Alexa Lopez - No More (Stage 1: Shock)

Called you on the phone today
Just wanted to know the reason of my loss
Im tired of justifying
Your decision in my head when I really don't know why you left me crying
It could be another girl or you fell out of love, or maybe I am
Just too much for you to handle
Way too clingy, like a candle
I burn out sometimes
And I realized it's not my fault, it's just the way I am
And you left me twice cause you realized
It's not up to you to fix my broken back
Because I carry so much bullshit around me everyday
The traumatic shit that happened
Istill did stay
I still was there for you
I still did love you too
But you're so fucking rude now
I don't know what to do
I care too much or I don't care at all
I know I am hard to handle, yeah don't get me wrong
I just was so convinced
That we could have fixed everything that we wanted
But you didn't want it no more
And I don't know what I could say
If I saw you out in public
Even though I still have some shit left to say
I don't know your position towards me, I wonder everyday
Are you mad, are you sad, was my reaction again bad
I really pray
I don't get to lose my best friend forever
But in my head I burn out sometimes
And I've realized it's not my fault it's the way I've gotten
And you broke my heart twice
Cause you realized it's not up to you to help me fix my lack
Because I carry so much bullshit around me everyday
The traumatic shit that happened but I still did stay
I still was there for you
I still did love you too
But you're so fucking rude now
I don't know what to do
I care too much or I don't care at all
I know I am hard to handle, yeah don't get me wrong
I just was so convinced
That we could have fixed everything that we wanted
But you didn't want it no more
And how could you be so stone cold
Are we so through, do you care ohh
How could you, leave me so bold
Are we so blue, you don't care
And I still do think about you everyday
And if I'm being honest, I also count the days
Since we broke apart
Since you ripped my heart out my chest
Cut off a piece and gave it back to me
Because I carry so much bullshit around me everyday
The traumatic shit that happened but I still did stay
I still was there for you
I still did love you too
But you're so fucking rude now
I don't know what to do
I care too much or I don't care at all
I know I am hard to handle, yeah don't get me wrong
I just was so convinced
That we could have fixed everything that we wanted
But you didn't want me no more
Didn't want me no more, didn´t want me no more
Uhhhh want me no more
Lyrics & Music & Piano: Alexa Lopez alexalopezmusic...
Recording: society 77 society._77?igs...
Production & Mixing & Mastering: Matteo Orenda matteo.orenda?i...
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