Mary Lambert - Not Ready To Die Yet
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- čas přidán 21. 05. 2020
- A few years ago, I was in upstate Michigan for a show. The airbnb I was staying in happened to have a piano, and as soon as I sat down, I felt like I was in a trance. I wrote this song in one sitting. There are some songs that live inside you for years and just need space to be born. I was inspired by Aracelis Girmay’s poem, “I’m Not Ready to Die Yet” from her collection, Kingdom Animalia. Interestingly, Aracelis Girmay was inspired by Joy Harjo’s poem of the same name, so this is a kind of creative nesting doll of not wanting to die.
Melissa Achten is a dear friend from many years ago, and is one of the most talented people I've ever met. I am so lucky to have her harp hands all over this song and on the rest of the album.
Most of this footage was filmed by Diane Garvey at the Grief Creature release show in Seattle. It was also shot at Jonah Cohen's house, Jeremy Cays' studio, and backstage at the Neptune. When I performed this song in Seattle, I was not prepared for how emotional it made me. How many times in my life have I wanted to die? How many times in my life have I tried to end it? And then, after all of the trauma and therapy and processing and writing and healing and crying, I get to emerge singing about my good heart? I get to close the door on this colossal hurt while being held by 800 people, including my mom & partner & friends? I get to sing myself well? What grace.
You can listen to the full album, buy merch, and check out my collection of poetry here:
www.marylambertsings.com
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Copyright (C) 2019 Not Ready to Die Yet.
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Her voice is one of the most calming sounds I've ever heard
Yes
She is my sis
WHAT
I totally agree!
As someone with bipolar disorder who is gay and never grew up either, I feel all of your music. It speaks to me in a way that few artists can. Thank you for being raw, vulnerable, and so unbelievably beautiful. Damn, you are magic.
Such a healing song. I was there at the Michigan show and met her. She is super sweet and kind. It was the first show I ever went to alone and it felt like a spiritual experience. Like all of us were singing back, hands to the sky, and all of our hearts were breaking enough so we could let healing in. It's like we all shared similar experiences and I saw so many people like me in the crowd. I made a few online friends. There was even a couple who got engaged at the meet and greet. Idk I just don't think I've ever felt so much love in a room full of strangers. It was magical and how she captures an audience is unbelievable. Her music has helped me through my darkest hours and I'm forever grateful. ♡
ive met her before too. such a pure amazing soul. her shows are just magical
Beautifully said. Thank you!
I live in Michigan and I really wish I had gotten to see her. I’m plus size and queer so she’s a big role model for me
Amazing voice, beautiful songs, very underrated artist.
I'm bipolar too. I've never had someone explain my illness like this. I just had chills the entire time. People try and help but nobody can understand the magnitude of this illness unless they've lived it themselves. I just discovered Mary yesterday!! I'm so glad I did. Thank you Mary!!
Her music touches my soul and lights a flame every time.
Oh Mary baby. I can’t believe I’ve only just found this song. I wish I could give you a massive hug and let you know how much this has helped me and other people out there. Xxx
My wife sent me this song. 10 months ago my heart Started to slow down and not recover, I spent a week in the hospital and a day, one room from ICU my heart rate dropped to 30 beats and wouldn’t recover. At this time I had been asleep from the moment I walked in the door not knowing anything. They saved my life by installing a Pacemaker that runs 72% I am now fighting high blood pressure in 180/114 range. I’m only 37yrs old and we are trying everything we can. This song has been my life for sometime now, we have videos of me passing out without control. Prior to all this I had not been myself for a few years. Thank you Mary Lambert your song has helped me understand.
Beautiful and necessary to hear 💜
I’m really sorry if you’re going through a hard time, you are so amazing and strong and you deserve to live and be happy. Talking to someone you love and trust about how you feel can really help, as can therapy and support groups.
@@beththevegetarianchef7940 Thank you for the message, I'm doing well, I just think the song has a beautiful and necessary message that everyone needs to hear, and I love the fact that it makes people reach out to others the same way you did because you never know when someone need to hear that :)
Couldn’t listen to the while thing. Too relatable. Too raw. Hurts too much. Brilliant, but... I just can’t... *;*
She (you, Mary) saved me by vocalizing my thoughts...and who knows how many others. I feel the lyrics of so many songs in my bones.
Tldr: thanks
This song gave me the strength to start the turning point of my life.I am so happy now .I realized that avoiding life makes me miserable.Now I am living life with faith not fear.Life is good guys let embrace it.
I have been putting off to listen to this song for almost a year. I am about to tear up.
Spoke to me in a million ways Thank you for saying what so many of us try to say in such a beautiful way.
"I don't think I deserve it." Fuck, that knocked the wind right out of me until I was gasping for air
Such a human emotional vulnerability expressed through such beautiful words and voice. Truly touched my soul. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Thank you for this. It touches my soul. This is my unsaid struggle in words and beautiful music. I share your pain.
Brought tears to my eyes!
Honestly balled my eyes out. This song is literally keeping me alive right now and letting me feel all of the feels. To have the gift of being able to express so much in a song and every song you sing Mary and creative is just something else, really something else xx
Absolutely beautiful, thank you, Mary Lambert for blessing us with your voice, song and beautiful presences 💚
Wow...one of the most emotional songs I've ever heard . This young lady's pain is so evident but she has true heart and talent . Amazing xx
How is it I am just NOW really discovering you? So many of your songs touch my soul and are just amazing and relatable. Thank you
I love your music
Ur beautiful voice singing ur lyrics from ur bipolar to mine & straight to my heart. u will never know how much ur words & voice help me...thank u! 🖤
im bipolar too and she helps me too... she is just magic.
Beckie D & The Poetry I’m so sorry u have bipolar too! 🖤
You are so so so talented.you are an absolute joy to listen to.
I was not prepared for the emotions this song brought up...thank you Mary...just...thank you
Who’s crying? Because I never do, yet this hit different.. This is beautiful
Her emotions in this and the song itself are so powerful. I have no words.
This is the song that I would listen now when I'm feeling down, cause you give me hope 💕
I can not thank this women enough for giving me so much hope through her music ♡
Listening to her music feels like therapy or talking to a friend. Just so much comfort
Amazing song! Thank you.
Mary, thank you for your voice and message of vulnerability and hope! ♥️🇧🇷
Gänsehaut pur. Fantastic voice
Thank you for sharing your talent with us. ❤️
Breathtaking every time She is lyrically Splended and chilling JUST YYYYYEEESSSS
From the very first time I heard Mary's voice, thanks to my daughter, I fell in love. That is a lot for me, because I am not into women singers much, but Mary has filled my heart with her voice. Thank you Mary.
Mary, you are fantastic, never stop singing.
i wish i could have made the trip because i’m sure that show was nothing short of amazing. seeing her live is like church
you always pluck the words from my mind. since i was 14. 6 years ago. your voice is needed here. this struck me in a powerful way
Thank you I have saved this for times I need to hear it and be reminded. 💕💕💕💕
Thank you for this Mary 💖 your voice is so powerful and I will never forget the way your Seattle pride concert made me feel. Please never stop singing
This song sings to all the times I let Bipolar Depression get to me. I thought I was the only one who felt like this; these intrusive shameful/guilty thoughts eating away. Mary keep giving those frissons (music chills) with your relatable truthful songs.
i feel the same. i hope things look up for you soon.
@@victoriar8284 You too
So beautiful, Mary!
Thank you dear Mary!
From another person with bipolar, thank you for making it OK to cry :)
You make crying an OK thing to do and you make embracing emotions safe!
So thank you, thank you, thank you for being our inspiration
~ Beckie D & The Poetry
Mary, you have saved my life! Your music, your words, your voice, your struggles....have literally saved my life! I love you!! This song is so beautiful and something I needed to hear! I’m not ready either! I hope I can see you live one day!
Thank you for this beautiful and soulful song. Just... thank you.
This is such a powerful song
This is such a beautiful song. Love you Mary!
Touch the heart.
I love you and your voice
Thank you Mary! This is so beautiful and hopeful! You are such an inspiration and you have an angelic voice ❤️
This is so beautiful. Thanks for being willing to be so vulnerable. It's what gives your work the essence of its humanity.
Beautiful 🥰
These sentiments are so pure and relatable. I love this ❤️
Incredible. Just incredible.
So beautiful, didn't even realize I had tears and needed a tissue until halfway through the song.
Such an amazing voice...❤
Wow 🖤
All I need to say is;
Beautiful... ⚘R*
This song was everything I didn't know I needed. Been a huge fan for years, and you have songs that can draw me out of a spiral of depression. Thank you for being such an amazing artist and so purely you.
Love this... so vulnerable and real xx
You are so talented and beautiful, in every sense. You’ve created such amazing masterpieces and provided so much comfort throughout the years
Loved so beautiful like Mary🤗
This is such a gift. Thank you
Thank you for sharing this 💕
Totally amazing.
Dissociation as a symptom of severe depression needs to be more talked about
If you'll excuse me...I'll be over here bawling
Absolutely beautiful and haunting!
You are so real! Love you
;-; literally love this song so much you. are. art. I love you ♡♡♡
so beautiful 💗
Gracias por compartirnos tu hermosa voz que le calma y me transmite mucha paz 💙
What an ICON
I felt this so deeply Mary. Thank you for sharing this with us. 💜
Oh WOW!!! This is powerful and amazing! Thank you for this from someone who has been to the edge and cheated death more than once. You are such an amazing artist and I'm always so moved by your music. Thank you for continuing to share it with the world! Big hugs and lots of love to whoever needs it, Kara
Thank you. Hugs and love to you as well! I hope you’re in a better place now. ❤️
@@fallenpoet6051thank you and yes, I'm doing much better than I've been in the past. I hope things are going good for you also! Sending out love and hugs to you and to anyone who needs it now!
Made me cry, thank you and bless you,dear !
This is so beautiful♥️
She is great.... ✌💜
Sending you so much love. I needed this.
How does this only have 58K views in 3 years? Creative accounting by anderson consulting?
I wanted to learn this song it's very well written
What a blessing this song and you are! And yes, to music healing our hearts - we are indeed graced by the music gods when a song so potent for our own salvation strikes like lightning
Just beautiful...❤❤❤ #NotReadyToDieYet
oh wow
Thank you, just thank you.
This is the siren's song I'm willing to jump for
I needed this tonight. Thank you.
Thank you for putting in the background about this song! I have missed you.
You young lady inspire the hell out of this old lady!!
Today could have been the day I could have just laid down. but the universe had other plans for me and i was lead to you.
Stay safe. 💛
This is beautiful 💙 I love your music and the podcast! Keep safe :)
Goosebumps..
I can home today after a very tough week, dad is in the middle of chemo, yada, yada...but this song lifted me up exactly when I needed it. Thank you for sharing your art and your voice and your hope.
My thoughts are with you and your father, friend. I hope you take care. ❤️
Ver y nice. Happy to be alive.
Man this is beautiful! Please tell me there's an album coming soon!
Oh God, this is how I feel during this coronavirus crisis. It's hard feeling this depressed.
What helps me is by realizing that there’s always someone better off then me, and worse off then me.
I’m disabled and have had to be in the hospital twice since covid to have my feeding tube changed. No visitors r allowed but since I have a medical service dog, I’m allowed one visitor as his caretaker. But it has to be the same person. I was so so down and depressed today until I started thinking about everyone else who isn’t allowed any visitors. I reminded myself of everyone who didn’t have a service dog to be their best friend. I also have other dogs and a kitty at home that I’ve been blessed with. Now, I get so down and depressed and being a person who has struggled with suicidal thoughts, self harm and anorexia, I’ve done all I can to think about others right now. So many families have been affected by others in their lives who got covid. Many didn’t survive.
Idk if this helps at all. If u need to talk with someone who understands, message me. It’s not easy.
@@guardiansanimalrescuestate7289 I don't know how to reply to that. That's a lot of heavy stuff you are going through and I feel for you. I feel as cold as ice right now. I'm living with my family but I'm really angry with all of them and I actually wish I was just alone. My 2 sisters are coming over tomorrow to have dinner and I feel like just shutting myself up in my room and not trying to be social. I know that might sound crazy, like I should be happy to have a family, but they've put me through some rough crap and I have all this unresolved anger. Sometimes there are no easy answers to things. I wish I could say something helpful to you and I just feel speechless. I try to tell myself that this time will pass.
Lynn Marie Anderson its okay to feel upset about your current situation even if u feel like other people have it worse. i hope things look up for you soon
Lynn Marie Anderson it will pass. Just keep reminding yourself that it will get batter. I think family situations can be so complicated. I wish I lived close to you and could just pick u up and get u out of that situation.
I do have 4 amazing kids, but never saw my family again after being taken away from my parents. So I do understand a bad family situation. And no, it’s not stupid to want to just be left alone. I’m thinking about u and let me know if I can help in any way.
You are beautiful as usual.💜💜
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU
I hope your all happy, healthy, safe, and successful now and in your future ❤️😁💗