Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.
MAH MAH.. I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel.. Now I hear that my Dreams.. hopes and wishes can come true because I have Your Heart.. I really Need Your Heart.. because I love YOU.. I am sitting on the Horse.. as the Horse runs.. I am going back to the Palace.. I am thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. I would be pulling the strings of the Horse.. and I see the Horse running very Fast.. Behind me is seven Men.. four are new friends who has joined.. and they are all riding on the Horses.. as I am on the front.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I thank YOU.. I would be shouting.. as I am going to the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would scream from my lungs.. Do you know that I still Love YOU.. I am coming.. I am going to YOU.. as I see the Moon behind Me.. I am hitting the Strings hard.. the Horse runs faster and faster.. and as the New Day comes and the Sun rises.. I am at the second training ground.. I am standing next to the Horse.. It was my Father's horse.. it was once Young but has gotten older now.. as I am standing next to the Horse.. I watch YOU.. My Heart.. it is My Heart.. I watch YOU walking in the center of the training ground.. the Seven Men.. my friends are all behind me.. they are all sitting on the Horses.. I am crying.. as I am watching YOU.. the fences.. the wood bat fences.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are holding a stick.. I see you about to spar and the Chief General.. the TOP of the generals.. he steps out with a Stick.. and He is the One who taught YOU how to fight to be a swordsmanship.. I never knew that YOU wanted to be a swordsman.. as I see the sticks hitting together.. My Heart would jump.. I see you swinging the Stick.. and the Chief General ducks.. and He would swing the Stick.. which.. I wanted to go Inside to Protect.. to fight Back.. but the Fence stops me.. I know that I can't go in.. I see two guards guarding it.. and they would NOT let me in.. but I see the Stick swings and Hits YOU.. I grab my Sword.. and one of the Friends would shout.. which.. it makes YOU stop.. and YOU look back.. and I pull out the Sword.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Are you Hurt.. can I go in.. YOU know that I came here.. I came here to ready to Fight On your Behalf.. Please.. tell the guards to OPEN the fence Door.. so I can fight that General.. and the Men.. seven Men all gets Out of their Horses.. and they all Pull out their swords.. and We all Kneel.. both on the Knees.. and arms Out.. Heads looks on the Floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and with One Voice.. we Shout.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. and all Eight of Us.. heads looking on the floor.. which it stops YOU from practicing on that training Ground.. and I see you.. ON the White Dress.. I see you coming.. and I see you walking forward.. and I see you close to the Fence.. and I hear YOUR VOICE.. as I lift UP the Head and too look at YOU.. I have promised YOU.. that I am never going to Let YOU go.. even though I may not be with YOU.. there must be a way something can Happen.. but for right Now.. I have promised YOU that I am not going to let YOU down.. YOU also even send four new Men to join my team.. without YOU how can we be added like this.. I know that I may be so Small in your eyes.. I may not have much to give YOU.. but I know that I can do one thing.. to Protect YOU.. if YOU allow me to protect YOU.. I can do a little service.. and with these men.. I know that we can help.. I came here without eating.. we practiced and trained all through the Night.. I was thinking of the Promise.. I know that I can't do much.. but My Heart.. tells me if I love YOU.. there is something that I can do.. and It hit me Hard.. and I just started to think of YOU.. I know that YOU have many soldiers.. you have great generals to Chief generals.. also Commanders are with YOU.. but YOU have gave me four New Men and added.. why would you do something like that for Me.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. Let us all go back to Protect YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. is this is the Only One thing I can Do.. I can do it the Best.. I can give YOU my Best.. all I can Give.. I remember while I was sitting on the Horse.. I begin to think of YOU.. Only YOU because I never felt so Important.. I would turn around.. LOOKING at the four New Men.. they joined with the three friends of Mine and together they were singing songs.. they were singing to the new Unity of building a Dream together.. and wanted to be a part to see the greater works in play and they were all singing joyfully and I sat on the Horse.. tears started to fall from My eyes and I saw the seven Men turn to look at me.. they all came and surrounded me.. around the horse asking why was I crying and I told them.. it is NOT about Us.. but about the Kingdom.. all about the Palace.. that we were put together to Protect WHO.. and we all raised Our voices together.. and with the Swords UP.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. let us go to the Palace.. and Be a part.. Just to protect YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw each Man get on his Horse.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking at the Moon.. It is this MOON that brought us together.. It was around this TIME I would look UP at the MOON.. asking about the Crown Princess.. and I started to Hit the strings of the Horse and He just took Off fast.. and the Other Seven men follows.. I came this early in the Morning.. One of the Guards at the entrance told me that the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is going to the Second Training Ground.. DID NOT tell me anything else.. but YOU were going to be there.. SO I would tell the seven friends of Mine.. Let us go there and wait together.. I would be the One who stood by the Horse.. Letting the Other seven Men to rest while sitting there.. I saw YOU.. from the distance I saw YOU walking.. it is when we eight of Us arrived.. YOU were holding a stick.. I don't know WHY.. I wanted to run over.. to let YOU know that I have come.. the two Guards guarding me.. I asked if I could go inside.. to Greet the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but they would NOT allow me.. telling me NO ONE can go inside but Only the Crown Princess.. I saw the Chief General walking with a Stick.. wondering.. why Is He able to go Inside and I can't.. what is going On.. tell me.. but the Guards would Not tell me anything.. they decided not to say a Word.. what am I suppose to do.. I can hit the two.. so I just went back to the Horse and stood next to it.. I saw the Chief General.. His stick would hit YOU few times.. How dare is that MAN to Hit YOU with the Stick.. and It was getting to Me.. How can He hits the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who does he thinks He is.. and it made me Mad.. NO ONE Hits or touches.. and I knew.. if the two guards won't let me In.. then the sword is going to Help me to get inside.. so that I can fight.. and I pulled the Sword.. and I turned.. to face the two guards.. I am going in.. to Help and to Protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and this time Your Words will not stop me.. and as I was going to make that.. One of my Friends calls Out.. it got to YOU.. and I turn back.. I see the Seven men.. my Friends.. they all pulled Out the Sword.. and I hear them.. they are going to go with Me.. and Help me to Protect YOU.. I could not see anyone Hitting YOU with the stick.. My Heart would Not allow it.. My Heart just couldn't see that.. and I would be showing YOU my tears running down.. I am on my both knees.. the Swords struck on the ground.. the seven Men are behind me.. arms out.. swords are all struck on the ground.. I have come.. so that I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. and I wanted to protect YOU.. Me with these seven friends of Mine.. that is How my Heart feels because this is the Only thing that we all can do.. and I would hear YOU speak.. of course I did Not know that the Chief General is Your teacher.. and even since YOU were young.. and How you wanted to protect Yourself from the dangers of Your Six Brothers.. the Six Princes who wanted to be the Crown.. The King.. PEH HA send the Chief General to be your Body Guard but also to teach the Art of the Swordsmanship.. and Now.. He is like a second father to YOU because He cares for YOU like a Daughter.. as I would hear YOU.. My Heart is moved by how It is unsafe to stay in the Palace as a Young girl.. scared of being killed by the older Brothers.. and my fist.. I would clinch my fist.. that is WHY I came here.. that I wanted to Protect YOU because I love YOU.. What more words Can I say.. I know that it is NOT easy to be the Crown Princess.. But Now.. YOU also have eight of Us.. Unity together as we stand.. to Protect YOU so that YOU can be the QUEEN.. I hear the Seven Men behind me they all would shout Loud.. QUEEN.. to be Our Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH one day.. and I would lift UP my arm.. and Head looks ON the Floor.. and the Seven men behind me would also lift UP their arms and heads looks down as we are all on our knees.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just want to see YOU to succeed.. I want YOU to be seating as the TOP.
MAH MAH.. As I would look on the Floor.. My tears are hitting the Floor.. I am looking back.. the Four of Us by the ocean.. and I would turn to look back.. I would see the Four new men.. One is holding bunch of wooden sticks.. and I would look over them.. I see YOU.. YOU are sitting on the Horse.. and I see YOU turn around.. the Horse turns away and I see the Horse starts running off with YOU sitting ON it.. I am looking at the Four New Men.. One of them saying.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to be a part of this brotherhood.. and I am looking with the three friends of Mine.. I just can't believe it.. WHY would the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY would you sent these four Men.. and I would look at them.. I just can't believe it.. I am Not worthy to have.. I can't even lead a thing.. But why would they come.. and I would grab a Stick.. and One of my Friend grabs a stick.. and he is the One who came to visit me when I was IN prison.. as I am thinking.. and I am on two knees.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. and my tears is rolling down.. I can't even lead.. I am Not even on the special Guard.. I am Not even a Body Guard.. I am only the one who stood by the back Gates of the Palace.. why would YOU trust me with four new Men.. I am unworthy to Have.. because their lives are on the Line.. If to Die.. I rather die alone.. I don't want to take any other Lives with Me.. and I see YOU.. and YOU smile.. I wanted to grab Your hand.. I wanted to touch Your Hand.. But I can't.. YOU are going to ask Me to kiss this Hand right.. but I can't kiss YOUR HAND.. I rather be distance then to be close kissing Your Hand.. but HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. do you remember that before YOU left.. before the Four New Men came.. YOU asked me for something.. YOU said.. to Promise YOU something.. that I am Not going to leave.. and YOU told me to make that Promise Now.. because Later will be just too late and while YOU came close.. I was looking at the Waters of the Ocean.. you stood by me.. asking me to Promise YOU.. that I am Not going to leave YOU or forsake YOU.. before YOU would go back to the Palace.. and I remember standing next to YOU.. I can't promise kissing Your Hand.. but I can promise YOU that I can keep on loving YOU.. I can promise that I will Not leave YOU or forsake YOU.. that I will go back and I will be there for YOU.. by Your Side.. and I told YOU.. I do Promise I be there.. to Protect YOU always.. and I do remember you looked at me and YOU gave me the same smile as YOU are looking at me on the Other side of the Fence.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. that I just can't never let YOU go.. I came with the seven Men because I made the Promise I will.. this is the main reason why I am here.. because I am keeping my Promise I made with YOU.. to Always Love YOU and to Always protect YOU..I am still standing by the waters.. Just thinking about YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I wish that I could be with YOU.. I have dreamed ever since I was a young Boy.. even though I knew that It was never to be happened.. I know that I can't be with YOU because YOU are so Big.. but what can I do as a MAN who can Only dream and believe that Maybe if there was a Chance.. How can I be with YOU.. to Love YOU.. all I ever wanted ever since I laid my eyes on YOU.. when I saw YOU.. even though I know I can't.. but I still do believe that I can.. all I am asking is for YOU to know my Heart.. to know How much I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my life by your side just to love YOU.. to tell you how much I love YOU and love you until I die.. do YOU know that I never will stop.. as I am looking at the waters.. and I turn to look back.. I see you on the Horse.. YOU are sitting on the top of the Horse.. I see you wearing the White dress.. so Lovely.. how come you only wear that White Dress.. why are you showing me that YOU are so Beautiful.. if YOU keep on showing me how Beautiful YOU are.. what am I suppose to do.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the ground.. with the three of my friends.. Looking at the ground.. I can't come with YOU right Now.. I know I can't go.. I just need some time to be alone.. and before YOU came.. One of my friends told me.. He saw Six Princes and they were standing next to the King and Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am wondering who those six Men were.. I know they were from the Royal Blood Line.. as I heard your voice.. I would listen to your Voice and with the three friends we all get Up.. as I wanted to come closer to YOU.. I see the Big Crown on top of your Head.. I see seven Men behind YOU.. the Chief Generals and Commanders.. DAE JANG GEUN.. they all showed UP and standing behind YOU.. and I just can't believe this happened so fast.. I knew that this day would show UP but so Fast was unexpected.. and I would lower myself.. on two knees and I would ask.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am asking for the permission to speak.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can you please give me the permission to speak.. and I hear YOUR voice.. I am wondering about the Six Men.. they were Princes.. who were standing next to the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. may I ask who are those Six Men.. and I would hear the Head of the Servant who shows UP.. He looks at me and pulls Out the sword.. I see YOU lifting UP your hand to back down and he goes back.. and I hear you tell me.. and Me and the three friends are all shocked.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. they are the Older Brothers of CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. if the Crown Princess has six Older Brothers ahead.. and YOU have succeeded to next in Line to get the Throne.. and I feel like a Storm is going to come in the Palace.. and I look at YOU.. and I see YOU put your hand Out.. and I am thinking in my mind.. YOU have great army with YOU.. look at the Chief Generals and also the COMMANDERS who got Your Back and has your Support.. even the King and the Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH are the ones who gave you the Crown.. I saw them both kneeling and kissing Your Hand.. of course I did Not see any of the Six Princes kissing Your Hand but now I know why.. But why do YOU need Me.. YOU have even the Prime Minister.. TAE SAH JAH.. and even the COUNCIL OF NOBLE MEN.. all the Maids.. even the HIGHEST KITCHEN LADY.. and even the Chief Doctor too.. WHY do you need me to help Me.. YOU know that I am so small.. I am Nothing when You look at all these great and important people around YOU.. and I see YOU getting Off the Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Stand back.. YOU don't need to come closer to Me.. YOU know How Great and Important you are and has become for the Kingdom you represent.. and I have become so Low.. Now it is so hard for me to get close to YOU.. when I see these great Men.. warrior Men surrounding YOU.. and with me the three friends would step back.. but I see YOU coming.. looking so Beautiful.. with the big Crown wearing the white Dress.. WHAT am I suppose to Do if I feel like YOU are this Great.. if you are this Big in my eyes.. what am I suppose to do.. and I am looking at the floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would stop.. I would listen to Your Voice as I lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. as I would show my tears in my eyes.. How am I suppose to Love YOU.. if YOU are this Great and this Big.. and I feel so small when I am around YOU.. I just feel like I can't do anything any more.. because I have Nothing.. and I see YOU standing there.. YOU are wondering what happened to the boldness.. the courage.. the confidence that YOU saw in Me.. It is still here inside my Heart.. but.. at this Point right Now.. YOU have just gotten bigger.. and More stronger.. YOU have gotten.. that is why I am asking YOU for some time.. that I needed some time and space to think it through.. and No.. YOU are not going to ever lose me because I have never stopped loving YOU.. the process of.. and needing the time and space to help me to bounce back is what I am asking for HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. that is why I came here to the waters.. to bring the peace of Mind and to think it through.. and as I am looking at YOU.. I see you standing still.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please know that I am going to go back to the palace.. as I am looking at YOU turning around.. I feel the deep sadness.. because I love YOU so much.. I feel so helpless at this Point.. watching YOU getting and the two Maids would help you to get YOU sit on top of the Horse.. I don't want YOU to go deep inside.. but I know that YOU must Go.. YOU are the one who to rule Next.. YOU have all of the great important people backing YOU up and supporting YOU.. they are going to help YOU to defend but also I will come very soon.. soon to be by your side.. I feel bad that I can't kiss Your Hand either.. looking at the six Princes.. I saw None of them smiling at ALL.. they were there but.. NONE of the SIX PRINCES went over to Kiss Your Hand.. and I feel like maybe is this the way YOU are seeing me like Your Older Brothers.. because FOR ME.. I want YOU TO truly SUCCEED.. I want YOU to truly rule.. I want YOU to be seated in the right Place where it is your Seat.. but thinking of Your Older Brothers.. this is the reason why I know I must go back.. I know that I must be by your side.. I feel like something is
MAH MAH.. Going to happen in that HOUSE.. in the Palace and I want to help YOU.. and I will help YOU.. and I see YOU sitting on the Horse and has turned around.. I would watch the Special Body Guards on the sides.. left and right.. I see the Commanders leading the way.. and the Chief Generals in the Back.. and my Heart.. WHY is this Happening and I do remember my Father would say.. I must be a swordsmanship to Protect the Princess.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. if I truly Love YOU.. I must know and learn to Protect.. and I would Pull Out my sword.. as I stood up.. watching YOU.. I see the Horse keep on walking forward.. my three friends behind me pulls Out their swords.. and I know that I must go back.. Back to the Palace.. just to protect YOU.. even if I must fight and even I die by the Brothers.. I know that the Crown Princess Must had the seat.. because that is the Only one thing is on My Mind and Heart.. to see YOU succeeded to the Throne.. I would turn around and I am looking at the waters.. I would close both eyes.. My Father is looking at me.. holding a training stick.. wood shape as the sword.. and it hits my Head.. I am crying as it hits my head again.. I would hear his voice.. telling me to stop crying.. even though it hurts.. that a man should NOT cry.. the WOOD training stick shape of sword hits me head again.. I am holding my tears.. the angry as the pain hits my head.. I would look up at the Father.. telling me.. holding the pain inside.. and the more it hits me.. I have to hold all the pain that is killing me.. Until I just can't hold it no more.. and that is HOW I feel.. when I see YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. it feels like it.. this sharp Pain that stabs my Heart.. when I saw YOU getting back on the Horse.. I know that I should of told you I will go with YOU.. but letting YOU go.. and I am not going with YOU hurts me more deeply inside.. watching you sit.. Horse turning away on the Other side.. and it was a pretty Long journey that YOU came.. it really hurt me Hard.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I have turned YOU down because I needed space.. but thinking about the situation.. and at the crucial time.. I should of kept my mouth shut.. I should of thought about the situation first before saying something.. I did not meant to reject.. but wanted to let YOU Know I am coming.. I am going back to that palace to join YOU.. but just to give me a little time.. I should of been thoughtful.. I am so sorry Crown Princess.. I am so Sorry WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am so Sorry.. I know that YOU are going through a lot.. especially what is happening in that House.. as I am looking at the waters.. My Heart feels more heavy.. what if I never asked.. If I did not ask about the Six Princes because that was None of my business.. but Now I know what is going On.. and it really really sucks to know because I would of thought that everyone would celebrate this.. I was so happy to know when I found Out that the King had made YOU into the Crown Princess.. MY Heart was laughing while I was laughing so loudly when I heard.. I turn and I looked over.. I saw the King.. He comes over.. with the big CROWN putting on top of your Head.. Your Father was so proud and in tears with JOY as He was the One to put on top of your Head.. and He kisses Your Hand and says.. well Done.. Now to keep it.. I saw the Queen.. and I saw Six Men.. on the royal robe coming down.. and they would just stand by the Queen.. I do remember just looking.. never seen any of the six Men before.. but they were wearing the royal Robe and knew that they were a part of the Royal Blood family line.. and they just stood next to the Queen.. did Not say a word.. looked more angry.. But I did not know who they were at all.. Never seen any of them before.. When YOU told me who they were.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I was shocked to know.. because I did not even thought of being in your own family.. I thought maybe like the Uncle's sons.. One of them was wobbling around.. like had too much wine to drink.. and would fall on the ground.. But Now I know why YOU came.. Now I see what has you troubled in your Heart.. I know that I have a true Mission to protect YOU.. to be with YOU and Help you to be in that throne.. that is the Only way for YOU to secure and establish YOU as the Queen of the Throne for this Nation.. It is that I will fight For YOU.. for your behalf because YOU Know How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. my three friends would shout with Me.. To Protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. To protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and with One voice the four of us shouted.. We will protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. we.. I will protect YOU.. and when I turned around.. I see YOU there.. I see you sitting on that Horse.. and I would lift UP to see YOU SMILE.. I have made this VOW.. to stay by your side.. to Love YOU and to always protect YOU.. I would bow my knee.. put my arm front and head down to show.. I too be with YOU forever.. the three friends behind.. we all did it together to be with YOU..I am standing by the waters.. I watch the Moon comes UP before me.. My three friends are behind Me.. with four Horses.. I would LOOK up at the Moon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Do you know that it has been a Long time since I loved YOU.. Not with a Day passing me By I just couldn't think of YOU.. I know that I do not deserve to Love YOU.. but what happens when I have broken the Golden RULE.. it does Not matter any more what Happens to Me.. because I came so Far.. and I can't never go back now.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. it does Not matter if YOU don't love me because I have never asked YOU to love me.. but I have come so Far that NOW I just can't stop loving YOU.. I would look at my sheath.. grabbing the back of the Sword.. I pull the sword Out.. and I raise IT UP.. looking at the shine of the Blade of the sword.. I have never stopped practicing the Art of the Swordsman ship.. I have been training for a Long time.. Been practicing over and over because I knew that One day.. I will have to use this Sword.. to fight and to Protect YOU.. even though YOU may Not need me.. I believe that One day.. I can be put into the service to be useful to Protect YOU.. I would watch the Sun set.. swinging the Sword.. left right right left.. I would be swinging through.. as I watch the Sun comes UP until the SUN goes down into the Night where I see this Same Moon.. I told myself that One day.. I am going to enter the Palace.. One day I am going to come and see YOU.. but of course I do not know How long that One day will be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I do remember the day I saw YOU.. My Father wanted to surprise me by taking ME to see YOU.. I would be begging HIM.. as I would be holding and Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. He would look at me asking me.. WHY DO I keep on staring at that Art Sketch Paper.. it is NOT going to come Alive.. it is NOT going to ever hear me.. or will Not answer Me.. why do I keep on looking at the Picture of YOU.. what good is going to do if I only stare.. but unable to do anything about It.. and Knowing that I can't be with YOU.. My Father looks at me.. and He tells Me.. why don't I give that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU to him.. and He will get rid of It.. He tried many times to get rid of the Art Sketch Paper.. tearing it into the pieces.. or even burning with Fire.. I would watch it get burned and torn into pieces.. I would watch it disappear into the Night.. as I could Not do nothing about the situation.. But.. I would always go.. find a Way.. pay coins giving it to the Boy who draws picture.. and He would always give me a New Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. My Father sees me with another One.. and Yes.. finally he tells me.. He is going to take me to see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I do remember as I was on sitting on the Horse.. He would be pulling the Strings of the Horse.. and He would stop.. and He would turn and by the same waters.. He would pull the Horse and stops here where I am standing.. and He would LOOK at me.. looking at the Horse.. He would turn to look at the MOON.. and look at the waters.. and He would turn to look at me who is sitting on the Horse.. and tells me HOW much He misses my MOTHER.. How much My father loved my Mother.. and How he still loves her till this day.. but did Not want to show any signs and tears.. did not want me to look at HIM as a Father being so weak.. but when He sees me.. and How much I love YOU.. as much he would try to get rid of that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and NO matter what He does to that paper and turns into the ashes.. just looking at my Will and my Love.. how much I love YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. it is like He is looking at Himself who misses My Mother.. which My father loved Her so Much.. and He knew.. this is the same way He feels about loving someone.. and wanted to show me something.. as I sat on the Horse as the Little Boy.. He would come to this Place.. looking at the waters.. it brings great peace but sorrow of How much He loves my Mother.. My father would spend a day here.. letting me wonder around.. but He would sit still looking at the waters.. after He gathers his thoughts.. he would help me to get on the Horse and a long journey of HIM walking will take place.. as I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. He
MAH MAH.. Smiles looking at me.. for a Long time He would go against me loving YOU.. He would spank me.. hit me.. push me to the floor and I would be crying getting UP.. but my hands are always holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU until He finally tells me He has given up trying to force me NOT to Love YOU and has opened his heart for me to Love YOU.. He tells me.. I have such a Strong will power.. that I do not give UP that easily.. and that is what He loves about me as His son.. I remember going to the palace.. He shows his Card to the palace guard and they open the Door.. as the Head of the servants.. he would take me to a different location.. a location or the Place I have never been.. and He stops.. there is a Bar Gate.. It was a training Ground and My Father knew that YOU were here.. as I sat on the Horse.. I saw YOU walking.. there were five men standing behind and they were the TOP Generals.. I saw YOU looking across.. holding a Bow.. and grabbing an Arrow.. I saw YOU pulling the strings of the bow Back with the Arrow in between and YOU were aiming.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I saw YOU let go of the strings of the Bow.. the Arrow releases and it shoots hitting the target.. the MAN who was standing next to the target.. the arrow hits the Red mark.. the Man holds UP the flag and says BULLS EYE.. the Five Men who were with you.. who were standing behind you.. hands were clapping.. knowing that YOU bee practice shooting with the Bow and arrows.. My Father who is standing next to the Horse.. I am sitting On the Top of the Horse.. I wanted this Picture.. I wanted some one.. that Boy who draws sketch paper.. I wanted him here so he can draw me a picture of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. shooting arrows.. My Father looks.. He turns to look at me.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. telling me that a MAN needs to protect who He loves.. and tells me.. looking at YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. I can't be a weak Boy.. can't be weak because YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the One who is going to rule over the kingdom.. and to Love YOU means to be a real Man.. to Love YOU means to have the Courage to protect YOU.. and my father looks at me.. instead of Looking at the Art sketch paper.. I needs to pick UP a sword.. pick up the sword and to fight for the One who you love the Most.. and I sat there.. but I just want to love YOU.. but my father tells Me.. Be a real man.. not a coward.. but take heart means to have courage.. knowing how to die you love means YOU can live for YOU.. and I sat there wondering what does that Means.. to fight for.. am I a coward.. am I afraid.. and my Father pulls the Horse away and starts to lead the other way.. holding the strings of the Horse.. He would tell me many things as I would spent my time with HIM.. about Love.. what it means to love YOU.. My father also mentions that even the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who is shooting arrows using the Bow knows that to be the Crown Princess.. needs to protect the People that is with YOU.. also practices daily shooting arrows Hitting the target.. because YOU want to rule the Nation.. to be the next to be on the Line to have the kingdom at hand.. I would turn my Head looking back.. sitting on the top of the Horse.. I would hear the top generals clapping Hands and shouting with Cheers as YOU are hitting the target BULLS EYE.. I am sitting.. and I started to ask my father.. I want to protect the Crown Princess.. because I know that I love YOU.. I want to be the One to protect YOU.. is that means I am showing YOU love.. and My Father smiles.. and tells ME he can train and teach me with the basics and I would turn my head to look front.. and I hear my father laughing as He would pull on the strings of the horse as he is walking and I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. just smiling all the way.. as I am standing here.. Looking at the waters.. I lift UP my head Looking at the Moon.. I have been practicing for a Long time.. ever since my Father showed me YOU.. and told me what a MAN must do.. to protect WHO he loves.. Now.. Many years goes By.. I have never changed this Heart of Mine.. that I always wanted to protect YOU and Never stopped Loving YOU.. I am standing at the cross road.. and I have seen many important people coming forward.. they have kissed YOUR HAND.. showing the devotion to YOU.. But I know that I have Not kissed Your hand yet.. I feel so wrong because I have chosen which I know that I can't.. I told YOU how much I loved YOU.. ever since I saw YOU from my youth.. as a young Boy.. I remember YOU turned to look where I was at.. with my Father next to my side.. I was sitting on the top of Horse.. looking at YOU from the distance.. I saw YOU grabbing an arrow.. holding the strings of Bow.. Putting the back of the arrow on the strings of the Bow.. pulling the strings and aiming the arrow and releasing it.. I saw the arrow flies across and it Hits that Target.. right on the middle of the spot.. I would watch the Man on the side of the Target raising up the flag calling out.. the five generals who were teaching and training YOU.. I over head.. YOU are learning so Fast.. you are very quick on picking UP things.. and they would look at each other smiling.. hands clapping and shouting saying.. the Next Ruler.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Next one to sit on the Throne.. I was blown into pieces as I sat on the top of the Horse.. watching the arrows hitting the target on the red mark.. I would begin to think.. How can I ever protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have the top Generals on your side.. YOU have the COMMANDERS and the Chief Generals.. they are the Most fierce fighters and warriors who are with YOU.. How can I even fight if YOU have the best men with YOU.. How can I protect YOU.. but My Heart who loves YOU wants to just do that.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU in any means.. as I would stand.. LOOKING at the Blades of the sword.. I can see the shine.. How can I protect YOU.. but that is the Only thing that I can do.. to love YOU and to protect YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. I did Not know that you came.. I did not know that YOU were going to come.. as I turn around to look at the three friends.. I see YOU behind the four Horses and YOU were sitting on the top of the White Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would lower myself.. and the three Friends also turns around.. the four of us are on the Ground.. looking at the floor.. did YOU hear what I say.. when did YOU come.. did YOU hear everything that I was sharing.. and all I hear is silent.. I am looking at the ground.. I hear Your Voice.. telling me to get UP.. that I must come back to the Palace.. that YOU have something for me to DO.. but.. I just remained still.. I just couldn't get UP.. because YOU are the Crown Princess.. just give me the permission.. allow me to get UP.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.
MAH MAH.. The Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to live a different life.. I can't spend the rest of my Life just standing here.. Unable to say.. unable to tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I am Not going to live the rest of my life.. just wishing because I just can't.. why.. if YOU are asking me why I can't.. Loving YOU is all I want.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like
Oink Oink.. I am standing out here.. Looking at the Moon.. I wondering if YOU can hear me.. If I tell you something.. will you be able to hear on the Other side.. Can you please hear Me because right Now.. I need YOU.. and Yes.. I miss you too.. only YOU is who I need and WHO I love.. loving you is the Only thing I can do.. But.. if you want to hear me.. right Now I am standing Out side.. It is Night here because I am looking at the Moon.. I know that I miss YOU.. I think you have forgotten to take something with YOU.. WHY did you leave it behind.. why did YOU not take this with YOU.. my Both arms are holding around.. the Pillow.. the Shape is a Heart and the color is Pink.. the Most Beautiful color.. Please.. tell me that YOU have forgotten to take this with YOU.. or please tell me that YOU did leave it behind for me to see.. that YOU know as much as I love YOU.. I first want YOUR Heart.. WHY did you not leave your Real Heart instead.. if this Pillow Pink Heart which I am holding in my arms.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to hold Your Real Heart.. will you please let me have a Peek of Your Real Heart.. I want to know if I can see your Heart.. and to Love Your Heart.. Only you can tell me the answer because Right Now I am waiting.. beneath this Tent shade.. I am out on the patio.. looking up at the Moon.. I am missing YOU.. I have been missing YOU for a long time.. WHY.. tell me why did YOU leave this Pillow behind.. Now I am thinking of YOU.. thinking more about your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. Hold your Heart close to my Arms.. Hold your Heart so that I can put my lips as close and tell your Heart.. My Heart sings inside of me.. because it starts with my Heart.. who knows that I love YOU.. My Heart truly loves YOU.. that is why I want your Heart.. I need your Heart.. I do not want this Pillow Pink Heart.. of course if it belongs to YOU.. I love it.. but I really really want Your Real Heart is what I am talking about.. when will you show me Your Heart.. Please tell me that I am able to see your Heart.. and get close to you so that I can see your Real Heart.. if you let me get close to YOU.. can I tell your Heart something.. I want to tell your Heart.. I want to hear.. I want to hear it.. hear the sound.. I want to hear your Heart beating.. can I please hear your Heart Beat.. as I put my ear and to tell YOU.. Listen to the Heart Beat.. I love the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. because I know that it is I who loves you the Most.. But How can I hear.. I want to hear.. only thing I can do is just look UP.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can't even see your Face.. my arms stretches far.. hands holding the Pink Heart Pillow.. LOOK.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can feel my tear drops.. running down my cheeks.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. missing YOU so Bad.. Missing you so Much right now.. I am holding this Pillow.. Pink Heart.. Can you please see this.. I know that you are miles and miles away.. I know that you can't even hear me at all.. Only if you can come Out at Night.. Please come Out.. see if there is Night on the Other Side.. Come Out Please.. and If is Night on the Other Side.. is the MOON Up in the sky showing Up.. Is the MOON there.. I know that the Moon can show UP and show you a picture.. Show you a shadow of a person.. It is Me.. and I know that YOU are able to see a figure.. I am holding the Heart Pink Pillow.. you have left it behind here.. and I want to show you something on the Other side.. Can you please come Out.. if it is Night over there.. please step Out side.. see if you can see the Moon appear before YOU.. if you are standing out side in the Night and YOU see the Moon.. can YOU Hear me.. Can you hear my voice.. I know that YOU can't see me but I can tell you this.. I have found something.. YOU have left something behind and I am asking does it belongs to YOU.. and If you are over there on the Other side struggling for what YOU have lost.. DID you lost a Pillow.. a Heart shape color Pink.. I have it over here.. my arms around the Shape Heart Pink Pillow.. I wanted to ask YOU.. why did you leave it behind.. WHY did you lose this Heart.. DID you left it behind or did you lost it on your way going somewhere because I have it with Me.. Please tell me that I can have the Heart.. Can We make a trade when YOU see me soon.. if you come to see me.. can we trade Heart to Heart.. I will give YOU this Pillow.. shape of a Heart color Pink and YOU can give me your Real Heart.. I know that if you give it to Me.. I will love your Heart forever.. I will love your Heart which YOU never felt before.. Only give me a chance to Love your Heart.. I am asking you.. can I please have your Real Heart because I need you now.. as I am standing out side.. Looking UP at the Moon.. I know that without YOU.. my life is going to be incomplete.. that is why I need you.. I want you near me but only way is to Love your Heart.. What do I must do to get to Your Heart.. I been asking you for a while.. but YOU have never given me a straight Answer.. I am only asking for just one thing.. it is Your Real Heart.. Not a Pillow.. Not a Shape of a Heart.. Not a Color Pink either.. but Your Real Heart.. and as I stand Looking UP at the Moon.. my arms around the Shape Heart.. color Pink pillow.. I wish that it was the real Heart.. at least I can say something to the Real Heart.. what can I do with this Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. No matter how much I say to this Pillow.. it only wants me to lay my Head down on it.. If I lay down.. at least I want to hear the sound.. the beating.. I want to hear it.. listen to your Heart Beat and I would turn to Your Heart as I be listening to the sound and the beating of the Heart.. LOOKING at your Heart.. I would say.. I love YOU.. DO you love me too.. I would turn again to your Heart and I will say.. I love YOU.. Do you love me too.. can YOU please tell me that YOU can love me too.. because YOU know how much I love you.. I have been waiting for this for a long.. to tell you but also to hear from you if YOU DO.. and can I please turn to Your Heart and tell your Heart my words.. that I love you.. as I would step few steps back.. I would think about before I came out to the Patio.. I was sitting on the top of the Bed and as I lay on the Bed.. something laying beside me.. and I turn to face.. the Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. the Pillow is next to me.. and I would sit UP on the bed.. I have the phone with me.. and I hit to see the Picture.. many pictures I have saved and there is One Picture.. as I would take a LOOK at the Picture.. it is you on this bed.. I have taken a picture of you.. you were laying on the side.. holding your arms around this Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and both of your eyes were closed.. that means you were sleeping and I have taken a picture of you while you were falling asleep.. Like a Sleeping Beauty.. in such a peace and beauty you were.. as I am sitting on the bed.. I see the same Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and I am wondering.. why is this here.. I know that this is Yours.. why did you leave it on this Bed.. I never bought a Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. color Pink.. but it was laying.. I tried to go to sleep but while trying to lay on my side.. I was faced with this Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink and it woke Me up.. and I have forgotten that it was here or thought that It was taken with YOU.. as I was sitting on the Top of the Bed.. I would be looking at it.. and I wanted to try what YOU have shown me in this Picture.. my hands grab this Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink.. my arms would go around and I would hold it tightly and lightly squeeze it.. Does your Heart feels this Way.. is it this Soft.. and is it this warm.. I love a Heart being warm and soft.. makes me want to hold It close and make you feel how I feel the way I feel when I hold and it is your Heart.. as I am holding.. my arms around the Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink.. I start to think of you more.. wondering DO you miss Me.. because right Now.. holding this Heart shape Pillow.. the color Pink.. I am missing YOU.. Now I want to see YOU.. I want to see you near and close to Me.. but being so Far.. I just feel like I just can't do anything.. why do I must feel this Way that there is Nothing I can do even though it is just loving YOU.. why can't I love you close.. Why can't you be here.. be near me so I can love you closer.. why do YOU have to be so far that sometimes I feel like I can't love you the way I want to because of the distance between.. I want you close. I want you near.. Please come closer.. and I would be so sad.. as I am looking at the Picture.. on the Phone.. there is the Picture of YOU holding the Heart shape Pillow.. and YOU look in such peace.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.. I am sitting on the Top of the Bed.. Holding the same Pillow.. Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. Does it feels the same.. I think looking at the Picture.. looking at you holding the same Heart Shape Pillow.. the Color Pink.. I can feel Your Heart.. I guess knowing that we can share something very special feeling of loving the Shape Heart.. because I am thinking of it being YOUR HEART.. only YOUR Heart I want to hold.. Only Your Heart I want to love and tell it that I love YOU.. as I am holding with both arms around It.. I know this has to be the same feelings.. that it is all about loving YOU.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. Do you know that I am holding a Heart.. it is a Shape of A Heart.. I am thinking of being Your Heart to me.. because I want to hold your Heart the way I am holding this Shape Heart.. the Pillow.. only if you did Not go and you were to stay here.. I wonder How you would react.. I wonder what would you have done.. coming over.. and YOU be seeing this Shape Heart of the Pillow.. the Pink Color on the top of
MAH MAH.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew
MAH MAH.. this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden.. the first time YOU came.. I heard a Man who is also working for the Garden.. He told me that the PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I remember I dropped.. I was at the Hill side on top.. by this Same Tree.. I was looking at the bed of flowers where my Mother.. and I was talking to the Bed of flowers where my Mother was buried.. and just pouring out my Heart and I heard.. the Man tells Me to come and see.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM is here.. pay respect and Honor.. I would turn back.. running down the Hill to the Garden.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. riding on the Horse.. Many of the Servants and soldiers came to the Garden.. I stop trying to catch a Deep Breathe.. I was in Awe with YOU.. MAH MAH.. of course I remember meeting you few times with My Father.. but it was when I was much younger in those days.. but after my Father passed.. I was left alone.. leaving in a small House that He has built for me to live.. telling me that He is going to be gone for a Long time.. but this House.. the small house is now mine.. He has built all for me.. and that was the last time.. In a back of a carriage comes the Body of my Father.. when I saw it brought to me.. I broke down in many tears.. My Heart shattered and broken of a great Loss in my life.. but the Only way this had to go through.. I would open and look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. Only Love I can give Now.. I can't give love to my parents anymore.. but for YOU.. I have saved my whole Heart to just to love YOU.. just to say How much I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU do not know how Much I love YOU now.. as I would hear and I ran Down.. stopping to catch me Breathe.. I wanted to fall back.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. a White Beautiful Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I can feel my Heart stop.. my Beating of the Heart did not want to beat any more.. I saw YOU.. the Horse just stopped and One of the Guards.. the Special Body Guard comes UP to me.. and I remember I had to kneel before YOU.. to respect and Honor the Princess.. MAH MAH.. the words just could not come Out.. I was blown into pieces.. because YOU grew UP.. I wanted to cry because YOU were so much more Beautiful.. in person.. looking at YOU after few years goes by.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU was no more use because it was when YOU were young.. I can feel my chest pains.. aching for YOU more.. Longing for YOU more.. MAH MAH.. I would be kneeling.. as three Special Body Guards would help YOU off the Horse and YOU walked closer to me.. and YOU stopped.. My Heart.. I did not want to tell YOU about what is happening to my Heart.. I am looking at the ground.. kneeling before YOU.. my Heart.. my hand wanted to touch my Chest to show YOU.. there is something happening to my Heart.. to let YOU know.. YOU have come way too close to me.. because I can now hear my Heart weeping inside.. for a long time.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would be wishing.. I would be dreaming.. I would be running UP the Hill Side Top.. I know that I could not go to the Palace and just show UP.. I could not just ask the Guards guarding the gates to open the door for me.. and I been waiting for a day like this to happen.. I been looking at the stars.. wishing upon the stars.. I would turn to look at the MOON.. wondering does that Moon knows me.. can that MOON hear my voice.. when I ask.. when I plead and beg to be heard.. will that MOON able to hear me.. and I would be asking many nights.. that I want to see YOU.. I wanted to know if I can get close to the Princess.. MAH MAH.. close to CONG JU MAH MAH.. when I came down.. I was speaking to my Mother.. who is lying in the Bed of flowers.. that I been sharing to Her.. that I wanted to see the Princess.. but Father would warn me never to go see MAH MAH.. help me is what I be asking my mother.. that is when I heard the Man who works in the Garden to come down to the Garden.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I am not sure how this be.. but many nights.. the man who works in the garden sees me run UP to the Hill side top.. I think he hears my voice.. but when I saw YOU coming to the Garden for the first time.. I just could not believe it.. I be asking myself.. was it the stars who made my Dreams come true.. I wished many nights on those stars.. was it the Moon who can hear my cries.. my voice when I speak to that MOON about YOU.. showing the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My finger points
MAH MAH.. to the face on the Art Sketch Paper.. saying.. this is MAH MAH.. it is the PRINCESS.. it is the CONG JU NIM.. I want to ask YOU.. if YOU can bring the Princess to Me.. can YOU please tell the Princess that I want to see YOU.. I want to say something.. I have something in my Heart to tell.. but if the Princess.. MAH MAH is so far away.. How can the Princess Knows.. and I be showing tears.. hands are on prayer mode.. and I am on both knees.. and I am looking at the MOON.. asking and asking.. I need to see the Princess.. I needs to see MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I am opening my Heart.. looking up speaking to that Moon so that I can tell you something.. When YOU came closer.. and YOU stood there.. and YOU stopped while I was kneeling.. looking at the Floor.. I heard your voice.. telling my to speak.. that a Message was send to YOU and that YOU have decided to come.. I couldn't believe it.. I would think in my mind.. YOU are a Royal Blood.. at the TOP.. YOU are to rule next in line.. from the Blood line of the King.. and I am just no one.. I don't even have a name and YOU would not even recognize my name.. asking whose name is that.. and YOU have come.. and I just could not believe that YOU came.. I would be shaken by this wondering.. what am I suppose to say to you.. there is all these Guards.. soldiers.. and even generals.. even special team of Body Guards that came with YOU.. and I am only working in this garden with an older Man.. I am not even important figure.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. I have seen you few times when I was much younger.. My Father is the One who would take me as He was the one to care.. He was the Head of the servants of the Palace and was to be there for YOU.. so I would beg my father that I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. just Once I begged HIM.. I remember He put me on a Horse back and He would travel many days with me sitting on the Horse.. I came to the Palace because of my Father who was to care for YOU as a Servant.. I saw YOU from the Distance.. I was on the Other side of the Back gates where Your Chamber room was located.. I was sitting on the back of the Horse.. my Father goes in and I saw MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM coming out.. I saw you from the Distance and a man who was a sketch Artist came out from the gates and I do remember I stopped him.. I asked HIM if He can draw a Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me with a Smile.. and I pointed to YOU.. Can YOU please do me a favor.. I want an Art Sketch.. can you please draw the Picture of Princess.. the man goes back.. and I would watch Him.. and I saw you standing alone as he drew on the art sketch.. I would watch the man walk out of the back of the gates and Gives me the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would fall in love.. the more I looked at the art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU and I would lift up my head to look at you from the distance.. I was on the other side of the Back Gates.. I wanted to go close to YOU.. I wanted to see YOU closer because I could of see you from far.. I wanted to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. I been loving YOU.. you may not know this but I been longing for YOU.. wanting to love YOU.. but to see YOU in person to tell YOU how much I been loving YOU because YOU don't know unless I am able to tell YOU my Heart.. for a long time.. I would be on the Hill side top.. standing by the Tree.. LOOKING across.. LOOKING at the palace.. and I know that my words can't never reach YOU.. my voice can't be heard because of the distance.. How can YOU hear me when I am standing OUT so far.. Before I can lose this Chance.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I have always been loving YOU.. even though you may never know this.. I been here.. waiting for this very day to tell YOU.. to say to YOU that I love YOU.. I am not asking you to accept.. but just want you to know that at least my voice to be heard by YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU for the longest.. I love YOU and Kept on missing YOU for a long time.. wondering will you ever know this Heart of Mine because I know this is the Only time.. only chance I get to tell YOU.. even if YOU want to kill me today and I die.. I will die with a Smile because at least I get to say what my Heart longing to say to YOU for a long time.. that Now.. My Voice has been heard to YOU.. I wanted to say.. I love YOU PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU.. I am standing Next to YOU.. Looking at another Bed of Flowers.. Next to the Tree.. I see you standing next to Me.. One of my Friends pulling on the Rope of the Horse and stops behind Me.. and I turn to look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Where can I go with YOU.. If I asked you to stay with me.. Where can I take YOU.. there is Not many places I know that I can take YOU.. but MAH MAH.. YOU are the One who can go to many Places.. YOU are a part of the Kingdom.. which YOU are the Princess of the Nation.. who is to become the Next Ruler.. I know that YOU have a Voice.. strong voice to take control and also can unite the World.. and there are so many People who will follow YOU and will support on joining with YOU.. I know that I can't really give YOU much.. and has decided to Let You Go for Now.. I have something I must do but I know that I will always Love YOU.. I know that your father.. the King.. PEH HA is waiting for YOU.. if YOU don't go now.. and I see you turn Your Head but seems like YOU just don't want to go.. I am so confused.. YOU have brought me here.. and I have followed YOU here.. but here.. what am I suppose to Do.. I am only showing YOU the History of the dead People who once was alive.. but Now.. this is the Only their grave.. but why do YOU want to come and see both of the Parents of mine.. and YOU are asking me to stay here with YOU.. but.. I know YOU have a Bigger Plan.. YOU are suppose to rule for the Next.. I know your Father wants YOU to take control.. I am only a Palace Guard who just can't do much.. YOU are asking me where did My spirit Go.. YOU are asking me where did ALL that Heart go when I was in Prison.. all the Words I was telling YOU.. all the Pains and Passions of just telling YOU how much I love YOU.. YOU are asking me where is all the Inspiration of loving YOU went.. it has Not gone anywhere.. I still have it in my Heart.. I do love you then.. and I still love YOU now.. it is just the situation where I am standing on this ground.. So you are asking me to GO fight against the WILL of your Father.. WHO is the King of the Nation.. I am Not going to fight against Your Father.. because He is the One who is going to be the ONE to give YOU His Crown and He is the One WHO loves YOU more than Me.. Your Father loves YOU More.. that is why He is wanting you to RULE.. But when YOU are ruling.. I know that I am Not allowed to step In.. because I am Only a Palace Guard.. that is why I know that I can only love YOU from the Distance.. I believe MAH MAH.. YOU have Big Dreams.. YOU have Big Plans and Goals.. I want to see YOU accomplish and establish what is YOURS.. because of Me I don't want you to stop Dreaming.. I want you to Keep on pursuing BIGGER and Greater things even it means to Lose Me.. If I cannot be with YOU.. I know because YOU are such a Greater Woman.. YOU have things Much Bigger things to do then I.. that does Not means I will Not stop loving YOU.. I will love you even when YOU stand afar.. I will love you when YOU see the MOON UP in the sky and the Stars are next to it.. I will love you even when YOU don't see me near.. I will love YOU because I know that I believe in loving YOU is the greatest feeling.. just because Your Presence is Not here.. I know I still can tell YOU I love YOU because Love can truly reach and meet YOU on the Other side.. LOOK at how this all came about.. SO you are afraid that just because I am Not with YOU.. the distance will drift us apart.. if YOU don't see me.. If I am Not around any more.. YOU feel like YOU can't receive My Love.. and ON the back I pulled Out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing.. the Picture of YOU.. DO you see How the pieces were torn.. It was when I was very Young and I see you turn to look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. This is when I was very young.. I told YOU.. My Father brought this to me when I was a Young Boy and showed me this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. when I saw it.. I just could not get YOU off my Mind.. this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. it may seems like it is Nothing to YOU.. but for Me.. it means everything.. I held it.. I would look at It.. I would even Kiss this Picture of YOU.. I would say.. I am going to meet MAH MAH one day.. I am going to Meet CONG JU NIM one day.. I would sit in the room alone.. I would be holding this Art Sketch Paper.. paste on the wall.. and just LOOK at your Picture.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. How are YOU today.. can I please smile for YOU because I am having a Bad day.. I wonder How it would feel to see YOU and meet YOU face to face.. would I be still sad.. It was my Mother's Birthday but she is NO Longer with me today and I be looking at your Picture.. telling YOU.. I want to see YOU.. when Can I meet YOU MAH MAH.. Please tell me that I can come to YOU.. Please tell me that I will be okay.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. and I would be sitting in the room.. just day dreaming of one day meeting YOU.. and when I think of the past time.. I felt very sad and lonely most of the days just longing for YOU.. just wanting to Meet YOU.. I do
MAH MAH.. remember asking my Father when he came home.. Can I go with HIM to meet YOU.. I would ask him and Beg Him please.. Can you please take me with YOU.. I want to see MAH MAH.. I want to meet CONG JU NIM.. it is Not fair that YOU get to see her but Not me.. Of course.. My father would not want to take me because He knew How I would act.. I was so in love with the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I was so in love with YOU even before ever knowing YOU.. before even meeting YOU.. I told my Father I have big dreams too.. and He would ask.. what kind of dreams I had and I would say.. I want to marry the Princess.. I want to marry CONG JU NIM.. I want to marry MAH MAH and my father looks at me and laughs.. telling me I have a Big Heart but can Die for it and I would say Yes.. sometimes YOU needs to die for something to Have it.. I will die for it.. and My Father smiles but also says.. it is wrong.. and Now.. I see you standing next to me.. and YOU are wondering why am I pushing YOU away after all these years of struggling to be with YOU.. why do I want YOU to go or am I the one who is letting YOU go.. I am Not letting YOU GO.. I want to be with YOU for the rest of our lives but I know that YOU have big Dreams.. and I know you needs to accomplish Your Big Dreams first.. I am letting YOU go because I love YOU.. I want too see YOU fulfill Your Dreams.. I know that YOU want to succeed Your Father.. I know that YOU want to rule.. I know that YOU want to be the Next to take over and to rule for the Nation.. I know that YOU are born to RULE like your Father who is ruling.. that is why I know that I needs to step back to take my place as YOU are to take Your Place as for the One to succeed it.. Your Father is calling YOU for YOU to rule.. I received the Message.. and I would turn to look back.. My Friend falls on the fours.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. my friend who has come long ways with me.. He is going to take YOU back to the Palace with YOUR Horse.. will YOU please sit ON your Horse.. I see that YOU are pulling away.. I would hold your hand.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I want YOU to go so that YOU can take Your Place.. they are asking YOU to come to the Palace.. as I would watch YOU step on the back of my Friend and I see YOU sit on the Horse.. My friend stands UP and He grabs the Rope.. and I see Him turning away.. My Heart.. I just can't believe it is My Heart.. I can't breathe.. It is so Hard to breathe as I am watching YOU sitting on the Horse.. My friend is leading as He is pulling on the Rope of the Horse going down the Hill slowly.. as I am watching YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. the Horse and YOU riding on the Horse becomes smaller.. I would watch Your Head turning to look back at Me.. and I see My Friend leaving as all three leaves out of the sight.. But My Heart.. what is wrong with My Heart.. why is My Heart hurting for.. I know that I have made a choice.. a decision to Let YOU go for Your Best.. but WHY is My Heart hurting me so Bad.. and My hand presses on my chest.. it is so Hard to breathe again.. I fall onto my knees.. I just don't want to get UP any more because this is Hurting me so Bad.. I would turn my Head UP towards the Moon.. I feel like I want to cry.. I just want to let all my tears out of Me.. because it hurts me so Bad.. My Heart feels like it is breaking.. Breaking and It hurts as it keeps on breaking inside of me.. as I would let my tears go.. and it rolls out from my eyes and I turn to LOOK up at the Moon and I would speak to the MOON.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not letting you go because I know that I can't.. LOOK at me right Now.. How can I ever let YOU GO but I know that there is a TIME and its Place.. and where YOU are suppose to take Your Place.. what am I suppose to do if YOU are going to the right Place.. Only thing I want to do is the right thing.. I don't want to be the one to do the wrong.. I want to Obey what is given by the Order so that YOU can take Your Place.. the Place where YOU truly belong.. I want to be with YOU.. DO you know how it feels on my part to be close to YOU.. when I stand next to YOU.. I get goose bumps running through my Body.. my Heart just can't stop beating.. I can hear my own Heart bear faster as I stand next to YOU.. just to turn and to face YOU and even to be able to tell YOU this Heart of mine is so amazing.. it is the most uplifting feeling to able to tell YOU How my Heart truly feels deep down inside.. I am a Low Born.. a Father who is the Head of the servants.. I was born from that Family Line.. what can I truly do when YOU are the Princess.. CONG JU NIM of the Nation.. the Next in line to rule for the Country whom I love and whom I serve.. but to able to tell YOU and express.. even to say to YOU that YOU are so Beautiful.. that YOU are all my Love.. even to tell you that is just enough on my Part.. I just can't be greedy to want More.. of course My Heart and My Mind wants More and More of YOU.. I want everything of YOU.. I want to love YOU.. I want to marry YOU and I want to be the One who to love YOU.. but the truth is that I know I have my own place.. and I know that YOU have your own place.. that is what Hurts me the Most because I wish that I can have the same place as YOU.. but I guess we are from different family lines.. it does Not means I will stop loving YOU.. I will keep on loving YOU.. but it will feel a little different because I will love YOU in a way YOU are to guess.. as I am my two knees.. Looking UP toward the Moon.. behind me.. YOU are sitting on the Horse.. my Friend did Not leave all the way but stopped to ask me something.. He pauses while I am looking at the MOON.. telling the MOON about YOU MAH MAH.. speaking from my Heart to tell the MOON HOW I am feeling right Now.. MAH MAH.. Please.. in my Heart I don't want YOU to go but I know that YOU Must go because YOUR place is waiting for YOU.. YOU have a Big Part of the Place.. the throne which is waiting for YOU.. but for Me.. I can only look at this Moon and tell the MOON how much I love YOU.. I am sitting on the Ground.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as I am looking.. MAH MAH.. where are YOU.. I need to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I can feel the wind blowing against my face.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU some day.. I want to see YOU soon.. How about today.. my both hands holding the side of the Paper.. looking at Your face.. MAH MAH.. when Can I see you.. I want to meet YOU.. how about today.. and the rain starts to fall.. One drop falls from the skies.. and the rain becomes multiple rains and showers down lightly.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. When can I see YOU.. how about today.. If I come to see you today.. would you let me see your Beautiful face.. and I can see the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture of YOU getting wet.. getting hit by the rain as it suddenly falls harder.. and I would open my mouth and say Loud.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me see your face.. if I come to you.. how about tonight.. would you let me see you.. and I can see the Art sketch paper ripping before my eyes.. and I would start to cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. My father stands behind me.. watching me crying.. holding the ripped half papers in my hands.. putting it against my chest.. and My father holds me from behind.. pulls me Out of the ground.. as He brings me back into the home.. and I am standing next to YOU.. Looking at the bed of Flowers.. the place where My father is buried and laid in rest.. and I do remember I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I have never met you before.. But seems like I knew YOU.. and I turned to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not sure why YOU are here.. YOU do not belong here.. Why did you bring me to the Garden.. YOU belong in the Palace.. where YOU are suppose be.. Not to stand here next with me.. MY father was a servant.. He was the lowest of the lows.. and coming here is Not even a good idea.. I am a Son of a Low Born Slave.. I don't know why YOU are here.. I think it is good for YOU to go.. even though I love YOU.. I know that It is Not meant to Be.. because YOU belong to be Loved by the Prince.. and YOU are wondering.. why am I acting this Way.. why am I pushing YOU away.. It is because I don't belong with YOU.. I know this for a Fact.. but I know that I never stopped loved YOU.. ever since I saw the Art sketch paper.. My Father brought to me.. of course I had no idea.. even my Father too had no idea because YOU are a Princess.. so he just wanted to show me who he served and worked for the King.. and thought None of It.. MAH MAH.. I know that this is wrong.. what YOU are doing is wrong.. and I know that what I am doing is wrong.. but even though I am so wrong.. I just can't get YOU off my chest.. I just can't get you off my mind.. It is killing me because YOU live in my Heart.. live in my mind.. I tried so many times to erase YOU.. but as much as I tried too.. YOU just don't go away.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I know that coming here was a Bad Idea.. I told you many times that I have left this Garden and I don't know why you keep on bringing me to this Place.. I want to leave this Garden to start a new life.. a new chapter in my life but YOU keep on bringing me to this Garden.. How about going to the Palace.. so much More to see.. so much to do there but here.. there is nothing to see any more.. I just want to bury the old.. the memories.. to be gone and away.. as I would be looking at YOU.. there are three of my close
MAH MAH.. friends.. who are guards comes.. and they stopped by me.. and I would turn around to see the three guards.. and I would look behind them.. I look and see.. More Guards are coming.. and they are wearing different helmet colors.. and I would say.. Protect the Princess.. Protect MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. please stay here and the three guards turns around.. and More guards are coming.. and they come into the garden.. I would pull out the sword and the three Guards with me.. they all pull out the swords.. and I would yell.. Charge.. Protect the Princess.. Protect CONG JU MAH MAH.. and I would run Up.. and two guards on the Other side.. they pull out the swords and they would run towards me.. I would swing my Sword UP and Down and jump Up and swing side ways.. and hitting the blades together.. as I land on the ground.. Charge.. Protect CONG JU NIM.. and the three of my friends they would run.. I see more Guards coming.. I hear branches shaking and I look up.. I see more guards.. standing at the Branches.. Arrows are shooting at me.. the three of my friends are behind me.. and I would swing my sword and cut the arrows into half.. and I turn to One friend.. Protect the Princess.. go and protect MAH MAH.. I will fight.. and One of the friends turns and runs back where YOU at.. and I look.. I see More Guards coming.. from the field into the Garden.. and I would run toward.. and the two friends would follow me.. the two friends fight off the two guards and they die.. I turn.. the two friends looks at me.. and we would run out of the Garden.. the guards up on the tree branches looks down.. arrow points and YOU turn.. the Guards on the tree branches knows YOU.. MAH MAH.. it is the Princess.. BOW your Knees and they climb down the tree.. and I am out in the field.. my sword is swing.. and blades hit each other.. I am swinging the sword right left.. up down.. side to side and jumps up swing my sword.. and it strikes one guard down.. and I turn around.. the two friends are behind me.. More guards fell on the ground by the edge of the swords.. I see more running in the field.. pulling out swords.. and I would run up and I would swing my sword.. left right.. right left and I would kick.. one of the guard on the Other side swings back his sword and the blades hit each other.. I would go back and I kick and swing the sword harder.. the guard drops the sword on the ground.. YOU run out of the Garden.. and more guards are coming.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH and the Guards all put the swords down and bows the knee.. and I am thinking.. are they not enemies.. and the two friends puts the swords on the ground and Bow to KNEE.. and I put my sword down.. BOW to Knee.. One of the Guards.. PEH HA is calling YOU to come back.. we are here to get YOU back to the Palace.. the King.. PEH HA is looking for YOU.. and I am looking on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. we will also go with YOU.. to bring YOU back to PEH HA.. and I hear your voice and I would get UP.. and I look.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. did you not hear the order.. your Father.. the King.. PEH HA is calling for YOU.. WHY are you not going.. PEH HA is asking YOU to go to HIM.. I told you that YOU do not belong here.. I will remain here if YOU go.. I just can't see you here because there is NO future here for YOU.. YOU Must go back to the Palace.. if YOU go.. I will stay here.. because it is better for me to stay here.. I belong here to the Garden.. but YOU don't belong here.. YOU before to be with the Prince.. going to the palace has much better future for YOU.. so Please.. why don't you listen to the voice of your Father.. I just showed YOU where my Father is buried.. in the garden.. I did not listen to his voice.. and look at the result of what happened to HIM because of me.. I don't want you to face what I had to go through.. YOU know that NO matter where you at.. I will always love YOU.. and I believe that I will see you again.. I believe that If I love YOU.. if YOU love me.. something will happen later on a better days that comes.. but right Now.. YOU must leave the Garden.. Please MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. going back the the Palace.. YOU be much happier there.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see you turning away and YOU are walking back into the Garden and I look.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. LOOK.. you have the special Body Guards.. they have come just to take you back Home.. I don't think they will leave until YOU go with them.. I see you walk into the Garden.. Now there is One Garden who gets UP and He pulls out the sword.. and I turn.. I see Him walking up.. I grab the sword.. and He walks up.. We both start to swing our swords.. hitting the blades left to right.. blades hits together and I would walk back and I would swing faster.. as he walks up and I jump up and swings my sword hitting hit blades.. and I use full force to knock the sword out of his hand and Put the sword on his neck.. and strikes him down.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and I turn and I would walk back.. into the garden.. I see you Nowhere.. and I am thinking.. by the tree.. so I would walk UP the hill.. the three friends are walking behind me.. and I see the Moon out.. the Sun has gone down.. and I see YOU standing by the tree.. but YOU are looking at the Soil.. as I would walk closer.. another Bed of flowers.. this is where My Mother is buried.. I stand next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't know why you are doing this.. this is where my Mother is buried.. My Father told me Once.. YOU are so much like her.. I can see why because just looking at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you don't have to do this.. I don't want you to feel so sorry for me because I am doing good Now.. I just wanted to show you the people who gave me birth and raised me are here.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why are you doing this and I see you turn and YOU look at the Moon.. and YOU smiled looking at the Moon and I turn to look at what YOU are seeing.. and I do remember.. when I first told YOU.. when I started to Miss YOU.. when I wanted to say I love YOU.. and I just could not say the words.. I would be looking at that Moon.. when words just could not come out right and I was afraid to say what If you don't want to hear me say anything.. I would be turning to that Moon.. and I would say what is in my Heart looking at that Moon.. I remember few years back.. when YOU came to the Garden and YOU would leave.. I even brought you a Flower.. to show YOU what it means when I look at YOU.. I would show YOU the Flower.. How I wanted to give it to YOU.. when YOU would leave.. I would run UP to this Hill top.. I would come here at Night.. I would see the Same Moon we are looking at this very Night.. when YOU were here.. I just could not say any words to YOU.. but only wanted to give you this One Flower.. I would be upset because My Heart wanted to say something more.. I would wonder.. why couldn't I tell YOU when you were hear.. but Now you have left the Garden.. I am standing here alone.. I look up to the Moon.. I am able to speak to that Moon about YOU.. I would open my mouth and speak.. sharing How my Heart felt about you to that Moon.. Now.. We are standing here at the same Hill top.. looking at the MOON I spoke of YOU.. and if YOU want to hear me say something to the MOON about YOU.. Please come closer and open your ears and open your Heart.. because it comes from MY Heart loving YOU..I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see
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이렇게 또 보니 그져 좋소..서로 일상을 바쁘게 지내다보니 이제와선 볼 시간이 더 없네요. 앞으론 더 보기 힘들 정도로 바쁘고, 원하는 일에 재밌는 삶을 사셨으면 합니다~ 거리도 너무 머니 이전과 같이 조용히 숨어서 응원만 열심히 하겠나이다ㅎ 감기 조심하세요.
11:13 웃보람언냐 넘 귀엽다 ㅋㅋ
귀여워..치인다 매력에 치인다!!
아 다시 봐도 너무 귀엽다 팬들 선물 개봉해 보면서 좋아하는거 너무 귀엽당 ㅎㅎㅎ
도로는 진짜 사람 같이 자네 보람님의 팔베개 부럽다ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
나도 언젠가 실물영접 하긋지............................ㅠ
보람님 다람쥐같아요.ㅎ
뭘 봐도 잼나는 영상들~~선물 언박싱은 못참쥬~^^아들.엄마 챙기는 이쁜 람보
꽈추 수술한 도로 앞에서 워치 자랑에 째리는 도로~늘 행복하시길~^~^
항정싸알~ 삼겹싸알~ 목싸아알~ 황제살이래 교기교기교기! 너무 커엽자나요!
1분전은 못참지! 이런 일상 영상도 좋아요!
보람님 화이팅~^^
이제야 유투브 하시는 걸 알았네요 노래도 잘 하시고 너무 아름다운 분
응원합니다😊
너무 좋다~
일상 영상이 힐링되네요
늦었지만 축하해요... ㅎㅎ
ㅎㅎ 인스타에서 바삐 활동하시는거 보니 너무 좋아요!
블로그랑 이전 커버 정주행 하면서 기다리겠숩니다! ㅎㅎ
브이로그 좋아요!
작은선물에도 좋아하시는거 왜케 귀여우시죠?☺️
매번 볼때마다 놀라는게 생.일인데 왜 자꾸 생.얼로 보이는건지 혼자서 놀랬다가 안도 했다가ㅋㅋ
사랑합니다
So pretty Mrs Boram !😘Ing Hector Gerardo ,🐎🇰🇷🇲🇽
스마트워치 반지 특허청 디자인등록
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종국이 형님 한번 뵈러 가세요. 안먹고 다이어트 안시켜요.
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Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.
MAH MAH.. I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel.. Now I hear that my Dreams.. hopes and wishes can come true because I have Your Heart.. I really Need Your Heart.. because I love YOU.. I am sitting on the Horse.. as the Horse runs.. I am going back to the Palace.. I am thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. I would be pulling the strings of the Horse.. and I see the Horse running very Fast.. Behind me is seven Men.. four are new friends who has joined.. and they are all riding on the Horses.. as I am on the front.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I thank YOU.. I would be shouting.. as I am going to the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would scream from my lungs.. Do you know that I still Love YOU.. I am coming.. I am going to YOU.. as I see the Moon behind Me.. I am hitting the Strings hard.. the Horse runs faster and faster.. and as the New Day comes and the Sun rises.. I am at the second training ground.. I am standing next to the Horse.. It was my Father's horse.. it was once Young but has gotten older now.. as I am standing next to the Horse.. I watch YOU.. My Heart.. it is My Heart.. I watch YOU walking in the center of the training ground.. the Seven Men.. my friends are all behind me.. they are all sitting on the Horses.. I am crying.. as I am watching YOU.. the fences.. the wood bat fences.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are holding a stick.. I see you about to spar and the Chief General.. the TOP of the generals.. he steps out with a Stick.. and He is the One who taught YOU how to fight to be a swordsmanship.. I never knew that YOU wanted to be a swordsman.. as I see the sticks hitting together.. My Heart would jump.. I see you swinging the Stick.. and the Chief General ducks.. and He would swing the Stick.. which.. I wanted to go Inside to Protect.. to fight Back.. but the Fence stops me.. I know that I can't go in.. I see two guards guarding it.. and they would NOT let me in.. but I see the Stick swings and Hits YOU.. I grab my Sword.. and one of the Friends would shout.. which.. it makes YOU stop.. and YOU look back.. and I pull out the Sword.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Are you Hurt.. can I go in.. YOU know that I came here.. I came here to ready to Fight On your Behalf.. Please.. tell the guards to OPEN the fence Door.. so I can fight that General.. and the Men.. seven Men all gets Out of their Horses.. and they all Pull out their swords.. and We all Kneel.. both on the Knees.. and arms Out.. Heads looks on the Floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and with One Voice.. we Shout.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. and all Eight of Us.. heads looking on the floor.. which it stops YOU from practicing on that training Ground.. and I see you.. ON the White Dress.. I see you coming.. and I see you walking forward.. and I see you close to the Fence.. and I hear YOUR VOICE.. as I lift UP the Head and too look at YOU.. I have promised YOU.. that I am never going to Let YOU go.. even though I may not be with YOU.. there must be a way something can Happen.. but for right Now.. I have promised YOU that I am not going to let YOU down.. YOU also even send four new Men to join my team.. without YOU how can we be added like this.. I know that I may be so Small in your eyes.. I may not have much to give YOU.. but I know that I can do one thing.. to Protect YOU.. if YOU allow me to protect YOU.. I can do a little service.. and with these men.. I know that we can help.. I came here without eating.. we practiced and trained all through the Night.. I was thinking of the Promise.. I know that I can't do much.. but My Heart.. tells me if I love YOU.. there is something that I can do.. and It hit me Hard.. and I just started to think of YOU.. I know that YOU have many soldiers.. you have great generals to Chief generals.. also Commanders are with YOU.. but YOU have gave me four New Men and added.. why would you do something like that for Me.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. Let us all go back to Protect YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. is this is the Only One thing I can Do.. I can do it the Best.. I can give YOU my Best.. all I can Give.. I remember while I was sitting on the Horse.. I begin to think of YOU.. Only YOU because I never felt so Important.. I would turn around.. LOOKING at the four New Men.. they joined with the three friends of Mine and together they were singing songs.. they were singing to the new Unity of building a Dream together.. and wanted to be a part to see the greater works in play and they were all singing joyfully and I sat on the Horse.. tears started to fall from My eyes and I saw the seven Men turn to look at me.. they all came and surrounded me.. around the horse asking why was I crying and I told them.. it is NOT about Us.. but about the Kingdom.. all about the Palace.. that we were put together to Protect WHO.. and we all raised Our voices together.. and with the Swords UP.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. let us go to the Palace.. and Be a part.. Just to protect YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw each Man get on his Horse.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking at the Moon.. It is this MOON that brought us together.. It was around this TIME I would look UP at the MOON.. asking about the Crown Princess.. and I started to Hit the strings of the Horse and He just took Off fast.. and the Other Seven men follows.. I came this early in the Morning.. One of the Guards at the entrance told me that the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is going to the Second Training Ground.. DID NOT tell me anything else.. but YOU were going to be there.. SO I would tell the seven friends of Mine.. Let us go there and wait together.. I would be the One who stood by the Horse.. Letting the Other seven Men to rest while sitting there.. I saw YOU.. from the distance I saw YOU walking.. it is when we eight of Us arrived.. YOU were holding a stick.. I don't know WHY.. I wanted to run over.. to let YOU know that I have come.. the two Guards guarding me.. I asked if I could go inside.. to Greet the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but they would NOT allow me.. telling me NO ONE can go inside but Only the Crown Princess.. I saw the Chief General walking with a Stick.. wondering.. why Is He able to go Inside and I can't.. what is going On.. tell me.. but the Guards would Not tell me anything.. they decided not to say a Word.. what am I suppose to do.. I can hit the two.. so I just went back to the Horse and stood next to it.. I saw the Chief General.. His stick would hit YOU few times.. How dare is that MAN to Hit YOU with the Stick.. and It was getting to Me.. How can He hits the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who does he thinks He is.. and it made me Mad.. NO ONE Hits or touches.. and I knew.. if the two guards won't let me In.. then the sword is going to Help me to get inside.. so that I can fight.. and I pulled the Sword.. and I turned.. to face the two guards.. I am going in.. to Help and to Protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and this time Your Words will not stop me.. and as I was going to make that.. One of my Friends calls Out.. it got to YOU.. and I turn back.. I see the Seven men.. my Friends.. they all pulled Out the Sword.. and I hear them.. they are going to go with Me.. and Help me to Protect YOU.. I could not see anyone Hitting YOU with the stick.. My Heart would Not allow it.. My Heart just couldn't see that.. and I would be showing YOU my tears running down.. I am on my both knees.. the Swords struck on the ground.. the seven Men are behind me.. arms out.. swords are all struck on the ground.. I have come.. so that I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. and I wanted to protect YOU.. Me with these seven friends of Mine.. that is How my Heart feels because this is the Only thing that we all can do.. and I would hear YOU speak.. of course I did Not know that the Chief General is Your teacher.. and even since YOU were young.. and How you wanted to protect Yourself from the dangers of Your Six Brothers.. the Six Princes who wanted to be the Crown.. The King.. PEH HA send the Chief General to be your Body Guard but also to teach the Art of the Swordsmanship.. and Now.. He is like a second father to YOU because He cares for YOU like a Daughter.. as I would hear YOU.. My Heart is moved by how It is unsafe to stay in the Palace as a Young girl.. scared of being killed by the older Brothers.. and my fist.. I would clinch my fist.. that is WHY I came here.. that I wanted to Protect YOU because I love YOU.. What more words Can I say.. I know that it is NOT easy to be the Crown Princess.. But Now.. YOU also have eight of Us.. Unity together as we stand.. to Protect YOU so that YOU can be the QUEEN.. I hear the Seven Men behind me they all would shout Loud.. QUEEN.. to be Our Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH one day.. and I would lift UP my arm.. and Head looks ON the Floor.. and the Seven men behind me would also lift UP their arms and heads looks down as we are all on our knees.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just want to see YOU to succeed.. I want YOU to be seating as the TOP.
MAH MAH.. As I would look on the Floor.. My tears are hitting the Floor.. I am looking back.. the Four of Us by the ocean.. and I would turn to look back.. I would see the Four new men.. One is holding bunch of wooden sticks.. and I would look over them.. I see YOU.. YOU are sitting on the Horse.. and I see YOU turn around.. the Horse turns away and I see the Horse starts running off with YOU sitting ON it.. I am looking at the Four New Men.. One of them saying.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to be a part of this brotherhood.. and I am looking with the three friends of Mine.. I just can't believe it.. WHY would the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY would you sent these four Men.. and I would look at them.. I just can't believe it.. I am Not worthy to have.. I can't even lead a thing.. But why would they come.. and I would grab a Stick.. and One of my Friend grabs a stick.. and he is the One who came to visit me when I was IN prison.. as I am thinking.. and I am on two knees.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. and my tears is rolling down.. I can't even lead.. I am Not even on the special Guard.. I am Not even a Body Guard.. I am only the one who stood by the back Gates of the Palace.. why would YOU trust me with four new Men.. I am unworthy to Have.. because their lives are on the Line.. If to Die.. I rather die alone.. I don't want to take any other Lives with Me.. and I see YOU.. and YOU smile.. I wanted to grab Your hand.. I wanted to touch Your Hand.. But I can't.. YOU are going to ask Me to kiss this Hand right.. but I can't kiss YOUR HAND.. I rather be distance then to be close kissing Your Hand.. but HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. do you remember that before YOU left.. before the Four New Men came.. YOU asked me for something.. YOU said.. to Promise YOU something.. that I am Not going to leave.. and YOU told me to make that Promise Now.. because Later will be just too late and while YOU came close.. I was looking at the Waters of the Ocean.. you stood by me.. asking me to Promise YOU.. that I am Not going to leave YOU or forsake YOU.. before YOU would go back to the Palace.. and I remember standing next to YOU.. I can't promise kissing Your Hand.. but I can promise YOU that I can keep on loving YOU.. I can promise that I will Not leave YOU or forsake YOU.. that I will go back and I will be there for YOU.. by Your Side.. and I told YOU.. I do Promise I be there.. to Protect YOU always.. and I do remember you looked at me and YOU gave me the same smile as YOU are looking at me on the Other side of the Fence.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. that I just can't never let YOU go.. I came with the seven Men because I made the Promise I will.. this is the main reason why I am here.. because I am keeping my Promise I made with YOU.. to Always Love YOU and to Always protect YOU..I am still standing by the waters.. Just thinking about YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I wish that I could be with YOU.. I have dreamed ever since I was a young Boy.. even though I knew that It was never to be happened.. I know that I can't be with YOU because YOU are so Big.. but what can I do as a MAN who can Only dream and believe that Maybe if there was a Chance.. How can I be with YOU.. to Love YOU.. all I ever wanted ever since I laid my eyes on YOU.. when I saw YOU.. even though I know I can't.. but I still do believe that I can.. all I am asking is for YOU to know my Heart.. to know How much I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my life by your side just to love YOU.. to tell you how much I love YOU and love you until I die.. do YOU know that I never will stop.. as I am looking at the waters.. and I turn to look back.. I see you on the Horse.. YOU are sitting on the top of the Horse.. I see you wearing the White dress.. so Lovely.. how come you only wear that White Dress.. why are you showing me that YOU are so Beautiful.. if YOU keep on showing me how Beautiful YOU are.. what am I suppose to do.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the ground.. with the three of my friends.. Looking at the ground.. I can't come with YOU right Now.. I know I can't go.. I just need some time to be alone.. and before YOU came.. One of my friends told me.. He saw Six Princes and they were standing next to the King and Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am wondering who those six Men were.. I know they were from the Royal Blood Line.. as I heard your voice.. I would listen to your Voice and with the three friends we all get Up.. as I wanted to come closer to YOU.. I see the Big Crown on top of your Head.. I see seven Men behind YOU.. the Chief Generals and Commanders.. DAE JANG GEUN.. they all showed UP and standing behind YOU.. and I just can't believe this happened so fast.. I knew that this day would show UP but so Fast was unexpected.. and I would lower myself.. on two knees and I would ask.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am asking for the permission to speak.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can you please give me the permission to speak.. and I hear YOUR voice.. I am wondering about the Six Men.. they were Princes.. who were standing next to the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. may I ask who are those Six Men.. and I would hear the Head of the Servant who shows UP.. He looks at me and pulls Out the sword.. I see YOU lifting UP your hand to back down and he goes back.. and I hear you tell me.. and Me and the three friends are all shocked.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. they are the Older Brothers of CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. if the Crown Princess has six Older Brothers ahead.. and YOU have succeeded to next in Line to get the Throne.. and I feel like a Storm is going to come in the Palace.. and I look at YOU.. and I see YOU put your hand Out.. and I am thinking in my mind.. YOU have great army with YOU.. look at the Chief Generals and also the COMMANDERS who got Your Back and has your Support.. even the King and the Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH are the ones who gave you the Crown.. I saw them both kneeling and kissing Your Hand.. of course I did Not see any of the Six Princes kissing Your Hand but now I know why.. But why do YOU need Me.. YOU have even the Prime Minister.. TAE SAH JAH.. and even the COUNCIL OF NOBLE MEN.. all the Maids.. even the HIGHEST KITCHEN LADY.. and even the Chief Doctor too.. WHY do you need me to help Me.. YOU know that I am so small.. I am Nothing when You look at all these great and important people around YOU.. and I see YOU getting Off the Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Stand back.. YOU don't need to come closer to Me.. YOU know How Great and Important you are and has become for the Kingdom you represent.. and I have become so Low.. Now it is so hard for me to get close to YOU.. when I see these great Men.. warrior Men surrounding YOU.. and with me the three friends would step back.. but I see YOU coming.. looking so Beautiful.. with the big Crown wearing the white Dress.. WHAT am I suppose to Do if I feel like YOU are this Great.. if you are this Big in my eyes.. what am I suppose to do.. and I am looking at the floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would stop.. I would listen to Your Voice as I lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. as I would show my tears in my eyes.. How am I suppose to Love YOU.. if YOU are this Great and this Big.. and I feel so small when I am around YOU.. I just feel like I can't do anything any more.. because I have Nothing.. and I see YOU standing there.. YOU are wondering what happened to the boldness.. the courage.. the confidence that YOU saw in Me.. It is still here inside my Heart.. but.. at this Point right Now.. YOU have just gotten bigger.. and More stronger.. YOU have gotten.. that is why I am asking YOU for some time.. that I needed some time and space to think it through.. and No.. YOU are not going to ever lose me because I have never stopped loving YOU.. the process of.. and needing the time and space to help me to bounce back is what I am asking for HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. that is why I came here to the waters.. to bring the peace of Mind and to think it through.. and as I am looking at YOU.. I see you standing still.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please know that I am going to go back to the palace.. as I am looking at YOU turning around.. I feel the deep sadness.. because I love YOU so much.. I feel so helpless at this Point.. watching YOU getting and the two Maids would help you to get YOU sit on top of the Horse.. I don't want YOU to go deep inside.. but I know that YOU must Go.. YOU are the one who to rule Next.. YOU have all of the great important people backing YOU up and supporting YOU.. they are going to help YOU to defend but also I will come very soon.. soon to be by your side.. I feel bad that I can't kiss Your Hand either.. looking at the six Princes.. I saw None of them smiling at ALL.. they were there but.. NONE of the SIX PRINCES went over to Kiss Your Hand.. and I feel like maybe is this the way YOU are seeing me like Your Older Brothers.. because FOR ME.. I want YOU TO truly SUCCEED.. I want YOU to truly rule.. I want YOU to be seated in the right Place where it is your Seat.. but thinking of Your Older Brothers.. this is the reason why I know I must go back.. I know that I must be by your side.. I feel like something is
MAH MAH.. Going to happen in that HOUSE.. in the Palace and I want to help YOU.. and I will help YOU.. and I see YOU sitting on the Horse and has turned around.. I would watch the Special Body Guards on the sides.. left and right.. I see the Commanders leading the way.. and the Chief Generals in the Back.. and my Heart.. WHY is this Happening and I do remember my Father would say.. I must be a swordsmanship to Protect the Princess.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. if I truly Love YOU.. I must know and learn to Protect.. and I would Pull Out my sword.. as I stood up.. watching YOU.. I see the Horse keep on walking forward.. my three friends behind me pulls Out their swords.. and I know that I must go back.. Back to the Palace.. just to protect YOU.. even if I must fight and even I die by the Brothers.. I know that the Crown Princess Must had the seat.. because that is the Only one thing is on My Mind and Heart.. to see YOU succeeded to the Throne.. I would turn around and I am looking at the waters.. I would close both eyes.. My Father is looking at me.. holding a training stick.. wood shape as the sword.. and it hits my Head.. I am crying as it hits my head again.. I would hear his voice.. telling me to stop crying.. even though it hurts.. that a man should NOT cry.. the WOOD training stick shape of sword hits me head again.. I am holding my tears.. the angry as the pain hits my head.. I would look up at the Father.. telling me.. holding the pain inside.. and the more it hits me.. I have to hold all the pain that is killing me.. Until I just can't hold it no more.. and that is HOW I feel.. when I see YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. it feels like it.. this sharp Pain that stabs my Heart.. when I saw YOU getting back on the Horse.. I know that I should of told you I will go with YOU.. but letting YOU go.. and I am not going with YOU hurts me more deeply inside.. watching you sit.. Horse turning away on the Other side.. and it was a pretty Long journey that YOU came.. it really hurt me Hard.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I have turned YOU down because I needed space.. but thinking about the situation.. and at the crucial time.. I should of kept my mouth shut.. I should of thought about the situation first before saying something.. I did not meant to reject.. but wanted to let YOU Know I am coming.. I am going back to that palace to join YOU.. but just to give me a little time.. I should of been thoughtful.. I am so sorry Crown Princess.. I am so Sorry WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am so Sorry.. I know that YOU are going through a lot.. especially what is happening in that House.. as I am looking at the waters.. My Heart feels more heavy.. what if I never asked.. If I did not ask about the Six Princes because that was None of my business.. but Now I know what is going On.. and it really really sucks to know because I would of thought that everyone would celebrate this.. I was so happy to know when I found Out that the King had made YOU into the Crown Princess.. MY Heart was laughing while I was laughing so loudly when I heard.. I turn and I looked over.. I saw the King.. He comes over.. with the big CROWN putting on top of your Head.. Your Father was so proud and in tears with JOY as He was the One to put on top of your Head.. and He kisses Your Hand and says.. well Done.. Now to keep it.. I saw the Queen.. and I saw Six Men.. on the royal robe coming down.. and they would just stand by the Queen.. I do remember just looking.. never seen any of the six Men before.. but they were wearing the royal Robe and knew that they were a part of the Royal Blood family line.. and they just stood next to the Queen.. did Not say a word.. looked more angry.. But I did not know who they were at all.. Never seen any of them before.. When YOU told me who they were.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I was shocked to know.. because I did not even thought of being in your own family.. I thought maybe like the Uncle's sons.. One of them was wobbling around.. like had too much wine to drink.. and would fall on the ground.. But Now I know why YOU came.. Now I see what has you troubled in your Heart.. I know that I have a true Mission to protect YOU.. to be with YOU and Help you to be in that throne.. that is the Only way for YOU to secure and establish YOU as the Queen of the Throne for this Nation.. It is that I will fight For YOU.. for your behalf because YOU Know How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. my three friends would shout with Me.. To Protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. To protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and with One voice the four of us shouted.. We will protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. we.. I will protect YOU.. and when I turned around.. I see YOU there.. I see you sitting on that Horse.. and I would lift UP to see YOU SMILE.. I have made this VOW.. to stay by your side.. to Love YOU and to always protect YOU.. I would bow my knee.. put my arm front and head down to show.. I too be with YOU forever.. the three friends behind.. we all did it together to be with YOU..I am standing by the waters.. I watch the Moon comes UP before me.. My three friends are behind Me.. with four Horses.. I would LOOK up at the Moon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Do you know that it has been a Long time since I loved YOU.. Not with a Day passing me By I just couldn't think of YOU.. I know that I do not deserve to Love YOU.. but what happens when I have broken the Golden RULE.. it does Not matter any more what Happens to Me.. because I came so Far.. and I can't never go back now.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. it does Not matter if YOU don't love me because I have never asked YOU to love me.. but I have come so Far that NOW I just can't stop loving YOU.. I would look at my sheath.. grabbing the back of the Sword.. I pull the sword Out.. and I raise IT UP.. looking at the shine of the Blade of the sword.. I have never stopped practicing the Art of the Swordsman ship.. I have been training for a Long time.. Been practicing over and over because I knew that One day.. I will have to use this Sword.. to fight and to Protect YOU.. even though YOU may Not need me.. I believe that One day.. I can be put into the service to be useful to Protect YOU.. I would watch the Sun set.. swinging the Sword.. left right right left.. I would be swinging through.. as I watch the Sun comes UP until the SUN goes down into the Night where I see this Same Moon.. I told myself that One day.. I am going to enter the Palace.. One day I am going to come and see YOU.. but of course I do not know How long that One day will be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I do remember the day I saw YOU.. My Father wanted to surprise me by taking ME to see YOU.. I would be begging HIM.. as I would be holding and Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. He would look at me asking me.. WHY DO I keep on staring at that Art Sketch Paper.. it is NOT going to come Alive.. it is NOT going to ever hear me.. or will Not answer Me.. why do I keep on looking at the Picture of YOU.. what good is going to do if I only stare.. but unable to do anything about It.. and Knowing that I can't be with YOU.. My Father looks at me.. and He tells Me.. why don't I give that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU to him.. and He will get rid of It.. He tried many times to get rid of the Art Sketch Paper.. tearing it into the pieces.. or even burning with Fire.. I would watch it get burned and torn into pieces.. I would watch it disappear into the Night.. as I could Not do nothing about the situation.. But.. I would always go.. find a Way.. pay coins giving it to the Boy who draws picture.. and He would always give me a New Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. My Father sees me with another One.. and Yes.. finally he tells me.. He is going to take me to see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I do remember as I was on sitting on the Horse.. He would be pulling the Strings of the Horse.. and He would stop.. and He would turn and by the same waters.. He would pull the Horse and stops here where I am standing.. and He would LOOK at me.. looking at the Horse.. He would turn to look at the MOON.. and look at the waters.. and He would turn to look at me who is sitting on the Horse.. and tells me HOW much He misses my MOTHER.. How much My father loved my Mother.. and How he still loves her till this day.. but did Not want to show any signs and tears.. did not want me to look at HIM as a Father being so weak.. but when He sees me.. and How much I love YOU.. as much he would try to get rid of that Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and NO matter what He does to that paper and turns into the ashes.. just looking at my Will and my Love.. how much I love YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. it is like He is looking at Himself who misses My Mother.. which My father loved Her so Much.. and He knew.. this is the same way He feels about loving someone.. and wanted to show me something.. as I sat on the Horse as the Little Boy.. He would come to this Place.. looking at the waters.. it brings great peace but sorrow of How much He loves my Mother.. My father would spend a day here.. letting me wonder around.. but He would sit still looking at the waters.. after He gathers his thoughts.. he would help me to get on the Horse and a long journey of HIM walking will take place.. as I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. He
MAH MAH.. Smiles looking at me.. for a Long time He would go against me loving YOU.. He would spank me.. hit me.. push me to the floor and I would be crying getting UP.. but my hands are always holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU until He finally tells me He has given up trying to force me NOT to Love YOU and has opened his heart for me to Love YOU.. He tells me.. I have such a Strong will power.. that I do not give UP that easily.. and that is what He loves about me as His son.. I remember going to the palace.. He shows his Card to the palace guard and they open the Door.. as the Head of the servants.. he would take me to a different location.. a location or the Place I have never been.. and He stops.. there is a Bar Gate.. It was a training Ground and My Father knew that YOU were here.. as I sat on the Horse.. I saw YOU walking.. there were five men standing behind and they were the TOP Generals.. I saw YOU looking across.. holding a Bow.. and grabbing an Arrow.. I saw YOU pulling the strings of the bow Back with the Arrow in between and YOU were aiming.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I saw YOU let go of the strings of the Bow.. the Arrow releases and it shoots hitting the target.. the MAN who was standing next to the target.. the arrow hits the Red mark.. the Man holds UP the flag and says BULLS EYE.. the Five Men who were with you.. who were standing behind you.. hands were clapping.. knowing that YOU bee practice shooting with the Bow and arrows.. My Father who is standing next to the Horse.. I am sitting On the Top of the Horse.. I wanted this Picture.. I wanted some one.. that Boy who draws sketch paper.. I wanted him here so he can draw me a picture of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. shooting arrows.. My Father looks.. He turns to look at me.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. telling me that a MAN needs to protect who He loves.. and tells me.. looking at YOU.. if I really loved YOU.. I can't be a weak Boy.. can't be weak because YOU are the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the One who is going to rule over the kingdom.. and to Love YOU means to be a real Man.. to Love YOU means to have the Courage to protect YOU.. and my father looks at me.. instead of Looking at the Art sketch paper.. I needs to pick UP a sword.. pick up the sword and to fight for the One who you love the Most.. and I sat there.. but I just want to love YOU.. but my father tells Me.. Be a real man.. not a coward.. but take heart means to have courage.. knowing how to die you love means YOU can live for YOU.. and I sat there wondering what does that Means.. to fight for.. am I a coward.. am I afraid.. and my Father pulls the Horse away and starts to lead the other way.. holding the strings of the Horse.. He would tell me many things as I would spent my time with HIM.. about Love.. what it means to love YOU.. My father also mentions that even the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who is shooting arrows using the Bow knows that to be the Crown Princess.. needs to protect the People that is with YOU.. also practices daily shooting arrows Hitting the target.. because YOU want to rule the Nation.. to be the next to be on the Line to have the kingdom at hand.. I would turn my Head looking back.. sitting on the top of the Horse.. I would hear the top generals clapping Hands and shouting with Cheers as YOU are hitting the target BULLS EYE.. I am sitting.. and I started to ask my father.. I want to protect the Crown Princess.. because I know that I love YOU.. I want to be the One to protect YOU.. is that means I am showing YOU love.. and My Father smiles.. and tells ME he can train and teach me with the basics and I would turn my head to look front.. and I hear my father laughing as He would pull on the strings of the horse as he is walking and I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. just smiling all the way.. as I am standing here.. Looking at the waters.. I lift UP my head Looking at the Moon.. I have been practicing for a Long time.. ever since my Father showed me YOU.. and told me what a MAN must do.. to protect WHO he loves.. Now.. Many years goes By.. I have never changed this Heart of Mine.. that I always wanted to protect YOU and Never stopped Loving YOU.. I am standing at the cross road.. and I have seen many important people coming forward.. they have kissed YOUR HAND.. showing the devotion to YOU.. But I know that I have Not kissed Your hand yet.. I feel so wrong because I have chosen which I know that I can't.. I told YOU how much I loved YOU.. ever since I saw YOU from my youth.. as a young Boy.. I remember YOU turned to look where I was at.. with my Father next to my side.. I was sitting on the top of Horse.. looking at YOU from the distance.. I saw YOU grabbing an arrow.. holding the strings of Bow.. Putting the back of the arrow on the strings of the Bow.. pulling the strings and aiming the arrow and releasing it.. I saw the arrow flies across and it Hits that Target.. right on the middle of the spot.. I would watch the Man on the side of the Target raising up the flag calling out.. the five generals who were teaching and training YOU.. I over head.. YOU are learning so Fast.. you are very quick on picking UP things.. and they would look at each other smiling.. hands clapping and shouting saying.. the Next Ruler.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Next one to sit on the Throne.. I was blown into pieces as I sat on the top of the Horse.. watching the arrows hitting the target on the red mark.. I would begin to think.. How can I ever protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have the top Generals on your side.. YOU have the COMMANDERS and the Chief Generals.. they are the Most fierce fighters and warriors who are with YOU.. How can I even fight if YOU have the best men with YOU.. How can I protect YOU.. but My Heart who loves YOU wants to just do that.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU in any means.. as I would stand.. LOOKING at the Blades of the sword.. I can see the shine.. How can I protect YOU.. but that is the Only thing that I can do.. to love YOU and to protect YOU.. as I am looking at the waters.. I did Not know that you came.. I did not know that YOU were going to come.. as I turn around to look at the three friends.. I see YOU behind the four Horses and YOU were sitting on the top of the White Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would lower myself.. and the three Friends also turns around.. the four of us are on the Ground.. looking at the floor.. did YOU hear what I say.. when did YOU come.. did YOU hear everything that I was sharing.. and all I hear is silent.. I am looking at the ground.. I hear Your Voice.. telling me to get UP.. that I must come back to the Palace.. that YOU have something for me to DO.. but.. I just remained still.. I just couldn't get UP.. because YOU are the Crown Princess.. just give me the permission.. allow me to get UP.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.
MAH MAH.. The Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to live a different life.. I can't spend the rest of my Life just standing here.. Unable to say.. unable to tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I am Not going to live the rest of my life.. just wishing because I just can't.. why.. if YOU are asking me why I can't.. Loving YOU is all I want.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like
Oink Oink.. I am standing out here.. Looking at the Moon.. I wondering if YOU can hear me.. If I tell you something.. will you be able to hear on the Other side.. Can you please hear Me because right Now.. I need YOU.. and Yes.. I miss you too.. only YOU is who I need and WHO I love.. loving you is the Only thing I can do.. But.. if you want to hear me.. right Now I am standing Out side.. It is Night here because I am looking at the Moon.. I know that I miss YOU.. I think you have forgotten to take something with YOU.. WHY did you leave it behind.. why did YOU not take this with YOU.. my Both arms are holding around.. the Pillow.. the Shape is a Heart and the color is Pink.. the Most Beautiful color.. Please.. tell me that YOU have forgotten to take this with YOU.. or please tell me that YOU did leave it behind for me to see.. that YOU know as much as I love YOU.. I first want YOUR Heart.. WHY did you not leave your Real Heart instead.. if this Pillow Pink Heart which I am holding in my arms.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to hold Your Real Heart.. will you please let me have a Peek of Your Real Heart.. I want to know if I can see your Heart.. and to Love Your Heart.. Only you can tell me the answer because Right Now I am waiting.. beneath this Tent shade.. I am out on the patio.. looking up at the Moon.. I am missing YOU.. I have been missing YOU for a long time.. WHY.. tell me why did YOU leave this Pillow behind.. Now I am thinking of YOU.. thinking more about your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. Hold your Heart close to my Arms.. Hold your Heart so that I can put my lips as close and tell your Heart.. My Heart sings inside of me.. because it starts with my Heart.. who knows that I love YOU.. My Heart truly loves YOU.. that is why I want your Heart.. I need your Heart.. I do not want this Pillow Pink Heart.. of course if it belongs to YOU.. I love it.. but I really really want Your Real Heart is what I am talking about.. when will you show me Your Heart.. Please tell me that I am able to see your Heart.. and get close to you so that I can see your Real Heart.. if you let me get close to YOU.. can I tell your Heart something.. I want to tell your Heart.. I want to hear.. I want to hear it.. hear the sound.. I want to hear your Heart beating.. can I please hear your Heart Beat.. as I put my ear and to tell YOU.. Listen to the Heart Beat.. I love the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. because I know that it is I who loves you the Most.. But How can I hear.. I want to hear.. only thing I can do is just look UP.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can't even see your Face.. my arms stretches far.. hands holding the Pink Heart Pillow.. LOOK.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can feel my tear drops.. running down my cheeks.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. missing YOU so Bad.. Missing you so Much right now.. I am holding this Pillow.. Pink Heart.. Can you please see this.. I know that you are miles and miles away.. I know that you can't even hear me at all.. Only if you can come Out at Night.. Please come Out.. see if there is Night on the Other Side.. Come Out Please.. and If is Night on the Other Side.. is the MOON Up in the sky showing Up.. Is the MOON there.. I know that the Moon can show UP and show you a picture.. Show you a shadow of a person.. It is Me.. and I know that YOU are able to see a figure.. I am holding the Heart Pink Pillow.. you have left it behind here.. and I want to show you something on the Other side.. Can you please come Out.. if it is Night over there.. please step Out side.. see if you can see the Moon appear before YOU.. if you are standing out side in the Night and YOU see the Moon.. can YOU Hear me.. Can you hear my voice.. I know that YOU can't see me but I can tell you this.. I have found something.. YOU have left something behind and I am asking does it belongs to YOU.. and If you are over there on the Other side struggling for what YOU have lost.. DID you lost a Pillow.. a Heart shape color Pink.. I have it over here.. my arms around the Shape Heart Pink Pillow.. I wanted to ask YOU.. why did you leave it behind.. WHY did you lose this Heart.. DID you left it behind or did you lost it on your way going somewhere because I have it with Me.. Please tell me that I can have the Heart.. Can We make a trade when YOU see me soon.. if you come to see me.. can we trade Heart to Heart.. I will give YOU this Pillow.. shape of a Heart color Pink and YOU can give me your Real Heart.. I know that if you give it to Me.. I will love your Heart forever.. I will love your Heart which YOU never felt before.. Only give me a chance to Love your Heart.. I am asking you.. can I please have your Real Heart because I need you now.. as I am standing out side.. Looking UP at the Moon.. I know that without YOU.. my life is going to be incomplete.. that is why I need you.. I want you near me but only way is to Love your Heart.. What do I must do to get to Your Heart.. I been asking you for a while.. but YOU have never given me a straight Answer.. I am only asking for just one thing.. it is Your Real Heart.. Not a Pillow.. Not a Shape of a Heart.. Not a Color Pink either.. but Your Real Heart.. and as I stand Looking UP at the Moon.. my arms around the Shape Heart.. color Pink pillow.. I wish that it was the real Heart.. at least I can say something to the Real Heart.. what can I do with this Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. No matter how much I say to this Pillow.. it only wants me to lay my Head down on it.. If I lay down.. at least I want to hear the sound.. the beating.. I want to hear it.. listen to your Heart Beat and I would turn to Your Heart as I be listening to the sound and the beating of the Heart.. LOOKING at your Heart.. I would say.. I love YOU.. DO you love me too.. I would turn again to your Heart and I will say.. I love YOU.. Do you love me too.. can YOU please tell me that YOU can love me too.. because YOU know how much I love you.. I have been waiting for this for a long.. to tell you but also to hear from you if YOU DO.. and can I please turn to Your Heart and tell your Heart my words.. that I love you.. as I would step few steps back.. I would think about before I came out to the Patio.. I was sitting on the top of the Bed and as I lay on the Bed.. something laying beside me.. and I turn to face.. the Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. the Pillow is next to me.. and I would sit UP on the bed.. I have the phone with me.. and I hit to see the Picture.. many pictures I have saved and there is One Picture.. as I would take a LOOK at the Picture.. it is you on this bed.. I have taken a picture of you.. you were laying on the side.. holding your arms around this Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and both of your eyes were closed.. that means you were sleeping and I have taken a picture of you while you were falling asleep.. Like a Sleeping Beauty.. in such a peace and beauty you were.. as I am sitting on the bed.. I see the same Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and I am wondering.. why is this here.. I know that this is Yours.. why did you leave it on this Bed.. I never bought a Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. color Pink.. but it was laying.. I tried to go to sleep but while trying to lay on my side.. I was faced with this Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink and it woke Me up.. and I have forgotten that it was here or thought that It was taken with YOU.. as I was sitting on the Top of the Bed.. I would be looking at it.. and I wanted to try what YOU have shown me in this Picture.. my hands grab this Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink.. my arms would go around and I would hold it tightly and lightly squeeze it.. Does your Heart feels this Way.. is it this Soft.. and is it this warm.. I love a Heart being warm and soft.. makes me want to hold It close and make you feel how I feel the way I feel when I hold and it is your Heart.. as I am holding.. my arms around the Heart shape Pillow.. color Pink.. I start to think of you more.. wondering DO you miss Me.. because right Now.. holding this Heart shape Pillow.. the color Pink.. I am missing YOU.. Now I want to see YOU.. I want to see you near and close to Me.. but being so Far.. I just feel like I just can't do anything.. why do I must feel this Way that there is Nothing I can do even though it is just loving YOU.. why can't I love you close.. Why can't you be here.. be near me so I can love you closer.. why do YOU have to be so far that sometimes I feel like I can't love you the way I want to because of the distance between.. I want you close. I want you near.. Please come closer.. and I would be so sad.. as I am looking at the Picture.. on the Phone.. there is the Picture of YOU holding the Heart shape Pillow.. and YOU look in such peace.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.. I am sitting on the Top of the Bed.. Holding the same Pillow.. Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. Does it feels the same.. I think looking at the Picture.. looking at you holding the same Heart Shape Pillow.. the Color Pink.. I can feel Your Heart.. I guess knowing that we can share something very special feeling of loving the Shape Heart.. because I am thinking of it being YOUR HEART.. only YOUR Heart I want to hold.. Only Your Heart I want to love and tell it that I love YOU.. as I am holding with both arms around It.. I know this has to be the same feelings.. that it is all about loving YOU.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. Do you know that I am holding a Heart.. it is a Shape of A Heart.. I am thinking of being Your Heart to me.. because I want to hold your Heart the way I am holding this Shape Heart.. the Pillow.. only if you did Not go and you were to stay here.. I wonder How you would react.. I wonder what would you have done.. coming over.. and YOU be seeing this Shape Heart of the Pillow.. the Pink Color on the top of
MAH MAH.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew
MAH MAH.. this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden.. the first time YOU came.. I heard a Man who is also working for the Garden.. He told me that the PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I remember I dropped.. I was at the Hill side on top.. by this Same Tree.. I was looking at the bed of flowers where my Mother.. and I was talking to the Bed of flowers where my Mother was buried.. and just pouring out my Heart and I heard.. the Man tells Me to come and see.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM is here.. pay respect and Honor.. I would turn back.. running down the Hill to the Garden.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. riding on the Horse.. Many of the Servants and soldiers came to the Garden.. I stop trying to catch a Deep Breathe.. I was in Awe with YOU.. MAH MAH.. of course I remember meeting you few times with My Father.. but it was when I was much younger in those days.. but after my Father passed.. I was left alone.. leaving in a small House that He has built for me to live.. telling me that He is going to be gone for a Long time.. but this House.. the small house is now mine.. He has built all for me.. and that was the last time.. In a back of a carriage comes the Body of my Father.. when I saw it brought to me.. I broke down in many tears.. My Heart shattered and broken of a great Loss in my life.. but the Only way this had to go through.. I would open and look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. Only Love I can give Now.. I can't give love to my parents anymore.. but for YOU.. I have saved my whole Heart to just to love YOU.. just to say How much I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU do not know how Much I love YOU now.. as I would hear and I ran Down.. stopping to catch me Breathe.. I wanted to fall back.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. a White Beautiful Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I can feel my Heart stop.. my Beating of the Heart did not want to beat any more.. I saw YOU.. the Horse just stopped and One of the Guards.. the Special Body Guard comes UP to me.. and I remember I had to kneel before YOU.. to respect and Honor the Princess.. MAH MAH.. the words just could not come Out.. I was blown into pieces.. because YOU grew UP.. I wanted to cry because YOU were so much more Beautiful.. in person.. looking at YOU after few years goes by.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU was no more use because it was when YOU were young.. I can feel my chest pains.. aching for YOU more.. Longing for YOU more.. MAH MAH.. I would be kneeling.. as three Special Body Guards would help YOU off the Horse and YOU walked closer to me.. and YOU stopped.. My Heart.. I did not want to tell YOU about what is happening to my Heart.. I am looking at the ground.. kneeling before YOU.. my Heart.. my hand wanted to touch my Chest to show YOU.. there is something happening to my Heart.. to let YOU know.. YOU have come way too close to me.. because I can now hear my Heart weeping inside.. for a long time.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would be wishing.. I would be dreaming.. I would be running UP the Hill Side Top.. I know that I could not go to the Palace and just show UP.. I could not just ask the Guards guarding the gates to open the door for me.. and I been waiting for a day like this to happen.. I been looking at the stars.. wishing upon the stars.. I would turn to look at the MOON.. wondering does that Moon knows me.. can that MOON hear my voice.. when I ask.. when I plead and beg to be heard.. will that MOON able to hear me.. and I would be asking many nights.. that I want to see YOU.. I wanted to know if I can get close to the Princess.. MAH MAH.. close to CONG JU MAH MAH.. when I came down.. I was speaking to my Mother.. who is lying in the Bed of flowers.. that I been sharing to Her.. that I wanted to see the Princess.. but Father would warn me never to go see MAH MAH.. help me is what I be asking my mother.. that is when I heard the Man who works in the Garden to come down to the Garden.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I am not sure how this be.. but many nights.. the man who works in the garden sees me run UP to the Hill side top.. I think he hears my voice.. but when I saw YOU coming to the Garden for the first time.. I just could not believe it.. I be asking myself.. was it the stars who made my Dreams come true.. I wished many nights on those stars.. was it the Moon who can hear my cries.. my voice when I speak to that MOON about YOU.. showing the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My finger points
MAH MAH.. to the face on the Art Sketch Paper.. saying.. this is MAH MAH.. it is the PRINCESS.. it is the CONG JU NIM.. I want to ask YOU.. if YOU can bring the Princess to Me.. can YOU please tell the Princess that I want to see YOU.. I want to say something.. I have something in my Heart to tell.. but if the Princess.. MAH MAH is so far away.. How can the Princess Knows.. and I be showing tears.. hands are on prayer mode.. and I am on both knees.. and I am looking at the MOON.. asking and asking.. I need to see the Princess.. I needs to see MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I am opening my Heart.. looking up speaking to that Moon so that I can tell you something.. When YOU came closer.. and YOU stood there.. and YOU stopped while I was kneeling.. looking at the Floor.. I heard your voice.. telling my to speak.. that a Message was send to YOU and that YOU have decided to come.. I couldn't believe it.. I would think in my mind.. YOU are a Royal Blood.. at the TOP.. YOU are to rule next in line.. from the Blood line of the King.. and I am just no one.. I don't even have a name and YOU would not even recognize my name.. asking whose name is that.. and YOU have come.. and I just could not believe that YOU came.. I would be shaken by this wondering.. what am I suppose to say to you.. there is all these Guards.. soldiers.. and even generals.. even special team of Body Guards that came with YOU.. and I am only working in this garden with an older Man.. I am not even important figure.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. I have seen you few times when I was much younger.. My Father is the One who would take me as He was the one to care.. He was the Head of the servants of the Palace and was to be there for YOU.. so I would beg my father that I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. just Once I begged HIM.. I remember He put me on a Horse back and He would travel many days with me sitting on the Horse.. I came to the Palace because of my Father who was to care for YOU as a Servant.. I saw YOU from the Distance.. I was on the Other side of the Back gates where Your Chamber room was located.. I was sitting on the back of the Horse.. my Father goes in and I saw MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM coming out.. I saw you from the Distance and a man who was a sketch Artist came out from the gates and I do remember I stopped him.. I asked HIM if He can draw a Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me with a Smile.. and I pointed to YOU.. Can YOU please do me a favor.. I want an Art Sketch.. can you please draw the Picture of Princess.. the man goes back.. and I would watch Him.. and I saw you standing alone as he drew on the art sketch.. I would watch the man walk out of the back of the gates and Gives me the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would fall in love.. the more I looked at the art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU and I would lift up my head to look at you from the distance.. I was on the other side of the Back Gates.. I wanted to go close to YOU.. I wanted to see YOU closer because I could of see you from far.. I wanted to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. I been loving YOU.. you may not know this but I been longing for YOU.. wanting to love YOU.. but to see YOU in person to tell YOU how much I been loving YOU because YOU don't know unless I am able to tell YOU my Heart.. for a long time.. I would be on the Hill side top.. standing by the Tree.. LOOKING across.. LOOKING at the palace.. and I know that my words can't never reach YOU.. my voice can't be heard because of the distance.. How can YOU hear me when I am standing OUT so far.. Before I can lose this Chance.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I have always been loving YOU.. even though you may never know this.. I been here.. waiting for this very day to tell YOU.. to say to YOU that I love YOU.. I am not asking you to accept.. but just want you to know that at least my voice to be heard by YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU for the longest.. I love YOU and Kept on missing YOU for a long time.. wondering will you ever know this Heart of Mine because I know this is the Only time.. only chance I get to tell YOU.. even if YOU want to kill me today and I die.. I will die with a Smile because at least I get to say what my Heart longing to say to YOU for a long time.. that Now.. My Voice has been heard to YOU.. I wanted to say.. I love YOU PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU.. I am standing Next to YOU.. Looking at another Bed of Flowers.. Next to the Tree.. I see you standing next to Me.. One of my Friends pulling on the Rope of the Horse and stops behind Me.. and I turn to look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Where can I go with YOU.. If I asked you to stay with me.. Where can I take YOU.. there is Not many places I know that I can take YOU.. but MAH MAH.. YOU are the One who can go to many Places.. YOU are a part of the Kingdom.. which YOU are the Princess of the Nation.. who is to become the Next Ruler.. I know that YOU have a Voice.. strong voice to take control and also can unite the World.. and there are so many People who will follow YOU and will support on joining with YOU.. I know that I can't really give YOU much.. and has decided to Let You Go for Now.. I have something I must do but I know that I will always Love YOU.. I know that your father.. the King.. PEH HA is waiting for YOU.. if YOU don't go now.. and I see you turn Your Head but seems like YOU just don't want to go.. I am so confused.. YOU have brought me here.. and I have followed YOU here.. but here.. what am I suppose to Do.. I am only showing YOU the History of the dead People who once was alive.. but Now.. this is the Only their grave.. but why do YOU want to come and see both of the Parents of mine.. and YOU are asking me to stay here with YOU.. but.. I know YOU have a Bigger Plan.. YOU are suppose to rule for the Next.. I know your Father wants YOU to take control.. I am only a Palace Guard who just can't do much.. YOU are asking me where did My spirit Go.. YOU are asking me where did ALL that Heart go when I was in Prison.. all the Words I was telling YOU.. all the Pains and Passions of just telling YOU how much I love YOU.. YOU are asking me where is all the Inspiration of loving YOU went.. it has Not gone anywhere.. I still have it in my Heart.. I do love you then.. and I still love YOU now.. it is just the situation where I am standing on this ground.. So you are asking me to GO fight against the WILL of your Father.. WHO is the King of the Nation.. I am Not going to fight against Your Father.. because He is the One who is going to be the ONE to give YOU His Crown and He is the One WHO loves YOU more than Me.. Your Father loves YOU More.. that is why He is wanting you to RULE.. But when YOU are ruling.. I know that I am Not allowed to step In.. because I am Only a Palace Guard.. that is why I know that I can only love YOU from the Distance.. I believe MAH MAH.. YOU have Big Dreams.. YOU have Big Plans and Goals.. I want to see YOU accomplish and establish what is YOURS.. because of Me I don't want you to stop Dreaming.. I want you to Keep on pursuing BIGGER and Greater things even it means to Lose Me.. If I cannot be with YOU.. I know because YOU are such a Greater Woman.. YOU have things Much Bigger things to do then I.. that does Not means I will Not stop loving YOU.. I will love you even when YOU stand afar.. I will love you when YOU see the MOON UP in the sky and the Stars are next to it.. I will love you even when YOU don't see me near.. I will love YOU because I know that I believe in loving YOU is the greatest feeling.. just because Your Presence is Not here.. I know I still can tell YOU I love YOU because Love can truly reach and meet YOU on the Other side.. LOOK at how this all came about.. SO you are afraid that just because I am Not with YOU.. the distance will drift us apart.. if YOU don't see me.. If I am Not around any more.. YOU feel like YOU can't receive My Love.. and ON the back I pulled Out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing.. the Picture of YOU.. DO you see How the pieces were torn.. It was when I was very Young and I see you turn to look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. This is when I was very young.. I told YOU.. My Father brought this to me when I was a Young Boy and showed me this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. when I saw it.. I just could not get YOU off my Mind.. this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. it may seems like it is Nothing to YOU.. but for Me.. it means everything.. I held it.. I would look at It.. I would even Kiss this Picture of YOU.. I would say.. I am going to meet MAH MAH one day.. I am going to Meet CONG JU NIM one day.. I would sit in the room alone.. I would be holding this Art Sketch Paper.. paste on the wall.. and just LOOK at your Picture.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. How are YOU today.. can I please smile for YOU because I am having a Bad day.. I wonder How it would feel to see YOU and meet YOU face to face.. would I be still sad.. It was my Mother's Birthday but she is NO Longer with me today and I be looking at your Picture.. telling YOU.. I want to see YOU.. when Can I meet YOU MAH MAH.. Please tell me that I can come to YOU.. Please tell me that I will be okay.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. and I would be sitting in the room.. just day dreaming of one day meeting YOU.. and when I think of the past time.. I felt very sad and lonely most of the days just longing for YOU.. just wanting to Meet YOU.. I do
MAH MAH.. remember asking my Father when he came home.. Can I go with HIM to meet YOU.. I would ask him and Beg Him please.. Can you please take me with YOU.. I want to see MAH MAH.. I want to meet CONG JU NIM.. it is Not fair that YOU get to see her but Not me.. Of course.. My father would not want to take me because He knew How I would act.. I was so in love with the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I was so in love with YOU even before ever knowing YOU.. before even meeting YOU.. I told my Father I have big dreams too.. and He would ask.. what kind of dreams I had and I would say.. I want to marry the Princess.. I want to marry CONG JU NIM.. I want to marry MAH MAH and my father looks at me and laughs.. telling me I have a Big Heart but can Die for it and I would say Yes.. sometimes YOU needs to die for something to Have it.. I will die for it.. and My Father smiles but also says.. it is wrong.. and Now.. I see you standing next to me.. and YOU are wondering why am I pushing YOU away after all these years of struggling to be with YOU.. why do I want YOU to go or am I the one who is letting YOU go.. I am Not letting YOU GO.. I want to be with YOU for the rest of our lives but I know that YOU have big Dreams.. and I know you needs to accomplish Your Big Dreams first.. I am letting YOU go because I love YOU.. I want too see YOU fulfill Your Dreams.. I know that YOU want to succeed Your Father.. I know that YOU want to rule.. I know that YOU want to be the Next to take over and to rule for the Nation.. I know that YOU are born to RULE like your Father who is ruling.. that is why I know that I needs to step back to take my place as YOU are to take Your Place as for the One to succeed it.. Your Father is calling YOU for YOU to rule.. I received the Message.. and I would turn to look back.. My Friend falls on the fours.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. my friend who has come long ways with me.. He is going to take YOU back to the Palace with YOUR Horse.. will YOU please sit ON your Horse.. I see that YOU are pulling away.. I would hold your hand.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I want YOU to go so that YOU can take Your Place.. they are asking YOU to come to the Palace.. as I would watch YOU step on the back of my Friend and I see YOU sit on the Horse.. My friend stands UP and He grabs the Rope.. and I see Him turning away.. My Heart.. I just can't believe it is My Heart.. I can't breathe.. It is so Hard to breathe as I am watching YOU sitting on the Horse.. My friend is leading as He is pulling on the Rope of the Horse going down the Hill slowly.. as I am watching YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. the Horse and YOU riding on the Horse becomes smaller.. I would watch Your Head turning to look back at Me.. and I see My Friend leaving as all three leaves out of the sight.. But My Heart.. what is wrong with My Heart.. why is My Heart hurting for.. I know that I have made a choice.. a decision to Let YOU go for Your Best.. but WHY is My Heart hurting me so Bad.. and My hand presses on my chest.. it is so Hard to breathe again.. I fall onto my knees.. I just don't want to get UP any more because this is Hurting me so Bad.. I would turn my Head UP towards the Moon.. I feel like I want to cry.. I just want to let all my tears out of Me.. because it hurts me so Bad.. My Heart feels like it is breaking.. Breaking and It hurts as it keeps on breaking inside of me.. as I would let my tears go.. and it rolls out from my eyes and I turn to LOOK up at the Moon and I would speak to the MOON.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not letting you go because I know that I can't.. LOOK at me right Now.. How can I ever let YOU GO but I know that there is a TIME and its Place.. and where YOU are suppose to take Your Place.. what am I suppose to do if YOU are going to the right Place.. Only thing I want to do is the right thing.. I don't want to be the one to do the wrong.. I want to Obey what is given by the Order so that YOU can take Your Place.. the Place where YOU truly belong.. I want to be with YOU.. DO you know how it feels on my part to be close to YOU.. when I stand next to YOU.. I get goose bumps running through my Body.. my Heart just can't stop beating.. I can hear my own Heart bear faster as I stand next to YOU.. just to turn and to face YOU and even to be able to tell YOU this Heart of mine is so amazing.. it is the most uplifting feeling to able to tell YOU How my Heart truly feels deep down inside.. I am a Low Born.. a Father who is the Head of the servants.. I was born from that Family Line.. what can I truly do when YOU are the Princess.. CONG JU NIM of the Nation.. the Next in line to rule for the Country whom I love and whom I serve.. but to able to tell YOU and express.. even to say to YOU that YOU are so Beautiful.. that YOU are all my Love.. even to tell you that is just enough on my Part.. I just can't be greedy to want More.. of course My Heart and My Mind wants More and More of YOU.. I want everything of YOU.. I want to love YOU.. I want to marry YOU and I want to be the One who to love YOU.. but the truth is that I know I have my own place.. and I know that YOU have your own place.. that is what Hurts me the Most because I wish that I can have the same place as YOU.. but I guess we are from different family lines.. it does Not means I will stop loving YOU.. I will keep on loving YOU.. but it will feel a little different because I will love YOU in a way YOU are to guess.. as I am my two knees.. Looking UP toward the Moon.. behind me.. YOU are sitting on the Horse.. my Friend did Not leave all the way but stopped to ask me something.. He pauses while I am looking at the MOON.. telling the MOON about YOU MAH MAH.. speaking from my Heart to tell the MOON HOW I am feeling right Now.. MAH MAH.. Please.. in my Heart I don't want YOU to go but I know that YOU Must go because YOUR place is waiting for YOU.. YOU have a Big Part of the Place.. the throne which is waiting for YOU.. but for Me.. I can only look at this Moon and tell the MOON how much I love YOU.. I am sitting on the Ground.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. as I am looking.. MAH MAH.. where are YOU.. I need to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I can feel the wind blowing against my face.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU some day.. I want to see YOU soon.. How about today.. my both hands holding the side of the Paper.. looking at Your face.. MAH MAH.. when Can I see you.. I want to meet YOU.. how about today.. and the rain starts to fall.. One drop falls from the skies.. and the rain becomes multiple rains and showers down lightly.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. When can I see YOU.. how about today.. If I come to see you today.. would you let me see your Beautiful face.. and I can see the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture of YOU getting wet.. getting hit by the rain as it suddenly falls harder.. and I would open my mouth and say Loud.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me see your face.. if I come to you.. how about tonight.. would you let me see you.. and I can see the Art sketch paper ripping before my eyes.. and I would start to cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. My father stands behind me.. watching me crying.. holding the ripped half papers in my hands.. putting it against my chest.. and My father holds me from behind.. pulls me Out of the ground.. as He brings me back into the home.. and I am standing next to YOU.. Looking at the bed of Flowers.. the place where My father is buried and laid in rest.. and I do remember I wanted to see YOU so bad.. I have never met you before.. But seems like I knew YOU.. and I turned to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not sure why YOU are here.. YOU do not belong here.. Why did you bring me to the Garden.. YOU belong in the Palace.. where YOU are suppose be.. Not to stand here next with me.. MY father was a servant.. He was the lowest of the lows.. and coming here is Not even a good idea.. I am a Son of a Low Born Slave.. I don't know why YOU are here.. I think it is good for YOU to go.. even though I love YOU.. I know that It is Not meant to Be.. because YOU belong to be Loved by the Prince.. and YOU are wondering.. why am I acting this Way.. why am I pushing YOU away.. It is because I don't belong with YOU.. I know this for a Fact.. but I know that I never stopped loved YOU.. ever since I saw the Art sketch paper.. My Father brought to me.. of course I had no idea.. even my Father too had no idea because YOU are a Princess.. so he just wanted to show me who he served and worked for the King.. and thought None of It.. MAH MAH.. I know that this is wrong.. what YOU are doing is wrong.. and I know that what I am doing is wrong.. but even though I am so wrong.. I just can't get YOU off my chest.. I just can't get you off my mind.. It is killing me because YOU live in my Heart.. live in my mind.. I tried so many times to erase YOU.. but as much as I tried too.. YOU just don't go away.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I know that coming here was a Bad Idea.. I told you many times that I have left this Garden and I don't know why you keep on bringing me to this Place.. I want to leave this Garden to start a new life.. a new chapter in my life but YOU keep on bringing me to this Garden.. How about going to the Palace.. so much More to see.. so much to do there but here.. there is nothing to see any more.. I just want to bury the old.. the memories.. to be gone and away.. as I would be looking at YOU.. there are three of my close
MAH MAH.. friends.. who are guards comes.. and they stopped by me.. and I would turn around to see the three guards.. and I would look behind them.. I look and see.. More Guards are coming.. and they are wearing different helmet colors.. and I would say.. Protect the Princess.. Protect MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. please stay here and the three guards turns around.. and More guards are coming.. and they come into the garden.. I would pull out the sword and the three Guards with me.. they all pull out the swords.. and I would yell.. Charge.. Protect the Princess.. Protect CONG JU MAH MAH.. and I would run Up.. and two guards on the Other side.. they pull out the swords and they would run towards me.. I would swing my Sword UP and Down and jump Up and swing side ways.. and hitting the blades together.. as I land on the ground.. Charge.. Protect CONG JU NIM.. and the three of my friends they would run.. I see more Guards coming.. I hear branches shaking and I look up.. I see more guards.. standing at the Branches.. Arrows are shooting at me.. the three of my friends are behind me.. and I would swing my sword and cut the arrows into half.. and I turn to One friend.. Protect the Princess.. go and protect MAH MAH.. I will fight.. and One of the friends turns and runs back where YOU at.. and I look.. I see More Guards coming.. from the field into the Garden.. and I would run toward.. and the two friends would follow me.. the two friends fight off the two guards and they die.. I turn.. the two friends looks at me.. and we would run out of the Garden.. the guards up on the tree branches looks down.. arrow points and YOU turn.. the Guards on the tree branches knows YOU.. MAH MAH.. it is the Princess.. BOW your Knees and they climb down the tree.. and I am out in the field.. my sword is swing.. and blades hit each other.. I am swinging the sword right left.. up down.. side to side and jumps up swing my sword.. and it strikes one guard down.. and I turn around.. the two friends are behind me.. More guards fell on the ground by the edge of the swords.. I see more running in the field.. pulling out swords.. and I would run up and I would swing my sword.. left right.. right left and I would kick.. one of the guard on the Other side swings back his sword and the blades hit each other.. I would go back and I kick and swing the sword harder.. the guard drops the sword on the ground.. YOU run out of the Garden.. and more guards are coming.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH and the Guards all put the swords down and bows the knee.. and I am thinking.. are they not enemies.. and the two friends puts the swords on the ground and Bow to KNEE.. and I put my sword down.. BOW to Knee.. One of the Guards.. PEH HA is calling YOU to come back.. we are here to get YOU back to the Palace.. the King.. PEH HA is looking for YOU.. and I am looking on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. we will also go with YOU.. to bring YOU back to PEH HA.. and I hear your voice and I would get UP.. and I look.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. did you not hear the order.. your Father.. the King.. PEH HA is calling for YOU.. WHY are you not going.. PEH HA is asking YOU to go to HIM.. I told you that YOU do not belong here.. I will remain here if YOU go.. I just can't see you here because there is NO future here for YOU.. YOU Must go back to the Palace.. if YOU go.. I will stay here.. because it is better for me to stay here.. I belong here to the Garden.. but YOU don't belong here.. YOU before to be with the Prince.. going to the palace has much better future for YOU.. so Please.. why don't you listen to the voice of your Father.. I just showed YOU where my Father is buried.. in the garden.. I did not listen to his voice.. and look at the result of what happened to HIM because of me.. I don't want you to face what I had to go through.. YOU know that NO matter where you at.. I will always love YOU.. and I believe that I will see you again.. I believe that If I love YOU.. if YOU love me.. something will happen later on a better days that comes.. but right Now.. YOU must leave the Garden.. Please MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. going back the the Palace.. YOU be much happier there.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. as I am looking at YOU.. I see you turning away and YOU are walking back into the Garden and I look.. MAH MAH.. Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. LOOK.. you have the special Body Guards.. they have come just to take you back Home.. I don't think they will leave until YOU go with them.. I see you walk into the Garden.. Now there is One Garden who gets UP and He pulls out the sword.. and I turn.. I see Him walking up.. I grab the sword.. and He walks up.. We both start to swing our swords.. hitting the blades left to right.. blades hits together and I would walk back and I would swing faster.. as he walks up and I jump up and swings my sword hitting hit blades.. and I use full force to knock the sword out of his hand and Put the sword on his neck.. and strikes him down.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and I turn and I would walk back.. into the garden.. I see you Nowhere.. and I am thinking.. by the tree.. so I would walk UP the hill.. the three friends are walking behind me.. and I see the Moon out.. the Sun has gone down.. and I see YOU standing by the tree.. but YOU are looking at the Soil.. as I would walk closer.. another Bed of flowers.. this is where My Mother is buried.. I stand next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't know why you are doing this.. this is where my Mother is buried.. My Father told me Once.. YOU are so much like her.. I can see why because just looking at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you don't have to do this.. I don't want you to feel so sorry for me because I am doing good Now.. I just wanted to show you the people who gave me birth and raised me are here.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why are you doing this and I see you turn and YOU look at the Moon.. and YOU smiled looking at the Moon and I turn to look at what YOU are seeing.. and I do remember.. when I first told YOU.. when I started to Miss YOU.. when I wanted to say I love YOU.. and I just could not say the words.. I would be looking at that Moon.. when words just could not come out right and I was afraid to say what If you don't want to hear me say anything.. I would be turning to that Moon.. and I would say what is in my Heart looking at that Moon.. I remember few years back.. when YOU came to the Garden and YOU would leave.. I even brought you a Flower.. to show YOU what it means when I look at YOU.. I would show YOU the Flower.. How I wanted to give it to YOU.. when YOU would leave.. I would run UP to this Hill top.. I would come here at Night.. I would see the Same Moon we are looking at this very Night.. when YOU were here.. I just could not say any words to YOU.. but only wanted to give you this One Flower.. I would be upset because My Heart wanted to say something more.. I would wonder.. why couldn't I tell YOU when you were hear.. but Now you have left the Garden.. I am standing here alone.. I look up to the Moon.. I am able to speak to that Moon about YOU.. I would open my mouth and speak.. sharing How my Heart felt about you to that Moon.. Now.. We are standing here at the same Hill top.. looking at the MOON I spoke of YOU.. and if YOU want to hear me say something to the MOON about YOU.. Please come closer and open your ears and open your Heart.. because it comes from MY Heart loving YOU..I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see
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