[TW ed] another slipup but that's life | binge vlog | choc, ice cream, wraps, and cake
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- čas přidán 28. 07. 2021
- i wish i could disappear off of the face of mother gaia but in a painless and silent way ASLDKFHLKASDFLK
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♢♢♢ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴄᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʙɪɴɢɪɴɢ ♢♢♢
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I’ve always had a large appetite, but I was able to have a healthy relationship with food before university. Living alone and dealing with stress and the abundance of freedom (oh, the plethora of food choices) overwhelmed me into disordered eating. Though i haven’t been formally diagnosed, eddie (ED) has definitely been haunting me for 2~3 years now.
I DO NOT PURGE because I have
a) no gag reflex
b) emetophobia (the phobia of throwing up)
I like editing videos because it’s my passion. Recording my binges provides me an opportunity to both comfort myself and others. Documenting everything I ate/binged helps me keep track as well (trust me, I literally can’t remember what I binged on bc I have the memory of a goldfish). I know I am not pro-recovery but I put TWs in front of all my videos so that you know I am in no way promoting eddie. ever.
I am currently seeking professional help too! Even when I binge because I lost control, I actively reflect upon what triggered me and what I should change to avoid making myself feel so physically and mentally sad :3
![[TW: ED] what i "normally" eat | energy bar recipe | choc, pasta, and dumplings](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/aqyPNWM8-6I/mqdefault.jpg)
dude in regards to the cheese, I am proud of you for putting your physical comfort before ur urges to finish them :D. progress not perfection
I am so proud of your for noticing your body signals telling you to not finish eating the cheese! That is such a huge step! I'm so happy for you 🥰
you're like an older sibling who knows how mean the world can be but still tries to keep their younger sibling safe :( I hope that makes sense lol. Your videos are rly comforting
i was reading a binge eating help book and one of the quotes is "the thought of binging IS a trigger" i think that makes a lot of sense and explains a lot of 'random' binges...
I'm gonna give you a tip, if you like a lot sugar, u should have to bake your own food, trust me is rlly beautiful see your own creation and taste it, is just a tip, love your videos :D, have a nice day :3
“the end of the tunnel is still far away but it is there” that is so comforting thank you
unfortunately relapses are a part of recovery. as much as it sucks to say that,, it’s almost always true, esp with ed recovery. just remember that this was one day and it does not ruin any progress you have made, nor does it make you a monster!! wishing you the best of luck with your recovery
Seeing videos like this makes me realise that I really don't binge when I think I do. I have anorexia, a binge for me is a whole serving of food. I can't imagine how hard it must be for all of you who actually have it like this, I'm so sorry.
I just wanted to say this account really makes me feel safe/comfort I binge alot and I always feel like I'm not good enough to have a ed (weird ??!?!) And finally relating to someone makes me feel valid. I hope we both can recover and be happy!! Stay safe and hydrated
I appreciate your captions explaining your though process and feelings. I like to see your growth and maturity as you introspect and try to figure out what your going through and how it makes you feel. I hope you stay safe and continue to grow and learn ❤️
I recently managed to stop during a binge too! It’s a big step of progress so I’m happy for you.
just in case this is motivating:
i just managed to defeat binge urges with good, healthy food that distracted me and made me happy. to be fair, i did have 3 scoops of ice cream and a slice of peach cake, but it could have been sooo much worse. if i can do it, so can you all!!
tip: if you like sugar-binging like i do, fruit is perfect. i just had a bowl of cherries and a granola bar, which was perfectly sweet and fulfilling.
You're on the right track! I'm a year binge free and that's how I did it too, with fruit. I noticed a lot ex bingers recovered with fruit at first
Whenever i eat healthy stuff, i feel bad. Smh.
I hope you’re doing well these days, we are all here for you and we all love you so much
Hello! Momento mori 😌✨⌛️
Memento Mori
@@10me20theoneandonly memento mori :D
@@Duckerdodadau memento mori :D
I just now binged food worth of 10000+ cal in less than 1 hour and I'm.feeling so much guilty and seeing your binge vlogs makes me.feel so much comfort into thinking that i'm not alone and like you i also love breads like every types of breads i could litreally eat only bread for the rest of my life
it’s ok to have relapses it’s part of recovery don’t give up ! :)
A round of applause for listening to your body. This is a wonderful progress, and something to feel proud of. Relapses happen, its okay. You are doing your best and just know you have support. Celebrate your small successes because you deserve it, I cannot express how uplifting it was to see you reflecting and being honest with yourself. I sensed a huge shift in this video from your prior and this is already a huge change in your recovery. Be proud!
You’re videos are what I watch when I’m feeling alone or upset, I’ve literally added them to my mental health toolkit thing so thank you we live you 💕💕
Cream cheese frosting really is soo good 💀💗
Your videos make me really happy and i feel less alone when i watch them. I know filming binges might seem weird to others, but to me it's such a comfort to watch them. I want to fix my relationship with food and that means not seeing it as something evil. You've helped me start liking different foods again, so thank you
im really proud of you for realizing when to stop and actually doing it. your videos help me a lot, especially after a binge-reminds me to forgive myself. so please, keep ranting and saying whatever you have to say, i just hope it helps you too
You gave me so much comfort, thank you for helping me and others with your videos. 💜
fun fact: red velvet cake is just chocolate dyed red!! w creamcheese frosting ofc. yet its so sooo much more irresistible and yummier than choc ughhh. red velv is my fav binge cake☹️hate myself for it
im so so proud of you even though i've never met you, im here with you on my own journey of binge eating and your videos help me cope so much, we love you with all our hearts
i just binged on 2 60g bags of chips.. i’m already planning my “weight loss”/“compensation” meals for the next few days.. i need some words/truth to feel better please, anyone.. i’m just lying in bed now after the binge, feeling so so disappointed and lousy.
I don’t have an Ed but all I know is that, you got this. Food does NOT control you nor defines who you are as a person. I bet you’re an amazing person!
if you try to restrict what you’re eating, it’ll only make binges worse and more frequent. trust me, i know. if you feel all that guilty and you can’t make yourself eat normal, try just eating normal portions of safe foods or healthy foods.
if it makes you feel any better, i binged two days ago. but that’s okay, i’ve moved on from that. because setbacks and relapses are a normal part of life, and you shouldn’t punish your body for wanting food that you might not have been allowing yourself to consume. it’s natural instinct.
its okay!! it doesnt mean youre a bad person at all
i have a binge ed too, and i wanna tell you that you really aren't alone. today i binged too, and wherever you are on this earth im giving you a little hug to tell you we are in this together. at the end of the day food is just food, a small fraction of this life we have to live. so what you ate more than your mind thinks you should've? it's over now and it's just food!! go get yourself some water and carry on with your day - even if you eat more, it's only food and that's what your body wants and deserves - i love you and support you, we won't always have to deal with this
i’ve been in recovery for a month now and am finding myself thinking about relapsing a lot lately. today i noticed signs i’m probably getting my period back one of these days and it just put me down so much. i know it’s a good thing to have a healthy and functioning body but i almost feel like i can’t mentally keep up with how fast my body is moving on and recovering. like i almost don’t feel ready to be healthy again. it sounds so stupid and illogical bc i truly wanted to move forward and get my life back when i chose recovery, but this is really testing me rn. admittedly food content like this is getting more and more boring to me lately bc i’m no longer starving, and that scares me as well bc life felt so easy when food just ruled my every thought. your videos are rlly comforting to me though and i care about you and want to know how you’re doing, so your channel is one of the only ed channels i actually keep on watching. sorry for the vent but i needed to get this off my chest & i feel safe to do so here. hope you have a good day, stay strong! 💗
thank you tho i actually feel so frickin honoured that my channel is one of your safe spaces, i hope your recovery journey goes well!!!
mua (●´З｀●)
Omg, I can relate to this so much. I lost my period a few years ago and got it back after six or seven months and since then every single month when I’m on my period I feel so guilty and like a failure. But I always remind myself that I was so miserable back than and not myself. I literally was a horrible person and I’m so grateful, that I have so much energy and time for other things than thinking about food. Sending you lots of love.❤️
Thanks for sharing your struggle with us, personally I feel less lonely and understood when you rant ^^ hope you’re safe and I know you’ll get through this too
"i haven't lost my rational mind during a binge in a while" i'm certainly no therapist, but in my opinion, that seems like a genuine improvement. keep up the good work, we're all rooting for you :)
Quick vent- for anyone who cares-
I'm on vacation rn for like three weeks and I've been having to eat a lot everyday. I can feel myself gaining weight and I'm terrified. I know I should get better but it's scary. I feel like a failure every day and I always have to tell myself not to cry.
Thanks for coming to my ted talk
hey! I know it's hard but try to enjoy it as much as possible and make the most of your vacation, taste everything! when you come back you'll have all the time to get back on track and get where you want to be
also you're not a failure at all !!
@@bibi-zb1rp 💁🏻💁🏻💁🏻 no one here is a failure
I do hear you but just know it’s okay to have breaks.
Honestly, i subbed because of your channel name, but i do also enjoy your videos and can relate
i just binged today after not doing it for over a week, but that’s the longest i’ve lasted in a while and i’ve been trying to attempt semi recovery. we’ll get through this one day!!❤️
a soothing video to watch, something i was able to relate to on a level that i had used to experience. it makes me feel less alone, i guess. thank you for sharing with us, putting out the disclaimers and just showing how human you are. i used to struggle with some binge eating and have slowly began to recognize my hunger cues again, and i was so happy to see that you were able to do so as well. keep it up and thank you for sharing !
I use to struggle with overeating. I learned to really, reeeaaaallly tune into the body and eat slowly, chew and taste every little bit. I am also very careful of what I consume. I know myself too well, if I buy a packet of cookies, i will eat them all. So now I no longer buy packs of trigger foods, and I will bake single serving cookies with ingredients that I feel good about. I also make sure to eat plenty of protein. Protein shakes in the morning are super filling and satiating. Good luck, love ❤
Also, if you binge, then do it. Eventually, when you are ready, you will stop!
When I binge I watch your videos they make me happy knowing I’m not alone when I binge
Just found your channel. I already love you so much and I'm so proud of your progress!! 💙💙
I recently found your channel and just watched all of your videos and just know they are very calming to me, i struggle with a ED aswell like most people here and while watching your videos i feel calmed and like im not alone, ive noticed some hate but at the end of the day they dont need to watch if they get triggered by it, just do what you need to relieve stress and vent
lotta love **virtual hug**
its only been like a week but i missed your videos,,, ur channel is so comforting & cozy + it helps me stop bingeing. i hope youre doing well :)
Fr 🥺
tbh i found out about your channel because it got recommended to me a few months ago. back then, i didn't struggle with the whole binging thing but still found your videos pretty chill and interesting so i kinda just watch you every now and then. nowadays i can relate to you and your feelings wayy more. this stuff really fucks up your psyche but i hope we (as in you, me and the people in the comments) find that light at end of the tunnel. u know, i find that the potential is what makes life worth living. you'll never really know what will happen after each second, days, and years. have a good life, man
i find it unusual but interesting how u ate the wraps by picking at them lol
I hope you’re okay! Love you stay safe 💗
That red velvet cake omg!!! Looks amazing
Pls take care of yourself and don't let this put you back on your journey💜💜💜
Hey! I just wanna say that I really love your videos 💕💕 I really like your style of editing and your videos just make me feel less alone.
The food you eat always looks good btw :')
I hope you're doing well, stay safe
i've been in a b/p cycle lately so this video was really helpful to make me feel better and seen :')
Your channel makes me feel safe
I just wanted to say that by watching this video, I avoided a binge. Your words explaining how you felt during the binge, why you binged, and the regret after reminded me that in the end a binge is short lived happiness that ends in sadness again. So thank thank thank you for being able to put your feelings into words, you really helped me. I'm now 4 days binge free which isn't a lot but it's something !! Stay strong, you deserve true happiness and your identity shouldnt be an ED luv u
now im 5 days binge free and i baked cookies without getting triggered :D
@@eva1cado Hey even though I don't know you I am glad to hear you are not alone and I hope things have gotten better since you commented :)
Amazing video! ! You are making progress! So proud of You.
YES YES the cornflake Ritter chocolate is my favourite as well!
eating half a pumpkin emapanda while watching your videos. the rare sneak in of food
personally, i absolutely love your videos and watching you rant about how you feel. it’s often very different to other channels and i always come back to you for comfort.
please don’t get discouraged by negative comments, and keep doing you.
we’re all human, we all have slip ups, make mistakes and generally let us do stupid shit. but does that mean we’re not worth it??? no!!!
We determine our worth ourselves and saying we’re not worth it because of little things we do is just not rational.
Light is always at the end of the tunnel, don’t give up, you’ll get there eventually:)
(I hope i do too)
Love ur channel lots, hope you find your self worth soon,
x
Nice video! ! Very conforting 😍
Not beating yourself up is so hard. The day it happens I go "I wont beat myself up over this" and the next morning is so hard. I end up in a cycle of self loathing.
Just wanna say that you are loved!! Have a nice dayy
Binging whilst watching this :(((
Buttercream and whipped icing are my favorite *_*! Whipped icing is just so fluffy n feels low cal in my mouth when I eat it lol (it’s a trick tho)
Reminder to you!: sharing your story/experiences is NOT fishing for compliments/attention. Ill be here for your dear~! stay safe lovelies
watch out when eating close to seagulls. One time me and my friend were just walking and she was eating a tiny snack and there was a seagull but we didn't really care but then it randomly attacked my friends food. Our hearts dropped
I love the animal crossing song in the back xd i’ts really cute :)
Hey its fine,don't stress you are and will always be perfect.
Hearts for everyone ❤️❤️❤️❤️
b-but i actually LOVE your username 👉🏻 👈🏻
I hate when im eating a snack and it says how many calories that has cause then i dont want to eat it, but i also hate when i dont know how many calories im eating
hi first of all i hope you're doing good i was just wondering as i love your editing, what app do you use ? :3
My monkey brain was looking at that swiss cake and thinking "Can...can she pass it through the screen plz??"
Sorry you had to go through that though hun...:/
What do you use to film? I love the visuals
ngl I love red velvet flavoured foods
Hey, I can see you’re learning. I’m happy for you 😌 it’s hard to stop bad coping mechanisms when they feel like the only thing that’ll comfort you, but I hope you can venture out into other things that relax you so maybe you can fixate more on healthy habits! For me, when I feel anxious, I go to things like watching craft videos, crocheting things like scarfs, taking walks outside to just let my mind go, drawing, or doing meditation stuff! Is there anything you like to do? Feel free to discuss your interests! ☺️✨
thank you i will!
let the big sad commence... but besides that I am okay. I hope you are okay :3
I really would like to try some if the foods..not binge but just enjoy. They look really yummy but sadly Germany doesn't have food like this 😕
I don’t have an ed But recently I’ve been thinking so much about calories and I’ve considered purging more than I should. I don’t know what to do because I honestly enjoy my life. Like I do the things I want which is martial arts and I feel happy just not when it comes to my body and appearance. I work out everyday and sometimes multiple times a day but I feel like I stay looking like a pig because I eat like a pig and so now I’m barely eating and I know it isn’t good but I don’t know how to stop.
Anyways I truly truly hope you recover soon and everyone else as well who struggles with and ed.
I'm trying to cut all sugar and for the past 2 days it's been hard. I'm craving junk food. I want pizza so bad. I was doing well for 2 weeks . I want cake and I want to stuff my face. These videos help to soothe me
The animal crossing song😍😍😍😍😍
Where do you live? I've always noticed some of the snacks seem super yummy, but I can't find some of them here in Greece :(
heyyy there, i live in canada, but i’m sure you guys have great snacks that we don’t have too!
@@ilikepotatoes12138 Ooo, alright! Canada has always been somewhere I've wanted to visit! Along with America and Germany, so I may try a few of the breads out when I visit! They look very yummy!
请不要道歉 💛
i never binged before or anything, i did drop 15 pounds in like a month, and it wasnt even on purpose, but whenever i watch a binge video like this it feels comforting???
It makes me sad when she feels the need to apologize for everything. I hope you get some more confidence
Can l ask is ?, is 1048 kcals a day considered overeating
No that’s severe undereating
@@samishere6606 so how much am l supposed to it coz l think l am overweight 166cm 12yrs 52kg
@@ugonnaokeugiri3116 you aren’t overweight:)
@@samishere6606 rlly l thought l had to be 45kg 😮
@@ugonnaokeugiri3116 as long as you r healthy, that seems like a good weight to me
i recommend you to watch stephanie buttermore’s all in journey video. it helps me view my binging episodes/days as a way of me feeding my extreme hunger, and with that mindset that makes me think positively towards me eating a huge amount of food because i know that one day i will be able to eat intuitively after i went through all of the process of eating literally everything. the word binge itself has a negative connotation, so i recommend you to start labeling your binging episodes as a way of you doing all-in to feed your extreme hunger. i recovered from bed through all-in, and i truly hope you could too!!
Why do you think it's the cause of binging . Why the food is all I could think off in my mind. Why some people just eat to survive and me have food constantly in my mind and eating until I'm completely stuffed..what's the cause of all of this?
You may have an overgrowth of bad bacteria in your gut. The gut is like the second brain, the bacteria present control your cravings. So constantly eating sugar due to the bacteria telling you so, will then feed them and let them thrive, and the craving will grow stronger. The brain releases as much dopamine when eating sugar, as when you take cocaine. I think you would like the videos on insulin and sugar and the brain made by this legendary guy on youtube called *What I’ve Learned*
Do you live by the sea?
Im sorry but it doesnt happen to all of us lol
Hi i love ur vids And i have anorexia binge And purge cycle And i just started a channel. only i dont know how to edit cause am really new to making vids, can u pls tell me some about it? :3 luv u
The truth is you post these videos in hopes that the comments comfort you and tell you that what you’re doing to your body is okay. It is not. And only you can stop this. Easier said than done obviously, but how much longer will u let this go on for? You’re clearly self aware of the harm you’re doing but no matter what people say, relapses are NOT a part of recovery. You have a major issue and need to seek help. PROFESSIONAL help and not from comments by people who are just seeking validation for their problems, as you are.
thank you aaa; but at the present it's really difficult for me to get professional help with my mum here?! i? don't really know
\(; q ; \ )
Couldn’t have said it better. It might be a bit harsh but it’s the truth. Nothing will change if she doesn’t try anything new and just live in this constant binge/restrict cycle. It can be difficult to access professional help, but, there are always podcasts, books (really recommend the ‘Brain over binge recovery guide’).