If you like Jennette McCurdy's "I'm Glad My Mom Died", you might like these books đ *Memoir Recs*
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đ If you enjoyed reading "I'm Glad My Mom Died", or are one of thousands of people on the waitlist for the book, here are some memoir recommendations you might also like to pass the time with! While these books vary in subject matter, they are all written by women who have been through tremendous hardship, escaped from it, and built the life they wanted, not a life bound by family or abusers. Part of why I am drawn to memoirs is because their stories make me feel like despite trauma and mental illness, I can make a better life for myself and end up okay too. I hope you will also feel the same way â€ïž
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I think the best memoir to read in relation to I'm Glad My Mom Died is What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo. Highly recommend. Foo writes about her own healing as a journalist, researching and interviewing experts, interviewing the adults from her past who didn't intervene, and even including transcript excerpts from her own therapy sessions (audiobook has actual recordings). She also explores intergenerational trauma in immigrant communities and its relationship to child abuse. Incredible book.
Ooo I'll def try that one out !!
Oh wow thanks Iâm going to look for this!
Honestly, it's really sad when you see actors with amazing talent and bright smiles performing. And then it comes out that there was some shady stuff going on behind the scenes. Glad she managed to get away from all of that.
Child actors definitely need to be protected
I read articles about the horrible abuse the actress playing the nasty girl "In house on the prairy" suffered as a child. I haven't got round to reading her book, but contrary to the character she was playing she seems like an amazing person who didn't let her trauma destroy her.
@@Nixx0912 whats the name of the book?
@@anotheronechompsthedust9618 I don't remember that was years ago when I saw the aritcle.
@@Nixx0912 oh I read that, it was good too! Confessions of a Prairie Bitch: How I Survived Nellie Oleson and Learned to Love Being Hated
By Alison Arngrim
When the mom told her âyou gave me cancerâ I had to take a break. Iâm a cancer survivor and it was infuriating to read how her mom manipulated her with her disease all those years.
I do recommend What My Bones Know for another memoir with messed up parents. đ
the mom was so messed up ugh!!
That is an absolutely HORRIBLE thing to say to anyone, much less your own child. BIG yikes đŹ
My mom has been saying such shit to me and my sisters all the damn time. I just saw an interview of her speaking about the book before this video and I clicked cause I love Cindy and wanna see her opinions about it, and I'm absolutely gonna buy this book and read it because I just know it'll be an amazing and relatable read for me
Seconding "What My Bones Know", I read it in 2 days, it's so good!
I wanted to take a break there too it literally made me physically sick reading that!! And calling her a whore and fat
Poor Jennette, it's heartbreaking to learn that she was basically pushed into show business from an early age to support her family. The title of her memoirs really says a lot about her upbringing, and I hope that she's in a better place now.
I'm really glad she escaped from it but it's so awful that she had to deal with all of that during her formulative years. She was basically robbed of a childhood
There's too many child actors that were put in that position, unfortunately. It's super fucked.
I followed Jennetteâs career since the iCarly days, I remember her mother and how she would send photos of herself to fansites and we were so young and dumb kids that we would tweet about her mom. WTF
As a fan, the book was really intense because she talks about moments that I remember seeing from the other side, it was weird and I felt bad and mad at myself.
Iâm so proud of her, so proud of her for speaking out about the abuse she survived
Omg the part where she posted on Jennettes fan page talking trash about her own daughter cuz she found out Jennette was dating someone?? She was unhinged
Jennette McCurdy's memoir is GREAT for first-time readers. I'm so glad you mentioned that. she basically writes the book as a series of vignettes so the "chapters" are quite short and her writing style is easy to digest while still making each vignette introspective and insightful. hope this is the first of many writing projects for her! I'd love to see a fiction novel from her too. also, KNOW MY NAME is seriously one of my all-time favourite books *ever*. Chanel Miller can WRITE write.
Totally agree, it's very easy for first time readers to get into this! Even I was dealing with an audiobook slump and got back into it thanks to her. And Chanel Miller is forever an icon to me đ„șđ„șđ„ș ilh sm
Educated and Know My Name were game changers for me reading wise. I had never been so deeply moved by books, and now I work to include more memoirs in my reading.
They are definitely my top two memoirs as well. The level of introspection they have was top tier
Cindyâs book recommendations are always bursting with humor and positivity which I highly appreciate. Thereâs probably no one else who could beat Cindy in the way she practically shoves information that is necessary and will forever be ingrained in our minds. Sheâs just so articulate and entertaining. I feel like everyoneâs dying to be in her place somehow.
Lol I don't think anyone's dying to be in my place! I'm glad that these videos can be informative to y'all though â€ïž
I don't usually pick up memoirs because they're not my cup of tea, but the hype Jennette's book has been receiving is making me so excited to try another genre. Thank you so much for the recs Cindy!
Jennettes book is v easy to get into if u don't typically read memoirs!!
I'd also recommend "Somebody's Daughter" by Ashley C Ford. Ford's memoir tracks her childhood and young adulthood, her experiences with her abusive mother, sexual assault by her boyfriend and other older men, and (the focal point of the book) her relationship to her father who spent most of her life in prison.
As someone who has studied court proceedings briefly in University, itâs surprising yet not surprising how everything in a court is neatly aimed at the survivor. Also, thereâs a societal expectation of a survivor.
Also if the one being prosecuted has enough money, they can hire a vicious lawyer and private investigator to stalk the victim online and IRL to get any possible damaging info that will make them less sympathetic
How so
Yes, many courts are very defendant friendly, or abuser friendly (like here in Massachusetts).The abuser has the right to face their accuset in court, even if it is a child, and it is on the accuser & their team to find enough evidence against the defendant.
I usually do not read memoirs but I'm def gonna pick up Know my Name the strength tht this woman possesses is absolutely mind blowing
Her writing is amazing!!
Yesss!!!! Definitely do!
I read Jennette McCurdyâs book and I was blown away. The book is good, but itâs always surprising to learn what people are going through while living such a public life.
A book I recommend is Light From Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki. There are doughnuts, LGBTQIA+ characters, and a space captain. Beyond that, itâs written in a way that is almost lyrical in parts and the story is so beautiful.
Ty for the rec!
Ooo yes I second this rec! I love how it is both sci-fi and fantasy. Most books just stick to one or the other, but you've got aliens AND demon deals here lol
Educated by Tara Westover is the book that got me back into reading back in 2019. I finished IGMMD today and I had not realized how similar they are
it is pretty surprising how similar they are!!
Itâs so sad that Jeanette and so many other child actors who had to deal with same things as Jeanette.
But Iâm glad she is doing better now. An I hope she makes a lot of money.
Child actors need to be protected!
another book that people who loved âIâm Glad my Mum Diedâ may like is âNo Matter Our Wreckageâ by Gemma Carey - written by an Australian woman, it follows her journey of healing following being groomed and SAâd as a child by a family friend and finding out her mother, now dying of cancer, knew what was happening to her the entire time. Really impactful and introduced me to the concept of âunforgivingâ
Omg I've never heard of this, it sounds heartbreaking
@@withcindy I can absolutely confirm itâs gut-wrenching. i said MANY tears listening to the audiobook while stuck in traffic lol
Memoirs are one of my favorite types of book, and Iâm glad people are becoming interested in this genre (and reading in general)! I second the recommendation for Maid, The Glass Castle, and In the Dream House. Also want to recommend Hunger by Roxane Gay, Womenâs Work by Megan K. Stack, and Brave Girl Eating (CW for eating disorders) by Harriet Brown.
Oooh thank u for the recs!!
It's been a while since I've read memoirs, but one of my favorite memoirs of all time is Falling Leaves by Adeline Yen Mah. It also deals with dynamics in abuse, and a lot of the writing is poetic at times!
Thanks for the rec!
I really want to read Jennete's book. I used to watch iCarly and Sam & Cat a lot, especially Sam & Cat and I literally had no idea what she had gone through. I enjoy reading memoirs but unfortunately I haven't read a lot, so thank you Cindy for these recommedations.
It's so good!
anytime i get a notification that you posted, the hugest smile lights up my face đ
Aww I'm glad đ„°
this is exactly the video i needed! jennette mccurdyâs memoir was the first non-fiction memoir i have ever read (having stuck to fiction) so i am excited to pick up some of these recommendations đ„°
Yay! What did you think of her book?
@@withcindy i couldnât put it down, it was a one sitting read - there was something about how vulnerable she was that completely sucks a reader in!
Not a book (although you can read the original script online), but, _Honey Boy_ is also very similar to McCurdy's experiences: it's a fictionalized version of Shia LaBeouf's childhood while he was on _Even Stevens_ and the main focus is his complicated relationship with his alcoholic father (whom LaBeouf himself portrays).
the first memoir i ever read was Crying in H Mart, itâs similar to Jeannetteâs in that it deals with a daughter who has a complicated relationship with her mother who is dying of cancer, and feels very conflicted the weeks/days/months leading up to her death. i loved that book a lot
yes i was thinking the same!! i think a more positive view of mother/daughter relationship but similar in topic and powerful writing!
I read Jeannette McCurdys book and was so shocked that as I watched her grow up on my tv she was going thru so much behind the scenes. Also, I did read educated and that book blew me away and both books really taught two big lessons!
I just finished Jennette's book and, as someone who doesn't read a lot of memoirs, I really appreciate these recommendations. I read Know My Name because of your recommendation as well and it was one of my favorite reads from last year!
What did u think of jennettes book?
@@withcindy I really liked her writing and how candid it was, specially about the reality of her ED recovery. I knew about how terrible D*n Schn*ider was but I had no idea about everything else she lived through.
If you're looking for more queer memoirs, I can recommend: All Boys Aren't Blue, Punch Me Up To The Gods, Zami: A Different Spelling of My Name, and High Risk Homosexual.
thanks for this video! whole time i was reading jennette's book i was like "what am i going to do with my life after this." really wanted to shoutout jennette though, her ability to so effectively put the reader in her child's mind, and specifically the mind of a child being raised by narcissism, was so good that it honestly triggered my own memories of being raised by a narcissistic parent. kudos
Yeah I thought it was interesting she wrote everything in present tense so it was like we could live alongside her
i can't wait to read i'm glad my mom died because i've heard such great things about it! but yes!!! know my name is such a powerful memoir and i really think that everybody should read it!
know my name supremacy i know that's right
I have been trying to find memoirs to read so I am very delighted seeing this video. Thank you for this vid, Cindy!
Yay I hope you find one here that you like!
I'm Glad My Mom Died book deserves all the hype! And these are some great recs. I love The Glass Castle and liked Educated pretty well. Know My Name and In the Dream House are on my tbr.
You are one of the best people with actual book reviews! You are so eloquent, succinct, and always make me excited to read whatever book you are talking about!
thanks so much!! i hope you get to read know my name soon because i loooooved it
A memoir I was inspired to read after finishing Jenette's was The Opposite of Butterfly Hunting by Evanna Lynch. I absolutely loved it.
I'm a big fan of memoirs so while I haven't read Jennette's memoir, I have read Educated, The Glass Castle, Know My Name and In The Dream House. To me, The Glass Castle is essential memoir reading. She's not only a great writer but her story is so compelling and the way she tells it just fully immerses you in her story. I liked the other ones too, but The Glass Castle to me stands above.
your channel inspires me so much â€
yess!! i've been searching what to read as an equivalent to this amazing piece of literature
Thanks for reviewing these books, Cindy! It's really uplifting to see real life examples of hope and resilience and how these feelings conquer hardships and struggles in when life gets hard. These memoirs sound like great reads and something to turn my mood when I feel life is too much.
I was literally waiting for you to read this book!!!!!!!!! I'm so glad you liked it.Thanks for the recs đđđ
When I was in high school I was able to pick a memoir to read and I chose educated, it was one of the most interesting things to read. to see her become an educated woman starting so late and still getting into a good college and being able to break away from her toxic family was truly amazing.
Thank you for this video Cindy! I just bought Know My Name and I'm very interested to start reading it. I love your non-fiction videos so much. Have a great rest of the week
aaaaa i hope u enjoy know my name!! prepare for emotions!
I loved the Glass Castle. I wish that Jeannette Walls would have shared more of her current life because the ending felt almost like a cliffhanger to me.
That's how I feel about I'm glad my mom died too. I would have liked more introspection
I was one of the people who is not really a reader but I finished Jennette's book in two days. Mainly because of my attachment with her as well. I grew up watching her on Nickelodeon & hearing about what she has gone through hit me hard.
i hope she is happy and finds her healing!!
Even though I'm not really a memoirs girlie, I'm glad that Jennette's book is so accessible for people, and I'm so happy that she's getting all of this support for coming forward
New week, new Cindy video âšâšâš your thoughts are insightful, as always
Yay! Thank you!
I had a strong need for recommendations on memoirs/non fiction and Iâm never disappointed when it comes to Cindy.
yay!! maybe i will make another vid for memoirs i havent read yet but want to
Thanks so much for the recommendations Cindy! Love you!!!
love you too!!
i have started to love memoirs more than fiction books, mostly due to the writing styles and how personal they are and make me feel like I'm hearing it directly and being allowed into their world.
Jennette McCurdy pushed me back into reading, and im so thankful.I will be adding these books to my tbr!
Thank you so much for this recs! The first memoir I read was In the dream house, thanks to another one of your videos, and I loved it. Recently I read Jennette's book and I was looking for more within this genre. I found almost all of my favorite books thanks to your channel â„
I'm so glad! i hope you enjoy the other books :)
Thank u for doing this. I love memoirs and nonfiction books. So I love this videoâ€
The courage it takes each author to come forward with their story is breathtaking. Thank you for listing these. As a trauma therapist, I'll definitely read these and have some new suggestions for my clients. â€ïžâđ©č
Thank you for the work that you do â€ïž
Yeeey new vid ^^ đ„° thanks cindy for keeping me updated, i live under a rock đș
I gotchu!!
I'm Glad My Mom Died is high up my TBR. You praising it makes me even more excited to pick it up. I loved Know My Name. Talk about it a lot with friends as well.
the audiobook is really good too!
this was the video I needed! it was so heartbreaking to read what Jennette went through but Iâm glad sheâs doing better now. educated has been in my tbr list for years, tbh
hope u enjoy educated when u get to read it!!
I've already read and loved all the memoirs you recommended, except "Know My Name," I'm so excited to read it.
I read Know My Name thanks to your recommendation a year ago and I loved it. Most beautiful book ever, thanks for talking about it
so glad you loved it as much as i do!!
Thank you so much for this video! After not reading a book for years, I read this book in 2 days and loved it. I found your video after googling other books like this one!
Ur so welcome!!
iâve been waiting for this!!!
Hope u enjoy!
12:09 - this was almost a minute of constant chills, my god I need to read this book.
She has so many good quotes!!
I also love the memoir "Somebody's Daughter" by Ashley C Ford, its a very powerful memoir about family, individuality, and healing/forgiving
Glad to say I read three of these books already thanks to you memoirs are truly the best type of nonfiction
Ooo what did u think of them!
@@withcindy they were all excellent
YESSSS THANK YOU FOR THIS CINDY
You're welcome, I hope you enjoy đ
HELLOOOO WELCOME BACKK
Let's start this Monday off right
I listened to this one on audible, and it's narrated by Jennette herself. There was a moment during the narration where she started to cry and it really broke me đ© Her writing voice is so strong and clear and I hope she continues to publish books!
yes the audiobook made it even better!
Thank you for this!! I loved Jeanetteâs book this is perfect to continue reading more often :)
have fun reading!!
Loved Jeanette's memoir and I think The Glass Castle is a great recommendation. I want to pick up Educated, too! I'd also recommend Speak, Okinawa by Elizabeth Miki Brina.
i liked educated better than the glass castle so i hope you enjoy it too!
I loved her book and l'm so excited for these recommendations!!
im not really one for memoirs so i never would have read know my name if you didnt recommend it so highly and i loved it ! i also read in the dream house with my book club from your recommendation and it so far has been the most liked book weve read lol
I was waiting for you to talk about the book omg (ps: Cindy you are my free Therapy
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Your explanations were so thorough and amazing (and it was so damn nice to see you give positive reviews for books for a change), I'm about to buy the first three recs!
I hope u enjoy!! Who knew I could be positive for once LOL
@@withcindy To be fair, I only occasionally watch you so the best memories I have are of you trashing Throne of Glass and Ryan the feminist king. I think his name was Ryan...
I can't wait to read this book, I finally ordered it and it'll probably be at least a month or two until I get it because it's so incredibly back ordered
i hope you enjoy it when you get to read! the audiobook is also great
Deaf Utopia by Nyle DiMarco was another memoir I read earlier this month. I learned so much about the Deaf community from his book.
oooo thanks for the rec!
I've been hoping you'd talk about these books!
They're great!
Iâve heard great things about âEducatedâ. Thank you for the recommendation!
It was one of the first memoirs I've read and I really enjoyed it!
Ive never been able to get into memoirs because I end up being bored most of the time, but maybe I'm ready to read some of the ones you recommended. Also freeprints is so amazing like the quality for the price is astounding haha!
Iâve been preparing my autobiography/biography, saving documents and editing stuff since forever. Although forgetting things is a thorn in my path.
I've been doing the same! Not ready to write a memoir yet but anytime I remember something traumatic that happened in the past I write it down in my notes app in case I want to write about it someday
While I wait to get my hands on the book/audiobook from the library, I'm living for these reccs, and Know My Name is great. Truly hoping Jennette absolutely gets only the best of life and whatever she pursues next after everything she went through
i hope u get the audiobook first bc it's voiced by jennette and it's rly good!
Thanks for telling us about Know My Name. My mom and I have decided that we're going to read it together.
i hope you both enjoy it!
This is a great video. I wasn't planning on reading the Jennette McCurdy book but I think I might pick it up after watching your video. I've been unconsciously reading a lot of memoirs this year. I've read Educated, Know My Name and In the Dream House and I thought all three were fantastic.
i think you will like jennette's book then!! u can def tell she likes writing more than acting
Nice video about memoirsđđđđŒđ
CINDY!!! I was just thinking about the quote in Know My Name that makes me break down into tears every time I read it and then you started reading it. I literally cry every single time. I'm not even exaggerating.
I have to remind myself of that quote sometimes đ„ș
I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who loved this book so much, and to whom it means a lot to. Definitely not one I'll soon forget.
Love your videos and will consider this book( I'm not a big non-fiction reader). Love from Brazil!!!
I hope you enjoy them if you get to read them!
When you're honestly excited for the reccomendations, but you find out that you've already read every book đ
All of them are great tho, amazing recs
haha u must be an avid memoir reader!!
OMGGGG I'm so excited i love you greetings from chile girl
Hi hi!!
I listened to Know my Name for about a week straight on the bus to school and there was not a single day I didnât cry. I have a copy of Educated that Iâve been meaning to get around to too!
ugh know my name is really THAT girl!!!! i love that she narrated it herself too
I was hoping you would read this book ! Thanks for the review !
I'll talk more about it in my wrapup video!
Canât wait !
Just finished Jennette's memoir. In a post-book depression. Immediately picked up Educated. Thank you, Cindy.
I gotchu
I loved this book but man, it was so hard to get through at times. I also found the scenes with her mom dying of cancer in the hospital to be sort of triggering since I recently went through that with my mom dying of lung fibrosis (although her mother's behavior was way more reminiscent of my grandmother, esp concerning stories my mom told me).
As for memoir recs, two of my favorites are I Want to Be Where the Normal People Are by Rachel Bloom and Fun Home by Alison by Alison Bechdel. Bloom's memoir similarly deals with mental health issues, particularly OCD and shame spirals, and also made me feel seen as a former Weird Kid. Fun Home also deals with the subject trying to make sense of their fraught relationship with a parental figure after their death, and the musical adaptation is a gorgeous work of art.
Cheryl Strayed's Wild is another amazing memoir!! I met her and she was amazing
iâm soooo late on this even though i watched most of this video when it first came out but- know my name is the book thatâs moved me the most like, ever. i had to set it down multiple times to take a deep breath before continuing because it was so amazingly written
My partner doesn't read at all but was interested in this book and for the first time in our 5 years, we are reading a book together đ
I just finished reading Jeanette McCurdy's memoir! I really liked that it was short and sweet but hit all the beats it needed to. It was so nice to hear more about her friendship with Miranda Cosgrove because they really seemed to have supported each other through ups and downs.
Another memoir I recently read that I LOVED was Stephanie Foo's What My Bones Know which is a memoir about healing from Complex PTSD. It was so good I finished it in 2 days!
I have that on my tbr! And yes I'm so glad she developed a friendship with Miranda so that at least one positive thing came out from icarly đ„ș
i loved icarly so much when i was younger so seeing all the hype jennette's book is getting is making me so happy! i'm waiting for it to be available at my library and the waitlist is TREMENDOUS. (also was super happy that jennette and miranda have kept close and in good favor with each other. i don't think i could handle their friendship being all fake like other former castmates from childhood shows. knowing the cast of icarly thoroughly supports jennette makes me happy as well like when the reboot came out)
I knew the glass castle would be on this list! Such a good book! I really want to read Educated :)
You should! its better than the glass castle IMO
Iâve heard great things about Chanel Millerâs writing. I hope to read the memoir sometime.
I hope so too! It's my fave
Youâre glowing, girl !
Aw thank you! The beauty of natural light LOL
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I'm not at all a big non-fiction reader, particularly not a memoir reader. But, if you're like me and prefer reading fiction, I enthusiastically second Cindy's recommendation of In The Dream House. It's fantastic, and very much its own thing. It doesn't read like a typical memoir or biography non-fiction book at all.
God this book got me out of a very long reading slump (first book of the year), I was GRIPPED. Jeanette writes beautifully. She said in an interview sheâs working on writing more, I canât wait to see what else she comes out with
I got back into reading last year and read Know my name because you recommended it so strongly. I'm so happy I read it as it is hands down one of the most meaningful and well written books i've ever read and was such an emotional experience. I also enjoyed Jennette's I'm glad my mom died and though it isn't quite as good as the others i think Crying in H Mart is another good memoir about a mother daughter relationship. I'm going to bump educated to the top of my TBR as from what you've described I think I will really enjoy it.
it sounds like we have similar reading tastes so i def think u will enjoy educated!! but yes know my name is FANTASTIC
Iâd never read Chanel Millerâs letter and when you mentioned it I went to do it immediately and itâs broken me but itâs so beautiful to see sheâs better and is delivering this powerful message. you better believe Iâll read know my name
yessss her book is even better written than her victim impact statement letter tbh (which is already really good)