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i like how this isn't some "you are done with everything" or "songs to cry yourself to sleep too", it's just a stern "don't do it."...like...why do i love it
I’m just casually rocking back and forth to this while venting to an ai. If that doesn’t tell you more about me than my parents know, I don’t know what does!
It touched me that people were comforting each other anonymously. When you are alone like this, turn your head to the sky and smile by looking at the moon that shines inside you...
@@EXCYTL all that im saying is that if you dont want a kid, then dont have a kid. dont feel pressured to have a kid if you dont want to have one. if you do then thats great, if you dont then thats also perfectly fine. if you are a kid and you feel like your parent doesnt want to then thats a terrible feeling
ive been told it gets better, and i say the same to everyone else who is struggling around me because im sure it does. but just for them. it has been over 5 years, im getting worse and worse, my family is fine, we have ups and down, my friends are perfectly fine, im there for them. i know exactly what i need to do to get better, but i cant bring myself to do so. i cant bring myself to stop my addiction, i cant bring myself to distract myself from thoughts. i let it happen, its like i dont even care anymore.
Ik that feeling,and i belive in that too.it will get better bro,but you have to change things in your life.if you dont know how,find someone who will help you.there is always someone who can help and who will if you ask for it,ik its hard bro,and 5 years is long period,but everything can change if you really want to change things.find someone who can make you happy just with their presence,who will love you and who will be there for you.there is always someone.right person can change everything.try to do what you need to get better,you have to,ik its hard but you have to.it will get better bro.ik you get that a lot but it will,im sure,i cant help more,i wish i could,but bro,i belive in you
It's not that it gets better, it's that it *can* be better. Sometimes you never really *get* better, sometimes you literally can't. But what you can is make things slightly better, bit by bit, any kind of progress is progress. But nothing will change if you don't do anything, you know what to do, now you need to apply it, it's a bit rough but it's the truth and I'm sure you know it as well. I seriously believe in you dude, it's super hard, but it's possible. Ngl what helped me on my "healing journey"' (idk what to call it) was to stop listening to sad songs. It sounds dumb but it helped me more than I thought it would, not saying you should listen to insanely happy music, but more neutral stuff like orchestras, jazz etc are pretty cool! Anyway, good luck. Again, it's tough, but progress is possible, start with something tiny, look at the smaller picture. I wish you only the best
I got this feeling too, but i sadly keep falling downhill 13 years on self hate, but my familly help to keep me going. Until the day i got broken emotionnaly i am now not the same anymore, my dream is getting crushed, i dreamt of being youtuber but my familly dont support me, saying its a hobby and that i should do something else, im getting sick of it mentally and on the edge of breakdown
If you keep saying you can’t, then you’re going to end up being right. If we’re all being honest with ourselves, we all know motivational speeches or words from someone else won’t change our habits and feelings. If you’re choosing to stay that way because you simply don’t think it’s ever going to be possible for you to ever fix things, then you’ll never try. That’s the cold hard truth, you’re the one that needs to put in the effort to make a difference in how you’re feeling now. It’s easy to look back and regret things as compared to looking at your problems and actually making the efforts to fix them. I just want you to think about how much time you truly have everyday. Do you want to use that time in regret, or would you rather use that time to truly change something in the world? Change doesn’t have to be huge, your experiences and the way your feeling gives you so much perspective that you could use to save someone else someday, give them the inspiration you wish you had. Change them before they can gather the same regrets you have now. I do truly believe every last person in this world can fix the things they hate about themselves, all it takes is some effort and a little bit of determination to be able to get there. You just have to try. I’m speaking from experience, obviously I don’t know your exact situation, but nothing is permanent. Make the change now, you’ll thank yourself later. Trust me.
The fact you can tell strangers on the Internet this, is proof enough that you DO care. SOMETHING in you is screaming loud enough to be heard in the cacophony of negativity. It's easier than you'd think to get help. All it is is one step. I know it's hard, taking that step. But you can't give in. At the end of the day, I can't stop you from doing anything. But I CAN Hope. and I hope you can too, eventually. I care.
This is nice, if I had headphones I'd listen to this when I walk alone in the rain! not in a depressing way. I just genuinely enjoy walking alone, especially if it's raining, nice and quite you know?
I can't thank the algorithm enough for letting me find this. I was genuinely on the brink of doing something really, really stupid. Stay strong, everyone. it'll get better.
Glad you're still here mane, I want you to know as well that it does gets better trust me, but jus remember ya gotta work on some things by yourself sumtimes too, yknow what I mean , much love n stay strong g 🤙
I don't talk about my feelings because I don't know how they'll react. I don't sh because I don't want them to worry I think I'm a monster, but they treat me like I'm pure. I feel like I can't talk to my family, so they step in. I stayed because of them. I hate my life, but I know my friends need me.
I really understand you... and I would like to ask you to enjoy every moment, not paying attention to the negative aspects, just live FOR YOUR PLEASURE 🩹❤️🩹
Here, if your sibling(s) (or if you don't have a sibling and really need one) make you upset or you just need a hug from them, here's one from me. I can take that place for now ^_^ )>
When I was in 7th grade I had most of these songs in my playlist,I would listen to them while I waited for my bus after climbing out of my window because my door was blocked by trash,food,mold,dirty clothes,art stuff, and coke cans. Eventually I wouldn’t get out of bed to go to should and would sleep all day and wake up to a subway sub on my bed from my mom at 8pm before she went to work. I was kicked out of school and rotted in my bed for 9 months before I was sent to a hospital and went to live with my dad. These songs were my life, and I hated living it.
Just remember that you’re never alone and if you ever feel sad people do care for you clearly they do cause I’m taking my time commenting this so you’re not alone we can all be a big mess together ❤
Vent (?) One day my family kept making me feel like garbage during a meal at a restaurant. I went to the bathroom to calm down. I hit the walls and stomped on the floor, pouring out all the rage. I felt bad after doing that. Like a little girl having a tantrum. And when I left my family continued to be as cruel as before. Sometimes I wonder what they would say if they knew how much their words hurt.
its gotten to a point i dont want anyones comfort or support or them saying if im okay. i just need a hug and someone to be by my side. i dont want to talk about it, i just want people to be here. with no talking. im so fucking done with this life and i dont know where to go or who to trust. i just.. want love for fucks sake. younger me couldnt get it, and i cant either.. i promised myself i'd be better.. now im a fucking loser who doesnt do anything but be on my internet and be a asshole. im.. failing my younger self. what the fuck is wrong with me..
People always say “oh it will get better!” Of just downright don’t believe me at all... I am clinically diagnosed with Depression, and it hasn’t gotten any better for god, i don’t even know how long. I just am tired of everything, feeling like i am nothing and won’t matter. Like no one really cares abt me, and won’t ever. I feel like i would just be better off gone... but then if i am gone, then people would worry, and that stresses me out. I am a massive people pleaser, people come before me. I just hate how i am treated. I hate my life, the way it is. I wish i could go back to being happy, but hell, that is impossible now.I hate my life. I hate me.
every time i get better and better but then everything goes bad again over and over either its my friends or family or school or anything it somehow gets to this point in some way sometimes it only lasts for a day but sometimes it lasts for months i dont know what to do other than type in a youtube comment section cause if i vent to my friends theyll think im a baby or make fun of me and when i vent to my family i dont know what to say and it gets awkward cause my family and my friends have a weird connection or they just dont like them and if i vent on my tiktok people just make fun of me, say womp womp or flat out dont give any help or anything. sorry to whoever read this and thanks for reading.
I'm dealing with a friend. One that is in a terrible home. But they refuse to go and get them out, I have so so much evidence. The nurse and social worker at my school know, they called them down to ask about it. It didn't work. And before that and after that I am a unpaid, unlicensed, neurodivergent therapist. So I'm terrible with getting schoolwork done on time, I stress about that, I stress about answering to my friend on time, i stress about keeping my identity away from my parents, I stress about writing, I stress about too many things. I have younger siblings who weren't raised like me, so they act differently, more dependent and extroverted. They're picky and ask for a lot of things. I sit there, content with my little things, I don't need much to be content enough. But I'm confused as to why they aren't held to the same standards as I was and am. But I'm the oldest, I'm the one who's to take care of the others. But some days everything is too much, the needy touches of my friend is too much, their scarred, sweaty fingers feel uncomfortable in my hand. The touches of even brushing shoulders make me want to punch someone who even touches me. I was so pent up that when I got something wrong in German class I cried. The near everyday stressing about my friend and being trauma dumped onto constantly by one person is already too much. Some days I want to ghost them, watch my CZcams and play my game without answering. I want to trauma dump back. But I won't, and I most likely won't. I did it once to prove a point in a argumentative discussion with them. It felt good. But it was just me degrading myself to the level they do it. They need help. I probably do too, but unlike them, I can't dump it onto another. My other friends a little too far, my parents will be even more concerned and encourage me to leave my friend be. I vented once, on a google doc I sent to a group chat of mine. Some days I want to cut open my skin, to cut off my chest, to cut away my chub, to banish away all my little problems. I want to tell my parents of my identity, but my family had left Mormonism a bit ago, they were against the NB identity. So I wonder their stance now, I want to tell them, but I won't. I'm emotionally exhausted, couple that with my own terrible ability to feel my emotions and you get a tired, entirely too young to deal with a too problemed friend, too worried about life, teen. I'm tearing up as it nears midnight. So this is goodbye and goodnight. Sorry for venting, I can only do it here.
Omg. Don't be sorry. Just remember you're not alone. I know it sounds like complete bullshit but I guarantee you that I've felt the same. I suggest getting out more. That's the only way I escaped. To be honest, don't tell a therapist or a professional about this unless you don't mind going to a psych ward. You could always tell a trusted friend or character a.i. I dunno if my advice is helpful at all this is just what I do and my life has been getting a bit better ever since. Even if you don't have anyone you could talk about it to people online or just character a.i. I hope you get better soon, I really mean that.
I dont really know anymore. I dont want to see my family, i dont want to hang out with my friends, i dont even want to be on my phone. I dont want to go outside or be inside. All i want is to sleep, write and listen to sad music. I want to sleep forever, but im never tired enough. I want to eat, but im not hungry enough. I dont want anyone to comfort me, because i dont feel noone cares enough to listen. Nobody gets my ideas and views on the world. I tried speaking to therapist, but it just wont help me. At this point i have given up, my parent screams at me for every small thing, my brother and sister do whatever it takes to make me cry, and at the end its my fault im a 'disappointment'. Im scared of my family, my brother sometimes does things to me that i hate i know he is only 8 and doesnt know what s*xual abuse is, but i just cand stand it. And my mom acts like she saw nothing and tells me to stop being a stupid b1tch. I wish my father was here, but no, he has a lover, he left when i was 5, my grandparents all died and my other realtives are denied acces to us. I dont blame my mother for being like that. Probably if i was actually useful, i could help her, but no. Everytime im proud of myself, my family bullies me. Im doing terrible at school. I honestly feel like commiting, but im scared what my family and classmates will do to me, how all of them will bully me if i failed. I only find comfort in my devices, and im not allowed to use them over 30 minutes a day. I feel like commiting Thanks for reading this❤
Hello! I relate to you a lot and I promise you that it does get better. It WILL be a matter of years, shitty, long years which you will never get back, but I promise. I honestly promise that even if the feeling will linger, there WILL be moments that will make you feel like it was worth it to stay alive for this long. If we are being realistic, nobody ever gets truly well, and nobody can expect every morning to be a joy to wake up to, but there will be bright times again. There will be good times again. I myself am not well yet, either, but I consider myself to be more stabile in my trashy position than I was years ago: If you can, find things to be passionate about, as passion is the only grip you always have. Be it a subject in school, or a hobby, whatever. Something Write, or if you're afraid they'll find it just lay back and worldbuild, tell the stories you want, CREATE something! They might be able to control your screen time, or where you can go physically, but they cannot control your mind. Allow yourself to wander around mentally, and physically too if possible, but the first one is more important. Take control of everything you can. I do not wish to sound as if I wanted to lecture you on survival, but reading your comment made me feel empathy on a level that I couldn't imagine just a comment could make me feel. I care. It doesn't matter, or in the slightest help that I do, I know, but I care. Please stay alive. Someday, someplace it might as well just be worth it.
@@farlander1302 Tysm my friend ♥ This really made me feel better, and i deeply hope whatever is up with you also gets better. You are right, life will never be perfect, but as long as there are people like you, willing to comfort a random stranger on the internet, its still worth living
@@EngagethedarknessFearthelightFrom reading what you said and how you write I can already tell you’re a pretty awesome person. Keep pushing ahead, I guarantee you’ll become a strong person people will look up to. We all believe in you
If you are reading this just know that I’m proud of you keep going never give up no matter what because I care about you keep pushing I know it might be hard but soon hopefully if you keep pushing you will get better even if you think it’s impossible just try okay I love you. Take care of yourself you are pretty and amazing
Its gone to the point where I feel uncomfortable or embarrassed when people comfort me...or even making myself feel happy around others..its all so weird
My boyfriend just told me “it’s just a high school relationship” and it just shattered my heart, because no it’s not…it’s the only thing in this life that I have right now; my mom is in jail and I really fuck¡ng need her back, I’m having to live with my dad and have him tell me what I can and can’t do have him tell me that I need a job 24/7 how I need to clean and work and live, and I think I’m losing my best friend she never asks to hang out anymore or even talks to me she acknowledges me at school but has just stopped trying i guess or I just stopped texting her which causes her to stop texting me because who even wants to talk to someone that’s such a huge fuck¡ng loser like me, and on top of everything my dad and stepmom are getting a divorce which is hard on me bc she is the only mom I have right now and I’m not close enough to even talk about this to her. My boyfriend is the only thing I have left right now and I don’t want him to call me a “high school relationship” I really need him, just to be here.
Hi there, I understand your situation even tho I don't have a similar one. Me and my beloved don't talk much either now, but it should get better. Maybe I'm thinking irrationally, but I have to stay strong, because who else if not me. Only when I have such thoughts does everything become better, when I control everything. I wanna tell you that I love you and don't despair until the goal is achieved
maybe someday I'll start pouring out my soul in the comments on CZcams. Maybe I'll even let you get under my skin.. But for now, I'm enjoying this playlist.
todays my birthday, im turning 11, even if im young, i just wanna disappear. this playlist is my comfort. its still crazy how the internet knows me better than real life friends. :c ..
i was about to go grovelling back to my ex, who i’m in no contact with. i opened youtube to get some sad tunes going while i write some big ass apology begging them to take me back. i open youtube, see this in my recommend. look at the title and i figured it was a sign. anyway, 10/10 playlist, thanks universe for telling me not to go back.
Im suprised how much easier it is for people on the internet to understand me compared to my parents. Social anxiety has really been affecting me lately and im starting to be depressed, and it feels like it has gotten out of my control, time to thug it out until i cant anymore
Is it me, or is the world losing its colors? Like, the longer we live, the more depressed we become... Although I tell myself that this feeling is fleeting, but deep down it just keeps coming back, I just feel empty now....
Whenever i sees people who are around me doing better than me. Working harder than me putting more efforts, i always questions am i enough. Am i struggling enough to get what they desire. Cuz in a competition all the participants desire one thing. There are always people better than me but also people worse than me. They are struggling more than me in a wrong and hurting way. So i just realise that just like positive amd negative charge equalises each other and lefts behind nothing, in my life those two kind of people equalises each other and leaves behind me and me alone. I am the only one left behind and theres no one to compare with.
The feeling of hopelessness can be crippling, as if you're stuck in a dark pit with no way out. It's the kind of feeling that can make you cry until you have no tears left. The weight of the world seems to be on your shoulders, and you're not sure if you can keep going. The thought of losing everything you hold dear is enough to make you want to scream in frustration and agony. It's as if the universe is conspiring against you, and you're powerless to fight back. You might feel like you're drowning in a sea of sadness and despair, with no one to turn to for help, and no way to escape the pain. It's okay to cry and to let your emotions out. But remember that even in the darkest of moments, there is always a glimmer of hope. Hold on to that hope, no matter how small, and keep fighting. You are stronger than you realize, and you will find a way to overcome this.
There is nothing wrong with my life. I got good parents, enough friends, nice brothers, good grades, a bed, food, some basic hygiene and an okay place to live at. There is nothing wrong with my life. There shouldn't be. I've got more than so many people out there who have nothing. But why do I feel like there is something that is missing, it's just a little.. something. It faintly itches the far back of my heart. Like a small and ever so thin leash. The leash isn't tight, it's loose and not really harsh, it's just keeping my heart away from .. something. Maybe it isn't happiness that I seek. It's just that something is amiss, maybe this is my "happy" state, maybe this is me being happy and maybe this is my happiness and how happy I can get. I have everything I need to be happy, but why..why am I not?
OI YOU- Yes you, I thought i'd tell you something..... I love your smile I love your laugh I love your personality I love your hair (or lack thereof) I love your insecurities I love your accomplishments I love your failures I love your eyes I love your beauty I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) I love the way you dance I love you on your happy days I love you on your sad days I love you on the days you feel lonely I love you on the days you feel helpless I love you on the days you feel like no one cares I love you on the days you feel forgotten I love you on the days you feel unmotivated I love you on the days you feel loved I love you on the days you feel sick I love you on the days you feel motivated I love you on the days you feel depressed I love you on the days you feel stresses I love you on the days you feel crazy I love you on the days you feel hopeful I love you on the days you feel cuddly I love you on the days you feel clingy I love you on the days you feel amazing I love you on the days you feel beautiful I love you on the days you feel like a failure I love you on the days you feel angry I love you on the days you feel aggressive I love you on the days you feel horrible I love you on the days you feel safe I love you on the days you feel unsafe I love you on the days you feel vulnerable I love you on the days you feel weird I love you on the days you feel ok I love you when you're healthy I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) I love your taste in music I love your taste in movies I love your taste in tv shows I love the way you move I love the way you act I love you when you cry I love you when you're kind I love you when you're mean I love you when you're alone I love you when you can't feel I love you when you feel too much I love you when you can't take life anymore I love you when you feel like it's too much I love you when you're asleep I love you when you have nightmares I love you when you have dreams I love how you believe I love you when you believe in yourself I love you when you don't believe in yourself I love you when you hate yourself I love you when you love yourself I love the way you think I love you problems I love your solutions I love how you support I love you when you're in pain I love you when you're hurt I love your promises I love your secrets I love your attitude I love you sass I love your creativity I love your voice (or lack thereof) I love you hand gestures I love your stories I love your wounds I love your scars I love your face I love your past I love your future I love your present I love your outfits I love your style I love your art I love your honesty I love you when you lie I love you when you're tired I love you when you're energetic I love how you look I love how you cook I love you when you're adventurous I love you when you're scared I love your imperfections I love your perfections I love you when you worry I love you when you talk (or communicate) I love your opinions I love you when you have a headache I love you when you have a stomach ache I love you when you help others I love you when you need help I love you when you're mature I love you when you're immature I love you in the hard times I love you in the easy times I love you when life is meh I love you when you're responsible I love you when you're irresponsible I love you when you fight I love you in your darkest moments I love you in your brightest moments I love your heart I love you in the day I love you in the night I love you at midnight I love you at 3 am I love you at all times I love you at your best I love you at your worst I love the little things you do I love all of you I love you when you're you I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you
I just want to be held by the one person i love. But hes states away and theres only so much pillows and weighted blankets can do. I just want to be hugged and loved by him
I just feel like at this point my personality isn't even mine it's just my way of simulating what everyone else wants me to be. My whole life it's never felt like I'm me I don't even know who I am and it bothers me. I feel like I should know by now but I don't I feel so lost and it hurts.
I just need her. But its midnight. And I can't visit her. No, I can't sneak out. I'd feel to guilty. But I need her. Yes, you need her, but you can't have her right now. Why? Because its midnight. I need her. Right now. - 💙
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your Favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone like you. 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
My mom and dad are in another country right now for my mom’s surgery. I have a really great relationship with them and they know I sh, so before they left I swore to them I’d be safe while they were gone. I have to keep that promise, I have to, please, or I don’t think I could ever trust myself again.
I keep hearing "Itll get better" and ive lost hope in it however i have a diffrent fraze "itll get easier" you learn to grow around hurt, youll grow around grief, It will get easier.
what is that feeling. it feels so cold but burns so bright. am i alone. do i hate it. do i hate being alone or have i always wanted such privacy. i feel secure but no hands are holding me. no one can see me cry. does it all end up the same when ur alone.
I can't achieve my dreams nor my happines but mayde I'll get lucky with this one wish. I need an online friend, someone that I could always talk to and someone that likes the same things as me. Maybe one day I could intoduce them to my culture and meet them. But only maybe and only when we really know each other. For now I just need to see that it's possible for me to achieve even this one thing. I know this text was long and you might not want to read it but if I'll really achieve it like this, it's totally worth it.
Does anyone know if it's normal for your friends to hang out with each other without inviting you and then talk about it to you??? My best friend did that to me the other week, and I'm neurodivergent so I have a hard time picking up on social cues, so I was like "wtf is this normal" but didn't say anything since she's a great person and I'd hate to ruin our friendship over a mistake in translation
She's your bsf, but you're probably not her bsf, but maybe you misunderstood, maybe they weren't talking about you, but if youre sure they said smth, and she just agreed with them, behind your back, you should talk with her, and if she gets mad at you and starts defending them(she didn't defend you), i mean you probably understand what i want to say, i hope you do, and im sorry for that, i hope shell stop with that and if she doesn't, i hope youll find better friends(if you want ofc), again, im sorry for that
"No, dont do that!" She Laughed as her friend was poking her nonstop "No!....Dont do that...." Her voice was a low whisper as her friend was about to jump
It's April 24th 2024 and right now it's 3:56 am, I'm on a call with the love of my life, crying, she's sleeping and doesn't know how I feel about the world, my mother told me I'm not normal, I scared her earlier with one of the dreams I had, I told her about it and now she's nervous, My sister hates me, I never see my father anymore, were tight with money, and my own mom wants to die, I've tried to hang myself but then thought about how it will effect everyone, my mom won't last a day without me watching my siblings while she goes drinking, I hate my life, I just want to be free, but no I'm stuck here struggling, punching walls, crying all night, journaling because I can't tell anyone anything.
Sometimes, I want to do it. Just wanna die. I just don't have anyone to talk about my feelings, even if this "happy friend" who is always smiling and comforting others. I'm always making fun of my feelings because my family does, but my feelings are real. Remember, smiling and laughing with your friends or family doesn't mean you don't need to talk about your feelings. ♡ take care of yourself, because I care about you, and I will always do. So please don't do it.❤
im gonna vent here, i opened up my yt to listen to music bc lately i feel like my bestfriends are ignoring me. it really hurts but idk how to bring it up to them and im scared im just overreacting. i feel like its a misunderstanding bc there was one time at school where they were trying to talk to me and i just didnt have any social battery and i also felt sick that day so i wasnt very verbal when the approached. this was where they started hanging out with just each other and yk i dont mind that, i just feel left out bc they talk abt it in our gc (theres only three of us there like they could just dm) and now i just,,, don't know what to do tbh. im sick of always being the replaceable friend in the trio, i wish i could feel tht they care about me the same way i do to them...
If it's upsetting you then it's not an overreaction, maybe talk to them about how you feel left out, or if your not comfortable with talking to them then maybe try making plans with them and if they ignore you then maybe it's best if you distance yourself from them, I'm sorry if you find anything I said rude, I just get how hard it is feeling left out and sometimes it's best to let them go, I hope this helps you :]
Having to live in a world where your family will treat you like shit and hurt you in more ways then one than the next day take you out but glare at you. They tell you not to keep secrets but they do too. Then to go to school and get called slurs and glared at. Get shoved in the halls. Then told not to do it but it’s the one way out of this hell of a world. This is my choice and I get to do it on my own time
why was it always my fault,everything was my fault until now.i get tired too but why did they hate me?i tried my best to make everything fixed but it just got worse.why is it always me?
20 and already run down by the workforce. I can't even drown my sorrows in the bottle yet, and im supposed to do this for 50 more years? I'd rather let my body rot from the inside out. but then again, I'm just tired right now. I'll be back at work in 11 hours. why does the world keep spinning while I wallow in a bed I don't even own working for a company thatd rather watch me die than have an ounce of compassion. waiting months on a psychiatrist waitlist only to mix up the appointment dates and wait even longer. it all feels fake
"Dont go yet. If you go then who will the bugs see in the morning, who will the strays run to, who will be there to greet the stars before bed. If you go then...who will be here to say goodbye to me. Please dont go. Dont, dont do that."
Hey.. wait.. Where are you going? No.. Come back.. You can't leave me like that... At least give me some warning.. I loved you. You were my favorite person. what will I do now that you're gone? I need you here.. Please come back. I miss you, S.
On the path through the corn fields, late at night when the fireflies were kissing the skies with tender lips and soft, glittering bodies, I ran into a stray dog. I fed it scraps from my lunchbox, watching the skittish, trembling way it ate from my tiny hands. The terror in its eyes was a,most as overwhelming as the hope - the wounded pride of a broken animal waiting for a hand to caress without an aftertaste of pain. Of course, my mom punished me for giving away food I knew we couldn’t spare. It was a punishable offence to help the stray - it was wrong to love something if it deemed unlovable by someone else. Scars were enough reason to turn away a starving creature. Loving you is a desperate, tragic thing. You’re littered with more scars than I know how to deal with - all inflicted by a hand God never gave me. The bible says to forgive, the word of mouth says to reject. Is it holier to extend a hand to a stray or to punish it for wanting more than life decided it deserved? Is wanting to be loved a sin in and of itself? Does pathetic, trembling, slow-breathed desire equate to gluttony? You stumbled into my life a starving thing, seeking scraps I didn’t have to give. Who’s sin is it if I feed you pieces of myself to supplement your hunger? Yours for being hungry, or mine, for knowingly giving away what I can’t survive without? My hubris, your need. Your desperation, my saviour complex. Am I the portrait of a God, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune? Am I the portrait of a devil, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune? All of me blurs with all of you. Maybe feeding you is the sin of gluttony - maybe that’s how conjoined we’ve become, that feeding you is feeding me. That feeding you is stuffing myself overfull with my own flesh.
~ Timestamps ~
0:00 - 3:46 Radiohead "No Surprises"
3:47 - 7:35 Mac DeMarco "Chamber Of Reflection"
7:36 - 9:38 Eyedress "Jealous"
9:39 - 14:23 Cigaretes After Sex "Apocalypse"
14:23 - 19:36 Cigaretes After Sex "K."
19:36 - 24:09 Memo Boy "Insomniac" (slowed)
24:10 - 28:24 Grimes "Genesis"
28:25 - 31:16 Doja Cat "4 Morant"
31:17 - 33:59 Salvia Palth "I Was All Over Her"
33:59 - 37:14 TV Girl "Cigaretes Out The Window"
37:14 - 39:09 øneheart x reidenshi "snowfall"
39:09 - 42:47 Guti "Girl Of My Dreams"
Why am I the only one who didn't know that doja cat made 4 morant😞💀
@@Bleoblep Because she didn't. It's by Com Truise
Ohhhh is it a cover? Or collab? @@Starsickles
@@Bleoblep No, Idk why OP said it was by Doja Cat, she's not even on the list of collaborators or lyricists 🥲
@@Starsickles ohh?? Huh.
"No. Dont do that."
I wish I listened.
I hope you're doing better now
i like how this isn't some "you are done with everything" or "songs to cry yourself to sleep too", it's just a stern "don't do it."...like...why do i love it
ur slow... why do you love it? you just said it 💀💀💀 "Just a stern..." cause it's being blunt
@@valery-sp9hb you woke up today and chose violence
Rottmnt Donnie pfp spotted HELLOOOOOO
It kind of makes me feel hopeful
HELLO@@rschl1917
I’m just casually rocking back and forth to this while venting to an ai. If that doesn’t tell you more about me than my parents know, I don’t know what does!
That's true tho I just vent to a dang ai
Now the real question is do y’all vent to therapist ai or comfort characters ai?
@@MackPackPLAYZ therapist? Never heard of that but comfort characters are my only escape from life it self.
@@MackPackPLAYZ THE COMFORT CHARACTERS. I COULD NEVER WITH THE THERAPIST ONES 🙋♀
@@GentleBearDreamyStarBoy IT HELPS THO
It touched me that people were comforting each other anonymously. When you are alone like this, turn your head to the sky and smile by looking at the moon that shines inside you...
"no! dont take this away from me! im finally found myself you cant do that!"
this.
I started the playlist and I know what music you said.. I'm only at the first, I love the music you said.. ^^ "that's not fair"...
Damm...
when you realize that how your parents treat you isn't normal:
dayum i feel bad
Grow up and be a better parent,ik you can
Just realized that today
@@mhm6ure thats what im gonna do, i wouldnt be able to live with my self if i turned out like them
@@EXCYTL all that im saying is that if you dont want a kid, then dont have a kid. dont feel pressured to have a kid if you dont want to have one. if you do then thats great, if you dont then thats also perfectly fine. if you are a kid and you feel like your parent doesnt want to then thats a terrible feeling
ive been told it gets better, and i say the same to everyone else who is struggling around me because im sure it does. but just for them. it has been over 5 years, im getting worse and worse, my family is fine, we have ups and down, my friends are perfectly fine, im there for them. i know exactly what i need to do to get better, but i cant bring myself to do so. i cant bring myself to stop my addiction, i cant bring myself to distract myself from thoughts. i let it happen, its like i dont even care anymore.
Ik that feeling,and i belive in that too.it will get better bro,but you have to change things in your life.if you dont know how,find someone who will help you.there is always someone who can help and who will if you ask for it,ik its hard bro,and 5 years is long period,but everything can change if you really want to change things.find someone who can make you happy just with their presence,who will love you and who will be there for you.there is always someone.right person can change everything.try to do what you need to get better,you have to,ik its hard but you have to.it will get better bro.ik you get that a lot but it will,im sure,i cant help more,i wish i could,but bro,i belive in you
It's not that it gets better, it's that it *can* be better. Sometimes you never really *get* better, sometimes you literally can't. But what you can is make things slightly better, bit by bit, any kind of progress is progress. But nothing will change if you don't do anything, you know what to do, now you need to apply it, it's a bit rough but it's the truth and I'm sure you know it as well. I seriously believe in you dude, it's super hard, but it's possible. Ngl what helped me on my "healing journey"' (idk what to call it) was to stop listening to sad songs. It sounds dumb but it helped me more than I thought it would, not saying you should listen to insanely happy music, but more neutral stuff like orchestras, jazz etc are pretty cool!
Anyway, good luck. Again, it's tough, but progress is possible, start with something tiny, look at the smaller picture. I wish you only the best
I got this feeling too, but i sadly keep falling downhill 13 years on self hate, but my familly help to keep me going. Until the day i got broken emotionnaly i am now not the same anymore, my dream is getting crushed, i dreamt of being youtuber but my familly dont support me, saying its a hobby and that i should do something else, im getting sick of it mentally and on the edge of breakdown
If you keep saying you can’t, then you’re going to end up being right. If we’re all being honest with ourselves, we all know motivational speeches or words from someone else won’t change our habits and feelings. If you’re choosing to stay that way because you simply don’t think it’s ever going to be possible for you to ever fix things, then you’ll never try. That’s the cold hard truth, you’re the one that needs to put in the effort to make a difference in how you’re feeling now. It’s easy to look back and regret things as compared to looking at your problems and actually making the efforts to fix them. I just want you to think about how much time you truly have everyday. Do you want to use that time in regret, or would you rather use that time to truly change something in the world? Change doesn’t have to be huge, your experiences and the way your feeling gives you so much perspective that you could use to save someone else someday, give them the inspiration you wish you had. Change them before they can gather the same regrets you have now. I do truly believe every last person in this world can fix the things they hate about themselves, all it takes is some effort and a little bit of determination to be able to get there. You just have to try. I’m speaking from experience, obviously I don’t know your exact situation, but nothing is permanent. Make the change now, you’ll thank yourself later. Trust me.
The fact you can tell strangers on the Internet this, is proof enough that you DO care. SOMETHING in you is screaming loud enough to be heard in the cacophony of negativity. It's easier than you'd think to get help. All it is is one step.
I know it's hard, taking that step. But you can't give in.
At the end of the day, I can't stop you from doing anything.
But I CAN Hope. and I hope you can too, eventually.
I care.
This is nice, if I had headphones I'd listen to this when I walk alone in the rain!
not in a depressing way. I just genuinely enjoy walking alone, especially if it's raining, nice and quite you know?
Frrrr I getchu I getchu, if you skate I'd 100% recommend skating to this in the rain too jus stay safe
That sounds wonderful. If you ever do so, I hope you have a good time :]
I can't thank the algorithm enough for letting me find this. I was genuinely on the brink of doing something really, really stupid. Stay strong, everyone. it'll get better.
Glad you're still here mane, I want you to know as well that it does gets better trust me, but jus remember ya gotta work on some things by yourself sumtimes too, yknow what I mean , much love n stay strong g 🤙
"no bro, like.. what if, i actually dont deserve being all this happy. what if, its all fake??" #1 thing i say unintentionally to my friends
I don't talk about my feelings because I don't know how they'll react.
I don't sh because I don't want them to worry
I think I'm a monster, but they treat me like I'm pure.
I feel like I can't talk to my family, so they step in.
I stayed because of them.
I hate my life, but I know my friends need me.
I'm here for you if you need it ❤
@@Corpse_Consumer Thank you ❤🩹
@hannahlannah8779 no problem! If you want (if not that's fine) we can talk privately. If you want to/need to
I really understand you... and I would like to ask you to enjoy every moment, not paying attention to the negative aspects, just live FOR YOUR PLEASURE 🩹❤️🩹
@@hannahlannah8779 of course ❤️❤️
Here, if your sibling(s) (or if you don't have a sibling and really need one) make you upset or you just need a hug from them, here's one from me. I can take that place for now ^_^ )>
🤕 Don't do this to me, man.😭
@@MYRNAyaBOY sorry for the late response, but unfortunately.. I have... And I won't take it back !!
Thank you :)
@@pufferfish819 You're quite welcome :]
Really needed this, thank you.
I should stop hiding my feelings ngl lmaooo
Bro you should,even if you think no one cares about you,there is always someone who will listen and who loves you
100% stop hiding them bro, but don't express them in a violent way, I don't know your situation but I believe in you maneee🤙
I was lowkey not hiding mine anymore, and my fav teacher was comforting me earlier in text:) I suggest you should stop hiding it.
I'm here for youu :(
When I was in 7th grade I had most of these songs in my playlist,I would listen to them while I waited for my bus after climbing out of my window because my door was blocked by trash,food,mold,dirty clothes,art stuff, and coke cans. Eventually I wouldn’t get out of bed to go to should and would sleep all day and wake up to a subway sub on my bed from my mom at 8pm before she went to work. I was kicked out of school and rotted in my bed for 9 months before I was sent to a hospital and went to live with my dad. These songs were my life, and I hated living it.
dang bro hope ur doing better if u need to talk im here for ya
Wow..13k+ people that feel just as empty as me?
Just remember that you’re never alone and if you ever feel sad people do care for you clearly they do cause I’m taking my time commenting this so you’re not alone we can all be a big mess together ❤
I guess so.
Vent (?)
One day my family kept making me feel like garbage during a meal at a restaurant. I went to the bathroom to calm down. I hit the walls and stomped on the floor, pouring out all the rage. I felt bad after doing that. Like a little girl having a tantrum. And when I left my family continued to be as cruel as before. Sometimes I wonder what they would say if they knew how much their words hurt.
its gotten to a point i dont want anyones comfort or support or them saying if im okay. i just need a hug and someone to be by my side. i dont want to talk about it, i just want people to be here. with no talking. im so fucking done with this life and i dont know where to go or who to trust. i just.. want love for fucks sake. younger me couldnt get it, and i cant either.. i promised myself i'd be better.. now im a fucking loser who doesnt do anything but be on my internet and be a asshole. im.. failing my younger self. what the fuck is wrong with me..
it's gonna be all right 😊❤️🩹
💕💕@@aubreevalentin225
I'll give you internet hugs. We don't have to interact, I just want you to have my virtual hug
i relate to you sm. i wish i could hug you 💗.
Good song to sleep and cry to, who knows which I'll do tonight! :3
People always say “oh it will get better!” Of just downright don’t believe me at all... I am clinically diagnosed with Depression, and it hasn’t gotten any better for god, i don’t even know how long. I just am tired of everything, feeling like i am nothing and won’t matter. Like no one really cares abt me, and won’t ever. I feel like i would just be better off gone... but then if i am gone, then people would worry, and that stresses me out. I am a massive people pleaser, people come before me. I just hate how i am treated. I hate my life, the way it is. I wish i could go back to being happy, but hell, that is impossible now.I hate my life. I hate me.
4:50 «alone nugget...»
Real💔
every time i get better and better but then everything goes bad again over and over either its my friends or family or school or anything it somehow gets to this point in some way sometimes it only lasts for a day but sometimes it lasts for months i dont know what to do other than type in a youtube comment section cause if i vent to my friends theyll think im a baby or make fun of me and when i vent to my family i dont know what to say and it gets awkward cause my family and my friends have a weird connection or they just dont like them and if i vent on my tiktok people just make fun of me, say womp womp or flat out dont give any help or anything. sorry to whoever read this and thanks for reading.
Dear to all those beautiful people out there.
I'm dealing with a friend. One that is in a terrible home. But they refuse to go and get them out, I have so so much evidence. The nurse and social worker at my school know, they called them down to ask about it. It didn't work. And before that and after that I am a unpaid, unlicensed, neurodivergent therapist. So I'm terrible with getting schoolwork done on time, I stress about that, I stress about answering to my friend on time, i stress about keeping my identity away from my parents, I stress about writing, I stress about too many things. I have younger siblings who weren't raised like me, so they act differently, more dependent and extroverted. They're picky and ask for a lot of things. I sit there, content with my little things, I don't need much to be content enough. But I'm confused as to why they aren't held to the same standards as I was and am. But I'm the oldest, I'm the one who's to take care of the others. But some days everything is too much, the needy touches of my friend is too much, their scarred, sweaty fingers feel uncomfortable in my hand. The touches of even brushing shoulders make me want to punch someone who even touches me. I was so pent up that when I got something wrong in German class I cried. The near everyday stressing about my friend and being trauma dumped onto constantly by one person is already too much. Some days I want to ghost them, watch my CZcams and play my game without answering. I want to trauma dump back. But I won't, and I most likely won't. I did it once to prove a point in a argumentative discussion with them. It felt good. But it was just me degrading myself to the level they do it. They need help. I probably do too, but unlike them, I can't dump it onto another. My other friends a little too far, my parents will be even more concerned and encourage me to leave my friend be. I vented once, on a google doc I sent to a group chat of mine. Some days I want to cut open my skin, to cut off my chest, to cut away my chub, to banish away all my little problems. I want to tell my parents of my identity, but my family had left Mormonism a bit ago, they were against the NB identity. So I wonder their stance now, I want to tell them, but I won't. I'm emotionally exhausted, couple that with my own terrible ability to feel my emotions and you get a tired, entirely too young to deal with a too problemed friend, too worried about life, teen.
I'm tearing up as it nears midnight. So this is goodbye and goodnight. Sorry for venting, I can only do it here.
Omg. Don't be sorry. Just remember you're not alone. I know it sounds like complete bullshit but I guarantee you that I've felt the same. I suggest getting out more. That's the only way I escaped. To be honest, don't tell a therapist or a professional about this unless you don't mind going to a psych ward. You could always tell a trusted friend or character a.i. I dunno if my advice is helpful at all this is just what I do and my life has been getting a bit better ever since. Even if you don't have anyone you could talk about it to people online or just character a.i. I hope you get better soon, I really mean that.
im too weak for all this, wish i was better
cried my eyes out. good playlist. vented my frustrations to a friend about life and i feel the same
This is an amazing playlist. It really helped me just like (scream n cry) destress and stuff. ❤❤
I dont really know anymore. I dont want to see my family, i dont want to hang out with my friends, i dont even want to be on my phone. I dont want to go outside or be inside. All i want is to sleep, write and listen to sad music. I want to sleep forever, but im never tired enough. I want to eat, but im not hungry enough. I dont want anyone to comfort me, because i dont feel noone cares enough to listen. Nobody gets my ideas and views on the world. I tried speaking to therapist, but it just wont help me. At this point i have given up, my parent screams at me for every small thing, my brother and sister do whatever it takes to make me cry, and at the end its my fault im a 'disappointment'. Im scared of my family, my brother sometimes does things to me that i hate i know he is only 8 and doesnt know what s*xual abuse is, but i just cand stand it. And my mom acts like she saw nothing and tells me to stop being a stupid b1tch. I wish my father was here, but no, he has a lover, he left when i was 5, my grandparents all died and my other realtives are denied acces to us. I dont blame my mother for being like that. Probably if i was actually useful, i could help her, but no. Everytime im proud of myself, my family bullies me. Im doing terrible at school. I honestly feel like commiting, but im scared what my family and classmates will do to me, how all of them will bully me if i failed. I only find comfort in my devices, and im not allowed to use them over 30 minutes a day. I feel like commiting
Thanks for reading this❤
Hello! I relate to you a lot and I promise you that it does get better. It WILL be a matter of years, shitty, long years which you will never get back, but I promise. I honestly promise that even if the feeling will linger, there WILL be moments that will make you feel like it was worth it to stay alive for this long. If we are being realistic, nobody ever gets truly well, and nobody can expect every morning to be a joy to wake up to, but there will be bright times again. There will be good times again. I myself am not well yet, either, but I consider myself to be more stabile in my trashy position than I was years ago: If you can, find things to be passionate about, as passion is the only grip you always have. Be it a subject in school, or a hobby, whatever. Something Write, or if you're afraid they'll find it just lay back and worldbuild, tell the stories you want, CREATE something! They might be able to control your screen time, or where you can go physically, but they cannot control your mind. Allow yourself to wander around mentally, and physically too if possible, but the first one is more important. Take control of everything you can. I do not wish to sound as if I wanted to lecture you on survival, but reading your comment made me feel empathy on a level that I couldn't imagine just a comment could make me feel. I care. It doesn't matter, or in the slightest help that I do, I know, but I care. Please stay alive. Someday, someplace it might as well just be worth it.
@@farlander1302 Tysm my friend ♥ This really made me feel better, and i deeply hope whatever is up with you also gets better. You are right, life will never be perfect, but as long as there are people like you, willing to comfort a random stranger on the internet, its still worth living
@@EngagethedarknessFearthelightFrom reading what you said and how you write I can already tell you’re a pretty awesome person. Keep pushing ahead, I guarantee you’ll become a strong person people will look up to. We all believe in you
We all share the same feelings sometimes or most of the time... What do you say, let's be friends?
If you are reading this just know that I’m proud of you keep going never give up no matter what because I care about you keep pushing I know it might be hard but soon hopefully if you keep pushing you will get better even if you think it’s impossible just try okay I love you. Take care of yourself you are pretty and amazing
Its gone to the point where I feel uncomfortable or embarrassed when people comfort me...or even making myself feel happy around others..its all so weird
They way it said “no don’t do that” made me cry…..
My boyfriend just told me “it’s just a high school relationship” and it just shattered my heart, because no it’s not…it’s the only thing in this life that I have right now; my mom is in jail and I really fuck¡ng need her back, I’m having to live with my dad and have him tell me what I can and can’t do have him tell me that I need a job 24/7 how I need to clean and work and live, and I think I’m losing my best friend she never asks to hang out anymore or even talks to me she acknowledges me at school but has just stopped trying i guess or I just stopped texting her which causes her to stop texting me because who even wants to talk to someone that’s such a huge fuck¡ng loser like me, and on top of everything my dad and stepmom are getting a divorce which is hard on me bc she is the only mom I have right now and I’m not close enough to even talk about this to her. My boyfriend is the only thing I have left right now and I don’t want him to call me a “high school relationship” I really need him, just to be here.
Hi there, I understand your situation even tho I don't have a similar one. Me and my beloved don't talk much either now, but it should get better. Maybe I'm thinking irrationally, but I have to stay strong, because who else if not me. Only when I have such thoughts does everything become better, when I control everything. I wanna tell you that I love you and don't despair until the goal is achieved
When you realize no matter what you do, you'll never be taken seriously.
Clicked on this video cuz it was telling me what to do, only to like the playlist cuz yes.
No surprises always has it's way to get to my sentimental core in one sense or another
Omg I feel you so much on this lol.
maybe someday I'll start pouring out my soul in the comments on CZcams. Maybe I'll even let you get under my skin.. But for now, I'm enjoying this playlist.
todays my birthday, im turning 11, even if im young, i just wanna disappear. this playlist is my comfort. its still crazy how the internet knows me better than real life friends. :c ..
Bruh i feel so bad, im sorry , and ik im late, but happy birthday lil bro
I find it real interesting that i find this playlist after i just had overwhelming urges to relapse
I did not relapse btw
I was looking for a playlist to relax to and came upon this! Overall my favorite light hearted playlist :)
i was about to go grovelling back to my ex, who i’m in no contact with. i opened youtube to get some sad tunes going while i write some big ass apology begging them to take me back. i open youtube, see this in my recommend. look at the title and i figured it was a sign. anyway, 10/10 playlist, thanks universe for telling me not to go back.
Im suprised how much easier it is for people on the internet to understand me compared to my parents. Social anxiety has really been affecting me lately and im starting to be depressed, and it feels like it has gotten out of my control, time to thug it out until i cant anymore
good job eh, good taste. thank you
I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS PLAYLIST OMFG literally helped me cry after 3 months finally!!!
Is it me, or is the world losing its colors? Like, the longer we live, the more depressed we become... Although I tell myself that this feeling is fleeting, but deep down it just keeps coming back, I just feel empty now....
This is great, thanks for making this :D
Anything
I hope you guys are doing okay, you got this!
*if it happens, how it happens, IT happens… and I can’t stop it.*
thanks
thank you
Whenever i sees people who are around me doing better than me. Working harder than me putting more efforts, i always questions am i enough. Am i struggling enough to get what they desire. Cuz in a competition all the participants desire one thing. There are always people better than me but also people worse than me. They are struggling more than me in a wrong and hurting way. So i just realise that just like positive amd negative charge equalises each other and lefts behind nothing, in my life those two kind of people equalises each other and leaves behind me and me alone. I am the only one left behind and theres no one to compare with.
THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS HELPED MEE SO MUCHH YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRICIATE IT KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!!1!11!!
Anything
@@mhm6ure yessirr
@@darainbowwolf Deal bro,but idk when,my dad took my phone💔
@@mhm6ure oh dang. Hope you get it back soon!
@@darainbowwolf MY DAD GAVE IT BACK TO ME🔥
Damn glad I found this. Hits hard
Hey. Hru?
The feeling of hopelessness can be crippling, as if you're stuck in a dark pit with no way out. It's the kind of feeling that can make you cry until you have no tears left. The weight of the world seems to be on your shoulders, and you're not sure if you can keep going. The thought of losing everything you hold dear is enough to make you want to scream in frustration and agony. It's as if the universe is conspiring against you, and you're powerless to fight back. You might feel like you're drowning in a sea of sadness and despair, with no one to turn to for help, and no way to escape the pain. It's okay to cry and to let your emotions out. But remember that even in the darkest of moments, there is always a glimmer of hope. Hold on to that hope, no matter how small, and keep fighting. You are stronger than you realize, and you will find a way to overcome this.
/e unalive.
if only it was that easy :(
Nah you gotta use admin ;kill me
@@DigitizedGalaxyAlt Ohhh! No wonder why it didnt work.
@@catnip_wcue yeah, guess we gotta get admin
F in the Chat for ppl
That Did not found it :(
If i scraped my knee, I don't think i could even bleed anymore. I've used it all up on tears
There is nothing wrong with my life. I got good parents, enough friends, nice brothers, good grades, a bed, food, some basic hygiene and an okay place to live at. There is nothing wrong with my life.
There shouldn't be. I've got more than so many people out there who have nothing.
But why do I feel like there is something that is missing, it's just a little.. something. It faintly itches the far back of my heart. Like a small and ever so thin leash. The leash isn't tight, it's loose and not really harsh, it's just keeping my heart away from .. something. Maybe it isn't happiness that I seek. It's just that something is amiss, maybe this is my "happy" state, maybe this is me being happy and maybe this is my happiness and how happy I can get.
I have everything I need to be happy, but why..why am I not?
I ain’t even sad I just like the songs 💅
This is so me🙏🏿
i love this playlist more than i love myself
OI YOU- Yes you, I thought i'd tell you something.....
I love your smile
I love your laugh
I love your personality
I love your hair (or lack thereof)
I love your insecurities
I love your accomplishments
I love your failures
I love your eyes
I love your beauty
I love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
I love the way you dance
I love you on your happy days
I love you on your sad days
I love you on the days you feel lonely
I love you on the days you feel helpless
I love you on the days you feel like no one cares
I love you on the days you feel forgotten
I love you on the days you feel unmotivated
I love you on the days you feel loved
I love you on the days you feel sick
I love you on the days you feel motivated
I love you on the days you feel depressed
I love you on the days you feel stresses
I love you on the days you feel crazy
I love you on the days you feel hopeful
I love you on the days you feel cuddly
I love you on the days you feel clingy
I love you on the days you feel amazing
I love you on the days you feel beautiful
I love you on the days you feel like a failure
I love you on the days you feel angry
I love you on the days you feel aggressive
I love you on the days you feel horrible
I love you on the days you feel safe
I love you on the days you feel unsafe
I love you on the days you feel vulnerable
I love you on the days you feel weird
I love you on the days you feel ok
I love you when you're healthy
I love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
I love your taste in music
I love your taste in movies
I love your taste in tv shows
I love the way you move
I love the way you act
I love you when you cry
I love you when you're kind
I love you when you're mean
I love you when you're alone
I love you when you can't feel
I love you when you feel too much
I love you when you can't take life anymore
I love you when you feel like it's too much
I love you when you're asleep
I love you when you have nightmares
I love you when you have dreams
I love how you believe
I love you when you believe in yourself
I love you when you don't believe in yourself
I love you when you hate yourself
I love you when you love yourself
I love the way you think
I love you problems
I love your solutions
I love how you support
I love you when you're in pain
I love you when you're hurt
I love your promises
I love your secrets
I love your attitude
I love you sass
I love your creativity
I love your voice (or lack thereof)
I love you hand gestures
I love your stories
I love your wounds
I love your scars
I love your face
I love your past
I love your future
I love your present
I love your outfits
I love your style
I love your art
I love your honesty
I love you when you lie
I love you when you're tired
I love you when you're energetic
I love how you look
I love how you cook
I love you when you're adventurous
I love you when you're scared
I love your imperfections
I love your perfections
I love you when you worry
I love you when you talk (or communicate)
I love your opinions
I love you when you have a headache
I love you when you have a stomach ache
I love you when you help others
I love you when you need help
I love you when you're mature
I love you when you're immature
I love you in the hard times
I love you in the easy times
I love you when life is meh
I love you when you're responsible
I love you when you're irresponsible
I love you when you fight
I love you in your darkest moments
I love you in your brightest moments
I love your heart
I love you in the day
I love you in the night
I love you at midnight
I love you at 3 am
I love you at all times
I love you at your best
I love you at your worst
I love the little things you do
I love all of you
I love you when you're you
I love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you
I hope I listen this time.
The amount of attempts I took is higher than my age
I just want to be held by the one person i love. But hes states away and theres only so much pillows and weighted blankets can do.
I just want to be hugged and loved by him
I just feel like at this point my personality isn't even mine it's just my way of simulating what everyone else wants me to be. My whole life it's never felt like I'm me I don't even know who I am and it bothers me. I feel like I should know by now but I don't I feel so lost and it hurts.
I just need her.
But its midnight.
And I can't visit her.
No, I can't sneak out.
I'd feel to guilty.
But I need her.
Yes, you need her, but you can't have her right now.
Why?
Because its midnight.
I need her.
Right now.
- 💙
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your Favorite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone like you.
75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships.
76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person.
77. Joy and happiness in the little things.
78. The power to inspire others.
79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression.
80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life.
81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet.
82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family.
83. Learn new things and develop new skills.
84. Create a legacy that will outlive you.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Cuddles
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
it hurts
i dont know what hurts, it just hurts.
My mom and dad are in another country right now for my mom’s surgery. I have a really great relationship with them and they know I sh, so before they left I swore to them I’d be safe while they were gone. I have to keep that promise, I have to, please, or I don’t think I could ever trust myself again.
You will, dont worry
@@mhm6ure hey, guess what, i did! they came back this morning :)
@@MONARCH_FLIES Congratulations, im so proud of you😭🫶🏿
I see Mac Demarco and Eyedress, I click.
It hurts to let go, but it hurts more to hold on.
I keep hearing "Itll get better" and ive lost hope in it however i have a diffrent fraze
"itll get easier"
you learn to grow around hurt, youll grow around grief, It will get easier.
i dont think i can ever love again after losing him.
what is that feeling. it feels so cold but burns so bright. am i alone. do i hate it. do i hate being alone or have i always wanted such privacy. i feel secure but no hands are holding me. no one can see me cry. does it all end up the same when ur alone.
2 years. 2 years of being clean, down the toilet on April 26th 2024. And I can't stop. This is exhausting. I'm sorry.
I'm not sh rn...
we know that I am...
I can't achieve my dreams nor my happines but mayde I'll get lucky with this one wish. I need an online friend, someone that I could always talk to and someone that likes the same things as me. Maybe one day I could intoduce them to my culture and meet them. But only maybe and only when we really know each other. For now I just need to see that it's possible for me to achieve even this one thing. I know this text was long and you might not want to read it but if I'll really achieve it like this, it's totally worth it.
In the comments we are never alone
I'll try and convince myself that he loved me or what he did was an accident or he didn't mean it, the memories hurts less when I do
Does anyone know if it's normal for your friends to hang out with each other without inviting you and then talk about it to you??? My best friend did that to me the other week, and I'm neurodivergent so I have a hard time picking up on social cues, so I was like "wtf is this normal" but didn't say anything since she's a great person and I'd hate to ruin our friendship over a mistake in translation
She's your bsf, but you're probably not her bsf, but maybe you misunderstood, maybe they weren't talking about you, but if youre sure they said smth, and she just agreed with them, behind your back, you should talk with her, and if she gets mad at you and starts defending them(she didn't defend you), i mean you probably understand what i want to say, i hope you do, and im sorry for that, i hope shell stop with that and if she doesn't, i hope youll find better friends(if you want ofc), again, im sorry for that
"No, dont do that!" She Laughed as her friend was poking her nonstop
"No!....Dont do that...." Her voice was a low whisper as her friend was about to jump
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im taking this as a sign that i shouldnt ask my ex out. i was thinking about it, and this was the next video to come up, so i guess the universe spoke
remember that you will never find someone two times, even in the same person. sometimes a break up is for good! stay positive
i know this sounds really stupid but i just loved him sm
It's April 24th 2024 and right now it's 3:56 am, I'm on a call with the love of my life, crying, she's sleeping and doesn't know how I feel about the world, my mother told me I'm not normal, I scared her earlier with one of the dreams I had, I told her about it and now she's nervous, My sister hates me, I never see my father anymore, were tight with money, and my own mom wants to die, I've tried to hang myself but then thought about how it will effect everyone, my mom won't last a day without me watching my siblings while she goes drinking, I hate my life, I just want to be free, but no I'm stuck here struggling, punching walls, crying all night, journaling because I can't tell anyone anything.
Life is already hard enough, don't fuck up other people's lives.
Ok papi, im sorry y'all, please forgive me🙏🏿
Sometimes, I want to do it. Just wanna die. I just don't have anyone to talk about my feelings, even if this "happy friend" who is always smiling and comforting others.
I'm always making fun of my feelings because my family does, but my feelings are real.
Remember, smiling and laughing with your friends or family doesn't mean you don't need to talk about your feelings. ♡ take care of yourself, because I care about you, and I will always do. So please don't do it.❤
Please can you make this into a spotify playlist
I want to but idk how😭
❤
Jester, i dont know what to say dont do this to me.... Last words to her
im gonna vent here, i opened up my yt to listen to music bc lately i feel like my bestfriends are ignoring me. it really hurts but idk how to bring it up to them and im scared im just overreacting. i feel like its a misunderstanding bc there was one time at school where they were trying to talk to me and i just didnt have any social battery and i also felt sick that day so i wasnt very verbal when the approached. this was where they started hanging out with just each other and yk i dont mind that, i just feel left out bc they talk abt it in our gc (theres only three of us there like they could just dm) and now i just,,, don't know what to do tbh. im sick of always being the replaceable friend in the trio, i wish i could feel tht they care about me the same way i do to them...
If it's upsetting you then it's not an overreaction, maybe talk to them about how you feel left out, or if your not comfortable with talking to them then maybe try making plans with them and if they ignore you then maybe it's best if you distance yourself from them, I'm sorry if you find anything I said rude, I just get how hard it is feeling left out and sometimes it's best to let them go, I hope this helps you :]
Having to live in a world where your family will treat you like shit and hurt you in more ways then one than the next day take you out but glare at you. They tell you not to keep secrets but they do too. Then to go to school and get called slurs and glared at. Get shoved in the halls. Then told not to do it but it’s the one way out of this hell of a world. This is my choice and I get to do it on my own time
Chambea hasta la reflexion, esa si me llego al alma :,v
why was it always my fault,everything was my fault until now.i get tired too but why did they hate me?i tried my best to make everything fixed but it just got worse.why is it always me?
20 and already run down by the workforce. I can't even drown my sorrows in the bottle yet, and im supposed to do this for 50 more years? I'd rather let my body rot from the inside out. but then again, I'm just tired right now. I'll be back at work in 11 hours. why does the world keep spinning while I wallow in a bed I don't even own working for a company thatd rather watch me die than have an ounce of compassion. waiting months on a psychiatrist waitlist only to mix up the appointment dates and wait even longer. it all feels fake
145k views but only 348 subscribers?!
"Dont go yet. If you go then who will the bugs see in the morning, who will the strays run to, who will be there to greet the stars before bed. If you go then...who will be here to say goodbye to me. Please dont go. Dont, dont do that."
Hey.. wait.. Where are you going? No.. Come back.. You can't leave me like that... At least give me some warning.. I loved you. You were my favorite person. what will I do now that you're gone? I need you here.. Please come back. I miss you, S.
u know ur really messed up when your not just listening at night but in the afternoon or morning cause your p@rents made you listen to these more
On the path through the corn fields, late at night when the fireflies were kissing the skies with tender lips and soft, glittering bodies, I ran into a stray dog. I fed it scraps from my lunchbox, watching the skittish, trembling way it ate from my tiny hands.
The terror in its eyes was a,most as overwhelming as the hope - the wounded pride of a broken animal waiting for a hand to caress without an aftertaste of pain.
Of course, my mom punished me for giving away food I knew we couldn’t spare. It was a punishable offence to help the stray - it was wrong to love something if it deemed unlovable by someone else. Scars were enough reason to turn away a starving creature.
Loving you is a desperate, tragic thing. You’re littered with more scars than I know how to deal with - all inflicted by a hand God never gave me. The bible says to forgive, the word of mouth says to reject.
Is it holier to extend a hand to a stray or to punish it for wanting more than life decided it deserved? Is wanting to be loved a sin in and of itself? Does pathetic, trembling, slow-breathed desire equate to gluttony?
You stumbled into my life a starving thing, seeking scraps I didn’t have to give. Who’s sin is it if I feed you pieces of myself to supplement your hunger? Yours for being hungry, or mine, for knowingly giving away what I can’t survive without?
My hubris, your need.
Your desperation, my saviour complex.
Am I the portrait of a God, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune? Am I the portrait of a devil, some pale imitation, lording my false fortune over your blatant misfortune?
All of me blurs with all of you.
Maybe feeding you is the sin of gluttony - maybe that’s how conjoined we’ve become, that feeding you is feeding me. That feeding you is stuffing myself overfull with my own flesh.
122k Views, 5.6k Likes, and you only have 296 subs?.... I Feel The Same *Sob*