How Long is Now? | Introduction to Metaphysics 🪐
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This one took about two months to make. Lots of that time was faffing around with a Word document, not even sure what the point of the script was, but anyhow - today, very excited to be finally uploading and rid of the thing, there I was doing a bit of last minute polishing in the video editor and suddenly I notice I've deleted half the video in the timeline. Just gone. I reload the old save file but it's too late, I've written over it already. About a month of work gone in three seconds of mis-clicking. I'm not sure how far back in the day I made the mistake and did I mention that the file is so large now that the undo function locks the video editor up almost every time? There's only one option left: tentatively keep hitting undo and just pray this doesn't lock the editor up otherwise ALL GONE, and just pray the buffer remembers far back enough to restore the sequence I deleted otherwise ALL GONE. There I sat for thirty minutes hitting ctrl-z as gently as I could, sweat dripping from my furrowed brow, even the mice who live in the walls of my apartment coming out to watch and bite their fingernails or claws or whatever it is mice have, their cheese untouched, their traps empty.... Anyway everything was fine even if I almost soiled myself - the undo function worked and I briefly felt good about living again for the first time in ten years. I am an idiot. Please don't be an idiot like me - back stuff up, I beg ye.
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The turtle doesn’t come out of his shell often, but when he does I hope everybody sits down and listens for just a little while. You have such a beautiful way with words. Thank you for all your hard work Exurb1a
Turtle soup 🍲
pumpkin potion catsnake
literally couldn't have said it better thank you
@connorschlick3104 look up exurbia allegations 🚎
Physics inspires me.. My parents said if i get 70K followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording..begging u guys , literally
Begging...
This video is exactly what it felt like to suddenly gain consciousness, unprompted, at the age of four while laying on the floor one afternoon.
I had a moment like that when I was 4! I was in kindergarten and I learned how to read the date. When I realized what it meant that it was the year 2001 my brain exploded and I became conscious. I suddenly understood that there was immense time and existence before I even existed.
Same here, I was remember smelling one of those scented markers and it was all real.
Pfffft, what were you doing when you were two? Not concentrating that's what.
14*
@@bhante1345you become conscious later in life, not when born
Can we appreciate the fact he doesn't ever transition into a sponsorship ad? I'm really surprised he hasn't done that yet. All of his videos flow so well without interruption until they end.
he is a sucessful writer, good for us since he doesnt need to monetize the YT as much as others.
Y’all mfs be commenting before even watching the video i don’t understand it what’s the point
@@EuLucioI think he runs a Patreon, too.
Fantastic point this.
If you build it they will come.
it has been 7 months, and i am yet unable to forget pumpkin potion cat snake.
I forgot about while watching but my randomness scroll to your comment brought back the broom saddle
same. that's why I came back to this video.
Too funny, too true.
same💀
The transition between the positive and negative narratives of life is a complete masterpiece, amazing writing my friend
It reminds me of when I was little and very upset, crying. But then realizing something: my tears are salty! And then just going full "YOOO! MY TEARS ARE SALTY???" and then immediately stopping the crying since the salt contents of my emotional eye water is clearly more important than whatever I was crying about.
Good ole yin and yang
Pieke Roelofs. Look her up.
@@Malconeous I have. there was no conviction.
@Malconeous
lol take the L, white knight.
Hearing the transition from "Can we step out of the boundaries of space and time to get a greater sense of free will" to "what is apple" is exactly why I love this channel. Keep up the good work!
He's Vsauce on steroids (and ayahuasca).
I love this monologue!
Ya it was funny but I can’t stand listening to to people eat and talk at the same time so I skipped 30 secs forward into a better future
My grandma died a month ago today after a long battle with dementia and at her funeral i made a speech about her and the things about her i loved. I had choked out how they wouldn’t be lost as they’re little things I’d already noticed myself adopting. It is really great to hear it more eloquently put. As a longtime fan, thank you!
When my grandfather died i often found myself wondering what parts of him he wouldve wanted us to emulate. Its funny how grief makes sad thoughts happy and happy thoughts sad.
You should read the book "I am a strange loop" by phylosopher Douglas Hofstadter. It's long and complex but if you manage to get over the first half it's beautiful and poetic, analysizing what it means to be "I".
I said similar sentiments at my mum's funeral. Think of it often and try to pass on the good things
My grandma used to pick up little crumbs and tiny garbage from the carpet with her fingers because she probably had OCD. I used to look at that behaviour as a kid and think it’s funny and unnecessary. Now as an adult I find myself doing exactly that after I vacuum and find tiny pieces still left on the floor. And every time I do it I remember her
It’s been 6 months since the last exurb1a video. I’m not okay.
probably not for another long while, not sure if hes in prison but he definitely wont be making content again 😬
@@dcurtiniwait why?
@@dcurtini dude, what are you on about? He uploaded a video on his second channel a month ago...
@@rico5818 hi what is his second channel? Could you please tell me?
@@chloelee643 exurb2a i guess
those last 4 minutes has got to be one of the most beautifully well-written things I've ever heard. to be able to look at life in such dichotomous ways yet still find meaning in it all. this work is truly one of a kind
Pumpkin Potion Cat Snake
Peat
I would highly recommend his other videos then 👍
i think you mean polychotomous
If you are really into his content, you should look up "A exurbia experiment". Chilling stuff.
The biggest reason i LOVE excurb1a is because sometimes i think about things like this and then i say "damn bro im going crazy i need to keep my shit together and focus on how to pay my rent and remember mums birthday and stuff" and then i hear him in a video saying what i was just thinking about, sometimes even word for word and the video has millions of views confirming that there are many people that think about those things, and that kinda just makes me feel good about everything for some reason.
The biggest reason I can't love him anymore is because of what he did to Pieke Roelofs. Look it up.
yoooooooo EXURBIA IS A SOCIOPATH I had no idea about this??
@@noneyabusiness1293 pretty much the exact same reaction I had :(
More people should know about this wtf
@@portocaladumitru1194 him and his legal team have buried it quite efficiently
There hasn't been a video I've watched from this channel that did not feel like existentialism wrapped in a warm blanket. A scientific soap opera straight from the heart. Chicken soup for the cosmic soul. More often than not, I'm left with tears. Keep it up you wonderful turtle 🐢
If you want tears you should look into his abuse of Pieke Roelofs
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Chicken soup for the cosmic soul is a brilliant expression
@Malconeous yeah unfortunately that's a huge mess. Yes something definitely happened but so much context is missing because his legal team has insured its a private case and she's changed her story a few times. Not to mention she has been, aligedly, assaulted by the last three people she's collaborated with so it's kinda hard to know what exactly has happened.
Sadly I'm not sure we'll ever see a result to the issue =/
@@probablymia8268 these are fair points, but for me the fact that he fought for a private case is evidence enough of his wrong doing. An innocent man would want this out in the open.
I can't tell if you aced your philosophy classes or failed just because your teacher was forced to rethink their entire career with the way you turned their brains inside out. Absolutely love this and you.
Dude, this is somehow trivial and unrelated but I'm literally crying over the fact that before I used to binge watch all your videos --- of course all of them have a philosophical touch in them (however subtle or informal it might be) and now I am an undergrad majoring in Philosophy and you're literally uploading straight up intro to philosophy sub subjects 😭 I feel like I grew up with you or something it's crazy
Can confirm, started my undergrad in philosophy two years ago because of exurb1a.
@@jonhjohnson156 ah! I'm in my 3rd year now as well. Best of luck to us 🤞
i did the same make sure you know about his history it puts a damper on things
@@Matty.dunford I just read up on it and this was certainly the last of his videos I'll ever watch. Just disturbing.
@@Matty.dunford What? You mean the allegations from a single homophobe backed by literally no evidence whatsoever? Don't go around claiming he's some awful person based on one individual alone. I'm not saying he's an angel and that everything that's been claimed is false, what I'm saying that until we get _any_ concrete evidence you also shouldn't assume it's all true.
Exurb1a is a Hidden Gem. Each new video is like embarking on a rollercoaster. He possesses the unique ability to transform my mood from somber to joyous in an instant. Immense gratitude to you, kind sir, for being a remarkable gift to us all.
As a longtime viewer and sharer of your videos, despite rarely leaving comments, I'd like to express my gratitude. Thank you for the range of emotions your videos evoke. From laughter to anxiety, from depression to joy. It truly reflects the complexity of the human psyche.
PS. Pumpkin Potion Cat Snake
Blessed is he in the highest.
I am a very old viewer of his too but watching this video at 4AM compelled me to comment. Pumpkin Potion Cat Snake
Exurb1a is definitely my favorite channel on CZcams, even if the guy behind it is questionable with all the accusations he's faced. The good always comes with the bad I suppose.
@@mytzelk8876 A smear from a mentally ill ex.
He is such an incredible writer
I would LOOVEE if exurb1a made audiobooks of his own writings
That's a fantastic idea, but technically thats what this whole channel is, so he is in a way XD
@playstationprodigies7055 yeah, but his books are awesome too, and i personally would love to hear him reading them. He just makes the experience so more enjoyable
@@serxhomolla5961 yes sir
I would loooove if you investigated his involvment with Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeousi will when he makes an audiobook about it
missing this channel. where's my monthly dose of existentialism man.
Came here to leave this comment
It showed up today, if you haven't seen it. It's extra existential.
You single handedly help me process and explain how I feel about basically everything and I hope that I one day will be as eloquent as you.
You become eloquent when you practice eloquence, that's neuroplasticity.
@@morgadoapi4431I read that in his voice.
Exurb1a gives us just enough content for us to know he's alive and just enough to keep us in his grip
hes using his research in indoctrinating people in the past to capture us
His grip is stronger than a tungsten cube
he's the anti-creator. and really, i'd imagine his one video-per-six-month-period takes about the same amount of energy as another's one video-per-six-hour-period.
My friend, your videos are the highlight of my day. I used to think that I was an obscure thinker, and that no-one else would find these playful ponderings and mental gymnastics interesting. I'm so encouraged that your channel has 2.75M subscribers, and we aren't the only two weirdos out there! Godspeed, good sir!
I feel like almost all thoghts we have, have been thought about by somebody else before and no matter how special one thinks he is, there are thousands and thousands of people out there who are extremly similar.
@@AntonK-bd1yvYou know what, this exact thought came into my mind. Maybe other than us, this thought reverberated in someone else's mind too.
@@AntonK-bd1yv Same. Not only did someone definitely think it, so many people thought it that at least one of them was an author that wrote it down somewhere, possibly thousands of years ago. Most of the first half of this video is an elaboration on the saying "No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man", said by a Greek philosopher about 2500 years ago.
@@AntonK-bd1yvwhile this may be true of alot of things, i find a little bit of a sense of wonder and satisfaction knowing you will have atleast a few unique thoughts because we live in a time that has never existed and will cease to exist very soon.
Every minute is gone as soon as it happens and there are many more to go, and out of all the minutes that will ever be, we get our own little slice of it as its happening right now. I may have died in 10 years when someone may be reading this comment, or i won't have, or maybe youtube will be gone and this text will be alone with no one else to view it, and maybe no one will see it again as our solar system eventually enters a black hole or our sun explodes obliterating all trace of my existance forever, or maybe someone will see it thousands of years later somehow recovering this exact comment on this exact video, maybe they won't ever know what it says as english is a long since forgotten langauage.
These thoughts go on forever, certainly not unique i hope, and yet one day someone thought of a big green man and called him shrek.
There's always something new every single day of your life made up of all the same stuff there ever was and ever will be, and I'm happy knowing that all of it that will be mine is only mine and only ever will be mine even when im dead and gone i can say i existed as a totally unique thing, even if an exact copy happens of me in the far infinite future an infinite number of times, they never quite existed in the year 2005 based on this random calender someone thought up a short while ago. These moments truly are mine as i know them, i thought of hulk hogan punching barney the dinosaur and then turing around to beat me up only to give me a hand before shooting off into the sky with a beer in his hand. Maybe you conjured a similar scenario reading that just now, but it didn't have "me" in it, it had you or whoever you thought i looked like that's probably wrong, it probably had a specific beer, unbranded or branded however you thought of it, you probably imagined it happening somewhere, maybe a wrestling ring? Or one of the sets of the barney the dinosaur show? Maybe you don't know who the hell I'm talking about and came up with something totally different. Isn't that kind of cool?
Anyway, I've been rambling so I'll just stop.
Anyway i didn't stop even though i said i would, isn't that funny, or maybe it isn't funny and you are having no reaction at all, hell maybe you even think this is wierd, or boring and totally pointless, so I'll actually stop this time.
Never mind I'm going to keep going until i actually get bored of writing this pure human nonesense, which i think i am now, flippity doo da, call me moses and shoot some fish in a barrel or my name isn't laurence fishburne with an ice bucket on his head and 2 duck legs the size of an actual ducks legs
@@AntonK-bd1yv yup i think so too. i find comfort in thinking that even the most obscure and weird thoughts i have, someone of the billions of prople on earth is thinking and doing the exact same thing i am.
Commenting because the internet desperately needs more content like this. Humanity needs this. I hope this channel reaches as many people as possible. Thanks exurb1a for another fantastic video.
Excuse me are you still here?..
This has been my favorite creator for years. Thank you, exurb1a, for giving us your take on this existence 🙏
I cannot express in words the level of emotion exurb1a manages to pull from me. Every video he puts out is an absolute masterpiece, and I am thankful to live in this time, in this place, where I can experience the sheer wonder that is this channel
You are truly a wonderful mind and artist. Thank you for sharing this with all of us. The world may not make sense, but at least we have someone to express it in proper manic fashion.
Godspeed
Maybe look into his abuse of Pieke Roelofs before you write such flowery words.
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@@MalconeousWhat's been happening with that case? I haven't watched anything from this guy for like a year and I'm out of the loop
@trimmerjet0544 There's a good number of comments above that give a better overview than Malconeous
Well, replies to comments above
Your videos scratch an itch for me nothing else can.
All my life, i feel like my brain is on power saving mode, barely active, but you somehow activate those neurons of curiosity that have been surpressed by the eternal monotony of life
"activating the neurons of curiosity", now that is a good way to put it, after a good few decades on this planet, with just over a decade forced to learn whatever someone else decides was important these neurons of curiosity have indeed gone dormant, but every time I stumble across something like this, be it an entire video essay or even just a few sentences I overhear in a conversation I get a slight feeling of childlike curiosity, that there is still so much to do and learn and discover, a feeling that I almost forget with the everyday monotonous life and a boring 9 to 5. If only we would instill this sense of curiosity into the next generations instead of beating it out of them so they fit within the standardized tests parameters, I cannot even begin to imagine what humanity could be.
You might want to get that checked out, I think there's an ointment for that?
Thank you for being here. It's so good to know that someone like you is out there in the world. I feel like you understand and can articulate what all of this is about so well. Thank you man.
I'm a man that doesn't cry often normally. It's not something I'm proud of, it's just the way it is caused by the society's norms. But every time I watch your videos alone, the things you make me think just tingles a string in a far away corner in my brain, like some vulnerable part that wasn't meant to be disturbed was violently touched by the thoughts you gave me, and I burst out crying. The thoughts, doesn't hurt, but doesn't not hurt either. You touch my consciousness where I didn't know existed before. I don't know if I should thank you for making me feel this way, or say fuck you, but, I'm happy I discovered you a while back existential crisis turtle.
Epsilon Dies Backwards did that to me, "where the water is warm..." I don't even know why. Something is down there that I cannot perceive but gets laid bare
Are you a man? You're aware you're more than that, right? Be quiet and enjoy emotion, lol!
The Rememberer did that to me, I won't quote any specific part because it was more of a constant thing throughout the whole thing. It's as if he knew something special about each one of us, as if we all had a trigger he had control over.
@@michelemassa3029remembered absolutely wrecked me. I almost can't really listen to it anymore because I ugly cry at it everrytime.
@@michelemassa3029 psychology majoring bastard
This man always finds a way to match and explain my own beliefs better than I ever could
Pumpkin potion cat snake
I've literally grown up along side this channel, and knowing exurb1a will upload his last video someday makes me sad. His content is the only thing I want in endless amounts of
Wanna be even sadder? Actually depressing how much i looked up to him considering what he did.
Look up exurbia scand+al
Without the plus in between
I think he would disagree. It's the lack of constant exurb1a that makes us need the hit, like little exurb1a fiends clinging on for the ride
I sometimes watch his older videos to see if my perspective has changed. Because his videos are, in a sense, timeless.
Let’s just be grateful for the ride he’s given us this far.
I think that’s part of the purpose of this video as well.
Acknowledge how freaking wild it is to actually be alive
@@booglez7223 i understand and completely agree with your point, but still... you probably already know what i mean. if i was to live forever, the occasional hit of exurb1a is what i would want along side my infinite life
hey man… i miss you and i can’t wait for your next post. i hope your doing good. i love listening to your thoughts and the information you bring with your research to answer your question to then bring to us. probably doesn’t mean much but your really are my favorite channel if you had endless content id probably never stop listening. your the channel i actually hit the bell for so yea… hope you didn’t quit making videos cause im waiting for the next one.
sincerely a fan
Hes been in a bunch of legal trouble which probably explains the recent lack of videos
@@rachelcasey1449legal trouble?
@@corymartin1162 i think from the allegations
check out his second channel he posted there: Exurb2a
@@rachelcasey1449really? what happend?
You know its gonna be a good day when exurb1a uploads
You know its gonna be a good day when exurb1a uploads
@@penguinscanfly5796 You know its gonna be a good day when exurb1a uploads
Bot
More like a good night.
@@TheeOnlyStolasbit rude mate
Every single one of these videos is a gift to humanity as a whole. Each time i watch one of your videos i feel a new sense of understanding that i never get ever elsewhere.
that's a very well way to put it. i feel the same.
Finally, after three years of philosophy courses in uni, I can truly appreciate the maddening beauty of this man's ability to take philosophy and make it extremely entertaining whilst still making a point. Something that most famous philosopher's fail to do (especially you, you Kant).
Yeah idk Kant definitely managed to do that. His writing is dense, but it's clear if you spend time with it.
I for example like how The Critique of Pure Reason really just begins from definitions, and logical inference, and starts developing a thesis from that, step by step. There's no flowery pretentiousness or artistic flair or mysticism for mysticism's sake. He's just like:
See my definitions! I'm gonna mess your head up now if you bare with me.
Dude? I'm almost in tears. This is so wonderful and deep. That's poetry, science and philosophy together.
Congratulations for this nice work 😊
I was totally expecting a pumpkin potion cat snake reminder at the end
Ah, my favorite super computer, hows things going at SkyNet HQ?
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This robot supports 🍇ist
The best writer I’ve seen in the modern day, HANDS DOWN.
Thank you for an incredible emotional journey
Unfortunately he was accused of sexual abuse, search up experiment A and Pieke Roelofs, don't know if its false or true, we just have to see in the future.
@@Adriblockss unfortunately this does not change the words that he uses in his videos, that are able to move us so deeply emotionally
@@Adriblockssinnocent until proven guilty
My father passed eight days ago and I was not expecting your touch into death and dying. Thank you. It was a wonderful perspective that was comforting. I lost myself in thought after that so I need to rewatch. His ripples will be felt for lifetimes.
Sorry for your loss, and hopefully the turtles words will provide some support.
3 days ago I got news my mom has at best 1 year left. I spent the night with her and my 5 year old daughter hanging out. It was an odd peace full of 5 year old chatter and happiness
Sorry to hear about your grandmother, hope you and yours are doing okay, mate. Glad to hear you're continuing on her mental pattern, and have been kind enough to pass on a fraction of it to us.
I enjoy listening to your thoughts and ideas each time you release a video, as I'm sure many others do.
I'd wish more people would wonder about meta physics. It sometimes seems to me I'm the only one in the world thinking about why we're here, what time is, WHY anything exists.
But I always get back on track.
@@powerdude_dk Why ponder such questions when they only yield depressing answers.
@@chuckgarcia5054 cus its awesome
@@powerdude_dk used to spend a lot of time thinking about such stuff. Still do from time to time.
Exub1a did a pseudo-science experiment on his autistic ex-girlfriend; sexually assaulting her, promptly causing her to end her own life 3 years back
nothing tops off an anxiety filled day like an exub1a video to make me dread my own existence while I sip some tea
Well i guess you better not find out what exub1a did irl 😂
@MK-il5vc oh I've heard, I like to do my best to separate the art from the artist though. while yes what he did was horrible I can't help it if I find his content enjoyable so I just try and focus on the content rather than the man behind it
@@MK-il5vcthe allegations haven't been proven tho, and they probably won't be for a while
@@MK-il5vcWhat did he do? Something based?
@@FringeWizard2supposedly tried to see if he could drive his partner to suicide i think
When the world needed him most, the depression turtle returned
I haven't watched a video since you nearly lost your marbles and took a stroll off into the woods, but coming back, I can tell just how much your break helped. The life I can hear just in the tone of your voice, and the apple part was just pure fun. It's good to hear that you seem to be enjoying yourself again. Take care of yourself and old lefty, I will wait for your next video, hungry for more.
This happened? 🤔 I've watched all his content afaik, but somehow have forgotten that this happened Ig
Perfect timing. I have been feeling really down lately but your videos always take my mind out of the world I'm in.
Take care bro. Wish you a good day!
Same here. It puts my mind at ease to hear someone else speak out my very thoughts like he does.
Same exact, having lots of issues with my partner, this grounded me back to earth.
@@PGY2000 glad you're back!
“You’re watching this video now, because you chose to be here, because of your awful taste”, buddy, I’m literally from iraq, your channel has saved my life, I study physics because of you, I can’t thank you enough, and I’m a 100% sure of my taste, thank you from the bottom of my heart for every video that you put out ❤
That's so cool
That is great to hear! Have fun on your journey filled with marvels!
Sick! Im literally from The Netherlands!
Ahh a fellow Iraqi 🐴!
An exurb1a video is litterally what I needed today, thank you !
look up exurb1a allegations
Perfect blend of humour and philosophy. Love this channel. Keep making fabulous content my favourite turtle
"Why do I have a mind's eye, but not a mind's nose?" I definitely have a mind's nose, ear, skin, tongue, and other sensory organs. When people talk about Beethoven being able to compose his last symphony while having been deaf, it's because he trained his mind's ear to hear those sounds. It's just a matter of training your mind to imitate such things without the sensory input. The smell of a mind's nose is less clear than actual smelling, but that's the same as my mind's eye seeing an apple in less detail than my actual eye.
That's fair -- you can in fact remember what smells are. You can imagine smelling a rose, same as you can imagine hearing a song or a lover's voice. That's not to undermine the brilliance of this man's work. He's gifted and I greatly appreciate his contributions to our perspectives and considerations.
I see what you are trying to say but beethoven also had a rare ability called perfect pitch which is impossible for a normal human to learn
@@corneliusklassen8513 perfect pitch is really not as useful as most people seem to think. Well trained relative pitch, which most people can attain given enough effort is much more useful. Perfect pitch is for other people telling their friends I have it and gushing with amazement while I cringe internally.
@@itdepends604i love that relative pitch doesnt need to be learned when ur very young, sometimes i here chord and recognise it from the first chord of a song because it resonates somehow in my minds ear, and i can continue the song, and even take the song in a different direction, without any sensory input
Same, I can imagine smells
Love these videos - the mix of profundity, nihilism, angst and a variety of humour (from irony to surrealism), is brilliant. I will now start worshipping Pumpkin Potion Cat Snake!
Its not really nihilism, it's absurdism. It's the answer to nihilism
@@andordimeny6130 I am not sure absurdism is strictly an answer to nihilism, but I take your point. Thanks for your comment!
Oh ya, much profound, many insight. MORE LIKE THIS PLEASE/s
Wasn’t that part of the cognitive test Trump was so proud of passing?
Blasphemer! 😡 Only one deserves worship. All hail His Noodly Goodness. 🍝 Maybe while partaking of some Angria. R'amen.🤗
Frankly, I was feeling pretty useless in the last few days, but another one of these surely got me on my feet again.
I was also thinking of myself as useless, but after watching this video i now think of everything as useless so i don't feel as bad anymore.
In the end. The universe doesn't care for us, no gods cry for us. The universe never knew us, and will never remember us. But the universe also won't remember that one time you embarrassed yourself infront of the whole school, it won't nag at you for hours at a time. It won't blame you for everything you did wrong. And if every minute is equal, that means that ALL minutes are equally useless. So who cares how you spend infinity? Not infinity, and not the universe. And all somebodies are equally nobody in this universe. So live life, die well lived. Not for you, me, god or any thing else. But you
For anyone wondering, the piece at 10:53 is “Erik Satie - Gnossienne No. 1”. It wasn’t listed in the desc, but I was able to find it after a bit of digging
Exurb1a videos are so special to me, I feel like it'd be an injustice to watch them mindlessly among other youtube videos. I love getting absorbed into the thought pattern, gaining insight and getting entertained at the same time. Thank you for these videos.
If you want real insight look at what he did to Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeousbro who gives a fuck
@@Malconeous Looked into it. The case was dismissed, and it was probably false anyway. Now, i still don't know how that was a helpful insight about metaphysics but it certainly made me appreciate Exurb1a more than ever, thanks.
Hmmm...Imagine her accusing Dutch police covering Alex? And what was that accusation all about? I'ts not really difficult to invent things nowadays. @@Malconeous
@@johanneswohler5476 lol that bish is commenting everywhere of he's excu1ba did something which he also doesn't know
As a child I sometimes did this thing where I stood in front of a mirror and just stared into my own eyes, telling myself "That's me, that's my body" over and over again. After a few minutes I felt myself "rising above" my everyday reality, catching glimpses of something much bigger. The world we perceive suddenly felt so shallow. I would ask those questions then. Who am I, beyond this body? What actually is this universe? It was such a terrifying yet grand feeling.
As a child I used to bite the metal sides of my bed and stare at the wall.
@@alia9651 Life is truly wondrous.
lol@@ipassedtheturingtest1396
remembering as a child i dove deeper and deeper into the universe, i wanted to know everything about it and felt emptier with every bit of reality i grasped. Had a realy hard time figuring out why i live and for what i live, or how the universe is supposed to be infinite, infinity really broke my little child brain. Good memories.
I did a very similar thing! I remember being around 5, looking at myself in the mirror and having this very strange disociating feeling, and then repeating to myself over and over "I am me" , like sort of to convince myself that I am this thing I see reflected in the mirror. It's wild that only recently was I able to put into words what I felt back then, truly a methaphysical experience
you know its gonna be a depressing day when exurb1a uploads
A necessary evil, I must add
Depressing optimism*
only if you take it personally
For me it’s somehow uplifting, cuz it takes me to see my life from another perspective
I love the transitions from happy to dark to happy to dark near the end. They crack me up but it reminds me about the ups and downs of life. Almost like being on a rollercoaster. :)
I am proud to say this is one of the first times watching your videos where I did not cry or want to cry. Thank you for the beautiful poetry of work.
-A human who at a time gave too much to the void.
I'm a bit sad, because I just realized that I haven't had time and energy to think about weird metaphysical stuff in a long time. Thank you depression turtle for reingniting those thoughts within me, even if it costs me an hour or two of not sleeping when I should
writing is second to none. So expressive and emotionally weighted. The infrequent uploads makes this channel so mysterious. Been here for a good few years now, many of the videos are worth watching 3 or 4 times over. Lovin it!
@@gibericyeah, I separate art from artists, but that was disappointing to hear
@@giberic If you are so angry about what he did why are you still here? Just don't watch him.
He was just doing an experiment, nothing wrong with that.
@@self_improvement_d As the guy above said, separating the art from the artist. I don't like what he did, but he makes good content. What's wrong with watching even if you don't like the person?
I love how the music just swallows the questions at the end, because as the questions consume us we can't but try to forget them as we can't answer them
10:50 I LOVE this flip because it is exactly how it is when you start thinking about these things for a bit too long. Every sentence becomes a gaping abyss of infinite possible meanings, some more possible than others but there are also some that are complete opposites yet as likely as each other
You cannot tell me that I am the only one that was thinking about these things he just described when I first gained consciousness and then went on carrying these thoughts with me into every night where I couldn't for whatever reason fall asleep and just wonder how I got into my bed in the first place? I'm 21 now and studying urban development, and sometimes just have the thought of: what will all this really matter anyway, living on a floating rock, that we don't even fully understand yet and probably never will, and I am supposed to plan the lives of thousands of people, if not millions (based on the belief that a crafted space and living milieu can influence a person's behaviour and life), only to make their short passage in this slice of the carnival we call life a little bit more interesting and comfortable, I guess... So that's why I'm studying urban development, I suppose... to matter?
Anyway, I read your book, Geometry for Ocelots, and I cried at the end. So I gave it to my little brother, for he must suffer, as I have suffered.
He's reffering to me! And boi do i suffer
Everybody has gone through this thought pattern in one way or another at one point. For years it blew me away that nobody was talking about it, but the fact of the matter is that nobody talks about it because they've already made peace with it. In one way or another most people have accepted the fact that there is so much they don't, and will never, understand.
People don't like to talk about it because it's a very circular conversation that always comes back to the same conclusion- it's all either for nothing or it's so complex that we'll never understand, and that can be quite depressing.
@@MaggieInABox Or, in some cases, relieving, as I have encountered. But it still comes forth every now and then, when you stand still and just think, and that's the most beautiful part of it: it all leads back to those questions.
@@MaggieInABox Try laughing at the complexity of it all. I walk around and I see the world and I laugh at its absurdity. Not to dick-ride camus but honestly I could never find meaning in life fufilling enough, so may as well turn suffering into hysteria and laugh ur way through it.
@@IvanKarpusheff you don't have to have read camus to comprehend absurdism. it's written on the tin.
Your videos feel like shortfilms. Always a story being told. I really want to try and learn your editing style. The music, transitions, & writing all fit together. I can tell you spend a lot of time putting these videos together. Thank you.
@@akashtiwari95They went to court several years ago, but nothing happened since there is 0 proven evidence. Stop spreading rumors.
This is unironically the best piece of media I have consumed in the last ten years, magnificient
You either watched too much or not enough media. But definitly not the right amount
You're my favourite schizophrenic
Though no one’s seen his face before, this man is a true modern philosopher. I myself ponder life almost everyday, but he asks questions I could never even think about. I almost wish I had his view on life: the ability to focus on the complexity and absurdness of it all. Keep it up my friend, and don’t change a thing; your videos will echo through history.
we can do this. we just havent figured it out yet
His face is public. There is even videos with him. Especially connected to the criminal case he is involved in.
@@ThePunikaTV the criminal case of sticking your wood in crazy attention seekers lmao
@@serhantasc8323sure, make fun of it instead of reading it.
@@ThePunikaTVThe evidence for the allegations are lacking. Hence the disbelief.
The perfect example of a creative mind who focuses on quality over quantity, and context over content. Love your work mate ❤
where the fuck is my existential turtle? please come back i miss u
Fun fact: while metaphysics does literally mean "after/beyond physics", it was only so named after Aristotle's treatise Metaphysics, a title that Aristotle himself never used, but which was applied to it by Medieval scholars because it literally came after Aristotle's Physics in lists of his works.
Also, I think you probably know this, but yes, the set of all sets contains itself; it's the set of all non-self-contained sets that fucks everything up.
Actually, the set of all sets also cannot exist (see Cantor's Paradox). The reasoning is a little less straightforward, though.
@@HowtheheckarehandleswitNot to split hairs, but the question was whether the set of all sets contains itself, not whether such a set is possible. If the universal set *could* exist, it would, by definition, contain itself; it's the Russell Set that, even if assumed to exist, would by definition both contain itself and not contain itself in the same sense and at the same time. The universal set gives rise to its own paradoxes, of course. One such paradox is that it would have to have a higher cardinality than its own power set, which I think is what you are referring to as Cantor's Paradox. Another problem is that, by allowing for self-contained sets, you open the door to the Russell Set and thus Russell's Paradox.
@arthuruppiano3211 woah, dude. That's, like, crazy man. Am I all the things within the set, or am I the set?
Always a joy when a new vid comes out. No other CZcamsr gets me in a thinking mood like you do
“…which all segues perfectly into Pataphysics..!”
Cant wait to hear you talk about the next out-there concept I’ll never be able to use in casual conversation!
Thank you for yet another great video! Watching your videos really puts things into perspective and all the problems in the world, wars, politics etc. seem minuscule, insignificant and futile. I really wish more people would zoom out and ask the really important questions. Respectfully, a thankful Bulgarian.
I study architecture at the ETH in Zurich. Today I have an art exam lasting for 6 hours where we have to produce art and write texts about it. This is one of those strange moments in life where I feel like in a movie and that this video is made for me. Its the perfect summary of some of my favorite topics. (determinism, free will, meta physics, qualia etc) So thank you existential crisis turtle this was really inspiring.
What is meant by free will?
How was the exam? :)
poor bastard….. the 6 hour exam….. it killed ‘im
After thinking about coincidence about everything in my existence. I was commenting on the video. Then suddenly Grammarly pushed me to see your comment. :D If something is interesting and wondering strangely it shows up somehow. I hope you have passed the exam. Good luck for the next. :)
You need to receive some sort of award.
I’m 21 and have been watching your videos since I was 15. Your words completely changed the way my brain worked when I first started watching you videos and continue to do so. I got a degree in philosophy because of the thoughts you helped me form. You’ve helped me see the beauty and insanity of life and existence and I couldn’t be more grateful. Thank you.
he needs jail time. Look up Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeousreal
Separate the art and the artist.
@@f1r3hunt3rz5 anime pfp would say that
@@Malconeous Not an anime pfp, and I stand by what I said.
Found you 3 days ago, watched a video, realised you've done everything I ever wanted to make on YT (content that carries wisdom (or well packed knowledge if you will) (which I totally lack), all sorts of artful expression (from music which i know nothing of to tempo, structure, pacing or easily said sense and beauty of the work, which I didn't even start experimenting with), humor (what even is it, how do you make it, I have no idea why, I just know I cannot stop laughing when I see your joke) and time and dedication (I don't think I have ever done anything requiring as much of these as you do every single f***ing masterpiece of a video)...
You have done what I dreamt of and have done it perfectly, thank you. Now, knowing this path has been realised, I shall seek another in need of what I can give it. Best of journeys I wish you, the world and I need you, so good luck and much love 😃😇❤️
Bro if you want to upload something then just do it.
Just do it your own way. He's not the first to talk about this stuff; It's as old as the hills and belongs to all of us.
Why in the world are you using so many parentheses and not closing all of them?!
@@joeyg29jgjg I agree they’re using too many, but I only see one that was left open?
Exub1a did a pseudo-science experiment on his autistic ex-girlfriend; sexually assaulting her, urging her to end her own life three years back
these videos are my favourite comfort videos to watch on repeat when the insomnia caused by my endless regrets and miseries and yearnings strikes again ❤❤❤ please never stop
I suffer from insomnia and a dull demeanor. I have been told I am rather cold and insufferable in my dialog when face to face. I, like much of my fellow meat bags, am Aspergers, how blessed.
What I really mean to say, this that you have managed to capture my minds thoughts into an articulate and well presented video. And I want to thank you for it. Honestly, I am very glad to know I am not the only one who delves into the why and how of is.
If I had money to spare, this would be the video I would give a superthanks too.
You have made me feel ever so slightly less alone.
I suffer from being thought of as a space cadet because this line of thought is going on in the background while I carry out my day, almost every waking moment. I have a pattern I recognize and everything has a place in the universe... is this the microcosm or the macrocosm, are we moving through space or is space moving through us? Aspergers, hooray. I'm the version of it that remains a daydreaming kid trying to tie my shoes while my subconscious insists eventually I'll understand it all. My sympathies.
Aspergers hasn't been used as a diagnosis in years, it was melted into ASD awhile ago
@yourlocalfestivefurry354 Yeah, but a lot of us still choose to use the aspy lable and its out right to do so.
Edit: I really hope your handle is just joking about the furry part...
I absolutely love this channel. My world pauses when a video is released, and resumes once I've watched it through and through
You might change your mind once you see the way he abused Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeous Do you have some proof that he did, or what have the courts decided?
ive been consistently watching your videos for the past couple of years, rewatching all the time and waiting patiently for the next, and i cant begin to describe how much each minute means to me, thank you
You're gunna hate what he did to Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeous We don't entertain unsubstantiated online accusations. It's more productive to focus your time on constructive activities rather than dwelling on such matters.
@@Malconeous Has he been convicted of that?
I love you man. You are a fantastic writer and there is love in everything you make. Thanks for sharing with us
Each video you make is a beautiful masterpiece. Every time I think I’m ready for what you’re about to poetically wax on about, and every time I’m blindsided by the depth and rawness you bring forth within me. Absolutely phenomenal
This morning, I was reminiscing about my trek on the Appalachian Trail, and on a whim, shared your "The Answer Is Not a Hut In the Woods" video with my trail family. While I was re-listening to the story of your experience, I got the notification for this video. The universe is funny like that. (BTW- I'm damn near positive the gent in the kilt you met was me)
I've been struggling a lot, lately, mentally and physically, and doing a lot of ruminating on the nature of my crumbling meat prison and the spinning ball of physics with trees on it that it's stuck to. Your content always seems to show up at just the right time to give perspective on whatever the universe is throwing in my direction. Thank you.
To anyone else reading this- I don't know what the hell is going on either, but we're all on this rock together.
so i stumbled across this channel back in 2019 or so, i was 15 and i wasnt sure of what to do with my future, now im 19 and currently studying mechanical engineering because the turtle really sparked something within me.
just dropping by to say thank you, ill listen and love your art always.
I love you man, i dont know who you really are but after finishing this video i feel a deep feeling of love towards you and what you do. Please keep doing whatever it is you're doing. It's working.
I liked your call backs to previous projects. I also find myself enjoying the way you switches from positive to negative in the last bit in a way that doesn’t show rhyme or reason to your struggle. Your struggle just appears sometimes and you did a great job of capturing that
Pieke Roelofs. Look up what he did to her.
@@Malconeousive discovered what happened half hour ago
it caught me how there's like a bubble separating the first impression and the comments
and how tin it his and how powerful the break of it can be for a person
I love this, your whole channel, it makes me feel like I'm on the hardest drugs on existence and when the video ends it's over just like that, 15 minutes feel like hours, I feel like I understand everything you are saying and I still can't keep up. Thank you for existing and uploading, this is one of my favourite things.
Really, really great video. Superb writing. A perfect balance of cynicism and optimism. A sprinkle of self pity so many of us might like to drown in. I would love to see you get more specific and adventurous with the philosophical problems you raise. I think you have the skill to make it accessible and romantic for even an audience on this scale. Thank you for years of pure gold.
You want gold? Look up what he did to Pieke Roelofs
@@Malconeousyou just going to keep spam commenting this crap? She provided no evidence and innocent until proven guilty
ITS BEEN 7 MONTHS, when are you gonna upload.
Now I guess?
everytime i watch his videos, i find my life problems fade away and i start to reflect upon my existence and start feeling grateful to be alive in this day and age... and by the last bit, i get so relaxed i find myself Falling asleep and watch the video all over again
He is an abuser
Almost every time I watch your videos I cry.
Thank you so much!
It so unburdening to experience this metaphysical loneliness with another human being ❤
Clearly the best CZcams channel out there. Instructive content with a bit of hope and cheering for everyone. I’ve got the chill… Thank you for your work.
Dude this video was Awesome all the way to the last moment! I love how it ended in a way that lets us sit with our thoughts. Without any unwanted talking, like promotional stuff or asking for subscribers or plans for the channel
I truly believe that exurb1a is CZcams's most beautiful channel. Every video hits, and I hope that many more videos will exist.
Tldr: metaphysics is existential dread but part of being conciouss , Exurb1a still suffers from manic depression like the past 10 years.
always a blast, keep going
Two months isn't that long for a masterpiece of applied human fuckedupness. Great stuff, as always. I many ways your videos are like the record that is playing in my head over and over again when I don't keep it busy with other things. Ultimately pointless, but strangely uplifting .. the fact that we are able to ponder these things at all.
Exactly my case too. If I have nothing to do for just a week, everything loses meaning. So i try to keep myself occupied 😅
But sometimes it's healthy to ask the big underlying questions.
Wow, thank you for the hard work... I watched this video for the second time, the first time I understood nothing, I think I was overwhelmed by social media, but after finding the time, to just look at your work with full attention was like Wow, he never disappoints...
Thank you a million times. I am glad you exist and communicate so brilliantly. Nice to be in such good company.
look up exurb1a allegations
11:46 reminds me of a verse from the Urdu poet Juan Elia, in a way his mental patterns live on inside me.
وقت کی اس مسافت میں بے آرزو
تم کہاں جاؤ گے ہم کہاں جائیں گے
"On this hopeless tread in time, where will you go, where will I go?"
babe wake up new Exurb1a video dropped
I wished the video never ended. I wanted to keep watching. Forever.
I'm filled with joy every time one of Ex's vids are released into the wild.
That part at 7:25 about memories of memories hit unexpectedly hard, strangely enough because that specific ferris wheel in the background holds some really special and important memories for me. You see, there's this big street carnival in my home town every year and this ferris wheel, the Bellevue, has been at that carnival for almost as long as I have, since the mid '90ies. Anyway, in my family it is tradition to go to that carnival together each of the 5 or so days it's there every year, everyone even takes time off for it. Some of my fondest memories are of that carnival.
In recent years though, the group of people going there with me has gotten smaller and smaller. My grandparents, my uncle, they are gone now, and even I am a different person from back then. I used to love that carnival for all the ice cream I got to eat and all the fun rides I got to go on, but as time inevitably marches on, what I enjoy most is to treasure every bit of the fleeting "now" I still get to spend with my loved ones there. Eventually they will all be gone, most of them probably before me, but their memory, the memories we shared on and around that ferris wheel, will be a part of the pattern that is me until I'm eventually gone, too.
"I am something everything is doing" "Matter that thinks it's a person, or a person that thinks they matter" beyond anything else, exurb1a, you are a poet.
I think it was "a person that thinks they're matter" which turns it from basically 2 quotes that say the same thing to a microcosm of how we flip flop from amazement to despair daily which is what the video was about
Unless you know that and it was just a typo in which case sorry
Hey Exurb1a. I’m currently bored as hell at work. Realized that you should make a video on boredom. Philosophy of the thoughts people have when they’re bored or whether being bored is seen as good or bad for thought.
I have seen you for a few years now and I must say that you have inspired me to create my own philosophy channel in Spanish. The funny thing is that every consequence that my channel will have in me and in other people will be always indirectly related to you. I don't know if that causes you anxiety or a warm feeling, but I feel grateful that we could collide in this moment in time to transmite our ideas and thank you for sharing yours. I'll try to honor the inspiration that made me act in the first place.