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Zoe Anastasia
Registrace 9. 10. 2011
Through many mental health diagnosis and struggles with mood, depression and anxiety, I am starting a channel for those who are interested in medication reviews, mental health conversations, mental health updates and life updates.
I am NEW to CZcams, I have no idea what I am doing, be patient with me and enjoy!
Ask questions, start discussions and subscribe!
I am NEW to CZcams, I have no idea what I am doing, be patient with me and enjoy!
Ask questions, start discussions and subscribe!
Passed 40 Subscribers!!! Thank You!!! (personal achievement)
I forgot to add my intro, all well...
This is just a QUICK video, to THANK every person who has subscribed to my channel! You have no idea how much it means to me, and 40 was a little personal goal of mine. Thank you again, and there is more to come!!
This is just a QUICK video, to THANK every person who has subscribed to my channel! You have no idea how much it means to me, and 40 was a little personal goal of mine. Thank you again, and there is more to come!!
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Avoid Mental Health Relapse
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I am not perfect and I have negative habits and struggles that lead to relapse in my mental health. I found that keeping track of all the things you do that are "bad" lead to a healthier you. These are the behaviors that I struggle with and I hope to help others find out what they struggle with, in order to overcome them and lead a more positive life. Self-awareness is key. Enjoy! Like this vid...
Agoraphobia EXPOSURE therapy
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Hi guys! For this video I wanted to share some exposure therapy I have been practicing. I have agoraphobia and it is a difficult disorder to deal with and I wanted to share this for anyone who has been struggling in the same way or if you are just a curious viewer. Please keep commenting on the videos, I have been having a lot fun talking with anyone who visits the channel. Thank you so much! c...
LAMICTAL REVIEW- PART 5 -MY EXPERIENCE
zhlédnutí 1,6KPřed 3 lety
Hey guys! I wanted to catch up with everyone who has been watching my videos. I have not been uploading because "reasons" but also because life has been hectic. I am still on Lamictal and wanted to give another update on my use of the medication. Thank you so much for anyone who watches, you have no idea how much it means to me!! Like I say in my video, check-in in the comments below on YOUR me...
EXPERIENCING MANIC EPISODE-REAL TIME
zhlédnutí 232Před 3 lety
I wanted to share with viewers what a manic episode is like for me. One of my subscribers asked what mania felt like for me and when the symptoms first started and how they've played out over time. So this is me being vulnerable and sharing something that I normally don't share with others. I hope this can be relatable for some; feeling like something is relatable can be the first step for heal...
LAMICTAL REVIEW-PART 4-MY EXPERIENCE/FRUSTRATIONS
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In part 4 of this series I discuss the benefits I have been experiencing from the mood stabilizer, Lamictal. I also express frustrations I have with the mental health community: how we are treated by doctors, how we may be ignored as patients and how it feels to be a cog in the mental health machine. These frustrations lend themselves to improper medication management where the patients themsel...
THANK YOU SO MUCH
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I wanted to take the time to thank my new subscribers!! Thank you so much for the support, I don't care how small it is. Every single subscription is an individual person and that amazes me. Also wanted to update on my plans for this channel. Hope everyone enjoys!
LAMICTAL REVIEW-PART 3- MY EXPERIENCE
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In part 3 of this series I explore the depths of the emotional effect of a mood stabilizer, Lamictal. Questioning, is it my regular depressive episodes or is the depression being impacted by the medication. I am really honest and raw in this video, so be gentle with me and with yourselves. I am still learning how to create content, I think I'm getting better everyday but it still is very CZcams...
LAMICTAL REVIEW- PART 2- MY EXPERIENCE
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Part two of my experience with the mood stabilizer Lamictal (Lamotrigine). This video is a review of my third night taking the medication; I will continue to update viewers on my daily (nightly) experience with this medication. Let me know if anyone has any questions! And feel free to answer the questions I posed in the video itself. My channel is going to explore more medications and mental he...
LAMICTAL REVIEW - PART 1- MY EXPERIENCE
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This is part one of my experience with the mood stabilizer Lamictal (Lamotrigine). I have been on the medication for three days and plan to update viewers on my experience daily. Let me know if anyone has any questions! My channel is going to explore more medications and mental health difficulties. Excuse me as I start to learn the platform and the creative experience of making and uploading co...
I was diagnosed with all of the same things and I am currently eyeing the Lamictal pill on my desk that I have been hesitating to take for the past 3 months... I've been really nervous about trying it too as medications really just scare me. I'm going to give it a try though, I think I've researched this med enough. I am also on clonazepam 0.5mg as needed for panic disorder & agoraphobia but I think I may need to take it more often and will be talking to my psych about that.
Just found you ty for putting all this out i can totally relate wishing you the best God Bless❤
Im been through the same thing they make you feel worse actually at times less than a human i had someone at my old clinic done my assessment told me mental patients are like cattle your known by a number on a chart. So much more sorry you had to go through that hope things are better now ❤ im on day 14 of lamictal just went up for the first time today. Ive had stomach virus typer stuff lots of heartburn werid burping thing and a stuffy nose all started the 4th day still going on but i do feel better far as my anxiety just these other things going on
I really enjoy these! Thank you ❤️
U NEED TO HOP ON DA TREADMILL☠☠
Ty for sharing
You described me
This kind of content is needed though. It's real. So don't be down about your videos. Also, I get the anxiety about going on a higher dose. I have that too. But 75, even 100mg isn't a high dose of lamictal. Just decide for yourself the highest mg you're willing to go and communicate that and your fears to your doctor.
Medication takes 6 -8 weeks to work be dedicated
Just a question but I've been watching some videos on lamictal and I was wondering how your doing on it and if your even still on it ? I just started taking it today. Thanks for reading and I hope your doing great thanks for the videos.
They should never that anything personal! Have you told them you feel this way?
You need a new psychiatrist asap!
You did great ! Keep trying one step & breath at a time ! I've been exactly where you are you WILL get thru it ! You got this ! BTW I just started the mood stableizer yesterday I'm kinda terrified of side effects but your videos helped me Thank you 😊
Did you ever take the Hydroxyzine?
Yes! I feel ignored. Multiple therapists I have told certain drugs didn’t work for me in the past and 20 minutes later they are pushing the same drug on me. It’s incredibly frustrating especially for how much money this can cost. It’s hard to trust people already. This just adds fuel to the fire. It’s so hard to find the right therapist. Thank you so much for sharing, I also have a really hard time going anywhere by myself. Really feeling a lot less alone in this right now. - An ignored Guinea pig.
Woah! I’m also on Klonopin and Hydroxyzine and I start Lamictal tomorrow. I have PTSD and Anxiety with agoraphobic tendencies when I’m at my worst. I take my Hydroxyzine before bed because it also makes me so tired! Thanks for sharing!
About to start forcing myself to go further.. and i understand about the red light and waiting.. it’s like being trapped
Thank you for being so transparent. This video was really helpful!
I’m glad this was helpful for you. I will be making more content soon 💜
I don't mean to sound rude but I was the same way until I realized I am self centered and 9 times out 10 people are not even looking at you because they are self centered!!
I don't know if your still on but I listen to you and like you I am bipolar and on 50 mg lamitical and 150 wellbutrin. You mentioned therapists! Omg so true. I find that they are useless. One said go slow with everything. Pet your cat. You and I both know spending time doing anything is impossible. I pet my cat all the time. Also I know how doctor's can be. The last one was chewing and snapping her gum telling me I don't have breast cancer. The pap smear one said she has no reason to check me since I had an abortion . I had one at 17. My mother the father and everyone in between told me too. I am 61 now. Old enough to be your mother but still struggling with bipolar. I am retired. Worked 30 years in jobs behind the scenes to avoid getting too close to people due to my moods. Everytime I was offered a higher position I turned it down.
Hello! I apologize, I am still here. CZcams put me in some kind of jail. I could not view or respond to comments for over 2 months-- it was beyond frustrating because I love making content. You paint such a vivid picture with the doctor snapping her gum that permeates apathy. I hope you have been doing well, much love <3
Why do you take it at night took my first dose this morning
Thank you for being honest. Let’s pray we feel relief
I agree! Let's pray for relief. I hope you are doing well <3
Thank you 💙💙💙
I have bipolar 2 and went through hell when i was young. I am 40. So then no one knew what it was. I was considered a freak. I have been through alot. Now today i am on lexapro and wellbutrin. But i need a mood stablizer. So i was hoping my dr. Could add lamitical on.
I am thinking about taking Lamitical and really want to follow your progress. Tx
Enjoyed the video thank you for being brave and making it and putting on CZcams
Thank you! I had an update video I uploaded to CZcams and something I said in it must have rubbed CZcams the wrong way because I ended up being restricted with viewing comments and responding to my viewers. It was beyond frustrating, but I am excited to start filming again. Hope you tune in.
This content is needed!
hey! thank you, you should check out my other content as well 😊 hope everything is informational and helpful, have a great day/night
Zoe I’m starting lamotrigine soon
wishing you all the luck in the world 💜
I started lamotrigine today! Praying it helps with my depression and mood. Thank you for sharing this. Best of luck and godspeed
how have you been doing on the medication?? hope all is well 💜
@@zoecain123 it's definitely made my mood more stable. Not crying one min and planning my future the next lol
@@liamnees2835 lol, yes! I know exactly what you mean. I do still have my manic moments but they definitely have died down a lot.
I was also given hydroxozine with my lamictal, never dipped into it either.
Hang in there!! Sending our love from the PO3 Podcast. I went through the same process and it’s very scary, you’re not alone!
did it increase your appetite?
this is hard to answer… I have gained about 13 pounds since taking but I have also been diagnosed with an hormonal disorder that could have contributed to that as well so I am not entirely sure.
@@zoecain123 is it hypothyroidism? if so i have that too
@@afit279 It is PCOS
@@zoecain123 ohhh. i hope everything is going well for you❤️
I like your videos. Seems like we have alot in common mental health wise. I have lamotrigine but I am scared to start it.
Hey there! I say, take it when your ready. It’s always worth a try and you can always STOP taking it if it is causing unwanted side effects. I literally just one day popped it in my mouth and swallowed and dealt with it from there. Sometimes we have to take the jump. Good luck and keep me updated in the comments. Much love 💜
At times the last few weeks I’ve had giggly stoned and high sensations like I’d had a joint - going from 150 to 175 (9 days), then 200 (17 days). Over three and a half weeks it’s all gone to shit! I’d fee Calm and relaxed and slow breathing - literally zero anxiety. But I’ve had horrible dizziness and my head has moments of “lolling” around. I drove my car and had a car accident! I had gone up from 150mg to then 175mg and then 200mg. I have actually “had mood swings” where I never had them before, and I feel I’ve been misdiagnosed - hence why for me, I’m having so much trouble I think - OR - the mood swings are revealing bipolar and will settle ? I’m just so confused. They are actually causing me mood swings daily. I’ll feel ok and not dizzy, then I’ll feel not dizzy but low. I’ve had pressure behind my eyes like they are bulging out of my head! I’ve been spaced out, can’t focus or even do a simple task. I’ve had to take a week off from work. So last Friday (5 days ago), I dropped back to 175mg and then after dosing 75mg at night i had giddy giggly highs like I was stoned and had dropped Valium. For the last three weeks it’s been nothing unpredictable at higher doses for me. Be very very careful. I can’t reach my psych as he’s on a weeks break. I’m of course not in a good mood at the moment - for most of today I wasn’t dizzy and felt ok. Then for a few hours in the afternoon it came back. Took evening meds, it went away; and the bad mood appeared. Pay attention to your moods!!!!! If I have to come off of this I’m going back to hospital, it’s what I’m considering. Most have said to me this, “I feel a bit crap for a few days going up a dose, then feels ok”. This HAS NOT BEEN THE CASE AT ALL!! I feel very alone and frightened by all this. I’m incredibly logical when it comes to medications and it’s not a psychological cause.
I appreciate this video! It's real and it's way more useful than a lot of CZcams vids. I love seeing people going through what I have, especially with mental health! ❤️
Thank you so much for your feedback! I’ve been struggling with filming cause of some increased mental health problems that have been affecting my motivation as of late. There’s been so much in my life that has had to come first b4 YT. If you are subscribed, I hope you stick around as I have some new content coming out soon. Much love 💜
Benzos can cause agoraphobia eventually. It happened to me. I am 10 months off my clonozopam after a 2 1/2 year taper. Please be careful tapering off your benzo...
interesting that you say it is the cause. cause is a very strong word. for me personally my agoraphobia is caused by childhood sexual abuse and trauma, where I don’t feel safe in the outside world. When I was 18 I was assaulted and started having panic attacks and have been on benzos ever since (10 years). I’m so sorry you had that experience with the klonopin 😢 ... the medication for me has been a life saver for me over the years.
@@zoecain123 Benzobuddies.org is a great resource to learn about benzos. I was on alprazolam and then switched to clonozopam for a total of 15 years. My Rx kept increasing dose till I was taking 4mg a day as needed. I'm still healing from the injury that benzos cause to your nervous system. The FDA finally put out a Black Box Warning late last year on benzos but I haven't read it. I'm sorry that you've been through so much. I got put on benzos bc I was having major anxiety. I got diagnosed with agoraphobia years later after a career in sales talking directly to the public all day for T- mobile/ Family Mobile at various Walmarts.
Btw I watched your lamictal vid bc i'm tapering off my lamotrigine 200 mg. I started my lamotrigine taper a couple months ago and i'm at 75mg now which I learned is way too fast I have brain fog, higher anxiety... but I expect my body to acclimate and heal hopefully within weeks.
@@greencardinal98 i have heard similar stories like yours on benzos but there are also really positive stories as well, where it has been the only medication that has worked for ppl. I make sure to stay below 1mg a day of my clonozapan and have been able to be consistent with that dosage these last 10 years. Have never gone over that daily dosage. Most days I take between .5 and .75. High anxiety days are different. But the benzo plus CBD and magnesium, as well as therapy, breathing techniques and group therapy helps a lot. My lamictal, i’m on 50mg a day still. The dr. has said to go to 75mg but overall it’s my decision so I decide what feels best. I do like lamictal a lot as a medication. No other mood stabilizer or SSRI has helped me. I also have the hydroxizine that I mention in this video. Think I’m finally going to make the leap and take it at night to help even more with night time anxiety and help with taking less klonopin. I want the klonopin to stay effective, that is my goal.
@@zoecain123 I used a whole milk solution to taper off my last 1mg of clonozopam and that took 51 weeks. I stopped taking my benzo cold turkey at first bc I didn't know better. I had reached tolerance once again and I wasn't working at the time so I thought I'd stop taking it so that it would work again when I needed it most like for a job interview. But within days I developed grand delusions that lasted for months before realizing what was going on. The benzo was a wonder drug for me until it wasn't. I'm working part time at Walmart's now getting daily exposure. The anxiety from benzo withdrawal fades over time and i've realized that i'm going to be free from debilitating anxiety. For now I live at home with my mom. I moved home in 2009 when I was 29 years old. I was a pharmaceutical rep for GSK when I started my benzo.
Hi Zoe, I can relate to the feeling about not wanting to take medications because you don't want to put your control in the hands of a medication. I had a nurse practitioner tell me something that helped me with this thought. They said not to think of medications as a crutch but more of a tool to get us where we want to be. For example, if we want to travel somewhere that is 15 miles away, we have options to get there. We could walk, but that would take a really long time and probably make us tired when we get there, or we could take a car and we would get there in a fraction of the time. Medications are like the car, we don't have to use them but they sure make the journey a hell of a lot easier. Thank you for posting! I just started back on Lamictal this week along with Effexor 75mg and Seroquel 50mg. From when I remember taking Lamictal in the past, as the Lamictal went up I didnt have to take Seroquel anymore.
Hi William! Thank you so much for your response and your view. This channel is my baby and any positive response I get is very helpful and inspiring. That is an interesting way to look at medications. I don’t think I’ve been experiencing the benefits of the lamictal any longer and that scares me. I don’t want to be on a high dosage of a medication but it is something to decide and think about. I also take Klonopin, which is a controversial anxiety medication and I am dependent on it and have been for the last 10 years of my life. It is a rough thing to deal with. Thank you again for your response, and I wish you luck 💜
My daughter has Bipolar 1 mania for three months and she is on antipsychotics and lithium . We asked the psychiatrist to try Keppra for mania and Lamictal for depression . They are both weight neutral and best for cognitive functioning and both can be given to pregnant women. We are having difficulty trying to convince the psychiatrist. He wants her on antipsychotics for two years we are against that ,facing a brick wall .
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Thank you for raising awareness!
thank you for recognizing 😊
this is such a good topic to speak about thank you so much for sharing!!❤️
Thank you
I’m on my first day of taking it. I’m just freaking out bc I have a sun burn feeling sensation on my body but no rash and I had the worst insomnia lastnight after taking it. I’m a hypochondriac as well lol I’ve done so much research that idk if it’s my head playing games.
hey!! How are you doing ?? I had that similar sun burn feeling when I first started taking it or every time I upped my dose. But it went away, the insomnia went away too and actually gave me a more rest full sleep. I did a ton of research as well b4 starting, kind of why I started this channel, to get out of my head lol hope you are doing well, much love
@@zoecain123 I stopped taking it because I got so scared. Has it made you gain or lose weight ? I’m also taking bupropion twice a day 100mg am and pm. I’m just worried the insomnia and the sunburn itchy feeling scared me !! Thank you so much for the reply.
@@barbaraberrios125 hey girl- yeah, I gained about 10 pounds but I have also been diagnosed with PCOS which could be the cause of the weight gain (plus anxiety and stress). I understand you were scared, I say always trust your gut, as long as you give it a good try 💜💜
I saw your first video and you mentioned hydroxyzine. If you havent taken it please dont. It ruined my life.
that’s interesting... how so?? I know it’s a common allergy medication. Supposed to be really low impact and help you get off benzos. I took for a few years in my early 20s and had a good experience with it. Lately though, my increased anxiety and OCD has made me fearful of taking things that make me sleepy. But i’m still hoping to take the leap at some point.
Yellow and red look so good on you! you are a beautiful and confident woman
Thank You!
Did the lamictal cause any suicidal thoughts ?
no it did not, but I am on a very lose dose. 50mg a day. I do suffer from suicidal ideation, but that is on or off medication. Are you experiencing suicidal thoughts ?
@@zoecain123 yes
@@chibanadel9145 How are you feeling now? I hope you are doing ok
It did mine!
Thank you for sharing this vulnerable moment with us. Love the poem.
thank you elizabeth 💜
Looking forward to seeing more of you 🌸
I’m so proud of you! I think it was a good call on not doing it for a second time, it’s best to take it slow and only push so far.
went around twice today =)
@@zoecain123 Wow 🤩 That’s amazing!!! Will you be sharing experience? I am still having issues leaving house and visiting my Dad.
@@elizabethcastillo8819 this one I wanted to do on my own. Listened to music really loud and just enjoyed the ride. Not sure what ima film next, still thinking about it. If you continue working on yourself, going to therapy and working on your confidence, you will get there. Just remember, your anxiety and fear is much less than how much your father misses and loves you.
@@zoecain123 Will do! As always your feedback is very insightful. Thank you.
YES. completely - "very clinical and empathy and the general sense of being a human being" is my frustration
in this world, it’s hard to find any doctor who looks at you as another human being. sad reality
I got sick of the Bullcrap with the Mental Health System, I am now being treated with meds by my Primary Care Physician . For me personally.....thats the way to go
You’re lucky that you were able to get treated for mental health by meds prescribed by your primary care, like you prefer. Most drs won’t do that, mine won’t. Are you seeing a therapist as well?
And i know america is best in the world.. what is the best antidepressant in abd?