experience dementia when we get older.
Honestly I’d be willing to argue that dementia is worse than death. You just become a corpse, still living, but it loses its personality and everything unique about it. It’s almost as if you just get scrapped to a model.
Oof
@@breadmixer I agree
Yeah
That’s why if I do become diagnosed with it I’d probably just end it myself to be honest. I’d rather die with my memories and knowing who I am than die as a husk
Candy Cadet: Am I a joke to you?
Stage 6 on its own without any context is still a brilliant ambient album.
It would fit for an artistic horror film or a documentary.
I love it. When listening through the whole thing, Stage 4 and 5 were a nightmare to a listen to but there's a certain beauty to Stage 6, even before the very end.
@@gabbo13 the person who did this whole thing was first and foremost famous for the Shining movie soundtrack so yeah, creepy music
True
Minecraft cave noise
I used to work in a dementia home, its a really depressing place. At the late stages of dementia some of the people there you could barely call alive. They were just husks of people unable to move or talk. And not like not walking move, as in they barely could move themself to swallow, couldn't move there own heads, couldn't change there face, could barely open there eyes. Those poor people, at those stages, they aren't there for them. There kept there because there family doesn't want to realize there loved one died long ago. There paying us to keep them alive but i would be lying if it wasn't a good day when there body finally gives out.. cause damn did there minds die long before that, there just there suffering so that there family has a "living" person to look at once a month and cry to.
Regardless of the poor state their mind and body was, i can confirm the happiness you have when that person...that person, is still alive.
I didn’t even have time to meet my grandma as she was, on a perfect mental and phisical state.
But i loved her, regardless. I entered a deep depression when she died, which im still scaring to this day.
they may seem empty, they're still in there
somewhere
I recently lose my grandmother last March and I'm the one who took the responsibility to take care of her. She suffered the last stage last 2nd of January and every week passes by,she detoriate until the last week of February that she couldn't eat anymore and she's bedridden. I witnessed how she suddenly loses her memories last 2017 upto this March that she became so weak..3 days before her sudden passing,she always touches my arm and even looking at me without saying a word because she couldn't barely talk,I'm so teary eyed on that moment because I know she's ready to die and she wants to say a goodbye wishes to me but she couldn't make a word. Its very painful to witness your loved one suffers this kind of disease..
@@elizabethbernal6484 dementia does not kill people, cause the people who die of dementia become a corpse that knows they are dead, its sad cause they can see or anything, its honestly very depressing, im sorry for your loss
Really sad but i got confused about the "there"s
Stage 1: Something's wrong
Stage 2: Misplacement
Stage 3: Trying to put them back together
Stage 4: Falling Apart
Stage 5: Point of no return
Stage 6: Death
two years later, holy shit that is terrifying
1: Susie wore a red dres to prom. I wor-
2: Susle wore a reb dres t prom. I mor-
3: $uusle w re A reb drees t pr m, I m0r-
4: $ us lee m r A reeeb d es ss pr m m L 0r-
5: $ UU le e w V r eeb bd d ss es P m m / 0 n-
6: s __ v d S n’ i -
Those last 13 minutes of the final track feel like dying on a bed alone with nurses walking by
Oh, man. I'd rather be put down than put in a nursing home. That sounds so depressing.
This one hurts the most hands down. Just the thought of forgetting everything as everyone around forgets about you. Dementia is not a disease, it's a tragedy.
@@midgetwaffles8635 My grandma is in a nursing home and she has dementia, we can't visit her because of covid. It must be a living hell.
@@flumzy1457 I hope your grandmother will be okay.
@@midgetwaffles8635 thank you, it must be horrible for her
“A confusion so thick you forget forgetting “
Man that's genius
A scary description
That description was the scariest for me, I’m still paranoid about it.
T H I C C
Jk jk thats terrified
The shit got real when I was visiting my parents back in 2008. I was talking to mom in the back yard when dad walked outside, looked at me with an angry, evil expression and asked “Who are you and what are you doing with my wife?!” Mom was floored and I was stunned. I hadn’t noticed dads decline having lived out of town.
Mom begged me to forgive him, and of course I did. I choose to hang onto the decades of his public service and years of sacrifice for us. He died in Feb 2009.
that's sad what happened
The “no one visits you because you can’t remember their names” broke my heart. You’re just alone, at the brink of death, and can’t remember anything, anyone, everything. I don’t usually write sad shit but this hurts
When I was 19, I dropped out of university to live with my grandma, who a year prior had been diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's. I was the nearest family member, and had been raised by my grandparents for a few years after my dad got out of the military and completed further education. So we knew each other very well, and were close. You expect and prepare for the decline, the confusion, the loss of recognition and cognizance. What I was not prepared for, were the brief, fleeting moments of lucidity she would experience.
When I would cook dinner for us, I would try and let her help with at least one thing. While making a salad for us, I noticed her talking to herself.
"Everything okay, Granny?", I asked her. "Oh yes dear, just talking to myself. You get the best answers that way!" It was like the wit and humour she possessed her entire life just snapped back into focus for a second, and then like that, it was gone.
She was a classically trained pianist. Put any piece of classical music in front of her, and she could play. I was sitting with her on the day she (there isn't a right word I can think to put here, but) accepted, realized, came to terms with etc, that she just didn't know how to play anymore. "Oh dear, I used to be rather good. I shan't do this again." Imagine being lucid enough in a way to understand you've forgotten how to do something you've spent your whole life doing. This was the hardest part for me. When she still understood what was happening to her brain. When she remembered forgetting.
We had walked to the local pub for a meal out together one evening. From her purse, she pulls an old photograph, sepia and faded, of her and my grandpa on their wedding day. The original copy. A photograph almost 60 years older than me. I had never seen it before, and even before her ailment, she was not the most outwardly sentimental of people. She proceeds to tell me the story of the photograph. "We were just so happy together that day. So young and in love." I sat, quietly listening, watching not the photograph, but her face as she spoke. There was such joy and whimsy to her recalling being a young lady, teaching school children in Lincoln, my grandpa working in a bank, taking trips to the seaside together in her old Morris Mini. But beneath it, I could see the pain. The pain of knowing, that soon these memories will cease to exist, stretched and distorted by fog and static. The pain of knowing this was probably the last time she would ever relive those happy memories. I kept the photograph. And taught myself to play on her piano.
This record fucking broke me. Writing this out for the first time since fucking broke me. I haven't thought about them for quite a while. It's just not fair. No one deserves to suffer the way in which this disease causes them to.
Hold your loved ones close.
Thank you so much for your intimate and personal story, it really helps put this artwork into perspective for me.❤️
@@InductionStudios Thank you for creating an environment in which I felt comfortable and compelled to do so. I haven't really talked to anyone about those memories for almost 10 years now. It felt good to get it out.
This made me cry.... I'm scared of this not only happening to me, but my family...
The best you can do is cherish every moment you have. take pictures and videos
Bro youve been through alot i see,so im here to say i support you
The last minute with silence represents a minute of silence for respect to those who recently died.
It dosnt its to show how the music you love the last thing that remains will leave your memory and you slowly die in silence
i think it actually means that you are slowly fading away at last from the world or maybe the silence in funerals.
I read that it's for the actual character of the caretaker that dies with the last stage of the project
@@Giuseppe_f1n You are correct. The Caretaker is meant to pass away in stage 6. The last minute is the only "true" silence, death. The one time your mind is really quiet.
@ESparda A.K.A.悪魔の死神 reckt? you mean deletion? no. The caretaker is a fictional person who dies. I hope this helps! /gen
Even if there was a cure of Dementia, you would never be cured of having your memories back
that's true... wow...
that's sad...
Dementia is just the term for the death of the brain, this is just the inevitably of death.
If you were cured early on, it would work or a couple months after diagnosis. But I don't think it will ever exist sadly. And if it did the government would over price the fuck out of it
@@erzahthegod9663 Hey, so, good news. It's not a proper "cure" per se, but scientists have found a way to replace brain tissue to extend the forgetting process long enough that the person might die of natural causes before things get really bad. The downsides (because there always are ones) are that
1. I doubt that the procedure will be legalised for human usage any time soon, because there are side effects.
2. It is an extremely expensive process already, and that's just in tests.
But, hey! At least we're getting somewhere.
The music at the end is supposed to represent terminal lucidity, where the person gets all of their memories rushing back. They remember names, places, foods and almost every important memory they had before and during the disease in the final minutes before they die. This just baffles me that the brain still holds on to these memories but not be able to access them until it's too late to put them to any use such as one last conversation to your family. This is definitely the scariest part of the piece for me and when I heard it when I went through the first time I cried really hard. It still gets me now but damn that part is just intense
Easy prestage of nde. We are spiritual ants in the west in therefore we think it's over. Do you want to know how afterlife sounds my experiences with many nde ppl. I say listen to tangerine dream Jean DE arc this shows OBE total consciousness evolving to hyper consciousness of all life's lived and unity with the source (the shared consciousness of all living beings in earth and if you are advanced beyond that) before writing sh*te watch 20 nde stories and shed off the materialistic illusion. Life is great but death is even greater
i'm not an expert in music or anything, but i think i know why stage 6 is so beautiful. on stage 1 everything was mostly clear, then stage 2 came and that started to diminish, especially with stage 3. then, it was horrific and chaotic with stage 4 and 5, you couldn't get away. but with stage 6, that peace from stage 1 almost came back in a way. instead of chaos, it's a peaceful drone. if you had dementia at this stage, you would be near death. but think, would you really care? would you even remember to care? you would be away from the hell that is dementia. you would have absolute peace, and stage 6 is that realisation. you're too far, you know it'll end soon. so you're just waiting in the thoughts that are left for that day to come.
yes, I share the same vision .. a respite after so much pains ..
(I hope that my father had a break after his illness. Fucking lewy body)
When people have severe dementia, one sign that they are about to die is when it suddenly vanishes.
@@unable1234 huh, i didn't know that. that's pretty interesting
@@MmoonMmoose i had to look it up, its called "terminal lucidity"
that's interesting, i'm gonna look into that
If schools made learning like this, I’d be more interested. This honestly put a whole new perspective on dementia and made me think how such a horrible mental illness can happen to so many people, I’ve been looking at patients and learning more about dementia than I probably ever would at school
I'm making a list of amazing one-of-a-kind experiences like this, whether it be movies video games, or art. When my 16-month-old grows up, This will be one of those things I want him to experience.
how did I read "I've been looking at panties"
Schools are always like, "Dementia is when you forget and.. NO! You cannot pee in order to learn better! Anyways, something happens. Get out of my classroom." and this singular album just teaches me so much more than a school lesson ever could. I feel so sorry for everyone who has to go through this. If I'd only listened to those shitty school lessons, I would've thought you could recover so easily. This isn't how life goes. I don't know if everything that I'm saying is true, but I know that this is hard shit to live through.
New Goal if I become a teacher
Teach about Dementia, and play this.
@@womanstriker2009 If someone ask me about Alzhemeir's (it is a part of dementia) I'll send EATOT to them without context
I don't cry often. Even when I do it's minor, but for some reason this fucking track broke me. I have no relation to anyone with dementia. I'm still young but imagining losing memory of my fiance, or my family in my later years, or them forgetting me and going through that pain of being in a constant state of confusion and half existence, fills me with more dread than anything I've ever felt. And even as a Catholic, meaning I know such memory loss is by no means permanent and there will be a joyous ending where the deceased will have the joy of their memories flood back in the loving arms of their Lord, it still drives me to bawl my eyes out. And I literally only learned about this thing tonight through a fucking fnf mod.
My grandma suffered from dementia, and she died from it. I didn't cry while listening to this, but i was extremely uncomfortable. I just can't imagine the pain my grandma had to go through...
Same
@@dioincenerito dude that’s sad
God I relate to this almost completely word for word. I even learned of this Album through a FNF mod and I was never big into music to begin with.
Same tbh
I would actually rather die than forget everything. Do lethal injection before everything’s gone. Memories are all I have and if I begin to lose them I’d - I can’t even explain it.
If I get diagnosed with dementia my plan is to throw one last party to say goodbye to my family, give them one last memory of the person I really am, and then just get on a cruise ship and never be seen again. I don't want to forget my life and my family and I don't want my family to see my life waste away.
I feel the same way
Lethal injection? That would be way too scary for me. Imagine knowing that you won't wake up after going to sleep. I'd rather do something more spectacular if I could, like jumping off a building to feel the cold air at least one last time.
@AJX That could work too.
I told my wife if I get diagnosed with dimentia or Alzheimer's, imma get in my wheelchair whacked out on lsd and she's going to push me into a busy highway
I’m not sure if this is true so don’t count me on this but apparently scientists have almost found a cure and it might be public by 2023
People with dementia usually remember one last memory, last tune of music, a golden fragment untouched by dementia, where people could remember good until stage 6.
When they forget that fragment, they will die soon after.
There's going to be one guy that hums Megalovania until they die.
@@KC_Garcia that would most likely be me if I had dementia
@@dariboi7622 for me it's going to be imagine dragons radioactive but it's just I'm waking up
@@KC_Garcia aka me
Hey at least you feel the emotion of your last rickroll before seconds later you DIE.
This is how i felt it was when i was listening to the entire thing
Stage 1:Something is off
Stage 2:You feel weird
Stage 3:Memories start to melt
Stage 4:Your own image is beggining to vanish
Stage 5:You don't have a sense of time anymore
Stage 6:Trying to remember in the last day and almost succeding but failing at the same time
Can you give a bit more context on stage 6?
@@AerithRimuru8888 You try to remember events that happened in the last 12-24 hours but you can’t recall what you even had for lunch. The last minutes are usually trying to remember an untouched memory or sound and you cling onto it until eventually forget everything and die.
@@coolhippyjerk585 Thank you
My first time listening to it was
Stage 1: ok i guess ..the first two songs are actually pretty nice tho
Stage 2: still alright I think? But The background is creepy
Stage 3: holy...
First 5 seconds of stage 4: WHAT THE HELL IS THIS *stops video*
*Restarts video after having a break*
Man...this is so scary...
Stage 5: I wanna die.
Stage 6: *actually dies*
@@tabien888 Pretty much the same for me but I did not have a break
This album broke me. I don’t know if I can even comprehend how horrifying it would be to lose everyone you know, and everything you know, and yet have it right there in front of you.
Just like a closed book. All the text is definitely there, right inside the book, but you can't read it.
The last five minutes are the worst part of this by far, it gives me goosebumps.
It's the pre-death clarity dementia-ill people have moments before passing, recognising loved ones and remembering briefly, (hence the music coming back)
Followed by a minute of complete silence, representing life fading away from the body
Part 6 is so calming then suddenly so horrific. My great grandma had Alzheimer's and she was always so kind but so confused. She kept wondering why there were elderly people around her and why she wasn't allowed to help them because she thought she was a nurse. I can't imagine the confusion and fear as a result. It makes me never want to age.
@@zacharyreynolds4303 I won't lie, it can definitely be scary and upsetting, but you can get through this. It's great that you're putting more effort into being there for her! Especially if she remembers you more often, that can bring her more comfort and help her feel safer. My great grandma didn't remember me but was happy to see the family and I regardless. Don't forget to take care of yourself too and do the things you enjoy!
The empty canvas on stage six is really sad. On the side not seen, It's a beautiful painting, reminiscent of your loving memories of the past, so close to see, yet, you cannot. All you can perceive is the blank, empty backside of the canvas. No matter how hard you try you cannot for the life of you even begin to think of those once wonderful memories you once had. Knowing they are right there; you cannot reach them.
but its a fucking canvas tho
blue tape is often used in repair work to indicate that something is in a state of damage or disrepair. notice the hinges on the side of what i believe to be a cabinet. my interpretation is that stage 6 is a cabinet (representing the brain of the patient in a state of disrepair, that cannot be accessed. there is no cabinet connected to the door because it is impossible for the patient to perceive what’s behind the door, their own mind locked away from their empty, cold shell of a body.
Here’s something I tried and it’s scary.
Tell me what the painting on the other side is.
I tried to...
It’s terrifying.
All I saw was a blur of all the other song background together as a rainbow.
Then I had a flicker of when I really saw it.
It was like a plant, growing really tall..
It was rainbow and the background was the same.
What confuses me is why I saw the flowers if it matched exactly with the background.
Just this alone is....terrifying....
It was still blurry but I could see it perfectly..
Like terminal lucidity, for a second I see it all before and then I just see the cardboard again.
Your passion for music is so palpable. It really drew me to tears seeing you react so organically to this
Stage 1: beautiful memories
Stage 2: sudden forgotful-ness
Stage 3: something is really wrong
Stage 4: accept, depressed and forget. Unfamiliar and uneasy.
Stage 5: a hoax of your past-self, trying to grips the remaining broken pieces together.
Stage 6: a last golden moment fades away...
stage 4 hell sirens: revisiting your mind for 2 minute
stage 4 j1: chill
stage 5 clarity state 1: last moment of memory
stage 5 state 2 clarity: last moment of music
As someone autistic/ has ADHD I couldnt attach myself to the end and its emotional significance at all and I hated that. I understood what made it sad and I understood what it represents and even though I had to listen to it part by part (as 6 hours is stupid long for my attention span) I wanted to feel this as everyone else who reacted to it did and I just couldn't. Something about that made it hard for me in a different way and not even about memory loss. Just the fact that I could hear it, understand it and not feel that way, not emotional at all just felt ....bad
@Dungeons and Dinos. I think you're in the same boat as a lot of people. Simply appreciating the art form for what it is and understanding its meaning is valuable, even if you don't cry like everyone is "supposed to".
As someone with add, which is simmilair enough, I did sit through this and well its pretty baffling. As I take the time to appreciate art and its various forms, its more what youre interested in, I can expect people not being able to sit through this since I almost couldnt aswell, even though I enjoy this and stuff. I decided to go through it and push through since both of my grandmothers had dementia, rip all of my grandparents. Anyways, take your time and do whatever you like, its your choise and that is what matters bro, peace
I also have autism i felt uncomfortable which I only rarely feel. It was sort of Odd
As someone with minor ADHD, I relate to this comment.
I have ADHD too and I too couldn't work through it. I definetly couldn't listen to the entire thing, but also I was sweating just in the first minute of it. It is a terrifying piece of art, not something that you can just observe and understand. Many people have different reactions to it, some can't make it through the beginning, others have panic attacks, some have no reaction for the entire time. It is such a beautiful thing because different people will react to it completely differently than others, and I kind of think that that is the point of it. You aren't "wrong" for not attaching yourself to it, you just react differently, and thats fine.
Damn, schools only go like "Dementia is where u only forget blah blah blah", and EATEOT.... EATEOT describes it better, damn. Leyland Kirby is a fucking genius!
My papa has Alzheimer’s and I listened to the track to see what he’s going through… I’ve already mourned his “death”
He turns 80 next year…
Happy birthday Papa… I love you🤍
The fear in your eyes when you heard white noise gave me chills
someone can really make a whole movie with just this song and it would be beautiful
Unless you minimized it down to regular movie length it would be less of a movie and more of a experience. Imagine everywhere at the end of time but with visuals. Jesus
I feel like this would feel good with the joker movie
Ngl if someone drew what they experienced at each stage, it would be epic
the feels of ddlc but 500x worse
@@monke1510 eh they dont have alot in common
Someone once said that art was meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable. I would have to agree. I've lived with depression most of my life it feels like, and I was definitely not in the best state mentally when I listened to EATEOT. While listening to it, I felt time itself slowed down and my joints felt heavy. I wasn't paralyzed, but my body didn't want me to move. The album was disturbing, especially later on, but I never cried. I just felt empty? Yet also I currently I feel fulfilled. I feel like a stronger person overall after listening to this.
Same
I had the question wether or not to listen for this very thing, but thanks to this comment I think I will
@@CruisingThrougRanked how did u think of it cuz I ain’t listening to that crap
@@imcooliguess5759 i fell asleep in the 5th hour cause my computer died. Played it again and fell asleep again (I hadn’t eaten anything in the whole day don’t judge xd). I thought I hadn’t listened properly and that it would have no effect, but it did. The last part where the choir hits is incredible. I don’t know how to describe it cause I hadn’t felt that way before. I know sadness and melancholy but this was something else. I know it’s a long video but I definitely recommend watching it. Sorry for this long ass paragraph but I was really excited when I realized how good it really is. I’m aware that a 6h video isn’t appealing to everyone but I recommend this one a lot.
Same. I have 7 mental health diagnoses and I didn't even know well enough what I was getting into. After I finished I read the comments saying if you're mentally ill it will break you. It didn't break me, it really changed my perspective on life though. Had to sleep with lights on after the 6 hour binge but I'm still hyperfixated on it a few days later researching it.
7:45 is a representation of "Terminal Lucidity" it's when a person close to death has a sudden surge of memories and energy that tends to give families a false sense of hope. The person seems as though they're at stage 1 or 2 and almost completely aware of everyone and everything around them. But in the end they're not getting better, they're not reverting to improvement, they're stuck. They feel almost relief that they're at deaths doorstep, at the edge of bliss. They feel like they're "Everywhere at the End of Time".
The ending is very clear, the last memory someone remembers is their favourite song/piece, in the caretaker's case, those last 5 ish minutes, is just Bach's St.Luke's passion(the final tenor aria) ... but... distorted and slowed down, so it's likely his favourite piece, and it was the last somewhat lucid moment he could remember, what a tragedy
I think the first track of the albums says Alzheimer’s best
“It’s just a burning memory”
It’s like a slow burning paper
Each second is lost, each burn you forget more
But there is no extinguish
Just bits and pieces of ash that you can hardly recall
And then it stops when there is no more to burn
Just the end
Really true. And the original version of Just A Burning Memory is like this upbeat song, about a man who cant stop thinking about another person. It's called Heartaches by Al Bowlly, I reccomend it.
@@avocadokid2090 yeah I’ve heard it ironic how it’s of a man who keeps thinking about this person they know and remove
Pov: You enter the deep part of CZcams and dark comment section
I have fallen down the rabbit hole
@@lilsquidyyy Hololive?
No sir. I searched for this
Stage 1: All of your memories of you in your prime and the happiest moments in your life are in full display in your mind. Memories untouched and as they were when you lived them.
Stage 2: You still remember your life but you notice that something is a little off, you forget very minor things but the overall picture is still there for now.
Stage 3: As you cherish your final memories, you start to feel like your life is slowly melting before your eyes as you forget big key details in your life.
Stage 4: a sort of purgatory stage where you’ve done all your cherishing and now it’s the transition from being alive to dead in a matter of days. Or was it months? Can’t remember…
Stage 5: dead mentally but very much alive physically. You see glimpses of memories but they are so disjointed and wrong that they feel normal after what stage 4 was.
Stage 6: ….
Im a teenager and im stage 2 lol, my head is so fricking lazy.
@@kittygiatanidon4980 what.
@@kittygiatanidon4980 you have dementia in your teens..?
I’m happy that I have a nice healthy grandmother physically and mentally i’m sorry for anyone that had to deal with this my heart goes out for y’all.
please treasure her i don’t want to make you sad or anything but my nans gone and i miss her every fucking day
I always thought stage 6 was when the person has died and is welcomed into heaven by angels chanting and that's what the last few seconds are about
Sadly, that's even worse.
It's terminal lucidity. Hours or even minutes before death, people with Alzheimer's or dementia have shown to suddenly behave as if nothing ever happened to them. They recognize their loved ones, they can recall memories. And then, they die.
The last minutes of EATEOT is exactly that. Your last memory and your last thought that, in a matter of minutes, after years of being locked up in your brain, you'll be gone.
Heartbreaking
@@generalkenobi7232 That's not something evolution will give you
it would never prepare you for death
call it what you want
@@unitedstates4912 ok, explain this then
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terminal_lucidity
@@unitedstates4912 we don't understand why alzheimer is caused to begin with (what causes the plaque buildup), and we'd literally have to be completely prepared to scan a person's brain on the off chance they get terminal lucidity before they die.
It happens but figuring out why at this moment is like trying to learn how to run before you walk. That doesn't mean it's not a real thing, though.
Stage 1: This is the peak you've been climbing towards to, it's the climax of your life...
Stage 2: You feel off, you've realized something, yet it's buried deep, you cherish your past moments, because they led to your family of 2 kids and a wife.
Stage 3: Its hard to think, sometimes I stumble upon a place and don't realize how I got there, It's getting difficult to remember your past.
Stage 4: I see the world as grey and black, when I try to remember anything...its just static, you cherished your past.
Stage 5: Where am I? Who am I? Why am I here? I hear voices, sad voices, I've been runing in this maze for as long as I can §rEmMeberμ ... I'm starting to think theres no exit.
Stage 6: .........
I'm going to quote this youtube commentator-
"Your lucky if your body dies with your mind." - Dirt Block
Oh my god... this is depressing
"Art must comfort the disturbed, and disturbe the comfortable. "
I used to play the piano at the nursing home for my grandmother, a dementia patient. The more I did it, the more of her fellow patients listened. The look on their faces, to give them that relief from the confusing worlds they found themselves within, made it worth it.
You got a lovely job there.
i wanna bring up an interpretation of the final few minutes that i've seen around which really gave me chills thinking about it. it's likely not what the Caretaker was going for but, y'know, subjectivity and all. there's a phenomenon called "terminal lucidity" that sometimes occurs in patients with Alzheimer's (and other neurological afflictions) where during the final moments when the body begins slipping away, the brain becomes frantically active trying to hold onto life, creating a sort of moment of clarity in the patient, with consciousness and maybe even some rational thought, speech capability and even memories returning. thinking of the final piece in this context, it's... _chilling_ to say the least. a whimpering and solemn, yet _lucid_ ode to all that came before as you're slowly whisked away from this world to return to whatever it is that we emerge from.
...whoof. god damn this is a masterpiece
@wuffdog Wow, that's Amazing. I didn't know about that.
Bruh does this mean that our brains the entire time could've been able to just jog our memories and help us, they were just too lazy to do anything until they realized that the person is dying?
@@oliviab.9194 It's not laziness, it's a fight-or-flight sort of deal.
@@salmonandsoup hm, makes sense.
I thought the last part was a funeral personally
same here.
Same, you can here the shuffling and coughing in the background as if you are present in your last moments in your body before you are brought up into heaven....
I can’t hear the shuffling or coughing, can you give timestamps?
The last part was a eulogy
but is
Just when the song ends, there is 1 minute of silence
If my mother or father get dementia, I would pull the plug if they were on a life support.
I couldn't deal with the pain of their mind degrading, and she not even knowing her own son was talking to her.
But mostly, I wouldn't be able to handle the pain _they_ would be feeling.
Same, if I know I had dementia I would rather kill myself
Agreed
I'm at a loss for words. Its message is so powerful it's frightening. I can't believe the disease can do this to someone. I always thought it could go away, but it's a lot like cancer, it just grows and grows until you are just a husk of what you once were. I cried around the same time you did when listening to this. I don't wish this amount of pain on anyone, this is very saddening to think about as I am writing this comment. The fact that what once was is now gone just leaving your grasp as you slowly come to accept it. I wish mental illnesses were talked about more in today's world.
I listened to this whole thing with my Grandpa who died from Alzheimer's in mind. I spent most of this album emotionally numb, but upon the last 5 minutes it all broke loose and I wept bitterly.
Cope
@@berlinciaga m.czcams.com/video/ML21RiO4exY/video.html
@@berlinciaga this is why you’re mom doesn’t love or care about you
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@@berlinciaga what does cope even mean
My interpretation behind the Vinyl crackle, and static popping, was that they represented the brain, or the subject, recalling memories. Stage 1 is the subject casually recalling these past memories without issue, with a crackle present. It's carried through into stage 2, and into the awareness stage. even though these memories are becoming more and more disturbed, broken, and off, the brain is still attempting to recall them, hence the vinyl crackle. But when entering the post-awareness stages where the brain has lost its ability to recall singular memories and is trying to make sense of the scraps of memories remaining, The static, white noise, and Vinyl crackle become much louder and present in the music, showing the brains feeble attempts to recall what disjointed memories it has left. The impression I got from the crackle slowly fading away in stage 6, is that the subject no longer has any remnants of memory left to attempt to recall. and when the sound cuts to a record being put on, and the choir beginning to sing, I saw it as the subject experiencing terminal lucidity, a moment of clarity, and the ability to recognize your family, and recall memories, hence the crackle, before passing away. Such an amazing project.
Some really great thoughts! Thank you, Avery. ☺️
In my opinion, 8:59 is actually a symbol of "Terminal Lucidity" which is a medical phenomenon (source: google) "unexpected return of mental clarity and memory, or suddenly regained consciousness that occurs in the time shortly before death in patients suffering from severe psychiatric or neurological disorders"
Everything in EATEOT is samples of ballroom music spanning from the 1920’s to the 1940’s, and if you listen to the first song out of context, (Heartaches) it gives you much greater context into some of the later stages, where it’s sampled much more frequently. There’s a couple of playlists of all of the source songs, and I recommend listening to them before listening to the full album/EATEOT. It’s a much more… realistic experience. This entire piece will have you in a different mental state if you listen to the full thing with no distractions, no pausing, anything. This really is one of the greatest pieces, from someone who’s suffered dementia through both of my grandparents passing away from it. I hope you enjoy it.
Gen z edition:
Hamood fading into the distance.
"Let go" by ark patrol, instrumental playing in the background.
Rick astley whispering "never gonna give you up" lyrics, but it constantly gets slower.
Sweden by C418 ends stage 6.
NOOOOOO
someone make this. it would be more scary because that might actually be what we experience
but obviously with more serious songs
On it! Expect a shout out😎
@@sophiersticated nope Rick Astley will haunt your dreams, lol.
The album really hits hard when you’ve had old relatives you’ve known your entire life pass away. The thought of dementia terrifies me. I don’t want to forget.
My grandma passed away from it an year ago, and trust me... i seriously wish to no one dementia, because it's a horrible "disease".
You just basically become an alive corpse without any emotion, you forget everything, you're not yourself anymore.
"You live an entire life but at the end you haven't lived a single day"
-Anon
My mother died from dementia last year. This work gives me the opportunity to go on her journey, holding her hand until there's nothing left but grief.
A video so good that I've already rewatched it three times.
So while listening to this song I suddenly get hit by a question: "What have i been doing all this time?". Now as I sat there upon the couch, hand on my lap, eyes cast upon the ceiling while reevaluating everything I've done up to now. Then I thought, "What if the world ended right now?", I look outside of my window and sighed. "I'd probably be doing what I loved most. Even if I was old, I would still wish to do what I loved even if I forget how. If I cant, then I would love to just... watch..."
So then I sighed and stood up, "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IM STILL YOUNG WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING ABOUT".
You can get demantia at 26 youngest just to let you know. Have fun sleeping.
@@qwertyuioplkmjnhbgvfcdxsza you CAN not will
@THE ODD TRASH CAN yeee.
@@qwertyuioplkmjnhbgvfcdxsza good thing I ain’t 26
@@yaboi4036 *not yet anyway*
I wish I never found this album, to be honest.
You too, I see.
i found it from a meme,i regret searching up the song.
Same
I can relate. Morbid curiosity led me here. Now I'm just deeply unsettled and sad.
Same
"Stage 6 is without description"
That is bone chilling
My grandmother died from dementia and at 9:45 all the memories of her came flooding back. True art.
My grandmother had dementia for a few years before she died and it was very rough seeing the sharp intelligent woman that she was reduced to a babbling confused mess. I wonder if her end days in the nursing home were similar to the end of this album. Very sad thought.
You know this track made me cry so hard. My grandfather has Alzheimer's and it made me think of him before and after he got it and it destroyed me. I can't imagine how he feels. He somewhat forgot about my father. He thinks I'm his son because I looked like my dad in his younger years.
I feel really bad for him...
Please, give him the biggest, warmest hug you can.
@@c0mpu73rguy I literaly tought the same but I saw you already said it
It reminds me of Chernobyl soundtrack.
It haunted me. I had a bunch of unrealistic fears about ghosts that might reap me apart, but now I am afraid of radiation and mental illnesses. I want my unrealistic fears back.
One of the few videos I actually like, brilliant piece of content right here
Imagine listening to the whole album without context
Would probably quit after the first track since I'm not I to ballroom jazz and I'd just think it's a collection of jazz songs... Not that...
Banana
@@alejandroaviles6814 pajama
@@NobreePontes pineapple
I did that for about 2 hours before realizing that something's becoming off, and then I looked into what it was about.
I work in an assisted living home as a healthcare assistant. We have lots of residents who have dementia, it’s so scary it’s a horrible disease. There’s people who don’t remember that family members so, mothers, fathers, husbands ,wives , children or friends have passed away. That shit sucks to break to them as they have no memory of the time since there love one has passed away. Having a carer speak to you and provide care for you only to not remember there name, let alone where you are must be terrifying. We have people who’s minds have erased the memories of being an adult so from the age of 8-80 is completely gone. If you have a family member who had dementia or Alzheimer’s, talk to them. Call them, go to visit them, whenever you see someone hear even a friends voice, is absolutely amazing, but when you have this disease it means the world to them, it’s lights up there face and you can see how much it means to them. If you speak to any carer working with people with dementia 90% of us will say we would rather be killed then live through the progress of dementia. It sounds horrible but it’s a reality of seeing things that people can’t understand. Hold your family members close and if you have family member who has been diagnosed, talk to them. I can’t imagine the fear some people must go through, hearing or seeing a relative even if they don’t recognise you, means so much to them.
Beautiful words, thank you Matthew. 😊
Banana
I've heard you're supposed to play along if they forget that somebody died, because no matter how many times you break the news to them, no matter how badly it might hurt for them to hear it, they'll forget all about it soon enough. So every time you try and remind them "no, honey, Mike died in a car crash 40 years ago" you're just making them relive that pain..
this is not joke or challenge this is a piece of art that is not to be messed about dementia is not a joke and this is related to that, very related. there has been many people that lost there life to dementia this piece of art proves that you need to enjoy the very moments that you have with your loved ones it does not matter if its your mom your dad your grandparents your siblings, even yourself enjoy them while you have them. Because you may not have them for very long.
I seriously never in my life felt soo emotional about a song ,whoever made that album could bring emotion out just by sound alone,incredible work its an acctual masterpiece
I didn’t really cry at just stage 6 but at various parts throughout the album
I never cried just extremely uncomfortable
@@outlxndish somehow people don't cry to that track when they first listen to it but it started breaking me when I listened to it a second time
i am extremely sensitive so i am feeling so much pain crying rn
I just dk whats going on im just scared
I cried at the beginning and the very end.
My mother is a person who takes care of people with dementia and Alzheimer’s she always tells me when she comes home that it’s probably one of the hardest things she ever has to watch, watching the people slowly loose everything they once loved and even cared about.
7:34 I was about to cry but I loved the song at the same time
I just didn't know what to feel.
We can only hope to not die like that...
I am like you.
When I hear music from around the 90/80 or even 70s, I feel a scenery of imagination, I think of castles, old houses, and alot more.
I think of the world as a huge, open, sandbox and I sometimes get points where I wish I could explore anywhere I would like to.
Thank you though for reminding me of this.
:)
Excellent video, thumbs up; but the name of the work is "Everywhere at the End of Time"
Oof thanks for catching that, my bad.
What was the original?
What did he put before
@@Hidden4125 I think I wrote "Everything" in the title till Luis mentioned it lol
@@InductionStudios you forgot...
God those last 6 minutes always got me, I remember listening to this without stopping and I felt like I was losing myself as it went on, but when this final section started to play I just broke, I'm not sure why, but that's what haunted me, and I still listen to place in the world fades away regularly. Surprisingly I often find myself listening to 'We don't have many days', the very second track in the entire album, it's honestly very very pretty! It reminds me of a nice rainy day, and even my mom likes it.
If you like that type of music but don't want the feels and dread, I HEAVILY recommend 'An Empty Bliss Beyond This World' it has the same cozy feeling as the first stage and stays that way, and it's about an hour long!
You're very strong for going through all of it, and it's okay to cry, I think we all did c:
The problem is, how am I going to sleep tonight?
I dont cry but i have deep feelings
I listen to those two same exact songs in the whole album (Don't have many days and World fades away)
Great reaction man. I finished listening to the album like a month ago (done in one sitting) and I've been thinking about it ever since.
8:41
I just suddenly felt cold and all the tension in my body released. I felt.. limp and helpless, and i think thats what the album was going for.
C'est Fini.
I literally just sat though all 6 stages and then now this is giving me chills again
Some music is like that, random example: The scene in Rescuers Down under when they fly over the waterfall...Chills every time. I gotta do a video about that movie, dang.
This album was one of the most painful experiences i've ever experienced. While i was listening to the album my family interrupted my listening and at the time i was annoyed. But after i finished it i had sort of a greater appreciation for the people in my life. I now see those interruptions as letting me know that whatever I'm experiencing wether it be good or bad people are always there for me.
The choir of the Angels created from their sorrows and pain will take me to my eternal hall where my memories will return and I will dance eternally :')
The entire song album is about a person suffering from dementia, explaining what the disease is like, and what happens in each stage of the disease. The final minutes of the last song show about the last living moments without memory.
While I was watching this my dad came in the living room and sang/hum his favorite song and I almost cried because I can't imagine him one day not being able to remember the song anymore. The fact that one day I might hear him say that he forgot the song he always listens to, is truly heartbreaking to think about.
I was always skeptical about the trendy videos of people crying. I thought it was just a thing to get views. But after going through this whole series myself, it's so hard to describe what it's like. This last phase had me in a trance to the point I kinda forgot what I was doing. I had the same reaction to the last part when the record starts up, it somewhat startled me. Then that music started, I just started weeping.
Thank you for being honest and open about your reaction and review. I had the same skepticism, but it really is an emotional masterpiece.
Thank you for taking the time to watch it 🥰 It's gotten more views than I ever expected it to, so I'm glad a lot of people are learning about this artwork.
the choir at the end of stage six makes me sob every fucking time i hear it. i’ve gone through eateot twice now, in its entirety, and it always shatters me. even months after listening, it’s managed to fuck me up.
I remember listening to this whole album in one sitting and getting destroyed emotionally lol, idk how to explain it. Since it's such a long album, while I was listening, my imagination wandered a lot and basically invented a whole alternate universe life for myself in the 30's. Finding love, working on a farm, going to war, settling down, buying the farm, having kids, getting old... The final track felt like I was saying goodbye to that whole reality I had constructed
I feel like my experience was a bit different to what other people have experienced... but who knows, maybe that was the intention of the album, being a slow descent over years and years from youth to death.
Guys is something wrong with me? I listened to the whole thing and felt nothing. I understood what was happening at the moment and the depressing concept of the album, but I felt nothing, even during stage 6.
There's nothing wrong with you, Lighting. Everyone responds differently to it. It could have had a reverse placebo effect from all the hype about it, expectations and all that jazz. Not everyone cried when Iron Man died either...😭😭😭
@@InductionStudios
Thanks for the help! I'm at a point in my life where I can't tell what's normal or not. Everything seems so bizarre and off-putting, even though it's perfectly normal.
@@lightningstudios9559 it's been an isolating year & that strips away points of reference for gauging "normalcy" so assumin u're affected by tha global turmoil writ large, ur disorientation's normal, too
@@Star-pl1xs
I really appreciate your support! Living with covid and the constant threat of having to be isolated again hasn't really been good for my mental health. I really wish people could just do what they're told so that this could all be over, but no.
@@lightningstudios9559 fr lol, fr
Trying to talk to my grandma breaks my heart, because she's barely able to express her thoughts anymore, but I still do it - because I love her. If she wants a hug for 5 minutes straight, I just hug her for 5 minutes straight. I can't imagine what she's going through, and I just want to be there for her.
the video was beautiful man. I subbed.
Thank you! I'm having a hard time making something that lives up to it. 😅
I listened to all of this in one sitting, I also wrote a short essay about it. Everytime i hear those last 10 minutes, I can feel it in my heart and my emotions go wild and as I am writing this, I am about to cry
Probably one of the most emotional records ive heard. I almost felt exhausted afterwards.
When I was listening to this track, it made me think about a video of Robin Williams I had watched, and his struggle with lewy body dementia (I don’t think he received that diagnosis while he was alive but was originally diagnosed with Parkinsons). All he knew was that he was he was slowly he losing himself, and had frequent lapses in memory. This track made me feel as if this was his agony. Needless to say, I can’t listen to this without thinking of his story.
Shit I’d kill myself too if this was what I had to struggle with every single day
I didn't know Robin Williams had dementia. If he did then that makes his death easier to deal with, somehow.
This album... is so hard to describe to me. It's basically the music that explains itself, telling you (or rather giving you) the feeling of what someone with dementia is going through.
The Caretaker is such a genius.
Thanks.
the vague harmonica at the near end sent me over the edge. it reminded me a lot of my grandpa before he passed away. he played the harmonica all the time before he was diagnosed with a tumor in his throat. I miss him
“They lived a long a fulfilling life, but by the end they never lived a single day”
My grandpa had dementia, I could never imagine what was going on in his head even up to the point where there wasn’t even anything going on. I waited to finish the piece before watching this vid
When the music came back after that static I literally started to cry instantly while watching this. I can't even imagine hearing my favorite song as my last memory before it's all gone.
'Do you even remember what music is?' That fucking got me man. Now we are both here crying thanks 😭