90s Goth | What it was like
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- What was it like to be a goth in the 90's? Instead of tell you, let me show you.
Playlist #1: • Come for the Goth Stay...
Playlist #2: • Rewind to the Batcave
Playlist 3: • In the beginning
Playlist 4: • Clove cigarettes and c...
Song: Faith and the Muse - Sparks on Metropolis Records
Used with permission from Monica Richards.
Why's it so hard to find a goth clique now? I was born in the wrong time, I would've been awsome at being a 90s goth.... Cool vid btw
+Cheshire Black Where are you from?
+Cheshire Black well I'm asking myself this nearly every day as well
Isus Querena :P
Mwell, fancy meeting you here!
Black Skull **Waves**
My mother was very much part of the goth culture in the 90’s (in Salem, MA) and still is to this day! Though, she was more on the metal side of the spectrum, befriending many of the bands that would come around (Danzig, type o negative, Sepultura, gg allin and even a lot of black metal bands). She was only 18 when she had me but definitely raised me right and exposed me to the music, people and style from a very young age. I have some amazing memories growing up in the 90’s with her and many of her friends that would always entertain me and listen to some “dark, scary and heavy” music with me...even though it wasn’t the most conventional childhood, I loved it and wouldn’t trade those memories for anything.
I'd give anything to have that >.< I am a pastor's kid and my parents had me in their 30s
Dang these are two completely different lives you two lead....
I grew up an hour and a half outside of Salem.
Started off goth in middle school but then became way more influenced by Black Metal and have been in the black metal scene for the last 12 years.
Grew up in a pretty religious household too. I'm Muslim by the way. One of the rare Italian-French ones.
My best friend growing up and to this day is a pastor's kid. We progressed with our taste of music, style, and unbeffiting behavior together.
Your mother has very good taste. "Goth" girls these days don't even listen to what she listened to, they mosty listen to core bands (like Bring me the Horizon, Black Veil Brides, Blood on the Dance Floor, etc) and are really just normies who think they're goths. Goths who are actually part of the subculture are a rare breed these days, it's real unfortunate.
Also, my mother would never, ever listen to the bands yours listens to. She mainly listens to 1950s/60s oldies. She's a conservative Christian boomer.
You look like a fucking goth goddess here. Absolutely beautiful.
I was gonna say she looks like the Greek goddess Nyx or Roman goddess Nox (Goddesses of Night respectively) :D
Thank you so much
You're very sweet, thank you.
Of course!
Angela Benedict
You're welcome :)
We had mix-tapes like crazy. Also, being Goth back then wasn't all that great. It was difficult to get a job (outside of a record or second-hand clothing store). Cops harassed us. We didn't have the internet to buy clothing from. And finding other Goths, if you didn't live in a city, was almost impossible.
I grew up in NY so I was fortunate in that dept. I remember always wondering what it was like for people in smaller towns. How they'd find each other, music, did they have places to hang out etc? When I was young my grandparents had a vacation house in the Pocono's in PA and people would stare and point like I was a sideshow freak when I'd visit-- Not a Goth to be seen. We weren't that far from Philly either!
Time to go to Germany :P It's pretty epic.
No need for apologies. Thank you
Interesting. You know what, we probably ran into each other in one of the clubs at some point. I used to hit the Batcave on occasion and there was another in NYC that I cannot remember the name of to save my soul. Then we went around NY and NJ finding little bars and crap having goth nights. Those were always fun. The best was the one where me and my two friends were the only ones who showed up. We got to hear anything we wanted to and went nuts on the dance floor. I miss those days. I'm still kind of a closet 90s goth. LOL!
Aye, I hear ye. Try getting a job as a (fully qualified) Early Years Practitioner In rural Scotland. Teaching nursery class (3-5 year olds) in a Primary School. It was at this point the piercings had to go. Shame really. The kids didn't care about my blue hair and piercings...they probably thought I was some kind of majestic fairy or something. Kids are far more accepting than adults.
20 years later, things have relaxed a wee bit. A few piercings have sneaked in over the years. :D
I was 23 when The Crow came out in the theatres. I started listening to Siouxsie in '86 while in high school. The rest of the 90's was a blur of darkness, intrigue, and beautiful music in goth. It really was an amazing decade. I feel because people took it to heart. I don't wish to put down those younger people now but it has changed with the expansion of the internet. Goth has become less of a mystery and more of a cosplay.
+Caolan Dix My sister is 18. The amount of times that she and her friends would refer to me as emo is gut wrenching. I'd have to correct them and say 'goth' to get a response of 'what's the difference?'.
+Angela Benedict Uhm yeah emo is different. Completely.
+Angela Benedict Oh love the video btw... :)
Caolan Dix Thank you so much! Hopefully this video clears some things up for the 'goth' cosplayers and the playlists inspire them. A resurgence would be nice.
I listened to Siouxsie in the 80s too, the cure, depeche mode, Bauhaus, the church and joy division, among others. But I loved shoe gaze too. There was a late night British radio show I recorded on a cassette every Friday to find new music. Lol. I am an old goth at heart. I just did what felt right and i loved wearing black, I didn't really label myself. It took my daughter who follows in my footsteps musically to tell me I was goth in the 80s. :) siouxsie still rocks my socks; they were playing Happy House at sonic the other day! And omg I'm commenting on a 3 year old comment.
I realized this morning that my goth "phase" is now old enough to drink. This is EXACTLY what it was like to be a goth in the '90s. Thank you so much for this!
+Laurel Beyl Oh wow, that's intense. 'Old enough to drink.' That hits home. I'm so happy you like it! Thanks for the kind words.
I loved it when you whipped out your CD collection. What a gothess 🖤
Thanks! What better way to answer the viewer whose sat through that far and is still wondering 'Wait a minute...Is this girl legit?'. The CD book answers all!
Do you have a makeup tutorial up of this look? It's really pretty.
This made me kind of sad. I really miss the 90s ... Coffee shops and cemeteries, staying up till dawn, Duran Duran's the chauffeur on vinyl ....
That hit me in the heart.
back in the 90's we used to consider Joy Division goth... now they're considered "indie" ..yuk!
in other news: GAWD DAMN, you are gorgeous! 😍
+Richard S. Yup, I believe their t-shirts can now be found at Urban Outfitters! Thank you so much for the compliment
+Angela Benedict no problem :)
and by the way, props on that Athamay CD, I myself was never able to find it!
Richard S. Thanks! I've had that one for years. I think I got it through mail order.
+Richard S. , yeah, poor Joy Division getting repackaged for the hipsters and their sorry take on the classic JD sound.
This was off the charts because it examined everything. The dance slayed, the makeup so on point and the candelabra giving the whole scene a subtle nuance.
Gods, I miss the 90's! It was some of the worst and best years of my life!
The 90s made me into who I am.... The crow with Brandon Lee.. best 90s movie that made me dark, not goth but dark.
Ah, I love that Blood and Gold quote! It's sad, but true, that things just aren't the same as the old days. The magick remains in the memory, I suppose, and hopefully in a few special, far off places.
+Sara Monster It's fitting, isn't it? You know it was intense if a memory alone can invoke those feelings. The later model millennials have no idea what they've been robbed of.
Sara Monster : 🌹💜🎩💀🌑🌚
I hope it all comes back somehow ❤
No kidding, I hear one Sisters of Mercy song I go right back to Xmortis days in Boston
Everything was better in the 90's, before things got so.....organized
I miss it :/
Goth was actually better in the 80s than the 90s, at least in Europe.
@@whssy goth wasn’t even goth in the 80s ...what you are you talking about ?
@Richie Yes, I agree it did! But it wasn’t called goth yet, it was much later that it got the term goth, yet there were songs which were defined as “gothic” but that was because of its literal sense not its musical symphony but what it made the critics feel at the time. The term goth was actually thrown around as a slur, it was much later that people started embracing it. Check anywhere ...😊
and "woke" we've been awake since the 80s F*(K the mainstream
Cure's "Disintegration" is one of the best albums every made. :)
+Jesse Gunn (Warmer) That is a beautiful album. It's like a daydream.
Oh wow, that made me sooo nostalgic for the old days! I'm 35 and lived for the 90's goth clubs. They were the best. I truly thought i could live forever when i danced there. I felt like i was home. I can't believe it was so long ago now - i actually got called an "old school goth" by a 17 yr old a while back. Geez, am i really that old??? Scary stuff.....
I got nostalgic making it! Listening to this song always brings me back
Vatishi I'm 40, and I lived for the goth clubs in nyc.
This is my first youtube comment ever. Normally I consider it the worst of the dumbest talking for attentions sake. As a 43 yo goth still involved in the scene I respect and admire what you do. Did the 90s goth hay days. Every thing you do and say is on point. Can't criticize anything you've done even if I had reason to. Thanks for what you do not just for nostalgia but as everything you say is right. Thanks for putting yourself on the line by exposing yourself honestly and thank -you that in this cyber world of kids online in make up never being to a club, you are true & flying the bat flag regardless of the flak. Love your work. xo
Thank you so much, your comment really, REALLY made my night. That's why I started vlogging my experiences. I know that people like us we're quite nostalgic and look back on the Goth scene with mixed emotions-- sadness for the loss and happiness for what we experienced mixed with a longing for it's return. As for the newer Goths that have no freakin idea about what the scene really was and are stuck with this mess-- give them a taste of what it was and what it could be. The future of that is in their hands.
Being a Goth guy in the 1990's was basically in a nutshell : Listening to : The 3 Glenn Danzig bands : The Misfits , Sam Hain , Danzig , and then later on his solo stuff , Type O Negative , Cradle of Filth , Dimmu Borgir / Old Man's Child , Moon Spell , reading Edgar Allen Poe poetry , tarot cards, Wicca & Witch Craft , watching horror movies that revolve around ghosts and haunted houses , and loving the movies The Sixth Sense & The Frighteners. Goth's were mainly in the 14-24 age range back then.
The Goth sub-culture was a sub-culture , just like there were punk rock sub-cultures , skater - roller bladder sub-culture , whigger - wangsta - gangsta sub-culture , grunge & alternative rock sub-culture , and then circa 1997-2003 the Korn fan club and sub-culture was even more bizarre then any sub-culture , I do not know what they were ??? Whiggers who moshed, drove low-riders, and had dread-locks ? LOL !
I was born the same year as Angela Benedict 1979. So that was my honest opinion of my : 14-24 age range experiences with intermingling and hanging out a few times with different sub-cultures in the Seattle Metro Area.
Lemme guess, the whiggers are the ones who listen to bands like Korn and Limp Bizkit.
Not so goth.
ehh that sounds like you were way more into metal than goth. I was uber goth in the 90's and never listened to those bands.
Such memories. Remembering the times at a Bella Morte show, or a Switchblade Symphony performance. You are a very lovely Goth Lady, and it just brings back beautiful memories. If it's not on your list, I do recommend some good old Type O Negative. In Kansas City we had a fantastic club, for years Monday Night was Goth Night, with DJs, and quite often live shows, first one I remember there was Cruxshadows. Nostalgia and memories, and your visage brings all of those to the forefront, thank you for bringing those memories back.
I remember seeing Crüxshadows in Coventry a few years back, maybe '03 or '04ish. The place was *packed*. Loved it.
David Williams Yes! Type O Negative 🤘🏻💚
next video, just an idea, maybe talk about how regular folks mistakenly thought Marilyn Manson was goth, and maybe mention how Columbine affected the scene at the end of the 90's. And don't get me started on the Jenny Jones talk show...ugh. maybe the thrill of finding a nice black lipstick that didn't smear and was actually opaque and not a greasy grey when applied. always seemed to be hit and miss, unless a fellow bat gave a good recommendation. then the Bauhaus reunion tour (still wear that t-shirt). so much stuff to list.... :)
Great point! Somehow he's become the standard bearer for goth music :/
that columbine thing pisses me off, they had nothing to do with the goth scene, just a media scare tactic
ZZOTH funny you bought that up i imeadietly thought 90s goth -marylin manson
She had talked about this in other videos.
You are right though. Most"normal" people we mean to goths, but as a female there was the semi-frequent non-goth who would try and hit on your by telling you how they also "like the scene" and how they "also listen to Marilyn Manson" MM being the only band they ever mentioned because it was the only bad normal people thought was goth...
Which wasn't goth.
I liked MM but I was picky about what MM songs I liked. I think the major confusion about MM was because he covered some songs that some people considered goth and he had an extreme look that some goths mostly guys worked into their look.
Thank you for creating this video this brings me down memory lane when I was a goth in the 90's. I remember being so excited when I received a Cleopatra Records CD and cassette tape music catalog in the mail. Still read Lost Souls once a year :)
+Kitten Tears Thank you so much for your comment! I'm so happy you liked the video. Cleopatra was one of my favorite labels
This is my first CZcams comment. (from my Alt account, heh). I am about to turn 49. I was goth in the 80s. This video made me happy and sad all at once. Well done. Though I am old, fat, and mean(er), I'm still the Baddest Bat in the Belfry. Keep the Darkflame lit.
+Apothsis TheDemon Thank you so much for your comment. You got to see the goth scene in an era I wish I could have. The video was sad to make in places. There were bits where I'd remember, 'Oh, this doesn't exist anymore.'. It definitely sucks but I think there's potential for it to come back. I'll keep the Darkflame lit.
Now I feel the need to break out my own CD binder. Oh the memories!
+TheMistressMisery Memmmmmories
Ah 90-ties when being goth actually meant something, now its just a bunch of hipsters trying to be cool acting like they are goth.
Btw Great video and cool dance ;)
+03nj Thanks so much! I'm glad you like it. Part 2 is in the works :P
+03nj ah the 80's, when being goth actually meant something ;p. I mostly agree with you though but we still see nowadays baby bats really being called to the subculture with a genuine interest. Overall, we are once more marginals of a rare kind. I very rarely see other goths anymore and even my favorite stores are closed in my city. Back to sewing like in the 80's!
***** This is very true. Although, Etsy isn't so bad :) But there is something about making a day out of going into a few brick and mortar stores. It's a tough nut to crack but I'm hoping with my channel to bring things back to the beauty of what they were. At the moment the subculture for baby bats exist online.
@A G That's definitely the case for me rn. There are only, like, five people who label themselves goth/alternative in my town, and two of them are a friend and I.
Mixer agreed. I’ve been goth since I was 12 & I’m 27 now and it’s really pathetic to me that all these edgy thots Who probably would’ve made fun of us and bullied us when we were in school want to be like us now 🤬🤬🤬
I stumbled over your videos, it is such relief to find someone so goth still, i'm a mettler myself but in the uk there was no divide between goths and mettlers, though velvet goths such as yourself are a rare but welcome sight. Goths, the most beautiful creatures on the plant!
I use to live in the UK! The clubs I went to had a mix of people who listened to Metal there as well.
I miss goth nights in my town, it seems to all be Cyber goth, I never hear Sisters or the Nephilim any more. Thank you for giving me a glimpse at the old life.
David Terry I did notice the clubs were very much dominated by ebm. I don't mind it, there are the odd few bands I really like but it was 98% ebm and one Sisters of Mercy song.
Yea, Norwich was once a hub of alternative activities, but has been beaten into submission by the local authorities, leaving pickings a bit thin on the Goth/Metal front.
David Terry Are you in Norwich?
You accurately described the memories that I too have from the 90s. In fact, I will admit that I got a bit emotional reminiscing while watching this video. I was fortunate enough to grow up in Central Florida and we were blessed to have "The Castle" which I'm sure you know was and I hope still is a very special place. I remember the energy on that dance floor and it fed my soul. I just recently stumbled onto your channel and I'm very much enjoying your videos. Please keep up the important work of documenting history and educating others who did not get to experience what some of us did. Thank you for sharing!
You still carry the goth banner with pride and a timeless beauty enveloped in luscious darkness to this day. Very inspiring for those of us who have kept the "faith".
+D4NT3 Thank you :) I fully intend to put in my best efforts to bring this scene back to life.
Stumbled across your channel this evening. Thank you so much for making this. Sparks was a great choice. I was the DJ in my town for 15 years (since 94). Spent far too many hours on the dance floor at The Castle in Tampa, Hung up my headphones shortly after the cyberlocks showed up at the local Hot Topic (remember when HT was just a mail order catalog?) Anyway... I just wanted to thank you for this beautiful trip down memory lane. Some of my most cherished memories were in the club and at the after parties, or during the countless road trips to other cities to see how they do it in far away lands. You have captured my nostalgia, and awoken a side of myself I had long since forgotten
No worries, I'm happy you like it. Thank you for the kind words. It was such an incredible and magical time. I really wanted the new goths to get a feel for what it was like back then and for those of us who were there to relive it. I remember when the cyber kids started appearing at the clubs as well. They started as go go dancers at Batcave in NYC.
The go go dancers at The Castle in Tampa made the same transition. They changed the way people danced too. That was about the same time that all the "classics" were moved downstairs to the patio 😕
this makes me wish i was old enough to be a 90's goth... v.v birth: 1991
+Neko Hitomi We just gotta bring it back then :)
Agreed
😊 those were the days
Same thing with me. I was way too young to be goth back in the 90's (my year of birth: 1989) and I wasn't introduced to the goth subculture until 2004 as well.
What about me? Because of the fact I was born in 2003 and the fact that I was just the usual random sheep in the herd of pop music until just that time of the last year, I even missed the more recent years lead by the metal version of gothic in 1990-2015 with Evanescence, Lacuna Coil, Within Temptation's earlt stuff, Type O Negative, Cradle of Filth, Theatre of Tragedy, HIM, UnSun, Cemetary, Paradise Lost, TIamat, Moonspell, etc. As the half of them have already split up! :( At least I can listen to them whenever I want to (and I have a lot to catch up... and that's the reason I'll be listening to a big part of the mentioned after Type O Negative in the whole 2019...)
i just fell in love after see you dancing
+Oskar Terramortis Thank you :) I miss being able to go out and dance!
+Angela Benedict me too. Big time.
+Sergio Valencia I hear the scene is pretty booming in Cali.
+Angela Benedict I hear you! I'm 43 and stopped going out to dance only because the music changed so much that I can't feel it any longer.
***** What's your favorite? There are some newer bands that are putting out the classic sounds and older ones that are still going.
If you're over 30 like me then you've also been blessed with looking young! I didn't start tapping into goth culture until circa 2001 but that was close enough to the 90s to relate to all this. This video was a real throwback... right down to the dance moves! Hard to believe I didn't remain a goth for life but it still lives somewhere on the inside. Well done with this video :)
Your dancing is of the highest calibre, I love it :) Great music too, sounds like Cocteau Twins (but darker!).
Thank you!
the feeling that u and your company for that night were immortal it is a undiscribable feeling I loved it and just like tat the people places and vibe were gone like a dream that u woke from and it broke your heartbecouse nothing would ever b that real or good again
I couldn't have said it any better! Thank you so much for putting this together ♡
+Lance Canoe Thank you so much! I'm so happy you like it :)
The song alone is worth watching this video. I remember a friend who worked in CD store in my town giving me a heads up about a band called "Faith & The Muse" and the album "Elyria". I blindly ordered it and never regretted it. Unfortunately they disbanded. "Bellwether Syndicate" and Monica's solo stuff as well as her guest singer appearances in "Eden House" are fantastic, but I want F&tM back! NOW! Greetings from Germany!
Thank you for putting this together. It brought back so many memories and made me realize just how much I miss those times and the people I knew then. It was incredibly moving for me.
+Shawn Harrison I'm so happy you liked it. It's so hard to put into words how powerful those times were. To explain to someone who never lived it - I tried to capture that. Part 2 is in the works :)
It must've been awesome. I'm a goth now, I'm the only goth in school, when I tell someone about goth they're like "isn't it an aesthetic?" There's no one who knows what goth music is, people call me a satanist, it must've been pretty nice having people your kind with you. I'm jealous 🖤
All of this! And the way you describe a goth club night - the magic, mystique, and never wanting it to end - was all spot on and made me smile. Beautifully done and brought back some lovely memories. Cheers from another 90's goth.
Hello! Thank you so much :) I never drank but I'd wake up with something I called a 'fun over'. It's when you wake up the next day after an epic night sad that it's over.
How on Earth is this the first vid I’m seeing? It’s exactly what I needed to see at this exact time. Angela we must have met before! 😂
🖤Love is NOT dead🖤
This was my first video on the goth scene 🖤 I'm so happy you like it! I wanted to invoke those feelings of nostalgia.
Instantly charming, dazzling, brilliant, gorgeous. This video sent me into a melancholy trip down memory lane, making me miss the 90's (and 80's too) more than ever ~ I've been sad for like a week after watching this. You have amazing magnetism and screen presence ~ on the same level as a Marilyn Monroe or James Dean ~ and I really mean that. This video struck me so intensely that I had to do my first-ever comment & subscription, so I really want to thank you Angela.
For all Dark / Metal Subcultures I declare it a Universal Dark Holiday for February 13th sounds like Friday the 13th... I know its the day before Valentines Day but that holiday sucks FTW Pass the Word [195 Days Left and Counting]
One of my favorite memories is waking up Sunday morning eyeliner still on your face, a trail of clothes leading to the bed, getting into the shower, the smell of clothes emanating from your hair, rewinding the night in your head, thinking "that was one of the best times of my life."
Thanks for the nostalgia. Well Done.
+theevilchemist I use to have what I would call a 'funover'. I never drank but I would feel so down and almost sick the next morning that the night was over. It almost like I was hungover.
I have mad respect for you. 💚
you know i watch this video from time to time, because it just makes me feel things. i became a goth in the 2000s and i just relate so much with all of this.
this video it's a gem,the part of goth clubs and particularly this: "like children of the night we thought we immortals . yet, we are looking at the 90s in the rearview mirror wondering what happened" it's so beautifully written and so true and i feel it with fondness in my heart
there's a reason why i come back over and over to this video and why you're my favourite goth youtuber
sorry about the rambling it's one of those melancholic nights 🖤
late 90's goth was huge, I graduated highschool in 99 and back then there was so many goth type groups of kids. I wasn't part of them but I sure do remember them as I secretly dated one of the goth chicks lol. Is goth even a thing anymore in highschools of today?
No, it's been replaced by emo kids who play Pokémon all day.
I'm the only goth kid in my high school. Everyone know is emo and no one listens to the music I listen to and you can't even find a goth club anymore
Nope. Not a thing. I was alone in my school from 2009-2011. Though, if you search hard enough, youll find others lol
"secretly dated one?" Why was it a secret? lol
Anyway, my last time in high was 09 and at my school, I was the only Goth there. Well, there was this other girl who was 2 years younger than me but I feel like she was going through a angst phase so I'm not sure if she stayed the same or not but other than that, the main alternative people were I lived were Scene kids, very few emo kids, and 2 Rockabilly fans. Oh, and ravers lol.
I feel you have to search very hard. I've tried searching for years and at the most, I only come across metalheads which I mean, metal is fine but I'd love to find someone I could listen to Goth rock, Darkwave, and Deathrock with you know? xD
if you’re getting a lot of likes from me im sorry LOL, i’ve just been binging your videos.
this is all really nice information to learn; i don’t consider myself goth or anything really. i listen to pretty much everything except country (lol) but lean more towards rock/more recently metal. but im slowly becoming interested in the goth subculture, not because of aesthetics but more like a genuine interest to learn. the first band i officially listened to was london after midnight after i found them in the r/goth subreddit and i LOVEE them. im obsessed with selected scenes from the end of the world, i listen to the black cat and sacrifice almost everyday. then i found out about she wants revenge, and obviously bauhaus, etc etc etc.
guess im commenting this because you’re so passionate about teaching and showing what it was like when you were younger-the scene, the music, the memories, and that even though it may not seem like it, you’re a big influence to a lot of people/the younger generation (im 19 lol) so thank you so much
No one spoke in the 1990s:we all communicated with signs.
Signs and hand gestures. That's why fights were less of an occurrence, you had to be really pissed off to have the inclination to write that fast.
Angela Benedict
firing off emotional missives in an epic syllabic slap fight for the ages!
Scott Matheson It's a fight til the tendonitis!
lol
Scott Matheson during sex you had a paper and marker on hand so you can wright "ohoh yes"
The feelings of the 90s were by far the most exhilarating. I truly miss it. Beautiful video
Thank you. They truly were
Nostalgia !!!! I want go back in 90s now, when I was I fresh young goth girl. Thanks for reminds me tons of souvenirs !
You should totally write a "coming of age of a goth girl" book series for middle/high school age kids. I can see your experiences written into books being helpful to baby bats!
Very nicely done Angela. So elegant.
+Fred Berger Coming from you that's a HUGE compliment. Thank you
+Angela Benedict Sounds great - can't wait!
You really brought me back with this video. i went goth at in the mid 2000s like 2005 i never really got do alot of these things. i am glad i found your channel thought ive subbed you and im going to support your patreon for sure. i can tell you are a person who has understood this culture for years past me and i respect that alot. Keep your videos coming you have a true supporter on your side.
Personally, I don't associate myself with any contemporary subculture, to me it all seems fruitless to be forever locked into what I find to be essentially high school-ish pecking order. Pardon if that remark offends anyone.
However, much of the music that's often been associated with a Goth aficionado, I've always enjoyed. While I don't label these groups as goth (prefer terms like Post-Punk, Death Rock, Darkwave), I will say that Fields of the Nephilim are my most favorite band in the world. Their music touches me in a way that far transcends the limitations of identity politics. they are Ritual Music, A conscious meditation into the arcane. My interest into Occult Philosophy is greatly in debt to their inspiration. Music has a tremendous role in my life as entertainment and a form of cognitive enrichment.
Much like you I was exposed to this stuff when there was basically no internet, or commonly available resources we have today. Never cared much for the social aspects, like how to dress or act, but the music will always captivate me.
Sadly I missed Peter Murphy doing his acoustic tour last month ;((
Yes I totally agree. I was a punk all the way through high school (in England) and then when I left I thought what's the point of limiting myself so I kind of just opened up my style and music choice. I still dress alternatively but listen to a far wider range of music and wear a lot more clothes I never would have.
I agree with Kai. Couldn't have said it better myself.
You won me immediately by opening with Faith and the Muse.
I feel like watching The Addams Family now 🤔
Damn, I was too late! I love living in the time I live, but it's nice getting the possibility to go back in time through your channel!
Faith and the Muse.... ahhhh so good.
I have seen this video one thousand times. and always love it.
I was goth before it was even called goth. I didn't know it had a name.
I'm trapped in 90s goth. Always found it to be the era with the beat bands, songs, fashion, clubs. You should try show clips of goth nights out because each country differs so much. Love the music you choose in your clips, these are bands I love
fun! but don't forget 4AD and Nettwork record labels!
+Miska Kazda Part 2 is in the works. I'll make more record label mentions :)
+Miska Kazda Oh yes, and Beggars Banquet too! "Tones on Tail - POP", one of my favorite off that label!
Trent Von I've got 4ad, metropolis and waxtrax so far. It's not done yet :) I mentioned Cleopatra, Projekt and Nightbreed because at the time they were the most popular.
Nightbreed is from my home town in the UK. I was friends with pretty much everyone. Really cool people. Nightbreed is no longer there but you can still buy online. I still see some of those guys now, but a lot have moved away.
What?!!
How old were you in 1995? Three??!
15 or 16 depending on the month.
You are remarkably well preserved.
I begin to wonder if you have very long canines.
+Derek Gunn Thank you...actually I do. They were literally referred to as 'vampire teeth' before I got braces. Still pointy as hell 😄
Might this have inspired you?
Derek Gunn Inspired me in what way?
Thanks for the nostalgia! And by the way, you are incredibly GAWJUSS! I was one of those dirty south Goths in Alabama in the 90s. it was such a different time then but in a wonderful way
Omg your CD collection! I wish I could borrow it from you. I would listen to all of them in ONE NIGHT! 😍
That is one of my favourite songs from Faith and the Muse so glad you played it.
It's one of my favs as well. So dreamy. I'm glad you like it!
I was a kid in the 90's and lived beside a high school. I remember seeing all the goth cliques and thinking they look so awesome. Wish I was a teenager in the 90s. Now I'm grown up and can't do shit because covid.
Thanks for re awakening my 90’s Goth days SF. Best music best dance best clothing best clubs best people
This makes me miss my goth club days soooo much. Thanks for bringing back the happy, magical memories!
+Bob Markwell I'm happy to have made you smile
@@angelabenedict I will always love this video.
Especially your reaction to "corsets". :)
The lack of Bahaus and Christian Death in your CD case is disturbing. JK. Great video. It's pretty much how I remember it.
Oh how beautiful it would be so see the community thrive Luke that once more. Love the channel by the way.
I'm trying, we need the help of the elder goths who experienced it though!
My mum would draw the line at the clothes so I never really came into my own, but I was as goth as you could get without the fashion (which was pretty goth, believe it or not!) But everything else - the music, the clubs, the smells, the beauty - were such an integral part of my life. Nothing moves me like the old days. I actually had to pause the video several times because I was SO COMPLETELY overwhelmed with nostalgia. Thank you for the memories. And thank you even more for the play lists!
+Melissah B. Thank you so much for your kind words. This truly warms my heart to heart.
Man you made my night. I was a 90's goth. You brought back a lot of very good memories for myself.
+M.B MB That makes me so happy to hear! I'm glad to give you some evening nostalgia
What a wonderful Renaissance of goth culture bloomed in the shadows of the 90's... You are such a beautiful dark angel, thanks for the great video
Hi! I have been watching your videos. I am not a Goth, but I like Bauhaus, Siouxsie, The Cure, Joy Division, Virgin Prunes, PIL, The Birthday Party, Danielle Dax. I'm 57 now, but in Austin there was Cave Club, a Punk, Goth, Industrial, in the 80s. I hung around the Goths too.
I'm learning a lot from your videos.
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Not sure why I teared up watching this.. Maybe the lovely song choice. Either way, thank you for the video
Thank you
Awesome video - conveys so much with just text and expressions. Very compelling.
I know this video is old but I just stumbled across this channel and I am loving it. You are so right. I am a 90's goth as well and you have described what is like to a T. I about fell when I saw the magazines and saw Propaganda...OMG...I haven't seen one in years and yes Cleopatra was one of the main labels. I remember having to special order imports from our record store and usually the way I learned music was from asking the DJ at the club who it was. Then a store opened up about 1hr away that catered to the goth and punk crowd so used to travel an hour just to get music. Those were the days and the memories I have I wouldn't trade for anything. Of course all I have are the memories and those were some of the greatest times of my life. The goth culture was completely different then than what they consider "goth" today. Its funny because I am always listening to my 90's goth music instead of modern day music. I have a book of cd's just like you and get made fun of that I am way behind the times. So much Nostalgia watching your videos. Thank you so much!!!
Very nicely done. This makes me terribly nostalgic for the Boston scene back then. Things sometimes really did feel like magic. Even though there are still goth nights to attend, they just don't have that anymore.
Toward the end of the 90s there were some wonderful digital avenues for finding new music, but early on it was all about the compilations, word of mouth, and asking the DJs what they were playing.
+Nick Atlas I've been to a few clubs in Boston back in the 90's! My ex was in an industrial band that played there and was opening for Battery Cage. Manray and this other night that was held upstairs in some building by a train station. Can't remember the name. I remember having to get a fake ID despite being 18 because in Boston your legal age was 19.
I totally agree about the compilations. In Part 2 I'm going to explore Hex Files: The Goth Bible and the compilations like The Goth Box, Zoth Ommog, Gothic Rock etc. There was so much more I wanted to do but I was defeated when my printer ran out of black ink lol.
+Angela Benedict If I recall, there was a short-lived night near North Station that may be the one you're talking about. As to Manray, for most of the 90s I was there three time per week.
Battery Cage rings a bell for me. I remember seeing them when they opened for Mentallo and the Fixer at the Rat. I feel for your ex; Manray was a great club but it was a pretty miserable venue for live music. :)
Nick Atlas This venue was small. you walk in there was a bar to the left and stage/dancefloor to the right.
They didn't play at Manray, I just went to check it out. You were probably there that night! Mentallo and the Fixer!! That brings back memories.
Your playlist certainly brought back memories!
Hi Angela I am sorry to bother you. I have seen a few of your videos and its really an amazing thing of what your doing and I truly admire your courage and I have the deepest respect for you. It makes me feel so happy to see others goths no matter what version they interpret we all love being goth. Thank you so very much for taking the time to show everyone your love to this amazing culture and also sharing your personal experience as well. I have subscribed to you CZcams channel and I really enjoy seeing your videos, they're fun and educational too and I truly enjoy seeing just how passionate and the love you have for being goth. I wish you all the best. May peace and happiness continue for you always. your an amazing person and I look forward to seeing more of your videos. Thank you very much and again all of the best to I wish their are more people like you because your so peaceful and understanding and their is still till this so much misunderstanding and all of these detractors who do not rise above themselves like you do all the time and understand one another. I apologize for the really long comment but I am someone who normally does not leave comments just by watching your videos is more than enough so again thank you so much and I wish you again happiness and a beautiful future in you life take care always.
This video is a well structured, and especially with good information.
Greetings ;)
+Yami Spechie Thank you so much
90s kids in general already get mad nostalgia for the 90s. Just imagine how hard it hits for 90s goths
Thank you for keeping great culture thriving
I think I'm in love! You've earned my sub! It's wonderful to see my past life manifest in the present. I wish I could go back to it, but priorities of gotten in the way.
I had to watch this one again. This was one of the first videos I saw here and it is still the best to capture what it was like... the absence of speaking makes this perhaps the strongest emotional connection to the best days of the scene. I wish there were more shows like this but the format has evolved. You're doing a great job capturing yesteryear.
Yes. This is everything I miss 💀❤️ Also Sparks is one of my favorite songs. Great video!
Enjoyed this!
One of my favorites was the Black Box cd set from wax trax & another is the Cleopatra & metropolis sticker I put on my car's windshield.
Glad you also got your dance on too.
+H Noir Noir Thank you! I'm so happy you liked this.
That's awesome! Gotta wear that love with pride! I'm working on Part 2 at the moment and Wax Trax is definitely involved :D
Thanks for all the work that went into putting these playlists together, Angela. I'm a "darkly leaning" musician who wanted to dig into the underground of gothic music, and this was totally helpful. I was familiar with the big names in the gothic and industrial scenes, but now my eyes are opened up to a lot of different things. Just wanted to say thanks because I have really been digging into these playlists. Cheers!
i miss those days. went to clubs all over, philly, dc, baltimore, richmond, norfolk, orlando...some of the best times of my life. its really quite a sad world we have now.
Wonderful ,awesome and intelligent video ! The idea with the cards is very good.
I remember the CD cases I carried around in my car, even in early 2000s.
Oh my god this takes me back, and your look in this video was my every day look back then. This is legit getting me emotional haha. Being goth in the 90s- despite the stigma, stares, and other crap that came along with standing out in a society that wasn't quite ready for that yet- was honestly the best part of my life. I discovered goth at 14(through the old Jenny Jones makeover shows, of all things) and just fell in love. I was the only goth girl in my school for a couple years. There was one other goth kid, a guy, and of course we got together. It was just such a fun time, full of the wonder and the excitement of taking part in this style and culture that I absolutely *loved*, that made me feel so much more beautiful and interesting than the standard looks that were popular at the time. That was one of the biggest draws for me- it was something INTERESTING in a sea of boring same-ness. I remember trying to find makeup and clothes before Hot Topic was a thing and it wasn't easy, especially since I lived in the bible belt. I had to buy normal black clothes and alter them, and I could only ever find black lipstick around Halloween so I'd stock up and hope I didn't run out. In '96 I stumbled onto this tiny shop in the city that sold high-end goth clothes and Manic Panic makeup. 15 year old me nearly cried from joy, and thankfully my parents were decently well off and my dad would always buy me stuff cause he enjoyed seeing me happy even if he didn't quite get my style. And the club, oh man. Every Thursday the gay club in the city hosted goth night and even though I was underage I would go and have a blast dancing and checking people out till 1 or 2 in the morning. Falling asleep in school the next day was completely worth it. I have a son now and I'll be so happy if he follows in mommy's footsteps, so I can take him shopping and show him how to do his makeup and take him and his friends to goth night(if the club still does it of course). I know I'm rambling but this brought back so many amazing memories
Nice video, very nostalgic for me and as a 90s goth I related a lot to much of what you wrote here. It's weird how now you can just listen to whatever music you want and see all kinds of extremely interesting and unusual people online but in those days goth music and goth clubs held such an air of mystery and exoticism which was not easily obtained other places. . It's an interesting change. kind of sad in a way.
I would love to bring back that feeling and show the modern generation and get their take on it. Just to see how they perceive it.
Aahhhhh my favorite song!!! I remember so much of the bands and stuff you talk about in the 90's. I'm an 80's, late 70's goth. There was only several of us then. At least in California in my area anyway. My mother hated it and put me in a catholic school during my high school days. Lol...I was always in trouble wearing my uniform shorter and gothed up.
Lots of "fondly remembering" videos out there but a) I like this feels honest and uniquely presented and b) including playlists is a wonderful idea to perpetuate the style, rather than just sigh "ho-hum well that's the past, not for you"
Good job
+Matthew Stogdon I wanted it to feel authentic and really put out that sense of reminiscing with a sense of mourning because I genuinely do miss those days. There's no reason they shouldn't come back. I suppose this also double's as a recruitment video :X I'm really happy you like it. Coming from you that means a lot. Next time I'm in Norwich. VIDEO!
+Angela Benedict Yep, I'm game.
So well presented and well written! I can relate to everything you said. I did the whole 90s mailorder/magazine thing too, but in my case I grew up in a very small isolated northern town so there were no goth clubs and no other goths to play with. In most cases I had to "hide" my gothness growing up because it was way too weird to be the only one all decked out. I wasn't able to fully immerse myself in that culture because, well, there was no culture for me. It was only after traveling to bigger cities and to Europe where I got to see the full-on goth/industrial live and club experience. It was quite an experience hearing Ministry, Skinny Puppy and Nine Inch Nails in a club for the first time and eventually seeing those bands live. It was really cool seeing all of these awesome people dressed up and not afraid to be free. I experience that whenever I'm in a big city. People can just be totally nuts and free and no one bats an eye. In a small town anything different is frowned upon.
Not having a "scene" to call my own allowed me to explore other genres such as heavy metal, rap, punk, pop, alt, and later on EDM. Without a specific subculture to develop into made me dwell in many of them and my music tastes are extremely varied. I'm now a strange hybrid who travels far and wide attending concerts and festivals of all genres and for me there are no boundaries when it comes to music. I would've loved to grow up in a large city like New York. I would be a totally different person, but I have no regrets for where I grew up and its made me into quite a different beast altogether.
The nostalgia...
Love the sweater. Oh, and the playlists of course ;-)
+angelusmagnificus Thank you
The whole outfit rocks :-) And please do, such lovely collections, they really take me back
Angela thank you so much for being so open and raw. And giving us insight to the word im sure all of us alternative youngsters you've wanted to live. You've open me up and now I'm sharing my own experiences on my own channel ❤ so seriously thank you again for just being you
These are definitely my Favourite Videos you do. Now going away for a while on a trip to Nostalgia World.Thanks :)
+thisdisguise84 That makes me happy. I'm so glad you like it
+Angela Benedict Love the Song in the background too...Not sure they'd have that on Smule though haha
thisdisguise84 It's in the description :) I keep checking Smule. If it manages to make it on there, I'm ON IT!