Benjamin Tod, "I Will Rise," // GemsOnVHS™

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  • čas přidán 16. 09. 2017
  • It has been a wild ride for Benjamin Tod of Lost Dog Street band in 2017. When we last met him he was singing Using Again, a downtrodden song about the harsh realities of using again. Here we find him on a more uplifting note with I Will Rise. The song has flavors of a gospel hymn, and ranks among his happiest, even with lines like "they're placing bets all over town, on how i'll die."
    Big thanks to our executive producers, Brad Sirois, Mitchell Davis, Keith McQuillan, David Jameson, Lisa Galvan, Irvin Maddox, Josh Collins, Brady Jones, Julie Nestoroff, and VJ Arizpe for making this thing possible.
    You can find Benjamin's tunes on Spotify (open.spotify.com/artist/30hVq...) and catch him on tour with Lost Dog Street Band this summer. You can find the tour dates at www.lostdogstreetband.com/.
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    shot/edited by Anthony Simpkins
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  • @GemsOnVHS
    @GemsOnVHS  Před 6 lety +79

    Stream Ben's tunes on Spotify at open.spotify.com/artist/30hVqCpEQ8gBRdNvgWMr20?si=l_ViGiCjQke7K-GChjQwbQ, and find him on Instagram at @benjamintodmusic.
    New to GemsOnVHS? Make sure to subscribe to our channel for more videos & follow us on Instagram at @gemsonvhs for more daily content.

    • @rickdawg4862
      @rickdawg4862 Před 6 lety

      GemsOnVHS
      is lost dogs music exactly like this video? Or an whole band?

    • @nickingram9175
      @nickingram9175 Před 6 lety

      GemsOnVHS always love hearing what he's come up with. Doing the same over in Boone Co. West by god Virginia! Keep up the good work.

    • @rickdawg4862
      @rickdawg4862 Před 6 lety

      Are the singles recordings like these videos? I'd really like to grab a copy of these versions on audio.

    • @marley4039
      @marley4039 Před 6 lety +5

      Rick, I had the same thought, so I emailed the group, and Ashley Mae got back to me. She informed me that his solo album should be releasing in the next few months, which will include "Using Again" as well.

    • @rickdawg4862
      @rickdawg4862 Před 6 lety

      Wes Thompson thanks for the word. I'll keep a look out for it

  • @Tunnelslug
    @Tunnelslug Před 6 lety +1251

    This dude has very quickly become one of my favorite singer songwriters

  • @clayklooster746
    @clayklooster746 Před 3 lety +134

    almost 60 days sober from heroin today and this song gave me chills. much love y’all

    • @pocketlama
      @pocketlama Před 3 lety +3

      I'm rooting for you! Good luck on your journey. Glad you found this song. It's a fucking brilliant song I think.

    • @spoopyidk
      @spoopyidk Před rokem +3

      i hope you're OK, friend :)

    • @rudygingerich5711
      @rudygingerich5711 Před rokem +3

      Agreed ..It did same to me,just found it yesterday. 23 days sober at the Betty Ford...came to on a hospital bed dec 23 after 23 months sober... God has a wonderful plan for you... We can do this 1 day at a time

    • @zachariah5850
      @zachariah5850 Před rokem +6

      6 days clean

    • @arleyboyd7915
      @arleyboyd7915 Před rokem +3

      I hope all you guys are still Killin it! Keep your heads up. I have 8 years clean now, no looking back!

  • @reperioinsula
    @reperioinsula Před 4 lety +395

    i’m not okay right now, i’m suicidal, but hearing this makes me want to believe that maybe i can turn my pain into something better, something that might help someone. thanks ben

    • @caseburner8845
      @caseburner8845 Před 4 lety +3

      Hope your ok. Keep your head up. It usually gets better

    • @cherylmiller6214
      @cherylmiller6214 Před 4 lety

      Hope you are well.

    • @evanabt8578
      @evanabt8578 Před 4 lety +1

      no one hope all is well and sht changed up for you.

    • @jordanolson832
      @jordanolson832 Před 4 lety

      no one - you are loved

    • @TheWaltm
      @TheWaltm Před 4 lety +18

      I am a veteran and totally understand, you are not alone. they are not feelings to be ignored, Rage, rage against the dying of the light!

  • @mayiplantthishere2676
    @mayiplantthishere2676 Před 4 lety +85

    Tomorrow will be 4 years clean, and still rising! Love to all!

    • @1danieltube794
      @1danieltube794 Před 3 lety

      God bless

    • @ethanschmidt5939
      @ethanschmidt5939 Před 2 lety

      stay strong brother, proud if you

    • @adecentname2886
      @adecentname2886 Před 2 lety

      God bless, I just got home from detox. My doc is fentanyl. Got home and immediately started drinking. It scares me how easily I’ve been drifting into denial of my own demons lately. I hope to find inner peace someday. It’s so incredibly hard most days and I feel like most people get me when I say that but I still find it hard to let anyone in to help heal. I’m so very proud of you, I hope you are still keeping strong. You got this. Each time I feel like using again feels like a harder and harder battle but seeing and hearing from people who have grown so much and started their inner healing reminds me that one day I as well can feel that drive in me again. Take care my friend🤘🏼

    • @marklepkowski5362
      @marklepkowski5362 Před 2 lety

      @@adecentname2886 hey friend, are you still sober?

    • @adecentname2886
      @adecentname2886 Před 2 lety

      @@marklepkowski5362 yes sir, i relapsed shortly after that last post but I just got home last month from another treatment center where i stayed 43 days

  • @addiechim239
    @addiechim239 Před 4 lety +105

    “I wear shame like a crown,” I really felt that within my whole heart

    • @sonnyjones4399
      @sonnyjones4399 Před 4 lety +1

      😍

    • @1danieltube794
      @1danieltube794 Před 3 lety

      Rise up

    • @theycallmecoop
      @theycallmecoop Před 2 lety +1

      I used to as-well. This guy's music caused so much self reflection that I was forced to rise. But know this if I can destroy that crown so can you.

  • @willypotts100
    @willypotts100 Před 5 lety +273

    "Country music is three chords and the truth." - Harlan Howard

    • @dlm9293
      @dlm9293 Před 4 lety

      Words to live by, and excellently exemplified by this man and his songs.

    • @dariusdribbles.3981
      @dariusdribbles.3981 Před 4 lety +2

      @Paul Revere Amen. There are many fancy guitarists who can't nail it.

    • @drue9516
      @drue9516 Před 4 lety +9

      So is punk

    • @rabokarabekian409
      @rabokarabekian409 Před 3 lety

      Shhhuuuussshh, don't tell Willie Nelson, he might turn to drugs.

    • @koopon3900
      @koopon3900 Před 3 lety

      @bifteque nicely put.

  • @larrywilder6235
    @larrywilder6235 Před 6 lety +383

    I don't know what's made me tear up harder, the song or the comments I've read... so many struggling souls like mine... let us all rise up

  • @codyd9365
    @codyd9365 Před 2 lety +79

    Just lost my wife, the mother of my child to an overdose two weeks ago.. each day that passes is undescribably different than the last, grief seems to run in circles. The closer her funeral gets, the harder I'm hit with reality. Tomorrow's the day we stand at the chapel to say goodbye. This song's the most accurate and beautiful depiction of what it feels like to be an addict trying to overcome thier personal struggle. I'm trying to recover myself, and since this happened I've just been losing my shit. This song now hits a part of my soul that's mixed with beauty and despair, grief, yet hope. Recognition of adversity, the gravity of our problem; the will and strength to push on. Idk if you read these comments Ben, but you truly might have the power to change the wrold with music. You've added some hope to mine. Thanks for the beautiful music brother.

    • @kevinmunley
      @kevinmunley Před 2 lety +2

      So very sorry for your loss.

    • @MrRobloves
      @MrRobloves Před 2 lety +2

      Omg I'm crying like a baby

    • @ashthetrashboat1982
      @ashthetrashboat1982 Před 2 lety +2

      I know ypur comment is 8 montha old but grief lasts forever. Hope you are okay

    • @sheepdogministries896
      @sheepdogministries896 Před rokem +3

      Sorry brother....you need Jesus he has solved my problems...I have new ones now... sanctification is a process...I still fail.. choose your battles

    • @joelinville381
      @joelinville381 Před rokem +1

      @@sheepdogministries896 you took the words right out of my mouth. It takes a lot to get to the place where you realize the temporary nature of life on earth and realize the existence has just begun for your soul. There really is a spiritual world right here. Cody D is haunted by the evil ones, and the Holy Spirit is trying to work in him. Pray for him.

  • @marcellowilkinson4845
    @marcellowilkinson4845 Před 6 lety +312

    "And I'm scared to death of my own mind"

    • @erict149
      @erict149 Před 5 lety +10

      YES! I KNOW! I was just sitting here thinking about how I love pretty much anything this man does! But every now and then... there will be a line... a phrase... a thought.. a sentiment... and the way he delivers it... that just sends a shiver down my spine. This is one of those moments!

    • @marcellowilkinson4845
      @marcellowilkinson4845 Před 5 lety +5

      @@erict149 exactly. I keep coming back to these songs. Country is not my favorite genre, but something about the solemn/ wholesome emotion is so enticing

    • @donniefarrar9659
      @donniefarrar9659 Před 5 lety +6

      I feel that lyric in the deepest ways

    • @haidengeary8277
      @haidengeary8277 Před 5 lety +6

      The human condition.
      Its one of the many perks that come with being human , being able to contemplate your own existence is no small feat.

    • @jessewjames-ym1rc
      @jessewjames-ym1rc Před 5 lety +2

      Heck, reading the comment while he's singing it

  • @EliDaScienceGuy
    @EliDaScienceGuy Před 6 lety +167

    Music is what feelings sound like

    • @haidengeary8277
      @haidengeary8277 Před 5 lety +2

      No language could possibly explain emotions, its literally impossible, far too complex. Somehow, tho, music does that.

    • @ababab45
      @ababab45 Před 4 lety

      Iv been waiting along time to hav the woeds for how all music gives me great positive feelings ..thank you

    • @sydneyneill6537
      @sydneyneill6537 Před 3 lety

      yup

    • @worldwearywaffles38
      @worldwearywaffles38 Před 3 lety +1

      What a good sentence. I agree :)

    • @mariosola1
      @mariosola1 Před 3 lety

      smartest man I ever knew put it a bit simpler- music is feelings

  • @zoozooe
    @zoozooe Před 8 měsíci +9

    We played this song at my brother's Memorial. Forgiveness & Love always Benny. Rest In Power ❤

    • @vykinscum5671
      @vykinscum5671 Před 8 měsíci +1

      Hey zona .. just came onto comment this exact thing .. .. and there ya wer .. hi much love ..rip benny

    • @zoozooe
      @zoozooe Před 8 měsíci

      @@vykinscum5671 Thank-you ❤️

  • @ErinJanus
    @ErinJanus Před 5 lety +453

    I have never heard my neighbors downstairs play music before.. but they played this very loud all of a sudden and I stopped and placed my phone on the ground to record it. I felt like there may be hope in a situation where I was losing hope, for little Mikey Cadena who I am trying to help. I listened back to some of the lyrics and found it online here. Beautiful song

    • @GemsOnVHS
      @GemsOnVHS  Před 5 lety +77

      what a nice story. thanks for coming erin, stay awhile!

    • @nicholasb2341
      @nicholasb2341 Před 5 lety +48

      It's possible we're neighbors lol

    • @shanecoleman5749
      @shanecoleman5749 Před 5 lety +6

      Lol your story hit me hard, especially at this moment I live in life..

    • @mickeyunderwood4309
      @mickeyunderwood4309 Před 5 lety +10

      @dee welsh his solo stuff and his lost dog street band songs are brilliant. I don't think he is capable of writing a bad song

    • @ginoquintana990
      @ginoquintana990 Před 5 lety

      Haha oh

  • @beaumcquillin3051
    @beaumcquillin3051 Před 2 lety +20

    I suffer from a psychotic and affective disorder and your music has deeply touched me. From drug abuse to self abuse you really capture everything

  • @erictheredsnicklfritz5434
    @erictheredsnicklfritz5434 Před 6 lety +139

    you know I can honestly say this music saved my life. I lost my whole family last year. my mother then my twin girls two weeks later then my brother six months after them. I didn't really see any point in going on and then one day this music popped up on my recommendations. I turned it on and it spoke to me. It told me giving up is not a option. that my family wouldn't want that. After all that's happened I'm five years clean and sober and still alive. thanks Ben. no bullshit your music really did save me. I know probably don't read these but I figured I might get lucky for a change.

    • @kpsmith4241
      @kpsmith4241 Před 6 lety +3

      eric spencer Hope everything works out for you.

    • @TruthVirusRecords
      @TruthVirusRecords Před 5 lety +8

      You've got me choked up over here. Thanks for sharing your story. Music heals, brother. Keep moving forward and never stop!

    • @kathleenoglesby4951
      @kathleenoglesby4951 Před 4 lety +1

      Hope you are hanging in there. Take care.

    • @mrjasondylan
      @mrjasondylan Před 4 lety +1

      Music has saved me many times I couldn't live and wouldn't want to live without it. Good luck brother well done so sorry about your losses.

    • @kirkbeiro7381
      @kirkbeiro7381 Před 2 lety +1

      Eric I wanted to let you know I will make sure Ben hears your heart and hang on and rise… Blessings

  • @Impossible033
    @Impossible033 Před 6 lety +132

    This fucking guy man. Blows me away. Every time.

  • @j.byrdoliver8053
    @j.byrdoliver8053 Před 6 lety +92

    Nothing more therapeutic than that first listen to a new Benjamin Tod song.

  • @kelliehutchinson7028
    @kelliehutchinson7028 Před 6 lety +61

    My husband has been through just about everything you can imagine..some self inflicted most not..... owned his every mistake and and apologized for his worse apology accepted or not..he has and will continue to rise... amen

  • @fattymcfatterson25
    @fattymcfatterson25 Před 6 lety +377

    I let my daddy hear 'Using again' and ever since he's asked for something new. So I gave him Benjamin's take on Earle. I can't wait for him to get home and hear this. He's 62,southern to his core,and a hard man to impress. I'm not sure how we've found this man to bond over,but I'm not one to question things that shine like store bought gifts at Trade Day.
    You've made my Sunday splendid.

    • @tonymoore1867
      @tonymoore1867 Před 6 lety +8

      love that.

    • @GemsOnVHS
      @GemsOnVHS  Před 6 lety +26

      touching story! thanks for watching and sharing.

    • @djlazypaul
      @djlazypaul Před 6 lety +11

      Shesssoooheavy if my pops was still alive I'm sure we would've stopped arguing to bond over this man's exceptional music.. just saying

    • @fattymcfatterson25
      @fattymcfatterson25 Před 6 lety +28

      My daddy is an ornery drunk that may very well be a true throwback to a more serene time. Mountain men are a breed I've yet to analyze with any success. I'll be 35 soon. An only child that inherited and absorbed all his bad qualities. I hide myself. I have a temper that sparks and sometimes I say things to cut too deep. I guess that's why some of Ben's lyrics resonate with us. We're two lone assholes bonded by a saint of a woman from a youth so depraved she sparkles.
      When I was younger I tried to pull away from them to save myself heartache when they left me for good. I wish I had all those years of ignorance and blind terror back. I'd listen to his weird Chet guitar music and try his sorghum butter.
      I hope these tunes bring you some kind of nostalgic peace,son.

    • @joshualingerfelt
      @joshualingerfelt Před 6 lety +1

      Shesssoooheavy you said tradeday, where are you from? Lol

  • @leftylaylow1535
    @leftylaylow1535 Před 6 lety +313

    "I walked through hell and liked the view." Damn, hit me hard.

    • @dbbd7218
      @dbbd7218 Před 6 lety +1

      The view I later asphalt and felt 365 degrees and i didn't even like that heat forget the view

    • @josephfriend7442
      @josephfriend7442 Před 6 lety +18

      Hell becomes so familiar that without it we are left with an uncertainty that can be far more unsettling.

    • @stephenvastardis8720
      @stephenvastardis8720 Před 5 lety +3

      That's a good line. Deep. Reminds me of CS Lewis saying (I think) in the end God gives each of us what we want most.

    • @txtova35
      @txtova35 Před 5 lety +6

      "I walked through hell and ACCEPTED the view" is more apt for my experience. Clean now and the view is better.

    • @michellehonyumptewa8434
      @michellehonyumptewa8434 Před 4 lety +5

      Coming up as a kid and seeing alcoholism and addiction was my walk through hell and soon i struggled with my own now im clean and sober

  • @mellowmel5645
    @mellowmel5645 Před 4 lety +92

    I sent this song to my bf when he relapsed. Sadly I lost him almost a year ago but this song still makes me think of him.

    • @jamiekickaholeinthesky9513
      @jamiekickaholeinthesky9513 Před 4 lety +1

      ♥️

    • @scotthoffmann6398
      @scotthoffmann6398 Před 4 lety +4

      Im sorry for your loss

    • @billhogue9523
      @billhogue9523 Před 4 lety +1

      I am sorry for your loss. I have just discovered this music and I am ashamed I have just now found it. It has mesmerized me.

    • @MFJoneser
      @MFJoneser Před 4 lety +2

      My heart goes out to you

    • @chrisalbrecht2894
      @chrisalbrecht2894 Před 4 lety +1

      Clab no kidding...my bad man I have no recollection of ever having said typed or thought of something like that...that was awful. Thank god I don’t drink anymore...sorry nice lady

  • @marksutton3999
    @marksutton3999 Před 6 lety +63

    This song took me to a time... When a man was just a boy inside. Afraid of doing things right. Abused and abandoned by his junk riddled parents. Led blindly by the self destruction of what the image was he was trying to accomplish. Mistakes have brought me to this song. Life long mistakes. I lost myself in this song for a moment and became that boy again. Just yesterday I was pre approved for a 200k home loan. It's important to remember who you are and what you came from to realize the magnitude of little miracles in life.

    • @richardvaughan9994
      @richardvaughan9994 Před 6 lety +4

      Mark Sutton mark, we have lived very similar lives, im not quite where I want to be yet but you’re comment lifted me up and gives me hope

    • @tippytscafe6337
      @tippytscafe6337 Před 5 lety +3

      Mark Sutton amazing. Nothing but pure respect for u.

  • @Solanum20
    @Solanum20 Před 6 lety +194

    And It's hard to wake from feeling blue
    -Oh but I will rise. Oh I will rise.
    & my hands may shake from lack of booze
    -
    And I've fallen out of space and time.
    -
    And I dug my grave with honest lies.
    -
    Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
    And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
    And I grieved a death from losing you.
    -
    And I choke on ash like cheap perfume.
    -
    And I'm scared to death of my own mind.
    -
    From the bottom of the well I hide.
    -
    Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
    And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
    And I walked through hell and liked the view.
    -
    And though your image of me now is skewed.
    -
    And I've given up my final time.
    -
    Now my candle burns from either side.
    -
    Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
    And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.

  • @MrBdewilde09
    @MrBdewilde09 Před 5 lety +28

    And it's hard to wake from feeling blue
    Oh but I will rise, I will rise
    And my hands may shake from lack of booze
    Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
    And I've fallen out of space and time
    Oh but I will rise, oh I will rise
    And I dug my grave with honest lies
    Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
    Now I'm king of the hounds
    I wear shame like a crown
    And they're placing bets all over town
    On how I'll die
    But I will rise
    And I grieve to death from losing you
    Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
    And I choke on ash like cheap perfume
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
    And I'm scared to death of my own mind
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will riseFrom the bottom of the well I hide
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
    Now I'm king of the hounds
    I wear shame like a crown
    And they're placing bets all over town
    On how I'll die
    But I will rise
    And I walk through hell and like the view
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
    Though your image of me now is skewed
    Oh I will rise, Lord I will rise
    And I've given up my final time
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
    Now my candle burns from either side
    Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
    Now I'm king of the hounds
    I wear shame like a crown
    And they're placing bets all over town
    On how I'll die
    But I will rise

  • @Latabrine
    @Latabrine Před 5 lety +15

    I want this to be played at my funeral. I make sure it's in my will.

  • @kyledugat1391
    @kyledugat1391 Před 6 lety +47

    Words cant explain what this song means to me as a guy dealing with anxiety and depression Thanks Ben

    • @connorwilson744
      @connorwilson744 Před 6 lety

      Kyle Dugat Im with you brother. If you dont mind me asking are you Christian?

  • @brendonleary
    @brendonleary Před 6 lety +232

    I've given up a final time a thousand times, and every shot has been my last shot for thirty years. I am well surprised I am still here to write this, but fuck me, I am glad I am , just to hear this song, and to have another one of your songs to sit and sing.
    Thankyou.

    • @shedtalksrecovery
      @shedtalksrecovery Před 6 lety +17

      I hear you man. Listen, I just want to offer you some support man. I've been there and I tunneled through it to the other side. I've been clean for a while now. There is hope. I guess that's all i really want to say. You are not alone. Fuck, typing that I can see how trite that sounds, but seriously you're not. Reply here I'll try and get you my email. Messages in bottles saved my fucking life homie.

    • @joshuab1444
      @joshuab1444 Před 6 lety +1

      Right on brother

    • @yoshiphones5489
      @yoshiphones5489 Před 6 lety +4

      I just kicked my habbit on a left behind matress in an abandoned house. I am so alone....I feel so alone.

    • @frankradcliff7371
      @frankradcliff7371 Před 6 lety +2

      Rebuilding burned bridges from nothing but ashes lying on a creek bottom miles downstream. Even in sobriety this song speaks to my soul.

    • @moonmix6182
      @moonmix6182 Před 6 lety

      brendon leary keep shooting!

  • @jamesmoore1401
    @jamesmoore1401 Před 6 lety +93

    I had told Ben, when I saw them live, that his music had helped save my life... this song encourages me to actually live that life now. His music can move even the most broken, crusty old souls me because we can recognize that his music is speaking real truths. Thank you Ben and Lost Dog for singing about the real hard shit in life, it really touches us.

  • @OneSaltyLinguine
    @OneSaltyLinguine Před 6 lety +158

    This song just came out for my first 24h sober in like 6 months. I really needed it.
    Thank you so much for your words and music, it motivates me a lot to go on.

    • @shaolinf4
      @shaolinf4 Před 6 lety

      AhBenCalisse00 keep up the good work

    • @higherpowerfitness2115
      @higherpowerfitness2115 Před 6 lety

      AhBenCalisse00 keep it up brother.
      You can do it.
      Struggle makes us grow.

    • @jakelong2270
      @jakelong2270 Před 6 lety

      Proud of ya man!

    • @hollymacaroni3172
      @hollymacaroni3172 Před 6 lety +1

      Lâche pas AhBenCalisse! Je t'envoie toutes mes pensées de courage et de force! Tu peux tout faire, ne l'oublie jamais! Je te souhaite merde sur le chemin de la sobriété. ✌🌞

    • @OneSaltyLinguine
      @OneSaltyLinguine Před 6 lety +11

      Thanks to all of you! It's been a week now and it ain't easy at all, still feeling shaky and all, but I'm fuckin proud of myself

  • @stephenh7336
    @stephenh7336 Před 3 lety +6

    1371 USMC
    I contemplate every day how I will Fall...
    hearing a song about "how I will Rise" helps, even days when I have no faith. A little is better than Nothing. Thank you Sir.

    • @stephenh7336
      @stephenh7336 Před rokem

      In the past 9 months I've lost my best friend, my father, and my grandmother(who helped raise me). Times get harder, but this helps. Semper Fidelis Brother. ;)

  • @timhampel1139
    @timhampel1139 Před 2 lety +4

    Listened to this song everyday when I was at rock bottom and it got me through many very dark days. Proud to say I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in my life. The only person that can count you out of life is yourself. Having the people that gave up on you see you as a success is the ultimate reward!

  • @davidcartner7088
    @davidcartner7088 Před 6 lety +51

    Don't even joke about not being here. You are an amazing storyteller.... The world is in need if your amazing music. I know I myself need your music. This song speaks to so many of us.

    • @jakec1050
      @jakec1050 Před 6 lety +3

      David Cartner doubt its a joke. Lived this life, it weighs.

    • @ragingdane7923
      @ragingdane7923 Před 6 lety +4

      I see no jokes in these lyrics

  • @MrKleenexDude
    @MrKleenexDude Před 6 lety +127

    I wish to one day be as honest as Ben. Even to myself.

  • @Gratefulman1965
    @Gratefulman1965 Před 4 lety +12

    My son has been in the military going on four years. He has used your words for motivation through ranger school and for inspiration for his daily life challenges.To say he is a huge fan of your music is an understatement. He respects what you write about Benjamin. As a father I thank you for that.

  • @josephsingleton7255
    @josephsingleton7255 Před 6 lety +37

    Using again is my favorite because it reminds of when i was using and it helps me to stay clean because when your putting that stuff in your Vines it takes control..... Ive been clean for 4 years now...

    • @sydneyneill6537
      @sydneyneill6537 Před 3 lety +1

      it’s one of my favourites!!

    • @diaz6884
      @diaz6884 Před 3 lety +1

      Are you still clean? Be a better version of you ALWAYS.

    • @kriscardwell4918
      @kriscardwell4918 Před 3 lety

      Story of my life,, trying to get fully clean, on a program now so iv gotta do it now, or never, ✌️🙏pray for all addicts they are suffering more than you know or understand....

  • @thewinsofchange1493
    @thewinsofchange1493 Před 6 lety +190

    I get it man. And I love it. 13 years off the junk for I have risen. And yet shit goes on and I will rise. From whatever it is.

    • @danablackbirdbenitez2984
      @danablackbirdbenitez2984 Před 5 lety +8

      Hey brother. I'm an active.junkie and alcoholic but tomorrow morning I go get clean because of my kids. I been missing out long enough and dont remember much of there lifes or mine but that changes tonight.

    • @keystoneguardian7543
      @keystoneguardian7543 Před 5 lety +2

      @@danablackbirdbenitez2984 are you doing okay?

    • @haidengeary8277
      @haidengeary8277 Před 5 lety +3

      You got this , brother. Much love.

    • @carsonvolk4531
      @carsonvolk4531 Před 4 lety +2

      @@danablackbirdbenitez2984 I am praying for you, for whatever that's worth. As cliche and obnoxious as it is to hear, you gotta take that shit one day, one choice, at a time. Please stay strong, not only your family but YOU deserve it. Methadone programs (in some states) can be extremely helpful, as well. I'm One week from being 4 years clean and it still gets claws at the edges of my mind every now and then.

    • @danablackbirdbenitez2984
      @danablackbirdbenitez2984 Před 4 lety +5

      @@keystoneguardian7543 almost three months clean ☺😊and I've never felt better in my life

  • @chiefn3
    @chiefn3 Před 6 lety +31

    I love this song,man. Battling addiction my whole life, doing best I ever have n no one believes it. I have kids who's lives I will continue to be part of. That's something I didn't have. N I don't care what anyone, other than those kids think. Inspirational shit

    • @richardvaughan9994
      @richardvaughan9994 Před 6 lety

      chiefn wish you all the best man. Doesn’t matter what anyone believes as long as you are true in you’re heart!!! Much love all the best my friend

    • @justinmcneight6899
      @justinmcneight6899 Před 6 lety +1

      Benjamin Todd both inspires me when Im low and gives me the realitu( sometimes hard ) and hard truths about getting high. Im not clean yet but Im not letting it take over amymore. Next step is just back to beer amd ganja. Hell the cigarettes are the hardest thing to quit.

  • @7Chikchan
    @7Chikchan Před 6 lety +25

    Just started listening to Lost Dog and I'm already so hooked it's crazy. Real shit right here

    • @djlazypaul
      @djlazypaul Před 6 lety +1

      Jared Babinec the best. I want this song played at my funeral.. and hopefully that ain't soon. I got too much art to make

    • @justinmcneight6899
      @justinmcneight6899 Před 5 lety

      Taco and the new year round tour of new England will be a fun day.

  • @rileyparrish4049
    @rileyparrish4049 Před 6 lety +13

    This dude has figured out how to tell a story and somehow i think anyone can relate to the music. true talent

    • @TheMnimatt
      @TheMnimatt Před 6 lety +1

      He is an embodiment of what a whole population needs to see and hear. how could someone even understand that what they're creating exists as symbolically, to anyone willing to turn an open ear to him at that. his words tell the story of life. He just has to keep letting it all flow... yessir, that kind of talent is true to the bone

  • @battleborn8658
    @battleborn8658 Před 5 měsíci +2

    This is day one of me taking my life back. I will rise Ben, thank you.

  • @lethanbiasjr6255
    @lethanbiasjr6255 Před 2 lety +4

    Please don't stop making music, helps me continue my journey through this glorious life of mine

  • @The_laZY_cook_92
    @The_laZY_cook_92 Před 6 lety +4

    as someone who has struggle with alcohol addiction for 10 years. this song gives me hope to continue to fight this addiction and rise above it, so thank you ben for the music and saving my life.

  • @blu64
    @blu64 Před 6 lety +31

    Thank you for your music. I spent over half my life as a practicing junkie, but have been clean for a while now. I just want to tell you how much your songs mean to me, and so many others.

  • @23nothinking
    @23nothinking Před 8 měsíci +1

    Even in my darkest hour I would play this song and something inside deep knew it would someday be heard again and have come to fruition

  • @onewetfishstick
    @onewetfishstick Před 6 lety +21

    Thanks Ben for spilling this on us.. Real lyrics from an old soul never gets dusty..

  • @jeffryan6152
    @jeffryan6152 Před 6 lety +9

    Good God, this hit me hard. Listening to this piece broke me down, but I will rise.

  • @troyscott2299
    @troyscott2299 Před 2 lety +6

    This man, Chris Cornell and Arlo McKinley just inspired me to get my first acoustic guitar 🤘🎸

  • @benmacrae4276
    @benmacrae4276 Před 2 lety +1

    39 days clean and sober today, just buried a good friend this week who lost his life to this disease… he’s who put me on to you in the first place. Now I’m listening to your music everyday and it’s truly helping me stay sober. Thank you Ben

  • @jeremyraywilson9870
    @jeremyraywilson9870 Před 2 lety +1

    I found this lil "GEM" during a time when I fell off the wagon after over 15 yrs sober. In 9 months I almost lost everything I worked sooo hard to earn and love. My Wife, my Dogs, my house, and my land. I had not a soul to offer a hand... So with the help of this song and a few others, I lift myself up on my own!
    " I walked though hell and liked the view!"
    😓💙 Thank you BT!💙😓

  • @kylekinney7578
    @kylekinney7578 Před 6 lety +45

    I regret that I have but one thumbs up to give.

  • @AnonYmous-ti1mb
    @AnonYmous-ti1mb Před 6 lety +5

    Who would have thought that clicking on a random link in Reddit 4 months ago would have led me to such amazing musicians and their beautiful bittersweet tunes. Here I am 4 months later with 4 albums and a few covers memorized and I still can't get enough of it. I feel like such a fanatic. I can't wait until the next album.

  • @jancefullmer3646
    @jancefullmer3646 Před 8 měsíci +1

    BT. Hey brother I just wanted to say thank you you have no idea how much your music has helped me get through some tough times...I'm 47 and I've been using for half my life I just recently lost one of my best friends my aunt who raise me and became a grandfather all in 2 weeks so needless to say I have a thousand emotions going through me,thank you for telling it how it is for keeping real country music alive I don't know what I'd do without ya

  • @KomaTimeKev
    @KomaTimeKev Před 5 lety +1

    Just found this song... Simply beautiful and sung from the desperate cries of the heart. My life looks so different than it was just two short years ago. When you lose everything it's so easy to feel hopeless but you have to remind yourself to keep fighting and pressing forward. Don't stay down, you can rise again!

  • @coltonhaney5141
    @coltonhaney5141 Před 3 lety +3

    how does one dislike anything this man does?

  • @williamsweat8495
    @williamsweat8495 Před 6 lety +4

    This was put out in a time of my life when I really needed to hear it. Thank you my friend. I Will Rise...

  • @simonfresquez4690
    @simonfresquez4690 Před 3 lety +2

    I've heard so much music but this song speaks to me on levels like none other. I first found this song right after my best friend died in November of 2019. It helped me get through the pain so much. When he said "I grieved a death from losing you" I felt that. When he said "they're placing bets all over town on how I'll die" I felt that. All I heard from anybody for the following weeks was "please don't hurt yourself honey" I just feel it all to the core. This song is me. When he said "now my candle burns from either side" I felt that. I can't stop feeling that I'm next. It's all so real

  • @knowone1479
    @knowone1479 Před 2 lety +1

    I have listened to this song a million times, but I still get goosebumps when I hear it. Awesome song and a great artist.

  • @MandatoryManda
    @MandatoryManda Před 6 lety +11

    I love this guy Just lost my twin bro from using he got hep c ..... 37 and gone Rest In Peace bro and the using song gets me every time. Now this song. Dammit Ben you got me all over again. Hope you make it real big!

    • @thegeorgiacreekwalker491
      @thegeorgiacreekwalker491 Před 6 lety

      Mandatory Manda I'm sorry for your loss

    • @DystopianDinoo
      @DystopianDinoo Před 5 lety

      I've had hep c for 3 years. How long did your bro have it

    • @ulstershound1588
      @ulstershound1588 Před 5 lety +1

      Mandatory Manda I'm sorry I lost my pops drinking eleven years ago than my older brother who also was battling booze got car accident In Oregon ohh frack super hard umm he had three kids and three grandchildren he was 44 it hurt allot more losing my brother than pops or maybe because I didn't morn right I'm feeling it for both I have a kid and now a bunch 😊but I lie to myself about being clean you gotta have someone strong enough stop ya once in awhile I hope your ok

  • @stephenvastardis8720
    @stephenvastardis8720 Před 5 lety +5

    "I'm scared to death of my own mind." And let all the people say, "AMEN".

  • @TimOD43
    @TimOD43 Před 6 lety +2

    Blown away by this guys music. It's amazing finding new music that you know you will listen to for the rest of your life, however long that may be. Thank you Ben, THANK YOU.

  • @dalocalwarmage8188
    @dalocalwarmage8188 Před 4 lety +1

    I've been listening to Benjamin for about 4 years now and I still love every song I listen to. I idolized this man. His story...
    He's like a best-friend I've never met.

  • @lukebenoche3075
    @lukebenoche3075 Před 6 lety +19

    This is real music. Haven't heard anything like since the 60s.

  • @bryanhazlett2695
    @bryanhazlett2695 Před 6 lety

    I lost my soulmate/best friend/brother just after this song released. My world has been turned upside down. I find comfort in these words. I know i have to break the chain of substance abuse. The reality is lonely and empty so I dull it the only way I know how. I will rise too. Thank you, Ben

  • @kurtaugsburger1929
    @kurtaugsburger1929 Před 5 lety +4

    Quite possibly the sharpest knife of a song ever written.

  • @jesserichards4770
    @jesserichards4770 Před 5 lety +5

    51 days clean today. Damn this song is amazing.

    • @asherael
      @asherael Před 3 lety +1

      How you holding up? I'm closing on my first year and hope you're doing well

    • @jesserichards4770
      @jesserichards4770 Před 3 lety +2

      asherael 629 days today! Still going strong!

  • @marutinandan182
    @marutinandan182 Před 3 lety

    Man I love this guy so much. His songs go right to the heart. Perfect when your down and then I will rise for the pick up. Thank you for your gift. I am so grateful you are here to share it with the world

  • @Tinnsfr
    @Tinnsfr Před 4 lety +1

    Almost nothing on earth hits home as hard as this man's music. An absolute poetic genius.

  • @AlexanderJohnson
    @AlexanderJohnson Před 6 lety +4

    I play this song probably 5 times a day every day and it never fails to pick me up

    • @richardvaughan9994
      @richardvaughan9994 Před 6 lety

      Alexander Johnson best time to listen to this song is at 5 in the morning when there isn’t a peep of other sounds going on in the world, just you and this beautiful sound.

    • @AlexanderJohnson
      @AlexanderJohnson Před 6 lety +1

      I do this often on my way to work. You're completely correct

    • @richardvaughan9994
      @richardvaughan9994 Před 6 lety +1

      Alexander Johnson forsure man, me to on my way to the coffee store then work I listen to it as well. Nice to know I’m not the only out there who does that haha.

  • @meghanrae8087
    @meghanrae8087 Před 6 lety +415

    Benjamin tod and tyler childers together??

    • @richardvaughan9994
      @richardvaughan9994 Před 6 lety +18

      That’d be fuckin awesome I love them both

    • @jessefranklin806
      @jessefranklin806 Před 5 lety +34

      God I love this comment so much. Good enough for me but Colter Wall would be alright to me too.

    • @ghostdriver5880
      @ghostdriver5880 Před 5 lety +12

      I really like colter wall and Tyler childers but this dude is awesome too

    • @adamkavanagh4301
      @adamkavanagh4301 Před 5 lety +27

      Tyler Childers, Colter Wall, Shawn James and Benjamin Tod together....super stage of acoustic genius and voices that hit every part of your soul is set

    • @tylervandyne9872
      @tylervandyne9872 Před 5 lety +20

      john moreland added in would be good too

  • @NathanErtznerMusic
    @NathanErtznerMusic Před 2 lety +1

    Ben I can't thank you enough for what you do. Seriously. I cant put it into words. You seen me though tears and smiles alike. Your art is something I can play at my worst and best. Thank you.

  • @kirsch1616
    @kirsch1616 Před rokem +1

    30 months baby!!! Living low down but I’m LIVING AGAIN!!

  • @tylerfaust3727
    @tylerfaust3727 Před 4 lety +3

    Man I have lived a similar life with addiction. I can relate to this song very much. But you can rise! But I couldn’t of rises without Jesus Christ! He saved my life and I’m grateful that no one is taking bets on me anymore. He can do the same for you my friend.

  • @waerts1
    @waerts1 Před 6 lety +10

    I've been waiting for an update since the last vid with ben.
    Got me really worried last vid, this gives me hope.
    Love it

  • @pianoplayerzable
    @pianoplayerzable Před 6 lety +2

    As cliche as it may sound I could give you 999 reasons why I don't wanna' be here and a handful of reasons why I still am. Maybe I'm looking at things wrong and you most certainly do not bear the burden of my life but this song is one of those reasons. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world man. I appreciate you! Thank you!

  • @fayebaybae
    @fayebaybae Před 2 lety +2

    This man is one of the greatest song writers of our time.

  • @Markson20
    @Markson20 Před 4 lety +4

    Spent my whole 20s getting so drunk messed up and just all around mess . ive slowly been getting outta of it. 30yo now and trying my best to change. Anxiety got the best of me . love yall . glad to know theres people like me

    • @Markson20
      @Markson20 Před 4 lety +1

      welp im back at it . life totally sucks

    • @shawnhill6605
      @shawnhill6605 Před 4 lety

      Nothing I can say over CZcams can really help but I hope the best for you markson20

    • @razorpig6654
      @razorpig6654 Před 4 lety +1

      The problem isn’t the problem. The problem is how you feel about the problem...

  • @liefbrunet4275
    @liefbrunet4275 Před 2 lety +4

    I am quick to cry and slow to lie, but I like this guy.

  • @rosscleaver7132
    @rosscleaver7132 Před 6 lety

    BENJAMIN TOD BENJAMIN TOD BENJAMIN TOD BENJAMIN TOD. You have written and covered a soundtrack to my life, I am 22 years old. 23 in April. Your music has gotten me through so much. dor the young age that I am I have been through a ton. From abuse to mental illnesses to substance abuse, legal troubles suicidal thoughts and attempts overdoses your music has always gotten me through everything. all my life is, is music, family, friends , skateboarding, and my dog. Never has as artist put my life, thoughts perspective and outlook on the world out there into the universe. I believe inyou Benjamin Tod you have so much fight left in you and mean so much to so many people. You will rise from the depths of the bottom the darkest of the dark. You're a true inspitarion, artist talent, and everything else (positive) anyone else is calling you. Those who places bad bets will loose there money. youre here and have risen. Thank you for being there for me without even knowing it. keep doing you and regardless of anything im here with you always brother. I am in a bad place doing not so great things but also: I will rise.
    Cheers Benjamin Tod.
    Love you brother.

  • @sanjuancb
    @sanjuancb Před 2 lety +1

    Needed to hear this the first week of 2022. God Bless Benjamin Tod.

  • @Noteafairy
    @Noteafairy Před 6 lety +3

    i love your music i am addicted to it.. i saw you last year in portland or cant wait to see you again i am taking fiddle lessons because of you and your girl... you hit my soul ... i love you man as a beautiful soul... your music is so real

  • @GemsOnVHS
    @GemsOnVHS  Před 4 lety +110

    Howdy, folks! If you're enjoyin' these recordings, please consider becoming a Patron to keep us going. For the price of a slice of pizza every month, you can help us bring you new stories and songs. We'll return the favor with plenty of digital downloads, CDs, behind-the-scenes takes, giveaways, and more! www.patreon.com/gemsonvhs

    • @elizabethkaseroff9235
      @elizabethkaseroff9235 Před 4 lety +4

      I'd love to donate. Please contact me. (951) 732-4645. If you're an ass please leave me alone. I just lost my boy.

    • @phillipmay4813
      @phillipmay4813 Před 4 lety

      Thank you for this!!!
      If I had the $ I definitely would send it over.
      Once again... Thank you and I wish I could trade dollars for the experience of the song. %100

    • @everythingisnoting5938
      @everythingisnoting5938 Před 4 lety +1

      Hey.. I would like to purchase a CD can u explain what way to go about that..
      Thanks

    • @xzanth2722
      @xzanth2722 Před 3 lety

      How can I help

    • @TheJaybutton
      @TheJaybutton Před 3 lety

      @@elizabethkaseroff9235 hey how are you doing now? I hope you’re okay.

  • @tamaraobrien7743
    @tamaraobrien7743 Před 5 lety

    Thank you soo much for this.

  • @marlenehiggins7602
    @marlenehiggins7602 Před 2 lety

    WOW. Benjamin you are so gifted. Thanks for this beautiful song. 'Love your guitar style!

  • @poopymcmonke
    @poopymcmonke Před 2 lety +5

    Worlds quietest recording

  • @TheMnimatt
    @TheMnimatt Před 6 lety +12

    I really am starting to compare him to the greats, Imagine what Johnny would think of this song. Damn beautiful and haunting. Another tune to carry to the grave, Thanks Ben

    • @saltedcoast9895
      @saltedcoast9895 Před 6 lety +3

      Matthew McRae
      Dude, I know that this might be sacreligious , but I think he's better than Johnny Cash. In terms of range, depth and variety of his music.
      No disrespect to Johnny Cash, but damn, this guy is great

    • @TheMnimatt
      @TheMnimatt Před 6 lety

      yeah dude, I absolutely see where you're coming from, but I feel the time people were born in shapes the music. Not to compare as in better or worse, but compare as in hold in a similar regard. I honestly see great musicians in their own personal categories if you can dig it lmao

    • @saltedcoast9895
      @saltedcoast9895 Před 6 lety +1

      Matthew McRae
      Ohhh I got you man, good to see people listening to these guys though. I tried to get some other country music fans into GemsOnVHS and they just couldn't get into it...way more into the Brantley Gilbert/Florida Georgia Line brand of music

    • @TheMnimatt
      @TheMnimatt Před 6 lety

      Pop Country and real southern music just don't mix like you would think. This music isn't a fad, it's gonna be around as long as people are still holding it down in America

    • @wolfthehunter3
      @wolfthehunter3 Před 6 lety +1

      Matthew McRae this kinda music is what built and defined America, it transends fads because it's as simple and honest as you can get. Best name I've heard for this music is Americana, and I think that's damn fitting. The lyrics might change to fit the times but it don't get much better than humming strings and howlin souls.

  • @lexirose2155
    @lexirose2155 Před 6 lety +2

    I can tell he puts everything he has and feels into his music" i'm so happy to of came across you from one of my traveler friends and it's helped my mind through the darkness. Traveling on my own with a broken heart and addictions and just being stuck. But i have risen !

  • @sarahgraves9950
    @sarahgraves9950 Před 3 lety

    omg i fell in love!! this is🔥🔥 ❤️❤️❤️ this and using again my two favorites!!

  • @staceyunderwood540
    @staceyunderwood540 Před 5 lety +3

    Love this song DAMN it how I much I can relate to this song

  • @macfleetwood2015
    @macfleetwood2015 Před 6 lety +3

    buying lost dogs album on payday... this guy's my new favourite artist

  • @syliss133
    @syliss133 Před 6 lety

    His music is pure like a fresh mountain stream. I listen to it while I walk the country roads and it brings peace

  • @lawrencehoadley4190
    @lawrencehoadley4190 Před 4 lety +1

    Dude is probably the best songwriter I've heard lately

  • @theresasquirestheresa
    @theresasquirestheresa Před 4 lety +5

    🎶 And those "people" don't even have a clue
    Cuz I will rise with the help from theses songs that I somehow just knew... 🎵

  • @amosanon3274
    @amosanon3274 Před 6 lety +3

    I wept. Beautiful song.

  • @0erethren0
    @0erethren0 Před 2 měsíci

    11 years addicted to IV drugs, homelessness, recovery, suicide attempts, therapy, hospital stays, deaths, family, love, kids, ....Ben's music has been there all along. Thanks for the comfort through the insanity ❤

  • @sagepatton1685
    @sagepatton1685 Před 4 lety

    I love that every song he sings it has a deeper meaning. I love you!❤️❤️❤️

  • @thewerd1982
    @thewerd1982 Před 6 lety +5

    Another gem Ben. Can't wait for your album to be released. Get your ass up to Canada. Peace

  • @tripcarl6790
    @tripcarl6790 Před 5 lety +66

    Day 1. Say a prayer for me

  • @LadyOneKC
    @LadyOneKC Před 5 lety

    I couldn’t possibly love his song writing anymore. He speaks to my heart every single time.

  • @jlande6
    @jlande6 Před 6 lety

    Amazing! Your voice floors me and then lifts me to fly in the clouds. Thank you...music is the grace that keeps me reaching, crawling and flying. I only hope i can give back out as you do.

  • @braidenmiller7545
    @braidenmiller7545 Před 4 lety +4

    I have just listened to three songs in a row
    We ain't even kin
    using again
    and this one I haven't cried so much since the death of my great grandfather he knows how to hit emotion