I had a drug-induced psychosis (watch this twice)
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you're describing derealization, and depersonalization. Just a heads up, anyone experiencing these symptoms don't label yourself as a schizophrenic, or psychotic. it's really just anxiety, work through your anxiety and the philosophical thoughts and self analysis obsessions should dissipate.
I agree with you, these days I think it was derealisation, and extreme overhwhelming anxiety and an existential crisis. However I did have some other symptoms that were more to the psychotic side. I thought someone else was in the room with me, directing me, that could "instruct me" to kill myself at any moment.
Thanks a lot for correcting his thoughts in the video. All he described was more a derealisation/depersonalisation after a panic attack caused through drug consumption.
When you think you are the problem and you have a psychosis, you probably don't have one. Most psychotic people think the enviroment causes problems and their perception of reality is fine. But I agree DP/DR can cause existential crisis and psychotic can also experience DP/DR but many other people wit mental problems can experience this as well.
yeah these symptoms sound a lot like what I expereinced for months after a bad trip, well even up to a year and a half its still kinda ongoing. Good to hear its not psychosis
i had a derealization and despersonalization transtorn after lsd trip, and this affect me till these days, everything seems to me so simulated and i feel genuily disconected from other people
What if I hear voices along with the world feeling fake cause that what I feel like is that ok?
I had a cannabis-induced psychosis when I was 17. I am 35 now. I remember I was hearing voices and believed people were reading my mind - hallmarks of schizophrenia. Recent research shows that approximately 1 in 2 persons who experience a cannabis induced psychosis will go on to develop schizophrenia within 20 years. Terrifying. I did recover and the psychotic symptoms faded, but the accompanying anxiety and depression took many years to get past. It was horrible and such a shame as it was all so unnecessary. I feel sad that my younger self had to go through so much mental anguish. I hope it’s a warning for other teenagers reading this.
I remember hearing voices and believing that people were reading my mind"; this pretty much sums up my cannabis-induced psychosis. It occurred when I was 21, and I'm now 27, still grappling with the trauma caused by that event. I find it difficult to recall my state of mind before that night, but I sense a fundamental shift in my thinking and functioning that I haven't been able to fully recover from.
@@undertheinfluence340 Yes, an event like that does change your whole life. It’s dreadful.
Did you end up going on anti-psychotics and getting professional help?
I self-medicated with alcohol and never sought professional help. I feel this was both a blessing and a curse. Blessing because there was not much awareness of cannabis-induced psychosis 18 years ago and it may simply have been diagnosed as schizophrenia; I pretended like the whole thing never happened and went to university and ended up getting a good job.
Curse because I felt very alone in the whole thing.
If it happened today, I would go and seek professional help immediately. I suffered way too much, for too many years, instead of being open about it and accepting help. But I was a child.
Try not to blame yourself, and try to re-build your self-esteem. It takes time but does get better.
Even if you develop schizophrenia, there is so much more awareness and support available today - and most people with the illness get significantly better over time.
May I ask how much/often you were consuming?
@@luminography Frequently. I’d say near daily for close to a year before the first psychotic episode occurred.
Thanks for sharing!
I had a similar experience with THC about 2 weeks ago. I'm an artist and sometimes took THC for work purposes, but I believe I took a misdosed amount in edible form, and got absurdly high. I was thinking about the nature of reality and thought, and suddenly realized every thought is self-referential, That my frame of consciousness was currently made of thoughts that are made of other thoughts which are all built on each other and nothing else. It completely broke my brain. I believed that reality had pacified me and I believed I had "woken up" into this eternal prison of nothingness, after a few hours in what was essentially a catatonic state, I thought I was dying, and believed I was experiencing my own death as my brain processed its final thoughts. It wasn't until the next day that I believed I wasn't dead, but afterward, I had the exact same physical symptoms that you described, as well as the feeling of quite literally losing my mind, but they've started to slowly stop.
I'm still remarkably depressed, the world feels empty now, I'm confounded by how anything even exists and I'm scared to look down that rabbit hole I was peering into, but I'm trying to rebuild a sense of purpose and meaning in my life. I'm just glad I'm starting to feel "normal-ish" again after a relatively short period because honestly, I was in a pretty good place.
i wish you an easy recovery and many great insights into your own nature. take it easy brother
You have just described something I’ve been coming to terms with and trying to process. I thought my thoughts were reality and other peoples thoughts were what was going to happen to me. 3 years it’s taken me to recover from my drug induced psychosis which stemmed from being spiked
There is a reason there are specific people that do these things. You’re given a view upon reality that can be hard to interpret if not approached correctly.
You cannot run from Truth. You are in the fractal growth of God that we call earth and the universe. If you feel depressed, anxious or any other negativity. Go into nature and rid yourself of this energy.
I'd suggest looking into optimistic nihilism and absurdism. These philosophies really helped me reorient my perspective on the existentially dreadful loops that can occur with cannabinoids. I've megadosed edibles of phytocannabinoids, had bad experiences, but now i only have good with em. The channel "Freedom In Thought" puts a lot of the hard-to-digest philosophy concepts to visuals with dialogue examples that really help me enhance my understanding.
I had a similar experience from THC. Getting into great physical and mental shape worked miracles for me. Running 1-3 miles per day really strengthens the heart, brain and lung connection and makes dealing with stress and psychological issues a lot easier.
"You must never give into dispair. Allow yourself to slip down that road, and you surrender to your lowest instincts. In the darkest times, hope is something you give yourself."
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I have auditory sychosis
@@BattleTato auditory hallucinations
Had a drug induced psychosis back 6 months ago now I woke up and I felt as I was getting pulled down I felt something go up through my spine to my head and it was terrifying like a bang then my mind went blank for a few seconds then I had another 3 loud bangs in my head was the most scariest thing I had ever experienced I still think about it sometimes now still. Do you know what it was? Or was it all hallucinations
@@olliesheaf7475 so sad....ppl should be jail it for encouraging others to use drugs...jump from the bridge by itself, do not bring others into this destructive practice, im glad you are ok..my son is not yet.
Hey! How can I private message you I just recently had a really bad experience, I wanted some insight
My son is 32 and has been smoking meth on and off for 3 years. He falls into psychosis every time, and it lasts for a while. Even when he drinks without using meth the delusions come.
It's extremely heartbreaking and scary.
I am praying he will come out of this. I am very concerned that his grandiose delusions could become permanent if he doesn't stop. Mainly paranoia and speaking about God and hell etc...
TY for sharing your story.
It's raising awareness and helping people
Sending positive vibes from the Windy City 💚
Thanks for watching. Hope your son recovers from his addiction
God and hell are real- those who play in forbidden playgrounds learn to shake some hands.
I hope your son is getting the help he needs and is getting better...🥰...I know what you're going through as my Son is also going through this...😔 ...it's like living in hell itself...i hope you're taking care of yourself as well...💫
It's too many like this
Sorry to hear about your son.. I’ve been through drug induced psychosis a number of times.. It wasn’t always caused by meth I was a poly-substance abuser but it always came after sleep deprivation.. My experiences never involved God heaven or hell theories.. I was extremely paranoid on everyone I thought I had undercover police after me and I was being tested by literally just about everyone in my life on my morals and values from my work to my family I’d think at times movies on free to air tv the news even sports commentators were talking about me always cryptically.. It would get to a point where I’d just seize up and wouldn’t leave my house at times.. These would last up to two weeks at a time and could be easily triggered by smoking cannabis or just no sleep and not being around people I completely trusted.. After 20 yrs of this happening on and off I’ve had my longest run without it happening and it’s taken me to completely stop everything mind altering antidepressants have helped and lifestyle change has been key., I just wish I could of done it sooner.. I’ve lost both parents and live in a country that I have no family in.. I hope your son can stop and get help and better before too much damage is done., it only gets worse but he’s lucky he has a mum that cares and is trying to understand it., he will need you and to know that he can trust you will help.. Try not to lose hope my thoughts are with you both..
Psychedelics are a wild, wild thing. Half the time I used LSD I felt like I got a glimpse at what purgatory is like. Gives you a whole new respect for the stuff when you're trying to keep yourself from slipping into hell for eight hours.
I took five grams of shrooms a few weeks back for my first time and I got sent to hell haha literally no better way of describing it
@@trevornewton9687But I see you're back and you can still laugh with it so it wasn't that bad😉.
@@johnbeton4058 true haha
@@trevornewton9687I had the same experience,,
@@trevornewton9687 Shrooms give you what you need most. They make you grow. If you saw hell you needed hell, a hell that makes you talk about it and eventually laugh over it
I'm still struggling with drug induced psychosis, and everything you've said hit so hard. It's definitely a process and a battle, but hearing other stories that I really relate to helps. So, thank you.
no worries. stay safe
bro i’m going through it right now and i’ve been looking for someone who’s been going through the same thing. We gonna be alright.
You’ll make it through brother. I promise. Time. Time will do it. Just hang in
@@jdking4935 yeah an i am in this shit i never gona touch something like this. hey guy i have wrote hier in this Video a comment maybe this can help you.
Good Luke and stay sober
@@jdking4935 how are you doing now?
What you called drug induced psychosis is in fact called derealization and depersonalization caused by a high level of anxiety... Those are dissociative experiences that are really uncomfortable... It's horrible how high anxiety can feel but you will be fine... Thank you for telling your experiences bro. Remember guys, psychosis is something different...
thanks.
@@angelsetter He is. Don’t worry. It’s actually a brain response to a perceived threat of danger.
Its true unfortunally what this guy is saying...my sister soffer from it,she was using speed.
Dealing with this with my teenage son. Drs want to begin him on antipsychotics and we are both very skeptical. He wants to feel badly better but we’re both worried meds will create other issues. Will this ever pass?!
@@angelsetter how do you sleep at night if you are always feeling like this. I’m sorry you are feeling this
Man, I never did any heavy drugs, weed alone is too hard for me, I am very sensitive to it, we smoked one night and I didn't even take a lot more than the others, but it hit me way too hard.
My brain totally disconnected, I couldn't grasp most basic social concepts, it was getting worse and worse, I couldn't even believe the words that the only sober guy was telling, it was all so abstract for me. After an hour or so I got better but that feeling of disconnection stays for so long, I felt it was messing with my mind and doing damage. It wasn't like simply getting wasted , the dosage wasn't even big enough for that, it simply hit my nerves the wrong way. Psychosis or not, it's not healthy, there's a study that even weed can trigger your schizophrenia if the things align against you. So watch out for yourselves guys, we only have one brain (at least sober). And don't underestimate weed!
thank you I really needed to hear this. I had a bad trip at a festival and I felt so vulnerable and scared. I still feel this way and I tell my friends that I feel fine but secretly I still feel scared. I try not to think about what I experienced because my hands get all clamy and my heart begins to race. The worst feeling I have ever experienced. I decided that I will never do it again. I can have fun and not be on a trip. I rather be in control of my environment then be vulnerable and seeing things that are not there. Happy to know there is light at the end of the tunnel. I am tired of feeling scared.
you've got this. we are in it together 💕
You probably need to be medicated with antipsychotics.
talk it out with a professional who is familiar with depth psychology
This is for everyone going through psychosis: Stay strong, you will be all right! You’re not alone. Contact someone to help you through this. I had drug induced psychosis from weed and DMT and i felt like i’ll never feel ok and my life is lost but it’s not. I am completely fine and happy right now after 2 months of recovery without medication. I am back to my normal life like nothing has happened. So have hope and patience and everything will be okay♥️♥️
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How did you heal?
To me it's almost 6 months since I started with the symptoms,, the first 3 months were the worst, now I'm feeling better and better every day,, but still every once in a while I feel a lot of anxiety
Am going through that now
And am having suicidal thoughts lately
It’s frustrating
DMT and weed triggered mine too. A year on and clean am completely normal.
i had a similar experience with THC a month and a half ago (overdose) . i literally dissociated and it was the most traumatizing thing i had ever gone through. it felt as if my brain was no longer compatible with the data around me, and stopped reading it. i stopped understanding language: i’d listen to my roomates talk and i’d hear noises. then the idea of language FREAKED me out, the way we all make contorted sounds with our throats our entire lives and it has nothing inherently correct because we made it up. it felt like i exited the system, the matrix, and i was trapped outside, in infinite nothingness. nothing made sense anymore, not even the concept of a bedroom. i looked around and found myself in a white box and realized that’s how we store modern humans and it felt so absurd. i realized that the only reason things usually make sense is because we’re programmed to understand them. they are narratives compatible with our imputs and they are designed to automatically make sense for us, there’s no objective truths , because outside the matrix there’s NOTHING . and i was stuck there. i was also convinced that i had an obvious intellectual disability and that everyone was hiding it from me my whole life. i was so scared and trembling and when i tried to soothe myself by saying “shhh it’s gonna be okay” i would hear myself say those words and not understand them. it was so terrifying because i couldn’t even go home to myself because i had lost myself. i was praying to go back to sanity and i was so scared i could faint but it was constant and unbearable. i was hiding knives because i was scared to hurt myself and in that moment death didn’t feel so scary so i tried so hard to ignore those thoughts. ever since, paranoia lingered and i became a hypochondriac, obsesssively researching and thinking i’m autistic or i have bpd because of the lack of sense of self revelation. (is it a revelation or am i still confused after the psychosis?) - i became very depressed and couldn’t let go of the nihilistic perspective, i also became very uncomfortable with my gender identity and couldn’t decide how i wanted to exist in the world (i was happily gender fluid before the psychosis but now it feels very uncomfortable) i have looked EVERYWHERE for youtube videos to confirm that this was a symptom of the drug induced “psychosis” and couldn’t find anything. now after watching this, i wonder if i should stop diagnosing myself with so many things and let it go for a while ? also, i’ve been having a CONSTANT anxiety attack for a week (i’m unemployed so i’m left all day with my thoughts) and yesterday my dad found out and i came home. he gave me half a pill of Escitalopram , which is like a xanax, and i was calm for the first time in weeks. it also seemed to make certain delusions and paranoia go away. i guess when you’re flooded with anxiety, your perception of reality changes. and when my anxiety came down my cognition was way better. hope this helps someone !
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Do you feel that you still have those absurd thoughts?
Escitalopram is an SSRI - an antidepressant and it usually takes 21 days to know if that particular antidepressant works for you. Xanax is a benzodiazepine- anxiety medication. You need to see a doctor.
hi, no I'm back to normal now@@krishnakatwa6681
I almost had full on psychosis and got a taster as to how scary it can get. Glad I'm much better now after being sober for a few months. Shit is so fucking scary. But yeah, after a while of being sober, your body goes back to being normal, things don't look psychadelic anymore and your thoughts start to be way more grounded.
absolutely. glad you’re on the mend
update. i still smoked weed and shit during that time but im fine now completely. just stop doing psychs and avoid weed and your mind will fix itelf.
What you're describing in the opening segment about forgetting who you are and how to relate to others is leterally me every trip. It's how it always start for me and then i spend the rest of the time piecing myself back together. Usually i end up a little bit stronger than before.
Yeah, it's what psychedelics does
Thank you for sharing your experience. I myself got into a drug-induced psychosis after consuming ridicously high amounts of Xanax for 6 months. I quit cold turkey, and everything resulted in psychosis that lasted for 5 months. It's the most traumatizing experience of my life, and I've been through a lot. I was sure the government had put pills in our food, in the supermarkets, everywhere. Also, the hallucinations were crazy. The first year after it I refused to even think about it, never the less speak about it. The second year is when i started talking about it, with my husband and family. It has now been 3 years and I'm finally starting to get ready to research it and learn from my experience, sadly it has now also resulted in ptsd that even makes me faint from my flashbacks.
But you know the crazy part? Before the psychosis I suffered from severe depression and suicidal thoughts. All that has disappeared for me. The "only" thing now is having to recover from traumatic events, but I'm glad to be alive. I'm looking forward to the future and I'm always feeling blessed for being alive and being happy. There IS a light at the end of the tunnel.
And I hope that everyone that is experiencing a pschycosis now knows that. That you WILL be better, and hopefully better than ever. And for everyone that has someone close that is experiencing this: hang in there, be a support and remember that if it's really bad it's not wrong or a betrayal for you to contact professionals for your person. You should not handle this alone, my husband did that and I wish now that we knew better and had sent me to the hospital. No one should handle something like this alone.
thank you for sharing your story with me. i hope you find peace in the small moments of every day.
I had the same flip flop ! From severe depression to live! That anxiety worrying that I’m crazy oh my gah. I’m not weaning off Xanax.. and you must realize you can learn to let go, people, places, certain things that not longer make me happy. A better Life depression free life is better on the others side!
This is exactly what my brother is going through now. From the Xanax to the government everything. Thank you for sharing it’s giving me hope
I'd choose Depression over PTSD panic/psychosis ANY day! PTSD is never-ending. At least you have a chance with depression.
First videos I’ve seen that actually makes me feel good about myself.. thank you I really needed to hear all of thisn
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Bro my mdma Psychosis Started on march This year, it was horrble in the next months until maybe a month, Im now way better than i was before, i had crazy delusions, halucinations and disturbed thought, Im slowly becoming who i wanna be thank u for This vídeo man hugs from portugal
thank you brother, spread the love
Same for me except I’m going through it rn after very strong shrooms and I had all of those and it feels like I’m going crazy and losing it in my head did you feel that?
How much did you took ?
Boas Hugo tomaste alguma medicação ou o tempo foi suficiente para curar ? Abraço
I can't smoke weed or do mdma tor shit after I candyflipped on high doses back in August, used to be a hardcore pothead fam
This happened to me but lasted for about 10 years and still affects me. It's been very difficult to cope. I think having a lot of childhood trauma means that you never developed the same coping skills and sense of safety that "normal" people have. In my case I was not able to reach out to family or friends since they were part of the trauma. This view also made me resistant to seeking professional help. Luckily I studied psychology and spirituality for answers and have slowly gotten myself a little better. Anyone with major trauma should avoid drugs and seek professional help first. Don't follow in my footsteps 😅
Thank you for making this video 🙏 It reminds me that there are people who've had similar experiences and that there is still hope even when we lose all sense of reality.
Bro this video is so good!!!😭😭😭 for almost 2 years I struggled with something like what you described after doing psyches and then being laced and I never thought I would get out of it. Everyday was a constant panic and nothing ever felt real. I remember always thinking I just want to feel real again I just want to feel like I exist. I was too scared to go outside, and the thought of being alone terrified me. I had hallucinations Alice and wonderland syndrome and anxiety and just barred myself off from everyone thinking nothing matters and nothing is real. You are completely right. You really do just need to give yourself time, and allow yourself to heal. It will get better and you will get through it if you surround yourself with the right support and reteach yourself about yourself. Something that did really help me was reading books about emotion, or psychology it helped me realize that I am really a person with feelings and a body. As well as building strong relationships with people again, and finding people who will listen to you and support you as well as give you your own time to grow. Time will heal.
magical advice, good of you to share!
Im like this for almost a year ..i dont shower dont live the house ..and i have suicídle thougts becouse i feel i never gonna recover , i didnt look for medical Help Im afraid as well of going to a doctor ..are you better? Do you go outside now ? Do you speack and socialize with ppl..can you take care of yourself ? Im scared i ruined my life ..and i didnt work for many years becouse i was selling weed ..now i Lost my income and feel terrified of going back to a job ..just fell scared of the interaction with ppl and of my state of mind ...my memory and ability to think seems affected.
Didi you take medication?
@@nellen474 how are you doing now? Hope you’re well.
Awareness is an overwhelming experience
that is indeed my experience too. we think we want it but then when we get it we want to scramble back to safety. life has other plans tho and it’s best to simply adapt to the new reality.
Thanks, just thanks! I really needed to hear this
You da man :) a message is only as valuable as the person able to receive it
Wow you literally described what happend to me after having a 500ug trip. I literally forgot who I was, I didn’t know what I liked or what I believed in, I was still thought looping weeks later. It felt like I was stuck in a trip about who I was.
Went through some horrible months after but eventually introspective thoughts changed my perception and found peace within myself.
Proud of you for getting there
this is so reassuring to hear. i experienced the exact same symptoms after a horrific dmt trip. thanks for helping me feel better, things feel clearer every day!
Great! keep your chin up, let yourself have the bad days so that the good ones come later :)
Honestly, thank you. This makes me feel less alone in the way I've been feeling.
You're welcome
You have no idea how reassuring and helpful this video is you’ve truly done a service to the community thank you so much 🙏
bless you 💕✨
@@neontomothanks mate
Psychotic delusions and psychosis in general (idk if I had it but it sure felt like it) have taught me one thing. The brain and the body can genuinely heal from any mental trauma. It really does feel like your brain was a whiteboard with a collection of memories, information, feelings, and thoughts and someone just came and whipped everything away. Super scary stuff, but my favorite thing to do when I get horrible feelings is tell myself “hey you could write a book about that”. Turns horrible experiences into little stories that are just a story, not the end of the world. Thanks for the vid, Ive watched it a few times. Still don’t know if I’ve even experienced psychosis but this video resonates with me in some way I cant explain.
hey thank you, what a lovely comment you’ve written. i agree about the book, i even wrote a book about my psychosis myself. you can pick it up for cheap in the description if you’re interested. one of my coping strategies for difficult days is to simply acknowledge that i’m in a bad mental space and then i say to myself “today we don’t need to make any decisions”. it takes away a lot of the burden of living life with mental illness.
I could totally relate to this. Thanks for sharing your story. I also went through drug-induced psychosis at the age of 16 and it wasn't easy. It took me time to recover, took time to open up with others including relatives and friends. And yes it's so true healing after psychosis you are not broken, I must say it takes a strong soldier to go through a tough battle and to recover a year or years later 🌻
I keep seeing weird images pop up nonstop in my head. I'm going to the doctor soon but thank you for the advice. Put me at ease.
Hey bro i really appreciate this. Ive had depression and anxiety before and overcame it. Then i took and edible and everything was fine. Then i had crazy thoughts and everything felt like a dream. I was extremely anxious. Ive never experienced something so scary. I had a gun pulled on me and it wasn’t on the same level(close though). The thoughts where of me doing harmful things to the people i love and it made want to stay away. Then when I sobered up I remembered those thought and it terrified me. During that time I had no control of my thought process so i didnt know if i was in control. I also randomly get the feeling that it’s a dream and it scares me. But now i know that there is a way out. I feel like im not walking aimlessly but walking towards something and growing from it. Much love my man!
Youre doing great. good job man 💕
Have you gotten any better?
@@jazmineramos8200 dude until he gets help you should stay far away from him if you can. With his psychosis
He is a totally different person and dangerous.
Be careful.
Little how are you doing now?
How did overcome depression and anxiety
Omg thank you thank you thank you a million times from the bottom of my heart. I had a almost mdma overdose (500mg) 2 months ago and... It's been a scary thing and ive been questioning about what you just said. Ive had severe panic and anxiety attacks like never in my life before. I just started to see a psicologist. This gives me so much hope because ive been feeling so un real for the past two months and thinking that im having an identity crisis. Im gonna try and chill now because this is some crazy shit. Thank you again.
You're very welcome! Glad you're recovering with a psychologist.
Thank you for posting this after having lived such an experience. I hope it helps other people who are living through similar circumstances. It does pass in the end, 2 years, fine, but everything eventually reconnects. Being more clear in the head with these experiences in the memories is much better then going through it and trying to understand everything
It's really hard to make sense of this while experiencing it
I had to come and listen I'm struggling in these last few years I can't make sense of my mind and have crazy thoughts ect it's nice to listen to relate to similar story's let's believe in our self's and a higher power to guide us onto the right path 👍
I overdosed on edibles and got almost completely paralysed, had extreme sensations throughout my whole body, the word froze and was moving in pictures, I felt like I was losing sanity and dying. I didn't though and now 6 weeks later I've accepted that I'm not turning psychotic/ scitsofrenic. I developed extreme anxiety and DP though which I'm starting to recover from. I really appreciate that you told this story because it's nice to have someone who experienced a somewhat similar thing that got out of it eventually. Much love man!
thanks man glad it helped. seems I made this video for you. speedy recovery
How are you doing now?
Dude once i had a kind of derealization for 10 months just from weed. I have no idea what happened but it felt like i never came down. I smoked weed daily for years and everything was fine. But one day... it was like everyone was around me living, and the world kept going, but i felt like i was still high. Barely in control of my body, barely making decisions, just floating through life along for the ride. My body didnt feel real, i felt fuzzy and far from everyone i loved, it was absolutely terrible. I also thought itd last forever. Around like 10 months, i one day woke up and felt like myself. I still dont understand this experience really. Ive also had post hallucinogenic afterimages, trails etc that lasted a period of time from mushrooms.
Drugs arent for everyone i guess.
Just also a thought in case it comes back and youre needing help: what ur describing is spot on to OCD. i have it and also avoided knives (intrusive pictures of me killing people i love) and googled bc of obsessions and rumination (googling can be a compulsion). Ocd can come and go. Compulsions can be mostly mental, its not always cleaning and rituals. My mental compulsions include things like running through the days conversations over and over thinking about what i SHOULDVE said or worrying about whether i offended people, trying to figure out "why" something happened for hours, etc. Mental health is craaaaaaazy.
Im sorry you experienced this but so glad youre doing better!
Did this make you stop smoking?
@j3c818 for a few years yes. I eventually tried it again and it didn't ever happen again but I never went back to the heavy smoking I used to do. Although now I have absolutely no desire to smoke anymore and haven't for a year
@@coo4231Dude, ive been having this since summer of 2019 and still have derealization from weed. Did anything help you overcome it?
@coringatwood6017 this doesn't help a lot when it's bad, I know...because it's scary...but I just tried to accept it could be like this and find ways to continue living.
Once my anxiety went down and I wasn't fully focused on it 24/7 it finally went away after some time. The more I focused on it and thought about it, the worse it got.
I'm sorry you're going through this :(
@@coo4231 Im finding that to be the same. I am doing better. Appreciate the response!
Thanks for sharing ! Exactly what I’m feeling !
no worries 💕
It's been 3 yrs.. Always felt strong minded.. Relapsed after 5yrs.. Got bad.. Total diminishment of my mental state.. Fell bad into psychosis on n off for a few months and it took about a year to even talk about it without still asking myself if it was real! After talking about it and working on some shit.. I'm alot better and totally removed from anything close to that.. Back to normal.. But damn... That shit was scary! Good luck everyone.. It gets better!
He was my "best friend". We spoke every day.
My heart is in so much pain, it physically hurts.
Be there for him, don't judge him, but recognise when you are helping at the expense of yourself
Thanks for this very well said. Glad you are doing well on your path
Thank you 💕
I had a very similar experience. Fortunately it wasn't a bad 10g shroom trip but a bad 2g trip, and the nightmare that you described in the video only lasted about 3-4 months for me. Changing my environment and remaining positive, reminding myself that things would get better improved my situation tremendously. I wish I had this video when I was going through it all.
thank u that means a lot. hope u are doing alright now
I had long term depersonalization from about 17-20. I kept fueling it with more drugs. I didn't feel "crazy", just very lost and lonely and I was in a dreamlike state for a very long time and wondering if that MEANT I was crazy. Then eventually I found myself more grounded in reality again. I don't feel like an outside observer in my own body anymore. It's a scary feeling and I really feel for anyone going through this. It's hard to even describe but it's scary as hell and truly humbling, however I stress to anyone who might be suffering and reading this that you'll be alright.
Lovely comment
i had a bad trip on lsd more than a month ago and this is what i’ve been feeling ever since. i’ve felt alone and scared but this video brought me to tears because i realize i’m not alone. i’m experiencing all the same symptoms as you and i’m hoping i can recover as well as you did. thank you for putting this video out here because it’s helped me so much
I'm very happy that my video has helped you in some way. You are right, you are not alone. And you will recover from this. It's a process. If you need to talk, send a dm on Instagram. I also have a new psychosis video up, it's in the description if you're interested. ❤
I had a ego death experience that gave me a psychosis i split from my body and became god however the only delusions i got was that reality is fake. its been 4 and a half months now. what I will say is there are highs and lows and it gets to the point where u might not remember what normal feels like. however I'm at a point where if Im stagnant at my recovery i wouldn't even mind. it gets better trust me.
@@mikesanchez7460 exact same
@@mikesanchez7460 yea I’m dealing with it rn but I’m really scared my mental health hurts so much I did shrooms and I’m just so scared it feels like my brains messed up
@@z2z442 just a little update that was about 4 months ago. I haven't had a episode in over 2 months. Don't be worried even tho it feels like u might be a special case that will never heal. Believe me when I tell you you will absolutely be fine. Ur brain has to ground itself back to the ego. The worst symptoms come in the beggining and gradually taper off pretty quick and then over time the rest of your symptoms will also taper off. U could wake up TMR and be back to normal it's just a matter of knowing and time
Amazing explanation here. Absolutely excellent.
Thanks for sharing your experience in thy own words. People should watch these more!
Glad you enjoyed it!
About two years ago , I experienced a long term drug induced psychosis. It lasted almost 6 months post speed/ lsd use. It was the most god awful experience of my life , and I am beyond scared straight and after 10 years of addiction issues , i am two years clean. I wish I could’ve seen this when I was experiencing psychosis . You are helping people by putting this out there 💕
thank you 🖤 glad you're doing better.
How do you get tested for drug induced psychosis? My bf has been showing signs of psychosis and it’s going to be 2 months on the 1st. We don’t know the actual cause for his sudden behavior change
What did you do to fix this? I am going through this right now from 4 bad trips and I need some help
Moral of the story: Don't abuse psychedelics.
Respect goes a long way ✌️❤
"if you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back at you"
I have previously been induced with this type of psychosis that lasted for six months, I thought it was never gonna end I've been through multiple hospital visits as well as a private mental hospital for somewhere around five weeks, I use to watch this video once in awhile and it gave me a lot of hope thanks to Thomas. If you are suffering from this condition it does get better. From my perspective it's a snapping of the mind into a total chemical imbalance from over using or having a fragile mind as it is, it's not fun but it will go away! If you are going through this right now stay strong because there is a light at the end of the tunnel Love and Blessings!
Thank you for watching my video more than once, I trust you got new insights each time. Happy to hear your life is better now and that you have hope. I just released my book if you are interested to learn more about my psychosis and recovery. Recovery From Ego Death neontomo.com/book
I love your video. It's so simple and clear to understand. Very encouraging. Have a loved one going through exactly the same thing but he wouldn't see a psychologist. If it took 2 .5 years to resolve for you am hopeful and encouraged. If you are ok now and hopeful he will be okay too. Thank you.
Thank you, I just released an updated psychosis video if you're interested. It's the latest one. I believe your loved one will be okay, I resisted the psychologist for a long time too. It did help in the end but I had to figure that out myself, maybe he is the same. Much love
Thankyou so much for this video. I had a very intense lsd trip 2 months ago after a period of abusing weed and mushrooms and i felt my brain broke. I have stopped all drug and alcohol use since but I still feel like I dont know whats real and this just makes me panic almost everyday. I think I am getting better but sometimes I lose hope. This video really helped me, to know other people have gone through this and came out as a better person gives me hope
spread the love 💜
When I was recovering from a drug induced psychotic break I had weird dreams of static too! Very crippling dreams. My break was a big sign to stop smoking weed constantly and since then my mind has regrown and my personality is back and better than ever.
glad I'm not the only one! really weird experience.
@@neontomo thank you for sharing 💚
Lucky you, some never come back from the 3xperience@@olliep6794
I’m so glad that you have all been through this. Thank you that I’m not the only one.
yes! 💜
you inspire me with all your compassion and knowledge. every. damn. day. thank you for being such a wonderful soul.
you inspire me more dearest. my loving gf 💜
Currently going through the healing process I thought I was permanently screwed on this but I'm hoping I can come out of this better
It doesn't get better, it does get easier.
Stay strong guys.x
Thank you for this my friend! I’m pretty scared right now and this made me smile and it gives me hope
Yeahhh that means a lot buddy! Remember that those scared feelings will go away, and they only control you while you let them. 🖤
@@neontomo thank you so much for that bro 💙 🙏💪
You are saving lives by sharing this information.
Thanks!
I got something similar from THC of all things. then turned into depersonalization and slowly recovered in 2 years. never again!
It's really scary, but glad you recovered.
Thinking you've fried your brain & your kids will be wiping drool from your chin while visiting you in the state hospital is a life changing experience, I don't make time for fake people who play games with other people for their amusement & masturbatory whims & now I find I'm sensitive to & can recognize other people who've also experienced trauma
I had the same initial thought... being in a mental hospital and being fucked beyond repair. Fortunately that was only a fear and not reality. Hope you're doing well now
Be Well Star Trooper, Your story can save so many lives, It's not often we hear from a patient. That resonates far more than anyone else telling you how you should feel, Be Excellent!
Thanks that's lovely of you
Wow. Just Wow. I did not watch this once, twice but more than 6 times. Thank you for this. It helps a lot that other people have gone through this and thank you for sharing your own personal experience/change.
Wow, thank you! 💜
You saved lives my dude ❤️
beautiful. spread the love
Thank you so much I’m currently going through this wish me good luck
Best of luck! I believe in your recovery and eventual growth into a bigger person. Who you were meant to become
I have come out of this stage that you are talking about and you are right you can really change your life for the better once anyone gets past it I think this is a really good video thanks for posing it dude stay free🙂
thanks man have a nice day :)
Bro thank you for this video it really helped a lot!
Thanks man!
They looked forward to that psychosis with joy, but without haste, not pining for it, but seeming to have a foretaste of it in their hearts, of which they talked to one another. But when they looked at me with their sweet eyes full of love, when I felt that in their presence my heart, too, became as innocent and just as theirs, the feeling of the fullness of life took my breath away, and I worshipped them in silence. Their children were the children of all, for they all made up one family.
Sounds like scripture or a poem
this happened to me after i took a heap of mdma. i dont think it actually was proper MD because of the coloration and effect but boy oh boy did i go into full psychosis. luckily it only lasted about 2 weeks but the initial 2 days were absolutely terrifying and i still get flash backs of it depending on where im standing to where i was tripping in my house. i was a bit of an idiot and took too much so when i had the come down it sent me full crazy. its insane how similar what your describing is to my experience.
stay in the healing process! you can do this.
One minute in and you describing the psychosis as a split in consciousness/feeling like you're more than one person makes me feel so comforted that I'm not the only person to have been convinced of this. I wish you the best on your journey and thank you for sharing it.
Yeah, it was a really weird experience. I hope you're doing well, thank you for leaving a positive reply :)
It’s been 22 months going on 23 since the start of my drug induced Psychosis, and I am completely free. It took me on a spiritual path that taught me to be patient and not to take life so seriously. The first three months I had suicidal thoughts almost every single day, and I was eventually hospitalized because I started to get homicidal and I thought people were watching me through the air vents in my house. After a while I accepted that if this was going to get better I would have to go sober. I was trying so hard to fight this new me that I was forced to become. And that’s the thing. When you go through a drug induced psychosis there is no going back to normal, I’ll give you an example. Imagine you get cut by a blade. You can recover from that cut but the scar will always be there, and there’s nothing wrong with that. The only way to recovery is to accept what happened and with time you can embrace what happened to yourself and change for the better. I love my life now it’s so much better than it was 2 years ago. I had no purpose in life and was depressed. Now I work on myself in every way possible to become great to serve my purpose on this earth until I die. I hope this was a blessing to anyone who needed it. And if you’re thinking about committing suicide, know it’s not worth it you are worth so much. I wish you the best ✌🏻
thank u for sharing your experience and wisdom 🌸
Good vid, but that wasn’t psychosis, that was panic disorder, as well as derealization and/or depersonalization, which is to cope with the PTSD from your nightmarish trip. It’s like a natural anti-depressant, which numbs you out because you’re anxiety is off the charts from the trauma of “going to hell in your head”. Glad to see you came back though! Scary stuff! If you dance with the devil, the devil don’t change, the devil changes you.
Tip: If your reality testing was still in tact (ie.. wondering if you’re crazy, wondering if you’re broken) then you weren’t in psychosis. People in a psychotic break don’t know they are (unless they are really experienced, like schizophrenics).
Last part is not true, I had a drug induced psychosis and realized what it was pretty much the moment it started, Got professional help so this isn’t me just having self diagnosed and running with it
This seems much more like an ego death rather than a psychotic episode. The fear and paranoia aspect may come from the fact that this ego death was induced and likely unwanted. I went through the same thing and later I found with time that the ego death, though unwanted, ended up being a lifesaver and gave new life to my world.
that’s a neat perspective
How long did it take you to recover
@@lourdes1040 I give or take 3-4 months before my brain began to organise things again. I would never wish that experience on my worst enemy but I needed a wake up call to all the dumb shit I was doing at that time.
Thank you for making this video.
you are so welcome brother, spread the message and love
Thank you, needed this message.
You are so welcome :) like the video
My son had a drug induced metal break. It has been 4 years. He is getting better but the loneliness was killing him so he drank. He his home now. I see him making progress. I believe he will get better. Thank you for this. I hope you well.
he will get better. show him love and don't judge. good luck
I do and thank you! I appreciate this message so much. I don’t judge i love him so much, thank you for Thais encouragement. Take care of yourself too.
This happened to me a couple of times while taking THC. The last time I had one of these experiences I remember I thought to myself, “You didn’t learn your lesson last time and now you are trapped again.” Also, I recall being terrified of the fact that, as humans, we are confined to (only) two ways of orally expressing ourselves; that is by asking a question or making a statement. I know it sounds ridiculous but that simple thought scared me to death - I felt like I was controlled and I didn’t have control of my own self. While in that state I recorded a voice memo, with my phone, to myself; it was a message from me (from another dimension) to the real me that would soon return to his body. I told myself, “Don’t forget that you are trapped right now. If you are able to escape from this dimension, be very thankful and get your life straight already.” After a few hours, I came back to myself little by little but now I have to be careful even drinking alcohol; just the simple idea of being 1% off of my sane state can start giving me panic attacks.
you're gonna get over this! sending love 💜
Our higher selves definitely know what we don't! I always try to talk to people about the memories and knowledge I'm hit with as soon as I get high like "oh I'm back here again" and I always make sure to write a note to myself saying "don't do it again! Be grateful for your sober life!" Still, it has an odd appeal. I wonder if that odd appeal is what we call addiction.
Dude same!!!
This really helped. Thank you, I really needed to hear that. I'm not broken, we are not broken ♥️
You are so welcome. I have a book about my recovery out which will help you.
Dude, you helped me so much, I’ve been struggling for more than a year, but this video eased up my mind!
Glad I could help! :)
This exactly what happened to me after smoking DMT. Still recovering, but the first few months were nightmarish, I felt everyday like I wasn't there or felt like nothing, had sever panic attacks that felt like heart attacks, it ruined smoking weed and just gives bad panic attacks. Never smoked DMT again after that, be very careful with psychedelics.
Did you see it though?
@@C.D.J.Burton, See what?
@Infamous145 I definitely came away feeling as if I experienced something paradoxical which I can't explain but really want to. Something that deserves the title of "it". And so I wanted to ask you the question to see if you knew what I was talking about. To see if you saw something equally as special.
theres a point where it feels like a "point" idk if thats what you mean. but like my brain got reset like it took me away from my original reality and also Danger. but then you come down and can't fathom it, but u know its something important but frightening. is it just "ego dissolution"? or maybe theres something yet defined within that mind state
@@C.D.J.Burtonwhat did you see
Smoking the ganja for many months completely alone with minimal social interaction (passing by people overnight at work) has really messed me up and I regret it a lot - I don’t believe anything and struggle to feel for anything. I feel very self aware to the point I can’t purely enjoy anything, or enjoy something without my mind automatically analyzing why I’m enjoying this or why I’m in this situation. It’s lame, I miss feeling connection with other people, and the sense of community is absent with I miss so much. I have hope that these things will change once I can get a day job, and have to be social 24/7
Thank you for sharing, this has really helped me
I'm so glad! :) check out my book if you haven't. Recovery from Ego Death neontomo.com/book
Im bipolar so it happens quite often, but for some reason it comforts me to hear people talk about their experiences; drug induced or not. I also took 40mg of thc once and it felt identical to a psychotic episode which makes me glad bc other ppl can understand what it's like.
Jade. Thanks for your comment, I have a friend who is bipolar and it sounds exhausting at times. If you're interested in hearing my perspective, I will recommend to pick up my book about recovery. You can find it in my profile.
I have bipolar 2 disorder and it got bad so i found a psychiatrist and taking various medications, which have helped me a lot. Anyway I just have to say I feel badly for people with bipolar 1- its worse, more extreme and dangerous.
Quick message. It’s been 15 months since my psychosis started. And I feel great. It’s a new journey you have to start if you want to recover. And don’t be afraid to seek help or ask questions, I’m here.
I need help
@@Slidehhy what’s good bro ?
@@jdking7448 I need help bro with mentall illness how can I do so
Check up with a doctor to see what’s going on
Your advice is the best I have ever heard for these type of situations.
Thank you, it comes from experience. What other advice have you gotten?
Thank you for this video ❤️
No problem 😊
I was drinking a lot and I tried a drug that I should’ve stayed away from and now I’m going thru psychosis. I was in my room and I could hear radio stations flipping through and I heard people saying stuff I opened my eyes and it went away. Was very scary. So I started googling it and I came to this video and honestly it helped me tremendously. Thank you very much.
Welcome :)
I took acid a few times but it never really effected me. On my third time I took 2 tabs (I was 17), and had an absolutely mind shattering experience. I could see all the different future possibilities my life could go in, and it was the most incredible experience I have honestly ever felt. My entire room terraformed into a rainforest of shapes, and each shape would send a signal that was represented by colour to other parts of the forest. As the colour climbed the brances of the forest, it would illuminate all the other shapes that were covering my room. At the time I thought that this was an abstract model of my brain. After the experience I had a massive depressive episode, I felt like I had completely thrown my life away and that I was going to be fucked up forever, I also became extremely detached from myself and would experience really weird sensations that I couldn't explain to my psychologist. I really thought I was losing my mind, and my mental processing speed became slow, and I stopped talking to my friends, and my grades completely plummeted. I felt like a stranger inside a biological vessel that didn't belong to me. This video really helped to ease my anxiety as I was seriously worried this could have caused permanent damage to my brain.
Glad it helped you, stay safe
I believe you're good brother! Please read a few pages of an e book or book a day, that will really help you, it helps me :)
I actually wrote my own book about my experience :)
Thank you really much!!! Thats what i needed to hear right now. Trying to stay optimistic
you've got this Marco
Thanks thomas! Feeling really lost at the moment, hope ill figure it out how to live life again as iam used to before mental breakdown
@@Auraspure no. that's your mistake. the old you is gone, you must accept that. you will need to become something new now, something better. it will take time and energy and it'll be scary but move forward. your wounds won't disappear but they heal into scars. you just gotta be proud of those scars. ✨
Thank you for making and sharing this video, it is very helpful, and helps give others HOPE, KIND REGARDS, thanks again
you're very welcome :)
I think I had that too... I took 4grams of psilocybin and took a trip to er, I'm still haunted by the loss of reality... I really wanted to talk to someone about it...I fear what if that is death, that state if existence was so mortifying for me ... to calm myself I watch people who had near death experiences and their experience has nth similar to my trip... my trip felt like Eternal loneliness.. with no other consciousness but me... mortifying....
I have felt that too. Recently when my mother pased away more
@@recuperacion420 when my dad died when I was 18, reality felt like a game back then 😔 who is god. Why does he do this to us... why can't he just talk normally and save us so much confusion and speculation and let alone wars and battles
I think there's just simply nothing after this life.
@@mv8908 could be. eternal peace and rest.
You have glimpsed the higher Self, the Monad, the Divine Godhead, Omnis!
GOD IS FOUND WITHIN THE SELF.
The Soul is truly alone, no other human can ever enter your Soul and help with the loneliness, only the supreme Godhead Omnis is within the Self, but your Self is but a copy of HIS Self. The beauty of this world is borrowed. You cannot escape from your inner being and from the depths of your heart, and do you know what lies in the depths of your heart?
Christ.
What is Christ?
CHRIST IS THE RENUNCIATION OF MATERIALISM.
you said it. mental illness is soo individual because our brain is so complex and everyone is different. my problem is that i know for years something wrong in my brain and its so hard to get myself confident at what i am now in everything i do and think
Yes, you're right. it's so difficult. small steps my friend.
I felt that I have gone through the same. I stopped meditation and felt grounded and better. Thank you for sharing it is really helping me.
Thank you, I'm glad to hear that
Thank you so much yr insight on the subject was very informative keep spending yr message
thank u! take care
Don't know if this is you, but when you said you looked up information about psychosis it reminds me of myself. I was diagnosed with OCD and one of the ways this can hurt you is, when you have a negative experience you can hyperfocus on it and let it consume you, on top of that you can spend time trying to find a solution online that really just makes you feel worse. It may not be OCD you have but I'll tell you, your right. obsessing over bad situations or mental disorders will only really make you feel worse. Best just to try and move on, and ignore it.
I don't have OCD, but you're right about the obsessive part! It doesn't do any good. Thanks for your comment! 💜
I had been taking molly, cocaine, kolonopin and my job was and I cannot stress this enough, extremely stressful. after doing a couple lines I had a panic attack and my reality became distorted and I remember thinking to myself during it “how will I ever make it out of this perception I’m having if reality right now?”. Well I started having panic attacks twice a day (severe). I had derealization (being detached from reality). It felt like I was in a dream. and this persisted for months. Well now It’s almost 2 years all while being in the extremely stressful work environment. I was leaving work early and sometimes didn’t show up. i still have minor panic attacks. I’m still experiencing detachment from reality and anxiety. I just left my job so hopefully I can heal now. I should have left that place but I had bills and it paid well enough to afford my bills so I stayed. But now I’m starting a new job soon. So hopefully this helps. there’s a lot I didn’t cover in this like delusions and extreme awareness of everything and depression and so much. But I’m still just hoping I heal one day.
thanks for sharing. it does sound stressful for you. I know you will recover from this and become a better person for yourself and your loved ones
clean ass outro bro and thank you for the help👍
Thank you brother. Well said.
"What happens with psychosis is that your brain is bombarded with too much information"
That's deep and makes a lot of sense. Thank you for making this video!
:) no worries
Loved every second of this man thank you for sharing. That was very cool of you to do.
Glad you enjoyed it! It's just the truth :)
I've made a new video about drug-psychosis if you're interested 🥰
That is exactly how is feel. I feel like I saw too much and know I have to redefine myself, stuff that I like before doesn’t make sense any more and that’s what’s scares me. Is like I miss my old self . Thank you. God bless you . I feel way better now
Thank you Sebastian, glad to hear your response. We have a second chance now to make a better life. I wrote a book about my recovery if you're interested, you can find it on my instagram @neontomo
Really great video. I'm dealing with this at the moment. It sucks. And the googling definitely makes things worse
Mine was lsd mixed with thc. It was just standard psychosis and very intense, cia, people hunting me, xyz of many things to get over. At the time I had never heard of a psychosis, and was very scared for a couple years. I am so much better now, and if you're in it, get help, talk it out, and give it time. All will be okay, figure out who you want to be.
Def agree to seek out help, it's what helped me in the end. Thanks