The "Everywhere At The End Of Time" Experience
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- čas přidán 2. 07. 2024
- “Everywhere At The End Of Time” is a six and a half hour long music/ambient sound experimental project by the musician Leyland Kirby, better known as “The Caretaker.” The six album compilation is one of the most fascinating things I’ve found in a while, and I hope this video is able to explain it in a way that makes you as interested as I was by it. If you enjoyed, please like, comment, and subscribe for more content like this coming soon!
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Sections:
Intro: (0:00)
A Brief History: (1:50)
Stage 1: (6:12)
Stage 2: (9:42)
Stage 3: (14:29)
Stage 4: (18:29)
Stage 5: (23:47)
Stage 6: (24:53)
Final Review: (27:58)
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The entirety of “Everywhere At The End Of Time” can be listened to here:
• The Caretaker - Everyw...
All music discussed and demonstrated in this video from “Everywhere At The End of Time” belongs to Leyland Kirby and is entirely his work.
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Here are some other songs that were sampled and played in this video:
Al Bowlly: Heartaches
• Al Bowlly: Heartaches
Granada → LP Latin Rendezvous (Mantovani y Su Orquesta) (Hell sirens sample)
• Video
A1 - It's just a burning memory (8-BIT)
• A1 - It's just a burni...
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This is an incredible video. Extremely professional, just subbed. You deserve more subs.
Thank you so much! I can't explain how much that means to me. Another video on EATEOT coming soon 😜
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Yogi knggo ngi mbuh
@@TheDigitalSaloon i’m excited to see it!
That last, lucid, part of that track is representative of a phenomena that sometimes happens with dementia patients were, right before they die, they regain lucidity, almost as if they are getting better, but they are not. It’s called Terminal Lucidity
Yes! I read about that, I probably should have mentioned that in the video!
Sad as hell
@@hollowtrappedinaelevator320 You can say that again 😔
Phenomenon* when singular :)))
i regret setting my name as lucid now lol
Personally, I interpret the "Hell Siren" as a point of agony rather than a reference to a war. It sounds like a cry, with the character having suffered for so long, being so tired and frustrated. It's absolutely heart-wrenching to listen to either way.
Yes I think it may represent the part of dementia where at that point their minds are beyond saving and being ripped apart every moment they live which is downright sad
I think it is more likely to be about war, because kirby does reference war a couple of times in his music, the most notable being september 1939 off the haunt ballroom
Someone else theorized that the Hell Sirens represent an episode of Sundown Syndrome
I've listened to it and I'll be honest a wept uncontrollably at the end for a good 5 or 10 minutes. It's tragically beautiful
It really is! So amazing
Right there with you, Mika. It was so personal to me since my grandma was tormented by dementia.
god that music destroyed me bro
me too, never had music hit me that hard honestly
im still crying ;~;
My grandma was diagnosed with alzheimer's about 6-7 months ago, each time we visit her, it's heartbreaking seeing her so confused. Listening to this brings me to tears knowing this is what she is going through.
I lived with my grandmother as she went through with it, was very painful and the album really does hit it right on the money
I listened to this to try to understand how my grandmother's brain works now, and I felt so weary and sad. I'm sorry to hear about your grandma- it's really hard.
play her music, for some reason musical patterns are the most common things a patient with dementia is most likely to remember (even if it's just the melody of a song, not the track itself) since they sometimes hum it, and it could help degrade her mind more slowly than it currently is
I’m so sorry to hear that, I know how that feels:( my grandma is currently in the last stage of Alzheimer’s
Honestly, I have no problems with remixes, mashups, or a few memes here and there. What I do have a problem with is people completely pissing on it and completely missing the point of the album, or people who make fun of people with dementia (not the small "I forgot" jokes, I mean actually being a dick). It's sad that people like these are shitting on this work of art.
Exactly. That's the unfortunate drawback of something so deep and nuanced becoming widespread. Lot's of people just aren't gonna get it. Plus, with such a dark and uncomfortable topic, many people are disturbed by it and comfort themselves by making a joke out of it, which is understandable.
@@TheDigitalSaloon yeah, and tbh, I think some people just remix the songs used/sampled because if we're being honest, they're genuinely good songs
@@LooneyNuke Exactly. Like the song I used for the end screen is an 8-bit remix of "It's just a burning memory." The songs are genuinely catchy and cool so I also enjoy how people can put a different spin on the music without detracting from the original.
Honestly if you see someone just being an asshole and making fun of thks project or is turning it into a "creepypasta" then just send them a link to hell sirens.
@@coreyford3556 that'll get them lol
Stage 3 is my favorite stage of the pre-confusion stages. As it really shows the deterioration of ones mind as memories become more distant, the way how we hear songs that we heard earlier throughout the first 3 stages, but now they are more damaged but not out of order yet.
Yeah it's in that perfect middle point between normal music and total distortion. Gives off super creepy vibes.
yeah I really like stage three but alao stage four as well
I agree - it almost works like a mini version of the whole project, with empty stage 6 type moments and very lucid moments as well.
That part where a demon possessed trumpet goes "WOOG WOOOOOGA"
Fucking terrifying.
@@Isaac_646 in what song In stage 3?
22:28 more about his passing, he wasnt actually effected by any of the bombs but died instead by a door being blown off the hinges and slammed into him
Oh wow. I didn't know that! I hope it wasn't too painful for him 😭
Oof! RIP Al Bowley.😫😭
@@ch3e5eburglvr 1903 - 1941
you'll be forever missed...
@@toby-fp6sp 38!? That's Too Young
As a person who had to watch my great grandma go through alzheimers, it is heartbreaking.
Every time we went over, there were more notes. Saying how to do basic tasks that anyone could do without fault.
She forgot who we were, she thought people on the TV were talking to her, and slowly got weaker. It got so emotional that I downright refused to visit because I couldn't handle it.
In her final moments, she was laughing. She had no idea what was happening, and so she laughed. She then fell asleep, and died.
im sorry for your loss. I feel your pain
I'm obsessed with the caretaker and his projects and EATEOT is by far one of the best concept albums of all time. I'm in the process of making my own EATEOT type album and it's because Leyland Kirby managed to essentially create a new genre/aesthetic. I've listened to the entire project over 3 times hahahahaha
That is awesome! It really is in its own league as far as music goes!
Yeah. I'm working on my own 'parody' of EATEOT as well that focuses on C-PTSD and BPD. I think his new genre can be led to describe so many things and conditions and put it into a form of music.
@@radarcore2125 i love the caretaker’s work it’s some of my favorite type of music now. Mental illness core hahaha
@@radarcore2125 as someone with BPD & CPTSD I would be honored to hear this once you're done! After finding this today the same idea popped into my mind.
The choir in stage six sounds like my childhood church's speaker playing the choir through the church. Always felt a sense of sadness with that broken speaker sound. I feel that's where my connection is made.
as someone who is heavily interested in the 1920s, the album immediately intrigued me and i fell down the eateot rabbit hole a few months ago. revisiting it, i still don’t have the attention span or mental stability to listen to the entire album in full just yet, but i have gotten through stage 3 before stopping. i listened to the final track of stage 6 on its own, and that was enough to make me sob. i can’t even imagine what it would be like to listen to that ending after the hours of confused noise. i’ve been looking for more eateot analysis videos and this is so well-made and has to be one of my favorites. subbed :)
Thank you so much!!!
Imagine being introduced to this by a meme or some web comic. That’s like either the best or worst way to introduce yourself to something that sparks horror and dread of dementia and Alzheimers.
Exactly what happened to me 😂😂
Thankfully this just kept showing up on my recommended.. for some reason always when I was in a bad mOod
I got in early, so it wasn't a meme yet, but I completely understand, something that just horrifies you on a new level. I believe it could lead to understanding and awareness for many people who wouldn't deal with this subject until many years down the road in their lives, either with family members or personally.
when i was recommending this absolute work of art of an album to my friends, only one person even tried to listen to it. (not like i can blame them tho since... it's long.) that friend stopped about 2 hours in and dismissed it as "just noise" despite my efforts of trying to explain that there was legit substance behind it, that it wasn't "just noise", they didn't change their mind. the fact that they didn't even consider this beautiful, meaningful, depressingly REAL work of art, any more than "just noise", even despite a good friend being excited about it, kinda stung.
thats why the beginning of this video resonated with me so hard. unlike a lot of EATEOT videos, you made it after the album got a bit of traction, talking about how most people wrote EATEOT off as "weird" or a "creepypasta challenge" or something similar. because it's so impactful. it deserves such a better reception than that. i know that, like, not everyone's gonna GET the meaning behind some works of art, but still. you made a really good video about a really good album. you really deserve more subs.
(also ngl kinda regretting not playing minecraft while i listened to EATEOT for the first time, that probably would've made it way more bearable)
Thank you so much!
The best to explain it is that art is an acquired taste. Some people will like it and others don't, not all people have the same taste of music.
I for example like a catchy song that were melancholic or nostalgic while my friends like more upbeat songs.
Personally, I only ever listen to Stage 1 because I don't have enough bravery to continue it.
Alright, so I decided to listen to this absolute unit of an album collection the really, REALLY hard way: just straight-up sitting down and listening to it outright. No one to talk to. No games that I was playing. No activity to help the time pass. Nothing. Just me, my audiophile setup, and the music. As much as I want to tell everyone that they should do it this way as a rite of passage kind of thing, I honestly can't say whether or not I recommend anyone else go about it like this. It was actual pain to listen to the last album. It was life-changing to be sure, but was it so life-changing that I think people should also experience it like this? No, I really don't think so. While I still think that this should be listened to in one sitting, you should absolutely have a friend and take breaks after every stage or so (just don't listen to any other music before you get back and keep that break to under 15 minutes). This is a thing that, for the most understanding, needs to be discussed real-time or at least written about real-time (as I did). Again, I won't tell you that my way of listening to EATEOT was the "best" way because that would imply that you get the most gain. While that may be the case, it is just so painful for stages 4, 5, and especially 6, that I can't really recommend doing so. Sorry for my rant, I am still processing my listen from yesterday.
Considering what the Hell Sirens were sampled from, it's possible that the Caretaker was a veteran of the Spanish Civil War, which infamously featured the bombing of Guernica by the German Luftwaffe.
I highly doubt the hell sirens are meant to indicate actual sirens or anything related to war. I think the scary sound represents an episode of sudden terror and fear brought on by the condition. I don't think it's a memory, but rather the fear brought on by the lack of them and/or the anxiety of not understanding anything around you.
@@TheDigitalSaloon there is another video on this project called "the symbolism of everywhere at the end of time" (or something close to that) where he theorises that it actually may be meant to represent something called sundown syndrome, which is basically where a dementia patient experiences sudden negative mood swings, hallucinations, and other stuff like that. I like to believe that this assessment is the most correct one
My favourite theory is that this moment and the minute leading to the hell siren itself is the character suddenly having a moment of clarity, realizing how far they've fallen and how much further they're going to inevitably fall. It's not memories or PTSD. It's just pure visceral horror.
I discovered this album last autumn-ish, and I decided I'd listen to it while flying to see my (now ex) partner. I tell you, the asthetic of listening to this album sitting in a big empty airport (because Covid, obviously, but I was quarantining and staying safe) or while on the plane with the added whitenoise while listening to this echoey, spacey album, was just mesmerizing. As the more warbled stages droned on, I could barely remember my surroundings and it was a strange and moving experience.
Hearing this album transports me to different real-life locations, but they're all just burning memories now.
i listened to it fully for the first time while in a hotel because there was a fire dangerously close to my house
I can’t believe you didn’t mention the bit of music about 4 minutes into stage 5! It’s so emotional and depressing because it’s not a real memory there, it’s a hallucination. A brief reprieve :(
In the original song, “Was it a Dream,” it says “I’m afraid I’ll wake and find it was only in my mind” so… yeah. I thought it was worth saying
Terrific video.
I personally would’ve mentioned how one of the songs on Stage 2 randomly starts with an ambient drone before the regular song fading in, and how some songs on stage 3 (like Back There Benjamin) cuts off in the middle and could make anyone crap themselves
Good observation!
I still feel as though I am me
I can't even comprehend how this guy doesn't even have 1000 subs, you honestly deserve millions lol
Thank you so much! 🥺 Sub to help get us there!
@@TheDigitalSaloon Of course!
He now has 1K!
Make it 2000
Aaah, i'm glad to see a good review...
A good review for a good album hahaha
The part of the Hell Sirens that disturbs me the most isn't the actual sirens, but the Low blurred Drone as they fade down to static, and Especially the garbled "Voice" as it fades
I was honestly shocked when i saw you only had 385 subs. You deserve way more!
Thank you so much 😭 We're trying!
Very nice review, always nice to see another video looking at EatEoT. And very nice reference to "Take Care, Its a Desert Out There" at the end!
Thank you! And I'm glad someone noticed what I said at the end! That will go over most people's heads haha
"Drifting Time Misplaced" is my favorite track from this project. It just has a vibe to it that I really enjoy. It's calm, but not in a peaceful way, more-so an empty "there's nothing that can be done, so just let it happen" way.
underrated video man, your analysis is on point of how i did it, played a game with 2 friends until they abandoned me at stage 5 (they werent listening to it)
its really fascinating on how experimental it is, i sort of want more experimental music like this
If you want more music like this... check out my other and most recent video about Everywhere At The End Of Time fan projects!
that was the first video i saw from you
For my own mental health ive decided to not listen to the whole album (i have a tendency to dissacoiate and get highly anxious) so this explaination is very much welcome. I want to at least experience this beautiful work of art without risking a panic attack.
I'm glad it was of use to you! Thanks for watching!
YOU DEVERVE MORE SUBS! THE EDITS ARE SO GOOD
Thank you so much!!!
I looked at this comment and i was like
“They probably have a few hundred thousand, that’s not underrated”
Then i checked.
Not even 1000, dang, super underrated
When I first listened to his album, my immediate thought was "This is what the afterlife sounds like". A dark, cold space that you wander for eternity, not knowing where you are or where you're going accompanied by the music that represents that exact feeling...
My favorite songs is back there benjamin and my heart will stop in joy, I like my heart will stop in joy because I think its the one the bops the most musically, I also like back there benjamin because it sounds good and it's the most musically genius, the the trumpet sounds so angry and it's echoes. It also repeats and it's so scary and gives me so much panic
Yes! I love those two as well!
how does this have so little views this is amazing
It happens
Thanks for introducing me to this album. I’m looking forward to experiencing it.
Very interesting and wonderful that you would do a video essay on such a subject matter. Funny how just coming across a meme and dismissing it, then having it cross your path just to, at that point, investigate further and delve into such a subject matter. Thank you for doing a serious video and possibly educating the Tic Toc generation who seems to think everything came into existence the day they were born and the is no past or history.
Again. Well done. This video and pretty much all content you do. Always well thought out and presented. And a well spoken and soothing voice. Glad I subscribed a while back. And looking foreword to future offerings. No matter the subject.
Thank you so much for watching! Your comment was very nice and it means a lot to me. Thank you for remaining subscribed even through my long breaks in between posting! More content is coming this summer for sure!
am I the only one who thinks post awareness confusions 2 is such a banger?
Certainly not!
Especially SECTION E.
@@notjebbutstillakerbal oh yes
You didn’t mention the mandolin solo at the end of stage 5!
It will be mentioned in my next EATEOT video coming soon 🤫
its at the end of the first track of stage 5, not the end of N1 - Sudden Time Regression into Isolation
Amazing and incredible video! I just subbed, but I definitely feel like this album needs to be recognized, not as a “creepypasta” or “Tik Tok Challenge” It needs to be recognized as something larger, bringing awareness to larger groups of people whom of which, do not understand dementia or don’t know what it is. Anyways, have a good day/night/evening/morning.
Thanks for watching!
@@TheDigitalSaloon You honestly do deserve more subs.
I think I've listened to the entire thing fifteen times, perhaps in an otherwise unconscious attempt to extract something more from it that I hoped was there, or in the vain attempt to re-experience the whole project for the first time again. A quick review of each album:
1. Peaceful ballroom tunes that one can really fall into a kind of nostalgic fantasy to, with their almost hypnotic repetition. Slight mental hiccups, forgetting where you placed something or a name for a second, only to recall it just fine - indistinguishable from normal cognitive decline due to ageing. Equivalent to 20 hours without sleep.
2. First impressions were unnerving. Something is alarmingly wrong here, and it taps you on the back of the head with a kind of passive-aggressive tender force. The tone alternates between sardonic and sincere, and reminds me of a counterfeit relationship with some unspoken tension. Problems with mood and frustration with daily activities, equivalent to 40 hours without sleep.
3. Chaotic and merciless descent into madness. Somehow this album was easier to process than the previous one, probably because of the relative increase in energy. Our subject is likely having issues with emotional regulation and is obviously quite fed up with his state of affairs as things slip away. Equivalent to three days without sleep.
4. A jarring transition into total incontinuity of thought and experience. This is what I imagine the soundtrack to Purgatory to be like - cold, formless, vaguely recognizable, tortured. As mentioned in another EATEOT video, this music is in pain. At this point, you cannot survive on your own and your thinking is so jumbled that your senses of self and time are virtually gone; hallucinating and delusions are invariable. Five days without sleep, perhaps.
5. An arguably nastier transition than to Stage Four, as we are jettisoned into sheer terror from the peaceful lull of J1. Total chaos, no mercy... then things calm down into a peaceful emptiness - an empty bliss, even? At this point, daily activities require help and communication is a hopeless endeavor, not to mention the experience of living completely in the moment. This could be what we go through on a week without sleep.
6. Huge walls of bassy sound with occasional notes knocking around. This one was difficult to listen to if for no other reason than that it has so little to it. At this point, we have such little conscious cognition that any thought or experience is utterly irrelevant to us. We need constant care around the clock and have probably been staring at that TV our entire life. The terminal lucidity at the end seemed a bit cliché to me, if I'm being honest... "And bliss everywhere bliss" would have been a better choice IMO. At this stage, I don't think there is any equivalent amount of sleep deprivation that matches this degree of cognitive decline without killing or just putting you straight to sleep.
Needless to say, I have a bit of an obsession with this piece. Something about themes of decay and the total hijacking of the mind itself that fixates me. I also have strong traits of a narcissistic personality, all-pervasive and penetrating deep into my own identity, and this project really gave me cause to contemplate thinking about thinking... observing my own thoughts... conquering insanity itself. It changed me on many levels, and made me aware of things that can't be changed. I think you and me both would both find it strange that there is a very noisy part of me that wants to get dementia in some brazen dare to conquer the unconquerable.
I felt like Stage 5 was slightly a missed opportunity to talk about.
While it was certainly depressing how the "songs" have degraded much further, it's what's normal that highlights it. For instance, a sample of "was it a dream" clearly plays with heavy static in the background before suddenly being shifted back into the confusions. There are also other moments of "clarity" but the first one is the most talked about out of all of them.
Yes! I wish I picked up on the was it a dream section
Man...very professional, as well as moving for a piece,you described it perfectly man, good job, also the meme in the beggining made me laugh and i forgot why
Thank you 😂
Superb video and analysis! This album was truly an experience for me and I love listening to how other folks perceived this piece. Subbed!
Thank you so much! It means a lot 🥺
I appreciated your video.
How did I discover "Everywhere At The End Of Time?" My CZcams feed was doing the "Liminal Spaces" set, and then "The Shining" set. (I'm not sure how the algorithm works, but this is more or less how I experienced the video themes.) And then... Voila. "Everywhere at the End of Time" showed up on the feed. Perhaps Alexa caught me talking about dementia, as my father has one variety of it. But regardless... As I was going through mourning the personality my father used to have, and I got used to the new normal, I decided to take the plunge and watch/listen to it.
I have since watched the whole thing 3 times, and the fan-based, updated version by The Caretakers "Nowhere At The Millennium of Space." (It's the same idea, but instead of 1920-40s music, it was 1950-70s music.) It resonates with me, scares me a bit, but it also comforts me a bit. While there is no guarantee that any patient with dementia will fall through all of the stages, the work gives me a sense of what is possible, and a thought for where my Dad falls along the progression. (It is by no means linear, but it is useful as a possible guide.)
I guess I'm fortunate that the "challenge" people don't come across my CZcams feed, and the people who do serious analyses of the work do. For that, I am grateful.
Great discussion! I wish you hadn’t spoiled the ending though. I’ve noticed a lot of people who review this album tend to do. But I understand why you did it. Overall a fantastic discussion and analysis.
My biggest regret about this video is not putting a spoiler warning at the end!
@@TheDigitalSaloon aww
@@777Rowen Thank you for watching! I plan on making another video related to this topic 🤐 So subscribe to see if you haven't already 😎
@@TheDigitalSaloon Wonderful looking forward to it.
My grandpa passed a couple years ago due to Alzheimer’s.. when I listened to this album for the very first time, I could hardly get thru the 4th stage, it made me panic-y and then I started sobbing. I didn’t know it could affect me that much since me and my grandpa weren’t all that close but knowing that this was supposed to simulate what he went thru was absolutely terrifying and made me feel sick. I adore this album tho, I still listen to the first stage from time to time it’s just so beautiful and it has my respect
Nice video, and appreciate your analysis. Subbed.
Thank you so much!!
yooooo i had no idea of half of these things, the hell sirens one to be specific. It truly is terrifying to listen to again with that context in mind
I've been trying to get Kirby for an interview. He is still being mysterious. I don't know how he could top EATEOT. So glad the internet has embraced the piece. Hugely important album of for many years.
Went through these stages with my favorite grandma and now my mom is showing beginning stages. This made me cry.
This video was so well produced. I’m in awe of how in depth you went into each stage. I don’t know anyone who has dementia but I take a medicine for my anxiety disorder called lorazepam (activan), it’s considered a sedative and is easy to get addicted to hence the prescriptions always being no more than 16 pills at a time. The thing is that I can only take it when I am very anxious and I cannot take it everyday, that is because taking this medicine puts me at risk of developing dementia later on in life. I’m only 17 but I worry every time I take this medicine that I’m putting my future self in a bad position. I like some of the songs on the album and I wholeheartedly admire the caretaker and this album but I can’t bring myself to listen to the full thing, so thank you for reviewing it.
Wow! Thank you for watching!
Wdym lorazepam is one of the weaker benzodiazepines, it IS addictive but it does NOT cause dementia, especially in prescription quantities.
Fun fact. The plaque in the brain that alzeimers patients have is represented by the static in the background. This is mostly because the static on a record is made from plaque and grime on the record
the consequence of the tiktok phase of this album is that now, the comment section of the original video is full of 14 year olds who think they have dementia because they do not remember what they had yesterday for breakfast.
also they are being extremely melo-dramatic, thinking that dementia is the worst thing ever
while I do agree that it's dumb that 14 year olds think they have dimentia, it really isn't an exaggeration to say that it's the worst thing that could happen to someone.
Imagine working hard for a life you're proud of, having kids and settling down happily, and then one day, being given the news that you have dimentia. Soon, you begin to forget small things, like where you left your car keys. then, you become increasingly frustrated at your loss of memory, which causes you to lose more from the stress. Eventually, they become more major, like the names of your wife and children. It just keeps getting progressively worse until you can no longer move because you've forgotten how. at that point you've lost so much that you can't really be considered alive at this point, or at least, not "Alive". Yeah, you've still got a pulse, but your mind is so empty that you might as well be dead. You've forgotten all your accomplishments, all of the people in your life, everything.
Then, about an hour before you succumb to the disease, you suddenly remember everything. You see your loved ones around you. They know, and you know, that the end is near. You say your goodbyes, because that's the only thing you can do.
Dimentia is a fate worse than death, followed by death. It can happen to anyone.
@@woomy2343 tl;dr
@@woomy2343 tl;bisr
@@TaciturnusIneffabilis tl;dr dementia is the worst ever
@@tedcraboli8021 imagine not being able to read a few lines of text
this video will never be forgotten
the only time and place this will be forgotten is..
*everywhere at the end of time*
When I listened to it I sat myself in the middle my room, threw up some blackout curtains, and got some drinks and food. I listened to all 6 and 1/2 hours without pausing and I genuinely can’t describe the feeling I had. It felt similar to disassociation but still different somehow.
Yeah it's a strange experience for sure
"This awful sound plays" oh i still remember that part
(SLOW, DISTORTED GRANADA PLAYS)
@@notjebbutstillakerbal granada my beloved
I be vibing stage 5.
When I listened to EATEOT, stage 4 hit me hard. Whenever the discernable music came through the garbled mess I would always hang on to it like a life line, and every time it went back to the garbled mess it would make it harder and harder. It affected me so much cause my grandmother had dementia, and it reminded me of her brief moments of lucidity. She would seem to be herself for a little bit, only to slip away again. It made me realize what it must have been like for her, and it's terrifying. RIP grandma, I love you
I wish my first time listening to the whole project was while playing Minecraft with friends. I listened to each stage over the course of a week while about to fall asleep, and while it’s not as scary as people make it sound, it was more somber and depressing than anything.
However, I haven’t actually done the full six hours in one sitting. Maybe I can still have your experience.
For as long as I've remembered, my grandmother has had Alzheimer's disease. As for my grandad, he has quickly deteriorated after being diagnosed with dementia a year prior. It hits different when you haven't known someone with the condition to begin with. My grandad has always reminisced, but now he talks about stuff that is completely unrelated to a passing conversation, he is barely intact with reality (we used to just assume that it was due to deafness but nope). As for my nanna, for somebody who has had Alzheimer's disease for decades, she is a good conversationalist; she'll just repeat herself every minute or so--- which is no biggie, I've always known her to be that way.
It screws me up listening to these, I can barely listen to it. I can perfectly envision what is going on inside of their minds whilst listening to these songs. I can also understand why my grandparents act the way that they do with such a faulty thought process. My heart tightens and aches, thinking of them. It must be so scary and disorienting; I just want to hug and hold their hand like I usually do (they are in homes now and having a difficult time).
But despite how sad dementia is, I like to believe that the possibility of reincarnation is possible and this is why people get this brain-eating disease, you must lose your memory (and thusly yourself) to move onto the next life. It is a comforting thought. I'd hate to think that all I am is just a brain inside of a body.
All the same, my grandparents are still the people that I love and the last thing that they may forget about (if ever) is me as well.
26:30 that truly is the saddest song I ever heard.
I like to think the album cover of stage 4 is a family member of the subject of the song.
A face they can no longer recognize, but you can see a what looks like a tear in the corner of where the eye would be.
damn your good at editing
This album was put together with care and passion.
NO doubt denying that.
Sh-t is heavy if you listen to it all the way through. I cried at the end. I've never felt like that from music/sounds. It was crazy.
I remember listening to it almost 2 years ago now. It doesn’t feel like that long since then, though. Haven’t heard an album that has ever had more of an impact on me than that one
To be honest, when listening to stage 1/2/3 The songs started to blend together. I also didn't feel like listening to 4 hours of static
It is scary and disturbing ngl.. however! The main message it gets across is the awareness of the illness. Who knows but perhaps one day we'll have a cure for it. We must not give up on that possibility!
I take the hell sirens to be representative of an extreme episode of this thing that dementia patients experience at stages 4-5 called sundown syndrome which can cause irritability, paranoia, violence, and hallucinations, it’s unpredictable and that’s why i think it comes outta nowhere.
i love this video
tbh, i tried not to cry while watching this video. i have watched/heard EATEOT by myself and i felt empty and sad at the same time
the part that broke me was Hell Sirens
16:00 that’s actually a song from stage 1! QUIET INTERNAL REBELLIONS
No wait is actually a different song in those just 4 some reason it’s the same song in the official CZcams vud
This for me into the Leyland kirbys work.
I am very late to the EATEOT party. In fact, I only just listened to the whole album yesterday. And of course it „broke“ me, of course it altered my thoughts about life. It is a masterpiece. And there are so many Fan made projects out there that absolutely do it justice. I think EVERYONE should listen to this once in their life.
You just said that the last part that death comes as a relief and its so true watching someone go through that is like watching someone die twice. And when my grandma finally died my dad told me and i just felt relief as fucked up as that is. But when you see someone go through it youve already cried so many times and moruned that by the time they finally do die it just feel so comforting to know their finally done suffering.
A2 We don’t have many days left
That song makes me feel REALLY weird. The name really fits to the song. It makes me feel a sense of not knowing what’s going to happen in the future or not knowing what will happen after I die. It’s so weird.
I actually found out about EatEoT while going down the deep dark rabbit hole of art from Alzheimer's (such as the self portraits of William Utermohlen) and an explanation to the art of Zdzisław Beksiński, and the art from kids who've experienced trauma from a young age.
Fun fact: The song name “It’s just a burning memory” is actually part of the lyrics of the song Heartaches by Al Bowlly.
Yup
he did explain it professionally.
21:50 did anyone else hear a voice?
Yeah
Stage 3 was the most unnerving for me. The decline and ending of lucidity was genuinely horrifying to get through. The change was the most noticeable for me throughout it, leading to it feeling like I’m watching someone deteriorate.
The 6 months mean visiting your grandparents, and seeing how worse their dementia is. Imagine just going to your grandparents and theyre just staring into space, with just a thick fog in their mind. it's really sad.
Only on so far stage 1(as that is the only one I’ve heard and scared to listen to the others) had caused me to go into a pitfall of thoughts, I dunno if anyone have had this feeling but it’s when you wanna shut something off, but just don’t? I get utterly terrified yet I wanna listen the entire way through
I already listened all 6 hours
it's perfectly description of dementia
I feel like that first meme image would be a good template for the meme: Those who don’t know VS those who do know
I feel like the later stages should be way shorter, it would make the experience more realistic, because that’s how Alzheimer’s works I think.
The earlier stages can last up to 10 years at a time, and late stages barely breach 3 years.
The caretaker is died and there is only leyland Kirby
It is the length that makes it disturbing: realisation that this does span over years and years and years making 6.5h petty in comparison.
@meemtiem1273 sure but consistency in the scaling would be nice
I still listen to the 22 minute long post awareness tracks in full at random since they are in my playlist lol
I had a neighbor and his wife with Parkinson's Disease and Alzheimer's, respectively. Parkinson's I can deal with, but Alzheimer's is a greater beast than any form of degradation to the human body, let alone the human mind, that I... kind of want medication to prevent it from happening or at least come close to lucidity.
It is an erasure of identity, Stage 6 Dementia is basically being confined to having someone else maintain your body's functions, because your mind is so far gone that it cannot function without external aid.
I couldn't finish past the beginning of stage 4
As powerful as our body can be. Its still tragically fragile
I listened up to stage 4 last night and felt the need to stop. I admire this project whole heartily but my own mind might find it hard to grasp the reality of how bad it can get. I also have a very wild imagination. I might one day when its nice and bright outside lol it deserves my full attention but only when I feel I can handle it because this project is no joke.. Its quite frightening.
11:04 the flower pot is made of coral.
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I love the video man, I plan on making a video like this soon. Thanks for inspiring me to do this. Also what do you use to edit?
I use Movie Studio 16.0 Platinum
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@@TheDigitalSaloon just finished it by the way czcams.com/video/RnKAlUnY2d4/video.html
hi slimenug its calajuice this video is very good
This is actually Chef in this video not SlimeNugget LOL!
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The Trumpets in stage 4, are maybe the Trumpets of Jericho that broke down his mind.
here before 400k subs
Wishful thinking 😂
My grandfather suffered from dementia before he died, half the time he doesn't know where he was half the time and stuff, it was sad to see him suffering from it
Nice thumbnail
Which wingdings font did you use for the stage 6 text?
19:23 is actually D5 reversed
I listened to the reversed project once and it caught me off guard lol
Oh wow you're right!
I fell asleep or a little to the project and woke up during the hell sirens-
My papa has Alzheimer’s and I listened to the track to see what he’s going through… I’ve already mourned his “death”
He turns 80 next year…
Happy birthday Papa… I love you🤍
The final Stage 6 is supposed to be where the charecter dies, and the choir is supposed to be a protestant hymn from germany, called in translation “O Jesu Christ
Thy Cross doth call me”
The album is great and all
I think that "Hell Sirens" are meant to be the "Sundowning" state that causes dementia patients to be in a state of various behaviors, such as confusion, anxiety, aggression or ignoring directions and it occurs in the late afternoon and lasts into the night.