Asious - ritual (prod. H3 Music & Scrambled Legz)

Asious - ritual (prod. H3 Music & Scrambled Legz)
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Lyrics:
It’s difficult
I’m trynna stick to my ritual
But all these thoughts they be telling me literally
To go to the darkness and not go to sleep
To not care about it and just let it be
It’s been six months since that I’ve been deceased
Don’t feel alive and I don’t wanna breath
Can’t see me happy I can’t see no peace
War in my head it left scars where I bleed
I don’t feel hunger I don’t wanna eat
I’m making songs yeah to cope with the heat
Fire around me, want water to drown me
Cause hell is where I be
I don’t see no
Fucking fish like nemo
What the fuck is this I behold
Yeah I got what I wished a sea oh
But now I drown in this shit, lord behold
I never prayed is that it? That’s weak yo
I don’t believe and that’s it, can’t see no
Way that you really exist like jezz no HA
Cause
I don’t believe it because I face all these demons
Nah I can never conceive it, and nah don’t lie
If you’re omnipotent, you’re not good and it’s evident
Like yeah look at the evidence, I got no sign
I don’t believe it nah if I can’t even see it
Spending my life till completed, preparing for my death
After life yeah that’s all fine yes
On my chest
Write, rest in peace
Down in hell, I’ll feel at home at least
Down in hell I might choke the beast
That has hold of me
Was this supposed to be
Just some way to get my anger up?
Oh well too bad cause my anchor is stuck
At the bottom of the ocean you can thank the stuff
That made me suppress my emotion I’m blank as fuck
Is it all the pills or depression that’s acting up
I sorta wanna kill many seconds with random stuff ah
Music be blasting so I can never catch a thought ah
Trynna stay busy but in the end it’s not enough nah
I don’t really like talking about it
Cause every time that I do I got a voice that’s haunting me it’s loud it’s
Telling me that I’m a bad person, I shouldn’t burden everyone with this
Ha
So I’m at, this place where I
Don’t know how to get space and I
Don’t know if I lose trace can I
Find my way back out of this cage that I’m currently in
I don’t know where to begin
Do I try and break out or hope someone breaks in
This shit it don’t make sense
Can’t focus got no lense
I’m stuck in a hole, friends
Don’t know when it all ends
I don’t really need a couple
People that telling me that I don’t really need a bubble
If I don’t I flee end up hill
Jump into the sea with double
Weights tied to my feet, my knuckles
Tense why do I need to struggle
Like why am I, so
Screwed up in the head, I got this far, but oh
Number of attempts look like a barcode
Ha, no
That was overboard but so am I
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