FTM Emery 1 Year on Testosterone
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This was so beautiful. I have no words.
Hey Amanda, pleasant to see you here.
Hey Amanda
+AmandasChronicles Amanda is here 7u7
Hi Amanda
+AmandasChronicles i love you
I remember seeing this 10 years ago and wondering why I connected to it so much. Now today I’m 2 months on T and out as a transgender man. ❤
I love you and you're amazing. A national treasure to be guarded at all cost ❤
This was amazing 🥹
I hope things are going well with you.
I spend a lot of time watching people's transitions on CZcams when I'm feeling particularly dysphoric, and I have to say that this is one of my favourites. It's just so...raw, and honest. He doesn't skip over the tough parts or gloss over how long it took for him to move forward (although to be fair, I don't have any idea how long it actually took...just a feeling I got from the video.) Thanks for posting this, Emery. You make me feel much less alone in the world.
I appreciate his help. I'm a lot like this. I could go full transition I may loose people. I have to accept and move on.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. My 13 year-old came out as trans (ftm) a few months ago, and stories like yours give me hope for authenticity and strength in his life. More power to you.
+Joe Kehoe What a sad, ignorant, hateful person you must be. You would make Jesus cry. I'm sorry for you.
Good for you Kristin. Everyone deserves to have a supportive parent. And then theres those assholes that exist like this Joe person...but we should just ignore them because we're just feeding their hate by hating back. As a gay kid i came out 4 years ago. My parents said "it could just be a phase..." Yep 4 years later its a phase oook ya...but im very fortunate that they accept me for who i am. It was simply a disbelief and denial they were going through. But having a parent that accepts you and wants to know more is the best kind of parent :)
+Joe Kehoe The one that is sick here is you
I wish my parents were like you, they don't accept as their son or daughter anymore...
They said that I don't have parents anymore because they don't want me.
+Astronauta I'll adopt you and support you through your transition!
Know it may sound silly but this just made me bawl my eyes out. I have been out for 10 years and finally will be starting T in exactly 27 days. I will finally have a change to really live my life at 33.
Memiorofawonderbody that great, i know im a stranger but i always love you
Memiorofawonderbody i always will.
This will always be one of my favorite autobiographical documentations of someone's transition. It's so beautiful how you expressed just your raw inner thoughts and emotions. Also, as of a week ago, happy four years on T, Emery. I hope you are doing well and I wish you all the best in the world.
Thanks Emmett!!! & Thank you so much for being authentic. It really gives me faith in humanity
emQism No thank you, Emery! You inspired me to document my journey, I only wish I had something more interesting to say haha but if it helps even just one other guy like us out there then it's worth it. Love to you too
I just have to say, I was less focused on your transition and more focused on you. Just you. Don't get me wrong, I think your journey is amazing, but I have to say....fuck that I NEED to say that your just awesome. You are seriously just one of those special people that the world needs to know. Your personality is so lovable and the energy your putting out dude, is so fucking contagious. You are easily one of those people I'm just never going to forget. I'm so happy for you and I wish you the best.
I love how raw and real this is. Like showed the funny parts and the exciting parts along with the sad and dramatic stuff and I think that's great
This is literally the most beautiful FTM video I've seen. It's really well put together. I admire the raw emotions that are put into this video.
this video made me so happy omg its so encouraging to see other people going through this and ending up happier and more comfortable
I feel like that's what's wrong with me, I'm too afraid to talk or be around people, I think I'm not helping my disphoria and I'm making it worse by ignoring it. Like I literally frustrated one day because my bra wasn't washed and all I kept saying to myself that if I were a boy I wouldn't have to deal with that shit.
TheNakedZombie There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you. Though I don't think your bra being dirty has anything to do with it. But maybe it is. It's worth thinking about. Being a girl can be frustrating and annoying, but that has nothing to do with how you feel about your body and societies general view of gender. Were you annoyed because your bra wasn't clean, or were you annoyed because you have to wear one in the first place? You're answer will lead you to your truth.
dude u have no clue how much this video helped me, both in general and in accepting myself . I friggin love you and thank you, thank you for being you and thank you for deciding to make this video.
Yeah me too!
i love you
You are so hilarious. Also, this was pretty much my favorite FtM transition pieces I've seen. The editing was great; very artistic and moving video. Well done.
Love this vid. You look brilliant and the way you light up as time passes is incredible.
Wherever you are right now, whatever you're doing, that you are well and happy and love yourself as much now as you did at the end of this vid. Good luck.
I'm bisexual, and I find you insanely attractive as female and male, like, you are hot either way, anywaaaays... it's good to see you transitioned 'cause you look way happier. Congrats!
karowashere
He’s a boy, call him a boy
karowashere
Sorry for asking you this .. But how can two girls have sex?
"uh.. ms Quincy?" "She don't live here no more" I'm laughing so hard
This is the most inspiring transition I've ever seen. Thank you so much for sharing this! Lots of love
Wow, I'm very impressed. I just started my T hormones a week ago and I can't wait to be where you are. You're a very handsome young man.
***** Thank you, sir. :)
Wah...can u upload ur vid? -
I rarely even she'd a tear but I'm bawling my fucking eyes out.
You're such a humble person and you're so inspiring. I absolutely loved this video.
You have no idea how much this video made me cry .. You have honestly inspired me. There are so many thoughts at the moment of how I want to live my life and what I want to do with myself . But I understand now that im going to do what makes me happy . You are amazing for going threw these rough stages in life and I look up to you .
this video just saved my life.
Very inspiring, I am about to embark on the same journey at the age of 59. I finally have the support I need, thank you for sharing your story, I feel empowered by it..
you are just so inspiring and this makes me real proud of you. i watched this awhile ago before i really understood you and now i'm back and it makes me emotional to see how far you've come. i'll forever be an Emery supporter.
All I can say is wow...and thank you. Not only are you an inspiration to the FTM community, you are an inspiration to everyone everywhere. A friend of mine who is FTM told me about your channel and I decided to check it out...I am so glad I did. This video alone touched my heart and while watching it I couldn't help but shed tears, not bad tears, or sad tears, but tears of amazement and awe at how headstrong and unapologetic you are. If everybody could only see one video, this is the one they need to watch. Thank you for sharing your journey so far, and thank you for opening my eyes to the realization that I should be happy with who I am, what I do, and my choices. It's like the saying goes...if you can't love yourself,how the hell are you going to love other people!
I laughed so hard when you said you were going to call someone "Bjork" if they were going to call you by your birth name xD Keep it up, bro!
Shed a tear, not because of sadness, but because of your courage! Thank you. 🙏❤️
I absolutely loved how u put this video together. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences.
You encourage me so much in my life journey. Thank you so much for posting these wonderful videos. You're awesome. Love you, brother.
This video gets me every time. When I feel like shit, when I feel like just turning around and stop doing what I need to do to be happy, when I start to ignore my own emotions and bury them deep inside me, this video - because it's so real and so raw - makes me feel human again.
I use to do the same! Now I'm over a year and made my own vid....I never thought I'd be here....don't give up xoxo! If you need someone to talk to message me. :-)
7:30 fucked me up.
omfg lmao
I really do want to thank you for posting even the clips where you're down. It helps to see that I'm not the only one who has doubts from time to time
I think you are an incredibly brave man. Doing what you feel like is right for yourself and going against all odds to get there is a hard thing to do. It takes immense trust in yourself and bravery to get there. And I'm so glad to have had the chance to watch you grow and flourish. This video is beautiful, and it has brought me to tears many times over. You are a beautiful soul, and I admire you and all that you've accomplished. ❤
I'm SOOOOO going to do that. If people keep calling me by my birth name, I'm going to call them Bjork. That is GENIUS.
Mi inglés es pésimo así que por eso comento en español. La verdad es que estoy muy orgullosa de lo que lograste. Y me siento muy feliz al verte feliz. Es indescriptible. Simplemente no tengo palabras para expresarme, es que todo es tan hermoso. Así que, felicitaciones!! 💘💘
This is one of the most beautiful videos I have seen in a very long time. You're wonderful.
I absolutely love watching your videos! you talking is just so adorable, and your smile is so precious!
i love this. i love this hole video. its so emotional and beautiful-aethetic in some way and such great music and i do really admire you. it touched me when you sang with your guitar. it was just you being so honest and you have a beautiful singing voice hell yeah man. keep it up, be proud of yourself
I just want to say I think you are amazing!
I have a friend who I went to school with who sadly I don't see as much as I would like to now as they are married and run a business but they went from Female (Aimee) to male (Oliver) and I must admit there are still times even a couple of years on that I accidently call Oliver 'Aimee' or say 'her' instead of 'him' and then I feel really bad but it is purely accidental. When you have known somebody for such a long time with another name it can be hard to adjust your brain's memory but I'm sure he understands that. Everyone has been really supportive of him including his wife and that's how it should be. People should love you for you.
I can't even imagine what it must be like to feel like you are trapped in the wrong body and I fully support anyone going through the transitions.
I hope you feel much better in your skin now.
You are gorgeous inside and out and an inspiration.
Much love, Laura
I'm just starting. pre-everything. and i love this video, it really really helps. thanks so much for posting it. you're amazing and i'm so glad you're happy.
Thank you for everything you have said in this video. I'm starting to think about changing 4 years back but didn't have the courage to speak up, all I had was 'drag king makeovers' and 'how to contour your face into a males', non of them helped that hole in my chest, now that I watched this video I see how happy you are with your results; amazing. I just hope that I can be strong enough, build up self esteem, and be just as happy as you are... You say you don't think your helping anybody by doing this for yourself or by making this video, but in reality you have given me hope that I can achieve a greater place in this world. Thank you so much, you'll remain my idol for the rest of my life
I'm so proud and happy for you! Have fun with your new life :) love and live with no regrets!
broooo you have the best music taste
+Prince L thanks g
+emQism What is your testosterone dosage, how often you take it and which esther is it(Cypionate,Enathanate,Propionate etc)?
+Obvious Lee depo testosterone cypionate .4cc weekly
emQism How much testosterone per ml/cc though? It should say on the bottle. It could be 100-200-250 etc.
@@obviouslee1949 sorry ..... 200..... lol
I love how this video actually documents how it really would be because it shows EVERYTHING. This feels so personal and thank you for sharing. I'm trying to transition mentally and eventually physically AND change my name and things like this always help
This is incredible, I love the way you presented this. It's really inspiring for those of us lost and confused souls out there. Thanks man.
I applaud you,you're courageous,your honesty is absolutely inspiring and I'm sure you give hope to many out there that don't have hope.My husband is trans and we just watched your video together and your journey is incredible.Really thank you for putting your self out there and letting the world and community get a glimpse into your world.We love you too :)
This is the realest thing ever
WOW Emery you're an inspiration to me. Watching your journey has made me hopeful for my own. Thank you for sharing your experience.
This video... I love it. It just- it reminds me that things like this can happen. That people like me, they can become who they want to be. This video really just, lifts my spirits and opens my mind out of a dark box in which I believed that someone like me could never be comfortable with who they are, and this showed it was possible. And emery, you're awesome and I wish you the best of luck in life because you are literally great.
Emery, you're fucking amazing. I really feel like you could edit this a little more and release it as a short film.
hey man I just wanna say thank u for bringing us on your journey and this story and u will always have a place in my heart thanks
thank you so much for this. i am one month today, and being able to be a part of things like this just by watching make me feel so happy and hopeful.
he's seriously so cute i cant even asdfghjkl
You look great!!! congratulations i'm happy for you :D enjoy your new life
Honestly one of the best journeys I have ever seen. I am going through the same exact things in life. You're my hero. You are almost like a mentor. Thank you for sharing. I don't feel so alone.
i really respect you. and I'm so happy for you, this video made me cry and in the end i was smiling like an idiot. you are a true inspiration
10:36 this shit finally starts getting good.
I was gonna ask what was with the depression if thats an effect of the transition but you addressed that. Im glad youre ina better place now.
16:24 HELL YEAH SISTA
You can see your confidence just jump right up at about 10;36/ You are just a completely different person.
Just fyi but your use of the phrase "Hell Yeah Sista" could be triggering
yeah, "SISTA" means girl and i am male, but i do appreciate your well wishes
Its something I say to people regardless of gender, including my male friends. So in that respect, you should take it as a compliment that I thought youd be comfortable enough with your identity that I didnt censor it.
And youre welcome. I do wish you the best.
ah yes i should be grateful that you grant me the same respect? nah. but nice try
Your issue. Not mine. If you want to be a man then why not be a man? I know another female to male, a friend of mine who is so convincing I had no idea he used to be a woman. As a result, I joked around with him like that all the time, calling him a girl and shit (which for the record MOST men joke around with each other like this, so Im surprised youre not used to it and get defensive) he takes it much better than you do. Im very surprised. The fact that youre so upset by this only makes me regard you more as female than male because youre not comfortable enough with yourself to accept yourself wholly as male. However, Im sure you wont understand my point. Because youre not reading what Im saying youre too blinded by your emotions. Like most women, not men. Men have a higher tendency to let things roll off their backs. Your psychology is like that of a woman still not of a mans, thats my point really.
You're very attractive :) mostly I think it's your personality, because it's so genuine and beautiful
Yes I know 😍👏
Congratulations on your transition, this whole video was very moving. Im so very glad to see you bloom into you, and purely you. Now live your life to the best you possibly can.
I was looking for Ftm inspiring stories to show my best friend it's okay to change yourself to be comfortable in your own skin. She's been thinking about it a lot for a few months now and I think this is going to inspire her tons. I love your story this video was amazing and emotional in many ways,you're very strong.(:
You made me cry jerk lol! You're an inspiration!
OMG I would date you and no fucks would be given! You are so beautiful, doesn't matter girl or boy. Thank you for existing and being so strong and amazing.
Thank you for sharing such an intimate journey; my how you've grown during this time. Brought tears to my eyes.... Your Free... Now go enjoy Europe n I hope you'll share that experience too!
God Bless and keep you on your journeys!
Hey man! Just found your channel and watched this video.. Thank you so much!
I'm on T for 60 days and see the changes that happens in 1 year is amazing! Thanks for sharing!
I'm underage and I understand how you said you wasn't happy being a girl, because I am going through that but my family don't want to deal with it and they want to ignore the fact that I want to transition. They just think I'm being irrational and stupid for wanting that for myself. It confuses me even more because ik I'm different and I am afraid to tell my friends at school but I have tried to come out to my family and they brushed it off like it was nothing. It's so hard to be me when I can't because I'm underage and my family doesn't want to be supportive bc it's not in their religion. There are some days where I just like who am I? This isn't the person I want to be, I mean most 17 year old girls worry about their clothes n their boyfriends but I on the other hand worry about trying to become me. I have tried to love my female self and I jus can't because Idk how to explain but I just don't feel happy or myself... Idk if u will read this but I really could use some tips or advice.
Kitty Love I'm not experiencing the same exact thing as you, but I have identity issues. It's hard to explain, but I feel like I don't know who I am as a person. I feel like I have to like what everyone else likes and dress like everyone else etc etc, so I feel like I don't have my own personality or something. Ugh I don't know it's hard to explain....
Kali Miller I actually understand
Kitty Love Hey, I feel the same way except I don't know if I'm wanting to transition. I live in a family full of homophobic people. It hurts to know that even if I like looking like a girl, I wouldn't be able to express that I am attracted to girls than guys. I honestly feel more jealous of guys than attracted and I feel so bad because everytime I feel good about myself, I have to hide my feelings inside, over and over again. I'm 17 too, and I never was "normal" always been different. People don't take me the right way, and I just feel more comfortable looking/dressing like a guy. I mean, the only thing I like whenever I look feminine is my eyelashes when I put mascara on.. That's the only thing.. Guys clothing is easier to shop for than girls.. And I've never been feminine either. Always been tomboyish and I feel confident appearing as a guy... I also got more compliments than I did feminine whenever I looked masculine.. I don't have much advice because I can't express myself much around my family.. I just wanted to tell you, you aren't alone. Stay strong.
+Kitty Love ... hey dude I am so sorry you're dealing with this. if they are still brushing it off, there are things you can do like "oh i didn't realize you were talking to me, everyone is calling me _____." or write them letters. letters are good because you can write them and THEN decide whether or not to give it to them. i don't know where you live but it sounds like you are close enough to being able to decide for yourself what happens to your body and life... tips and advice are always comforting but usually the same; patience, kindness, compassion. Being transgender is a hand of cards nobody cheated for. You can't change being trans you know this I know, but I'm saying that for as long as it took for you to come to terms with, "shit, i am trans" - now they have this brand new information to process. that is the compassion and patience part. try to be kind because you ARE kind. show them that you haven't change in spirit- you also have to have all of these things when it comes to yourself. be kind to yourself by wearing what makes you feel comfortable. have compassion for yourself in that the situation you are faced with is not an easy one. acknowledge that as fuck. if you haven't yet; write about it, paint about it, talk to a camera or a friend about it.... you should really tell at least one friend that you trust... if there really isn't anyone, there are a TON of people on Facebook that are dying to talk to other FTMs in groups on there. You can also ask them for advice as to how you can feel happy during this time. i am an art type of guy so that's what i've got. ily and good luck
Kitty Love i came out to my friends then sisters and then my dad. then last month my mum and step dad. I really want to start T already, but I haven't talked to mum about it.. it's a very busy couple months and they dont use my name yet because my youngest sister doesn't understand
I'm amazed at how fast things changed once you started testosterone. The difference is incredible!
Could hardly control my tears damn...
Wish you the best of everything, you've got my support!
God bless, Emery
Dude, you're seriously amazing and inspirational. Thank you so much for this video.
This is so similar to my journey so far but I'm still pre-T. I went through a very similar progression in gender feeling uncomfortable and just AH WOW. This gives me a lot of hope. Thank you.
Keep it up! Don't give up....it gets better...message me if you feel down or lonely :-)
Thank you for the lovely reply! I have started T now and I'm doing wonderful. I'm sorry I didn't respond until now, but seeing this helped me a lot when I was going through rocky times so thank you once again.
This was beautiful, honey.
I really feel like I felt your journey and soul.
Congrats!
well worth watching for 20 mins! your transformation is amazing and your smile got bigger by the months :)
You inspire me.
you're absolutely beautiful, i'm speechless!:))
Whenever I start to get dysphoric or depressed I watch this video. It really gives me hope and inspires me. You are one of my heroes. You're seriously awesome.
this was probably one of the most inspiring videos i have ever seen. you're a wonderful person. thank you for existing.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
Thanks dude! I appreciate it! I consider myself as male! My coming out is helping but I won't go back!
This is one of my favourite videos on CZcams. Such amazing storytelling. I'm always coming back. 💓
I am 2 days on T and I want to thank you for this video! You're not in this alone with the changes and mental illness that makes us incredibly unique. Stay awesome my friend! From Chicago, just another reborn soul!
I am so jealous of you Emery... I like being a girl but I feel like my life would've been so much better as male... But I would never be able to take the steps you did because I have a really loving family and verrrrry strict religion and doing this would break their hearts. Also i don't think I would make as cute a boy as you do :)
you're perfect emery.
You are so sympathetic and inspiring. Loved the point when you finally could sing again!
This video changed my life. I came out 3 months after this video was posted, and I just started T 3 months ago. Thank you.
I'm a trans FTM but I'm also to scared to do anything about it,, I don't feel normal your video made me cry
+BOOM STYLIST Why are you scared? And what is "normal" anyhow? From what others have described as "normal" sounds fucking boring!
We love you ❤️💚💛💙 The lgbt community will protect u when no one else will :) Dont lose faith 😘
I hope I can be like you someday.
You're such a beautiful person. I'm glad you found happiness! 😙
Congrats, love! 😄
Loved the video. You're an inspiration.
I remember watching this 2 months after it came out and I was 12, now I'm 15 and I still love this video. I'm not thinking about transitioning ever, but I remember when I first watched this for the first time I thought it was just beautiful, and I still think it is! This is my favorite video of someone transitioning. I'm so happy for you! I hope you are doing amazing!
Beautiful girl and such a handsome man !
You are really handsome and brave.This video is really inspiring, not only for transgender people but for people who just want to be who they are. Keep being happy 👍🏽
This made me cry. Thanks for sharing your story. Lots of love!!!
that was the best put together transition video i've ever watched.. congrats you look awesome and much more comfortable annd not too shabby lookin either ;)
UR HANDSOME °O°
u r amazing
This is super inspiring
This was AMAZING!! God bless you!! Thank you for sharing your incredible story with us! I feel so inspired (BTW You're soooo freaking handsome!)
I love this video ooouuccchhh my heart
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You are doing good god bless