Heartstopper Episode 2 Reaction - "Crush"
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- čas přidán 25. 08. 2024
- Hey guys!
We're back today with the second episode reaction to Heartstopper. This one really got me choked up towards the end.
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I love when Nick says, "You look... it looks great." He almost said a little too much, but he caught himself. Also, Nick's bolting out the door after he realizes the hug has gone on much too long (yet not long enough). And comparing that to how he leaves after the "homework" scene in a later episode really shows how they've grown.
Yes the way he averted his eyes. He couldn't even look at Charlie. I love that moment. Great acting by Kit.
Perfectly written script and Kit nails it. Alice's intentions for all these characters are so deeply embedded into the scripts and this is why it's so important to have the original creatives fully involved to honour the source material.
@@JackieRossLavender I completely agree. Having Alice lead this entire process is a huge part of why this series works so well. She has a great director behind the camera, but it's always her vision that's coming through. The first kiss scene looks like it was lifted straight off the page.
Im so late on this comment section but im just bunge watching every reaction video for heartstopper like crazy..
On topic of how Alice being there to actually direct it.. a little detail was shared by Kit. Their scripts (individual) actually had some illustration drawn on them by Alice herself and it help him see what it would look like on the scene and gave him the idea how he can work with it. He also added that it was the first time he encountered that and it was really helpful and unique.
@@JackieRossLavender this omg. it's so clear that this is the formula to a good adaptation and we saw it again with One Piece. when the original creator is heavily involved that's when the quality of the show stays in check, and screenwriters don't get to make stupid changes to the characters or plot without permission!!
The one thing I’ve not seen anyone pick up in a reaction video is that, during Why Am I Like This?, when Nick zooms in on the picture, his right thumb slightly caresses the edge of his phone right near Charlie’s face. This is one of the small details that absolutely gets me emotional every single time (and is definitely relatable for me)
I've just gone back and watched that again and my heart cannot cope 😭
What’s great about this award was it beat out “We Don’t Talk About Bruno” which was a real hit from Encanto. You know the song did something special, something right to have beaten a song from a Disney hit. The snow scene was magical and the song set every emotion, every thought precisely as it would be in real life. That’s why everyone melted when Nick’s present was the picture of that day. (SPOILER ALERT). That was the most romantic gift ever!!!
YES. I always notice that too, so relatable.
I think my favourite thing about episode 2 is toward the end, after Nick hugs Charlie in the hallway, he doesn’t look back as he says goodbye. It shows Nick’s confusion about what his feelings are, and the fear of showing himself to Charlie in that moment. Good acting choices there
And Charlie's eyes are so huge, like "What is going on?"
Agreed!!!!! I also love that it shows Nicks courage to act on his feelings which is something I seriously lacked at that age!
I love that scene too. 💖
And Nick's eyes widening when Charlie hugs him back, like "oh, oh crap, this is what I've been missing". At first I was kind of disappointed that he just took off afterwards, since he'd previously talked about his feelings so easily, especially with Charlie. But then he had to go and have himself a gay panic while falling down a google rabbit hole, and I remembered that he still doesn't understand his feelings fully or what they mean enough to even put into words. All that's really clicked into place so far is that he definitely wants to do more than hug Charlie.
Perfect timing for this episode: the snow scene won the MTVAwards 2022 for Best Musical Moment! :) I like how the played with the episode title (Crush), we think it's about Charlie's crush, but no… it's Nick realising he has a crush.
Exactly!! I'm so happy that scene won an awards because it so deserved it!
I hadn't twigged that!
Nick's face when Charlie hugs him back in the foyer just melts my heart. This show is just so beautiful and so important. I am so glad you decided to post your reactions to these episodes. Thank you Jackie.
Thanks, John. I honestly didn't really know when I posted that first video that it would lead me here - I guess I was so moved to see so many people felt the same way I did.
I love how moved you were from “why am I like this”. This was the song for me to which instantly hit me and I instantly added to my playlist!
Why Am I Like This and Lovesick are my two favorite songs in the show.
I am big Shazam and as soon as it started when I first heard it I knew I needed to know who it was and instantly downloaded all of Orla's music to my Spotify!
I made an Apple Music playlist of all 33 songs appearing on the series. If anyone would like to use it, message me here. I’ll give you details.
@@JackieRossLavender she got a fantastic back catalogue. The medium of music will always be number one for me, this series just proves it.
"I'm just jealous of people who have good hair" I'm just jealous of people who have hair and I'm 28, LOL!!!
On the serious side, one would never guess that this is Joe's first role. His talent, and the talent of this entire cast is absolutely breathtaking!
I also agree with you about the music in this series being amazing! "Moment in the Sun" by Sunflower Bean is now my favorite song!!
On a more somber note, if this had been available in 2010-11, I might still have my Nick Nelson.
Thank you so much for your wonderful videos!
I feel you my friend. I am definitely enroute for a hair transplant in the near future! I completely agree - I think we are going to see Joe go from strength to strength in his career. What a debut! And you are welcome for the videos. They bring me as much joy as they do you guys ❤
7:55 There's a logic puzzle presented here to suggest that Isaac is asexual. Tao is the token straight friend, but Isaac is included in Charlie's "My friends won't understand because they aren't gay." statement from Episode 1.
yes someone shared this with me on Patreon and it makes perfect sense! I adore the full spectrum of representation Alice has given us with Heartstopper!
For the snow scene specifically Alice has mentioned that they suggested that song. I hope they're proud of themselves, as they should be. Alice killed it with that one.
They really did!!!
Alice confirmed that Isaac is aroace. More Isaac in the second season!
yeah someone on Patreon explained this and it makes perfect sense! I am so grateful to Alice for the full spectrum of representation in this show!
Forgot how funny episode two really is. Isaac's sass, Darcy's forthright attitude, Tori being the ultimate protective older sibling. I think that's what makes the narrative so powerful, the moments of levity provide a nice balance to the sadder scenes.
Feel the exact same as you about the soundtrack. Didn't actually know any of the artists beforehand but *every song* is burned into my brain now. The way they fit so neatly into the scenes is an extraordinary accomplishment in itself.
The song choices are so perfect. I don't think I have seen another show with such a masterfully crafted soundtrack!
That scene has just won best musical moment at the MTV awards 😊😊😊
So well deserved!!!!!!
A little detail I love about the haircut scene is that Tori is Charlie's sister and she says it looks the same, like she doesn't notice any difference, but Nick immediately notices it 😭
Love how the show touches you. I feel the same way, and still cry, though I’ve now seen it all multiple times and, yes I LOVE the music!
It really does deeply affect me and I love that about it.
The "Why am I like this" scene and song is one of my favorites in the show also. I've listened to that song countless times and it hits me in the heart every time. It really encompasses that feeling of thinking something is wrong with you and not knowing why.
And that anxiety feeling of repeating "why am I like this". God. So many feels.
This soundtrack slaps so goddamn hard, even though it's not anywhere near my usual tastes. IIRC, at least some of it is pulled from playlists Alice would post with each volume or chapter of the comic, so we probably owe it's catchiness to Alice's good taste.
We owe so much to Alice and her amazing taste and talents. But I agree it absolutely slaps!
It's *really* impressive that Nick notices Charlie's haircut because I've seen episode 1 and 2 a gazillion times and... I'm with Tori on this one. IT LOOKS THE SAME. 😅
i mean i completely agree 🤣
I saw an interview with Joe and Kit where Joe explains all this with the lack of an actual haircut.
I'm so glad you picked up on the implications of Tao's "token straight friend" comment! Although, we already know Isaac isn't gay from Charlie's conversation with Mr Ajayi last episode. I figured he was either intersex or aroace (personally hoping he was ace like me), so I was thrilled when Alice confirmed his identity and said there's more Isaac content planned for the coming seasons!
"Why Am I Like This" broke me too. *hugs*
It's very strange... I'm overjoyed and jealous at the same time that future LGBTQ+ kids will have this beautifully crafted TV show. I came out very late in life and if this show came out in the 80s, it would have saved so much suffering, hiding and heartache...😢
I totally get it. It's the same feeling for me. I was 26 when I had the courage to say to my best friend what I was hiding for so many years. I wish things could have been different, but to know that so many children nowadays won't have to suffer that is kind of a relief.
I feel exactly the same, I couldn't even bring myself to say the word gay out loud until I had left school and was well into my first year of uni, never mind being in any way comfortable with applying it to myself.
If I had a show like this in the 90s when I was in secondary school it would have been so much better, I am also both overjoyed and a bit jealous but so happy that young lgbtq youths will gave such a great example.
Agreed Daniel, Rolando & Simon. I feel the same. I am just happy that it has helped me to feel on such deep levels but will hopefully avoid the youth of today from having to heal quite so much.
Me too. High school in the 80s. Horrible bullying and my family was super religious and homophobic. No internet to help me. What saved me was moving to San Francisco. My early life was hell, so yeah Heartstopper makes me mourn for what I never had. But I'm so glad it got made. It's amazing and beautiful!
You're right...even as a redhead, Kit is THE perfect Nick! Both he and Joe are amazing actors.
I honestly think or hope at least this have improved even in the last 10-20 years. I grew up in a extremely liberal area in just the 2000-2010 range. In middle school people were mostly accepting of queer people, but there was still enough homophobia and, that's so gay insults to mess with me. Hell I somehow picked up saying f*g and used it often in anger not even thinking about it when I was like 12, sad considering I'm queer. I knew of one openly gay kid in middle school, and he help organize a day of silence when it was fairly new. I took part and it was a key moment towards accepting myself I think looking back.
At 3:13 - I noticed that about their beds. I think See-Saw Productions who made the show for Netflix spent so much time and effort into making sure the TV version was as close and faithful to the books as possible, to the point where Alice Oseman was on set for the majority of the scenes, and she changed bits when she felt needed to be changed, if the director Euros Lyn got it wrong.
I so so so agree about the music in the series! F$cking brilliant.
RE: your synopsis of Ep 1 -
I think Nick starts crushing back as early as the rugby tackle where the leaves swirl around him as Charlie walks away.
I felt moved by seeing you being moved. I teared up a bit honestly. About the music and soundtrack...like you, I'm heavily and deeply soul-touched by music. So this song by Orla Gartland just straight hit me in my core, specially because I tend to overthink every little word in conversations. These sorta weird feelings you get, I get them too. I still don't know why (I'm actually trying to figure them now in therapy), but it's sort of a mix of sadness, nostalgia, emptiness and hope, all at the same time? Something like it. Another song that I had on repeat for about 5 days straight was "Paper Mache World" from Matilda. This song brings me a feeling of pure loneliness with hope. Like, the hope that my person is out there somewhere and one day (hopefully before I'm 40) we'll find each other. 🤣
About Isaac. I'm not really sure, BUT I think he might be asexual. Maybe asexual and aromantic. And if this is it, his story will be more explored in future seasons. Tori is amazing. I love her mood because most of the time mine is like hers and at other times I'm more like Darcy.
Yeah someone explained to me about Isaac on Patreon and now it makes perfect sense and I am so grateful for the full spectrum of representation that Alice is giving us with this beautiful story. It kind of feels like what Becky Albertalli tried to do with Simon universe but didn't achieve.
Yeah - I’m on the 3rd time watching your reaction videos this week. I just love how you put your own experiences and feelings out there in a very natural way. And I absolutely love listening to you talk. Please keep up the good work❤️
Thank you so much! That was the little kick up the butt i needed today. I’m so glad you are enjoying them. Plenty more content to come!
@@JackieRossLavender I’ve decided that since everyone is now looking for their own Nick Nelson, I’m gonna go the other way and be more like Nick Nelson! Everybody just wants a kind word, a smile or somebody who notice them. And I think we forget how nice it is to be that somebody who gives other people a small boost of happiness ❤️
@@Fuzzycheetah i love everything about what you just said!
Euros Lyn, Heartstopper’s director, said in an interview I read that the comic served as a de facto story board for everything he did with the series. You can tell that if you go compare the series with the corresponding comic scenes.
You can really tell they put in the work and it really paid off!
Wow. First time one of my comments received a like and a comment from the original poster.
What is it about soundtracks! Set aside instrumentals, (that's a rant in and of it's own) BUT a song/artist you find from that special moment in your favorite scene. I mean, *mwah* chef's kiss! Doesn't get any better for feeling all the feels.
Late to the party here:
I along with everyone else was blown away by the soundtrack. It was one of the many things that it seems Alice had a good deal of control over. In interviews, there are mentions of Alice (maybe others as well?) having made a playlist and then sharing it with the cast for thoughts or input. I'm not sure how much of that actually made the final soundtrack, but it's no surprise Alice had a clear vibe for what she wanted the show to sound like. "I Want To Be With You" by chloe moriondo is the ending song for ep 4 and was explicitly played in Volume 4 (which was released in print during the filming of the show).
10:30 Heartstopper has made me bawl too. Love the music, the story, the acting, the production, everything! It moves me soooo much...
Unfortunately, Ben’s approach to Charlie wasn’t brave, but predatory. He was well aware of Charlie’s unfortunate outing and new he could use that to his advantage because Charlie had no one else. Also, I believe Isaac may be on the queer spectrum, but not necessarily gay or bisexual.
Just wanted to say: thank you and love you ❤😊
I love watching you reactions to this series because you so authentically express your thoughts and feelings. You prompt so many memories from my youth with your stories.
That song "why am I like this" hit me exactly the same way especially with the scene with it. Took me about two weeks to shake what ever those feels were..
OMG!!! I love this episode so much!!! It is my absolute favourite because it definitely marks the beginning of their friends to lovers journey and we can see both Charlie and Nick saying so much about their feelings without having to verbally say a single word. The touches, the staring, THE hug!!! How can a show be like this? So amazing, that keeps us on a chokehold since its release??? Honestly, I’ve watched it so many times already but every single time it amazes me more.
It captures so perfectly that amazing experience that never comes again of the dawning of the first relationship.
You’re so right about the music in this series being PERFECT.
I love the snow scene... it's so beautiful 💖
Love your reaction to episode 2. I really like seeing your personal attachment to the songs especially "Why Am I Like This". Thanks.
Thanks, Ed. My heart sank when I remembered while watching that that scene was coming up because I knew it was going to choke me up again.
I have similar expirences with music too, music is such a deep thing for me 😊
I had the same feelings and thoughts watching this show, and listening to that song at the end in particular! I think this and 3rd episodes invoked a lot of buried emotions in me growing up as queer kid, and also as an adult. There is always fear of potential rejection from your family, friends, and social groups, on top of highly sexualised and exploitive perception of being non-hetero. I mean the reality is far from perfect (and so is anyone) but I am glad this show is providing us the hopeful picture of accepting the self and finding the importance of friendship and love. Nick is such an exemplary embodiment of a character with kind and loving heart that we all need in our lives.
I'm glad I discovered your channel. You're so handsome. I love your eyes and your laugh. And your reactions are so genuine.
Love your reactions. Heartstopper came into my life Not too long ago and of course binged it. Thanks to your comment on “Why am I like this “, I have a new song on my likes list. 🙏
I totally related to you when you talked about Orla’s song. One minute you’re ok and you think you got your sh*t figured out, the next you find yourself completely clueless about what you’re doing with your life and where you’re going. I also bawled my eyes out listening to it on repeat.
First of all, I love how you react to this series! It's so cool to see someone really happy, I really like that! Second, I LOVE your laugh! It's so communicative and you manage to make a positive video and it's so nice
I agree that if this had come out when I was a kid life would have been different. Great video and thanks.
Yes I wish that scene was achievable when I was younger two (them playing in the snow) and I agree about the music choice it was absolutely amazing. Waaaaay to many straight crushes to count especially in highschool. I love when Nick leans in and says "What? What's up?" That song when Nick is looking up makes me so sad :(
I had read somewhere when I was a teen that boys sometimes have these "feelings" towards other boys but not to worry it will pass...I kept waiting for it to pass...
Something interesting about Tao saying he's the token straight friend, in episode 1, Charlie says none of his friends are gay, meaning that people see Isaac as not gay but also not straight! Subtle hinting really early on👌👌💜💚
I love how most British people that react to this show call bs on the snow scene and say it never snows like that. Kinda funny.
I meeeeean it does snow like that - just not very often at all! So I would have been losing my mind seeing snow like that! 🤣
Just to let you know the texting scenes, where we have to see a close up of their phones, was the most complicated part to film. I have read that it took ages to get these shots, as both Joe and Kit had to really text on their phones, with the camera placed over their shoulder. A long, drawn out recording block that was.
Ugh beautiful reaction and kit and Joe are amazing like they embody Nick and Charlie 🥺💚
They really do!!
@@JackieRossLavender they but Charlie made me happy to be gay 🥺🏳️🌈
The ending of this episode is so relatable. When I watched it for the first time, I couldn't not cry to be honest. I brought me back to when I was figuring myself out. Why am I like this? Also adds so much to the scene on the feelings of literally why am I like this? That you get. The song simply wouldn't leave my head for days. Every time I remembered it I just felt so melancholic and I don't even know why haha
It's amazing how we can be transported back to those feelings right? I remember doing the same thing. I remember crying as an early teen asking "why has this happened to me? why am I having these feelings? why can't I just be normal?!" Little did we know we would grow up to understand that we are beautiful just the way we are! And honestly, something that won't leave my head for a very long time is how when I first sat down to film a first draft of my first heartstopper video I put that song on and just sat and cried for about 20 minutes. The power of music!
@@JackieRossLavender
This was beautifully put! Music is so powerful. As a musical theater fan, I love the power it has to tell stories and to transport us to different times, places, and people. I think it can be an amazing tool to help us be more emphatic. I've been thinking a lot about it after watching the last season of Stranger Things haha
I had pretty much the same experience: asking myself why this show makes me feel what I feel and this song being the soundtrack to my questions.
I was feeling overwhelmed at first. Luckily I have some great friends who were willing to listen to me trying to figure out why this show affected me so much.
so glad you had some friends to help you figure stuff out. We’ve grown a great community here too to support eachother ❤️
The fact that Charlie says “bi people exist” before Nick says “I’m bi, actually”
This is the first reaction I cried at 😭. I wanted to give you a Nick hug 🤗.
And I would have welcomed one!!!
i love ur smile !
Thank you so much ❤️
I have never heard Why Am I Like This before watching heartstopper and this song also gets me. I’ve been feeling a lot of emotions since I watched this show and got this song on loop inside my head literally, the lyrics mean something to me, something I haven’t figured out yet, i don’t know what I’ve been feeling lately. I guess I am just in an emotional phase right now
I fully get how you feel my friend. I was there after first watching Heartstopper. I filled leaned into those feelings and felt much better. We’re always here to chat in the comments and support each other. You got this ❤️
Interesting to see your comments to this, and how so much you respond to it. I came out when I was 14, way back in 1975. Interesting to compare that when I did that, it was other people's reactions that were problematic (e.g. the bullying and violence) rather than any inner turmoil I felt. Mind you I knew i was gay from the age of 4 when I found Sean Connery sexually exciting in "Thunderball" and decided I was going to marry him when i grew up!!
When I watched Episode 1, I made the assumption that Isaac was straight because when Mr Ajayi asked Charlie if he had spoken to his friends about the Ben situation; Charlie said no because they wouldn't understand because they're not gay! Hopefully we get Isaac's character more fleshed out in Season 2!
agree 💯 that Orla Garland is a genius. But also, the am I gay? scene... did that and whatever google had for me did not help at all 😭😭😭
And I also want to get a hug from kit💕
Look forward to watching the next video!
Thank you!
You know what else was "gross" about locker rooms? Being the overweight kid. I was always overweight when I was growing up and that was the WORST. I never heard anything said about being "gay" in the locker room, but of course when I was in school (elementary 82-88, junior high 88-91, high school 91-95) "coming out" wasn't a thing I ever saw nor heard about either. Much different time.
I don´t know if I see it right but give Nick Charlie the Hoodie that he wear very often? And when I see it right I find it soooooo cute🥰
I do enjoy your videos. Thank you ❤️
Thank you so much. I'm glad you're enjoying then ❤
Loving watching your reactions to this groundbreaking show. I am a happily married gay guy but there are moments in this show which trigger how awful it was growing up in 80s and 90s and not having these positive representation. Just one friend who could have said it was ok and been supportive like Nick is to Charlie. Don’t get me wrong it is amazing that this exists now and I love Heartstopper for being so honest and amazing but it chokes me every time how I didn’t have that and it would have meant everything to me
couldn’t agree more, my friend!
Alice said Isaac is aroace.
Yeah someone on Patreon just explained that to me and it makes perfect sense!
Solitaire is FABULOUS!!!!! If you love Tori from the novels and the show, you're going to absolutely adore her from Solitaire!
I cannot wait to read it! I have put it off for a few days so I can re read This Winter and Nick & Charlie so I can make videos on them ❤
I think Alice confirmed Isaac is asexual which is why I think Tao called himself the token str8 friend (which actually makes me wonder if Elle is bi or something) but I don't think Tao nor Charlie know if he is romantically interested in any gender yet because Charlie did make the point to tell his teachers that he can't talk to his friends because they are not gay and won't understand his situation...
Elle admits she has a crush on Tao. So, I don't think she is bi.
@@dillychan Well technically he is, but also remember, Heartstopper is all about sexuality being fluid. Look at Nick, before he met Charlie, he felt he was straight. Meeting Charlie changed all that for the better. So don't take what Tao said as 100% literal or true.
@@johnking5174 Yes Tao is really not the best at assuming sexualities which is something people should not do altogether. However my point still stands that saying you're a token would imply you're the only one and to say something like that so confidently in front of your friends without any of them correcting you probably does mean that you're the only straight one among the group. So since we know Charlie is gay and Isaac is ace, it may also support the fact that Elle isn't straight ... or she just doesn't bother correcting Tao.
Edit: Or it could simply be that she identifies as queer as do so many transgender people do because the straight label doesn't exactly capture the struggles of being trans and straight.
I think Isaac is supposed to be Ace.
yeah someone in the comments did say. the full spectrum of queer representation is this show is amazing.
Just a warning. It took me 3 weeks to get through Solitaire because there is some seriously dark shit in there and I had to keep putting it down. I got through it….eventually, but for me take 3 weeks to get through 258 pages which is unheard of. I read Nick & Charlie last night, about 100 pages, in about an hour.
I haven’t been able to bring myself to start solitaire just yet. Holding off until i’ve finished the reaction videos and reviews of This Winter and Nick and Charlie.
@@JackieRossLavender This Winter and Nick and Charlie are great, if a little short. Solitaire walloped me mentally. I’m reading Radio Silence now and it is amazing. There’s no crossover but it takes place directly after the events of Solitaire.
Oh Hello! Youtue just gave me a nudge that you are back on Youube!
I am back in full force!!!! Wales vlogs?!?!
@@JackieRossLavender yes yes yes!
hi jackie -ross iam sorry to ask i cant rember is heartstopper base on the books i havent got the books at the moment but i like to know is this the same as the books or diffrient i dont understand it can u please explan to me what this realy about please i love this tv series.
it’s based on a series of graphic novels. There’s currently 4 volumes. Season 1 covers volumes 1 and 2. They’re 100% worth reading. I have done videos reviewing them.
@@JackieRossLavender ok thankyou what about the other two are they season 2 and season 3 covers
@@lisamcarthur3225 yea i believe so. Alice wrote something about that on her patreon.
@@JackieRossLavender thankyou
I wish I could subscribe into your patreon but there still no MYR currency there
Send me an email jackierosslavender@gmail.com and let me see what i can sort out :)
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already did a video on it back when it first came out ☺️
First?
Yes indeed ❤
Virtual hugs 🫂. I might not know precisely what your story was, but I feel it’s a struggle reconciling who you are and what others think you are. It’s taken me a long time to be more comfortable with my sexuality. I still have insecurities. In a later episode, Nick says something that sums up my bittersweet feelings toward this series. If I saw myself more and in a more normalized and positive way, I probably wouldn’t have wasted so much time hating myself and “praying” these feelings away. Heartstopper is indeed an emotional rollercoaster. I’ve yet to read all the available graphic novels, but I did only read the ones that the first season covers. While I’m tempted to find out what happens next, I want to be surprised and see season 2 first before expanding with the graphic novels. I just enjoy experiencing series and movies before filling in the gaps with the books or graphic novels they’re adapted from 😅 😬
Someone else in the comments said something that I completely agree with - Heartstopper is bittersweet because I am so happy the upcoming generation have it to guide them but I am so envious because it would have helped me SO much.