About a movie NOA PLEASE DO VEDA TOO!! or I guess it would be vedis, but please do it I love your channel and I think it would be good for your channel and you (and me)! Obviously, you don't have to, but it would be super cool!!
i'm amazed that you managed to stay and have a good time even after having a panic attack. i'm proud of you dodie! i woulda congo lined straight out of there
Dodie's Ukulele i freaked out when he mentioned her because i love both of them! i'm sure she knows by now though since they're friendly on twitter :^)
you gave me the courage to accept that i'm bi, i haven't come out to my family yet but i have come out to my close friends. thank you so much dodie. i love you so much💛💛 edit - thank you so much for all the likes and support, it may not seem like it but it means so much to me❤❤
whenever i am in the dark, my dissociation gets 100x worse so i could only imagine how it felt like but i'm really glad you had a supportive human being with you to ground you and make you feel more safe. it's hard to find someone who actually understands things so i think it's lovely
i tried doing that but it doesn't help :/ i found watching youtube videos help for some reason, like seeing people doing normal human things bring a little sense of reality to me
Well everyone has there own ways of dealing with life I only find that helps bc my dog is trained to lick my hand when my heart beat goes up so it just reminds me of that!!
I have a panic disorder and if there's one thing I've learned from the whole ~experience~ (which is horrible btw do not recommend) is to always stick it out, engage, and never let your panic prevent you from living your life this is a very very hard thing to do though and it took me a loooong while to figure out how to not just run away from everything every time I got panicky so bravo Dodie YOU ARE SO STRONG AND BRAVE GIRL keep going and never give up ❤️
i went thru marijuana withdrawal recently which induced a fair few panic attacks, but because of that i learned this trick early on. i was genuinely scared i gave myself panic disorder, but that thought ironically can actually do that. this advice is the only advice that actually works!! forcing yourself to calm down makes it worse because it makes the panic attack seem bigger than it is.
"I guess the moral is to try new things and to stick it out when things are really scary because there are good things to take from bad situations, and it might just be worth it. And if it's not, at least you tried." It's incredible how lately I'm randomly finding all of these thoughts that apply so perfectly to the situation I'm living right now. Thank you Dodie, for reminding me to keep going even when it gets tough.
it's a bit early [in germany] and I first thought this is a video about 'dancing in the park' and fastly woke up causd I was so happy about such a video and the next look I saw...oh.
a lil french tip: the "s" at the end of most words isn't pronounced at all UNLESSSS there's a vowel at the start of the word after it. (the letter h also counts as a vowel I guess)
Great video! Such an amazing story. I hope your mental issues improve in the future. As long as you're happy and smiling I'm happy and smiling. Thank you for uploading, it makes me feel less anxious and far far happier. Will you please consider covering a Florence and the machine song? (Girl with one eye would really suit your voice.(I think.)) sorry if I bothered you. 💛☁️
Lana Moore she did a shake it out cover with Zannah and Melanie baker but I think zannah removed it 😭 BUT YES OMG THEY ARE MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BAND and they're so underrated I think she could do a good between two lungs cover
Dodie, you are so incredibly brave for sharing these things. Thank you so much for doing this and normalizing panic attacks (though they are still very serious, they aren't shameful or weird.) it's really great to hear that other people have them and that the things that happen in your panic attacks are the same as what happen in mine. It makes me feel valid and good. I would certainly encourage you to do this again if you get the chance. You should actively try to do it again if you can. That would prove to yourself that after you've done something scary once, it's far less scary the second time, if not perfectly fine. If you do that with enough things, maybe you'd nearly "cure" yourself of panic attacks forever! It would be really interesting to see. I had/have a horrible fear of doctors and hospitals and medical settings, especially being nude or being touched. Then without any therapy or proper mental preparation (actually just 9 months of panicking on and off and crying my eyes out about it) I actually gave birth to a baby in a hospital and was fine. Like actually fine. I did not have a panic attack. Which I still cannot believe. I want another kid someday and I'm really interested to know if I'd do even better next time, or about the same. To be honest I can't imagine what it would be like. But I know I always imagine it's worse than it really is. Anyway! Thanks again for making videos like these!!! Please keep uploading them! I want to hear all of your raw and real deepest darkest feelings and thoughts!!!! (If that isn't creepy... if it is I am soooo sorry.)
I've hated the dark since a traumatic year 5 camping trip with a laser pointer ahah my friends thought it was fun to pull a prank on lil 9 year old me. They told me if the laser went in my face I would be blinded ahhh how terrible I thought. We were in a shack with no lights, and with no torches it was pitch black. So they put the laser near ma face and then -bam- all torches off no light oh dear. I thought I was blind I was like flailing round crashing into walls wailing, lol, till late at night (like 10 but hush). Then, a mum came in - and woah it was like the gates to heaven so much sight flooded my eyes. It was ''sooooo funny'' to everyone else but it was quite a scarring experience if I do say so myself.
I've only experienced a darkness that dark once (that I recall). My grade went on an outing to the Cradle of Humankind and we walked into depths of the caves and it was so dark that I *literally* could not see my hand in front of my face and everything around me was *literally* pitch black. I had maybe the exact opposite reaction as you did though - I thought it was insanely cool and I wanted to stay there for as long as I possibly could because I thought it was so calming. I have anxiety too but mine's more of a social anxiety disorder so maybe that explains the differences in our reactions? idk idk, great video dodie, it was really interesting hearing your thoughts 💛💛💛
Oh that's interesting! I have had an experience in this kind of darkness too once : it was in an amusement park, we were led by blind people who showed us how it feels to explore without seeing. I think I remember that it felt really weird, not scary but confusing...
Know/remember film cameras? My 'work experience' way back in 1988 was spending a couple of weeks with a company that processed peoples' film rolls into photos for them. Part of that had me just sitting in one of the *DARK* rooms they used for getting the film out of the housing it's in whilst in a camera and onto a roll drum with lots of other rolls for further processing. I was just sitting whilst someone with experience was doing the actual work. Given the film was still light-sensitive and undeveloped at this stage that room was *D*A*R*K*. Kind of felt like the darkness was pressing in on my eyeballs. I also have vague memories of some cave where the lights got turned out. It is indeed a little freaky to be "looking around" but seeing no difference, including when waving your hand in front of your face.
Rea Keebz we went to belgium for a history trip a few years ago with my year at school and we went in these underground trenches and it was also pitch black like literally there was no light my eyes felt weird and empty
I went to a summer camp where we went caving. About 5 minutes in, we all sat down in a room and turned off our headlamps. It was completely black but I still felt like I could see my hand, which was weird. I also found it very relaxing.
i want to do this and i'm scared that if i did and i felt like a hair on my leg or something i would freak out and think it's a spider and i wouldn't be able to tell what it is and oh my god what if it was just dark because they were hiding dead bodies or they were hiding illegal drugs or they were hiding the hamilton bootleg or something
I've just started rowing and I'm so nervous to go in a proper single scull for the first time. But this really helped calm my nerves even though it's in 2 days. The thought of me making a fool out of myself terrifies me. The thought of embarrassing myself in front of the people I am trying to impress makes me nauseous, which CLEARLY isn't helpful when you're in a boat that's thinner than your are.
There is a place near where i live, where you go into a pitch black room with the sticks that blind people have and experience different situations like a blind person. In one part you are in a boat, in another you are riding the tram and you pass through a park and its very interesting cause all the people helping you through the course are actually blind and at the end you get to ask them some questions. Me as a very shy person normally somehow just became social butterfly because i couldnt see at all and i was really surprised because i could easily talk to people i was intimidated by before. it was a really cool experience.
I had a horrible experience where I was followed by a guy and approached today who wouldn't leave me alone and I just watched nearly all your songs to calm me down as I keep thinking about what could have happened if I hadn't gotten away. So thank you for helping even though you will never know it xx
I actually got to experience something similar like,, it was a bunch of rooms with different stuff in them and the darkness felt exactly like you described, everyone was yelling and I just totally spaced out, stopped paying attention to the screams and it felt like I was floating in the space or something. truly a magical experience
It's honestly so freaking awesome and inspiring to hear you talking about your mental health issues without perpetuating them - which can be half the battle sometimes. It's important to work on keeping a more healthy relationship with ones illnesses. Remembering that the illness is not who you are, but it is still a part of you and your growth as a person. much love oxox
I had a panic attack at my school camp this year, and I've never been one to think I was scared of the dark and I don't even know if I am, but I was in my cabin and I couldn't keep myself from crying. I've shared a room with my little sister for the past 6 years of my life, and she's scared of the dark so ever since she was 3 and we started sharing the room we have a little night light to help her. So I guess being so used to this little light has just become so normal, and in the cabin, it was so dark and my brain just started panicking because I felt like I couldn't distinguish the difference between reality and the thoughts in my head. It was one AM and quiet, everyone fell asleep but my brain made it out to feel like this room was the loudest place I have ever been to. I don't even know how to describe it, its like inaudible words in my brain became louder and louder until it felt like it was screaming. I felt so small, so I went outside to breathe. A duck came near me ( honestly it wasn't even that close, it was a few meters away) and I must have been hella emotional because I poured my heart out. To a duck. I was all like 'thank you for being here, you make everything feel real again and you're so precious I love you'... But then the camp nightguard came to do his check up on the cabins to find me crying to a duck and made me walk in a straight line because he thought I was drinking and that's why I was so emotional. Oops, I guess? I went back to my cabin, and I ended up calming down because it started raining and I found it so much more relaxing. Camp was wild this year
Oh god I have the most intense phobia of needles, I really do feel your pain! I really hope you can get through it, but if not, depending on where you live I think you can have them done with anaesthetic so you don't feel it so it makes it easier
You've got this! I have life threatening chronic illness and disabilities and am pretty much always watching Dodie's lovely videos from my hospital room she really does help me. Just breathe remember H.O.P.E hold on pain ends and it'll be over in two seconds. It's really not even the needle itself I think it's people just overly freaking out about it that is the biggest part. It helps if someone scratches your hand or maybe gently pinches your hand to divert your attention(Being chronically ill my entire life eventually I had no choice but to just get used to constant surgeries poking prodding etc. I have basically like a permanent IV called a central line that's surgically tunneled into my chest and goes straight to my heart since I can't eat and rely on IV nutrition called TPN and it definitely took some getting used to but I did and if I can get used to permanent tubes and lines and hospitals I pinky promise you can get through a few quick injections I believe in you! 💖💪🏻🌼🙏🏻
i've felt this disassociating panic since i was 10 or 11 years old. exactly how you described except it doesn't go away and i flee or almost pass out. i haven't been to a movie theatre or anywhere very dark since it started and lately it's becoming more frequent and less environment specific. you help me start searching online for answers and helped me realize i had anxiety and that this feeling that everyone told me i was crazy for was disassociating and probably derealization. so thank you for always talking so openly and unashamedly about your mental health and experiences babe. all the love
Dodie is so amazingly brave, not only did she stay through the entire experience, she was able to control a panic(!) attack while still in the environment that caused the initial panic! Dodie is honestly a wonderful human being!
i remember one night as a child, there was a tornado watch so my family slept in the basement. my sister and i slept in this little area under the stairs. there was a little light attached to the wall that you push down on to turn on. i remember waking up and seeing just pitch darkness and not knowing if my eyes were open (as weird as that sounds lol) and i thought i might've been dreaming. it freaked me out a bit. the "opening your eyes made no difference" part made me think of this
Whenever I watch Dodie, I make tea. It's just nice to sit on my bed, with no lights except for fairy lights, in my pajamas, and sip tea while being cozy under my covers. Her voice is just so nice and soothing.
when i go sleeping at a friend's house they always want to colse the shuttersso there is NO LIGHT in the room and it does the things were you don't evenknow if your eyes are closed or not and I just PANICCCC
The thing you mentioned about having a panic attack while being stuck on a ride or having an injection at the dentist was such a relief to hear someone had experienced something similar because I thought I had been going crazy when it happened! I had to get a referral the other day to get laughing gas because they couldn't give me a needle to freeze my mouth for a filling because I had a panic attack. The doctors were super rude to me about it but it's their loss I guess because I'm never going there again lol
I am actually blind, and it makes my heart so happy to hear that you stuck this out. Even though it's super scary, imagine that being your daily life. I was born blind, so I'm used to the sight I do and don't have. But I am lucky enough to have light and dark perception so I'm not in that much darkness.
that sound fantastic (the restaurant, not the panic attack), i love the dark. there is something really beautiful about it,i always think how it must have been for ancient man when at night all they had was fire or the shine from the stars and moon.
i just panicked hearing you describing the situation omggg i feel like that every time i’m in total dark. sometimes the lights goes out while i’m asleep and i just wake up DYING
everything you say about depersonalization is so relatable for me. I feel like nobody else that I know really understands it, not even my therapist. I love you so much, you are such a good role model.
about a month ago i went on vacation to florida and we had to stay the night at a house id never been in before and the thing with me is that every time i sleep i have some sort of light on like i have fairy lights in my room and when i'm not home i like to have the curtains of whatever room i'm sleeping in open. but with the house we stayed in, the curtains didn't open, and it was so dark that i had the literal exact same reaction, i was panicking so so badly because i was holding my hand right in front of my eyes but i couldn't see it and blinking hard and seeing no difference. it's the most panicked i have been in a long while and i had almost forgotten about it but this reminded me. i'm sorry that you had to feel that same panic, dodie
i loved this story. a few months ago i went to a bar and had a panic attack followed by dissociating. similarly to your story, i came away from that night with good memories too. we danced with the dj and the girl working the bar as they closed and celebrated my friends birthday. i'm glad you have happy moments during a scary memory and those good connections are the ones that you can focus on more.
"I guess the moral is to try new things, and to stick it out when things get really scary" this was perfect, especially since i decided to try some new classes this year! (Not to mention it just means that i should just power through when my classes get difficult! )
I'm horrified of the dark. I have a nightlight in my room and I have to have someone with me at all times whenever I'm in any sort of darkness or I start panicking. I can totally understand your fear, and honestly I would have left that place as soon as it got to the point that I couldn't see anything around me. I'm happy that you stuck it through and it ended up being a decent experience!
saw the title and thought you were gonna sing a panic song in the dark,,, anyway, i had an experience like this recently. not in a dark restaurant but i had done this sort of zip line obstacle course thing?? it was very long and high up. at first it was alright but as i had continued, it started to get more precarious and the obstacles were less stable and smaller and just generally terrifying omg. i had to quit halfway though because my brain just kept saying "i don't like this i don't like this i don't like this". but i was proud that i at least tried it and got halfway through. i think it's very important to be proud of yourself for trying something you normally wouldn't, even if you do panic. i'm happy that you're proud of yourself and happy that you stuck through. that's definitely something to be proud of, because it's difficult to stick through something when you're panicking because all you want to do is get out of the situation. idk but this video made me happy 💛
Thank you dodie for sharing this. You reminded me that even when I feel like a failure for having anxiety, it is still an achievement for me to get through the panic attacks, thank you for making me feel less idiotic and alone.
honestly i think that this sort of thing would probably make talking to people much easier for me? i have very bad social anxiety and eye contact in particular makes me nervous (i always feel that i'm making too much or too little) so having that extra pressure taken out of the equation would probably be quite reassuring. idk...
M8 well done you for sticking out the evening! The worst feeling is going somewhere, feeling hella uncomfortable and it taking over the evening. Also THAT GAME SOUNDS SO COOL.
This reminds me of an exhibit I went on during a trip to NYC. It was a "tour" of New York in which it was as black as Dodie was describing and we were giving canes to feel around and the tour guide was blind, so the whole thing was really enlightening.
minus the panic, this sounds like a GREAT TIME who wants to take me on a DATE?!??
CONAN
me.
ALWAYS READY 🙋🏽
Conan Gray ME
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU
Dan Howell should go to that restaurant
BlueSaturn imagine if he was there with Louise lol, the whole place would get destroyed
Amazingsofiaisnotonfire !
i have no words
Maybe it wouldn’t be such a good idea, he might literally just become one with the darkness and disappear from the world of light
Louise & Dan being disasters in restaurants part two
My brain just went "imagine watching Brendon Urie in pitch black" then I remEMBEREd that Panic! is a real feeling lol
ASMR Flutter saaaaaame
ASMR Flutter sameeee
Samee
*Brendon Urie
Sorry😂
ASMR Flutter SAME
I love V(almost)EDA sa freakin mush.
Same, but who doesn't though?
About a movie NOA PLEASE DO VEDA TOO!! or I guess it would be vedis, but please do it I love your channel and I think it would be good for your channel and you (and me)! Obviously, you don't have to, but it would be super cool!!
Hey I love your videos!
Is it almost because veda usually is vlogging everyday in april? Sorry I'm new to the channel, and I'm used to veda only in april on other channels 😅
no its almost because she's not quite posting a video every day, hence why they put 'almost' after the 'e' xx
'My blind viewers'
Francesca Conroy I nearly cried
Like with laughter
Not as in laughing at blind people just the phrase
yikes
yIKES
blind *VIEWERS*
Ah shit you got here before me
OMG
"I'm just like ugly crying, pouring wine..." relatable
Dodie Clark? More like Dodie Panics In The Dark.
kippers OMG I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE
You've heard about elf on the shelf, but you don't know about clark in the dark? Sorry
Dod!e In The Disco
dodie panics! in the clark
panic! in the dark is my favourite band
paula omg I love their song the death of a lightbulb
when the night met the night is such a jam
paula L.A Darkvotee was my absolute favorite. It lit up my world.
paula light/light/dark is my favourite song
O yes my fav songs by them are Dark of a Bachelor, Darkened Days, LA Darkness and Collar Dull XD
Dodie makes a video with Panic! In the title when she has 666k subs. Coincidence?
Mindy Larke Patd is a cult
Lol XD
ha lol
yes
IX XXII
this sounds so cool i wanna do this
ME AND U we can go yh??!!
yes pleaseeee
me tooooo
nATHAN WUT
Yo Nathan gimmie your merch for free I have no monies
The title sounds like an emo teen's youtube username
Hahahahaha
so brendon changed the band name...
Dalien Howlter ........
Dalien Howlter Haha "band"
Dalien Howlter first Dan now Brendon...WHO WILL THE REBRANDING MONSTER TAKE NEXT
Dalien Howlter hAhAhA
bAnD
less panic! more forehead sTOP
i'm amazed that you managed to stay and have a good time even after having a panic attack. i'm proud of you dodie!
i woulda congo lined straight out of there
hahhaha Congo lined out hahahah .
I thought that this video would be dodie singing a panic! at the disco mashup, in the dark, with one candle
Gabriela Kolbe so did I and you know your profile pic is dodie yellow💛
Lord Voldemort
But is it tho?
Voldemort, what in the world are you doing here?
Gabriela Kolbe lol that would be amazing
Gabriela Kolbe yup me too
Hey dodie, Jacksfilms complimented you in his compliment track if you didn't know!
...except, he capitalized the 'd' in your name, so I'd ignore him.
Dodie's Ukulele i freaked out when he mentioned her because i love both of them! i'm sure she knows by now though since they're friendly on twitter :^)
sarah
Yaaaaaaaayy!
Dodie's Ukulele lmao the irony of your comment is that your username capitalises dodie 😂 I'm not attacking you or anything just pointing it out
Lamp Flamingo
OH GOD MY LIFE IS A LIE
I thinks she already knows, she replied to him on Twitter!
you gave me the courage to accept that i'm bi, i haven't come out to my family yet but i have come out to my close friends. thank you so much dodie. i love you so much💛💛
edit - thank you so much for all the likes and support, it may not seem like it but it means so much to me❤❤
phils.tounge awh :) ❤️
Aww this made me happy!!! 😊💕
stay proud!!!
phils.tounge this warmed my heart😭💗
whenever i am in the dark, my dissociation gets 100x worse so i could only imagine how it felt like but i'm really glad you had a supportive human being with you to ground you and make you feel more safe. it's hard to find someone who actually understands things so i think it's lovely
Fatima D- I find sticking my hand in cold water helps!!
i tried doing that but it doesn't help :/ i found watching youtube videos help for some reason, like seeing people doing normal human things bring a little sense of reality to me
Well everyone has there own ways of dealing with life I only find that helps bc my dog is trained to lick my hand when my heart beat goes up so it just reminds me of that!!
that's honestly the cutest thing ever!!! aww bless that dog, tell ur dog i love them
I can already hear the panic! Fans coming....
Lindsey_ 234 cause it's nine in the affteerrrnnooooooonn
Lindsey_ 234 😂lol😂
what's a blurryface *who is blurryface, DO DO *DOOOO*
I'M HERE!
Lindsey_ 234 I'm already here
I have a panic disorder and if there's one thing I've learned from the whole ~experience~ (which is horrible btw do not recommend) is to always stick it out, engage, and never let your panic prevent you from living your life this is a very very hard thing to do though and it took me a loooong while to figure out how to not just run away from everything every time I got panicky so bravo Dodie YOU ARE SO STRONG AND BRAVE GIRL keep going and never give up ❤️
i went thru marijuana withdrawal recently which induced a fair few panic attacks, but because of that i learned this trick early on. i was genuinely scared i gave myself panic disorder, but that thought ironically can actually do that. this advice is the only advice that actually works!! forcing yourself to calm down makes it worse because it makes the panic attack seem bigger than it is.
who else loves her mug?
omg it's so cute
douglasings if you're in England it's from home bargains and is v cheap 💛
yay i'll get it!
Chloe Armitage do you know how much it is and where one in London is??
Lord Voldemort I think I might have found it at bnm actually but I'm not sure where one is in London but it was £2 something sorry I can't remember 😂💙
"I guess the moral is to try new things and to stick it out when things are really scary because there are good things to take from bad situations, and it might just be worth it. And if it's not, at least you tried."
It's incredible how lately I'm randomly finding all of these thoughts that apply so perfectly to the situation I'm living right now. Thank you Dodie, for reminding me to keep going even when it gets tough.
Snapchat saw it first😂💙
Hanna Holland yaaas😂😂
Hanna Holland y e p
yeeeep
Hanna Holland same
Saaame
i see that panic! at the disco reference
(also thank you for your ep, it's helped me so much)
the lights in the background are always perfect😍😍
"excuse me now"
"my brain was making silver spirals."
*slurp*
omg i love this so much
it's a bit early [in germany] and I first thought this is a video about 'dancing in the park' and fastly woke up causd I was so happy about such a video and the next look I saw...oh.
a lil french tip: the "s" at the end of most words isn't pronounced at all UNLESSSS there's a vowel at the start of the word after it. (the letter h also counts as a vowel I guess)
i literally gasped when i saw the title bc i am a yeemo
Selim Yildirim YEE
Selim Yildirim YEEE
YEEEE
YEE
Yee
i chime in, haven't you people ever heard of turning on the goddamn light
just like panic!, with '!' and only consist 1 member
honestly i thought this was going to be a panic! cover with dark lighting or something
WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT SHIPPING DODIE AND STEVIE AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHKENWNWLDNS????????¿¿¿¿¿¿¿
Lola Rose IK IK IK I SHIPPPP ITTT
I am Emma YAAAASSSSSSS
Lola Rose i ship it so much
Anna Garcia Http I KNOW RIGHT??
Lola Rose who's stevie
the continuous sips of tea make me feel like you're gossiping i love it
About time is literally my favorite movie of all time!
This was so cool, Dodie!
I'm glad you were able to try it!
Hope you're aright!
Cheers~
Katrina Jann Forman
Yess someone else who loves about time !!
such a pure comment so wholesome
Great video! Such an amazing story. I hope your mental issues improve in the future. As long as you're happy and smiling I'm happy and smiling. Thank you for uploading, it makes me feel less anxious and far far happier. Will you please consider covering a Florence and the machine song? (Girl with one eye would really suit your voice.(I think.)) sorry if I bothered you. 💛☁️
Lana Moore my boy builds coffins would be soooo good by dodie
Lana Moore she did a shake it out cover with Zannah and Melanie baker but I think zannah removed it 😭 BUT YES OMG THEY ARE MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BAND and they're so underrated I think she could do a good between two lungs cover
Molly Gregson YES!
Evie Gower I didn't even think about my boy builds coffins! Yes! A uke cover would be cool too!
I NEED A DODIE COVER OF F+M IN MY LIFE
Dodie, you are so incredibly brave for sharing these things. Thank you so much for doing this and normalizing panic attacks (though they are still very serious, they aren't shameful or weird.) it's really great to hear that other people have them and that the things that happen in your panic attacks are the same as what happen in mine. It makes me feel valid and good.
I would certainly encourage you to do this again if you get the chance. You should actively try to do it again if you can. That would prove to yourself that after you've done something scary once, it's far less scary the second time, if not perfectly fine. If you do that with enough things, maybe you'd nearly "cure" yourself of panic attacks forever! It would be really interesting to see.
I had/have a horrible fear of doctors and hospitals and medical settings, especially being nude or being touched. Then without any therapy or proper mental preparation (actually just 9 months of panicking on and off and crying my eyes out about it) I actually gave birth to a baby in a hospital and was fine. Like actually fine. I did not have a panic attack. Which I still cannot believe. I want another kid someday and I'm really interested to know if I'd do even better next time, or about the same. To be honest I can't imagine what it would be like. But I know I always imagine it's worse than it really is.
Anyway! Thanks again for making videos like these!!! Please keep uploading them! I want to hear all of your raw and real deepest darkest feelings and thoughts!!!! (If that isn't creepy... if it is I am soooo sorry.)
huh cool! Interesting. I will try and go back :) thank u!
I've hated the dark since a traumatic year 5 camping trip with a laser pointer ahah my friends thought it was fun to pull a prank on lil 9 year old me. They told me if the laser went in my face I would be blinded ahhh how terrible I thought. We were in a shack with no lights, and with no torches it was pitch black. So they put the laser near ma face and then -bam- all torches off no light oh dear. I thought I was blind I was like flailing round crashing into walls wailing, lol, till late at night (like 10 but hush). Then, a mum came in - and woah it was like the gates to heaven so much sight flooded my eyes. It was ''sooooo funny'' to everyone else but it was quite a scarring experience if I do say so myself.
This is what happened when all your band members leave
I've had such a bad brain day today, but watching Dodie soothes my soul💛
I had a bad brain day yesterday, I know how awful it is, feel better.💙
*i’d chime in with a haven’t you people ever heard of, closing the goddamn door?*
I was gonna make a joke but couldn’t come up with anything..
I've only experienced a darkness that dark once (that I recall). My grade went on an outing to the Cradle of Humankind and we walked into depths of the caves and it was so dark that I *literally* could not see my hand in front of my face and everything around me was *literally* pitch black. I had maybe the exact opposite reaction as you did though - I thought it was insanely cool and I wanted to stay there for as long as I possibly could because I thought it was so calming. I have anxiety too but mine's more of a social anxiety disorder so maybe that explains the differences in our reactions? idk idk, great video dodie, it was really interesting hearing your thoughts 💛💛💛
Oh that's interesting! I have had an experience in this kind of darkness too once : it was in an amusement park, we were led by blind people who showed us how it feels to explore without seeing. I think I remember that it felt really weird, not scary but confusing...
Know/remember film cameras? My 'work experience' way back in 1988 was spending a couple of weeks with a company that processed peoples' film rolls into photos for them. Part of that had me just sitting in one of the *DARK* rooms they used for getting the film out of the housing it's in whilst in a camera and onto a roll drum with lots of other rolls for further processing. I was just sitting whilst someone with experience was doing the actual work.
Given the film was still light-sensitive and undeveloped at this stage that room was *D*A*R*K*. Kind of felt like the darkness was pressing in on my eyeballs.
I also have vague memories of some cave where the lights got turned out. It is indeed a little freaky to be "looking around" but seeing no difference, including when waving your hand in front of your face.
Rea Keebz we went to belgium for a history trip a few years ago with my year at school and we went in these underground trenches and it was also pitch black like literally there was no light my eyes felt weird and empty
I went to a summer camp where we went caving. About 5 minutes in, we all sat down in a room and turned off our headlamps. It was completely black but I still felt like I could see my hand, which was weird. I also found it very relaxing.
I've done this too! I only shared your reaction because I was with others, but Im insanely afraid of the dark. Caving is so fun.
i want to do this and i'm scared that if i did and i felt like a hair on my leg or something i would freak out and think it's a spider and i wouldn't be able to tell what it is and oh my god what if it was just dark because they were hiding dead bodies or they were hiding illegal drugs or they were hiding the hamilton bootleg or something
carly_fries "the Hamilton bootleg" I'm wheezing
Oh no we need to tell Jacksfilms
carly_fries “hiding the Hamilton bootleg” I’m fricking dying
you had me at 'panic!'. i mean you have me anyway. but you had me more this time. you had me plus an extra leg. you had a three legged me.
"help help help help help" well that's me when i couldn't handle dodie's cuteness.
Going to one of those restaurants has been on my bucket list since I first watched About Time!
Dodie, I'm really honestly proud of you that stuck it out. I definitely could have never done that, so good job.
Dodie you should listen to Waterparks
*Parxboiz
*Waterbarks
😂😂😂
Panic! I wasn't invited to the disco LUCKY FUCK
less panic! more forehead I LOVE WATERPARKS I GOT TO SEE THEM ON TOUR WITH ALL TIME LOW
I've just started rowing and I'm so nervous to go in a proper single scull for the first time. But this really helped calm my nerves even though it's in 2 days. The thought of me making a fool out of myself terrifies me. The thought of embarrassing myself in front of the people I am trying to impress makes me nauseous, which CLEARLY isn't helpful when you're in a boat that's thinner than your are.
Panic! In the dark, the hit new band watch out for I write sins not lanterns and vegas lamps
There is a place near where i live, where you go into a pitch black room with the sticks that blind people have and experience different situations like a blind person. In one part you are in a boat, in another you are riding the tram and you pass through a park and its very interesting cause all the people helping you through the course are actually blind and at the end you get to ask them some questions. Me as a very shy person normally somehow just became social butterfly because i couldnt see at all and i was really surprised because i could easily talk to people i was intimidated by before. it was a really cool experience.
WHERE ARE THE P!ATD FANS AT?
mel alicia hey I got so happy
Right here
Hey! Did you guys get any chips?
At the disco
HEEEEEEEERE
I had a horrible experience where I was followed by a guy and approached today who wouldn't leave me alone and I just watched nearly all your songs to calm me down as I keep thinking about what could have happened if I hadn't gotten away. So thank you for helping even though you will never know it xx
THEY'RE COMING!
I actually got to experience something similar like,, it was a bunch of rooms with different stuff in them and the darkness felt exactly like you described, everyone was yelling and I just totally spaced out, stopped paying attention to the screams and it felt like I was floating in the space or something. truly a magical experience
i already saw this on snapchat but i'm still coming to watch this
It's honestly so freaking awesome and inspiring to hear you talking about your mental health issues without perpetuating them - which can be half the battle sometimes. It's important to work on keeping a more healthy relationship with ones illnesses. Remembering that the illness is not who you are, but it is still a part of you and your growth as a person.
much love oxox
Are Dodie and Stevie dating?
Diamond Rose we wish
Diamond Rose no,sadly
how do we know?
Diamond Rose we HOPE
What stevie?
I had a panic attack at my school camp this year, and I've never been one to think I was scared of the dark and I don't even know if I am, but I was in my cabin and I couldn't keep myself from crying. I've shared a room with my little sister for the past 6 years of my life, and she's scared of the dark so ever since she was 3 and we started sharing the room we have a little night light to help her. So I guess being so used to this little light has just become so normal, and in the cabin, it was so dark and my brain just started panicking because I felt like I couldn't distinguish the difference between reality and the thoughts in my head. It was one AM and quiet, everyone fell asleep but my brain made it out to feel like this room was the loudest place I have ever been to. I don't even know how to describe it, its like inaudible words in my brain became louder and louder until it felt like it was screaming. I felt so small, so I went outside to breathe. A duck came near me ( honestly it wasn't even that close, it was a few meters away) and I must have been hella emotional because I poured my heart out. To a duck. I was all like 'thank you for being here, you make everything feel real again and you're so precious I love you'... But then the camp nightguard came to do his check up on the cabins to find me crying to a duck and made me walk in a straight line because he thought I was drinking and that's why I was so emotional. Oops, I guess? I went back to my cabin, and I ended up calming down because it started raining and I found it so much more relaxing. Camp was wild this year
I panic when I get the injections too, can't wait to get them tomorrow. (Yay) 😭😭
lil v aw thanks x
Ravenclawesome too true there ahah
Oh god I have the most intense phobia of needles, I really do feel your pain! I really hope you can get through it, but if not, depending on where you live I think you can have them done with anaesthetic so you don't feel it so it makes it easier
I just had mine today and it was not as bad as my brain was telling me.But I do have high anxiety when it comes to needles
You've got this! I have life threatening chronic illness and disabilities and am pretty much always watching Dodie's lovely videos from my hospital room she really does help me. Just breathe remember H.O.P.E hold on pain ends and it'll be over in two seconds. It's really not even the needle itself I think it's people just overly freaking out about it that is the biggest part. It helps if someone scratches your hand or maybe gently pinches your hand to divert your attention(Being chronically ill my entire life eventually I had no choice but to just get used to constant surgeries poking prodding etc. I have basically like a permanent IV called a central line that's surgically tunneled into my chest and goes straight to my heart since I can't eat and rely on IV nutrition called TPN and it definitely took some getting used to but I did and if I can get used to permanent tubes and lines and hospitals I pinky promise you can get through a few quick injections I believe in you! 💖💪🏻🌼🙏🏻
i've felt this disassociating panic since i was 10 or 11 years old. exactly how you described except it doesn't go away and i flee or almost pass out. i haven't been to a movie theatre or anywhere very dark since it started and lately it's becoming more frequent and less environment specific. you help me start searching online for answers and helped me realize i had anxiety and that this feeling that everyone told me i was crazy for was disassociating and probably derealization. so thank you for always talking so openly and unashamedly about your mental health and experiences babe. all the love
Have literally just booked a table there now you've reminded me of the film!! very excited :D
Dodie is so amazingly brave, not only did she stay through the entire experience, she was able to control a panic(!) attack while still in the environment that caused the initial panic! Dodie is honestly a wonderful human being!
She's the only quiet CZcamsr I watch
i remember one night as a child, there was a tornado watch so my family slept in the basement. my sister and i slept in this little area under the stairs. there was a little light attached to the wall that you push down on to turn on. i remember waking up and seeing just pitch darkness and not knowing if my eyes were open (as weird as that sounds lol) and i thought i might've been dreaming. it freaked me out a bit. the "opening your eyes made no difference" part made me think of this
EvErYoNe PaNiC
*squeal*
Whenever I watch Dodie, I make tea. It's just nice to sit on my bed, with no lights except for fairy lights, in my pajamas, and sip tea while being cozy under my covers. Her voice is just so nice and soothing.
The title is everything
when i go sleeping at a friend's house they always want to colse the shuttersso there is NO LIGHT in the room and it does the things were you don't evenknow if your eyes are closed or not and I just PANICCCC
Your glasses are so cute!
The thing you mentioned about having a panic attack while being stuck on a ride or having an injection at the dentist was such a relief to hear someone had experienced something similar because I thought I had been going crazy when it happened! I had to get a referral the other day to get laughing gas because they couldn't give me a needle to freeze my mouth for a filling because I had a panic attack. The doctors were super rude to me about it but it's their loss I guess because I'm never going there again lol
YOU LOOK SO CUTE AND YOUR EYEBROWS LOOK AMAZING (making the front of them lighter really works on you)
I am actually blind, and it makes my heart so happy to hear that you stuck this out. Even though it's super scary, imagine that being your daily life. I was born blind, so I'm used to the sight I do and don't have. But I am lucky enough to have light and dark perception so I'm not in that much darkness.
"existence? pthhp!"
that sound fantastic (the restaurant, not the panic attack), i love the dark. there is something really beautiful about it,i always think how it must have been for ancient man when at night all they had was fire or the shine from the stars and moon.
Omg this was on your snapchat story xd
Venusly what's her Snapchat ??? If it's not private!!
sebbyprincess doddleoddle
A r a d i a
i just panicked hearing you describing the situation omggg i feel like that every time i’m in total dark. sometimes the lights goes out while i’m asleep and i just wake up DYING
before I watch the video my guess is:
they gatecrash a party
take off their shirts
get given sparkly props
have a great time
awgod it was the opposite
everything you say about depersonalization is so relatable for me. I feel like nobody else that I know really understands it, not even my therapist. I love you so much, you are such a good role model.
AHHHH dodie has 666k subscribers! Dodie the devil is here but your still adorable!
about a month ago i went on vacation to florida and we had to stay the night at a house id never been in before and the thing with me is that every time i sleep i have some sort of light on like i have fairy lights in my room and when i'm not home i like to have the curtains of whatever room i'm sleeping in open. but with the house we stayed in, the curtains didn't open, and it was so dark that i had the literal exact same reaction, i was panicking so so badly because i was holding my hand right in front of my eyes but i couldn't see it and blinking hard and seeing no difference. it's the most panicked i have been in a long while and i had almost forgotten about it but this reminded me. i'm sorry that you had to feel that same panic, dodie
Yo should do One for the road for Veda, it's one of my favorite songs
Veronica yee
i loved this story. a few months ago i went to a bar and had a panic attack followed by dissociating. similarly to your story, i came away from that night with good memories too. we danced with the dj and the girl working the bar as they closed and celebrated my friends birthday. i'm glad you have happy moments during a scary memory and those good connections are the ones that you can focus on more.
Who else already knows what happens because of dodies Snapchat story 😂
"I guess the moral is to try new things, and to stick it out when things get really scary" this was perfect, especially since i decided to try some new classes this year! (Not to mention it just means that i should just power through when my classes get difficult! )
I love dodie and veda. But them both together 😀😀😀😀😀
I'm horrified of the dark. I have a nightlight in my room and I have to have someone with me at all times whenever I'm in any sort of darkness or I start panicking. I can totally understand your fear, and honestly I would have left that place as soon as it got to the point that I couldn't see anything around me. I'm happy that you stuck it through and it ended up being a decent experience!
React to in a heartbeat short film! Like if you agree
Finn twistedpeppermint
I mean-
She already commented on it.
Yeah, a lot of us fangirled over seeing her comment on it
Finn twistedpeppermint At this point I'm sure she wouldn't be 'reacting' to the short film.
Finn twistedpeppermint yES
Yes!!!
i have panic attacks during school and it's literally horrible and im glad you don't have panic attacks too much because they are definitely horrible
Snapchat story.
Behind the scenes :3
saw the title and thought you were gonna sing a panic song in the dark,,, anyway, i had an experience like this recently. not in a dark restaurant but i had done this sort of zip line obstacle course thing?? it was very long and high up. at first it was alright but as i had continued, it started to get more precarious and the obstacles were less stable and smaller and just generally terrifying omg. i had to quit halfway though because my brain just kept saying "i don't like this i don't like this i don't like this". but i was proud that i at least tried it and got halfway through. i think it's very important to be proud of yourself for trying something you normally wouldn't, even if you do panic. i'm happy that you're proud of yourself and happy that you stuck through. that's definitely something to be proud of, because it's difficult to stick through something when you're panicking because all you want to do is get out of the situation. idk but this video made me happy 💛
Aethstetic is real
Thank you dodie for sharing this. You reminded me that even when I feel like a failure for having anxiety, it is still an achievement for me to get through the panic attacks, thank you for making me feel less idiotic and alone.
IS SHE DATING STEVIE????? I SHIP IT
(also I'M WATCHING THE L WORD TOO what the hell)
honestly i think that this sort of thing would probably make talking to people much easier for me? i have very bad social anxiety and eye contact in particular makes me nervous (i always feel that i'm making too much or too little) so having that extra pressure taken out of the equation would probably be quite reassuring. idk...
That sounds like my worst nightmare ahahaha you did amazing x
M8 well done you for sticking out the evening! The worst feeling is going somewhere, feeling hella uncomfortable and it taking over the evening.
Also
THAT GAME SOUNDS SO COOL.
Ive missed the little snappy clap clap
This reminds me of an exhibit I went on during a trip to NYC. It was a "tour" of New York in which it was as black as Dodie was describing and we were giving canes to feel around and the tour guide was blind, so the whole thing was really enlightening.