Je te laisserai des mots but you're slowly dying in the hospital

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  • čas přidán 15. 07. 2021
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Komentáře • 520

  • @taeko.
    @taeko. Před 2 lety +1709

    This hits differently

  • @phoebemeldrum2007
    @phoebemeldrum2007 Před 2 lety +281

    pov:
    you lay in a vacant hospital room, visitors long gone. you know this is it. your gaze stays fixed on the white wall opposite your bed. only the wall isn’t bare, there’s a blue-toned picture of a sailboat sitting in blue, shiny, silky water. and suddenly you remember. you remember their eyes. blue as the ocean. you remember their laugh when the water rushed up to their ankles. you remember the fair you went to after, the smile on their face as they held a balloon in their hand. you remember the way their fingers danced across your piano as golden streams of sunlight slitted through the countryside windows and onto the black and white keys. you remember the way they danced in the green grass at sunset. all was good and gold. suddenly you’re back at the beach. you see them stare out into the blue ocean, it’s waves weeping and wind howling. they turn to you with a smile. “come home,” they say. they bring their hands to your face and smile greater. “come home.” and now you are. you are home.

    • @Talia_R
      @Talia_R Před 2 lety +4

      Love this
      SPOILER
      (it makes me remember that book We are Liars)

    • @tany4d
      @tany4d Před 2 lety +1

      This is so good :)

    • @Randomkid0161
      @Randomkid0161 Před rokem +1

      I read the part when I die while the hospital thing was going beeeeeepppppp….

    • @Laffayette_
      @Laffayette_ Před rokem

      This made me cry.

  • @iverith1
    @iverith1 Před 2 lety +659

    As a person who is really afraid of death this made me so anxious

    • @wano8657
      @wano8657 Před 2 lety +22

      same but hey we got this

    • @heh822
      @heh822 Před 2 lety +18

      U chose this vid tho?do u wanna be anxious?

    • @Poniadel
      @Poniadel Před 2 lety +2

      Same :///

    • @nevestelling662
      @nevestelling662 Před 2 lety +3

      Don't be scared of death. I always used to be but I'm not anymore maybe it's the fact I wanna die a lot of the time but it's not scary when you really think about it. It's freeing

    • @friight_
      @friight_ Před 2 lety +16

      @@nevestelling662 Dude. What. That doesn’t help at all. That’s like you saying “I want to die” to somebody while they just say “Well stop wanting to lol.” Like…?

  • @Hope-xi4xf
    @Hope-xi4xf Před 2 lety +1227

    This hurts too much because I was a the hospital about to die a couple months ago. My attempt didn’t work and I’m glad I would of missed so much. Reach out for help it doesn’t make you weak

    • @ilovekeiy
      @ilovekeiy Před 2 lety +76

      I'm glad you're alive beautiful

    • @cinnamon_toast_rolls8617
      @cinnamon_toast_rolls8617 Před 2 lety +33

      I’m happy your here with us 😌

    • @tilleyraeb
      @tilleyraeb Před 2 lety +33

      i’m so happy that you stayed

    • @altheaxyrrie
      @altheaxyrrie Před 2 lety +22

      i’m so happy you stayed, love. you’re always welcome to vent anytime you need

    • @hisfavworstnightmare
      @hisfavworstnightmare Před 2 lety +15

      i’m happy that you are glad you are still here, stranger on the internet. you’ve got a whole life to live. this isn’t the end ♥️♥️

  • @whimsyjoker
    @whimsyjoker Před 2 lety +403

    i’ve never even had to go to the hospital for anything serious but this made my heart ache in such a profound way. it seems so terrifying to die alone

    • @Emlyn1133
      @Emlyn1133 Před 2 lety +1

      Same... The scariest part about death is the fact that we can't control its occurrence, and its inevitable. God do I know that this is easier said than done, but fearing death is as unproductive as throwing a fishing rod into a pool in hopes that you'll catch something, live life to its limit, whatever that means for you. It doesn't matter if that means lying in bed having time to yourself, having a fruitful social life, spending time with someone special, all of the above or something other, it's a valid way to live, and having regret over how you've lived life in the past is useless. I really hope you're doing well, sending love 💗

    • @evamartin2863
      @evamartin2863 Před 2 lety

      hi, just wanted 2 say that i love ur pfp ❤

    • @shrimpzu_6087
      @shrimpzu_6087 Před 2 lety

      Tbh. It's not knowing that you won't have to worry about putting someone else in grief when you go out. Nobody will even know you're gone.......

    • @shahzadi.zafira__
      @shahzadi.zafira__ Před 2 lety

      I almost died alone. COVID. I was on ventilator and life support (ECMO). I'm about to turn 17 (11/04) and I still remember everything. It only happened a few months ago. I almost died with less than 20% chance of survival. I'm a miracle. Nobody was there to hold my hand. Only the nurses. My parents could only see me through a screen and cry because COVID. When I woke up my dad was the one who rushed in and visited me. I remember my first words were to my dad: "I'm sorry I never told you before, but I love you. I really do". First thing I said when I woke up.

    • @thealpha4543
      @thealpha4543 Před 2 lety

      I had before I had pneumonia in my left lung and my mother was there to hold my hand when they did the check ups. But a miracle happened and I got to go home to see my other family. The scariest part was that I didn't know if I was going to get out of the hospital all my friends were praying for me. I'm glad that I was fully healed now I can see my friends again one of the scariest parts of my life.

  • @becho6871
    @becho6871 Před 2 lety +2920

    Dear person whoever reads this,
    Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile.
    Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
    Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
    I love you and send you hugs.
    You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
    YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
    I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
    You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice.
    You’re beautiful inside out.
    I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN.
    I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
    It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you.
    I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go.
    I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.??
    I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
    If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
    If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
    If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
    And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
    All I want for you is to stay and feel alive.
    Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
    I need you here with me :).
    Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out.
    Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up.
    And anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :).
    Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?!
    - The stranger that cares about you more than anything.
    I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay.
    I hope you will remember my words- becho :)

    • @christopherknowsbest9666
      @christopherknowsbest9666 Před 2 lety +181

      This message made me cry. Thank you.

    • @valina7026
      @valina7026 Před 2 lety +132

      this made me cry so bad, i needed to hear this, thank you so so much, i love you

    • @emanuelajanaq3132
      @emanuelajanaq3132 Před 2 lety +98

      No one have ever talked to me like that thank you so much

    • @valentinaj6870
      @valentinaj6870 Před 2 lety +39

      I love you ❤️ Ty for this! U are a great person, spreading the best for your life ❤️

    • @kgi3702
      @kgi3702 Před 2 lety +32

      Thank you , truly . Such kind words. may god bless you with love and abundance ❤️

  • @urmom-qm2tn
    @urmom-qm2tn Před 2 lety +60

    THIS FEELS LIKE UR IN THE HOSPITAL AND UR THE PERSON WHO MAKES SURE EVERONE IS OKAY AND MAKE. SURE EVERYONE IS EATING AND JUST TZKE CARE OF EVERYONE BUT NOBODY HELPS U NOBODY EVEN CARES

  • @artemispsyche3000
    @artemispsyche3000 Před 2 lety +422

    As you press play on your phone, you stare at the starry night, sitting alone on the mountain watching the comets crash down on earth. You notice no increase in your heart rhythm, you have accepted your faith. Slowly you notice the air getting heavier making It harder to breath properly. As the last note of the piano chimes, your eyes close, shut forever.

  • @peyton1254
    @peyton1254 Před 2 lety +191

    I attempted a long time ago but wasn’t hospitalized bc I just woke up the next day and went to school knowing it hadn’t worked. I wish I was hospitalized. I wish I was put on an iv and forced to stay in the psychiatric ward and be forced to get help because maybe then I would of realized how sick I actually am. But instead, I went on with my day as a little kid pretending I didn’t try to end my life the day before.
    Now I’m nearly 18 and there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think about walking into a hospital asking to be put into the psych ward. I need to, but if I do I also know all of my secrets will become apparent to the people who look up to me and that my image will be ruined and no one will see me as anything but a sick little kid desperately trying to not be seen and failing.
    So, for anyone who is scared to get the help they need, know that you are sick. And you can’t keep going like this because if you don’t get help, that lonely hole will never heal and it will continue to eat you alive until you die. So pleased get help.

    • @fermendez233
      @fermendez233 Před 2 lety +6

      I’m so sorry for what you’ve had experience, you are incredibly strong and I’m so proud of you even if I don’t know you, wishing you the best

    • @annacarolina7971
      @annacarolina7971 Před 2 lety +1

      First of all, sorry about my english, I'm gonna try to say what I need to. Look, I'm so sorry about that :( don't get afraid of doing what you need do get better. You know, God gave a beautiful and incredible life to us. A life that is so incredible that we could feel, and breath, and love, and cry, and do all those things. Your problems definitely do not define who you are. Your issues can't change who you meant to be. But please don't wast that, live your life!! Don't be stuck on a little moment of your life letting it freeze you on it, you can live more, realizing your own bad parts don't make you a bad person, just make you a human, we are all on the same boat, and people who judge you actually are on the same of you. Realizing your bad parts also make you see how much better you can be, and it is amazing!!! Just have the possibility of be a better person every single day!! Even when you don't see, and even when you don't believe there's someone that have a overwhelming and reckless love for you. God loves you, my dear... every single morning that you open your eyes is a new chance to do the wright thing and live a good life❤️❤️

    • @trel9612
      @trel9612 Před 2 lety +2

      wow it's like were the same person only that i attempted a couple of weeks ago and my parents still don't know ... i don't think i'll make it to 15 ...i wish my parents cared enough to get me help

  • @spideyluvr6318
    @spideyluvr6318 Před 2 lety +21

    if the doctor says i have 3:18 minutes to live, im playing this.
    literally

  • @fuckingbee
    @fuckingbee Před 2 lety +185

    i think dying while listening to music wouldn't be a bad thing, maybe i should try

    • @nolisineffable
      @nolisineffable  Před 2 lety +50

      imagining it is not living it, and it's not worth it, you're strong and someone loves you

    • @Thejollyjujube
      @Thejollyjujube Před 2 lety +2

      The way you feel will change. I've been there. Hold on for a day and repeat. You can do this

    • @Thejollyjujube
      @Thejollyjujube Před 2 lety

      I send you a warm hug

    • @user-cg1ol5cp8k
      @user-cg1ol5cp8k Před 2 lety

      +

    • @clee9871
      @clee9871 Před 2 lety

      Hey love please don't hurt yourself i love you
      *sending hugs* it'll be ok soon

  • @valvoid7306
    @valvoid7306 Před 2 lety +54

    Wow. Time flies doesn’t it.
    *One of the times I’ll actually admit I’m scared, scared of growing up. I’m such a fucking coward.*

    • @andy._.1951
      @andy._.1951 Před 2 lety +3

      If this makes you feel any better, I'm a coward too and a lot of people are. Don't blame yourself for it everyone is scared of the end, we all want to keep going for a better place but sometimes, time just stops and is the moment for us to say goodbye

    • @wafflefaffle6463
      @wafflefaffle6463 Před 2 lety

      I’m a coward too but sometimes growing up isn’t too bad

  • @danielaguadarrama7338
    @danielaguadarrama7338 Před 2 lety +233

    My stepfather died last Sunday of a very aggressive cancer (I loved him as my dad), this video captures the feeling of the moment very well.
    Fortunately I was there to say goodbye to him the day before, and at the moment he passed away I was there even though he was no longer conscious.
    Although I grieve for his death, it was for the best.
    In the final stretch of the disease he suffered too much, I just hope he is very happy where he is now. He was an excellent human being and did not deserve that end.

    • @AxJxAxJ
      @AxJxAxJ Před 2 lety +10

      Im so sorry that sounds so heartbreaking. My grandma passed last Sunday i said my goodbyes on last Saturday but she wasn’t responsive I do hope she heard my last words to her. I’m happy I was there for her, she was so scared the whole time. She also had cancer it spread through her whole body so she was in pain. I know she is in peace now and I know your stepfather is too. I’m sending you and your family of love and strength. ❤️

    • @danielaguadarrama7338
      @danielaguadarrama7338 Před 2 lety +5

      @@AxJxAxJ, thanks for your words, you are so kind.
      I also hope the best for you and your family, as it is really hard to say goodbye to someone we love.
      I send you best wishes. And really, thank you so much for sharing.

    • @saturn_is_a_memory
      @saturn_is_a_memory Před 2 lety +2

      I'm sorry for your father, you and your family. No ons deserves to die like this, really. Hope he's in peace now.
      He must have been a wonderful father to you!

    • @weirdodefarao1533
      @weirdodefarao1533 Před 2 lety +1

      Im so sorry this happend to you, lots of love ❤️

    • @beza_ez_7849
      @beza_ez_7849 Před 2 lety +2

      Hey I'am soooo sorry for you honey, hope you're okey buddy

  • @rift1359
    @rift1359 Před 2 lety +8

    Does anyone feel that dying seems peaceful, like you wouldn't mind dying right now just to stop thinking? Its like you're sleeping for the rest of your life. No more worries or problems, just endless sleep.

  • @Reikitaii
    @Reikitaii Před 2 lety +11

    Lost my mother last winter, she came into the hospital for a bowel obstruction and then never came home. Last thing I ever said was "I'll see you later Mom!" This whole thing just finally explains how I was feeling without words needed. I'll never forget just how badly my heart ached, so painfully and so helplessly. How much I yearned for just one more hug. Saying "you were so young when it happened" or "I'm sorry for your loss" only does so much.

    • @sukuna4396
      @sukuna4396 Před rokem +3

      That's so sad and painful 💔 I hope you r doing a little better.. 😭

  • @marinajean-baptiste5955
    @marinajean-baptiste5955 Před 2 lety +14

    as someone who is in hospital a lot, (or at least more than the average teen) this is unsurprising but incredibly scary.

    • @Voguevisions
      @Voguevisions Před 2 lety +2

      I wish you good health and never go to the hospital in the future, take care of yourself 🖤

  • @bvnnziii
    @bvnnziii Před 2 lety +42

    My dad died in a hospital a few weeks ago. No one thought he would leave us this early but obviously we was wrong. I wasn’t able to see him because of corona restrictions but ever since that day i can’t help but wonder what he was thinking while he lay in that bed. what kind of pain he was in in his last moments. i miss you so much dad i hope you’re resting easy xxx i’m not religious but i can’t help but hope that all the pain and suffering you was feeling before is all gone and you’re looking down on every single one of us. It’s sad to know that you’ll never be able to be there to watch me grow up. You’ll never be able to see me on my up coming birthdays including my 18th and i’ll never be able to see you on yours but i hope that some day we’ll all be able to see each other once again ❤️

    • @yaonessa
      @yaonessa Před 2 lety +1

      i love you, stay strong ❤️

  • @elsabado6436
    @elsabado6436 Před 2 lety +143

    If I only would three minutes of life, I would listen this.

  • @masabahsaeed
    @masabahsaeed Před 2 lety +30

    There's so much hurt here in this comment section. Why are we so hurt? Why can't things just be okay? I feel invisible in my life. And I feel like my heart is being held in its place with strings that just might break soon. Like in place of a heart, there's an abyss of sorrow and nothingness. It consumes me. But again, I'm invisible to everyone.

  • @seventeen25
    @seventeen25 Před 2 lety +22

    i’m so exhausted

    • @tilleyraeb
      @tilleyraeb Před 2 lety +2

      you’ve got this. you’re doing so well and i’m proud of you

    • @seventeen25
      @seventeen25 Před 2 lety +1

      @@tilleyraeb thanks

    • @tilleyraeb
      @tilleyraeb Před 2 lety +1

      @@seventeen25

  • @user-miki1
    @user-miki1 Před 2 lety +18

    The end really got me.

  • @cyberangelaiko2841
    @cyberangelaiko2841 Před 2 lety +23

    Jeez my grandma passed away this month and she waited till all of her children were there before she died. She was a strong woman suffering from so many health conditions and knowing that this is exactly how it must of felt when she died makes me cherish everything in life, i miss her so much and i hope she is in a better place now. :)

    • @EveningRose_BigRed
      @EveningRose_BigRed Před 2 lety +1

      My grandmother did the same. She waited for us all to say goodbye, before she let go. She had been in and out of hospice. She was ready, but it does still hurt. She never got to the point in dementia where she could not recognize people. But she would talk of seeing our cousins with the landscaping company outside of her window. They were not there. They were long gone. She was such a strong woman, so intelligent, so beautiful.

  • @julespay2818
    @julespay2818 Před 2 lety +17

    On Friday morning I listened to this around 6 am while I was driving to visit my grandmother. It was her first official day on hospice after battling an auto immune disease & complications from a colostomy. Sadly, my Angel passed away five minutes before I arrived. This song was playing when she passed and it was a comfort song throughout her illness for me. I find myself feeling so damn numb. All I can do some days is listen to this on loop as memories flood my mind

  • @samyang2550
    @samyang2550 Před 2 lety +35

    Interesting I know music is a universal language but I never knew it was this interchangeable

  • @meduardazampieri
    @meduardazampieri Před 2 lety +48

    já chorava com a música normal e com essa chorei mais ainda

  • @gummy1993
    @gummy1993 Před 2 lety +31

    Dear people,
    Crying or being angry isn’t being ‘emo’. It’s normal to have emotions, everyone has them. You shouldn’t tell them they’re emo or overdramatic. It’s not right…
    It’s all fun and games till they do something you wouldn’t expect. Please watch yourself before you say something you might regret. And don’t be some smart ass in the comments. It’s not hard to shut up.
    Love,
    Me
    2008-2021

  • @AngiesVL
    @AngiesVL Před 2 lety +146

    thank u for doing this, instead of actually dying i could just listen to this and just imagine it

  • @suuuds
    @suuuds Před 2 lety +38

    i actually want this in real life. they hurted me so much that i wanna go to the hospital man.

  • @createandevolve
    @createandevolve Před 2 lety +2

    Be proud of yourself.
    You went through every type of pain, family issues, trust issues, heartbreak, insecurities, depression, etc. You went through it all alone, but never gave up

  • @nahouafofana5417
    @nahouafofana5417 Před 2 lety +11

    Je ne pleure plus , je souris et me renferme à la fois
    Je suis pas perdu , j’ai toujours la fois
    Pourquoi tu m’a laisser depuis ton lit d’hôpital
    Sache que chaque jour j’ai besoin de toi
    Dans le ciel y’a des milliards d’étoiles mais la mienne c’est toi
    on a vécu 9 ans sous le même toit
    Chaque jour le premier visage que j’apercevais était le tient
    On devait finir à deux ce long chemin
    Mais malheureusement le destin en a fait autrement
    Ce manque , je le ressens
    J’attends j’attend depuis 7 ans
    Alors pour toi je continue ma vie
    pour toi je me répète que je ne doit pas lâcher
    Pour toi je vais rien lâcher
    Je vais vivre chaque jour comme si c’était le tient
    Je vais serré fort les reines de la vie dans mes mains
    Si seulement je pouvais te serrer dans mes bras
    Je n’es pas peur de la mort
    J’attends plus qu’elle vienne à moi
    Mais j’ai appris à vivre sans ta présence
    Je gère mon insolence
    Sans papa et maman
    Dans la vie j’avance
    Entouré de ma famille je continue mon adolescence.

  • @cheetaro8657
    @cheetaro8657 Před 2 lety +3

    I was in hospital for ages when I was a toddler. My knees were deformed and I had to have these operations to fix them. For some reason nthwese things caused me so much trauma and ptsd from the environment of the hospital, and suffocating feeling of being given the gas and the huge amount of pain I felt in my legs afterward. Maybe it was because I was so small but it makes me so afraid to ever go back. It’s funny how the one place that’s meant to help you and heal you is the one place you never want to end up.

  • @_highlie_4830
    @_highlie_4830 Před 2 lety +118

    Psalm 56:3 "When you are afraid, give your fears to God and believe in him."

    • @lalalele5399
      @lalalele5399 Před 2 lety +4

      Amen🙏

    • @annacarolina7971
      @annacarolina7971 Před 2 lety +6

      I was needing that, there are a lot of doubts and it make me more comfortable, so thank you about that❤️. Please, pray for me

    • @orla3820
      @orla3820 Před 2 lety

      Amen

    • @PangersenlaPOL
      @PangersenlaPOL Před 2 lety +1

      Thanks a million tons for the reminder....was feeling suicidal and got a hold of myself through this

  • @kahba1.045
    @kahba1.045 Před 2 lety +8

    I don't know why, but i'm in love with the idea that this is happening in real life.

    • @kahba1.045
      @kahba1.045 Před měsícem

      2 years and i'm still listening to it...

  • @reza7xz307
    @reza7xz307 Před 2 lety +4

    he was standing on the edge of it, taking in all these last seconds of his life. he heard footsteps running behind him and saw her. for the first time he felt as if she cared, as if his absence would matter. “don’t do it… don’t jump” she told him. “too late. seems like I’ve been around for longer than I should have. it was a mistake” said he with a vivid smile. and without a second thought he closed his eyes and jumped. he felt his tears flying towards the sky, not wanting to accompany him. he thought he could hear someone screaming through the rush of wind in his ears. maybe it was her knowing that she’ll miss him? but he didn’t care anymore. he knew that raising his expectations will not do him any good ever.

  • @jana-sc6nn
    @jana-sc6nn Před 2 lety +8

    this is so calming. death is so peaceful. maybe it’s time for me to find some peace.

    • @kaim5193
      @kaim5193 Před 2 lety +1

      no don't do that, idk you but I want you to be alive. I'm assuming your a teenager and so am I and i get how you feel. but live for your future and for me even though we will never meet, I am proud of you.

    • @karolinak422
      @karolinak422 Před 2 lety +1

      no.. it isn't.. please, don't give up ! stay here, with me, with us..❤️

  • @yasssss444
    @yasssss444 Před 2 lety +58

    don’t read this if you get triggered easily but uh
    bro this reminds me of the time my dad suddenly passed. i feel like it was my fault not being able to do something about it. he didnt east or drink and i regret it everyday til this very day becuase i was always fighting with him, and we were in a argument when he died. ah and not to mention the facts that i have a younger sibling which also has them very confused as well :(.
    couldn’t say bye to him. i was 12, i was so confused. somehow i knew he was going to die soon, and i had such a unbreakable relationship with him. i love you dad forever
    PLLELEEEEEEEEEAAASE yall if ur dad or parental figure is still in ur life, please treat them with love, kindness and forgiveness

    • @cinnamon_toast_rolls8617
      @cinnamon_toast_rolls8617 Před 2 lety

      This is really sad I hope your okay now

    • @yasssss444
      @yasssss444 Před 2 lety

      @@cinnamon_toast_rolls8617 hi, im ok now :) my mom might have breast cancer which im not 100% sure on ... but if she does my life is COLAPSEEE anyways thank you :) it means alot that you commented this. im okay now, i hope youre doing well urself :)

    • @arkani_
      @arkani_ Před 2 lety

      I feel that but with my grandpa. He died three years ago now. I had two years fighting with depression suicide … just because I couldn’t say him how much I love him. Because I always wasn’t in an happy mood when I saw him because he teased me sometimes and then just annoyed me so well. Yea I feel.

    • @kxliiaa
      @kxliiaa Před 2 lety

      My mother died when I was 3 years old. My father told me a few months ago, that I couldn’t say goodbye to anyone after her death... I think I wasn’t really sure what happened...

    • @LonelyFriend-tn7gg
      @LonelyFriend-tn7gg Před 11 měsíci

      My father is ill too I'm from india a middle class family i cry everyday and behave like a rude person to him i don't know why i don't want let him know about my care 😊

  • @kasvaldez2955
    @kasvaldez2955 Před 2 lety +6

    I remember when I was 14, my mental health was at an all time low. Self harm, bullying, family trauma and flashbacks, along with the pressure of doing well in school while understanding my sexuality and identity. I felt so alone because I put on a facade that i was a perfect student, and child. So I tried speaking with my friends, cousins. Until I tried going to the school nurse, and telling her about my anxiety and depression along with asking if it was possible to have it if my sister and other relatives are diagnosed as well. She laughed in my face and said they were just my hormones. I felt so hopeless, that I had began to premeditate my own suicide. I wanted to write a letter for each month of the year about my thoughts and feelings but i just couldn't fathom the thought of limiting my life on paper. So i gave up on the 3-4 month and gave the letters to my mom before I left for school. As young as I still am, I'm 19 and not a day goes by where I don't reflect on my life. There are days where I'm "off" but I have someone I promised to stay for. She looks up to me for so many things, that I want her to know that people won't always be there for us. We might be alone through most of our struggles but in order to find happiness on the road to happiness we have to save ourselves. And that when we do stumble on people who reach out, we should make the most of our youth and our life. Suicide might make the pain go away, but it's scary knowing I wouldn't be able to try the options to make it all more manageable. For those who don't believe they have the worth to get help, please reach out. You deserve it. And even if it takes you one or a million tries, someone will reach out to you.

  • @mono-yl9tz
    @mono-yl9tz Před 2 lety +1

    it's funny how people don't care until you've finally hurt yourself enough to end up in the hospital

  • @Miitzrael
    @Miitzrael Před 2 lety +1

    I work at the local Hospital and this hit differently. It’s exhausting to see how people’s life escape from their eyes day by day 😢

  • @serach838
    @serach838 Před 2 lety +2

    why is everyone sad this would be my literal dream. trigger warning but id give anything to be dying in a hospital right now ESPECIALLY with patrick watson in my ears

  • @katelynn686
    @katelynn686 Před 2 lety +3

    just got a flash back when I was sitting on a chair next to my granny's hospital bed and hearing they beeping notices before they put her to sleep this hits deep

  • @eul.1863
    @eul.1863 Před 2 lety +3

    This gives me flowers from 1970 vibes

  • @atlasvv
    @atlasvv Před 2 lety +2

    out there, people smile, laugh, love and make memories. memories that could be cherish for such an eternity, beautiful enough to make us realize life isn’t always gloomy.
    some people out there are living just like a human being. grow up, learn alot of things, making mistakes and preventing from doing more, make friends and falling in love. sadly, you aren’t able to do such things like those. let alone, you; laying on the bed with these basic hospital sheets, the pillows’ comfort engulfing your back, and as if your lungs were being squished, pressed.
    you thought about how this is it. a literal endgame for your life. in some movies, before a character dies, they’ll be having these lucid thoughts, successes in life that will never happen, or rather just flashbacks. the fictional belief, before time’s up.
    to be able to fall in love. what was it like? to be able to make friends, it was all you’ve ever wanted. something to fantasise about.
    it’s getting colder. but why? its merely night fall and they will never change the temperature of the air conditioner. you remembered, “oh.” silly of you to forget that easily. your breathing being shallow enough and your heart rate dropping ever so slightly.
    no friends, not one lover, family away from the current city. alone. you are alone. nurses are there for the temporary companion you might need, that would be alright for you. being in the hospital for almost your entire life, getting nothing but being questioned if you’re alright or not and people telling you to get some rest. the exact questions never change. and you’re tired. so tired.
    but as of now, the repeated sentences will stop. and that would be permanent.

  • @laurenbews
    @laurenbews Před 2 lety +10

    ah yes the ptsd running back after having open heart surgery, a collapsed lung and getting a pace maker. :') that was all in the span of two weeks.

  • @Screambabe21
    @Screambabe21 Před 2 lety +3

    As I lay here soundly, sitting along my side my long life partner I waited for so long. Holding my hand tightly, knowing I’m going to go soon, leaving them alone. They hum this song to me one last time, as my last breath is being breathed. The sound of the monitor, their soothing voice, and the silent sobs from us both filling the room. Sobs...Of happiness, knowing I fulfilled my long lived life with them. Dying happily, knowing I found the one I found myself, and I found true happiness. “I love you...” I speak softly to them, holding and caressing their hair, my heart beating even slower as I hold them tight. My last words being “Until we meet again my love...”

  • @Elena-cl4qe
    @Elena-cl4qe Před 2 lety +2

    I somehow felt a energy of freedom and Happiness

  • @alisonguadalupelopezlopez918

    this feels like a background song in a series scene where a comfort character dies

  • @jacksonanglim6331
    @jacksonanglim6331 Před 2 lety +1

    When you're battling cancer this hits different.

  • @beaaggressive
    @beaaggressive Před 2 lety +1

    Hey, this seems like a nice end-of-life song to hear

  • @sarah-lu2wz
    @sarah-lu2wz Před 2 lety

    this brings back memories of when i was in the hospital for OD and i had this song on repeat while in so much physical pain, it made me realize how greatful i am that i lived. thanks for making this❤

  • @user-ir9ep9qb4u
    @user-ir9ep9qb4u Před 2 lety +3

    No cuz im actually gonna imagine this song in my head whenever is my time to go

  • @MilenaDeAngelis
    @MilenaDeAngelis Před 2 lety

    Makes me grateful to be alive, to be able to live, and be and love thank you!

  • @miyakookamoto8930
    @miyakookamoto8930 Před 2 lety +1

    I listen to a playlist made by someone else to fall asleep so I opened CZcams and read the title for the first time ever and ngl you caught me off guard with that one

  • @luanamiyamoto
    @luanamiyamoto Před 2 lety +14

    this is really perfect

  • @instagramuser2463
    @instagramuser2463 Před 2 lety +2

    I almost died in hospital from my diabetes around one month ago and this song kept repeating in my head the song captures all the emotions I was feeling, it was overwhelming but it was beautiful in a way that I can't explain

  • @Hannah-wq5rs
    @Hannah-wq5rs Před 2 lety +3

    death seems so peaceful to me, I’m not afraid of it at all

  • @samanthavelazquez6100
    @samanthavelazquez6100 Před 2 lety +11

    Why does this remid me of A Little Life? ):

  • @skyx3361
    @skyx3361 Před 2 lety +6

    this is perfect oml

  • @1saamor897
    @1saamor897 Před 2 lety

    I never knew the beeping noise at the hospital could sound so sad. Now I wish people could never hear that again...

  • @voidsfriends
    @voidsfriends Před 2 lety +1

    maybe listening to this alive is kinda better than listenging to this while actually dying. im just wondering why are we in so much pain we even clicked on that video. pure philosophy, but in my opinion, its because we would like to experience it, but also not sonwe watch this video to just imagine it
    stay strong guys, and i promise you it will get better. we'll get through this :)

  • @zenzen6463
    @zenzen6463 Před 2 lety +2

    Dear sister, i really wish you could love me, not once in my life have i not wished for you to love me, before i die, i just want you to know that no matter how much you hate me, i will always love you, i care so much about you, and it hurts that you don't care about me, but thats fine, deep down i know you will love me back someday, but that day i won't be here, i won't be alive, but i will watch over you, and no matter how much you dislike me, i still love you

  • @meowonnn
    @meowonnn Před 2 lety +3

    ok, eu chorei muito.

  • @ijustwannasleepforever
    @ijustwannasleepforever Před 2 lety +2

    I wonder if I'll have someone beside me when I die

  • @sadieoneill9585
    @sadieoneill9585 Před 2 lety +8

    I need 1hr or 10hrsofthis

  • @lalaskii7814
    @lalaskii7814 Před 2 lety

    I love THIS-!

  • @alishajohnson6728
    @alishajohnson6728 Před 2 lety +1

    this it different when you see no one but yourself in that room alone

  • @meowsicle3592
    @meowsicle3592 Před 2 lety +1

    if i was in a movie i would play this when i die.

  • @venuswashere4484
    @venuswashere4484 Před 2 lety +7

    whos playing music while im dying oh ever so graccefully

  • @xienti4416
    @xienti4416 Před 2 lety +1

    I'm now reading ( again) the Polish book kamienie na szaniec (eng. stones for the rampart) and this just gives me the feeling of two dying boys, Alek and Rudy, in Warsaw, Rudy taken from home by the German police during the Second World War on 26th of March 1943 at 4.30 a.m, and his Friends, Alek and Zoska decided to rescue him from the hands of the Germans, during the action Alek was shot in the stomach, and Rudy was seriously injured as a result of the torture of the Gestapo, they both died on the same day, 30th of March 1943, and Zoska was alone, he died in October, he was also shot, but straight to the heart, and he died in doctor's arms, it's a book about people who knew how to live and die beautifully, they were young, too young to die, they could leave Poland, run away, but they decided to fight with Germany, they had their lives, girlfriends, families, but they died. They attended the Batory high school, and it's sad because young people know that high school just because a famous rapper attended there, not young heroes, Maciek Dawidowski "Alek", Tadeusz Zawadzki "Zoska" and Jan Bytnar "Rudy"

  • @jmxry
    @jmxry Před 2 lety +2

    This is so weird how i got this video when i first open youtube , im currently at a hospital . My dad is doing really fine but you never know what will happen

  • @Karaa.aaa4
    @Karaa.aaa4 Před 2 lety +6

    I never thought I would talk so freely about it but that songs reminds me of my grandpa he raised me save my mom my sisters and my life so many times I wish he could still be here today he had 3 cancers was able to survive but his system was not 100% good he got COVID and didn’t tell nobody for a week when my mom knew about it she called me at my work but it was curfew I still run out took the bus and go see him he was on his couch trying to breath but he didn’t want to go to the hospital or nothing so I had to stay there and watch him die in front of my eyes… I’m so lost I actually have so much problems but the fact that his gone makes it harder 😭😭

  • @nevekerrison9487
    @nevekerrison9487 Před 2 lety

    this is so comforting :)

  • @yellow3527
    @yellow3527 Před 2 lety +1

    This is beautiful

  • @ivaansrna
    @ivaansrna Před 2 lety +3

    You are in pain, and listening this hehe cheers mate…

  • @leelaro
    @leelaro Před 2 lety +1

    My best friend that i had a massive crush on sent me a video of her playing this song on piano, she knew i loved this song, i still look back on the video and i wish i could hug her.

  • @serach838
    @serach838 Před 2 lety +1

    i attempted and took such a high dose that my psychiatrist was surprised that i survived. but i still didn't get admitted. my mom kept shaking me and yelling at me for what i later found out was 10 mins and i woke up high as hell. that was the closest ive come to getting the job done. ive attempted earlier and the entire week after this particular attempt id do it again. im being treated now and things aren't better, so I don't know. when my first attempt happened, i thought the day i go to a shrink, it'll start to get better. but i guess im just one of those people that are a little broken. i don't get high unless i take a dangerous amount of prescription meds, nothing makes me happy, I can't eat, and I can't sleep. every little thing is a struggle. i wish i could say things get better. they don't.

  • @brooke5602
    @brooke5602 Před 2 lety +1

    I listened to this during and in the hospital after an attempt it makes me so sad

  • @youprobablywontrememberme4087

    As someone who almost died in hospital earlier this year, and constantly listened to this song during my 4 admissions. It was not peaceful. It was full of pain, inability to breathe from tears, oxygen masks, meds that would make your breathing slow and make you sleep for hours and days, and arguments with friends and family because they don’t want to deal with you. Please don’t purposefully leave this way, it’s not nice.

  • @mackenziethomas8646
    @mackenziethomas8646 Před 2 lety +2

    This is what the last thing I hear to be. Every time I’m happy I’m listening to music and this song comes on I feel so peaceful. Therefore it will only accept this

  • @pastry111
    @pastry111 Před rokem

    he was my everything

  • @user-ly7sg3fp6t
    @user-ly7sg3fp6t Před rokem +1

    I don't wish I die, I just wish I never existed in the first place.

  • @unicorngirl7856
    @unicorngirl7856 Před 2 lety +3

    Finally.... Thanks gurl

  • @jxss_snail0532
    @jxss_snail0532 Před 2 lety +1

    I’d wanna go out listening to this honestlyn

  • @majmmma
    @majmmma Před 2 lety +1

    well, as a person who spent some time in the hospital this hits hard..

  • @joenuts989
    @joenuts989 Před 2 lety

    My teacher died not to long ago, he was in a motorcycling accident and died in the hospital. This is how I imagine he felt, he was only 24 and I’ll miss him so much. Rip Mr. Glenn.

  • @margauxshr1092
    @margauxshr1092 Před 2 lety +1

    tears never came faster

  • @AvaRF_
    @AvaRF_ Před 2 lety +2

    Thank you for this

    • @bruna7432
      @bruna7432 Před 2 lety

      I went to listen to the music and leave with depression 🇧🇷 😭

  • @millie-5305
    @millie-5305 Před 2 lety

    I miss her so much

  • @grimestaar
    @grimestaar Před 2 lety +1

    holy shit dude this is my favorite song i love you i love you i love you so much AAAAA

  • @Ana-nj3cs
    @Ana-nj3cs Před 2 lety +4

    Not me actually listening this in my bed at the hospital..

    • @katiscat3320
      @katiscat3320 Před 2 lety +4

      :( hope ur okay

    • @Viinesha
      @Viinesha Před 2 lety +2

      Are you okay? Reach us from here asap

    • @Ana-nj3cs
      @Ana-nj3cs Před 2 lety +1

      @@Viinesha I’m fine now guys

    • @Ana-nj3cs
      @Ana-nj3cs Před 2 lety

      @@katiscat3320 I’m fine now

  • @axeman2392
    @axeman2392 Před 2 lety

    this hurts me a lot because my very close friend died in the hospital with cancer and it hurts so much and i miss her so much i just wanna see her one last time

  • @g4yromantic71
    @g4yromantic71 Před 2 lety +1

    this hits different i nearly died bc of an attempt months ago in the hospital..

  • @mathilderoig1026
    @mathilderoig1026 Před 2 lety

    This hit different after you finish They both die at the end

  • @bethanyvili4097
    @bethanyvili4097 Před 2 lety

    You never realized just how much I loved and cared about you...but maybe I didn't either. 😔

  • @mackenziethomas8646
    @mackenziethomas8646 Před 2 lety +2

    I’m gonna cry

  • @kiag3254
    @kiag3254 Před 2 lety

    I’m not necessarily scared of death, I’m just not ready yet. Like I’m only 13 and I haven’t gotten to have my first kiss, go to prom, party, college, travel, marry, have kids, and so much more. I also can’t leave my sisters, parents, pets and friends along with all my other joys. I haven’t made an impact or anyone to remember me when my people are also gone. We aren’t scared of death. We’re scared of what we miss and leave behind.

  • @random88667
    @random88667 Před 6 měsíci +1

    To anyone who's reading this, I hope life's gets better for you.

  • @eowyn7975
    @eowyn7975 Před 2 lety +1

    I was thinking about the person I love while listening to this...what whould he do if I die? What whould I do if he dies? I started crying. But he's with me, and I love him, and I'm so fucking happy to have him.

  • @666aldc
    @666aldc Před 2 lety

    theres just a aching feeling in my heart. i dont know what to do anymore. i had two break downs in a row (one yesterday and one today) i am in the worst depression and im turning 13 on june 24th. i honestly dont think ill make it to 13. after 2 attempts (one that no one knows of) i thought that maybe i would actually appreciate life. i cant. not at all. i feel trapped. almost like im begging to let go but my heart is holding my hand but it's about to completely break. i feel so empty yet upset like someone i love died, i feel like this isnt my body like im completely out but something is still in me. i feel awful. and i dont know if i can do this anymore. its horrible.

  • @millie-5305
    @millie-5305 Před 2 lety +1

    My mom died alone, accompanied by nothing more than the beeps of hospital machines and the bustle of staff. Utterly, and completely, alone.