my depression is ruining me - Part 1 -
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- čas přidán 10. 05. 2024
- hello. I hope this video reaches some people. I needed to shed some light on some of the things I've been going through since moving to another part of the country.
I suffer from depression. Annnnnd it's only getting worse.
I need to tell the world that I'm not okay for some reason, and I hope people can relate and form a connection with some of my thoughts and feelings. I love to talk, so if this is too long, oh well I couldn't help it lol.
if you'd like to see more of this, please let me know in the comments and I'll specifically answer any questions or reply to anyone and everyone I possibly can.
from one person to another, I truly hope we can all get through this. love
XOXO
warlocked
#depression
#anxiety
#truestory - Hry
So sorry about your situation and the huge loss you had.
I do want to say, in my experience it does not matter how successful you may be and that you may have access to helpful resources. This is still a problem of a collection of experiences that are still personal to you and your mind. It does sound like you do have a fair share of serious concerns from your close circle of friends and family related to health. You've gone through a lot as it is, and is still on going, so do not feel like you should be feeling that everything is fine and dandy. You have a lot of outside forces working against you. So it's completely ok for you to feel the way you do, don't try to invalidate your feelings because other people may be able to cope with similar situations. You are still you.
Not sure how much you may relate to what I'm about to say but it does seem like the world today does not allow for us to truly enjoy life. As if we are in this constant state of judgement and that we need to be productive. This is super problematic, we can't always be giving our 110%, and when we do reach a down slope, we feeling like we are not worthy to have those emotions and that's not ok to be sick or even have some rest. We then are often compared with the situation of others to "make ourselves feel better". Ultimately is all about us and our situation, our perception of the world and state of mind we may have fallen into.
While being aware is the first step and wanting to get better is the next, the journey still needs to be started and followed, and it's unique to each of us. And let yourself yake the time to accept this and start healing, I know this easier said than done. Ket yourself have the time to think, to feel, to reflect. This is why you are amoing these videos, for YOURSELF. While it may be helpful for others to relate and rally with your situation, do not forget this is for you first.
Do I know what the solution to the problem is? Hell no, who does? Most of us don't even know why we are here to be honest. We can all pretend we may have a hint, but we honestly don't.
I can just make it easy and tell you to do the things that make you happy and move on. To block negativity and go on with your world, but I know it's not a viable thing to do, we are not all the same. Our struggles and needs are vastly different.
As you, I am tired of this constant talk and reminder of being at our best and to snap out of it and put in the work. We need rest, we need support, we need a break from all this BS and for people to just be heartfelt without pretending to care yet not helping.
Not all of us get to have someone as verbally and morally supportive, we may get financial support, I'd say take what you can from the help that people offer. You are definitely not abusing their trust, they are willing to help with what they can so it's ok to take it. There may be a time where you will be able to give it back and not necessarily in yhe same form or intensity.
This journey is something we figure out as we go. Harder for some of us. I can't say I have, and I am also struggling more than ever, but I have enough anxiety and spiraling thoughts to allow more judgement to affect me. I don't know we eventually grow tired of this some do break, just a harsh wolrd out there with some very wonderful people.
Honestly the hardest part of this is to finally accept that it is ok to be in a bad situation, it is ok to acknowledge we are in the shit, but more importantly to allow us to start taking, we tend to give in and put ourselves down so much. It is ok to be selfish, it is ok to look like we only take at times.
I am still working on this myself but it's so much clearer when seeing you and others struggling. It will come to us in some way or form, and it's us that will be the onrs taking that step. We are humans that are gravitating to more and more individualism due to all these checks and balances to keep us looking at the ground while we get constantly beaten down.
Don't know what your journey may look like or what steps you may need to take. I know personally I need to find a way to allow myself to live and feel and that others can think differently but taking their stupid and shallow advice and judgement has not done anything at all. I need to put a stance that I'm not ok and that I need to let myself heal. Thank you for sharing, I would say don't forget about yourself and your needs, you come first.
There's soooooooooooo much good advice in this, that I'm going to pin this and heart this so that everyone who comes in can read this and get involved in your ways of thinking. :)
"You come first."
I think it's only natural for us to want healing to come as soon as humanly possible. Sometimes the pain is far greater than what we anticipated or can even deal with in that very moment. Patience is such a hard trade to master, man.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
Thanks for sharing. I am 35 and my motivation for life is growing dim like the candle every passing day. I am not in the right place right now to talk about or share my issues with anyone else, but it was nice to sit and listen to your story. Thanks again.
You're so welcome, Chelsea. I'm really proud of you for acknowledging that you're not quite ready to talk about your issues because you know what? You're aware of your situation and your mental health, and now the next step is to in fact share your issues with someone else. You may not be ready to now, but by your words, it sounds like you *know* that sharing is the next step in line. I came rushing to the comments because I literally thought nobody would comment. That nobody would care. That could not, and I cannot stress this enough now that I realized this, be farther from reality. You fucking got this, you're a badass, you're worth love, and you're stronger than you might realize. I hope I see you in the comments again, because I've got so much left to share and so much left to give, and I know you do too!!!! :)
Cheers again, Chelsea.
I'm glad all the algorithms led me here.
You're beautiful and necessary. I'm glad you're here with us!
I've battled major depression for pretty much my whole life. I can relate to a lot lf this. This country is not meant for people with health problems. (we can't produce capital efficiently of course)
I don't believe for one moment that you are failing. You are succeeding at being human. That humanity is precious, your experiences are precious. Your memories, your connections, YOU are precious. Thank you for sharing your story, friend.
I want you to make sure you're staying hydrated, tho! That's important down South. Your mama, too!
This has to be one of the nicest things anyone has ever wrote about me. Thank you thank you thank you. I needed ever single word of this beautiful comment. I'm going to toast a cold glass of water to you, my friend :)
@@WarLocked1523 Stay around a while for those of us out here who need a toast!
@TheMolt1 “May you get all your wishes but one, so that you always have something to strive for!”
My dawg ! I've been dealing with depression for 13 years for pretty much the same reasons as you do. I can only strongly advice you to not take your depression to the public eye though. I did for two years after my mom passed away and i had a fallout with my old man. Everybody was nice and supportive at first but people will move on to other things and just leave you be in whatever mental state you're in, wether it's good or bad. It doesn't matter. All those emotions you thought you worked your way through will eventually return. Just keeping it real with you man. The world is a tough place to be in and the only way to really start to overcome the bullshit is to come to terms with yourself and work on yourself first. Ever since i started to steadily visit the gym and get outside of my safeplace, i can release all this built up tension. All this pain i would get from my gym sessions actually kinda replaces the pain i have inside. You know what i mean? You gotta find something or someone to fulfill the void in your heart.
It's been so long since we've communicated, bro. Thank you, I needed to hear this.
Getting out of my safe place has been the hardest fucking challenge of my life. Like, idk why I keep giving up on what I need to be focusing on. I keep repeating the same vicious cycle endlessly.
So... anyways. This is exactly why I uploaded this, to hear from the people. I'm glad it was you who first commented on my video.
I fuckin love you music, bro. It's been so long since I've heard your tunes or messaged you on Facebook. Whichhhhh I deleted unfortunately lol. Maybe that wasn't such a good idea. But social media was fucking with me dude, I had to just delete it and move on. Problem is, that hasn't happened yet. But I am trying to get better, and like I said in the video, fortunately it's been a relatively short amount of time since this all started. There's hope. The only way to go from here is up!
Love you, dude. Even though we've never met, I feel like I've always known you.
@@WarLocked1523 Been a long while fo sho, my man. But yo, i know it's tough to break out of this cycle. It's not something you can do with the snap of a finger and the depression vanishes into thin air. It's a slow and painful process. You'll be vulnerable and setback all the time. Remember this. Even if your world comes to a screeching halt, the universe doesn't and it moves on regardless of how we feel. So it's all about what you do with this limited time you have on this planet. We can stay in our safe havens forever or make our limited valuable time count until the universe has different plans for us.
Yeah man. I haven't been that active on Facebook either. It's probably for the better that you deleted because it's not a good type of distraction. If i wasn't connected to people all over through socials, i'd probably turn my back on it, too. I moved to IG because i do all my Hip Hop content over there. I post all kinds of dope shit. I made a whole epic HIPHOP50 series where i talked about numerous artists and shit. I actually managed to get Pharoahe Monch amd Gang Starr to follow me on IG because of that. As far as the music, luckily for you, i haven't dropped anything official, just some beats on Insta and that was it. I don't know, this whole music industry is more frustrating than anything.
@@WarLocked1523 Love is mutual. We've known each other for well over a decade and you always been mad cool and easy to talk to yo.
@corc1992 Bro I feel like the entire corporate industry is fucked. Music, art, gaming, movies, tech, etc, so much of it is completely ethically or morally compromised. There's so many good parts to those industries I've mentioned, but a lot of it feels soul less or like capitalism has corrupted so much it doesn't feel the same anymore.
Super dope that that Pharoe Monch and Gang Starr followed you, that's siiiiick man! Maybe I'll get back on IG and check your art back out, it's been too long since I've heard Timeless Beats :)
For me it's anxiety and OCD. I think most of us have SOMETHING, and most of us hide it.
Idk why we feel shame to show those people who care for us how we really feel... idk why I felt that way. Once I made this video, told my friends and family through text and call, I knew I'd made the right choice by coming out and telling everyone.
I don't think most of us have something, it's kind of downplaying serious issues
@@karolinanie5946 A parent dying, divorce, betrayal... Who can make it through a full life without being burned? While that's different from a DSM condition, it is "something".
Not sure how I stumbled upon this, but I feel for you. Many people in the same boat, just keep it to themselves. I appreciate you putting this out there, takes a lot of confidence and self awareness to do such a thing, and I can tell it helps you.
I guess I seem to resort to nature and creating when I have rough days and a busy mind.
I live in CO, up in high country and it's helped me tremendously to get out with all that has to offer up here. Again, speaking for me personally but, maybe a thought to keep around.
Fly fishing being one of the major sources of peace in my life. Not so much the fishing, but where a river will take you is the main healing source for me. The unknown, excitement, sound and beautiful surprises around every corner.
Also, as far as work, I run a handful of side businesses; firewood, snow shoveling, online store, even raise chickens and ducks and sell eggs to my community.
If you ever are or move back around CO, looking for some odd jobs, extra cash I could always use a hand with my side businesses.
Keeping a busy schedule helps me cope, heal and keep moving forward. You have a purpose, and worth in life. If you don't know it, you just haven't found it yet.
I hope you're having a better day, and better days to come my friend. 🙏🏻 ❤️
Man I miss Colorado 😪
That's something I've never ever considered... fishing is so peaceful. I'd probably be living closer to Parker or South metro Denver area... but if you were close by, and I could sit down and have a cup of coffee with you, I would so love to hear you out on your journey and what kind of work that would entail. It sounds... refreshing, to say the least
I'm trying hard to develop a busy schedule but so far, I have the very opposite of that. I've written down a big list of short term goals and long term goals... long term #1: get back to my home state :) Well, and maybe get my car fixed hahah
This video was recommended to me randomly. I wanted to say that as someone who has been struggling with severe depression since they were 12 (and might possibly be Bipolar/BPD), I can relate to how hard it is to live with it daily. Everyone thinks you're lazy and unmotivated because you actively choose to, when in reality, you're so burned out from trying to be someone that you're not and don't wanna live anymore. There's a big difference between feeling depressed and having depression, it's really hard to describe without feeling it yourself. I've been trying to take everything one step at a time to improve my lifestyle: eating healthier, exercising, and while they certainly help to an extent, it's only temporary until the thoughts come back. Depression doesn't just go away when you're occupied with something, it sits there and eats at you, waiting until you're all alone with your thoughts to strike. I wouldn't wish depression on my worst enemy, and I'm glad you're able to use your platform to talk about your problems when we can't. Keep your chin up bro, you deserve all the love you can get!
This might be the comment that makes me cry, haha. In a good way, don't get me wrong brother. Every single word you said I couldn't agree more with. Spot. On. "Feeling depressed, and *being* depressed." Damn... I never thought of those two things like that. There's a lot of implications there. It's like the calm before the storm, the tides moving out only for them to come devastatingly crashing back to shore when you thought everything was safe... You're also right about eating healthier, exercising, improving ourselves, etc. It is temporary. But you know what else is temporary? Our thoughts. They come and they go, they stay for awhile, and they leave for awhile. The only thing that keeps them from rotting our minds and souls, I believe at least, is the power we give over to those thoughts. That in and of itself leads to our actions following suit. I'm gonna keep my chin up despite the weathering and all the B.S life has thrown at me, and I hope you do too, man!!!
I know someone very close who has Bipolar, and that shit wreaked havoc on them for a decade or more before things finally became more under control. But control only gets us so far, consistency is the real key I think. We can't control everything, because failure is a constant variable. We keep going, over and over and over DESPITE that failure.
Take one day at a time! Making this video is a huge step. Start small, don't overwhelm yourself to "fix" everything overnight. I'm 35 and have been on a similar roller coaster myself with depression. CZcams didn't block this because it was in my recommended feed. Sharing your story here will connect you with even more people! Consider this video Day 1 of your comeback.
Dude even my sister said, "I can't wait to witness your comeback story." That made me elated to hear. It confirmed that I wasn't out of time, options, and especially life lines from the people I KNOW care about me. This just proves that. If random lovely people like yourself will root for me, and my family is too, it all makes bearing the burdens so much more bearable. It's a team effort I've now realized. I can't nor will I go this alone. Thank you, tkyle. I'll try to say this to myself everyday: just one day at a time!! :)
@@WarLocked1523 I really liked the book 'Atomic Habits' it helped me learn to slowly rebuild habits over time. His mantra is "1% better every day" and it really helped me!
I feel ya. Therapy has helped indirectly. But I’m a year into panic disorder and health anxiety. My family broke me out of a hospital when they put me in the ward. Glad I never got to an institution. Just keep rolling. It doesn’t cost anything to keep breathing. Find yourself and find out what makes you happy and strive for it. That’s the only thing thats kept me here.
I usually wouldn't watch a video like this, but something drew me to it and I don't regret giving it a watch. I've struggled with depression all of my life and can greatly empathize with you. While I may not know you, I know your suffering is real, and that life can be quite cruel and unfair. I don't think you're lazy, and I think grief and burnout are valid reasons to be struggling. You may feel like you are sponging off of your mom as you put it, but I would be inclined to think she would rather support you than see you suffer more. I think any loving mother wouldn't want their son to be beating themselves up when they are hurting as you are. I genuinely hope things get better for you, and then perhaps you'll be able to then support her in turn ❤
I've been mentally beating myself up for so long... I guess I shouldn't be as surprised as I am to read this confirmation, and I suppose I'm not as lazy as I think I am. When people are burnt out, grieving, overthinking, not sleeping well, not eating well, etc etc, it all snowballs into a massive problem if one doesn't mindfully moderate their thoughts. It becomes so bad, we start believing we're worthless, undeserving, hopelessly lost, and so many other nasty things that really couldn't be farther from the truth. I'm really glad you came here, watched the video and that you can relate to me in your own ways. It makes everything feel validated, and I hope you feel validated too.
I've talked to my mom many many times, today in fact, about the "sponging" I mentioned in the video. You know what she told me over and over again? The money wasn't an issue, the joblessness wasn't an issue, me not being college educated wasn't the issue, my WELL BEING was her most highest priority. Same with my sister, same with my friends, same with all you wonderful humans who came here to reassure me of that fact.
So I thank you, again and again, for everything you've said and for spending your time with me.
@@WarLocked1523 Thank you for taking the time to respond to me with such a thoughtful message. I get how depression can make us feel alone or like it's too hard to connect to others. You sharing your struggles and even replying here helped me to regain a bit of that lost connection to others I've personally been feeling, so again thank you. I'm glad to hear that you yourself were able to reach out to and connect with your mom and loved ones, and be reassured. You are loved, and your life has value regardless of how much you work or what you decide to do with your life. I am rooting for you!
@kiritalya2520 The feeling is 100 percent mutual. You're absolutely welcome for the detailed response, it's what I feel is best for people to get a very heartfelt response rather than a flat, short, generic one. Hope your day is solid today and still going forward 🙏
One day at a time friend. Honestly. Keep going. It's hard. Life is a struggle. Deep Depression is maybe the worst feeling a person can have. It's the worst I've ever felt.
The worst bit is- no one is coming to save you. It's up to you. Deep down, you know you will be fine. You just have to keep going. Keep going. Keep going. I'm out here battling man. Everyday.
"Thousands of years of sacrifice in our veins... and every generation must know its own suffering."
My depression is ruining me too. Mid 20s, was unemployed for about 8 months and finally found a part-time job that I’ve been at for about 6 weeks now. Still, I am as unhappy as ever and struggling to get by as a single person who has made hardly any friends since moving to my current city nearly 3 years ago now(!!).
The severity of my condition has really accelerated within the past few months. I feel like I’ve begun to notice a marked decline in my cognitive functioning which makes me truly concerned for my future. I’m not sure how I will ever be able to dig myself out of this mess if I no longer have the brain I once did.
It feels as if my mind has fallen into a fog and the thoughts and feelings which once circulated with a certain frenzy have been since replaced by a nonsensical static. It feels like I have been stripped of my internal monologue, and with it, am increasingly losing my ability to communicate myself to the world.
I feel you, man. Everyday is a struggle .. Sometimes it’s just easier to give up tbh.
But on a positive note, Doing small things like this is a huge step and very COURAGEOUS
I’m also agnostic. philosophy like stoicism has actually helped me tremendously:)
I hope you keep going . I hope you find fulfillment. I hope you find meaning in your life ❤
I feel like I need to meet more agnostic people like you!!! Aaaah!!
😊😊
Thank you for stopping by, I appreciate you saying that
Keep your head up and stay strong, one day at a time. You are NOT alone my friend. I come from a family that is very against medication and doesn’t believe in mental health issues. I went to a psychiatrist when I was 21, best decision I made for myself. and I was prescribed lexapro 20’s and it changed my life. I was able to get out of the deep hole I was in.
If you can do it, so can I :) Thank you for commenting my brother ❤
Prayers too you! ❤️ you are so loved, important and valued in this world keep on going 🙏🏻 you got this ♥️♥️
Realizing that I'm apart of this world, apart of the universe, keeps me believing that this world is a lot worse off without us. We've got this, Lauren! Thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment. I deeply appreciate you.
@@WarLocked1523 this is just a chapter in your story🙌🏻 you might not understand what God is doing right now. One day you will 🙌🏼🙏🏻❤️
Thank you for sharing this. I want you to know you are not alone. What you are up against is brutal, and there’s no easy solution.
If only we could Thanos snap and correct all of it hahah. :)
hope you keep posting this is very important topic love from brazil🖤
I will, thank you for your kindness ❤️ USA
From experiencing similar thoughts and experiences I can say that these things take time.
What got me trough the darkest time of my life were actually very simple things, which seemed unbelievable stupid and shallow at that state of mind ;
-Exercise
- Eat Healthy
- Zero policy on drugs and/or alcohol
- Extremely careful with medications that doctors tend to offer
Existential thoughts are pain in the ass, but they are just thoughts and do not necessarily reflect actual reality at all it is your logical brain trying to make sense of things that cannot be really solved with logic alone.
Take care!
Ps. your video just suddenly popped in my feed so hopefully you can get something out of my comment.
I've tried to quit cold turkey, annnnnnd I can safely say I've been unable to commit to a zero policy standpoint haha. But you know what? Sobriety is the reason all of this came flooding back the way that it did. Let me explain... I believe that since I spent much of my time, even before all these deaths of the people I loved, smoking and drinking was out of control as it was, even if I wasn't an alcoholic or a massive pot head, it still was very excessive. And maybe because of social conformity, peer pressure and just simply a means to stop feeling something, or start feeling something, cutting it off altogether made the extremely negative thoughts pour through like a ruptured dam. Where once I could numb and midigate minor symptoms, I could no longer do so with the sheer amount of darkness I couldn't control anymore.
Obviously that's a massive slippery slope, especially with drugs and booze. It's a huge problem in my family, so that kinda fucked me up a little bit in my 20's haha. I became a bit of a drinker and smoker and got so used to it. When I came out here to Louisiana, a couple months in I tried to quit drinking and smoking completely. But dropping these habits cold turkey is such a sharp departure than what our brain chemistry is craving like it's used to. So while I will say it is absolutely a priority of mine to quit both of these things, dropping them like a bad habit (pardon the expression) is kind impossible at the moment. But that's why I'm setting up these goals and taking smaller steps to conquer them. 2 drinks a week, then 1, and I may stumble and fall off the wagon, but I've got to keep trying.
As far as the medications, I spent my whole life not taking any medications, that by the time when I did start taking them, while also trying to quit drinking and smoking all at once, that my mind really betrayed me and my anxiety and stress seemed to come back even stronger than before. So I had to take a step back from the meds because I didn't enjoy how they made me feel dulled and slow. But you know what, all of this is a careful dance. A balancing act, at some point, time and consistency will help me achieve those 4 things you mentioned. I WILL be able to stay sober and perhaps with or without medication, get back to my old self that I loved so long ago. Anyways, I really do appreciate your comment, there's a lot to dissect and discuss with that. Thank you for stopping by, friend.
Thanks for sharing this Jeremy. I know how hard it is to come to terms with yourself about how bad things actually are. You are already taking a step forward by speaking about it, i think it helps others realize they're not alone and that it is ok to be vulnerable. I was given some pretty good advice from a friend that i hold dear to me and it may seem silly but it helps me not hate myself. Try saying three nice things about yourself out loud when you start feeling like you're nothing. It'll piss you off at first and may seem ridiculous but it helps me and it may help you. I also try to remind myself of what I'm grateful for. Of course family and friends but even the small things like the green onions wildly growing in the yard that just sprouted flowers lol it's little things that help me get out of a downwards spiral. The depression will come and go and it'll get to the point where it's unbearable, but knowing some tools to use to help you see some light is a blessing. A blessing you can also pass on to others. I love you man, stay strong.
I hadn't thought about saying three nice things about myself out loud before... it sounds so simple but again, fresh to my ears. What an amazing concept, thanks man :)
When my time out here in Lafayette is over, I AM coming back to Colorado. I miss you guys way too fuckin much.
But, I am coming out either this month or next, so I'll hit you up when I'm in town!!! We'll hang at your place and I can see your new crib! Again, I'll let you know asap when I'm coming back to visit.
Love you guys more than words will ever convey. Thank you Ryan ❤
Hey Jeremy, CZcams recommended your video to me this morning. I'm praying for you. It seems like doing CZcams videos + the therapy is helpful. I hope you keep doing both. I know many people who have improved their depression with a diet change and many are eating just meat (carnivore). Not pushing that on you, but just a thought. I did it as an elimination diet due to GI issues and wanting to improve some thyroid problems. I think exercise or doing a project (ie something for your mom around the house or outside) could help too because you'll be helping her and being more active. These types of things have helped me. I know you also mentioned exploring or looking into God or something along those lines - and I think that is key to having peace. He is with you. I hope things get better and I have a feeling this CZcams channel of yours is going to grow now and help a lot of people.🙏
As stated, I needed a way to reach people and try to help people, instead, over a dozen of you kind souls have come to my aid in a stranger's time of need.
These last 36 hours have been incredible because I've been reading all these pieces of advice, some of it I already knew how to do, it's the crippling severity of the depression that haults most of my behaviors. That's the key issue I have to work on first I believe. Therapy, medication, then I think the secondary work begins with mindfulness and staying present. I can't keep the past from haunting me anymore than it already has, and I can't keep worrying and fearing the future as if I'm already fucked or that it's too late for me or what have you.
Anyways, sound advice and I really appreciate you taking the time and writing to me. Xoxo
@@WarLocked1523 Thanks for the reply, Jeremy. You're incredibly brave for creating this video and I know it will help people, and I hope it continues to help you too. Depression is no joke and some people have no compassion or understanding. When my son was pretty young he had crippling depression that was so severe and I didn't even know about it for the longest time. It was not his fault and it's not your fault. I do believe for some people that it's a chemical imbalance in combination with other life factors. There's a book called Nutrient Power, by William Walsh, and there's a lot of content written about it online too (ie: you can look up "undermethylation"). Walsh is a scientist and doctor with many years of experience and he's looked at thousands of labs/bloodwork of patients over the years and he says there are specific imbalances causing specific types of depression. He says there are 6 biotypes of depression - and in his book he talks about that and using supplements to treat it. There are labs that can be done to check for it. I know you're already getting medication, but I still wanted to share this as it helped my family so much. I thanked Dr. Walsh in person in Illinois years ago. :) I know what it's like to let the past haunt you. I think it takes time to let go of it. It's not easy for me either. I hope this is a better week ahead...and I just subscribed! :)
@@LifeDIY*Frantically starts looking at Amazon for "Nutrient Power" by William Walsh* 😅
I'm also going to screenshot your comment and talk to my primary care doctor about this. And my therapist. This advice is REALLY interesting to me because I've been told, and from what little I've read, what I'm dealing with comes from a lot of systemic causes and imbalances chemically in the brain. And from what you're describing, it sounds like I might want to check out getting some bloodworm done or at the very least, checking out that book you recommended or researching more on the webs.
Thank you for your time, support and the subscribe!!!!! That's so awesome! I'm gonna record another one of these either tonight when I'm about to go to bed, or tomorrow once I'm done house sitting for my sis.
Also, I really hope whatever your son is dealing with is manageable, or better yet, he's living his best life and he's found some ways to help cope with his health. Much love XOXO
@@WarLocked1523 Nice! It's interesting because Dr. Walsh does training and teaches a lot of therapists, in addition to training regular doctors (he might have a list of docs on his site..I haven't been on there in a long time). The only issue is that many normal primary care doctors don't know about these things and may discourage you from it. So, be prepared for that! I highly highly recommend asking for a referral to an Integrative Health Doctor. Many normal hospital chains will have these types of doctors and they're the ones who will most likely help you with these specialized tests and lots of specialized labs and bloodwork. I'm working with one now and she's amazing. Sometimes you have to pay out of pocket for certain labs. I've paid for some myself through DHAlabs online - you pay and they put the order in, then you go to a labcorp or quest location to get the labs done, and the results are emailed to you. The DHAlabs site offers some special lab panels created for people who are following the Walsh methods. Recently I did a test called DUTCH Complete and it was a full panel on my hormones, cortisol (stress hormone), plus some neurotransmitters. The test was done at home and my integrative health doctor interpreted and helped me with supplements afterwards. Let me know if you have any questions! And, my son is doing so much better than years back - thanks! :) And, I can't wait to see your video later!
Magnesium Glycinate changed my life. My depression, anxiety, sadness, despair wass because I was magnesium deficient. Doing further research apparently the vast majority of people are magnesium deficient. Something to look into
Just googled it, fascinating I've never looked that up... lower blood sugar, lower blood pressure, help with treating anxiety and sleeplessness.. evidently.
Dang, that might be something I talk to me PC doctor about!! Thanks a bunch!!!
It’s okay man I send u all my success love u.
I’m in a mental health rehab ward as I type this. The thing with depression is it’s all in our individual heads. The world outside of our current perception of it is quite different and it still rolls on as it always has, there is still the same joy/ magic / happiness to be had that we once had as kids or teens. It’s just our mental state is out of balance and the depression / anxiety lies to us long enough until we believe it. Learning to challenge our thoughts with proper CBT techniques is a great tool, as is relevant medication and talk therapy. It’s not an overnight fix and it feels like the time passing is a waste of my life but maybe there is a lesson to be learnt and passed on in the end. “God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers”. Got tired of hearing that until I thought , “maybe I am stronger than I think I am, I am still here after all.” Imagine 5 years from now, you’re fully recovered from this, giving future teens and adults with a no hope outlook in their life a talk about your experience and how you too overcame it against your own mental odds. I’m tired of putting the work in, I’m over feeling like this, I miss the old me. But it’s not always going to be like this. When our brain is finally corrected, we can finally see the world in a more colourful light. I high recommend you booking yourself into a mental health rehab (not ward). Really helps
Head up brother you’re clearly very strong and I’m sure things will get better for you ❤️
Your confidence in me and compliment is something I won't forget. Thank you, thank you
@WarLocked1523 anytime man !
Shadow work (learning to leverage my "bad" tendencies) in healthy/beneficial ways seems to help me, sometimes. You seem to be VERY critical of yourself (don't ask me how I know, haha...), and I think you DESERVE to "hug the cactus" inside [inner realm] --> I don't know how people function in modern society, and I think finding MEANING is extremely challenging!
dude - write down small tiny goals to do each day and reach for them. make them easy and simple. (get up, brush teeth, make food, walk, eat right..) easy stuff. check them off each day and take it slow. you will get there..and you will feel better.
Grabbing my notebook now :)
You've got this! Don't worry about achievements to define your worth. So many people are in this boat and it sucks. The Furry fandom is always available to give you tons of emotional support and down to earth friends to help you with it. We're all just trying together
Too often I cling on to what haven't I accomplished rather than all the tough shit I've overcome, I feel like a lot of people not only doubt themselves, but give up believing in themselves entirely, you know?
Hey man! Please try to make the positive thoughts/feelings candle more bright by taking baby steps. You don’t have to do all things you mentioned at once in an extreme way.
Go out maybe for 5min a day at first and move you body just by walking. Increase as it helps. Maybe it won’t help as much. Maybe you could be a little crafty? That always helps me when I’m not feeling well.
Fun little DIY projects? Little drawings? Little framing of pictures? (I love frames and pictures) Maybe origami?
But don’t be hard on yourself.
You are not lazy, I know that it’s exhausting to do things even if they help when you’re depressed. I’ve been there myself.
But believe me, just take it mini step by mini step. Hugs!!
I like how you used the word crafty. I haven't been artsy or craftsy since high school lol. I'm actually writing goals down right now in my journal, so I'll add your suggestion to the top. "Take a walk!!!! Don't stay inside all day everyday!!!"
That's a big one for me, especially since I'm a gamer and I tend to just lock myself away and play Fallout New Vegas for hours on end haahaha.
Hugs right back to you, comrade xoxoxo
I promise I'll try to love myself more and beat down on myself much much much less. Thank you for your advice :)
This has less to do with your mental ilness and more of the inner turmoil you have. I see it in your eyes, and from the your responses you are not reacting well to your happenings. You seem passive, but you ARE sinking slowly. Get the S approach out of your head. If you consider yourself agnostic, imagine the blank end you seem to lean to. Start fasting (for spiritual, emotional reasons), learn different coping techniques while altering your diet and intrudcing supplements that help with mood and male health. Take every day slowly, learn to enjoy the small moments, from your tears, to the music that soothes you to sleep. Surround yourself with better people. Learn to lean unto something greater than you. I’m rooting for you.
Get medication immediately. A doctor is going to help to see life in a different way. Depression doesn’t go alone. I got it since 2015 and it’s diabolical. It’s a cruel condition. I suffer from anxiety long ago from college years. In 2015 I hit bottom. I stop functioning, I can’t eat and sleep. Loss a lot of weight, I felt dead already. Uneasy when I was sitting on the couch and uneasy standing up as well. Waking up in the morning was ugly. I felt like in a casket , I can’t stand the silent. Feeling isolated and so lonely. Please, I beg you to seek for a psychiatrist. I’m 52 and wishing you the best my son. I don’t wish this mental state even to my worse enemy. I keep telling my mom I preferred to have a missing finger. Depression is serious, many get tired in this battle and make terrible and unimaginable decisions to avoid the reality or misery . I learned that cause depression mostly is like you said, grieving and moving to another town or property. Moving too much is bad due to the instability. Financial worries, stress from college or work. Ruminating or going through about any problem like divorce, break ups, courts situations, datelines , health issues, enduring pain for a long time, boredom ,tiredness or something that change your life in a radical way can trigger depression too. I understand you perfectly, if moving back to Colorado helps, do it and don’t be afraid ok. I’m in a freaking island in the Caribbean and I hated it soo much that my depression got worse. I missed my kids , well, everything. Looking forward to move back to the states soon. You see, moving is not always a great decision. I adapted pretty well but I’m not happy at all where I’m now. Blessing for you kiddo. You are going to be ok. 🌺🦋🧚♂️
Did you watch the video? He said he's on medication already and has a therapist.
You're absolutely right. Moving was such a bad move for me personally, I'm glad you know exactly what I mean. I'll probably keep doing the wellbutrin and abilify, too. My therapist is in the process of getting an in patient psychiatrist to move into the new building they just constructed here in town. As we speak, people are moving furniture into my therapist's office haha. So they're will be a psychiatrist in the same building as my therapist, which fortunately for me, is only about 3 miles down the road from me, very close to my house. Whether I up the dosage, or downsize and slowly move back up, we'll see. We're still strategizing what methods we should take depending on how my condition proceeds.
I hope you get to see your kids and reunite with them back in the states, and I'm glad you were able to describe your dire situation in such great detail like I have. We are comrades in this fight, and I deeply thank you for your wisdom. I have a long way to go, and I'm glad someone who's been around the world more than I have can coach me on how to conquer this battle. So again, Karenchain9105, THANK YOU.
Medication they prescribe can be worse than the illness. Not to be taken lightly. I'm trying to get off Effxor and it has been a hell. These drugs can be a demon from hell for many.
@@kiritalya2520take it easy, I’m depressed as well. I heard the video at 3 am . This video is not for bullies or people with attitude. Please be empathic and respectful. Anyway, I understand his feelings like others here struggling. He can’t give up. He is trying Wellbutrin, it’s no working, so that’s means, he needs to keep trying until he finds the perfect match for his body and brain. It’s a complex process for many people. Some find right away the happy pill but others not and take an excruciating time.
@@WarLocked1523Thanks and you are welcome, darling. You are not alone, the world is hearing and supporting you. Remember, our life change a lot during the COVID pandemia as well. The Society and communities are not the same making our struggles more difficult. Stay around love ones , support is essential. Baby steps and be patient, you are going to be right again.
You're NOT alone -- Thanks for sharing; I needed this, too! ^_^
im in the same place especially 15:33.. we have everything, privilege ability.. and make nothing of it. it makes the self loathing worse
💯 You perfectly described one facet of my vicious cycle I was experiencing.
@@WarLocked1523 was experiencing? youre over it?
@@peteym5568I guess I should've said "am experiencing" because I still deal with it haha
Hey man I am sorry you are going thru this. I will tell you (even tho you mentioned it in the video and I'm sure it doesn't help much) but you are definitely not alone. I am 51 and possibly about to face homelessness for the first time in my life. I am scared shitless. I am a divorced dad of 3 wonderful boys who are my universe. They live with my exwife but I see them every weekend. They are the only reason I haven't checked out. I do work a full time job at a restaurant (go figure)and I can't seem to make ends meet no matter how hard I try. I suffer from anxiety and depression but it has gotten exponentially worse the past couple years. Both my parents are dead. My mom passed in 2014 and my dad died of covid in 2022. I am in recovery from drug addiction but I have slipped recently which compounds my depression/anxiety and I am literally fighting back tears as I type this. Don't get me wrong, my sons do bring me happiness and joy, but only when I see them. When they are not here I am lost amd I feel hopeless. They are still young (13,11, and 8). I have had quite a few relationships with women that ended badly. I do get along with my exwife however (I mean, I have to, she's the mother of my kids).I'm currently single and, like you mentioned in your video as well, I just don't feel like I am in the right headspace to be in a relationship right now. But that being said, I've never felt more alone in my life. I just want to feel some sense of security and not feel like I have to constantly dog paddle thru life. The threat of being homeless is very real and I hardly sleep at night anymore. I have to beleive things will get better. And, usually I am pretty good at staying positive during the day. It's at night, when I'm alone with my thoughts that I feel like I am falling into a void.
Talking about it is good
I’m still grieving my mum it’s horrible to deal with
clicked cause of the title SAME GIRL 😩😭
Hello i hope you are doing well ❤️
I wish u the best❤️i will pray for u
ITS GONNA BE FINE
You can watch haifa younis -whats our real purpose in life-
I hope you are doing well my brother
I love that you put "It's gonna be fine" in all caps haha. :) I thank you for stopping by, thank you for your love and support.
Isolation is the worst for me. The Wellbutrin is good for me but the other drug was awful like zombie awful. Listen, I have great hope for you. In this world there is a place for you and I will watch your videos and it has helped me.
We owe nothing to the universe, God or whatever is behind this existence. This life has some good moments, but the suffering we all have to endure means our dues are paid in full! Forget about women for awhile. Focus on finding a job you enjoy that covers all your needs. The help out there for mental health issues is surprisingly piss poor so dont waste too much time and money on that. Good luck brother!
Weekly therapy and posting this to CZcams has single-handedly been the best two things I've done in the past week. I just started therapy, I just started uploading again, and I just now have started the process of healing. I smiled all day today. Wanna know where I was 3 days in a row? Hyperventilating, crying and physically unable to sleep whatsoever. I slept for about 4 hours yesterday, and I slept for about 4 tonight. It wasn't much, but holy shit did those two nights with SOME SLEEP feel better than those last three days of shit combined haha. I've got some notes jotted down, and I've got all you lovely people in the comments to keep me motivated for today. I feel a lot better now that you all have stopped by. :)
i can relate to plenty of the things u say an i hate to be that (guy) but my only thing in life i feel that really had my back was Jesus tears fill my eyes as i say that cuz i know how tru it is for me sorry again hope the best for you
Thank you for your support, best wishes and kind words, brother. Much love ❤️
yeah. I'm 30 too. Millenials really got fucked over, it's not just you. I have a degree and I'm paycheck to paycheck and am trying to land a part time job in addition to my day job. Thinking about learning more skills. My financial situation causes me a lot of anxiety and low self esteem as well. The economy is really, *really* bad.
I hope you can get tf out of Louisiana. I hope you can even find a service job there and move back to colorado.
As looming and gloomy as that is, you're absolutely fucking right. Have you thought about living elsewhere in the world? Is that feasible for you or me? Hmmm.
I want a degree just to get a good job, but that's not enough these days. So now I just want one because I'm jealous of other people that have it hahah. But then I realize that they're suffering and drowning like millions of Americans stretching every dollar like it's the last thing they'll ever do in this world. It's a vicious cycle... but somewhere in this life, there's a balance I think we can strike. With tools like therapy, possibly medicine if absolutely necessary, and a good support system, most mental problems can probably be reasonably managed in time. But the financial constraints we deal with?
That's what keeps me up at night.
Good luck friend!
Thank you, thank you XOXO
Jeremy you seem like a such a sweet guy, like just listening to you- it felt like ur capable of doing so many great things : ) and its okay that ur struggling, every effort of urs of trying to get better; going to therapy, taking medications etc.. matters- you matter so much ! and don’t despair, because perhaps relief is close - and you don’t know what there’s in store for u in the future : )) i know u said u weren’t religious and that, but perhaps you could find some comfort & relief in listening to this - Surah yusuf
It’s a chapter of the Holy Qur’an - about prophet Joseph, he got thrown into a well by his brothers - a really dark place,, but then at the end he was in a really high position in Egypt. Your situation could change just like his ! : ))
I wish you all the best, May Allah (God) aid you, support you and grant you relief 🤍
The come up stories are real af. I've heard countless stories of people rising to the top of their challenges and becoming not only successful, healthy people that live great lives, but realize that things CAN switch up for the better. Just as bad as things can quickly get, so too can good things arise.
Get on some medication, you might have to try different ones it takes time! And do not drink any alcohol. Am 36 depression since 16 , I never got help and it destroyed so many opportunities with careers and relationships which I still regret today after 11 years. So don’t end up like me. I’ve started the gym also eating healthy don’t know if I’ll ever meet someone but all we can do is try. I’ve also decided to switch careers so maybe do this yourself?
That's the goal!!! I wanna be a content creator, that's my passion and that's what I want to be. I love doing stuff like this.
Switching up medications might be a great idea, too. I'll talk to my primary care doctor this week and ask her about that. Thank you for taking the time to stop by and give your take on all of this, i appreciate it so much man XOXO
You looks like Jim from the office.
I've never heard that one before hahaha. Thanks I guess, I do love me some Jim from the Office :)
im your age and the same way, depressed since 21 and yeah, i went back to school but my school sucks lmao
Dude I wish school wasn't so fuckin expensive 😫
Depression and anxiety could be the result of chemical imbalances in the body. What works for me is eliminating all carbohydrates in my diet and refraining from alcohol. It seems crazy but the body starts to run on ketones and this seems to make me slightly hyper which is enough to transform my thinking. The world becomes more colourful and I actually want to do things. Anxiety is eased and things don't seem bleak at all anymore. OCD is greatly reduced. My theory is that this mimics fasting. There's a reason why fasting has been used by all the religions as a means to enlightenment. But think about it, what happens when people fast? They feed off their own body fat and protein. Fasting could be a bit dangerous and stressful in my opinion however just eating fatty meat for 30 -60 days and observing what happens could be worth a try. People should research it for themselves. I'm not an expert, this has just been my experience.
I'll work closely with my primary care doctor and find out some pathways for a healthier diet.
Alcohol and refraining from it altogether in one of my top priorities though, so thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences on that.
I had a buddy of mine fast all the time, several times a year. He would sprint up hills and work out all the time, I think that needs to be a primary focus for me, too. Weekly minimum visits to the gym.
@@WarLocked1523 Your primary care doctor is likely to adopt a very orthodox approach and will almost definitely recommend a "balanced diet".
How are you doing now? I also struggle with depression, anxiety and cptsd. I had a bad childhood, now my son is going through cancer (leukemia)treatment - this triggered my depression. I actually want to make friends with people who can relate. I hope you upload more videos. Have you thought about becoming a life coach, you know what it feels like, you could use it to help others and make money. It will take time but it could bring meaning to you.
Don’t put pressure on yourself to be what society wants. Some of us are different, we won’t do the traditional careers.
Please reply so we know you’re doing ok.
Life is killing me
Ditto, my friend. Ditto. Remember you can make a video just like this if you need to, look at how many people can come to your aid in your time of need!! Dozens of people in the comments just waiting to help a stranger out!! I hope you can see the love in my words, man. Life is killing us all, but it's also sustaining our entire species. Lots a lots that life is beautiful for
Darn bro is u ok.?
Better today, and over the last 36 hours! But there will be more pitfalls and tough times. Gotta keep going 💪
I have fraternal twin brother named Nick.
What a crazy coincidence!!
My buddy Nick who I mentioned, his fraternal twin was the man I mentioned who passed away. Crazy coincidence indeed
Have you tried smoking cannabis im a schizophrenic i quit all my meds 3 years ago i lost weight got fit it worked for me but the detox was hard i will never take government meds again. Disclaimer: do not attempt to do what i did this method does not work for everyone.
Yes, I've been a cannabis user since I was about 18. Off and on these days, the last 4 years or so I've reduced my intake significantly.
In my early 20s, I smoked a lot of hash, flower and hash pens. In 2014, Colorado became the first state (alongside Washington) to legalize it for recreational use.
You best believe that when we voted for that, we all rushed the dispensaries and had a blast for many years to come, me included haha. I smoked a lot until about the time I turned 27, after which, I cut down on smoking because I was gaining weight and didn't feel like it was servicing me like it once did for stress relief. I felt like it made my anxiety worse at times, but other times it really helped me calm down and relax.
How are you doing now?
Bruh watch Theo Von from episode 1 (he is from Covington!). Read The Courage to be Disliked 2. Listen to Jordan Peterson 3. Study Jung
Love all those ideas, thanks man! I had no idea Theo is from Covington! Seems like a nice city. The mental institutions suck ass, but everything else surrounding that area was ok!
@@WarLocked1523 Ya dawg, coming from the ether, I see a beautiful fellow human being. "It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society." The "mental health" system should actually look at these experiences as awakening & seeing through the system. Lastly, the show, The OA (get past episode 1) pulled me out of the dirt. I suspect it will for you too, I relate to your story & can say I broke on through to the other side.
@@dogbackwards33What's the OA about?
@@WarLocked1523 Condensed: helps to understand why those of us w the light are spiritually attacked ("dust, pressed into a diamond by the weight of this world"). Overriding theme= Faith (in each other & in the Good) trumps all. It gripped me just when I needed it
Can I talk to you bro?
Your brain is just an organ like any other. In order to make it healthy again, and nudge it back into homeostasis and thus healthy thought patterns and have you feel good, you need a healthy body and healthy symbiotic microbes. Please don’t skim over what follows; I know you might think you’re unique in your suffering and the reason for your suffering, but you’re not. So many people with divorced parents who lost someone very dear to them live extremely fulfilling and genuinely happy lives. You can too.
I highly suggest you do the following:
- Make sure you don’t have a gut condition. The gut, as an incredibly important immunomodulatory and enervated organ has an enormous influence over your brain, both in a direct neural way, but also because it can be the most common source of chronic inflammatory cytokine production, which can lead to brain inflammation, which leads to unexplained psychiatric problems. If you happen to suffer from IBS (irritable bowel syndrome), whether it’s IBS-D, -C or -M, get checked for SIBO (Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth). About 11% of the global population has IBS, and about 60-70% is due to SIBO. Test for this with a lactulose breath test that checks for hydrogen gas (H2), methane (CH4), and hydrogen sulfide (H2S). This is especially relevant if you suffer from bloating/abdominal distention after eating. Many people with this condition have anxiety and depressive symptoms, but these are a consequence of the GI disorder, not a cause for it. Moreover, studies show the role of the various microbiomes in our GI tract to play a crucial role in our behavior and feelings. Studies have shown mice who received depressed people’s fecal microbiote transplants inherited their depression. The same goes for anxiety and bravery. This is not made up. Look up the studies on this. It is mind blowing. So in case you really don’t know what to do anymore, try finding a fecal microbiota (FMT) clinic, and working on SIBO (by taking appropriate prokinetics, antibiotic/antimicrobial, fasting long enough between meals to activate the migrating motor complex, etc) if you have it.
- sleep hygiene: sleep at the EXACT same time every day and get up at the EXACT same time. No exceptions. In the beginning, If you can’t fall asleep, don’t sleep in. Get up. Make sure you get around 8-9 hours of sleep, unless you naturally wake up fully rested earlier than that. Stay away from screens anywhere near sleep time. This includes TV as well. Get a book, or listen to a calling audiobook, or watch the stars if you can.
- sun/natural light exposure: humans live 90% of their lives indoors. This hasn’t been the case for our vast majority of our evolution. Not only does the sun provide us with the indispensible vitamin D, which acts as a hormone which regulates our mood, the photons hitting our skin cells also cause nitric oxide to be produced, which is naturally calming and protective for your blood vessels. Moreover, the light intensity of outside is about 1000 times that of indoor light. We don’t perceive it like that because our eyes don’t work linearly, similarly to our ears (see how a decibel is defined logarithmically). Have good outdoor hygiene and try to spd every second of your free time outside doing something you like, making sure you get as much of your body exposed to sunlight, right before the point of starting to burn.
- nutrition: humans in nature are hunter-gatherers and eat mostly meat, wild roots, honey, fruit, some roasted nuts/seeds, some small herbs and sometimes, but not often, shoots and leaves. Given how species evolution dynamics is an optimization algorithm, the natural diet bahevior we show in nature is very likely to be optimal for us. Therefore, try to recreate a hunter-gatherer diet as much as possible. This means eating with an emphasis on whole animal foods, including all the organs such as liver, spleen, kidneys, tripe, heart, lungs, testicles, tongue, suet, blood, eating fish, shellfish such as oysters, etc. One very important thing to avoid consuming that f@cks up your entire metabolism and mitochondrial function (also in your nerve cells which harbor a tremendous aount of mitochondria) is polyunsaturated fatty acids (PUFAs), which are found in vegetable oils, chicken and pork. Eat fats from ruminant animals, much better. Hearing you live in the US makes it very likely you have an excess of PUFAs in your diet. These take a tremendous amount of time to reduce in concentration in your body; half life is 680 days. That means 50% remain after quitting consumption after 680days, 25% remain after 1360 days, etc. So be patient and consistent with this. Also, for nerve health, don’t underestimate the incredible importance of B vitamins. Especially B12, folate (B9) and thiamine (B1), but the others too. Make sure you get enough B vitamins in via the diet. Only supplement if you have an actual deficiency. Maybe test for a deficiency through appropriate tests (methylmalonic acid and homocysteine for B12 and B9)
- Minimize any kind of external stressors: don’t fall for the cold showering hype or having to go to the gym or doing cardio. Those are severe stressors. But the most common ones in our modern lives are work, financial, and social judgement related stressors. This last one includes also your self image. Work on these with a therapist if they apply to you. Also, if you have an anxiety disorder due to conditioning, work on this with a therapist as well
- in the spirit of the last one, find a community you feel good in. Look up what a community is defined as. Make sure you feel part of a group of people whom you share an identity with. Feel involved in their lives and let them be involved in your life. Make sure your relationship with these people is balanced; that you benefit from it as much as they benefit from you. Actively look for a community if you can’t find one. It is vital to who we are as incredibly social animals. So many neural circuits are hardwired in our brain just for socialization alone. It’s the reason we evolved such sophisticated vocal chords and speech related muscles, facial muscles to communicate our emotions nonverbally, why we cry, laugh, do most things we do. Don’t underestimate this. Not having this is a HUGE stressor on it’s own, that’s why it deserved a separate bullet.
- needless to say it’s important to work on any other obvious health problem I haven’t mentioned.
- if you can, get off of any drugs ASAP. Humans don’t need drugs in nature. We have lived without them for 200 000 years of our existence and managed to survive in even the hardest environments. You don’t need them either, unless you have irreversible organ damage or a rare genetic disorder.
- Also, an obivous elephant in the room is that you are a gamer (assuming from your youtube channel). Gaming is a ticket straight to a miserable life. It fucks up your reward system, it fucks up your attention span, it fucks up your posture, which influences so many nerves in your body (look at where the incredibly important for your parasympathetic nervous system vagus nerve is located in your neck). I highly suggest gradually stopping playing video games when working on this other stuff and finding a fulfilling alternative; find a girlfriend or partner, make kids.
Good luck with everything. Please follow my advice, if there is anything in there you can improve. You’d be surprized at just how euphoric you can be for the toniest things when you have a healthy brain. Just looking at weeds on the street can be a pleasant experience if you’re healthy. Trust me, I have experience with this.
hey jeremy. i don’t have much advice bc i don’t know enough about depression but i have had my mental health fits with another disorder, and i can tell you that Jesus Christ is who was there with me the whole time and the one who lifted me out. i want to thank you for making this video to help others. that’s very touching. Jesus loves you brother. He doesn’t want you depressed. keep going brother don’t hold back and work hard and stay hopeful. love u brother.
Thank you, I appreciate you stopping by nonetheless. You probably have a ton of good advice, I just know it! We all do!! I will do just that; keep going, not holding back, and working hard to stay hopeful. Mindfulness, if you will. Much love.
It looks like your system needs a reset. Your model of reality is outdated and needs an update.
I went thru a hard time a few years ago. What helped me thru some of those darknights was listening to Jordan Peterson's Bible lectures on CZcams. It's not preachy like you get from an evangelical. It did feel like a type of blanket for my psyche. I recommend this to you.
After that, consider psychedelic mushrooms(Psilocybin mushroom) in large doses on a near empty stomach. Do your research or consult your doctor if you need to.
These really helped take a bite out of my own dark time.
“Don’t recommend channel”
Sorry to hear you didn't like the video.
As always, I'm glad you stopped by and I appreciate your time here
He’s not attacking life he’s saying he has a problem