Living with Schizoaffective Disorder (Experiencing Psychosis, Paranoid Delusions and Hallucinations)
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- čas přidán 8. 06. 2024
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Daniel is diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and several other mental illnesses. He experiences paranoid delusions in which he believes other are constantly spying on him. Daniel does not know if he will ever be happy again, but for the first time he is reaching out and trying.
Daniel's diagnoses include: schizoaffective disorder, borderline personality disorder, CPTSD, depression, anxiety disorder and traumatic brain injury.
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Daniel and I filmed an update about a year after this original video: czcams.com/video/xc1tbETJpX4/video.html
For some reason there's no comments allowed on the video and I can't change that on my end. I think it's a glitch in the algorithm.
It's sad, but I'm happy to comment here! Thank you Mr Chris :)
I have szizaphrinea and bipolar and I wrote two books if you want to hear my story let me know
I have szizaphrinea and bipolar I got a collage degree and I'm a published author I have been were this man was but with haldal I'm able to write and do stuff in the community
why other video does not have comments?
The musical into the woods has a great song. No one is alone. He is a glorious human being. I wish him happiness.
The last thing he said has completely changed my perspective. ‘If I am willing to do something to harm myself, why shouldn’t I do something to help myself’. Thank you. Those words will stay with me forever
🙏💜
💗💗💗💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
He has a brilliant mind. Let's spread this message to other ppl who need it 💜🙏
Wow that was a nice simple line but yet so true.
Just to be sure. He meant that if we give so much importance to negative thoughts and emotions; why not do the same with the positive ones, am I right?
“You can logically know that you’re being irrational…but what does logic matter when i can feel it, i can see it, i can smell it, i can hear it…”
Beautifully worded
I kinda feel that way…
I read your comment as this gentleman was saying it.
smart guy in there
Could not have made more sense
@@dmtdreamz7706 be careful what u wish for..smh..
I worked in the mental illness field for 10 years and never saw someone with this much insight into their own mental illness.
Unfortunately I believe the more aware you are of these things within the conscious logical mind the worse it makes the experience. We’re fully lucid we have a defect that didn’t come with a warranty from the manufacture and were pissed we “bought” into it.
At least the ones truly not fully there have some peace and bliss more periodically than what we experience.
I think it's a good thing to be self-aware, because it helps you both manage things to the best of your ability and also explain to others how they can support you. You have some amount of control back, and the strength to move on forward.
I only had one patient after years of getting on/off meds that finally looked at me one day & “It’s not real is it?” It’s been 15 yrs & I will never forget her.
@@abyrupus Thats very true and from personal experience i wouldnt wanna be that aware as iam, its a double edged sword, its good cause i can work on myself actively but it hurts tenfold.
Same here. It’s impressive.
He is super eloquent describing his experience, made me really think and have a different perspective
I was in jami
Omg yes this man is not only intelligent. He is aware of his mental illness, has changed my perspective to try and reach out more for myself and for others and to just try to communicate the best and purist way I can and be kinder even to ppl I don't know. I hope they truly are helping him not just drugging him to the max and I really do hope you keep in touch with this guy as I wished I were able to be his friend aswell. I have borderline and it's rough aswell as the anxiety and the complex ptsd and depressive disorders. I get it and life is hard. Especially for people with issues life this man's and trying to fit in and act like what ppl perceive as normal...bravery and glad he shared this with us....he is worth more than he gives himself credit for. I want to hug him, if he was comfortable with a hug. I had a friend with this disorder that passed away. I never understood his mental illness and I understand it better now. So thank you. ❤
I dont think us as humans we realize so many people struggle with mental illnesses & youd never know or have behavioral issues that have never been resolved. Bless both of them
I could listen to him talk all day
“I'm afraid of losing my remaining worth” those words are painful to hear.
Heartbreaking. God bless him.
He is worth sooo much more, I hope some day he can feel that.
That just hurt to hear.
Let's pray for him
@@blazkovic17 Amen
“I’ve been wondering where my Oscar award is, because this is pretty ridiculous” this guy has a great sense of humor also. His intellect is incredibly profound.
@@almondcaeser9587 watch the video. Good Lord lol
@@almondcaeser9587 hahaha. The patient used the humor. My god.
@@almondcaeser9587 omg ok emily
@@almondcaeser9587 sorry you are not understanding, so I’ll help you out. Watch the video in full. He says he deserves an Oscar award. He says it as a joke and my comment was stating that this man has a great sense of humor and is extremely intelligent and articulate. I get that you “Hello world” are trying to be positive and stick up for people, but in actuality you are being a troll that makes comments on videos that were not watched in full. So please, stop and just watch the video In its entirety before you post another retort.
@@almondcaeser9587
1. You are rude.
2. It's a quote.
My heart goes out to Daniel. I hope things get easier for him someday.
Me too!
Me as well he seems like such a nice and genuine guy and I just hope his life improves from where it is
I love that he has plushies with him and what seems like a fidget object. It's good when people surround themselves with what makes them comfortable or function better.
I have a Pitt Bull emotional support dog and a cat for emotional support. If I have one of them with me, I'm OK....when I go places they cant...I have extreme anxiety
It is great..but also tells a story in itself.. 😔
I just want to hug him. He doesn't deserve this.
same :( he’s so sweet
Yeah me to. He is struggling
no one deserves this. no one.
That's how I felt when I first saw this. Hugh him and tell him that he is loved.
Same. At the end I cried. He doesn't deserve this. 😢
This man has still got more self-knowledge and wisdom than 99% of the whole damn population.
FACT!
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Amen to that 💯❤️
IQ is directly related to high levels of depression and suicide
People who can name their quirks, weaknesses/sensitivities, and ailements are already better off then the ones that cannot do that, because i have no doubt that everyone have some. The main thing is to learn about them and manage them.
Dumb people don’t experience psychosis. You experience psychosis because you’ve, in a way, realized you’re in the matrix (role playing an existence). It comes from thinking critically on an existencial level. If there is trauma or some sort of emotional damage, then you become a prisoner of your own mind as it’s hard to make logic of feelings. Speaking from experience.
I suffered severe anxiety and mental disorder 22 years ago as a teenage. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Spent my whole life fighting cptsd. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
Yes sure of Dr.benfungi
100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Oh my god. I'm 14 and I'm crying. I am schizoaffective. Was denied the treatment I needed due to not having a psychiatrist to prescribe meds. I am also autistic and have been diagnosed since 2012.
He's just like me. He acts just like me and talks just like me too. And he's an adult. This gives me hope for the future.
Thank you so much.
Some advice, life won’t be easy for you, however treatments do exist. Stem Cell therapy for Austism and spiritual meditations, psychoanalysis for schizophrenia.
The world is changing rapidly it’s becoming a place of great opportunity but dreadful totalitarianism, stay vigilant and fight for truth.
reach out for help as soon as you can. my dad has this but he’s severely debilitated by it since he repeatedly chose to not seek treatment. this man gave me hope too. i know i’m just a stranger on the internet but i just wanna spread a little bit of hope to you. you are capable and DESERVING of having a beautiful life with the love and support you need.
I hope you are doing alright. It's never easy carrying that stuff on your shoulder and may you find someone who can take care of you! I can't say I understand how hard it must be but I do know you have a bright future! Keep going, it'll be okay.
Youre a fictional thing?
I’m so happy to hear that seeing this gave your hope for the future. - keep believing in that hope because once you’re older; you’ll be happier than you can imagine 🤍
It’s so heartbreaking that society and government doesn’t put more effort into helping people who experience these symptoms.
What are you doing to help?
@@ryansacoco2060 one citizen = the government. Lmfao logical comparison
@@ryansacoco2060 I think his response is more help and thoughtful than that question.
schizoaffective is rare and the government is helping people, can you please explain what they should do?
I'm a convenient store worker, from my perspective, it's NOT the government or society's fault. It is FAMILY and Friends (if any). Because when it comes to wrongful death or injury to a mentally disabled person, families want justice. When the tables are reversed families they take no responsibility. It's always the the government and societies fault.
This guy is a VETERAN. Served in the US Army. Consider that. That wasn’t described during this video but was in the check-up video posted the other day. It explains a LOT.
As he was explaining the multiple tramautic brain injuries & the PTSD, I wondered if he was a veteran . Thank you for sharing
It's more than that. If I remember correctly, he had his life-changing injury in an initial training / on-boarding session, and he couldn't go farther, and also he felt his issues are not a physical injury. This made him feel guilty about seeking help from military agencies, because he felt he didn't deserve it and that other veterans deserve it more. Then, the channel creator spoke to organizations which help veterans and they welcomed him and re-affirmed that he deserves help as much as anyone else.
Can you tell me how to contact him? Thank you
Ugh the army destroys so much, its so sad.
@@anastasiahalkias6129 It's Daniel Nepveux. He has his own CZcams channel of the same name and some other social media most likely.
He is so amazing. He's so well-spoken. I wish I could hug him and meet him where he is.. let him know how proud I am of him.
I know; he's not bad looking either, built nice, speaks eloquently obviously intelligent and a veteran. He can jump out of an airplane - I couldn't so he's brave too. It's a damn shame he has all of this mishugena going on in his own mind which is exhausting. I wish I could hug him too, I wish 100 people could line up and hug him each week.
Because of him so handsome😅
Caitlin, he won't be your boyfriend. He is more like a grown up son for any woman
@@EdilmarFigueiredo Wasn't going to ask him, buddy. Don't assume that when a lady pays a compliment in this comment section, that she is secretly hoping to win a CZcams boyfriend. 🙄
I'll bet you've had TONS of success in your dating life, making inane assumptions about women, the way you do.
@@EdilmarFigueiredo Also: I won't be your girlfriend. Sorry, pal.
His personality shines through all of his pain. I liked him within a few seconds and hope that he finds some happiness.
“I fear losing what little worth I have. Because I don’t have much”.
Dear Daniel, how wrong you are! I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You are an extremely kind, loving and intelligent human being and you should be proud of who you are. I certainly am proud of you.
Lots of love from Greece
That was heartbreaking. He said it in such a way, that it brought tears to my eyes.
hit me hard
So so sad. But he is brave and my hope is that for him to work through therapy and keep doing that. Don't hide yourself please. :(
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this comment made me cry. beautiful.
Don't underestimate the sheer strength, guts and stamina it takes to cope with these disorders on a day to day basis. Non sufferers do not really understand the relentnesses of it. It is indeed exhausting and depressing in itself.
It absolutely is exhausting, thank you for recognizing that.
So so true, everyday feels like an up hill battle and buy then end I'm physically and mentally drained
True.
Totally agree.
You bet it is. I have major depressive disorder with the psychotic features, PTSD, ADHD, and a few others. No one understands me and no one wants to care enough about me to understand me or so it seems in my mind. The hallucinations and delusions are the worst things for me along with the depression
all the animal plushies hes hugging made me smile
Me too he’s so sweet ❤
The intelligence, eloquence and self awareness this man has, along with the ability to be comedic and relatable while dealing with these issues is mind blowing to me. Seems like an awesome guy. Wish him the best.
It's absolutely adorable how almost immediately calmer he became after being asked to talk about his toys. You can really tell how much they help him
Talking about problem is giving you the impulse that somebody have entered the issue in your head. And I see that the interview when he talked about his problems was better than medicine and psychiatrist. Nothing works better than when somebody who understands you.
Or maybe just talk about random stuff
X
It's really not though... Just as he feels he has "no self worth," an explains when he has bad days. Just waking up, not wanting to live. Cause it's just the same nothingness every day etc...
He got excited when dude asked a his toys, cause it was dude abnormally something about him and if his. An just sitting ANY interest in him and/or something about him
The problem is, he has no interests, no hobbies, nothing he looks forward to. Nothing to occupy himself, nothing that makes him interesting to others...
So guess what, now people show an interest in his "schizophrenia." Now he's outwardly projecting that he needs help, an is happy to recieve the help and or attention. The thing is there are allot of young people who feel as though they have no purpose, an I'm not saying it's an "act" or the he's fully in control of being that way. Cause some schizophrenic people do definitely hallucinate and see things, or hear voices. I just believe that he's got more control over it all then he thinks or realizes.
Fragile masculinity has entered the chat lol come on anyone can be adorable
Seeing the gauze wrapped around his wrists you know that he's struggling deeply. I wish nothing but the best for this guy, everyone on this world deserves love and to be cared for.
What does that mean with that on his wrists
@@rf236 Possible self harm or a medical condition needing treatment. Either of which would most likely explain the gauze wrapped around his wrists.
@@icarusflies9670 come on man, read the room. It’s obvious what this person was trying to get across…
@@rf236 oh come on.... 🙄
@@saltygem3056 sorry, I have Autism
Recently diagnosed. The video gives me hope. Thanks for helping me feel not so alone.
With what?
@@raajujiteshwtf
Good luck to you. I have my own battles with mental illness and know how isolating and hard it can be. Regardless, it is also doable. I believe in you. Here's hoping you had a beautiful Wednesday
You are not alone 😊
How are you, by the way?
As an EMT who has responded to 911 calls from people who are struggling with issues like this gentleman, thank you for allowing Chris to publish this. There are 3 residents within my hometown who I have transported, and it is good to know ways that I might be able to help improve their experience in the future. Thank you Daniel and best of luck.
May you have peace and the cause of peace, may your peace spread to all those you talk to and work with.
God he's smart. He understands what's happening, which is absolutely impressive when you are fighting against your own brain. I wish him the best, he deserves it.
I think when you are not adjusted to the rest of society it forces you to reflect. You become aware of the differences in your ways of relating to situations and the ability to compare and contrast and to articulate these contrasts appears as intelligence.
@@mikebranch7928 True, but reflecting doesn't magically give you the ability to understand the things that are happening to you when reality and fantasy are literally indistinguishable.
@@alaskaone Oh yes you are right.
It’s honestly worse understanding it than living in ignorance.
I was taken aback by how intelligent he is
He is so well spoken and open. I feel a deep respect for him.
He is very articulate isnt he,i respect his honesty
Came here to say the same.
He's far more braver than I am talking publicly. My first reaction is to run away as fast as possible!
"90% of the time I loathe who I am" completely broke my heart. Daniel I hope today you are able to feel so much joy and know without any doubt how fearfully and wonderfully made you are 💞 God lead, guide, and protect Daniel wherver he may be in life, amen!
Not for nothing, but this man is a fantastic communicator. Better than most people I interact with on a daily basis.
I really hope one day he feels like he can experience joy, he deserves it
Yes I really hope he does
The best part is that he is 50% himself because he knows what's going on with him and in that case he can fight it and in the best case heal it if he finds the power wich most people need in their worst moments. But let's pray for him for better results. God is everywhere
That's... Not how it works...
@@victoryguard i just want him to feel like he is happy sometimes cause i think he stated that he hasent been happy for a while (also hello another hilda fan!)
@@loganwasmydog He is physically incapable of feeling happy.
I want to cry with how much I relate to this. It's so exhausting to just exist. It's exhausting to do the things I used to love, like art. It's exhausting hearing people tell you it's all in your head or you're lazy or you're overreacting and that I can't keep a job for very long. It doesn't help. In fact, it just makes it worse. I battle every day of my life. I feel a sense of accomplishment when I just do a load of laundry. Everyday tasks are difficult. I rewrote this comment like 5 times because I kept telling myself that it doesn't matter. I just hope it matters to someone out there. I want that someone to know they aren't alone. Most of my frustration comes from the fact that no one understands what I go through and I am never able to put my feelings into verbal words, but seeing this video made me feel better. I hope to one day become an author and a comic artist. I hope for that future.
Your comment mattered. You matter. Stay strong.
What matter u don't matter ❔
I care and I’m praying now before going to bed that all your dreams realize soon. 🙏🏼❤️
You matter!!
You know what helped me was helping other people. I sounded identical to you a time ago. But I managed to find enough.. enough energy and worth in loving other people and serving others to keep on keepin' on.
You matter. I wish you the very best.
This man should be a writer. The way he expresses his emotions is immaculate. All love to him ❤️
He actually writes poems, as far as I know.😊
i've never seen anyone being so vulnerable on the internet and he's helping others so, so much with that. i work with teens with his issues and he worded this SO, SO well.
18:56
"Does it make a difference just knowing somebody cares?"
"It makes a world difference"
Be kind. Care for others around you. That makes a big difference.
I'd even emphasize "it makes a WORLD of difference."
Be the change you wish to see in the world.
Be love...
Not big, "A WORLD" of a difference 💕
Yes, beautiful quote ❤️
I care about you Daniel.❤️
Yes! ❤️
We must all be Christians, which means “Christ like”. Show love and humility at all times, and you shall reap what you sow!
Daniel is one of my favourite guests on SBSK. His intelligence and talent, especially in the poetry he shares online, just astounds me. I truly think he's like modern-day Van Gogh. I hope he is able to find successful and unproblematic help. I know it's a constant struggle for him. He deserves the absolute best in life.
I 100% agree with you! Daniel is a rare gem that is not that easy to find in this world.
Daniel, if you’re reading this, just know that we love you and wish you to regain your self-worth, because you are worthy of everything good that this world has to offer! I truly hope that one day you’ll feel very happy again ❤️❤️❤️
Same dude. I follow his You Tube channel and everything. He is such a cool dude
@@Abraham_11 lol? Bruh get out
edit: oh haha it worked. The comment is deleted
Where do you follow him?
Omg! Where can I find his poetry? Please and thank you sm!
This guy is awesome. You can tell he's a sweet, selfless person who deserves all the love and happiness in the world.
Sending him love and happiness! ❤❤❤
Daniel I don't know what you were like before this in high school, but I would be proud to call you my friend today. Because you are so brave, honesty and kind. Even with your daily struggles you are willing to help others. That's the epitome of a beautiful human being. Many prayers for your continued healing.
"When your senses tell you it's real, what does logic matter anymore?" That hit home for me. It completely sums up the human experience.
The way he says, "yeah... but I'm working on it." is heartbreaking. You can tell the logical side of him is fighting so hard to win the mental battle.
This is so true and it’s how I describe panic attacks to people, I even reason with myself that “I have never died from and nothing bad has happened from a panic attack” but it doesn’t help a bit when I have one
This made me cry. It hurts to see someone so clearly in anguish in their own body and mind. No one deserves this. I hope he finds glimmers of light in the midst of all this darkness.
Agreed. Schizophrenia apparently comes out of nowhere. No one deserves this.
You should check out his youtube channel. he writes some lovely, deep, sometimes dark but very enlightening poems. He has such strength that i only wish i had.
@@Tinyman. could you tell me what the name of his channel is please?
@@kernspalte Hi Smoke, his youtube channel name is "Daniel Nepveux" Hope this helps. If you find it please be so kind and leave him a comment on 1 of his videos. im sure he would very much appreciate it.
@@Tinyman. Thank you, I‘m gonna try and do that.
“ I fear losing what little worth I have, because I don’t have much”. Damn. Keep your head up brother. You a king.
I’ve seen this when it first came out and never forgot him. And the part at 0:57 the way he smiles when he’s looking at his toy shows how much they help. ❤
“If, in those dark moments, I’m willing to do something to harm me, at the very least, I should be willing to do something to help me.” Powerful
Jesus is powerfull .call on him and I pray that He will answer and heal me
@@suewiler4096 no
@@suewiler4096 stop
@@mariahyohannes why would you actively tell someone not to say something that comforts them?
@@plnkfloydian7814 no need to be rude
18:56 I've never wanted to hug another person so much. The moment he closed his eyes and said that it made a world of difference to know that somebody cares, you can almost feel his pain and make you want to take it away.
Absolutely, I felt the same...
Ppl nowadays will never understand that
He is so good with his words an dexplaining everything so well and vividly. Thank you so much for this interview and this video.
This man is an angel. He's faced so much conflict, and he's a hero for standing on his own two feet every day and keepin' on.
It’s mind blowing how aware he is of his situation. It’s like he mastered two worlds at once. This dude is genus to me.
I think that's the saddest part about it. He knows but he's stuck. I really hope he gets better and finds a way out
When I describe psychosis it’s exactly that. You are conscious and aware per usual, but your subconscious is fighting to be noticed (while you are awake), so you “feel” or “sense” things differently and become hyper aware of everything, and you have a third conscious trying to parse out what is the normal conscious and what is the subconscious.
In other words, our brains become over stimulated. We shut down and retreat because that’s the surest way to survive. This guy unfortunately keeps retreating and being talked to this way and likely given pills. This is where western ideologies and medicine fail us as a society.
Your a species to me.
@@thefrustratedneetaspirant7777 o ok. Interesting
Lovely human being...my heart goes out to him...
Imagine being very intelligent and held hostage by a non-compliant brain.
Right
I know what that's like
Dying about it
My bro is like this. 😢
Don't be embarrassed. We can be so hard on ourselves. This isn't your fault. Something you need to remember.
He should never feel like he is “crazy” and repeat those words to himself. He is one of the most intelligent and articulate people I’ve seen
i love how the interviewer is emotionally genuine. u can tell that he cares for the people he talks to.
What emotion? He just stares at the interviewees with a blank face.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 he isnt treating them like basket cases or people who need to be babied through their existence. he treats them with the respect and love of a friend rather than an interviewer
@@zephyr1089 I dont see much respect or "love" when its an unmoving soulless stare, and sitting shoulders rubbing (thats intimate space).
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 then u clearly dont understand the body language that is sometimes used in a conversation about someones mental health. the physical presentation of the interviewer is very reminiscent of what i have seen over the years of my own mental health struggles. the people i have talked to that have actually cared about my wellbeing look exactly like this.
@@jermasbiggestfan7796 You most likely haven't seen Daniel's update video.
Which is okay! but you should watch it before making hurtful assumptions about their interaction and interview, the update video will hopefully clarify the wrong perspective you seem to have about both of these gentlemen.
This is probably my fave interview to date. For the amount of diagnoses he has, his intelligence and introspection is incredible. If every person had this much self awareness we'd be living in a better world. This was absolutely incredible. Complete understanding of what is wrong, how he deals, and even the damage this can cause (ex. borderline and relationships). Great job on this.
Doesn’t seem real to me……It feel like Daniel is acting
Of course it seems like he's acting because he is. He's acting normal when he really would like to be bouncing off the walls
@@mattlang7162 thanks great way to put it
@@carlcoats3997 what exactly do you mean by acting? How do you think someone with his condition should act?
I mean...he's not intellectually disabled. None of his diagnoses would in any way interfere with his intelligence or introspection.
This man is so smart with his words. You can tell her thinks deeply about what he says before he says it. I hope he finds happiness, he deserves it
What a brave, articulate, thoughtful young man. It was selfless of him to be able to share what he’s experiencing in his life. I hope that he receives the help he needs. And kudos to his friend for letting him know that he’s not alone.
Such a poetic guy, he has a lot to teach us
I wouldn't pick that guy as a life coach if I were you.
@@AlexFromnic never said life coach. Diverse experience is a powerful tool for wisdom.
@@reisilva2940 what you said made sense
I dont think Ive ever had so much empathy for another living thing. You clearly can see his anguish. Poor fellow. I wish something could be done for him.
@@edwelndiobel1567 I got overwhelmed with sympathy for him and I really wish I could just take his pain away. Seems like such a kind soul who deserves so much better than this.
The unconscious poetry at 11:30. He doesn’t even realise how beautifully raw his words are. Stunning and honest articulation that hits you right in the gut. This is one of my favourite videos in the world.
That part shook me, so deep
Enlightened
What hit me with a ton of bricks was what he said right before that, the future doesn't exist. That was truth. And as someone also with anxiety disorder I had to stop the video and think on that for a while.
His words have a stark depth, like the poetry of Robert Frost, Seamus Heaney, or Loren Eisley.
Around minute 8:25
"I'm back hear saying, that's just 'cause he doesn't know.
He hasn't seen the letters,
and he hasn't gone through the phone.
He hasn't heard that beeping.
He hasn't felt the second ring,
that jumps on top of the first ring,
that shouldn't be there when the phone rings."
That’s so depressing
I don't get teary eyed too often, but this video and the follow up one got me. Daniel is such a nice dude, and I really wish him the best. He deserves help and recovery.
I’m so glad you shared your story, this absolutely will help people. This helps me understand how to support my father better, I hope you’re well. Sending all the love from me and my family to you. We’re rooting for you!
This poor guy, he's so intelligent, and explains things so well. I hope he gets better, he deserves it.
Unfortunately that's not a reality. 🥺
@@TreeLynnT not yet, but we'll get there eventually.
@@TreeLynnT he can improve. He may not be completely better but he can always just get a little better at a time. After all, everyone has a journey and it’s seldom linear. It’s very clear that he’s aware of and hopefully getting help for his illness.
Earlier this year I was in the mental hospital with this man. He was my roommate and he isn a very good man. He has good values and cares about those he holds close. It’s was great to get to know him and I’m happy to be able to say I got the chance to do so. I haven’t been able to keep in contact since then but I hope I get the chance to meet him again
I hope you are doing well too :))
isn't? is?
@@Sentarry This they meant ‘is’ by the rest of their statement… but, yes, confusing.
@@TSquare7741 it's not confusing. It's obviously "is"
he actually has a youtube channel, it's Daniel Nepveux
God bless you, Daniel. It took great strength of character to open up to us and share your story. You are a wonderful human being and I pray you will know that in your heart. Thank you, Daniel, and blessings to you and your family.
Ty for letting them show your interview. I was diagnosed with that today and it's my birthday. They added it on to my diagnosis of BPD and CPTSD so I can relate to everything he has said and more. The end made me cry. That's all we want. Someone to say they love us and mean it and show they care about us getting better when we reach that point of self awareness which I have. I am on medications to help manage my symptoms. I got my 2023 treatment plan today and DBT is something we will be working on. I've been with my therapist since 2021. Please be kind to us. We aren't bad people. I swear we aren't.
I cried while watching this. My brother has schizoeffective disorder but he never articulated what he was going through in detail. I have so much gratitude to Daniel for sharing his experience and helping those of us who desperately want to understand and support people we love. I hope he knows that he has made a big, positive difference in the world by doing this interview.
My brother is unwell as well.. But I don't know what it is.. Cos the Dr simply gave him antibiotics.. But he is in a terrible state right now
Sometimes the meds we take make us less expressive. I could never have articulated what I was going through when I was in the hospital receiving treatment. Even now when I’m not psychotic I can’t remember everything and articulate them well either. Like he says. Those are flashes not memories. I just prayed for your brother for him to be cured and healed. ❤
@@sjycheryl Thank you so much for your response! My brother did seem less expressive when he was on his meds. Almost like his essence was muted. It broke my heart because he was the sweetest, smartest, most creative kid before all this happened. It sounds as though you made it through and are on the other side. Thank goodness! And bless you for praying for my family. I’m grateful. 💗
@@jamieyoung784 it could seem that way and to be honest it felt that way too. For a long time I couldn’t feel emotions because of the meds. the fear of not being able to feel joy or anything really was constant. I couldn’t even have a regular conversation to find a joke funny or to have interest in anything I used to enjoy. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be over ever but I knew I couldn’t give up hope. So it was really like believing something you can’t see can’t feel can’t know for sure with no evidence but so just keep saying to myself “god will save me”. I wasn’t a Christian back then but what really had me going was faith. Right before I was forced to the mental hospital I talked to a priest because like Daniel said, all voices are dark and they just put a lot of dark thoughts in me. The priest and other Christians made sure to me that god will saved me (and then soon I was forced to be in the hospital XD) The other thing that got me going back then was my family’s support and love. Not even for one day they ever lose faith that I will recover. They had such strong faith ( not sure why) that this was just an illness and with treatment I would definitely be recovered and live the life I used to live - never once they showed their worry or doubt in me getting better in front of me, which gave me strength to combat the voices, the fear, the delusion. So your brother is very very lucky to have you as a loving family member around. I’m sure maybe he doesn’t know how to say now but when he can he will. And he will!!!! I can relate to 90% what Daniel said. More or less the same thing had happened to me. I still have leftover syndromes but I can now work and live like everyone else. If I don’t tell no one knows I have schizophrenia. So I guess what my best suggestion is
Get treatment, always talk and work closely with your doctor on any side effect that is going on and TRUST your psychiatrist.
Family and friend support means the world.
Have faith. Dont lose hope. I’m sure god will save your brother too. ❤️
My younger cousin is going through some struggles with psychosis right now as well. I am very worried about him. He’s been in the hospital for 10 days now and they taken his phone away so he’s unable to speak to us. It’s tough. I’m worried he will go through stuff like this and it hurts. He’s a great kid, super outgoing, hardworking and he’s just always want to hangout.
I hope your brother will stay safe. It’s good you feel for him and are looking to understand further what he may be going through.
I feel so much for this man. Every one of those diagnosis can be a life sentence and he's working 10x as hard as the people around him just to exist in a given moment in time. I wish him love and support.
man I feel him too. Wishing him tons of love and happiness...
Our love and prayers are with Daniel!
Diagnosis’ are fictional. Do you think and act as if thats untrue often?
@@bunk95In my opinion diagnosis' are a label of what someone's dealing with. I'm schizoaffective like the guy in the video and I agree that it can be a life sentence. It's hard and especially with medications being difficult
god this hits hard... I'm over here sobbing my eyes out
I don't have schizophrenia, but I do have everything else he mentioned, and have gone through the same exact things.
Im sorry, darling 🖤
❤️
Daniel is a really good and interesting person! Hope he feels (or will feel) better
As a mother of an adult diagnosed with schizophrenia, this was incredibly enlightening. My son struggles with talking about his delusions and hallucinations.
Thank you so much for doing this. ❤️
Hopefully you are well ❤️
@@Sasha-bd2yz I am. Thank you. 😊 You're very kind.
God bless you both 🥰🥰🥰🥰
I've schizophrenia too. every sound in the surrounding sounds like someone is talking about me. Even if it's silent i hear someone talking. At first i would react to those comments and had lots of arguments with my friends and now strangers. To divert my attention and ignore those voices in my head i would put on earphones to listen to videos and music all the time from the moment of waking up. though my hearing ability got reduced slightly but now i hear voices in my head very randomly. Once a day or twice. Most of the credit goes to medication. as everyone knows medication is to be taken. sometimes i would have headaches at start but now i don't have any. Though i lost confidence in my life but i think now i can take some personality development classes to improve that.
if you want to hear my experience with the disease then just reply.
A former friend of mine was struggling with this and he hid it well from his family and us. He committed suicide completely unexpectedly and it was a huge shock to everyone. Seeing this helps me understand the struggle he was fighting every day
i am so sorry for your loss
That’s gotta be really hard sorry for your loss
I am so sorry.
My friend did the same thing. He was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I wish he would have told more people, but even then, you can't always help.
I am very sorry for your loss, from the bottom of my heart. I lost my mom to this horrible disease, she had schizophrenia and fought so hard, but it took her. May your friend rest in paradise.
Thanks for these. When I was a kid, a really close family member had schizophrenia, and it's so healing and helpful to be an adult and see strangers talk about it frankly. Helps me love and understand him more.
I come back to this video so often. As someone with a similar list of diagnoses, it’s so comforting to see a person I immediately connect with like this. You’re not alone, Daniel. There are so many people who care, and just hearing someone say aloud the things I think so often is intensely comforting, so just by telling your story you’ve helped people. And that’s not some abstract notion, because you’ve helped me.
I literally can’t imagine what this guy goes through and having the strength to get through the day. My heart goes out to him and I truly hope and pray for the best for him. I genuinely want to be his friend.
I bey you could imagine it. You're not giving yourself credit. Or maybe unaware of your own potential to go insane. Because you can. In fact thinking you can't go insane increases insanity and risk of psychotic break. Enjoy the show
@@gxlorp aren't you smart.
@@gxlorp salt of the earth.
He's got a CZcams channel. I've been pretty worried about him.
@@brittb8513 if you don’t mind me asking, what’s his channel?
When I heard comments were back, I made sure to go back to this interview. I just wanted to thank you, Daniel, for sharing your story and providing a sense of hope and belonging for so many people, including me. I wish you the best. 💜
I wish the other video with him had comments on.
Same here too.
We care…. Many people don’t really understand( like me) but we want to & want to help & do care…. It must be so hard to live with this…. But you’re getting by, step by step… keep living your life the best that you can… you matter.. you’re helping so many people going thru this(& their friends & families)… you are strong & courageous
Man, this is raw and enlightening. I can't respect our interviewee here anymore. He is brave and so in touch with his unique mind. No one is perfect. To me, this is as beautiful a person as anyone I've ever met for his transparency and open heart.
Daniel has such a beautifully honest and introspective thought process that makes his descriptions of his experiences with this disorder much easier to understand and relate to
Yes!!! His honest, despite his pain, is admirable.
So well put. Thank you. Daniel's lovely nature shines through his terrible troubles. I hope, so much, that he feels happiness and joy every single day. His health troubles are not all of him. A wonderfully eloquent, likeable, insightful man is very evident.
no person should ever have to go through something as traumatic and horrible as this, Daniel's a brave man for being able to talk about his disorder, I just hope he's okay today!
You can stay in contact If you like, he runs his own channel on YT
@@Mozart4000 ty :)
@@Mozart4000 hei! sorry but i don't know where to find it... can you please help me? :) I would LOVE to see how he is doing
There are no words to describe this young man's courage.
He put his inner most self out there for the world to see in order to promote understanding and hopefully decrease the stigma that continues to shroud mental illness. If just one person relates to and garners hope from this interview it will have been worth Daniel's sacrifice of anonymity.
This interview is priceless and should be included in the training of anyone who profess works or lives with
To finish my sentence: professionally working with or living with someone who has mental health challenges. Law enforcement academies would benefit their students and the public from officers being aware of how to understand and interact with people who may exhibit such symptoms and may be in crisis.
You got to hear it from someone who really experiences the disability in order to really understand. Thank you for sharing your experience. I wish that you could feel happy.
This man speaks so articulately and seems to be more aware of himself than most of us. Sending uou light and love
Daniel has that rare energy that when he talks the power, introspection, and intelligence just comes out and you can’t help but to listen and feel in awe. If he ever reads these comments I hope he knows that he has a beautiful gift for oration. He has so much worth in this world. I hope you find joy in this world because you’re a beautiful human.
You have it too :)
@Death Frost what was funny?
@Death Frost I think you may be the sick one.
@Death Frost jelouse of all the love he’s getting huh that’s sad dude you must have live a pathetic life.
@Death Frost I bet your mommy didn't love you
I cried with this interview. Such a nice person. So self aware. And you can feel his stress and frustration of what he is experiencing on his head, and still trying to live. He deserves love.
I cried the whole time. Thank You. You helped me accept help.
After seeing multiple videos, I'm convinced that depression is one of the worst illnesses a human can have. I hope you get the help you deserve Daniel; my heart goes out to you!
*I fear losing what little worth I have, because I don't have much."
It really hit me when he said that and how he said that. I think it's very brave to talk about such difficult things.
I wish him the very best.
But he doesn’t have little worth
I lost everything 💔
I feel I love this man.
Moreover, his intelligence and self-awareness are astonishing. I admire him with all my heart.
i literally said that from the first time he spoke, i was like wow this guy is insanely mature, and how he speaks, my goodness.
I feel the same kind of love.
I feel exactly the same. I don't even know how many times I've watched his interviews... I wish with all my being I could somehow make his life a little bit brighter. His words and actions always confort me in a very strange but warm way. Hope you're doing good, Daniel.
I enjoyed your video. TY for posting
It. You are incredibly brave!
I have BPD and I’m so impressed with this guy. Hope it all gets easier, lot of respect for you!!
Crying my eyes out. I hope you're well Daniel. I feel so worthless being on the other side of a screen. Much love.
I don't have a schizophrenia diagnosis, but I have borderline personality and depression, and I can relate in some of his feelings, like when he said that the future looks like a road of nothing. I really fell apart at that moment. Thank you for sharing this Daniel, I'm feeling less lonely now and I wish the best for you. You're a great guy ❤️
I hope you are okay, Lucas. I wish you well.
You're a strong person, and I'm proud of you!
I have BPD and depression too. Hugs
go and see someone about entity removal and your Symptoms will go away
none of these disorders are disorders its not mental ilness its entity attachment their feeding off your negative emotional energy
Você é brasileiro? Eu tb tenho transtorno borderline e inclusive esquizoafetivo igual ao rapaz do vídeo.
I do have borderline personality disorder, and when he started describing it, I started crying, cause it is exactly how I feel, and nobody seems to understand it...
I feel you! No one can really understand it unless they have it themselves. Borderline is so hard for me
I just realized I have had it for years it makes me almost sick. I have been feeling a lot better lately since I started getting more sober. I feel like self awareness and wanting to be better and understanding helped me a lot.
@Death Frost and you need to leave 🙄
@Death Frost you are sad
Being the victim of a bpd mother is worse.
Anyone watching Daniel so articulately describe his challenges has nothing but great compassion & care towards him. How responsible he is. How intelligent he is. What a warrior of strength he is. Daniel may not see himself as a hero, but he really needs to see that. There are Olympic weight lifters and athletes who put so much time & focus & effort into each day. That sounds very much like Daniel, and he’s doing it while he’s uncomfortable. Daniel I pray for you that your brain is able to rewire itself and find it’s way back closer to where it was before. You deserve kindness from others and from yourself. What a good person you are to do the interview because you are thinking of helping other people. You are a very kind man and I wish you the best. :) You have much worth. This interview is proof of that.
How compassionate the questioner looks at him - goosebumps! Thx soooo much for this this enlightenment. We humans are just incredibly complex - like life itself
Daniel don’t ever give up on yourself. I think your a wonderful guy honestly.
He is such a good person.. I want to be his friend
same!
Same 🥺
@@pet.me102 maybe that's just one of the big reasons why he need real friends, who care about him. Also he sees Chris as one of his friends, I'm pretty sure...
I want to be friends with everyone on this channel
Me too!
This was heartbreaking to watch. Such a handsome sensitive young man and so much pain in his life 😢 I wish he got better and was able to experience joy again ❤
Absolutely riveting interview. I remained glued the entire time. His way of explaining his experiences are phenomenal.
Having Schizoaffective disorder myself I can identify with a lot of what is being said here. Currently in my life I am going through a depressive phase and I can relate to the down, down, down feeling of just nothing making you happy. I just told my wife and mother that I am having a difficult time holding and maintaining things together. Sometimes I feel like I use all of my energy to just be a normal productive member of society.
Sir, you’re trying your best. I’m very proud of you. I hope wonderful things will happen to you and your family. Much love.
My best wishes to You! With great respect and much love!
You are fine just the way you are nothing is wrong with you. This is you and people need to make time to understand you just like anyone else.
big hugs what you said was so deeply true and i hear you
sitting in nature for hours just listening & watching helps me. something about a tree, birds, smells & rhythm of little creatures really soothes & lifts.
God Bless you! 🙏🏼
This interview hit hard. He seems like such a nice, polite, and well-spoken individual who is struggling with this horrible mind-crippling disease.
Everything he said about romantic relationships seemed 100% spot on to my own experiences. I get so paranoid and depressed that I’ve basically almost emotionally shut down if I do not get a reciprocation of love.
I am struggling every day with my own mental health problems and videos like this really helps to know that I am not alone and that people do care.
Never underestimate the power of just being somebody’s friend. Just listening to somebody. Not to get anything from them, but to genuinely hear what they have to say, and care about how it affects them.
You are not by any means alone. Studies show that because of stigma, the Mental Health community is likely THE most underserved medical issue.
May I know what issue are you facing if you are comfortable telling?
Jesus has helped me. Please seek Him and He will help you. Doctors and medications help too but learning more about Jesus will change your life. You are very precious too Him. I’ll pray for you. ✝️💗🙏🏽🥰
@@vanessarivas5681I know that your trying to help but not everyone believes in the same thing
@@Jaizizzizi Jesus is very real and true. He lives in all of us and died for all of us. Jesus is love itself. He’s the one that pulls on our heart strings and teaches us right from wrong. He does so much more than that too. He is true peace and healing. I can only share my heart with you. God bless you. 💗🙏🏽🌻✝️🥰🌈❤️
For the first time in my life, I've been able to listen to what it is like to be in my head from another perspective.
I'm sobbing. Daniel, brother, we got this. I know you probably never thought you'd hear this, but I understand every single thing you have been able to, and brave enough to not only articulate, but also put yourself out there despite being in such a vulnerable state. You have helped me tremendously in so many ways. I don't know you, but I love you, you are wonderful, and will forever remain in my heart and my prayers.
And thank you to Chris for giving him the platform to do so.
I have worked in mental health for a long while and it's rare to meet someone with such diagnosis and have that kind of self awareness and insight. I would correct the description of schizoaffective disorder as being schizophrenia with a personality disorder. Schizoaffective is actually schizophrenia(generally characterized by audio and/or visual hallucinations and/or delusional beliefs) in conjunction with a mood disorder, which seems to be consistent with what he is describing. And that's not to be critical, its can be very confusing. I am just pointing out so people don't get confused about it.
I would like to encourage anyone experiencing this that there is hope. I have seen people experience joy who have had extremely severe mental illnesses and live very full and meaningful lifestyles.
Yes I agree, it is usually with a mood disorder. I'm schizoaffective myself and I'm wondering if he got it all mixed up because he did mention he has manic depression too
When he talks about logically knowing it's not real but still believing it, that made perfect sense to me because I experience the same thing.
You are fine just the way you are nothing is wrong with you. This is you and people need to make time to understand you just like anyone else.
I think we all do, a little bit. Like when you hear a strange sound late at night. Logically you know it's just the cat moving, or the house creaking.
But you can't logic away your fear.
Thats the thing about fear. Sadly, sometimes fear can be irrational. But sometimes you cant control fear. In my experience, i have anxiety. And something as simple as answering the phone just makes me pace and flutter with bad thoughts. I wish I wouldnt worry so much about small things.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. I somewhat kinda relate to you. I care about you and I hope you have an amazing day 💕
Having the same disorders, I just wish I could tell him it all makes sense to me. Your descriptions were worded so well. Thank you.
I’m so sorry:(❤️ sending you love and just know you are extremely strong! I struggle with mental health too and I’ve found doing things for other people makes me feel a lot better, maybe that can help you too!
I (almost) have the same disorders as well. Schizoaffective, depression, borderline, PTSD and anxiety. I also used to be anorexic but I managed to get that one under control.
I still have this delusion where I think bad things will happen to my family when I eat certain things, but according to my psychiatrist, it's a symptom of my schizophrenia, not my eating disorder.
you can, go on his insta and tell him
@@Joseph-yl7ng What's his insta?
@@Tintenfischchen danonepveux
this was helpful, I did not know anything about this disorder. Thank you Daniel for opening up to us