Unmasked: The Stigma of Meth (Official Documentary)
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- čas přidán 15. 12. 2016
- Executive Producers: Terry Heifetz & Juli Metzger
Director: John Osterhoudt
Assistant Directors
Sarah James
&
Devon M. Roddel
Producers
Jessica Lyle
&
Jacob Wilson
Director of Photography
Troy Scott
Camera Operators
Ryan McClain
John Seyler
Assistant Camera Operator
Holly Barnhart
Chief Editor
Devon M. Roddel
Graphics Coordinator
Brent Fuller
Unit Location Audio
Bobby Yeager
&
Devon M. Roddel
Post Production Audio Mixing & ADR
Bobby Yeager
Journalists
Michael Kuhn
Tony Sandleben
Jenna Liston
Phylisia Donaldson
Megan Melton
Seth Beiswenger
Jenny Alvaro
Kelsey Dickeson
Sophie Gordon
Bradley Jones
Rory Killelea
Emma Rogers
Liam Shelton
Desiree Williams
Elizabeth Wyman
Liz Young
Nick Siano
Narrator
John Osterhoudt
Special Thanks
Ball State University
Ball Brothers Foundation
Delaware County Civil Servants
Mayor Dennis Tyler
Sheriff Ray Dudley
Prosecutor Jeffrey Arnold
Judge John M. Feick
Jayne Meranda
Dr. Jan Kornilow
Brian & Rhea Graham
Dori Granados
Jessica Hardin
Rachael Vicory
Amber White
Alisha Tuttle
Steve Slavin
Greg Westfall
Toddrick Gordon
Andrew Draper
Rep. Sue Errington
Mike Martin
Stacey Brewer
Rep. Ben Smaltz
Claire Willette
Chris Flook
Jerry Pierce
Jesse Gunnar
Walter Risch
Kai Engel
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videohive.net
WISH-TV
Jud Fisher
Jenna Wachtmann
Heather Williams
Kelli Huth
Roger Lavery
Johnny Sparks
Tim Pollard
Just an update...January 13th I celebrated 5 years clean and my beautiful wife will join me at that number on April 13th! Thank you for all those who have supported us in prayer!
Your sex must be bland now days.
Amen
Tristan Bulluss at least he is still alive
Keep strong bro..respect to you an your family from the UK
Congratulations! Thank you for sharing your story. You have much to be proud of and grateful for. God be with you.
20 years I spent high and then got locked up 4 years which led to my sobriety and God! 19 months clean and loving it!
😂😂😂😂😂😂
Got that ole chain gang religion 😂😂😂
CONGRATULATIONS! Keep it up:) I'll be 3 years clean from IV heroin & meth October 2020.
Thats right my brother. We can do all things through Christ
@@ashley_aquarius thank you! And be proud of what you accomplished your life is worth so much and sobriety is so much more giving than the alternative
I am an ex meth addict. Speaking from experience. This is the most amazing story. To come out the other side of this addiction with your relationship intact is something special. The most touching video ever for me.
recovering addict. No such thing as 'ex addict'
@@bcmcbootI get it but in reality its semantics, it's just words all of which are made up anyway. Wouldnt change it whether its Recovery or chicken wanker. The important part is he no longer is a slave to his addiction to the crap 😎👍
were you addicted to sex/masturbation just as much as to the meth as almost all meth addicts were/are?
This drug. THIS drug. The most volatile, evil, dark addiction. I tried it in 2016, was hooked for 3 months. Sat down on my bedroom floor (after just coming out of homelessness), and prayed. What am I doing. Why am I doing this? My doc was alcohol. Thank God someone was listening because I did stop. What a horrific horrific drug. I've watched it tornado through people's lives that I adore. God bless anyone struggling and anyone who overcame it. Love from Canada.
😮
Stop being a drama queen. It's only bad because you are living up to beliefs about drug use that society has put into the world via Bill Wilson and his cult. I honestly wish that fucker never had come into existence, let alone start the 12 step AA trash. Antiquated, non-scientific, religious (yes, it is religious, deal with it. Fact. The little "spiritual not religious" game has been done to death and tons of people aren't buying that little bullshit move and there's a reason why). And, yet it's a real medical disease (apparently). And the solution or treatment for said disease is to give it all up to a higher power. This is such a disconnect and it is a massive disservice to humanity. That, plus the attention seeking, cry-me-a-river, "look at me, I've been clean for 3 days!" substitution nonsense. It's no coincidence the most prevalent personalities I saw in meetings were people who would fit right in at a sorority or fraternity. Disgusting. I'm simply not convinced. When everybody is chanting the same things or saying the same things, and independent thought and critical thinking are fucking nowhere to be found, we got a problem. And I smell bullshit.
Im 5 + years clean . I was a daily meth smoker for 5 years . Bless those who continue to struggle with addiction. You can get through it my prayers go out to you.
Is your brain messed up big time?
Amen ❤️❤️❤️🙏
were you addicted to sex/masturbation just as much as to the meth as almost all meth addicts were/are?
I used to smoke meth. I've been clean for 13 years.
Richard Calf can some one please help me please please
Richard Calf 13 amazing. Please share your story to help others :)
Richard Calf sharing is caring
today is my 34th day off meth, Im going along with 2018, and I just feel sooo freaking good!!! cant even believe myself about been numb on meth, can´t wait to be 13 and more years just like you Richard, I hope more people get to enjoy the unique satisfaction of being clean after meth. Greetings from northern México!
God bless you all hope you all get clean.im in recovery from alcohol for 17 years,thanks to God
27 years. Just hit 1 year clean. No words for how grateful to God I am. More him less me, ya know?
Hope you just keep walking with Jesus until your years away from your past addiction❤️
Update?
43 days clean. My Higher Power is my strength, my guide, and a light to my ever changing path. God bless!
Good luck. I relapsed a few days ago. I had been clean for 9 months. One day I just got triggered by my senses connecting to memories and somehow I just went on autopilot. It was just right. And as soon as I did the first bit I was miserable and hated myself. I'm still high and this sucks.
Yes.!!! Let's go K!!! 43days you got this.
Still clean?
@@jdasko6895 yes, still clean. :)
@@B_easyRealHurtsHow are you doing now? I'm 🙏 you're finally clean and well. Nobody wants to be an addict. What a horrible addiction. 😞
Sober for 11 years and I'm loving every minute of it with my daughter. Thank You God !
Well done
@@janeokeeffe5297 Thank You Very Much 👍
4 years 2 months drug and alcohol free here
Good work!
chuckwick91 Wooo hoo! 🥳
Breathtaking keep it up
Congratulations!
Congratulations.. keep it up
I have 22yrs clean from meth. To the ones that are fighting the fight. YOU GOT THIS!! Keep your head up. One day at a time. And I admire you to the ones that have 24 hours clean, 1 week, 1 month. Fight like a WARRIOR!
How do you quit using it
How can you help an addict
Surrendering to Jesus...he will shit that bondage down when a person is truly sincere!
Congratulations! That is amazing!
I don't know if your 22years clean (now 23) led you to reaching out to help others, but if it comforts you, know that your message has been well received by myself if nothing else, and I am hoping this is the kick in the ass reminder I needed to ditch this lifestyle for the second time.
After 6 years clean, I recently relapsed and 2 months later I feel I am at a crossroads; to continue with recovery and working my steps through NA; or sink into this devilish mirage that keeps me from having to feel the pain of losing my family. I don't get how it can be that hard of a choice; but just for today I'll remind myself to be a WARRIOR! Cause that's what it takes during the first few weeks/months/..life. And kudos to you and yours. I hope your life has turned out amazingly
@@mariedejager6887 that's really up to the addict to do.
Addiction is from a symptom. That symptom is a lack of love. Not the word most people use but the action very few show in this world.
Truest shit here
Bullshit!!!!
U obviously have no idea. Got nothin to do with love!
Brian Edwards Mr you dont have a fucking clue is completely correct. I have always had more love from my family and friends than one person could ever deserve, but I’m an addict nonetheless.
...and believe it or not, even after eight years of daily use, I wouldn’t want it any other way. Happy addicts do exist.
True
I used to smoke meth. Im happy and proud now i'm 2yrs clean.
I'm almost 3 years clean. I smoked meth all day everyday for almost 10 years. Its possible.
H. Graham congratulations
I’m glad you got smart to get clean
@@Properbellend Whats wrong with you ? Why that sudden evil comment ?
H. Graham how?
I never done drugs in my life nor dranked... Im 53 years old and i have younger sister who did meth and probably still doing..have not seen her in many years. Graham glad you are clean..stay that way 👍 i pray my sister would stop too..just hope she's doing okay 🙏
@@luc1d356 I often think some of these rude comments aren't even from real people.
They are some evil bot , entity or reptilian, inhuman thing.
Pay no attention to those energy vampires.
Still struggling pray 4 me
Brian, I hope your going ok.
Hey I hope & pray you’re doing well. I’m struggling now so I now exactly what you were going through or still going through but I’ll keep you & everybody that’s still battling this disease in my prayers❤️❤️❤️
Praying
Praying For You In The Mighty Name of Jesus Christ Remember The Devil Is A Lyar God Has You Amen Live You
Here if u need to chat
2 and a half years clean from meth. 1 year 3 months off everything. Clean house, trust god, help others. Life is beautiful.
Remember, "Sleep is cheap, it's staying awake that's expensive"- Uncle Foiley.
You are beautiful too 😘❤️
The guy who smoked cannabis and was put on probation and being drug tested so switched over to meth. This is a very clear and powerful example of how prohibition can and often does make situations worse.
HelmetBlissta I have a similar story
Jakob Dodd Can you share you're similar experience?
im gonna be put on probation soon so ill switch from weed to xanax lsd and mdma
Life is misery unless you're loaded. Drugs are the only escape
Jay Leno well u want to get high n weed stays in ur pee to long n meth don't n pills all that u know
Thank you for this. I am in recovery from the hell of meth along with my wife....we thought we lost it all but have started to see the light. To those still caught in that tornado... Keep fighting you can get to a calmer weather.. the winds do change...you can do it... Just believe. Thanks again to the folks who made this video you are angels every one of you
I hope you and your wife are still clean and going strong, God bless you both😌
Thank you we just celebrated four years on April 16 feels great😁💓
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@@garychristie1188 amazing so happy for you guys keep fighting the good fight and looking after one and other ❤❤❤FM...Simead🇨🇮
I used to be a meth addict for 14yrs and an alcoholic for 20yrs. But throught the power of Jesus I can proudly say im over 4yrs sober 😊🙏
Amen brother...
Me too still going through it constant battle wish I could do it
@@maggiewestern7550 I was on it for nearly a decade, so I can relate brother. A clean diet and eventually a large dose of Magic mushrooms had completely changed my behavior towards meth. I even tried to smoke after my mushroom trip to test if I was "fully recovered" and to my surprise my mind was filled with absolute disgust when I held the pipe. Just reminded me of all the paranoia, psychosis, multiple restless nights and days without eating. I'm 1.5 years sober and counting. I only suffer from depression and anxiety now, after a decade of abusing my body and mind I know things take time but I'm hopeful I'll return to some level of normalcy. Anyway, if you want to quit I believe in you , it may feel like you can't but I guarantee you can. Start small, eat healthier , maybe incorporate a lil exercise and you'll see the weaning process will get easier and easier.
@@Dabby724 so you have been clean for 1.5 years and still suffer from depression and anxiety? Isnt watching this video about meth hard to watch? how exactly did you quit? I am asking fo a friend
@@MaNuLaToROfficial yeah I still suffer from depression and anxiety here and there (especially if I miss a day of exercise) although it's not too severe. Truth be told, I heard of the carnivore diet in how it relieves and treats addictions, depression and a whole myriad of other metabolic issues. I used that diet initially as a tool to quit meth. Then like I said, I had a profound experience with mushrooms and it had completely cured me of any meth thoughts lingering in my head. But yeah I don't recommend the mushroom trip until your mentally ready. To be in right frame of mind I suggest diet, exercise and meditation. I get that the diet is extreme but If you're desperate like I was.... well drastic times calls for drastic measures. Anyway, I truly hope your friend finds recovery, I wouldn't wish this devil's drug on my worst enemy.
This video has helped me not use today.
U can do it!!
Highly recommend Derek lambert. He has a very motivational channel to me. Hope it helps you. 🌻☺️ I wish you the best. Keep going 🌻
Same
When you do use as far as the high does it immediately go serious more dark or pure euphoria
Stay strong ♥️
These interviewees were great. You can just feel how honest and candid they are being. Thank you. I got off Fentanyl January 2022. I used to shoot meth and smoke crack here and there too.
My life is so much better now. I don't miss hard drugs at all. Me cleaning up had way bigger of a impact on my family and my GF's family than I ever would have imagined.
It means so much to me.
And life really is ok. My brain has healed so much. My baseline level of happiness is good enough for me. I workout a lot. I smoke weed and do mushrooms occasionally. We just have to give life a chance and trust in God.
"I even stole from my son".
That cut me up. The animal craving that these substances produce can even override the most fundamental compulsion of a mother to care for her child. Pray for these lost souls.
I started on meth when I was 18 teen, I used it for 11 year's. I smoked so much of it I lost my teeth, been clean 12 year's. But it's a daily reminder that I have dentures, when I quit meth I became a alcoholic and had to fight that battle for 10 years. Finally got clean off alcohol 3 year's ago.
METH - Main Entrance to Hell
Very candid addicts. I wish them the best. Recovery is possible.
Kitcat_007 bullshit
Kitcat_007 I was hooked for ten years. Now 22 months clean. No cravings, not even when my mates are smoking. God took away the desire
Ben M Prasie God!!!
Kitcat, I believe that falls more under an individuals psychological state of mind, even before the drug use. more stereotyping i see, dont believe everything you see on TV, get your head out of the gutter, like more then likely where you get your information..I know alot of revenue is generated to make you believe this..js
I leave for rehab tomorrow!!!!!!!
You got this, man! You'll find that being sober is actually really nice
Adam White wish you the best! I really do. Hope you succeed
Oh Hamburgers in MY opinion...AS SOON as you stay or THINK..."YOU got this"....you're effed! YOU/I/we NEVER have this!! Lol like I said MY OPINION
Have a little more confidence in yourself
Adam White good luck ... You can beat this habit ...
Doing meth is letting the devil guide you for a fast destruction. In 2000 it left me homeless.
I am a recovering addict. I will celebrate 6 years sobriety from meth on the 2nd of Feb. Best thing for me because I was spiraling out of control. For almost twenty years meth was my life. By the grace of God and The Salvation Army, I am clean and sober. Thankfully my husband and I got clean together, and recently celebrated 29 years of marriage. We are more in love now than we have ever been. Today, I work with addicts. I love helping people overcome their addictions, and help them become active members of society......
I pray you have 9 years sober today ❤ on the 2nd of February
my mom is 7 months clean from alcohol, she’s doing better everyday, I hope
Wishing the best for you and your mum
I think I s tv
🙏🏾
I had so much fun exploring coke,meth,LSD, ruffies,etc. Now I love what I grow in my yard. No needle, no dealer
2 months clean after 2 years of daily use. sobriety is possible for everyone but you have to truly want it deep down in your soul.
I am 20 years old and I’ve been struggling with meth since I was 17 years old!
Please pray for me.
Jesus is your answer. Surrender your heart and life and this addiction to him. He will lift you out of it if your completely sincere!❤️🙏
You're going to make it just don't let your illness make the decisions for you. Use your heart, when the brain is unsure of what to do.
God doesn't leave us, he watches us and wants us to be strong and use our hearts as well as our minds. You deserve a life, you aren't a bad person until you choose to become one brother.
"Painfully numb!" I led a life of DELUSIONS and it's a blessing to be alive. I want to be part of the solution when it comes to methamphetamine and undiagnosed mental illnesses. I self medicated for years and I realized I was faded more than not. I wanted away from that drug. STAY CONNECTED! STAY STRONG,KEEP THE FAITH,GET HELP AND BE THE Y O U..YOU KNOW U CAN BE..LOVE LIVE AND LAIGHTER I SEND TO ALL OF U..BLESSINGS
My father is a meth addict he doesn't realize he has a problem.. it breaks my heart that I can't do more to help him get better 💔 😔 I will never lose faith and hope that will one day get sober 🙏
I suspect my dad is a meth user but I’m not sure. I found out around a year ago that he was using coke but I’m starting to suspect he’s snorting meth as well. How did you know your father was doing meth? Were there any noticeable signs? And don’t lose faith in your father’s recovery, we might not know each other but i have hope for you and your family. I pray your father is doing better!
My sister is back on meth. This has never been a drug of my choice, so I don’t understand her demons or how she’s struggling with it. It destroyed her life before, got her kids taken away and sent her to prison. She turned her life around for a few years and started dabbling in it again. Now she’s someone I don’t know anymore and I’m scared of her, scared of how she looks and acts. I don’t know what to do about it. I tried to be supportive and she gets upset with me for accusing her of different things, even though we know she’s lying through her teeth. I have not spoken to her in months, that’s how bad I know she’s struggling. As sad as it sounds, I have just excepted that this is my sister‘s fate and that the short Time I had with her while she was normal and sober off meth, I will cherish that forever. I don’t know how else to help her without putting me or my family at risk with some of the paranoia and anxiety that comes with it. I can only just pray for her and hope she comes around soon enough, before it destroys her life again
So sorry. I have a child on meth, it's heartbreaking to see someone you love being ravaged by this thing. 🌺 but as long as they're still alive, there's hope.🌺
@@miapdx503 I agree. There is always hope. She’s done it before and she can do it again. I am very sorry for your as well.
She needs to go on a holiday and get her head straight. Two weeks in the Caribbean on a beach should do it. Decide to move out the area and start again somewhere else.
@@HdHd-cg4nz if only we had the luxury or ability to do that.
Have you thought of an intervention? Just thought I'd throw it out there. I hope you get your sister back. Its so hard to talk to them as you are not actually talking to them but the drug.
Meth: main entrance to hell
COMPLETELY demonic
So true. So glad to have my soul back ❤️
Omg!
Idk I think its what's in your party favor bag when you leave Hell. Door prize vacation tickets to Hells summer home. Self medicating to cope with Hell.
Amen...Thats the truth...
Where are the positive comments about this video? It's amazing. I have never personally used meth or anything like that, but this documentary is extremely well-done and hopefully will open some eyes as to what it's like to be an addict...of any kind.
Muncie is where I make my home, and it kills me to see that there is so much of this addiction going on. It used to be funny when a fire truck went by and people would say, "Are they on the way to a meth lab?" but it's not funny anymore.
I want to be safe in my town. I want to know that my friends and family are safe. I want to be PROUD of my town...not ashamed because we're #1 in meth production in the state and country.
If this documentary helps even just ONE addict, or manufacturer, or casual user stop using, producing, or contributing to this phenomenon of proliference of methampheamine use and manufacture, I would say it's worth viewing.
And well done, Ball State Students. VERY VERY well done.
well. . .it would be nice if the documentary did more than just "document." it's well done in its documenting, but beyond that, i dont see it offering much substance.
No it's not well done, it's candy coated and you are endorsing it because you are a reverend. Keep it real 'Rev'. The comment right beneath mine (oopalonga) said it best "not much substance. No one said "it wasn't the drugs fault, it was mine." Because that would've been the truth of the matter. How is it that one female can use and not sell her body and another woman use and never sell her body? According to the experts, the libido is one the prime targets of the drug. Not unlike alcohol, one person can drink and want to fight everybody. While another person drinks and gets comical or sad and start crying. What is in you is in you. Using simply opens the gates to let 'it' out.
That's way to easy. Your last statement is ignorant. Drugs are mind altering. They change brain chemistry and it's a disease. Of course people are responsible for their decisions and choices but this is an epidemic and it isn't a gateway to just let whatever is in you out. That's so arrogant and shows how uneducated you are about substance abuse, addiction, how the brain works, mental health etc....
I see that you are a Rev. so I just want to ask you if you have an outreach system in place? My church is located in the worst area of my city...... every Sunday we serve free crepes donuts and coffee, you are welcome to come even if you don't attend. Most Sundays we will get one or two addicts come in, and even though they don't always stay the duration of the service seeds are being planted ❤️
Two months off of meth and synthetic marijuana.A spiritual life is helping me out.Im working on this through a church.I would have not said hi to these people two months ago.Now they are my best friends and are helping to save my life.I have a twisted way of thinking.Thank God for where I am going and not being where I was in a short time.
Hope it's still going well for you
I just sent this to my 32 year-old daughter that's been addicted about 7 years. I can't live live with me anymore and I'm broken and I don't know how to help her God bless you for putting this here
Got some rest last night, throwing away all ""supplies", blocking #'s , no alcohol, and staying away from negative influences.. people, places, and things. Here we go again.
Relapsed like a mofo
dang you sound like me
Literally did this yesterday, hope all is well!
Five years later, how's it going?
This should be shown to people who have addictions to give them hope that they can break free.
Stfu. If YOU TRULY want to change and quit something, you’ll do it. This is coming from an EX junkie. The ones I had the biggest issues with I stay away from, doesn’t matter if someone is doing it right in front of me, I made the decision to not do it. If you’re so weak minded that you need a crutch like religion, or to claim addiction is a disease, then you deserve to be swallowed up by this drug.
@@stryctn9yne13 nobody deserves it. Sometimes people need an inspiration or an outside Input to change. It doesn’t hurt anybody to show compassion.
Everybody is hooked on something thia whole threadis fucked up
For those of you who are recovering and staying clean, you can do it, never give up, and never look back
God bless everyone who has this addition
Stop stigmatizing mental health and mental health treatment. Make treatment easily accessible for everyone. Pass laws that protect people from being drained dry, abused, and exploited. You’ll see an amazing drop in drug abuse.
I personally believe a couple things here...
1. Once you're an addict, you're ALWAYS an addict. It's just a choice on whether you're actively using or not.
2. It IS a disease, and like most other diseases, people are worried about putting a " band aid on a broken arm" and would rather sweep it under the rug than to deal with it.
3. You'll only get and stay clean if it's YOUR idea and if you want to be clean. If it's trying to be forced on you, it'll NEVER stick like it should.
That's all been done.
I've been 1 day clean. Thank god
keep goin! if u slipped back, begin again
Junrey Puerin I hope you are doing well , life is beautiful and good health is your freedom , good luck ! 🍀
Your very brave! Make it two.thinking of you
Hi it's been a couple months, so how are you?
Hello i just wanted to share im 20 yrs old. I started using meth when i was 16 and used till 3 days after my 18 birthday in august i am now a year and half sober. I quit because i had multiple seizures that almost made me quit breathing and i was ruining my family. I hope you are sober and doing well. Good luck you can do it!
I have tried to help my daughter out. She has been using meth for a few years , she has lost her children, everything, we were very close and now there’s nothing to that relationship we once shared. I have given her love , I have tried to Tell her it’s ok that she is still my daughter and I’m here for her. But she refuses my help. She is a complete stranger and cold hearted.
I wish my daughter was the one I raised and I wish I could see her regain custody of my granddaughters.
She has blamed me for her addiction, it hurts me.
I wish I could take it away and have her see how this has destroyed her.
I pray for her. I hope to see her change.
God bless all people struggling with addiction and find help and peace.
This is a little poem i wrote......
To all my sober friends,
If you were one of my friends during my addiction that I left behind
please forgive me.I am sorry.
I wasn't in the right frame of mind
I was too focused on my chaotic life, I wasn't available to be there for you
please don't judge me based on who I became and what I had to do
Some of you may not understand what it's like on Satan's dance floor
before the devil found me, remember who I was before
Some of you know the combination to unlock the demon's vaults
knowing the secret to walk away instead of being in a never-ending waltz
To all my sober friends, you possess a strength that I admire
some of you found joy in life again, some of you never fell into the fire
Just don't blame yourself for my actions, I made my own choices
I knew the game, I took the risks and listened to the evil voices
I was once that sober friend who was always getting left out
I could never grasp what hold the drugs had and what they were all about
Embarrassed by the slave I'd become there was only me to blame
I knew all this but still I took his hand and walked right into the flame
It wasn't a conscious decision it was one that was vexed
It was based on who can inflate your ego and where to score next
I could ask anyone who's felt the flames to listen to what I have to say
But addicts hearts won't listen, they always need to learn the hard way
We need proof that it will ruin our lives to the darkest parts of our souls
we need to see it with our own eyes, we need to feel the holes
We broke our promises that we made and took his hand to dance
even though we wanted to rest the devil continued to prance
Dragging us through every waltz, tango and two-step
when we fall he comforts us like a friend he's always kept
All along it was us, we were the ones who needed to let go
I hope you never dance with him, i hope you never know
I pray you never understand, I pray you see me for who I use to be
when I let go of his hand I hope you'll be there waiting for me
Hold out a hand for me, be someone that makes the bad things run and hide
not someone that I allow to drag me, be someone who walks beside
You give me the hope that I can be strong and let go of the devil's hand
there is a better life than dancing to the devil's evil band
You're my prayer I say each night before I go to sleep
please know that you crossed my mind when I was in too deep
I didn't want to be embarrassed, if we didn't talk you wouldn't know
if i didn't see you then there would be nothing I had to show
I wouldn't let you down like I let myself down every day
thank you for being who you are, it's for you I pray
Continue being the light because one day I won't be at his command
I will see you again even if you choose not to take my hand
Even if you're not there waiting know that with your help i grew
I hold no loathing towards you, you just did what i could never do
It's not the life I wanted, it's one I wouldn't have picked
with kind regards,
from yours sincerely,
your friend the drug addict
Ben Bryant much love... I hate how relatable this is. This speaks to my sad soul.
little poem?
Great poem
That's something I would've written on a 4 day bender
omgosh I'm in tears.. my daughter is a meth addict.. I lost My husband to it.. and now my child she's now she's Bern a meth addict for 8 years.. it devasted all I am.. all she is.. her childrens lives.. everything
Seeing all these people in the comments talking about their sobriety makes me so happy. Well done to you all.
Thanks to you both for your honesty. I’m so glad yous came through alive and able to tell your story. Much respect.
I'm hating my life right now my stupid ass somehow got back on it again after being clean for 20 damn good yrs.
Former meth and heroin addict here
4 months clean off heroin
1 day clean off meth
I too ask for your prayers
Hope all is well wid you ❤
Beautiful doco. Meth is a huge scourge in New Zealand. I'm in recovery from 10 years meth use. It sucked my soul and took everything! Coming up 5 years clean. So grateful ! Prayers from NZ.
Someone that i know is actually trying to come to new zealand because it is legal there
for all those who are sober and safe. PLEASE DON'T STOP FIGHTING. GOD IS WITH YOU ALL. SO KEEP PUSHING AND PRAYING
Thank you Yeshua for delivering me from methamphetamine....
I am, admittedly one of the lucky ones. Eight years of daily use, and I have maintained a clean criminal record, my health, my teeth and my sanity. Possibly the abundance of love around me keeps me on the straight and narrow, but I’m living proof that the life of an addict can actually be happy and fulfilling. Too many addicts fall into the trap set by the immense amount of propaganda that exists all around them. Most of it is exaggeration, much of it is a blatant lie.
The key to maintaining one’s happiness as an addict is to never forget who you are. Others are going to make your addiction the one thing that defines you as a person. You don’t have to. Never forget the good person you are inside. View your addiction for what it is... One part of your life. Something you do. Never allow it to dictate the remainder of your life, or become your main defining characteristic. You will remain a good person, until you make choices that destroy the person you are inside.
Never let go of the beliefs and values that make you, you.
Nothing is stronger than your will... Not even drugs.
Really needed to hear that or read that. I’ve really been struggling lately & today has been really extra fucking hard! So THANK YOU so so so much for taking the time to comment this! You never know how even the smallest of things like commenting on a CZcams video can affect some complete strangers day & even their life. Again thank you! Hope you’re having a rad night! Peace light & love from Kentucky!!!
Yeah I get it but unfortunately I really don't know that some people can maintain their ability to know when to stop
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@@coriheddens151 Thank you so much, Cori. Your thoughtful reply truly means a lot to me. Folks don’t usually react positively, anytime I post concerning my addiction. It’s almost like people hate to see an addict happy, and doing well in the life they’ve chosen to live.
I hope this finds you in a place of health and happiness. Please remember that you are the person you choose to be. As long as you remain in control of your actions, and live a good life, simply being an addict does nothing to negate the good person within.
Never let anyone tell you different, because it is nothing more than a myth created by society... and society has no idea what our lives are like.
@@jessicatolson6723 Thank you so much for your reply. I’m sorry to hear that they used the custody of your children, as leverage to force you to quit.
Unless children are actually suffering neglect or abuse at the hands of an addict parent, I don’t agree with removal by CPS. However, as someone who went through the absolute terror that is opioid withdrawal, I know, without a doubt, that you are a great mother, who would do anything for her children.
True friends will always stand by you, no matter what demons may be in your past. If your husband and children make your life complete, then you’re completely justified in concentrating 100% of your efforts into your immediate family. Try to never waste effort on those who were never really your friends in the first place.
Stay strong, Jessica. Believe in yourself, because you are a much stronger person than you will probably ever know. Thanks again for your reply, and I hope you’re having a great day.
Let's all pray. Thanks to those who shared their dark to light time. Really appreciate your honesty.
Showed up on my recommendations tonight so figured I'd watch - I know itll remind me how I never want to go back to that lifestyle again. Clean from IV heroin & meth since Oct 2017. Sending positive thoughts to all who are struggling - I hope they know it's possible to get better as long as they don't give up on themselves. This drug ruined so much for me...almost 3 years later and I'm still trying to get my life back to "normal". It'll never be the same again but I'm so much better off now than I was back in 2016/17.
Hope you’re doing alright Ashley. Keep smiling that beautiful smile
Powerful stories! Thanks to these survivors for your story. I appreciate and respect your journey and healing
I've been clean for 12 hours...
I haven’t been clean since 10:30am yesterday when I got off probation
Keep on being clean 💞💝💖
Betcha they didnnnnnn't! 😇
It's only one day at a time. Don't look at the years look at each day to be clean.
I survived the crack explosion. Man I'm glad I missed meth. Surviving is the will not to die. May all who are suffering find the grace to heal
Crack gone take ALL your money. Crack addiction is very scary
Amen, thank you for that, it is a great new perspective to never do that shit ever agdin, thsnk you!
My parents were caught up in the crack epidemic in the 80’s, it was a horrible time in Los Angeles......
Well done all of you. Such a difficult thing to overcome. Sending you lots of love!
I've never done meth (thank God), but I am a recovering alcoholic (15 years sober) and prescription drug addict (6 years clean). I know what they mean. It was fun, until it stopped being fun. Goodness, how I know...
Congratulations! I am happy to hear that!
Imagine feeling incredible. Invincible. Higher than ever. Amazing. Now imagine quitting that. Along with mental and physical torture in order to quit.
The worst thing is the crash or the come down! You just want to die, and the depression and anxiety that comes after is pure hell for weeks on end.
I suffer from intervolts of sanity. Edgar alan poe. Reality can be more horrifying than the nightmare.
The fall through sobriety is tortuous, it haunts you . . . It becomes an invisible "friend" that you cannot make go away or disappear. Thirteen years sober from meth . . . I'm learning still to not look at it, to ignore that "invisible friend" constantly at my side that is an embodiment of the "good" I felt while using and dually, complete and utter grief over the good and the bad.
It’s not hard at all bro lmao
@@stickyx9353 yeah I know man I quit heroin like 3 times I think. Sober.
The best high I have ever experienced is Jesus, no joke. Im a recovering heroin addict, been sober 5 years and counting. I would rather sell my body than my soul. Never sell your soul. Jesus is real and we are all searching for that high because we know it exists...there is life after addiction...get help and get sober...you will thank yourself later.
Praise Jesus
Bullshit
This video made me cry. Just know that no matter who you are or what you have done. I still love you all and you all belong here in love and light
Nah, some people deserve to crash out 🤷♂️
addicts are people who need help, it's amazing how we claim to be such a civilized society but ban drugs which forces the problem into a deeper and darker place, help these people not lock them up.
Only losers try drugs, they know they are playing with fire.
@Jaime Alonzo they obviously didn't want to quit. There's a difference between an addict and a junkie. Addicts are addicted, but still nice, civilised people. Moat of which actually want to get clean, these are the ones most likely to succeed.
Now your junkie on the other hand, these people are deep into the ride, they've lost all self respect, don't want to get clean, and will sell their grandma for a fix. It's easy to transition from an addict to a junkie, but near impossible to come back. Don't tar them all with the same brush.
They do need locked up because as soon as detox starts there gna lie still or whatever to get there fix to not feel sick anymore.. so yes locking them up and providing services and counseling is better than leaving them out in the world where they can keep using.. that's why there is a place called rehab.
I've been to prison and almost every single person is troubled and has always had issues.... I had 6 years for my first felony. One high speed chase and I got the same punishment as my celly, who murdered someone with an axe to the head. I got less time but same punishment.
@@v4sdude191 please shut up
"I can do all things though Christ who strengthens me" Philippians chapter 4 verse 13 I truly feel Jesus put me to watch this video I can relate to everything y’all went through god bless y’all in Jesus amen 🙏
Amen bro
Been clean off of Meth for 16 years! Put myself in rehab on my Birthday, December 12th, after my drug dealer/ boyfriend busted through my bedroom window, sodomized me & choked me until I stopped moving. He left me there knowing that my mom and my four-year-old daughter would walk and see me waiting there on my birthday! I flatlined three times and somehow I made it! I know it's possible! I smoked and snorted a 8 ball and a 1/2 a day, and that was just to feel pretty much normal! I told myself at the beginning that I won't/can't get addicted cuz I'm too strong of a person to ever let that happen and I always had control of myself! All it took was a person blowing it into my mouth to start the downward spiral that I couldn't control! So if you think it's not possible believe me it is! And the proudest you feel for yourself is the most beautiful feeling in the world that never goes away!
Smoke meth again
@@cuteredpanda00 fu
@@silverstackingmama4884 fu to
very impressive.i am proud of these people.
B. Pınar Özdemir it can be done.. meth almost killed me.. I damn near lost everything and was right behind everything that mattered to me.. became extremely unhealthy and extremely unhappy. Went from 188 to 128 in a years time.. very dark and disturbing place.. if it wasn't for my parents and my babies momma and kids, I wouldn't of made it.. I did it without jail or rehabilitation.. you get to a place we're you start to see and feel death and watching everything evaporate around you.. The combination of everything was finally enough incentive to walk away.. that was 4 years ago.. I wouldn't of survived another year of use. Thank god some of us manage to see the light before it's too late.. good advice would be don't do meth.. and they say not even once for a damn good reason.. some try it once and never touch it again.. but most aren't so fortunate.. doesn't matter how strong willed you believe you are.
I never really thought about it before but Rhea is right...There's always stories of negative shit going on with addicts..Never the success stories. We need to hear more of those to give hope.
so many good things but u don't hear them cause they don't want u know how dam fun drugs are
if you let the dope do you then you will have a bad time i never experienced anything like any of these ppl described
Vidt softwhiteunderbelly on youtube
At the same time That exact part of the video wen she described I came across this comment. And I agree
I dont get it either, it never made me feel that way at all, I thought... THIS IS IT??? What a weak drug, you don't even get a buzz from it! Keeps you awake and horny is all I can see it does. Smoke a good Joint and it will stone your ass! Meth can't even give me goosebumps! Poppers will do way more than meth for sex, like 50x the effect. Waste of money.
Wonderful experience. Thank you for all of your’ efforts. Audio, visual and message all excellent. God bless you all.
Love the depth these people go to...
Its touching...and interesting!!
Thank you for sharing! 💖
Congratulations! Keep up the good work! Fight the good fight! God bless no judgments! Mahalo Yong Wilson
that euphoric feeling is principalities keeping you prisoner, I’m so happy for ppl who have gotten out of addiction and i pray that everyone can defeat it in Jesus name Amen ❤️🕊🌈🙏🏻🦁love you all x
Amen
I'm over 2 months clean of meth and I'm currently getting clean from opioids taking methadone daily
Thank you for sharing this!!
One of the best videos on addiction and meth. Thank you!
The drug meth is a liar devil's drug, I've been clean for 19 years 😇
Congratulations! And I believe that meth makes you an easy target for demons and your not just seeing things that aren't there because those are demons fucking with ya and its real. Gateway to hell...
You were just using too much of it you see the abuse of crystal meth or any drug or even water the abuse of cheeseburgers will kill you hence there forth the use of something the correct use how do you think we won World War II you fucking sheeple dope how do you think they built to the Twin Towers as a matter of fact how do you think they destroyed the Twin Towers crystal meth how do you think God built the world in the universe crystal meth
@@scottydymond9187 my best friend glen said exactly the same as you n me and him still aren’t better but he’s got the worst end he’s a skitso because of it
2 years clean with Jesus Christ.
Peter Bollig how do u do it?
You must have really wanted to be clean. Congratulations
God bless and keep you, Amen Brother, hold on and be strong in your faith in the LORD!
Jesus 🤣🤦 but he died
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I hear for some it is an incredible struggle to get clean and to stay sober. I hope both of you have each other to lean on when it's necessary.
My husband and father of our kids chose addiction over family life. It's heartbreaking to see how each of my kids were affected and I feel very sorry for my ex-husband for all of the time with some of the most amazing, intelligent, charming, compassionate, responsible people I know (and just because I'm describing my own kids, doesn't mean I'm not doing so objectively). Everybody who cares and loves someone who is a slave to addiction suffers and it's exponentially more painful to watch your children experience that, in my humble opinion
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Drug addiction, porn addiction, it is endless and who suffers the most? Little kids :(
Fuck those kids I'm still scrolling for that one open vid I'll never find.
Porn**
FemBot true
Those little kids grow up. The fucked up grown pple u see were once those wide eyed bullied unloved kids that u cry ur eyes out over. No one cares about kids. Its just harder to turn a blind eye and hate on a kid like u can an adult.
I only tried meth a few times. Friend of mine sold me about 5 times worth of the stuff.
I liked it so much I spent 3 months trying to get a hold of it and I never was able so I gave up.
Probably a good thing because I liked enough I would have just kept using it over and over again.
I understand the whole idea that meth can be addictive from the moment you first try it.
I’ve had that issue quite a few times. Or my dude would get busted a day or two after I got some, so I’d loose that connect
*O.D.A.A.T. 27 years, clean and sober for me...*
Listening to Brian and Rhea the language they use, they have taken a good long look into themselves and aren't in denial. Inspiring.
Thank you and bless you for your strength. My son is an addict struggling in a psych unit at this very moment. This gives me hope, thank you xoxo
i applaude every overcoming/recovering addict. i know it is not easy to stop but i rejoice with a glad & thankful heart to every one that does break free from all addiction🙏💙
Currently on my 4th attempt to quit after a year of on/off functional use…1st attempt lasted a day; relapsed. 2nd attempt right after that high was over lasted 3-4 days; lapsed. 3rd attempt again right after the previous attempts high, lasted a week, drank like a moron, lapsed on meth.
As I come down from the absolute bonkers amount of meth (I think between 2.5-4 grams in a span of a day) I’ve nasally consumed in this current bender…I watch these to ready myself for this final, 4th, successful attempt yet~
To all of you trying to stop or who want to stop…You can do this~
Wish me luck folks; and good luck to those addicts who still don’t see the problem in front of them…
Hope you are doing OK. The power is within you, I sincerely hope you find it.
Cheers!!!
God give you strength to all the addicts trying to come out of this.
☝👀👅💋💣💥💨****the dopestest shirt n the woods
Worst drug ever . Stay away
not even
worse than crack?
Your right it garbage. But for people who use to self medicate it doesn't matter you'll find something to use. It's just more excptabul if you eat yourself to death or fill the hole with the rush of hoarding. You know its messed up that they prescribe methamphetamine at the doctors office to people who have hording or food addiction. It's not that hard for me to understand how people would give up every just to function normally. How do we put a price tag on that. And expect people not to steal it.
that's definitely false. fentanyl
At 62 i have battled with it twice. Lucky to be alive. Im asked if i still crave it, yes i do. To feel 20 yrs old, yeah i miss it. My kidneys are messed up, still break out with sores. Clean for almost 3 yrs. Given an opportunity with it in front of me i would really have a hard time. Wish all those affected just one day at a time, thats all u can do.
I’m crying my eyes out please pray for me
God loves you & adores you Zachary. He hears every prayer, collects every tear, longs for you to know who He is, and the extent to which He treasures you. ...Look up some Dan Mohler videos, they were a great blessing to me. You're in my prayers, & you're in the Fathers heart. Do not ever give up: life is full of seasons, & things can AND DO change! If you're in the midst of addiction & need help, investigate teen challenge (their treatment is most often free & on occasion at minimal cost, depending on the location. It is also available for all forms of addiction, & open to all ages). Keep fighting the good fight of faith: the victory is worth the battle!
The more uou have the urge to stop the more the devil will try to lure you to come back. You can do it. Please include Jesus in your heart and mind . I hope and pray that you are doing well now.
How are you doing Zachary?
@Mansur Zaman quit smoking it.. sounds like you lost a lot of braincells already
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This is the most beautiful inspiration doco I have ever seen being a struggle with meth myself I am.sincerely so happy for you both this needs to be shown out there and then just as you said compassion is needed but unfortunately the general public are to busy with their own lives let's.give those who succeeded an acknowledgment of there success you are both an inspiration to me bless you both
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You're not alone luv ❣️💔❣️
Great video ....I would love to open a halfway or sober house for recovering addicts....I was a meth user for 18 yrs been sober 11 praise God and teenchallenge
They all steal. You'd be robbed blind, then they'd help you look for the constant items they stole..for hrs.
Hell yeah!! Rhehrsburg TC represent
I took my first hit of meth in July of 2018. Stayed up for 4 nights and five days. On the fourth night I saw bugs and the whole nine yards .. I smoked 1.5 grams and I only weighed 145.6 pounds. I overdosed and died. They brought me back. Told me to my face I should be dead. Four days later I found out I was pregnant. It was my first and last time. And now I have my husband and a beautiful one year old daughter. Recovery is possible. Your life is worth it. Never give up. Hang in there. You are worth it and you will make it.
😂😂😂😂😂😂 yeah.....ok.....how’s those pills you pop behind your husbands back?
Hai nice to meet you
such an incredible doc! I love that people who are recovering are featured for a change. it gives hope y'no?
Yes. This "designer" meth is straight from hell. W!e need God's help.
I'm so proud and happy for these amazing recovering people. Bravo!
I pray that you guys know how important what you are doing truly is...I love and respect you for being brave and courageous! My story is from the other side watching and believing that those I would somehow find the one cord of strength inside themselves to set them free. I have dallied in many things in my life and realize that I have been blessed not to have gone all in...people never wake up one day and state OH HELL I THINK TODAY IS THE DAY I WILL BEGIN MY JOURNEY TO BECOME AN ADDICT OR HOMELESS OR WHATEVER!! Life is difficult and I hope you realize that you are amazing!! LOVE AND LIGHT
Omg i been looking for this i am a recovering addict going on to 4 years 8 months it can be done my prayers for all struggling out there believe in hope and healing
I am so happy for you and proud of you!
@@jalifritz8033 thank you much love and respect
Don't know why this video popped up on my screen, I was just looking for a song to play.... but I'm thankful it did. Things have been rough lately! Definitely getting my ass back into meetings! It works if you work it!!!
My ex and i--heroin and meth addicts. I stopped. he did not. he hates me for not waiting for him. he's cheating. lying. it's the behavior. but....I accepted I will bury my love before long. :'(
Kels Krueger yup sometimes you gotta resign yourself to the fact that you can't see them again until they have a toe tag
Kel's Krueger...good on you for stopping. Pray, pray, pray to Jesus Christ for him!
Live a clean life and give yourself a chance. Sounds like your ex doesn't want the help ATM.
Fuck um move on bigger and better things coming for you
I'm sorry that's so sad