Excellent story and I find a lot of parallels to my story. I am alone. It has been 2.5 years since I left my spouse by force involving the local sherriff. At any rate, I loathe drama. I'd rather be outside having a cigarette by myself than most activities. I used to play WoW and in my case, to excess. It was a healthy way to do something that limited my opportunity to get angry although when my team screwed up, I got angry but it wasn't a nearly-violent form of anger. Recently, my landlord just fucken laid into me and he threw me out for about 30 minutes before rescinding his decree that I leave. So my homeless status is in yoyo mode. To this day, I try my best to remain invisible but I want to expose myself. Not literally! I am also on gubment assistance. On top of my other diagnoses, I believe I have antisocial behavior. I have a conscience, I have never hurt anyone except for someone heavier than myself I had to take down and that wasn't fun. I made the costly error of saying I studied martial arts for somewhere in the rough vicinity of ten years. Anyway, I am impulsive, sometimes explosive, bold, and uninhibited...mostly during an episode but sometimes not. And this is so even with medication. Without meds, I get into arguments with cops.
Ya, I totally get where you are coming from. I have some similar issues. It can be hard to control my anger in certain situations especially when in an episode. I have never hurt anyone and never plan to and am a very non violent person, I just get angry and frustrated about things.
Thank you for your story Roy. I know things can get better for you and that bad patches will pass. I was suicidal at age 21 and have gone on to live a life which has only got better and better. There may still be struggles but on the whole, things are great. Love always wins at the end of the day and if you are able to see it, there is a lot of love in the world despite all the evil. Cupid’s channel is a wonderful example of how we are all there for one another with this illness. Although we might be separated living in different parts of the world and only connecting through the internet we are all united in love.
Hey Cupidd. It's me Roy. I've been alright I got to rehab last November still clean to this day. I stoppen most of my meds only have haldol and elvanse left I loost 25!llkg. I'm currently affected heavy by grief. My life long buddy and ex girlfriend died last februari. Zo it's hard but I'm gonna make her proud
Hey there Roy, I’m so sorry to hear about your friend and ex girlfriend. That would be devastating and can really send you through a spiral with schizophrenia. I hope you are staying safe. I’m glad to hear you are doing good, though. I’m sure you are already making her proud :)
Excellent story and I find a lot of parallels to my story. I am alone. It has been 2.5 years since I left my spouse by force involving the local sherriff. At any rate, I loathe drama. I'd rather be outside having a cigarette by myself than most activities. I used to play WoW and in my case, to excess. It was a healthy way to do something that limited my opportunity to get angry although when my team screwed up, I got angry but it wasn't a nearly-violent form of anger. Recently, my landlord just fucken laid into me and he threw me out for about 30 minutes before rescinding his decree that I leave. So my homeless status is in yoyo mode. To this day, I try my best to remain invisible but I want to expose myself. Not literally!
I am also on gubment assistance. On top of my other diagnoses, I believe I have antisocial behavior. I have a conscience, I have never hurt anyone except for someone heavier than myself I had to take down and that wasn't fun. I made the costly error of saying I studied martial arts for somewhere in the rough vicinity of ten years. Anyway, I am impulsive, sometimes explosive, bold, and uninhibited...mostly during an episode but sometimes not. And this is so even with medication. Without meds, I get into arguments with cops.
Ya, I totally get where you are coming from. I have some similar issues. It can be hard to control my anger in certain situations especially when in an episode. I have never hurt anyone and never plan to and am a very non violent person, I just get angry and frustrated about things.
@@TheeArtOfCupidChannel i have the means and the anger but not the anger. At least not today. KWIM?
Thank you for your story Roy. I know things can get better for you and that bad patches will pass. I was suicidal at age 21 and have gone on to live a life which has only got better and better. There may still be struggles but on the whole, things are great. Love always wins at the end of the day and if you are able to see it, there is a lot of love in the world despite all the evil. Cupid’s channel is a wonderful example of how we are all there for one another with this illness. Although we might be separated living in different parts of the world and only connecting through the internet we are all united in love.
Agreed :)
Hi. Its me roy. Thanks for the kind response. I wll keep keep my head up high
Hey Cupidd. It's me Roy. I've been alright I got to rehab last November still clean to this day. I stoppen most of my meds only have haldol and elvanse left I loost 25!llkg. I'm currently affected heavy by grief. My life long buddy and ex girlfriend died last februari. Zo it's hard but I'm gonna make her proud
Hey there Roy, I’m so sorry to hear about your friend and ex girlfriend. That would be devastating and can really send you through a spiral with schizophrenia. I hope you are staying safe. I’m glad to hear you are doing good, though. I’m sure you are already making her proud :)