Vlog 6. Moving To England From Australia - My Mental Heath Is Taking A Hard Hit.
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- čas přidán 6. 09. 2024
- The past few weeks I have really started to notice a change in myself where I am going down a dark path, one I haven't experienced for years. I decided to get away for 3 nights staying somewhere local that I have enjoyed in the past, a place I can think about things and reflect hoping it would also help me. I am really struggling with my mental health lately and it is having a negative impact on me, I was wanting to use my remaining time here to catch up with friends but instead I seem to be going the opposite direction.
I made this on Thursday and now it is Saturday, I am feeling slightly better now but still in a really weird place in my mind and a thing I am seriously struggling with, I know things will be improving very soon. I'm just struggling to pin point the main reasons for feeling like this.
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Keep fighting those demons of negative thoughts. So much joy and adventure awaits you in the UK. Completely relatable experience with you, the actual photo capture is such a buzz. The self doubt and mental suffering kicks in once the processing starts I find. People don't appreciate how much time and headspace is required to edit the images. Satisfaction once uploaded and shared, but the journey can be exhausting on the mind. Keep your spirits high Simon. 📸👍😀
Cheers Clive! you're certainly not wrong about that! I can see a small part of the life I will have and it is exciting, as my life slows down here and I start stripping parts away either selling what I can't take with me or putting them in boxes it starts to feel empty. I have started packing up my stuff early to get my mind on track smoother so it is less of a shock. I know I will face many challenges ahead but a part of me is excited by this. I have also now got almost 1 months worth of hotels booked in now which wasn't cheap, Once I touch down I will be heading south then going north. Also if you're going to the British GT championship on the 28/29th of September I will see you there, I have my tickets already for it 😁
I’m thinking a daytrip to Mandurah is a good idea, after seeing this :-) Thank you for sharing your video. I appreciate your honesty Simon, you’re making a difference by sharing.
It was nice going down there and gave me time to reflect, just a shame I felt empty at the time.
@@SimonPhillipsPhoto Simon you have done so much and moving is a big step, especially overseas! Taking a break is such a good thing to do to recharge :-) I understand how feeling down can be tough to shift. I really hope you’re feeling better now. You have lots of caring and support around you and great things ahead :-)
Whenever I relocate from one area to another, I always feel the blues before leaving - like I'm severing a tie.
I guess that it is because my immediate environment, presently at my disposal, will soon no longer be at my disposal anymore - it will be gone.
Another thing is that once all the moving preparations are 'locked in' with tickets and reservations, I no longer feel in control of the situation - the itinerary now has control of me.
I think everything in life has some kind of cost - nothing comes free.
Your new adventure in England, with all its coming excitement, comes at the cost of permanent farewell to Australia.
The good news is that the blues vanish once you land in England. However sad you feel right now, two months from now, you will remember as a learning experience - the blues are transitory (a phantom).
You must have faith in yourself that you made the correct decision and keep marching forward.
I know that you are making the correct move. About two months ago, I mentioned to you how much I liked the Margaret River area, and you were adamant saying that you could not just park there for the rest of your life.
You felt sure that something must change. I understood your feelings when you asked folks on your forum to stop reminding you of Australia's enchantments.
You have only about two months more of the blues before your adventure begins. We are all behind you and supporting you on this move.
You must keep sailing forward - just like Marco Polo and Christopher Columbus.
Cheers,
Mike in Louisiana
I think you're onto something there, your comforts around you are changing as you make the transition to somewhere new. I certainly remember thinking about this earlier on in the year, I might have mentioned it knowing I will go through this feeling and emotion... I just didn't realise it would hit me so hard. I found out since I could very likely have ADHD as well as Autism I need to keep busy otherwise my brain starts to wonder and make me feel bad that I am not doing anything which brings on depression at a rapid pace. I know I am happiest when I am actively doing something and planning.
It certainly is a risk doing this but I need to do it, you always have to give yourself to a journey and know that failure could happen and most of the time something really good comes from it. Most play it safe and don't go anywhere but those that take on the challenge certainly have a good story to share and also grow as a person.
I am sure once I touch down in England on the plane and get off the plane it will hit me but in a good way, I will most likely have a grin on my face and a bounce in my step.
It was annoying when people were saying I was making a mistake leaving Australia, but they don't know how I feel. I can already see glimpses of myself living in England, having that space in me filled will be nice and a thing I don't need to find something to fill it as it will topped up and capped off.
What is tough at the moment is working out what to do next as I have so many ideas but no idea which one to pick first haha. Money certainly isn't the problem, more time in the day which is. I will need help from the right people I meet to make it work.
Keep fighting brother!!
Thank you! 😎👍
I hope your spirit finds peace . Gif bless you
Thank you! I am sure once I am on that plane and am over the ocean heading home it will feel so good 🙂