Song Hit Me Deep | Ren ft. Bibi- Crutch | Reaction
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- čas přidán 28. 05. 2023
- This song brought me back to 2010 when I was really going through it and I thought I had someone by my side but I didn’t. The medications messed me up and every day was a struggle just to make it through the day. Ren painted this beautifully. Thanks brother
Link To Original Video: • Ren Ft. Bibi - Crutch
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Ren said, this was filmed at the end of a cold October. After 3 scary er visits and a nervous breakdown.
He wanted to show the things that he felt were UGLY about himself.
His body.
And alchemize it into something beautiful.
THAT he did.
This one....is special.
This was shot before he was diagnosed with Lyme. He was skin and bones and very sick, this is real and raw. Bibi was his girlfriend.
everything ren does is pure magic.
He wrote this after what was essentially a nervous breakdown, so you're spot on about the feel of it. He was terrified that if he lost his mind he'd lose Bibi (then his gf) and everyone else too. That was when he begged her to set up the gofundme that found the Lyme and got him the treatment that saved his life. You felt every uncomfortable inch of that in the music and I could see it as you watched. ❤
Romain's just dropped the video for his latest single too if you're on the RenFriends train and want something fun.
You forgot to say that Romain's video is fire!
Sam Tompkins also dropped a new song and video recently called See Me.
Yes, both Romain's and Sam's latest songs are great.
Sam's See Me had me in tears when I heard it the first time. Very emotional.
Romain's Turn the Lights Down contain really good guitar (of course) and the video is really good.
Yet to listen to a bad Ren song. Best artist that I have discovered in years
Yes! Finally! One of my two favourite Ren songs (along with The Hunger). It is just absolutely stunning. The way he perfectly captures agony in lyrics, voice, music, and even the video. And never has distorted guitar sounded so emotional! This song is just raw emotion and it is beautiful 🖤
No matter how many times I watch this it breaks me, I feel like a burden I lost hope after my accident a part of me died that night in my car, and all I wanted was someone to hold me and tell me it was ok..
REN gives the voiceless a voice in his artistic, amazing abilities,
As I understand it, the Freckled Angels album includes a few tracks that he recorded together with Sony. It was during this time that he started to be sick and eventually got so bad so that he could not continue (and moved back home to his mother) and had to end the contract.
He was then really bad for a couple of years, searching for the cause for his pain.
When he finally got better (after he got the stem cell treatment, which Bibi helped setup a gofund me for) he asked Sony if he could use them and then wrote the rest of the songs for the album himself (including this one).
So the album consists of tracks written between 2012 and 2016 (or something like that).
Ren just puts it all out there and reveals everything, his fear, his vulnerability and still hope. I think he held onto hope with his fingernails but it's like he was lost in the dark and finally found a lighted path. Instead of just running to the path, he turned back, and he's trying to show the path to others.
His face when he is crying always breaks my heart. It looks too real.....I mean it is real and .....F***......it breaks me. It reminds and I just want to go back there and tell him it´s gonna be better someday.
I think it shows the pain he was in so brilliantly. It also shows the romantic idea of promising to support someone through thick and thin and then the reality of it. 😢😢
A really hard watch - horrible to see someone in such pain. He was really ill at the time, terrified of going crazy, and losing hope (I think this was recorded around 2015, still before his Lyme Disease analysis). An incredible piece of art (especially given the state of his health at the time).
I’ve tried not to cry to this song for about thirty reactions, and I’ve failed every time.
Before I even start the video, I have to say that this one is the roughest for me to watch.
The lyrics and the pain in his voice break my heart.
Seeing him cry.....nearly shatters it.
So each time I hear or watch it. I have to pause and take a deep breath.
Prepare myself to have my heart broken.
He is just so good.
That I ever so willingly put myself here.
Over and over again.
Ok, on to the reaction.
I tried to get my boyfriend to understand what a panic attack sounds like if that makes any sense. For the duration i used talk to text and let every thought out that flooded me. It totaled the most horrendous 9 pages of free flowing speech. It was the closest ive ever come to making a single person understand the hell of those minutes when its at its most evil. Thanks for what you do and say cliff. You are much appreciated. ❤
This one had me balling my eyes out by the first line.
I can only say thanks for all your reactions.. Ren is so special it actually hurts my hurt when I see this..❤️🩹 may he continue to get better!♥️🎶♥️
Same every time I watch Crutch it's a kick in the stomach knowing how much he hurts 😢
Great reaction. This one is tough, but it's also a piece of art. Makes me cry almost every time, when it comes to the end and the only words you actually see him say is at the end when he asks "will you stay with me" and then the camera comes around him and she's gone.. On the flip side, he's up off the ground, on his feet on his own
This song always brought tears and broke my heart, but it's something that needs to be heard. ❤🙏
You should ask him for an interview, he has done a few now. I would love to see that happen, I think your interview with him would be coming from a different angle then the rest! ❤ from Ontario, Canada
This is one of my favourite's. It's for real. Really captures what a total breakdown is like. When you can't even more & you stare at nothing. Even breathing is a struggle.
Much love to you Cliff, ♥️ thank you for sharing a part of your personal experiences. You are one wonderful human.
Road to 1 million. #renegades ride.
Thank you for doing this song. ❣️
Speaks to relationships where we mask and hide the growing darkness inside.😢
This one, it always hits me right in the heart. Every time we get to the point where she's gone I can feel my heart twist in pain 💔
This hits so viciously hard. I have no idea how there was strength to create such a musical and visual masterpiece.
Ren wrote a preamble to the song. You'll find it there in the comments or description 🤔
He wrote this because he was scared that everyone would leave him due to his growing hospitalisations from psychotic anxiety attacks.
His girlfriend Bibi was with him at the time of this writing and recording of the video.
It was extremely cold on the day of the shoot and he spent hours lying on the cold concrete.
#Ren is an actor, a writer, a poet, a storyteller, a singer, a rapper, a producer, - he's a #Barcore #Demigod
Love You ❤
Beautiful and heartbreaking.
My favorite!! So raw, so real! He claims this video he wanted to show all of his insecurities. I cannot see what he's insecure about, which reminds me my insecurities probably aren't being seen either. The song itself hits me in the gut so hard. I've been in his situation here, mentally, just needing someone to stay. No one has stayed 😒 I have found it within myself to be my own crutch however.
I wouldn't know how to describe a panic attack either. My best description is it feels like death, feels like my heart will explode right out of my chest while suffocating. I've found lying down and reminding myself what is happening, I am not dying and focus on getting my breath under control helps.
Such a beautiful, powerful, heartbreaking video. "I feel my body dying as the clock keeps ticking" is such a heavy line, knowing that it's not just metaphorical.
This one kicks my butt EVERY time 😭❤️😭❤️😭❤️🫂🫂🫂
Knowing this feeling personally it shreds my heart to know Ren(or anyone else for that matter) has first hand knowledge of it... gaslighting in its truest form is what we face when no one will listen... and Dr's stop looking.. unwilling to admit they don't have an answer they slap a label on you no care of the consequences those labels come with...
Dr's who swore to do no harm ....
Yeah, it fucking floors me every time.
Misdiagnosis. Mine led to complete kidney failure and having to learn to walk again (3 months in a nursing home and on dialysis @ 35 yrs old). I live with bipolar disorder and severe anxiety, plus i am a recovering addict, so i was told it was all in my head. Ren hits home...every. single. time. 💜💜💜 thanks cliff
Cliff, I love your reactions and subbed long ago. The way that you break songs down is always thoughtful and different from other reactors I watch on a regular basis. I know that you bring this up often. It never comes off as insincere. I really appreciate how you reach out to the viewers of your reactions and say “I am here for you if you need someone”. You don’t pretend to have the answers or present yourself as able to give professional advice. You have done this consistently for a long time. I really feel that if anyone took you up on that offer that those are not empty words for you. And I just wanted to say thank you for that.
I salute you for being vulnerable and supportive to those struggling. As someone who has dealt with depression my whole life, recently had my first panic attack and had no idea they were related until my pastor pointed out to me. The way Ren performed this is so beautiful and the screaming at the end definitely emphasized how it crescendos.
Seeing a conversation between men who expeeience mental illness would be helpful to many. We need to normalize these struggles.
#CliffBeats I have suffered from panic attacks since the age of 10. I went too many Dr’s over the years but my GP after many sessions with him God rest his soul gave me the answer to my really bad bad panic attacks and palpitations where it feels like you have someone on you’re shoulders and left arm is numb heavy chest crushing. Well he said to me lay on your back and think of what ever good thoughts you have while you’re having the panic palpitations attack and repeat this every time you have an attack. Over time your brain will remember this and then like me the mind automatically stops the palpitations. Don’t stop till this works, it really dose work I have an attack even when I’m writing this but it cuts of after the first beat and settles in too normal heart beat. I’ve recommended this to some of my close friends and family whom got panic attacks more recently unlike me who has had it since a kid I’m much older now 😂 I hope this helps anyone willing to help beat your attacks.
One of my absolute favourites. I feel this one in my bones. I have ME/CFS.. and go through periods when I can’t hold my body up. The damage it does to your mental health is horrendous.. and allowing your partner to see you at your worst really hurts.
Big love. Thanks for doing this one. ❤❤❤
Oh, thank you so much Cliff - This song is pure Atristry 🔥
Ren is an extraordinary person ✨️
This one always moves me! You just want to take him in your arms and hug the hurt away ❤ thanks Cliff ❤
So few seemed to note it in Hi Ren. He said, "my music...gives me a purpose I can rest in."
This is right up there with my favourite Ren tracks. It's a painful watch and listen but seeing what he's been through just makes his current success feel even more gratifying. The guy has paid his dues and his strength and willpower is an inspiration.
I didn’t realise you had done this Cliff. It’s so moving 🥲👍🇬🇧
Ren is the mahomes of music. That last part shows if you want a metal side of rim he's able to deliver. Is there anything this man cannot do? Well. Haven't heard him do any country yet. But hey you never know.
Such a heart wrenching track 😢. Your words were really moving too. You're right, dealing with anxiety & depression on your own really is sh1t. I'd love to see a conversation between you & Ren.
Ren = Music
Literally on his own planet
This is what music is for me. It's a release, an outlet, a coping mechanism, my therapy.. something I can pour my heart and soul into. I've been singing and playing piano for 32 years and I don't ever let anyone hear it because of the vulnerability it takes to allow others into your pain.
I'm grateful for Ren and his openness, for sharing his creativity and his pain, for being braver than I could ever be 💜
Ren is an amazing person. He did this heart wrenching performance with Bibi when he was in such bad health. I admire the man as much as his work.
Thanks for showing this lesser known performance. I suggest reacting to the “It’s Alright” video set in Brighton, the non-Big Push version. Enjoy!
Such a beautiful and heartbreaking song ❤Ren,Thanks Cliff
Hi Cliff...another great reaction from you ❤❤😊❤❤❤❤
Every Ren song hits the strings of my soul, OMG! This guy is great, thanks for the reaction Cliff
What I most like to see in the reactions is the surprise that Ren provokes.
In fact Ren is unique among many.
We are lucky to be contemporaries of such a rarity... an artist who appears only every few years.
And with such companions.
Of all Ren songs this one hurts me the most. I have seizures and still to this day not a single woman has proven that she will stay by my side during and after the seizures. Thank you Ren for doing this song and thank you for reacting to it.
I hope you find/have found the right lady to stay by your side. I know it's like searching for a unicorn, but we do exist. I've held a total stranger through a seizure to make sure he didn't bash his head and made sure he was okay after. Ren proves there are some amazing people out there.. they're just hard to find 💜🙏
Definitely still haven't found one. But , I'm moving from my area here in Florida in hopes a different location will help. My area is just filled with toxic people. Men and women. I just love to much to be around the negativity all the time
@@johnsearing9736
Good luck with the move and the search. I agree with you that Florida might not be the best location for what you seek. Not to condemn an entire state but... you know what I mean.
I “exist” with 27 illnesses, both mental & physical, since my teens. I’m 57 now, won’t lie & say it gets easier I just have no choice. When the young lady wasn’t there in the end I don’t think she was just in his head (in the video) People try very hard to help & think they can go the distance being your crutch, but because we don’t get better it can be very difficult to stay. I think Ren was showing even with her best intentions she couldn’t stay. But also showing we going through the illnesses don’t have the luxury of walking away, I thank God for my people who stay. I also thank God for the people who tried. This young man is so, so talented & I’m so glad we all found him. What a gift he has. Love your reactions also. Hope you are well ❤ Hope this makes sense? Because here in Wales 🏴 I should be sleeping as I haven’t slept for 4 nights, so I may be a little delirious lol! Xx
Such a great song, thanks for your reaction Cliff! Can’t wait for the next one, have a great day!
Thanks Cliff! I hope that with your help more people will be able to see this masterpiece❤
6:09 She didn't stay!! Can we imagine this hurt, can we???
Sup cliff binge 😅
First one here 👍
Was watching Joe.E Sparks' reaction to Ren with Black Pegasus or I would have been here sooner lol... if you haven't seen it you should go check it out it was beautiful to watch!! 🫂🫂❤️
You’re analyzes of this song 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽Jesus Christ the way he can convey the message. Especially because we know what he’s been through and still dealing with. Comfort to everyone coping. Love from Great Grandma ❤️❤️❤️👵🏼
There's an Irish girl busking on the streets of Dublin who's incredible. You might like to take a look see. She does a lot of covers but has some original content too. Her name is Allie Sherlock.
The word Ren is Confucian virtue denoting the good quality of a virtruous human. Confucius also defined ren in the following way: "wishing to be established himself, seeks also to establish others; wishing to be enlarged himself, he seeks also to enlarge others."
Amazing how this truly speaks to who Ren is as a human.
I really appreciated "story time with Cliff" at the end of your video. We all need to hear we're not imagining or exaggerating whatever it is we're going through. Thanks to Ren for starting the conversation, and someone like you for amplifying it and giving it momentum.
Ren is GOLD.
Man he's good 😢 the whole part from beginning was the pain the dabilating pain. When electric guitar was the physiological break and the thought of loosing himself.
I suffer from addiction due to undiagnosed panic attacks and anxiety throughout my teen years to my early 30’s. I’m currently on opiates and benzodiazepines just in order to feel normal.
I wish I could stop, but I’m currently in a financial rut due to the business restaurant I managed going out of business during the lockdowns; much like many other people.
As a single man in my 40’s I couldn’t claim any financial aid; therefore I am on the edge of losing my apartment over a £6,000 bill to fix the roof (it was £11,000 but I have slowly been paying it back.
aaa well as the depression and other side effects from the medication I was put on that caused my addiction I constantly worry that my flat will be taken away; making me homeless.
It’s a vicious circle and I’ve lost all my friends due to them thinking I have changed so much and they can no longer relate to me.
Watching channels like yours, Ren’s, Knox Hill’s, Stevie Knight; etc has helped me from doing something drastic to myself. You guys make me feel less lonely. So I just want to say thanks for being here, and thanks for understanding.
Men’s problems need to be taken more seriously, but if we can’t even be there for ourselves or each other; nothing will change.
I feel like you, Ren, and a few others are really raising awareness. Thanks for listening, and thanks for being here for people like me! 🙏 ❤️
i relate to mis-diagnosis, panic attacks, anxiety, addiction, withdrawl, blah blah blah!! i'm 71 now and the the bs never stops.
Cliff thank you!! Friends say are you better yet? Anxiety and depression is paralizing. People don't care about your life.
Ren i love ❤ you but you made me cry damn it !!!!
Rens catalog, Chinchillas, Sams AND Romains. Romain is a true artist. The song he relesed today is wonderfull ❤🙏 It has been on repeat here!
Also Gorran Kendall is the other guitarist in The Big Push. Plays harmonica, guitar, and voice like Bob Dylan. He has a few on CZcams.
Thanks for doing what you do Cliff. So important to talk about mental health, especially mens mental health in this culture of growing toxic masculinity.
This one is so hard to watch, and as a mom I just want to hug him! When hes crying it just breaks my heart. Nice reaction Cliff. Another artist that collabed with Ren is Eden Nash. "Humble " and "Ocean" are two of my favorites.
All my love to those that stay the course. And hold you tight through it all. 👏👏❤️❤️👵🏼
#Ren ... Heartbreaking & beautiful
Also, panic attacks suck. I have them daily
This song really got to me as well. Ren creates such impactful pieces of art.
This is my favorite ren song xo
Thank you for reacting to this song. It gets overlooked. I think the vocals are some of the most powerful ever, emotionally.
You are clearly such a wonderful, sensitive and caring person. Thanks for sharing.
I had panic attacks for around 15 years I smoked a joint when I was 19 and tripped the hell out while watching Discovery Channel talking about what your body goes through when you die. It really messed me up. From that point, my body was in a constant "fight or flight" mode for 15 years. It was messy. I was successful though because I refused to fail at anything I did in life because I didn't want to yell at me all the time. It sucked but my panic attacks gave me something.
Look at them differently and remember that they won't kill you. The best thing you can say is "Bring it on"!
There is nothing I can say. Just that, I'm a fan of Ren .. 100% 👏🏿👏🏿
POWERFUL
Another Masterpiece from Ren!!!
This had me a sobbing mess. He's so talented, and he captured the feeling of being so physically ill that it's ruined your mental health perfectly. The snot started flowing when Bibi came in with her part as this is so similar to what my own spouse has said to me as I've tried to navigate my new illness that has me wanting to die after having almost a decade of my bipolar in check. I have never felt so seen by an artist. Ren must be protected at all cost.
100% witnessing a pure creative GENIUS... REN
Cheers Cliff 👍🍻
I told you this was awesome
Please show Romain some love. He just dropped his new vid Turn the Lights Down… it’s really great stuff!❤
When I first saw this video I literally bawled for 10 minutes after, just so heartbreaking.
Yeah, panic attacks are awful in part because they distort your reality as in, unless you're old hat at having them, you have no way of knowing your body's not actually going through a process of dying, which in turn exacerbates the fear and thus more panic and keeps it going.
This video got me in tears
Much ❤ great advice to everyone. proud of you!
ROMAIN AXISA DROPPED NEW VIDEO TODAY ( badass guitarist from the big push)
OMG. This one brought me to my knees.
Thank you again Cliff !! IMO, the song Crutch could be in a movie soundtrack. ❤If you would like to hear another Ren and Bibi song, I encourage you to listen to Ahiahiahohah. It's a lot more upbeat and mellow with some good rapping between the two.❤
this one always hit so deep. My fave Ren tune by a good way.
Commercial sounds good. Real lights your heart and soul ablaze. ❤🔥🍻
Romain from the big push just put out a video - Turn the Lights down. ❤ ❤❤❤
That sad 😢 if she left him only in time in need .
REN is the greatest musician off all time
This one hit me hard when I first watched it. I clicked on it blindly before seeing a reaction to it. I had no idea what I was getting myself into...wow...just wow. the message, the way it is conveyed through the video , and you can just hear it in the audio track the angst in his voice. just amazing.
Another of my favourites. Bibi is his ex from what I gather. This song really gets to me. Like you said during the heavier bit, it is like having a panic attack, so many things going on (in a good way) 🖤
As someone who lives with a illness hanging over me. A illness that will take me where we are all meant to go.
The issue is, when you know its just ahead, slightly out of reach, but right there. It becomes really hard to know what to do. Everything have this question hanging over it.
Should I order a appointment to get my hair cut next month? I might not be here. Even small things, shopping for food and such. Do I buy a back up ketchup?.. And its not that I think about it every moment, But its always hanging just there, in front of me, but out of reach.
its a really weird thing to live with. Every choice small or big is held up against there might not be a tomorrow. Every notion, every choice, and every relation you have, or have had to let go.
It almost feels like dying is the easy part. Waiting for it is what kills you. It becomes impossible to be alive, when you know you are basically not living anymore.
its interesting how the mental aspect of it becomes the real issue, and not the fact that you are dying.
You get to accept that part. But having to live in a world you can't be apart of, it makes you see everything, and everyone very different..
That is the heaviest thing there is to carry.
I think I can understand how difficult it can be. But I don't understand how it feels and I hope I never have to know either. My deepest sympathies for what you are going through 😢
@@REN4eva Thank you. It's not needed though. That is life, we all have things to deal with, only thing we can do is to accept it.
I love this song
Love love this album! It was delivered yesterday. I really love that Ren is giving 50% of the sales proceeds to Joe's parents.
I love how real you are in your reactions. Hang in there. It's all worth it. ❤
Oh, and this song having so few views is a tragedy. Truly.
I feel like every man has been there wondering if they can't hold it all together if their partners will still be there. If our demons win for a day and those around us see the evil and burdens and how weak and worn we are would they still stay by our side. When he is holding her face and then she disappears, it made my chest tight and I started sweating.