Great, thanks. :) I relapsed for a while, but now I'm back up to 120 pounds and healthy as a horse. :) Thanks everyone for all the encouragement and love!
Life - not starvation - brings out the beauty in you. Stay alive and tell those negative thoughts NO - because you have a right to live and be happy! Lots of love from a stranger who wants you to keep feeling better xxx
To all the people who think tonight is the night. Who are thinking of picking up the blade again. Who aren't eating. Who are bending over a toilet. Please try not to. I know it can be hard not to but please don't... not for me, but for you. Because you are worth so much more. I wish I could hug you and comfort you right now but I can't. But know that someone cares and that someone wants the absolute best for you. Remember: you are not fat or ugly or worthless babe and you will be missed. No matter how terrible you think you are, youre incredible. I believe in you and I am so proud of you and the smallest and biggest things you accomplish. even if it's one day without cutting or throwing up. I am happy For you when u smile and laugh and I care for you when you are sad and down. I might not know you but my heart pours for you and people going through things like you. we all have horrible Times and your not worse than anyone else for finding yourself falling apart. I hope this helps you. Stay strong. you'll be so proud of yourself. Sending love your way :)
You are so beautiful and amazing .i was diagnosed and treated for anorexia last year so I know. I hope you know that you are so pretty don't let anyone tell you anything else! -Arianna,13yrs
I have all the faith in you to recover. You can do it, girl. Think of your loved ones and keep strong for them, but most of all, for yourself. You're the most valuable person in your own life, remember.
You are literally so beautiful. I can't even. You're gorgeous, and I'm an inpatient with anorexia right now, and your video honestly gives me so much hope. Stay strong and healthy gorgeous
Hello, I was about to have anorexia because I was depressed because my mother good for a very big problem with it and then I found out that my eleven year old cousin died from abia anorexia and bulimia and I said I did not want to die, I want to stay here for more reasons have not, I have to go, I have to go! and I did exceed my deprecion alone as all YOUR VIDEO ME AND RAISED THE MORAL, I HAVE THIRTEEN YEARS AND NOW I REALIZED THAT I HAVE NOT EVEN WANT TO EAT, LIKE I HAVE TO DO FOR MY HEALTH
We share the same story. My 'highest' was 107 lbs 5'6. I'm about 13lbs less than that right now. I'm glad I'm not the only one that was under weight before all of this. I'm glad you've recovered ❤️
You deserve to get better, feel good and love yourself. Yes, we all deserve to love ourselves, even if we have to learn how, one moment at a time. Please don't continue mutilating yourself, as we need you and the alternative, death, leads to nowhere. We love you for better or worse. At 85 lbs or 107 lbs. You are beautiful, and don't need to change for anyone. We need you just as you were. A beautiful girl with a giving soul. Peace, Ana!
Stay strong girl. A song I found that got me through it was Porcelain by Marianas Trench. She never really leaves you, but we are soooo much better without her.
Ignore that inconsiderate excuse for a person. People think that if you are not stick thin that you do not have an eating disorder. I have been suffering from bulimia my whole life, well as far as I can remember. I am in recovery and I totally applaud you for your strength. So ignore the ones who point their finger at you, it will eventually get snapped off!
Thank you for your constructive criticism. :) Maybe you're right, anorexia can be a selfish disease. But honestly, those pictures that I posed for showed too much of my body and were only for ME. If you want to see them, then maybe one day I'll show them. And I don't want pity. This video was geared towards other girls who are suffering. to show them I didn't look good, I looked awful. And to give others hope. Obviously, you weren't my target audience. Sorry.
I ended up spending six years in care after I made this video. Last time in inpatient I finally managed to figure out why I had such trouble kicking it.
See, I stopped eating because I felt that each bite was a sin, and that I would be a better person if I did. It was never about the weight, its about the food. The weight was just a product of the food and ergo I paid attention to it. You don't know my reasons for stopping eating. You don't know whether they were vanity or pain or whether I was being raped on a daily basis or if I was just sad because a boy didn't like me. You don't know what I've been through, so you have no right to judge.
I take what you said as an insult. I was skinny my whole life then i gained 35 lbs in less than 3 months by binge eating. I have no pictures and no one remebers me gaining all that weight. I lost it and kept loseing. Anorexia is more than just about weight. its a symptom not the problem.... now my bitching is over
Beka Watson 7 years later I just took a peak at the comments and you are completely justified, I apologize for my ignorance when I made this video. I was very much still in my eating disorder when I made this video and there are so many things I’d do different now. I cringe at this whole thing but it’s gotten so many views, so I’m planning to make a follow up video that’s more friendly for all kinds of different eating disorders and is much less about glorifying the symptoms and explaining what I’ve learned since then. I hope your symptoms are better and life has been kinder ❤️
Yup. I have a REALLY resilient cycle. I didn't have to gain too much weight back before the damn thing decided to come back on full-fledged. I am actually really grateful for this, because I really want kids someday and I would always hate myself if the anorexia got in the way of that.
@@queenie0921 i don't know why i would even comment this, it's so dumb lol. Is her name really Ana? And yeah i get CZcams notifications on my phone, which i look at too often😂😂
yeah well you do need some fat, just not in an exessive way, and it has to be the good kinds like olive oil, nuts, etc... the best diet is when in every meal there's a portion of fruit/veggies, meat or fish or any other kind of proteins, and cereals like bread, pasta..... It doesn't seem that way, but eating healthy is actually not as easy as I first thought, even less if you're a vegetarian (I am....)
I understand your perspective. :) And don't be upset about your weight. I bet you have curves in all the right places and attract boys everywhere. I bet you're absolutely gorgeous. :)
please stop comparing an anorexic girl/boy to someone who hasn't the means to eat correctly, it's has just nothing to do with it. Anorexia is a MENTAL problem, that can be triggered by lots of different reasons. Starving one-self is just the symptom, the result of the illness. I understand your perspective though. It may seem unfair to someone who is hungry but has no food, I know. Still, both things aren't on the same level....
I sympathize to you completely, but it seems like all the girls that were already skinny become anorexic and I take it to insult. I am 14 years old and weigh a good 145 lb. Im the one that needs to be upset about my weight.
Great, thanks. :) I relapsed for a while, but now I'm back up to 120 pounds and healthy as a horse. :) Thanks everyone for all the encouragement and love!
Life - not starvation - brings out the beauty in you. Stay alive and tell those negative thoughts NO - because you have a right to live and be happy!
Lots of love from a stranger who wants you to keep feeling better xxx
To all the people who think tonight is the night. Who are thinking of picking up the blade again. Who aren't eating. Who are bending over a toilet. Please try not to. I know it can be hard not to but please don't... not for me, but for you. Because you are worth so much more. I wish I could hug you and comfort you right now but I can't. But know that someone cares and that someone wants the absolute best for you. Remember: you are not fat or ugly or worthless babe and you will be missed. No matter how terrible you think you are, youre incredible. I believe in you and I am so proud of you and the smallest and biggest things you accomplish. even if it's one day without cutting or throwing up. I am happy For you when u smile and laugh and I care for you when you are sad and down. I might not know you but my heart pours for you and people going through things like you. we all have horrible Times and your not worse than anyone else for finding yourself falling apart. I hope this helps you. Stay strong. you'll be so proud of yourself. Sending love your way :)
Saidy Cedano thank you this brought me tears! Ily!
I love u
Saidy Cedano, thank you so much
i’m crying
why are u describing me. i cut myself yesterday, starved and threw up today.
You're a beautiful and strong woman, I send you courage to never relapse and to stay healthy 💙
Last photo, You look fabulous dahlink! You are going to be just fine. I wish you you well.
You are so beautiful and amazing .i was diagnosed and treated for anorexia last year so I know. I hope you know that you are so pretty don't let anyone tell you anything else!
-Arianna,13yrs
Arianna Prabhudesai you should be 18 now wow!
I have all the faith in you to recover. You can do it, girl. Think of your loved ones and keep strong for them, but most of all, for yourself. You're the most valuable person in your own life, remember.
You are literally so beautiful. I can't even. You're gorgeous, and I'm an inpatient with anorexia right now, and your video honestly gives me so much hope. Stay strong and healthy gorgeous
You are so beautiful, stay strong and hold on because there is hope for everyone and you will get through the hell that this disease gives you
Hello, I was about to have anorexia because I was depressed because my mother
good for a very big problem with it
and then I found out that my eleven year old cousin died from abia anorexia and bulimia
and I said I did not want to die, I want to stay here for more reasons have not, I have to go, I have to go!
and I did exceed my deprecion alone as all YOUR VIDEO ME AND RAISED THE MORAL, I HAVE THIRTEEN YEARS AND NOW I REALIZED THAT I HAVE NOT EVEN WANT TO EAT, LIKE I HAVE TO DO FOR MY HEALTH
wow it's crazy how this was made 8 years ago
So happy that your doing better now. And i want to say Ana your Beautiful x
We share the same story. My 'highest' was 107 lbs 5'6. I'm about 13lbs less than that right now. I'm glad I'm not the only one that was under weight before all of this. I'm glad you've recovered ❤️
Hello Ana! My name is Ana too, and i've been battling with anorexia for quite some time!
thank you for sharing this! you are amazing!
You're really pretty :) and i hope you get better
You deserve to get better, feel good and love yourself. Yes, we all deserve to love ourselves, even if we have to learn how, one moment at a time. Please don't continue mutilating yourself, as we need you and the alternative, death, leads to nowhere. We love you for better or worse. At 85 lbs or 107 lbs. You are beautiful, and don't need to change for anyone. We need you just as you were. A beautiful girl with a giving soul. Peace, Ana!
Stay strong girl. A song I found that got me through it was Porcelain by Marianas Trench. She never really leaves you, but we are soooo much better without her.
Go you! Stay strong and please don't ever go back to the way you were before! Your beautiful just the way you were made!
Keep on keeping on Honey, you look great.
u r soooo beautiful!! n have an amazing smile!! i believe in u!! staystrong i know u can and in the end its worth it
Ana you are beautiful just the way you are. Stay strong and live long!
wow, i wish i could get down to at least 100, i hope you get better
Very organized video. I hope you are happy now.
Thanks for sharing your story
Thank you. :)
Ignore that inconsiderate excuse for a person. People think that if you are not stick thin that you do not have an eating disorder. I have been suffering from bulimia my whole life, well as far as I can remember. I am in recovery and I totally applaud you for your strength. So ignore the ones who point their finger at you, it will eventually get snapped off!
Get better, Ana. xoxo
Nice little video.
Thank you for your constructive criticism. :) Maybe you're right, anorexia can be a selfish disease. But honestly, those pictures that I posed for showed too much of my body and were only for ME. If you want to see them, then maybe one day I'll show them. And I don't want pity. This video was geared towards other girls who are suffering. to show them I didn't look good, I looked awful. And to give others hope. Obviously, you weren't my target audience. Sorry.
you are so pretty hope you find the right way for yourself,,,,
Stay strong 💪
It's not just about "losing weight"..
Wow you are so pretty. You lost a lot of weight, how tall are you? Best wishes and support :) I am also battling anorexia
Oh you're mormon. Me too =)! Keep fighting!
Damn it's horrible to see someone document their pain.
Wait are you from Ohio because one place in a picture looks familiar? And I am glad you are recovering, I hope your doing well.
I did a google search of the only place that looked identifiable. It looks like a city called Gahanna, in Ohio.
You're beautiful!
You're nice inside, but also outside.
How long did u spend in care?
I ended up spending six years in care after I made this video. Last time in inpatient I finally managed to figure out why I had such trouble kicking it.
See, I stopped eating because I felt that each bite was a sin, and that I would be a better person if I did. It was never about the weight, its about the food. The weight was just a product of the food and ergo I paid attention to it. You don't know my reasons for stopping eating. You don't know whether they were vanity or pain or whether I was being raped on a daily basis or if I was just sad because a boy didn't like me. You don't know what I've been through, so you have no right to judge.
I take what you said as an insult. I was skinny my whole life then i gained 35 lbs in less than 3 months by binge eating. I have no pictures and no one remebers me gaining all that weight. I lost it and kept loseing. Anorexia is more than just about weight. its a symptom not the problem.... now my bitching is over
Beka Watson 7 years later I just took a peak at the comments and you are completely justified, I apologize for my ignorance when I made this video. I was very much still in my eating disorder when I made this video and there are so many things I’d do different now. I cringe at this whole thing but it’s gotten so many views, so I’m planning to make a follow up video that’s more friendly for all kinds of different eating disorders and is much less about glorifying the symptoms and explaining what I’ve learned since then. I hope your symptoms are better and life has been kinder ❤️
I was just wondering, did you ever get your cycle back?
Yup. I have a REALLY resilient cycle. I didn't have to gain too much weight back before the damn thing decided to come back on full-fledged. I am actually really grateful for this, because I really want kids someday and I would always hate myself if the anorexia got in the way of that.
You look beautiful in the last photo.
It's a Christian song:) I'm anorexic and I love this song... Stay strong and keep fighting.
How are you doing now, beautiful?
You're Mormon?!? awesome. I'm sorry you've struggled with an eating disorder.
Moral of the story: Don't be named Ana.
lmaoo
@@queenie0921 its always wild to be notified of a comment from years and years ago
@@mts2457 and you answered so quickly omg-
@@queenie0921 i don't know why i would even comment this, it's so dumb lol. Is her name really Ana? And yeah i get CZcams notifications on my phone, which i look at too often😂😂
@@mts2457 Yess her name is really Ana
And same, I'm on my phone almost 24/7 😂😂
2:34 At what bmı you become anorexıc ? Is it under 18
You are anorexic when you have the mindset. Weight has nothing to do with it. Under 18 bmi is underweight though
5' 7
POSTSCRIPT: I'm Spanish
yeah well you do need some fat, just not in an exessive way, and it has to be the good kinds like olive oil, nuts, etc...
the best diet is when in every meal there's a portion of fruit/veggies, meat or fish or any other kind of proteins, and cereals like bread, pasta.....
It doesn't seem that way, but eating healthy is actually not as easy as I first thought, even less if you're a vegetarian (I am....)
the best diet is no diet when you're recovering from an ED istg
your a very pretty girl
Who is Ana.??
Is me a gain. My ig is not siknnylove1215. Is skinny love1216. I just. Mad it and I has for gat the Nome so so sorry
What
u are such a beautiful young woman I met Mia so I know how hard it is if u want to talk I'm here my name is shannon
I understand your perspective. :) And don't be upset about your weight. I bet you have curves in all the right places and attract boys everywhere. I bet you're absolutely gorgeous. :)
please stop comparing an anorexic girl/boy to someone who hasn't the means to eat correctly, it's has just nothing to do with it. Anorexia is a MENTAL problem, that can be triggered by lots of different reasons. Starving one-self is just the symptom, the result of the illness. I understand your perspective though. It may seem unfair to someone who is hungry but has no food, I know. Still, both things aren't on the same level....
I sympathize to you completely, but it seems like all the girls that were already skinny become anorexic and I take it to insult. I am 14 years old and weigh a good 145 lb. Im the one that needs to be upset about my weight.
Wat is this. Sing
+tiavon bumbray Storm by Lifehouse
ur rude
how's she rude? Triggering? Yes. Rude? Not really.
Thank you. :)
Ariana Carr thank you 🙏🏼 for sharing your story