Starting to confront old traumas | Weekly Vlog #4

Really nervous about uploading this one honestly. It's been a rough couple of weeks! My mental health journey is getting a bit more intense, which is to be expected. But it's undoubtedly scary.
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[@Treeeenah]

I’m not much of one for giving advice, but gosh I’m a darn good listener!
More than happy to be that virtual ear on the other side of the camera if thats what works for you to unpack & sort through those feelings/memories in the moments that they arise 💕

[@MaiKayxo]

I can't thank you enough for that! I was so surprised how much this helped me connect with memories and feelings that seemed so distant for a loooooong time. I so appreciate you for listening to this random stranger on the internet! 💜

[@IzzyMarie]

I can't have a typical 9-5 due to severe anxiety, and I can speak from experience that Uber Eats/Doordash/Rover and other gig apps have gotten me out of the house and feeling better. I'm so glad you're considering starting them! You don't have to have full on conversations with people, but you get that social interaction. Thank you for letting us in and keeping us updated on things. You're amazing!

[@MaiKayxo]

AHHH I just gotta push myself over the anxiety hump and give it a solid try!! Thank you for the reassurance! I’ll get there I know it… I’m not giving up but definitely trying to be gentle with myself. I think it’ll help in the long run. And thank you so much for constantly cheering me on!! 😭😭💜

[@RachelH366]

I can relate so hard. My number one biggest fear is turning into my dad. He has caused me a lot of trauma and anxiety as well because he has anger issues which he always took out on me growing up. But I also find myself when I’m super anxious having trouble controlling my anger and it’s scaring me. I have kept myself up at night so many times just terrified of being just like him. It’s scary. And I’m glad you said what you said it helped me not feel alone

[@MaiKayxo]

I’m so glad I could help you feel less alone. It’s crazy how much we suffer alone… it makes me really sad. Connection is so important! So thank you for sharing with me and allowing me to connect with you as well 💕 I totally understand your pain with regards to the fear of being like him. I have nightmares about it often. I wake up sobbing in the middle of the night sometimes from them. It’s hard man. I hope you’re getting support, and I’d definitely encourage you to try therapy if you haven’t already. It’s the only thing giving me hope of change at this point, and that’s worth every penny to me

[@TheGlowingFairy]

Everyone deserves to have their pain acknowledged

[@MaiKayxo]

Thank you so much for the encouragement! It’s really tough but I know it’ll be worth it in the end. I’m so ready to dismantle the prison in my brain that he built!! 👊🏻

[@Nanners009]

I’ve missed you 🤗🤗🤗

[@MaiKayxo]

Thank you for sticking around!! 💜