I'm sorry I’m not sober.
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- čas přidán 27. 08. 2024
- "I'm sorry to myself"
I did not expect to be posting this. I hate how personal this is, and i hate how embarked i am over admitting it. Tomorrow I'm gonna hate myself for posting this, I know I will, but I'm very done with this honestly. It's both very triggering and sad but something extremely important and worth it.
Admitting mistakes doesn't make you weak. Mistakes are part of recovery and life in general. Recovery scares the crap out of me, more than getting worse does, but I know I owe it to my future self to try. Everyone deserves recovery, even if you don't believe it yourself, trust me, you do.
being sober doesn’t just mean being free alcohol, it means to be free of the addictions that tie you down and this video really showed that. i love u so much and this is amazing
Yup...I'm addicted to day dreaming and avoidance...
your videos are always so beautifully tragic. i love this so much
this is beyond speechless and so powerful. i dealt with depression and all i think of is dying every day, i was crying every day, anger every day, giving up on life every day. this is so message worthy and thank you for posting this video. if you need someone to talk to, i'm here. ❤️
dylan duh hey I would like to talk to you.
this is powerful.
The first time I got drunk I was 13, still in middle school. I liked the feeling, it used to make me feel happy but it also made me want to just cry. After school I would drink when I could. I remember one night I was crying and I was so frustrated, I went to the kitchen and I got a bottle of wine, it was full and I remember being in bed, crying and I was drinking it fast, then like 2 hours later I went to the kitchen to get water, I knew I was about to throw up. When I was going to the kitchen, I couldn't walk, I kept falling and hitting the walls then I went to the restroom and sat in the floor, I was shaking then I threw up, for some reason it felt good, then I went to my bed and blacked out, I woke the next day and my head was pounding.
A few days later, I had gotten another bottle of wine. I had put some on a plastic cup. I would go on top of the roof and drink it. I would stand up and wonder what would happen if I were to jump off. I would do this after school.
I'm now 15. There would be periods of time where I wouldn't drink and other times were I would. When I was 14, I would get drunk at school. Once I mix drinks and I had blacked out in one of my classes. The principal had came in to talk to me but she didn't find out . I did that a lot.
Now that I'm 15, I want to stop, I know it's not good. I have a lot of problems with my abdomen. Yesterday I drank at school. I hated myself for doing it. My body was shaking a lot. I wanted to cry. I hated myself because I had promised myself that I wouldn't do it again. I hate breaking promises, especially to myself. I went home and cried a lot. I had trouble sleeping. I just kept thinking about it. I wanted to drink so bad. I would think of ways to get alcohol. I would have done it if I had no control at all but I do. I'm glad of that.
I want to stop drinking. It won't be easy sometimes but I will try my hardest to.
Diana im going thru this too but with weed
*my first time smoking and* *drinking was 13 (first year of* *highschool) huge regrets.*
you definitely need to get some help. you can’t do this all by yourself, you will feel so much better if you talk to a trusted adult abt it.
Hey, how are you feeling now? Did you manage to quit your addiction yet? I really hope you did. i'm 15 btw i think ur 16 now cuz you wrote this a year ago. Please remember that you can do this and you have full control, stay safe.
I can relate. make the right choice. im proud of you realizing your addiction and that youre trying hard to stop. i respect that a lot.
hahaha when I saw that you'd deleted the video I kneww you'd gotten inspired! and im glad you did because now we've been blessed with this MASTERPIECE! I love it! so sad, but very good, edited so well
This made me cry, its so powerful...
i don’t know why i am crying in the club rn
Ah so intense!! What a beautiful masterpiece, every second capturing all the raw pain.
Btw at 1:50, where she says "this is not about you", what fandom was that?
luvtheheaven5 it’s the movie sharing the secret :)
Thank you!
This is incredible and so so powerful. Thank you for making this
THIS WAS SO MAGICAL, BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL, UR SKILLS EVERY DAY INSPIRE ME, YOU ARE ONE OF MY FAVS VIDEO MAKERS HERE ON CZcams BC YOU ALWAYS KNOW HOW TO CATCH THE FEELING, THE SCENES, THE QUOTES AND THE THEME OF THE PROJECT...its so touching, im blessed, thank you for another masterpiece ♥
This is so incredibly sad.. you made me cry with this video. Beautiful work.
I wasn't ready for this...
this is haunting. thank you.
I think i need to go think for a bit...
this is so beautiful and powerful!!
the shows that i know
recovery road
13 reasons why
to the bone
true blood
midnight sun
scream
the society
skins
the 100
cyberbully
I think I saw a scene from crazy/beautiful 2001 but im not sure
gossip girl
riverdale
vampire diaries
perfect sisters
the edge of seventeen
dance academy
shameless
The walking dead too
you have a way of getting straight to my heart… i love all your videos. this was heartbreaking but _wow_ … you are so talented
this is powerful in so many ways, i love the way that you made this video and portrayed such message, you’re a real artist.
This song broke me,and video even more. 😭😭😭💔💔💔 Amazing job
Wow!! My goosebumps are getting goosebumps.
I’ve rewatched this video like 6 times, and it leaves me speechless every time. It’s gorgeous.
this is making me speechless, i love this song!!
I watch a lot of these videos and normally I only relate to a few or most of the characters but thi time I related to every single one. Beautiful video.
This is absolutely breathtaking... it's so powerful... so emotional... stay strong girl! 💙
Only tears 😭❤
You are so, so great 👏
I'M CRYING 😭😭😭 THIS IS SO POWERFUL !!!!!! you have so much talent it's incredible ❤
So powerful and moving ❤️ thank you.
I am actually crying right now, this is beautiful
Oh my goshhhh this is a masterpiece ❤️💜💗 thank you so so much !!!
This is so heartbreaking and beautiful!! ;0;
my mom has been addicted to drugs my whole life. i try to remember that it's hard for her as well, but i just have so much resent for her. it changes who you are completely. it makes her selfish and manipulative and ruins every relationship. i wish i could let go of this huge weight on my shoulders i have by resenting her and her actions to choose drugs over me time and time again but its almost impossible
Family's health is one. Poison one person the family goes down.
I love that small clip of IT with Beverly
you are absolutely one of the most talented vidders on youtube.
Please, tell me ALL the films, what are you known.
I will be very grateful to you!
Raw.
Brilliant.
i have problem with alcohol. Maybe I'm 17 but it really doesn't matter. Its really hard not to drink for a one single day. I cant handle this. I want to die because I lost everyone who matters to me
jea boi stay strong, god brought you here to face the challenges you face, your a true brave person! I suggest you get help and you will find a happy world!
Łûšt i’m sober for 2 months. it’s really hard but my ex boyfriend helped me. my current boyfriend is better for me because i stopped completely. sometimes i just wanna shot of vodka or anything but i have to be strong. i have people in my life that i cannot lost
lose*
jea boi well done on being sober for 2 months! wish nothing but happiness for you❤️
@@L3TTHELIGHT yeah lil update. my life is a mess, im a drug addict so yea i fucked up
Wow. This was so powerful and meaningful
This is an absolute masterpiece
this is so heartbreaking
This is beautiful
I'm not lonely , I have a lot of people in my life
Only problem is ......
They either leave, walk over me , break my heart,play with my feelings, use me , are fake,or don't care about me 💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭
i love ur style of editing
Thanks for cancel the collab and made this masterpiece
This is magic.
This one really really fucking hit. So damn hard. I never related to basically anything more real. 👌💔
Simply amazing...💔💔
wow this is amazing 😩❤️
A true masterpiece❤️👌🏽
Hello do someone have a list with these movies/shows 🙏🙏❤
This is so good!
This is amazing!
LOVE THIS
This phenomenal 💕💙😭😭
Beautiful
I struggle with tried to deal with deaths family relatives it's so hard to deal with that 😥😥😥😥😥😥😥
I love all your videos
please tell me the movies or shows in these video
I missed Elenor from the royals!!
This is a beautiful video
wow good job on this!
This is tragic and sad👏
Sober made me 😢
4 days sober
❤
What are the series or movie of that video? please say
it's amazing and powerful, pure masterpiece honestly my heart is broken... And sorry i dont want to be annoying but 2:05-2:06 what is the movie or tv show with the two girls in the shower ? i need to watch omg:(
(sorry for my mistakes im not english but im so in love with ur edits)
it's white girl :)
shameless
oop nvm
Does anyone know what show(or movie) 1:54 is from?
This is soo sad omg 😭😭
what show is 1:12?
recovery road
They ask why I take snus(nicotine pods) and why I drink alc. 2 well they help me to forgot just for a moment a free moment, I miss u everyday leonie I love you
What is the movie/shows shown?
1:12? And also all the movies and TV shows in the video please?
It’s a show called recovery road
great video❤️ from which show/movie was the scene at 2.06?
1:23 and 1:29 movie? Please someoneeee
Such a beautiful edit and a perfect song to go with it I know you probably get this a lot but what show was .25-.26?
Sofa King awesome from dusk till dawn
VEKProduction I’m sorry for bothering you it’s late here as well
Kat Duh hun its okay!!
VEKProduction IM SO SORRY I know I’m being annoying 🤧 but I’ve been struggling to find out who .11 to .13 is Im really am sorry 😖
Kat Duh haha its fine really, its recovery road
Can someone tell me what’s the name of the film when the video started?
1:20? The girl that says please tell me what to do, I've been trying to find her for so long and I have no idea from what show/movie she is from
It s from gypsy a netflix tv show
@@aris.812 thank you so much!!
You re welcome!
Your videos are always so incredible!!! What's the movie/tv show in 2:08?
If it's the closeup on the girl's eyes it's Riverdale, the scene before I don't know.
it's the scene before :/
astromedas Gypsy
It’s from gypsy
whats the movie/tv show that Kat Dennings appears in?
Quais séries?
1:23 movie?
2:38 ? Where is it from??
Girl like her i think
2:30?
YASSSSS
Movies?
ficou simplesmente marabilhoso
1:54 who's that? Somebody awnser me please
It's Finn Wittrock in The submarine kid
Can someone tell me what show or movie 0:26 is??
sorry but does anyone one know what movie or tv show it is 1:02 with the blonde girl?
what is the movie with kirsten dunst?
crazy/beautiful
thank you :)
1:07 who is she? the girl who said you remind me of mom
Its from the movie 'Perfect Sisters'
Which movie/ show is 1:10?
What series and movies are you please?
What show \ movie is 28-29 blonde hair crying
What show / movie is at 36 seconds
1:49 what’s that show/movie called?
What movie is that off of with the girl that said everyone makes me feel like I’m not right the way I am
It's from the show How to Get Away With Murder. Viola Davis.
0.39?
sad news for me wondering too
Maybe skins? There are a few clips it’s hard to tell which one you mean
sad news for me it may be to the bone on Netflix with lily Collin, if you are referring to the anorexic girl
Katie eternal i was wondering for the boy looking at himself through the mirror
I’m not sure who the boy in the mirror is sorry
what show or movie please 1:54 ???