exposure diaries ep.1 ïŒ the world is scary
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 6. 05. 2023
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thanks for watching my first exposure therapy / social anxiety challenge video!! it was a really hard week, but i am determined to overcome this. I hope this was helpful for anyone struggling with C-PTSD, PTSD, agoraphobia etc or just anyone who can't leave the house â„ïž
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‷ how old are you?
21 years old :)
‷ where are you from?
hampshire, uk đ
‷ what do you film with?
canon g7x mark ii, canon M50 mark ii, and iPhone 13 pro
‷ what is your name / how do you say it?
my name is Roisin (RĂłisĂn) and it's pronounced Ro-Sheen, but i shorten it to Ro
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by Sonic Nothing - Nostalgic Romance - thmatc.co/?l=195ABCB0
by Naomi - Polaroids - thmatc.co/?l=D9FCDC1C
by Naomi - A Place Called Home - thmatc.co/?l=16449EA6
by Gil Wanders - Wishes - thmatc.co/?l=75E50531
by Carter Vail - A Fine Way to Close - thmatc.co/?l=B2CFD787
by Remil - Evening Tea - thmatc.co/?l=8D05BFE8
It's so wierd how proud you can feel of a stranger on the internet.
so lovely of you to say đ€
Love this comment it is so kind and true â€
Remember that safety is good until it keeps you trapped â„ïž I have full faith in you and everyone else on this journey!
Completely agree, you just have to find the right balance . I wish you the best đ
You said: "my anxiety has taken things about my past and spun it into anxiety about life" and this hit me so hard... I'm so grateful to hear someone else say that out loud, because I feel so isolated in that thought. Thank you Ro, you're doing incredible things.
sending so much love đ€
Hey there! When Ro said that bit, I felt it in my core too. I donât have cptsd but I have an irrational fear and this video really made me feel validated and like Iâm not crazy. So I just wanted to say, I see you, youâre not alone and it will get better. Lots of love đ€
I felt so emotional watching this. Seeing the fear in your eyes even when you were trying to act fine and hearing the quiver in your voice, we can clearly see how much of an impact this has on your life yet you are here being brave conquering it one step at a time and not only that you are sharing it with us all making us feel less alone. You. Are. Amazing. â€
you are lovely, thank you so much đ€
No fear is stupid, itâs made me feel incredibly proud of you seeing you challenge your thoughts. I think a lot of your followers understand how hard it is to go against your brain, especially when itâs shouting irrational things at you. You are amazing Ro! Youâll get there. Keep fighting
as a fellow cptsd sufferer I genuinely want to say a few years ago this was me, keep going angel
Omg this brings me so much joy for you. Traveling is my dream but currently feels like I'll never be able to
thank you so much, hearing this is SO helpful
You are so brave for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us. I have similar issues and have felt like I was the only person dealing with this. Seeing you overcome and challenge yourself is inspiring for me to do the same! I appreciate your content so much â€
thank you so much!! you can do it - the more you do, the easier it gets xx
Have you considered self-defense training as well as getting a personal trainer for strength training? I've been in your position before but getting back into body building and self-defense has been EXTREMELY empowering. Knowing that I've got the strength, agility, and awarenesses to kick a$$ and run keeps me sane, grounded, and more confident to be out and about in public without wanting to stay shut inside my home/comfort zone. Praying for you and your journey to full freedom - mind, heart, body, and soul - you got this, Ro!đȘđŒđđ
This is what I want to do. I literally escaped my traumatic situations because of my martial arts training and running hobby. They also gave me so much joy.
Now I have chronic illnesses and the physical weakness is what makes me too afraid to leave the house
Dear Ro, I'm so so proud of you! I have PTSD as well, and I don't feel safe, like, at all, even when I'm alone in my bed with the door locked. I am in the process of getting a PTSD/ED/Autism service dog, does Bea help you with feeling a bit more safe, or not at all? I'm so sorry you feel this way, it's something no one should go through.. I hope you have an ok week, much love
hi lovely, thank you so much! iâm sorry things are so hard, i totally get it. yes bea makes me feel a lot calmer and safer - dogs are amazing đ€x
I feel you SO much†stay strong
Fellow c-ptsd sufferer here; I just wanted to say that you're doing so, so well (even if it may not feel like it at times). I know how hard it is when the body takes over, no matter how much we may think "rationally" that it should be "easy" to do certain things. You're challenging yourself, and you're incredibly strong for doing so. Sending warm online vibes your way, and thank you for sharing this!
as someone who also struggles with cptsd, i am so unbelievably proud of youâ€ïžâđ©čyouâre an inspiration!!
Iâve felt so alone it this feeling for so long. Seeing you talking about C-PTSD and agoraphobia is so helpful, youâve shown me Iâm not the only one - thank you for being so open about it. Sending love and support â€â€
I never noticed that I take for granted being able to listen to music and get so into it that I lose sight of my surroundings at home and just immerse myself in the melody/lyrics⊠I had no idea that could be something so anxiety inducing for someone, but the underlying reason of not being aware of your surroundings in that moment makes sense why it would be⊠I am so excited for when youâre able to lose yourself in music in the comfort of your own home. đ·đ
It's so cool to see more of your other daily life stuff. I'm so proud of you!
Im so proud of you! This journey is so hard and the fact you're doing it is really incredible. Youre gonna go so far â€
so so proud, i don't even have the words. chosing to make a change that is scary is in my opinion the bravest thing. ur such an inspiration !
this looks so hard to deal with and im so so proud of you for not giving up and trying your best! you are doing amazing
Thank you for sharing this†It makes me realise youâre even stronger than I thought! Also- youâre boyfriend is so supportive itâs lovely to see
Breaks my heart to see how much you are struggling. But I am equally excited for you to be making these changes. Much love and support to you â€
Forever proud of you ro, in time itâll get easier, sending all my love and wishing you happiness
I am so unbelievably proud of you!!! And I am so sure that this hard work will be worth it in the end! Thank you for being vulnerable on here as well
This actually made me cry a bit, I canât even express how incredibly proud I am of you. Youâve been so strong and have been through so much more than you deserve. I wish you the absolute best Ro, you have an amazing soul đ
U are so strong Ro, thank u sm for what ure doing for us and for yourself especially. Im so proud of u and thankful alsoâ€
I feel so proud of you! This is something I struggle so much with as well as an ED and I just think youâre amazing!
ro its amazing to see you grow and become more and more secure in yourself and in the world, from the beginnings of your ed recovery journey to you now still fghting to get your life back... you're an inspiration for me and many other people and i wish you all best always
so proud of you ro! i love you and your videos so much and can't thank you enough for all that you've helped me through
Nothing can stop you, just take your time đ€ so proud of you!
This was sooo interesting. You are so brave sharing this with us. Thank you, Ro.
Remember that you are so much stronger than you think! Youve lived through so much and survived everything!
just wanted to say that i relate SO much to many of the things you said and experienced in this video, but also want to give you hope that it is possible for them to get easier and to be able to do these things! itâs not easy and not fun a lot of the time, but but i wanted to say that i have been in a very similar place to where you are, and want to share that i am now in a MUCH better place, and it is possible for you to get there too. happy to talk about it more if you ever need but youâre doing so amazing!
Small steps are better than no steps. Every achievement is a big win.
thank you :)
24:04 "It's so true that it gets easier the more you do it. Which is annoying" - I felt you on that. It IS annoying to do the scary stuff over and over again! I'll take this video as an inspiration, though. Thank you! đȘđ
So proud of you! You're incredibly strong, you're a big inspiration â€
I just wanted to thank you Roâ€you are such a big Safe Place for me and your Recovery videos help so much â€
You rock!! Youre braver than most for confronting you fears and doing things that make you feel anxious because its for the best. You can do anything
I am so incredibly proud of you Ro, you did amazing!!! I canât begin to imagine how difficult everything must be but you smashed your challenges!!! X
You got this girl! Every day will get better and better
I'm feeling for your struggles. It's SO amazing how you work towards change by challenging yourself in this way to break the cycle. Many would avoid the fears. Great job! Also, props to your boyfriend for his awesome support. You're a good man Brandon! Thumbs up to you both.
A tip from someone with severe anxiety and trauma from abuse, try not to think of doing something new or scary as this big thing you will have to do over and over and that it will never get easier. I try to put all my energy into thinking of it as a one-time thing. I find that when I do something once, a lot of the fear and uncertainty becomes a bit easier to deal with. Trust me I know how hard it is. I'm on disability benefits and I have a very very small life. It's all about expanding your circle of manageable tasks and activities. You've got this!
Goodluckk with the therapy, im sure youâve already been doing amazing, keep going, you can do it !! (:
Also needed thiss, currently revising for a levels and have a lackk of motivation tbh
Hope everyones having a good dayy
I can really relate to all of this.. it breaks my heart. But I'm so so so proud of you Ro!
I am so happy you are sharing this journey with us! Thank you for your venerability
Also wanted to say you're one of the bravest people I [internet] know! The amount of persistence, determination, and sheer will power you've been exercising over each and every challenge in your life the last couple years is so inspiring!
Wow, it is incredible to watch you be resilient and fight for the better life that you know is possible. You are doing great! I never thought about how your fear could have been "stupid," only how I was proud of you for facing it. THAT is our true character, not who we are when we're unwell but how we fight to get better.
youre giving me so much courage with this series ro
I'm so so so incredibly proud of you! Some steps may seem small, but they aren't. These are huge steps. Fighting the 'small' fears will help you conquer the big ones. You're doing truly great, Ro.
I am also fighting cptsd and anorexia. Last week has been very hard. Thank you for inspiring me again
You are so strong Ro. You have pulled yourself out of such a hard place and have been so brave to make your recovery journey public, itâs helping so many people, thank you xx
Itâs so comforting seeing someone else with similar struggles and seeing you so bravely challenge it makes me feel capable to try and do the sameđ„șđđ» Thank you
I relate so much to this video.
I'm also collecting evidence of the real world vs my overly anxious paranoid brain and the stories it's created, it's hard work but you're doing amazing! So proud of you â€
Not only do I feel so so proud of you Ro, this was the best representation of the reality of ptsd recovery Iâve ever seen online. Youâre doing more than you even know! So excited for you- the future is bright, I promiseâ€ïžâđ„
I am so proud of you. You are not silly for feeling those feelings. I used to feel a lot of similar things it took me a v long time to be able to do things on my own. Still working on the bigger even scarier things but I will get there eventually and so will you. Youâve got this! I believe in you! Xx
You're doing great Ro! The trauma brain is so interesting, sometimes irrational but a lot of it makes complete sense(?!). But you got this and you challenged your trauma brain so well!
I'm so proud of you! I have done exposure therapy as well. Do not get discouraged with set backs. You've had a great first week!
was having a panic attack and put this on as distraction, it helped so so much!!! Thank you for being so open and posting this it helps me calm down enough to go to bed
Oh Ro, I am so so so proud of you. Seeing you go from panicked and shaky, to shyly smiling to yourself on that last walk was amazing!!
Hi Ro,
You are not alone! I have ptsd aswell and it is hell but we can get through it! Iâm sooo proud of you for all the challenges, I hope you can be proud of yourself too! I wish U a lot of strength for the next weeks. Sending you hugs 𫶠Youâve got this !
You should be so very proud of yourself. You are a very strong determind person who, whatever the details are, has obviously been through some really traumatic things. You will continue to free yourself of this, keep going. Im only a stranger on the internet but I for one, and im sure many many others, are with you.
You have been able to do some really difficult things ! Eating disorders are extremely hard and you did it ! You can do this , Iâm cheering for you ! Thank you for sharing.
You did so well, my heart welled up watching this đ one step at a time, Ro, and soon youâll be flying
We are all here for you Ro, even you can't see us in real life, we are all here for you. All the love in the world â€â€â€
The amount of respect I have for this woman. I have been watching your videos since the begging and you helped me so much with my own recovery. Every time I would have a hard time I would watch one of your videos and I wouldnât feel as alone in this. I hope through all the support from your community and your family as well you will get an extra portion of willpower. You can do this. And as you said: there is nothing to be ashamed of. You are not only helping yourself but so many others as well. You are the safe space for so many. And how amazing is that. It is okay that it is hard, it is okay that you feel sad about it being so hard. Feel the emotions and trust that the progress will be there.
I really can't wait till you can see yourself from a different view, and knowing how far you have come (just as your ed). I can't wait till that day, but I know that you will be there! Thank you Ro for being so honest with us by telling us how you are feeling
Brandon is such a gemâŠ.such a gem! Honestly, the world needs so many more Brandonâs. And Ro, AMAZING work! Super proud of you. You have been working so hard for the last couple years⊠what a true pleasure to witness and such an inspiration. So proud of youâ€
I'm so proud of you Ro!!! It's all about the babysteps. You're doing greatđ
'the more you do it the easier it gets' - im holding onto this, its so true and really motivates me to push myself out of my comfort zone
I've missed and have been thinking of you, Ro, and was hoping to see an update on your journey with this. You are courageous for sharing and for taking every single step. Your boyfriend sounds so loving and supportive. What a blessing. You beat anorexia, and that is such an incredible victory that continues to inspire me. You have great strength, Ro. Sending so much love to you. đđ»â€ïž
I canât thank you enough for your vulnerability and authenticity. You are INCREDIBLE and what you are doing just further demonstrates your strength. I see you and you help me and I KNOW you are helping so many other people just by being vulnerable. Even if we donât have the same struggles as you, seeing you push through your challenges gives me the strength to push through mine. Youâre incredible. Keep going. You can do it. I can do it. We all can do it!!
Hi Ro! as someone who originally started to watch your videos because of your anorexia recovery journey, its been very insightful to watch the few videos you've made about your ptsd. as someone who does not struggle with ptsd , I still think its so important to acknowledge other mental health disorders and especially for me, it allows me to gain more knowledge about various mental health issues in the hopes that I can use it to help people who need it , offer my support or just simply understand what people are going through. Hope all is well in the Mitchell household xx
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So so proud of you ro!†you've come so far since I first met you at rhodes and everyday you Inspire me by how incredibly brave and kind hearted and dedicated, down to earth you are â€
This gives me so much encouragement, I suffer with ptsd too and one of my triggers is doing a walk in a certain time of day I live on my own so after talking to a therapist I was able to use techniques to be able to get through it. Iâm not gonna lie, I was anxious the majority of it but I was proud of myself for doing it either way. It gives me reassurance that itâll get easier the more I do it†youâre doing amazing, itâs something that will take time and any baby steps you can do- the small are always the best achievement. One of my triggers was being in my own home. I was offered to stay at a parents house but I knew if I did that I wouldnât go back so I had to expose myself from the get go. Itâs getting easier and youâve got this!
I also struggle with PTSD and let me tell you what you're doing is huge! Facing our triggers feels awful because our brains are convinced we're in actual danger. It's no easy task and you're doing so well.
Hi Ro, I have been following you since almost the beginning of your channel. I know youre a stranger on the internet but I have been so proud of you and how hard you have worked. I have never had an ED but I DO have PTSD. Different fears but I completely understand what you are talking about with a lot of this. I have always thought you were inspiring and incredible but you've just proven to me that it possible to face our fears and survive even though it is REALLY hard. Thank you for being brave enough to share your struggles because you're helping a lot of people, myself included. You've given me the boost I really needed to get up and do some exposure therapy that I have been putting off. So thanks Ro. I hope that every day things get a little easier â€
Ro I am so proud and happy for you! You seem truly committed and making great strides towards independence. I already knew you were brave for fighting anorexia and now you're doing it again.
thank you for sharing your struggles†i am really grateful for your content because i struggle with social anxiety a lot so i can kinda relate to some of that fear of leaving the house alone. I think often times other people don't realise how much stress such "normal" things can cause someone and some days that's like super hard. And today i fought my fear again and that was super stressful but i want to be free again and do things.
wow you are such a warrior!!!! bravo!!! and ty sm for sharing this journey with us, and being vulnerable with us, you allow us to resonate with you and see and understand that it is possible to heel and take care of ourselves, ty!!!!!!
It seems so disabling I canât imagine how hard it is to go through this but step by step youâll get there â€
I have the same restrictions and the way you have been kind to yourself has made me realise I need to do that too. So many times I think my feelings of vulnerability are silly or weak when I should really take it serious and be kind to myself and what you said about trauma playing a part in fearing the world makes complete sense â€
hey I know this is a little out of context..but I have been watching your vids for a very long time and after a year I have returned back on this channel and all i want to say is that I am beyond mesmerised at how beautiful you have become and not just on the outside! I mean in everything, you have changed tremendously in the best way possible, you have that shine in your eyes and you seem so much happier and I am so happy for you and you should be very proud of yourself and how strong you are! Its insane seeing you now, you are such an inspiration to me and many other people! ††††††â€
@RoMitchell as an really anxious and ocd person i understand your situation so much!! I really panicked about being alone when i was a teenager and this resonates with me so much!! You are the strongest,will powered person i know and i admire you so much. Been following you since your 1st ED video and iâm so freaking proud of you. You are a warrior and a badass. I admire and love you so much! Love from Argentina!
You're doing amazing! Keep going with it, step by step, your hard work will pay off over time! You should be very proud of yourself so far!
this is actually really cool to see the process of exposure therapy and see it working so quickly!
Ro!!! This video is amazing â€ïž I have PTSD too and struggled with similar fears! Exposure therapy has helped me a lot! By ordering take out youâre providing jobs for people and Iâm sure they are grateful for that! :-) Also, that order looked so well put together!! Youâre so strong, Iâm excited to see the rest of your journey âïžđ
Ro you are incredible, we are all so proud of you. Just take each day one at a time, but know you can do this.â€ïž
i know this must be so hard for you to speak about, but girl you have my utmost respect for your bravery and authenticity, weâre all so proud of you
Ro, thank you for sharing this. Iâm in recovery from anorexia and live with C-PTSD as well. My hyper-vigilance can be so limiting and Iâm constantly on alert for threats. Luckily Iâve been living with a dog who is very committed to my protection and that has helped me to feel a bit safe, though I still struggle. Seeing you bravely move through ED recovery and now beginning the process of trauma recovery is everything. Ive struggled to make progress in recovery because of my PTSD and body fears and you give me hope I can and will heal fully- it just takes time and consideration for the nervous system to calm. Brilliant job, Ro!
Hi Ro Iâve been watching your videos for a couple of years now and I just wanna say how proud I am of you for how far youâve come you are my most favourite CZcamsr have a lovely day xx
ahhh thanks so much, you are so kind !! đ€
Keep going Ro, you are doing well. I suffer with anxiety and other health problems. My dad always says mind over matter, but I know it doesn't always work. I do my best to stay strong and keep going .
Literally rooting and cheering you on, so proud of you!đđđ
This will be so worth it! Iâm proud of you and keep going, you have already accomplished so much since starting your channel â€
thank you!â€ïž
I'm so so so proud of you
hi ro iâm not sure if youâll see this but iâve been having a not very nice couple of weeks and your videos have made me feel so safe, validated and understood during this rough patch. from the bottom of my heart, thankyou.
you're so brave for doing this and i know how real the fear can be, like you genuinely believe the terrible thing will happen even though part of you knows logically it's so so unlikely. so it makes sense how scared and anxious you get because to you you're risking your life. anyone would feel anxious in that situation. but it'll get easier and you're doing amazingly even just trying let alone carrying through and doing the exposures!! also similar to what you said about probable vs possible, i get reminded in therapy that nothing is risk free but you've got to live anyway. i know the risk of NOT doing the exposure is worse because it's detrimental to my mental and overall health. i think with CPTSD, and OCD too, a 0.0001% chance feels like a 99% chance and that's terrifying to live with, but you do the exposure and response prevention and eventually you start feeling safer and freer. anyway thank you for this video and you should be so so proud of yourself đđ
Ro - this video really gets to me. I'm in therapy for my phobia of blood, and I really really relate to how stupid we feel when our fears aren't "rational". My brain constantly tells me how stupid and overdramatic I am for reacting to the things I am scared of, but the only thing irrational about that is my own brain telling me I'm stupid or weak or overdramtic. I am none of those things, I am just scared. For whatever reason (or with no reason at all) we're scared of something, and the only thing we are is brave. Because we're fighting it. And it doesn't matter how you react when doing exposure, because if you do it then it's gonna lead to somewhere. It's all about keep doing it however scary it feels, and trust that one day it won't feel this way anymore. One day it'll be okay, if you just keep being exactly as brave as you are.
In case no one told you today, you are doing so well and it is so inspiring to hear that you're fighting your fear. "I am none of those things, I am just scared" is so profound and perfectly captures it. You are brave and deserve to feel free from your fear and your brain being mean to you
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I work with patients on exposure therapy at Camhs and this is so important, you are doing so well Ro xxx
Wow, I thought i was the only one who had the same thoughts that you have đ I can relate so closely to you, without knowing your trauma - just the thoughts you have about day to day life and basically fearing for your life every second of every day. I could go on and on, even the thing about answering the door - I am the exact same. WowâŠIâm justâŠwell for one, sad that you are living that way because I know how you feel. But two, I feel so much more normal knowing someone else goes through this. I am so happy youâre taking the right steps and finding that light! X
We're all so proud of you, you're amazing, keep going!!
I donât have ptsd (at least I donât think so) but I can relate to this because this is similar to my gen/social anxiety and my own struggles. Seeing you feel the fear but do it anywaysâŠinspires me to do the same. Thank you, Ro.
Iâm so so proud and happy that youâre being open about this on CZcams - Iâve never seen anyone else do it before and itâs so helpful! I sent it to my friend who has autism and struggles with C - PTSD and agoraphobia and he really enjoyed it, however he did say that he found it a bit fast at points. I was wondering whether maybe you could take us real time on your walks and explain how youâre feeling in the moment? So we can better understand what you are going through. Not a criticism just an idea. Love you lots Ro and so proud of you. Keep going! đđ
I have PTSD from so really a awful things that happened to me when I was younger and developed crippling paranoia and anxiety. And when I started walking and running on my own again something that really helped me still being alert and observant but focusing that energy on my surroundings like identifying 3-5 different things I observed on my walks and runs and repeating them to myself when my paranoid thoughts would become increasingly invasive. I doubt it would work for everyone but it helped me a bit. I also wanted to just say you are doing great and I just know you will overcome this you have done so many hard things already and helped to many people.
I'm so proud of you, Ro â€â€ When that segment of the video where you sat through the song all on your own came on, I wanted to reach out through the screen and give you a hug, but look at you!! You did it all by yourself!! It starts in small steps :) :) Wishing you all the love and strength, you can do it, Ro. If anyone can, it's you. â€â€