What's the most painful thing you've been told?
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"words can be forgiven but never forgotten"
100% true
😞
No not really. I forgive and forget I do remember that there was some painful words or things but I forget what it is
Yes and no you I forget the painful words at times but never forget the hurt
If the makes sense
@@palesa8777 yes i totally understand
When I was 11, I heard my mom on the phone with my step father saying, " I believe you. I choose you. I don't believe my daughter, I believe you." Word for word. Draw your own conclusions as to what it was about.
Your mom is awful, sorry to say it like that but she's wrong. It wasn't your fault, and you most certainly didn't deserve what he did to you.
Nooo that’s so despicable. I am SO sorry you have a mom who didn’t believe you above anyone else. That’s on her, she’s incapable of being a being a good mom. I believe you.
@@aeron_draven 💯 Exactly that too - it would never be your fault, you were a child.
Wth so sad
That must have been so hurtful to hear... it's the reason I kept it to myself for years till now... I think if i heard that .. it's almost like having myself killed twice...🤗🤗🤗
The guy who talked about his depression, that's the thing with depression, it's bad but somehow it becomes your safe and comfortable space, and that's the most dangerous thing about it. I hope he gets better
It's because letting yourself be consumed by it is so much easier than trying to get past it. Spoken from experience. It seems impossible to overcome and it hurts so much to try to explain to other people, that it's almost less painful to just silently deal with it alone. It's a very scary and lonely thing.
Also 🐱💜
How is pain comfortable & safe? Depression is so overwhelmingly painful sometimes you just wanna die to not feel it. I don't understand at all when people say they find comfort in their depression.
@@aimeekelly4121 I on the edge myself! So I don’t know, it’s hard to explain!
@@aimeekelly4121 because once your in it for so long it becomes familiar, and many people are afraid of change. Even if it means good change. So they stick to what's familiar
"The axe forgets but the tree remembers"
wow I really like this quote
The most painful thing anybody has ever told me was you have breast cancer. I was 3 months pregnant.. The doctor said I couldn't keep my baby. Just to let everyone know she's gonna be 15 years old this Friday .. Thank you Thuraya for what you do!
Oh my goodness :’) thank you for sharing!!! Happy birthday to her!
Woah. You and your daughter are so strong! Thank you for sharing your story🙏
Awe
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Thats the most beautiful thing I've heard of all year so far God blessss🙏🏼
the words your parents say to you.... they stick around for a looong time. if you are a parent reading this right now, please know that the smallest actions or words can leave lifetime consequences on your children. please tell your child you love them and are proud of them. *be there* for them. a simple "hey i'm proud of you. keep going" was all i wish i had.
i pray the people in the video can heal. sending love to all of them
Yes! This is so important.
Important!! 💯..i hope atleast people who are going to become parents/ a single parent learns from the mistakes of the past & listen & love their children. Listening is the key to solve many of today's problems.
@@teteisailo1046 yes!! one hundred percent agree
So true. I was told the way I look I'd never find a boyfriend/husband.
One day my father spat right in my face. I will never forgive him.
“You’re not ugly, but you’re not pretty..you’re just...there.”
You are beautiful tho maybe not to that person who clearly has shit for brains but you are beautiful and i hope youll that more often
That is horrible thing to say and hear .. how can someone say that please don’t believe them, everyone is beautiful in there own way, in their own imperfections. I love you, hope you are doing well :)
Tell that pice of SHIT to go get a life. No but seriosly, ur beatiful and no one is perfect i feel the same sometimes and i know it's so wrong
How dare they say that,, absolutely disgusting
“I’m sorry, but your child no longer has a heartbeat”
It’s been almost a year and I still replay those words over again, and then later being asked what I wanted to do with his body..I don’t think I’ll ever fully heal 💔
Praying for you my dear🙏 I hope God ease your pain. sending you tight hugs🙏
Heartbreaking. You are thought of. 💔
Healing prayers in your way , you're strong!❤
I'm so sorry, so incredibly sorry
I lost my daughter at 37 weeks.
That makes me wonder if I have said something so painful to someone, and they still remember it.
That’s what I was thinking. Makes you think how powerful your words really are ..
For you it can be few words too much, gone with the wind but for SOMEONE this would be life turning event.
When i was learning stuff at work. Older girl who's been working there for 3+ years told me something like "Just because you failed once, doesn't mean you can't do it"
and it's stuck with me for a whileeee now, few months? Someone who didn't really know me, gave me a life lesson.
or my younger brother and older cousin kept saying that "I would beat the crap out of anyone trying to hurt my family, family is the most important for me"
that's powerful words right? but after lying about everything, hurting everyone around them with family included.. strong words said few times just go with the wind years after
you never know how IMPACTFUL you will be for anyone else life, the moment you met someone already changed their life in long term.. and every word can do the same
me too!!!! im sad
Me too
@@asz-themoonwalker2771 i needed this, thank you dude
My friend said that I was a pu**y for attempting suicide because of my overwhelming problems and unstable mental health, and not manning up and powering through. Needles to say, he's no longer my friend
I'm so sorry that happened. You deserve so much better then that and I hope you're doing ok now ❤️❤️
@Justine Peterson I completely disagree. He may not have said this in the most subtle way, but he was trying to show you that strength is truly something we all must have. Suicide IS the easy way out, you just didn’t want to hear it
@@DavidRodriguez-gl5pn um no you NEVER understand the extent of what someone's going through. especially mentally. depression tricks your brain into thinking it's the only way. it's not a conscious decision. that is such a f*cked up thing to tell someone. be a decent human being and offer help instead of criticism when you know someone doesn't want to be here anymore.
@@DavidRodriguez-gl5pn calling someone a “p*ssy” for attempting suicide is disgusting in any circumstance along with telling someone to man up/get over it, like you’re telling me that insulting someone instead of having a meaningful conversation is “showing strength”? I have to disagree right there
@Justine Peterson thank you, I'm at a better place now, but I still have a lot of ways to go
My mom has always hated me after my father died. She blamed me for his untimely death. In high school, I left my lunchbox when I was about to go to school so my dad tried to ran after me to catch me on the highway to hand my lunchbox. My father went to his work, did overtime, went home and drank beer and greasy food in the night as usual. He died of heart attack in his sleep. My mom told me I kind of was the reason my father died because of that lunchbox that made my dad stressed. I know it was almost 10 years ago but I was only 12 that time. I now have a regular job and became independent from her but her verbal and mental abuse has already damaged me. I survived suicide at least thrice.
Hi Lev? May God bless you
Im sorry to hear this i hope you want do it again tho and im glad it didnt work and that youre still here stay strong please♡
Continue to survive strong one😎
You are not the reason your Dad died. Your mother is toxic. Please stay away from her.
Stay away from your mom Lev, saying these things to her own child is just brutal. I‘m sorry, that such bullshit had been thrown at you, especially as a young person, who are destined to integrate that without a filter and as the „truth“.
Keep fighting brother, and never never give up on yourself! You are strong, and you DESERVE all the best, have the courage to fight for it & take it 💪
one of the most painful things I have been told was "It's your fault we don't have money cause you got cancer" my husband said that to me. i felt so guilty for our money problems after that.
Holy shit wtf
I hoped you divorced that asshole, he didn't deserve you, and its not your fault you have cancer, I'm so sorry sweetheart🥺
@@hannahroyster9624 Thank you!
@@lilith6105 you're welcome hun!
Hes a dirtbag you didnt ask to be sick it just happened what a turd
Every time you've made a video like this I've always thought: "how would I answer this if you asked me?"
Me too. I have so many answers I wouldn’t know where to start.
@@cathymumper2126 100% relatable
How would you?
@@cathymumper2126 ikr
I even practiced 😛😑
"You seemed smart but actually you're so stupid."
My mom, whom I love the most.
💔 I'm so sorry
I'm sorry, but you deserve better. I cut my mom off and haven't spoken to her in over 3 years, best decision I ever made in my life. Family or not, respect is first and foremost. I only keep people in my life who lift me up, anyone else is unnecessary and is cut out.
I don't know what to tell you.... sometimes parents say really painful things. My dad once told me that>. It was so painful to hear that I cried in my room for a long time. I think you should really have a conversation with your mom about that and tell her what you feel because it can really put a distance or hostility between both of you and I don't wish that to anybody unless you decide by yourself to stop talking to her what is not the best thing I guess. I'm really so sorry for you 💔💔
@@periottt6896 wtff😠😠😠 why would they tell you things like that ????? I can believe it how can your own family members tell you stupidities like that??? What happened ?
Wooooow Terrible!!!!
KM Hemmans The CZcamsr
“I’m not saying your lying but...” my father telling me to get over being raped by his father when I was a small child (3-7) nothing worse than being treated like the broken one where no one gives you a positive affection or love your whole childhood. 30 years old and still working hard to recover from this.
“i think everyone has had that time when having a conversation, entirely silent.”
yes girl damn
I felt that as well
I just wanna hug all of these people.
Same
me too x
I do, too.
thank you
Ur not alone with that trust me
I tell myself the most painful things unfortunately... I struggle with liking myself.
Why?
You can turn it around.
@@Katlady001 I don't feel like I'm great at anything, everyone around me is so much more accomplished and recognized than me. Things that come easy to others are always difficult to me. I have anxiety that gets in the way. Depression is heavy.
I can relate to you a lot. I think it's me who say the most painful things to me. I'm not sure that I have anxiety nor depression but smth definelty wrong with me.
This makes me sad. We can be our own worst enemies. But you are going to be with yourself the rest of your life, so focus on self love before loving others. What makes you happy? Focus on those things, it can be something as small as seeing the sun shining or hearing the birds chirping. If you don't love yourself, then how can anyone else?
It’s crazy how much everyone remembers the little tiny simplest things people have said or done... people remember how you treat them .
also can almost guarantee that on the other side the people who said those things probably dont even think twice about it
Oh gosh the woman with the dog Emmy, so painful. Emmy’s face is so kind.
The most painful thing for me is when you try to express your feelings to someone and you're just being ignored, like you didn't even say something. You know the answer.
same my mom is allways threatining me about simple things like taking her phone or doing something that barely annoys her, and when i express my feelings it always comes out in anger but my mom just laughs it of and says im crazy for shouting like that and she keeps on laughing at me, and my sisters dont help much because im younger than them by 3 yearsso they always like talking to each other but as soon a i enter the room and ask what they are talkking about the stop talking until i get out of the room . when i asked them why they said "because we dont have the same intrests" and it hurt me because tthey didnt even try talking to me to know my intrests in the first place
@@hanah9061 I'm so sorry..
*sending virtual hug *.
Telling my friend at middle school that i am suicidal and they doesn’t care
Oh god I hate that I know exactly what you’re talking about
What I find painful is when someone doesn't agree with an action you have taken or something you have said, not injurious to anyone, just different from what they feel is correct. When you try to explain why you feel the way you do or did what you did because you just want them to understand the why...you get in reply "Stop trying to JUSTIFY your words, acts," etc. Why can we not hear each other out and realize that someone with a different feeling than you doesn't make either of you Right or Wrong? We just sometimes do not agree. And, its OK.
As an Asian girl, the things our dads say are indeed the most painful. I wonder how many people are with me here...
me. as i became more observant and aware, i began hating my dad. i strongly hated him so much that now i forget what love is. asian dads aren't the best sometimes
@@vuxsul1 ikr!
My daughter told me last night she doesn’t like her father, and is afraid of him. He’s not affectionate, he yells all the time, he’s always so angry. He acts just like his father, to be honest.
Same! My dad is literally the reason why I am so suicidal.
He used to have anger issues, but he's more controlling of it now, so it's getting better. But I am still slightly scared to be around him. Sometimes I still think about the stuff he's said to me out of rage...
@@vuxsul1my father is black & he wasn’t a nice to us growing up. 🇨🇦
My boyfriend's mom called me one morning around 1030 and said "Hunny, where are you?
JD was in a car wreck and he didnt make it"
My boyfriend was killed in a headon collision on his way to work.
We had been through so much! We met in college. He was working at his first big job. We lived together. And it all ended, instantly.
I made his coffee that morning. I hugged him and kissed him and we told each other we loved each other, he walked to the door opened it, said "later dude" and that was the last time i saw him alive. That was in 2007
This is one of my worst fears. I wish you the best.❤️
@@gabrielavasquez7395
❤💜💙
Hope you're doing very well now💖
I'm so sorry. So incredibly sorry
I'm so sorry
Me and my mom were having an argument and I was trying to open up to her and I told her about me being depressed and wanting to kill myself and she said "go ahead, it wont matter.... you will be buried, NOBODY WILL MISS YOU" and I remember going in the woods, about to do it and my sister saved me and I truly appreciate her for that and now she is the only person I would give my life for because she was the only one that showed me that she cared. Btw I live with my mother my 3 older brothers and my 2 older sisters, I am the youngest.
I am so sorry for your hurt. Please know it WOULD matter, people WOULD miss you, and how you feel IS important and worth discussing. You are so so loved.
I went through something like this and im so sorry and happy your sister was there to stop you from doing it you are worthy and you are loved
my mom said something similar to me ...its painfull when you think nobody loves you
Your mom DOES love you! She was probably stressed, because being stressed sorta takes over your thoughts and words. Don’t worry, whatever she said wasn’t genuine or serious.
Shine on....😎
"They're taking him away.."
My father recently got deported and I wasn't even there to see him or at least give him a hug good bye ..💔
Oh no, I’m so sorry! I can’t imagine that pain 😔 That’s so unfair and fucked up.
@@CamilaSaurus thank you ❤ yea I wouldn't wish this pain on nobody..
@@adelinanava3701 I hope you get to see him again sooner rather than later 💔 But I know that is no comparison to having him here with you 😢 I hope you reunite soon anyway.. ICE is just pure evil.
im so sorry, i hope you'll be able to find him and see him again. thats heartbreaking :(
@@brookie2878 thank you guys it really means a lot to me 😔❤
Yesterday, I called the guy who is suppose to be my blood father to introduce myself and see if he would like to get a DNA test. He told me he has had a test done and he can’t have kids and not to call him again. I’ve had his information since I was 11 and I am now 30. It took almost 20 years to get enough courage up to talk to this man to only be told he more less wants nothing to do with me. I am still trying to process this information.
Sending virtual hugs to you. And I pray you'll be okay
I am so sorry this happened to you! Sending you hugs!
I’m sorry this happened to you. Sending you lots of hugs. 💗
I could also relate with my father. He’s never put the effort to be a father. I’m 40 now and he’s never called to at least say “how are you doing?” Or “happy birthday”. He never said I love you either. It hurts but remember it’s not our fault. I’m so happy I get to experience it now by seeing how my fiancé is with our daughters. He’s the best father ever! 😭🙂
Be strong
Lots of hugs and kisses
The tongue doesn’t have any bones…but it’s strong enough to break someone’s heart.
"You don't have a social life, you don't even have friends. You're a nerd"
A person who I considered my friend told me this, it was very painful because she knew I had been bullied years before just for getting high marks on school.
I really felt this one, cause then I've really been struggling with stuff like this right now, did you ever get better?
To the woman that was told “you weren’t pretty enough to have the friends you had”: The first thing I thought when I saw your face was, wow that’s a lovely woman, great smile, skin and hair. Then I hear you say that and my jaw dropped because it was the complete opposite of what I see. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
Same
I think that her friends were jealous of her lol
I thought the exact same thing!!! No kidding!!
Exactly, she is beautiful
Mean girls are like that. Everything is relative to THEIR standards. It's total high school mentality.
The most painful thing I've been told is that my daughter passed away. December 6, 2013 and it still hurts exactly the same. Time does NOT heal all wounds, you simply learn to live with the pain.
Stay strong! I wish you all the best 🕊
I'm sorry for your loss ❤️
I'm so sorry 💔
That's heartbreaking. 😥 I'm sorry for your loss, but I hope her memory lives forever in your heart. 💞
I'm so incredibly sorry. So sorry
My Dad telling me he has a Brain tumor..but that everything is gonna be okay and that he loves me.. that was on May 25 , 2019. He died on February 24 , 2020.
Thank you for 26 amazing years together.. RIP .. 1975-2020 ❤🙏 i miss you every day..
❤️
@@freesxsoccer ❤
My condolences
KM Hemmans The CZcamsr
May he rest in peace and may you give this a place in your heart
These ppl look like they've been holding words inside and waiting for a chance to express them
For every dark night, there is a brighter day.
I wish...
For some people...
Other live in the dark and can't seem to find that light, though I'm happy that people find brighter day. :/
@@junbah9313 don’t worry man, you will find that happiness Trust me. If I have you can. No doubt
The shadows betray you... Because they belong to me!
The sun in my life just got destroyed Infront of my eyes
I don't know if this makes sense, but your camera and the way you film people is special in the way that it can show the beauty in each face. Every time I look at people through your lens I keep thinking how beautiful everyone is.
omg yesss
Yeah I was thinking the same thing they are all so beautiful
That's why it makes me so sad when I hear people so carelessly call people ugly like everyone is beautiful just their smile and eyes like everyone has beauty
@@Katiewithshawnandgus Exactly! And I think, for whatever reason, more people tend to keep their positive thoughts about others to themselves, they'd think wow this person is beautiful but they won't actually tell them that, and that's also sad
I think the most interesting quote I’ve heard on this topic is “The minute words leave your lips, they no longer belong to you.” How we remember them and where they belong in our memories, is ours and ours alone.
Also the most painful thing anyone has ever said to me was something that came out of my own mouth. The realization:
“I will never be good enough for you. Will I?”
"u fake ur depression for attention" thats what my dad told me. At that point I was already 3 months in therapy cause I am suicidal
I am so sorry I can realate to something like that but way worse. I sincerely hope u get better.
These answers are so sad. It pains me that people have to go through this stuff.
To me it’s my dad in his anger he said: “you’re the reason your mom and I almost got a divorce.”
I hope you don't feel that's true... it's their relationship and your "involvement" as their child should NOT have an effect on THEIR relationship. You are not responsible.
“He wouldn’t have wanted you there.”
Said by my step-mother, who got to be in the hospital when my father passed away. She never told me he was sick and dying. I was told he was already dead the day after. No amount of EMDR Therapy can remove that sentence from my mind. It’s been almost three years.
I’m so sorry to her this, sending you love and light
"He jumped in front of an LRT"
When I was 12 my oldest brother passed away. My mom was abusive & wouldn't let my dad come see us for most of our lives & he took care of us all the time. It's been just over 2 years since it happened & I still feel guilty for him dying.
That's so hard. I understand to a degree because someone I knew took her life and I scrutinized all my behavior. When we are kids we take responsibility for things way, way beyond us. You don't have the power over other people's lives you probably imagine you do. Even understanding life at twelve is impossible. At fourteen, maybe you are starting to think you understand it, but you still don't. Life is really confusing, take it easy on yourself.
“Maybe you’re the one who stole your classmate’s phone”
I was told this by a teacher when I was in high school. I needed to print a photo from my classmate’s phone for a class report. So I borrowed my classmate’s phone and kept it in my skirt uniform pocket. While I was on my way to the printing shop, I checked my pockets but shocked to see the phone wasn’t there. I got pickpocketed. I panicked and went back to school. When I told my classmate what had happened, that teacher overheard us and started blaming me. And all I could do was cry.
That teacher doesnt deserve their job im so sincerely and incredibly sorry
After being beaten to an inch of my life with a broken piece of wood & strangled by an electrical extension cord, That I'm a terrible son & I'm being put up for adoption the next day by my own mother. When I legit did not a single thing wrong. This kind of physical & mental abuse would happened every day if not multiple times a day if her mood lowered even further. She still to this day has many issues with mental health & anger. I'm so glad I'm an adult now & I'm away from that abusive household. But it doesn't make it any easier when you've been physically & mentally scarred for life by the one person who should always protect you. I'm 29 now, But it's still raw to think about & it makes me physically sick sometimes If I think too much about it.
I'm so sorry
Ur a strong individual for acknowledging the abuse and getting out of that abusive environment
Wish u happiness and satisfaction ❤️
I wish you healing
I'm so sorry you had to deal with this. I hope you don't hold any guilt or feel like you were responsible for her actions. I hope you're doing okay and I'll be praying for you!
What an amazing survival story. Just reading it is overwhelming.
The most painful thing I've ever been told was in high school, when I was mentally abused and bullied. I was told that I should rather die than stay alive because I was ugly and no one would love me. I'm 21 now and unable to love myself. Words have deep consequences that you wouldn't imagine. Be careful with what you say, always...
Thoraya, I was the 2nd youngest of 7 siblings in a broken family and my mom did her best. My brothers and sisters were all straight A students and I got decent grades but nothing like them.
In 7th grade, my teacher called me up to the front of the class one day and said "Michael I don't know what's wrong with you that makes you so stupid. Your brothers and sisters were all smart but what happened to you? You'll never amount to anything!" Some of the other kids laughed and I felt so small. I never told my mom and I started losing interest in school after that.
Then in the 10th grade, my chemistry teacher did basically the same exact thing! I was absolutely humiliated and felt worthless and dropped out of school. To make matters worse, my mom got really mad and told me "Since you're man enough to quit school, you have one week to move out of my house, sir!"
So at 16 years old I found myself on my own with no car, no job, and no place to live. Life has been hard, people are cruel. I tried suicide but failed at that too.
Now it's 50 years later and I haven't had the kind of life I dreamed about. I take responsibility for my choices and try not to place blame on others. HOWEVER... people need to understand that their words have consequences. The old saying "sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me" is not true! Be careful what you say cause you don't know how it's going to affect the listener. The Bible warns us against what power the tongue has in James 3:1-12.
Please understand that I am happy in my life. I have a loving wife of 30+ years, a house to live in, food to eat, clothes to wear. All in all, I've had a pretty good life. I've met some beautiful people that have so much love to share. I've found this amazing YT channel that gives me hope for the future (thanks for being you Thoraya)! Hopefully I've made a positive impact on people.
A word of advice from this old man to young folks out there: don't pay attention to negative people, avoid them like the plague. Love with all your heart, forgive others, and most importantly, forgive yourself. I love you all♥️
Thanks for the kind words.
i can understand, my oldest sister is an amazing chef and has amazing marks, my other one started university at 15 (or 16) and gets all or almost all a’s in the best university in the country, my other sister is still in high school but is in a gifted program, my youngest is very smart for her age too, learned how to read by herself. while me, im barely passing and feel so much stress to live up to them
Don't know you, but you're amazing. 💖
@@maxine9263 I understand your situation and just wanted to say that you shouldn't try living up to their expectations. You are who you are and don't try to be someone or something that you're not...remain true to yourself. If people can't accept you as you are then it's their loss.
Each and every one of us is a special person. We have gifts to offer others if they will accept us as we are... I wish you peace, joy, and love.
@@lakbaydiva Thank you for your kind words. Life has taught me a lot... I wish I could have learned sooner 🙃
Sometimes the smallest word hurts the most...
I pray whoever reads this will be successful and rich oneday, trust the process and believe in yourself 🙏
@Tuck Leclair bro y so harsh
Thx
@Tuck Leclair if you got nothing good to say shut up, always wanna be rude for no reason...gosh SHUT UP
Fuck being rich. Is career what you call being successful? I sincerely hope the people reading this, including you, find contentment in life. And realize how empty the pursuit of such shallow things as wealth and fame will one day leave you - if you don't realize it before it's too late.
@@user-yk6xx9dv5z so true
It’s heartbreaking to hear people who have the courage to come out as gay or bi or trans, be rejected by people who are supposed to love them.
After telling my grandmother well confiding in her that my step dad was cheating on my mother she told my mother and when I got home that evening my mum was at the from door and told me that "this is what you do, you break up families" that was the worst thing anyone has ever said to me
An ex-close friend, told me:
"Your feelings are just an excuse."
I was told this, not too long after watching my grandfather pass away and I was deep in grief.
Your own friends can break your heart too...
We're no longer friends, thank god.
Friends really can cut deep. I recently experienced it too after a long time, and I felt so awful...I might mention it to her, but yeah, sometimes you have to sever ties with a bad “friend”..
First, bim glad, that's no longer your friend! And your feelings are yours, own it, they didn't get that they better leave
i agree. my old friend told me my feelings and mental health problems weren’t real & that i had no reason to feel the way i felt. even though i had told her a lot of what i’ve been through. i completely stopped talking to her after that, granted we were in a really big fight at the time but i don’t regret it one bit. do not ever let someone invalidate your feelings
sending you a big fat juicy hug!!!!
“I don’t love you.” 😔 That shit hurts.
The most painful words I was told by someone who assured me he loved me and still says he cares till today🤮💔
It does
I love you ❤ and so does everyone else here. You're never alone. 💕
I had lost my career of 20 years due to corporate downsizing. I was unemployed for four years, supporting and caring for my elderly mother. She stopped me one day and said “you have two PhDs and all these degrees and you can’t even find a job.” But the most painful was when my father passed away and as he was being zipped up in the body bag I was crying, she came up to me - stood over me and said “why are you crying? He was so disappointed in you; he would have preferred another daughter!”
I'm so sorry. So very sorry. You're not a disappointment at all. Not to me and not to anyone who is good. You're strong and I'm amazed by it
Wow that is so not ok. It always amazes me how often people say stuff like, "There's no greater love than a mother's love" and other mother-worshipping platitudes. It's not a given to have a loving mother. My mother was so critical. And it wasn't the kind of critical where it was a flaw of hers that she would apologize for or even acknowledge, and I knew she loved me anyway because other awesome things happened in the relationship. It was the kind of critical that was constant and, looking back, seemed to come from jealousy of the attention that my father gave to me. I know now that it was all about her own insecurity, but I lost a lot of time not liking myself very much and making choices in life stemming from feeling like I was a pain to be around and was lucky when people continued on as my friends or partners. She now has mild Alzheimer's and I moved in with them to help my dad, and it's a serious mental challenge to feel anything for her. She was never concerned about or invested in my happiness, and so it's nearly impossible for me now to care about hers.
sorry, your mother is a dissapointment. If in a moment like that, all she would think about is to hurt you... then... she is NOT a loving human and you should stay as far away of her as you can. Find your own deserving friends and move on with your own life, and give everyone the importance that he/she deserves.
Your ability too give us all insight is remarkable thanks.
The most painful thing that's been said to me was said by my mother. She told me that I broke her heart when I chose to live with my Dad in my teens. I was battling an addiction and she was going to force me into treatment, but I didn't want help. My Dad had a soft spot for me and it's ugly to say but I knew I could exploit his love for me to keep my addiction alive.
It's an amend I don't know if I'll ever be able to make. I owe both my parents an apology.
Accepting is the most difficult step. And you are doing that
Hope you're better now :)
Bless you Lisa, you have enough insight now to understand what happened. If you do apologise, that's amends enough. We all have our lessons to learn and we don't all start off perfectly nice, that seems to be what life is about.
I'm glad you realized it and hope you have apologized to them if not, run to them hug them and apologize.
The most painful thing I’ve been told was that there was a high chance my daughter wasn’t gonna survive. I had severe preeclampsia and had to have an emergency c-section at 25 weeks. Going through something that’s traumatic enough and then being told your child may not survive is such a hard pill to swallow all in one big gulp. Thankfully, my daughter survived through the most crucial first 3 days of life and beyond! She’s now 15 months old and I’m so blessed to have her in my life 🤍
I'm so glad your daughter is alive! Sending you and your little family love and prayers!!
@@sara6423 thank you 🥺♥️
I’m so glad to hear that, I hope you can both have a really nice happy life
Watching while putting on makeup to head out for the day. The dog getting cancer hit me hardest out ALL of them. Started crying. My dog best friend passed from sudden prostate cancer almost 2 years ago and I still miss him every single day. I've had pets all my life. Loved every single one of them. I only had him for 2 years because he came via meeting my now husband. Grizzly was his dog and best friend too. I connected with that dog like no other animals ever before. He got me through so much. We fought hard for him but cancer took him. It was absolutely horrible and we miss him so much. I miss him more than people I've lost. He was my protector when my husband was working (he's a LEO and works long hours), he was my ear when no one else was around or I couldn't tell anyone because I'm a mom and I have to bottle so much so it isn't my kids burden, he was my hiking partner, my errand running buddy, my always willing movie watcher, my plate cleaner, my shadow everywhere I went. He came to me when I cried, when I laughed, when I spoke, when I got home, when I even just moved, he was there, waiting to see what was next.
I am not good at comforting people but I just want to say that it is okay for you to cry, and in this world of 7.9 billion people, there must be someone who care about you. You worth it♥️
Amen to this ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I lost the ability to cry over a year ago and I hope your right about finding someone who will care about you. Right now I am so alone for leaving toxic relations. She is off messing around and I am sitting here four years later trying to learn and understand.
@@darylkik6204Romantic love is hard because we get bonded to people in a way that's very different than being connected to friends or family. And when it ends, even if -- perhaps especially if -- the person wasn't a great human being, it can be excruciating. Your brain gets poisoned in a way, because you replay everything in your mind over and over and over again, trying to understand. But that hurts you further. You're trying to figure out what would have made things different but there is no answer, just incompatibility. And based on what you've said, it sounds like she's not a super awesome person or at least not very self-aware, so even though it feels bad, it's probably you that outgrew the relationship because you're meant for better things.
Whenever I've been in that situation, being alone feels hard. But I've learned that it's the best thing. When you remember how to find life fun and interesting all by itself, which it really really is, you don't mind not being in a relationship, and you feel more confident that when you do meet someone, you'll be a lot more in touch with what you want and what you'll tolerate.
"You're not what I want in a husband or father." I was told this by a person that I loved more than anything else in the world; I thought we would spend our lives together. It has been years but it still makes me tear up just thinking about it.
I'm so sorry I can't even imagine, I've been told things kinda similar and it really just stays there so hard to let go of. You're gonna make an amazing husband to the right person my dude
@@Katiewithshawnandgus I appreciate your kind words, it means a lot to me.
It's hard to know why we love the people that we love. But you deserve no less than the person who appreciates you and loves exactly who you are, and that together you each enhance your beautiful traits and help each other grow. ❤️🙌
Sometimes honesty hurts and for me that harsh truth would be preferable to being strung along , it frees you up to find someone who loves you as much as you love them hope the love of your life is around the next corner, best wishes❤
This video reminds me of a quote from Harry Potter: "Words are, in my not so humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury and remedying it."
Choose your words wisely🙏
“Look at you! No one loves you. No one ever will. You’ll never be happy” said to me by my father because I refused an arranged marriage 💔
I know I’m like 10 months late, but I think the most painful thing I’ve ever been told is “funny how you’re so worried for your brother because in most cases you’re the problem”.
This was told to me by my moms boyfriend, and though I have no resentment on him, because it has truth in it, this is something I feel like has been told or implied about me my whole life. I’ve always been the problem child. My grandparents constantly bring up things I did as a little kid that I have far since learned from, I’ve said harsh things to others and divided / cut off friendships that I could’ve kept, and even my moms partners she’s had never really liked me (I’m hoping this guy is different but still). I just feel like I’ll never get to grow out of that label and I’ll always just be somebody’s problem. And I know that’s a stupid thing to believe, but when you grow up being constantly reminded of it it becomes believable. I feel like I’m always trying so hard to change and be better, but I’m always just reminded of my younger self and how bad she was, and she’s still put on the me today. So sometimes I just stop trying.
Idk, it’s hard to articulate right now, but I hope things eventually turn for the better. I’m still trying :)
I didn't realize so many people had their significant others tell them that they didn't love them, never loved them, etc. I don't understand why someone would be with someone they didn't love for so long; why waste their time and yours if you don't love them?
"never loved you" is weird to me and kinda cruel. But falling out of love or love going up and down during a relationship isn't strange or even unhealthy, quite natural actually.
I don't understand either...what's the point of being in a relationship with someone you don't love?
I was basically just told this exactly 4 days ago…. And yeah, that’s what I was thinking.
@@vimalav6444 I'm sorry, it sucks.
@samprada9298 but why stay if the love is gone?
The most painful (yet freeing) thing I’ve been told is “I can’t do it anymore, I’m done” which was the end of a 5 1/2 year marriage. I looked at him and said “it’s okay because I’m done too.” It’s been four months and I’m so much happier on my own and I feel like me again ❤️
I spread kindness today to random strangers. I've noticed the more I do it the more you, your videos and your influence even the comments from people about strangers makes me wanna be a better stranger.
"One sentence can change a person's life forever."
Take that as you will.
Everyone has such beautiful eyes
My ex and I were together for 6 years. One day we had a fight, and I was at my breaking point. I asked him straight-up, "Do you want to marry me in the future? Is that something you can see for us?" He said "No. I don't believe in us." And that was that. I told him there's no point in us being together anymore if he doesn't believe in our relationship. I told him to leave and kicked him out of my apartment a few days later. That was a really hard day. I felt like I had wasted 6 years of my life on him. I don't regret our time together, but I wish maybe that I had ended it sooner.
I'm sorry this happened to you but can i say some advice for girls or maybe boys?
Crazy. I had a similar story. Once you reach your peak that's it unfortunately
Its so heart breaking to see how many of us carry so much pain inside and still try to smile through it
"Your brother got in a car accident. He didn't make it." He was only 27, this was 2 years ago. It hasn't gotten easier & I'm a changed person forever. Grief is not the same for everyone♥️
What's the most painful thing i've ever been told?
"Nobody's gonna love me and I don't deserve to have parents."
You are worth it and you deserve everything you ever get! 💜 You Matter.
You deserve everything that makes you happy 💙stay strong and stay safe
Well, they're lying. Whoever told you that is wrong and you deserve to have everything good in this world 🖤💚🖤
who said that to you?
@@KralleZ7 An ex classmate back in school (the first one) my father (the second one)
What is the most painful thing you have been told?
"The only wish I have is that you die" my little brother told me this when I was suicidal - he didn't know I was suicidal. My little brother was the only reason - at that time - that kept me from ending my life. His look in his face was full of hate. I was 15 years old at that time and I got bullied in school. He hated me...
Now I am almost 25 years old and we have a very good relationship. I am not suicidal anymore and if I would be, I would have enough reasons to stay. I came too far to throw all away. I love myself and I am grateful for that person that I am today. It was all worth it! ^^
How did he keep you from ending your life when he spoke to you like that?? Did you stay alive out of spite from that comment? Sorry just confused
I do not understand what you are trying to convey?
@@20somethingsworld97 I didn't pick the right words. I mean, I did not want him to grow up without a big brother. He struggled as well and I don't want to put more grief on his little shoulders. I love his humor and how we can joke around offensively but with respect. My brother was a big source of my happiness - that's why.
@@KralleZ7 ohh lmao i'm glad thins turned around for you and you deciding to stick around was a pro not only for you but those around you too
@@20somethingsworld97 Thank you for saying that! I had to change something for my health back then. I decided to go to a mental health clinic. My life was still screwed up for many many years but eventually it got better and better
“I don’t want to do chemo anymore”
During my grandma’s chemotherapy I would drive her to and from her appointments and the worst thing she ever said was she didn’t want to do it anymore, and I just took as I don’t want to live anymore. Recently she passed away from cancer, and everything is just soo overwhelming
I thought about what I would've said if I was asked by her and something immediately crossed my mind. I've been told way more offensive things but for some reason these two words my mum said hurt me the most.
Me and my mum were like best friends in the past. We talked about everything and understood each other perfectly, maybe because we had to go though the same things due to my dad beating her, my brother and me. And because of that we grew even closer.
Sadly her schizophrenia got really bad, which I didn't even knew existed. It happened because she stopped taking her medication. She completely changed and my brother and me couldn't recognize her anymore. She was like a different human being. She started taking drugs, drank a lot and we were afraid of her because she'd say and do creepy things.
Then she just left us, I still don't know why. She moved to another city and we lived with our grandma from there on.
Then she came back after two years to visit us. It was really awkward and we didn't really talk much, but I was still very happy to see her again.
For some reason she asked how much I weigh, I didn't know why I just thought maybe she asks that because I grew and she didn't see me in a long time. She also said I should suck in my stomach a little more.
Then we ate something and my mum asked my grandma for a second portion of food. My grandma asked me if I wanted one too and I said yes.
Then my mum said: "no, she's fat" while she looked me in the eyes.
Even though I've been told that a lot of times by a lot of people in my life it hurt so so much. It felt as if my heart sank into my stomach and everything surrounding me just got silent. Such a hard pain went through me and I felt tears forming in my eyes and I just said: " it's fine I don't want to eat anymore. I have to make homework now though." And went to my room.
I cried so much because like I said I was used to being told that I'm fat but it hurt so much more this time. Because it was my mum that said that. And because i haven't seen her in such a long time, cried at night because I missed her and felt happy to see her again and talk to her. But she just came after two years, asked about my weight and called me fat. I wanted to talk to her, say her that I love her and all that she has to say to me after leaving us was that I'm fat?? Like what?
I just couldn't understand that. I felt so disgusting I just wanted to chop all my fat off with some scissors. I felt like I don't deserve to be loved.
To top that off my grandma that usually bodyshames me a lot came into my room and asked why I was crying. I said her what was wrong and expected that she'd comfort me or smth. But she just said: " well she isn't wrong look at yourself everything she said was true"
Yeah that was all. The funny thing is I wasn't even overweight at that time. I was 1,69 meters and 1,65 kg. I just have a stomach so that's the thing.
Yeah that's all thanks if someone actually read that lol
I just wanted to vent a little about it :)
I hope you have a great day If you read this
Hope you're doing better now ❤
@@aesthetic_writer aww thank you
"I'm ashamed y'all have the same blood as me" - my aunt from my father's side of the family, to my brothers and me when we were all like 3-7 years old.... 😐 shit hurts to on this day...
Your aunt was an extremely unhappy person. Those ppl cannot say anything positive to others.
@@isabellewhite3505 May God forgive me for what I am about to say but my father's side of the family are all assholes and bitches. Especially my aunts. They've never liked my mother therefore never liked my brothers and me and always treated us like crap, criticizing us for everything and anything that we would do and say. What's worst is that the majority of my dad's side are here ... Whereas the good side of the family (my mother's side) are all in El Salvador... 😥 I pray and hope one day for us to see them again... I miss them so fucking much like ya don't even know... 😢😢😢😢
@@hellothere3210 . It is a small wonder, that we are as sane as we actually are!!! Despite being surrounded by family members who clearly have issues and problems, but raising and influencing young minds.
If you say that your father's side of the family is dysfunctional, I believe you and steer well clear of them, whenever possible. Toxicity can easily bring a person down for a period. Stay well clear! Only associate with kind and good ppl who make you feel as you should feel.
Lots of love 💕💕💕
@@isabellewhite3505 I don't know why I am asking this... But do you, by any chance, have an Instagram? I'd love to get to know you a little more, if that's alright with you ofc 😁💛💛💛
This is so sad y’all 😭😭 let us be more kind as we don’t know what the next person is going through 💔💔
I know, I had to stop reading for now 😭
This is sad and beautiful at the same time...people being able to share their stories
When the police came to my door and told me my 18 year old son had been murdered by his childhood friend. The heartbreak is so painful and relentless and lonely
(((hugs))) 💛 💫 🌟
tears of joy for these amazing souls i love knowing that you are not only helping them with thought provoking questions but that youre also helping those going through similar situations by asking they give advice to a young person
The people closest to you hurt u the most. Sometimes that is your parents.
People can be so cruel. I notice almost everybody still kept their smile though even when they were explaining what happened. It’s terrible they have to go through this but they keep their heads high.
The most painful thing I’ve ever been told was probably my mom asking me why *i* didn’t apologize to my grandfather. So, my grandfather did something in inappropriate to me when I was 16. There was a big thing but I never pressed charges against him and we just stopped talking. My grandmother had to go to the hospital one day and ofc I went. And ofc my grandfather was there. I ignored him because I only went their for my grandma. Well, as my mom and I were walking out of the hospital she asked my why “I couldn’t just apologize and move on”. It hurt she didn’t understand why I couldn’t do that. It was like she was talking his side. Like he did nothing wrong.
Wow, I’m so sorry you went through that and your mom expected YOU to apologize. Blows my mind how a parent can be anything but supportive. Big hugs to you 💗
A similar thing happened to me & I completely understand why "YOU" wouldn't and shouldn't apologise.
As long as you completely understand, this was not your fault in any way!! Take care
my cousin and I were both molested by my mom's little brother. He was 27. I was molested in my asleep when I was 12, woke up to feel his hand on me but was too scared to tell anyone cuz I thought nobody would believe me. didn't even wanna think about it so I pretended it never happened and moved on. And 5 years later my cousin was molested by him when she was 7. She also didn't tell anyone until 6 years later when all those memories flooded back and she finally told her mom. Surprise...surprise....her mom didn't believe her so she told me and I obviously believed her and got angry. It was like pouring salt on an old wound, so I told her mom and my parents about my own experience. Surprise...surprise...they didn't believe me either and the most panful thing I heard was my dad telling me that even if what we say is true, as long as there was no penetration involved it was no big deal...it happens. Let it go and never bring it up again. Now this uncle is married and has a 2 year old daughter and is even more respected & loved than ever by our parents. We are expected to respect him all the same.
@@ovig8917 , OMG.
@@isabellewhite3505 yup. I lost all respect for my father from then on.
There are not only dad's little princess and mom's queen
But there are also a lot of kids that can't even open their feelings to their own parents
PARENTING IS MUST
Sorry for bad English
I have thoroughly enjoyed watching all of your videos they're so heartfelt and uniting of the human family in our experiences good, bad, and indifferent. I can count maybe 5 things that I have heard in my 39 yrs of life that cut me deeply that I'll never forget, that I'm sure impact me subconsciously. My dad told my sister when we were kids because I am disabled I'd always have to do things to make myself look pretty because no one will ever want me. An argument we had when I was an adult between my father and I; he said he kick me and he wished I'd that hurry up and die. An ex when were dating told me he'd watch videos on CZcams that said being with disabled people is a sin. On my birthday maybe 10 years ago, a passersby woman just came up to me on the street and told me I just want to let you know that you're an abomination. Last my most recent connection, someone I ended up adoring because he was so sweet and kind to me, flipped after a small disagreement and told me he regrets me and I am a mistake. Words actually can cut deeper and live scares beyond any weapon it seems.
The most painful things I've been told were actually said by teachers I had in primary school 15-20 years ago. Thinking back, it's awful to think they had young children in their care and were speaking to children the way they spoke to me. Their words were...
1) "You can't dance." (said to me by my teacher in a PE lesson when we all had to do an improvised dance and I felt super self conscious and awkward. I was about 6)
2) "That looks like a pig's ear, that does." (said by a supply teacher we had in an Art lesson. We had to make maracas and paint them and I had no confidence in how to paint them so I copied someone else and made it green with multicoloured spots, but I made a mess of it. Must have been about 8)
3) "STOP CRYING!" (shouted at me by one of the school leaders who had brought me and a group of friends in from the playground because we had had a big fall out and hurtful things were said. I was crying because I thought nobody liked me. She kept shouting at me to stop crying and being weak. I was about 10 then).
I'm sure those teachers won't remember this, but I will forever. I am actually a teacher myself now and I would never dream of saying such hurtful things to my students.
In front of my 8th grade class it was said by my teacher that I would nvr amount to anything. He was right
These videos really help in seeing the larger picture, especially in moments when we can't breathe
The most painful thing I’ve been told was ‘uhuh’ by my mum when I was younger. I was trying to explain to her that my sister was sexually assaulting me and that I wasn’t comfortable. That response shut me down.
That birth defect one hit me for some reason. He just had unconditional love for his brother and couldn’t do anything but take care of him while he was there.
Yeah, and was a child himself when it was happening. Heartbreaking.
The first answer really hit me. I went through a period where my dad was suicidal. It’s so so difficult to hear that from a parent.
Thoraya, next time when you ask them that question, let them also answer afterwards what the most beautiful thing was, that they have been told. Let them go with happy thoughts ^^ Love those videos!
Good idea
I feel you, woman with her dog who has cancer. I'm so sorry, so incredibly sorry. Animals are the only true and reliable source of unconditional love, and we spend every day of their lives side by side...it's a terrible thing to experience, losing that daily companion that goes through everything with you. And you don't fully realize how much of life they have gone through with you, loving you the whole time and always being there through every big and little thing, until they are gone. And people who haven't experienced the blessing of a bond with an animal like that don't understand that that grief is harder than when you lose a human family member, and they think you should get over it quickly. What these people don't realize is that it feels like you've lost a child who was also your best friend. I'm so sorry about your fur baby. So very sorry. I'm experiencing that loss right now.
“You have to at least try, you aren’t even trying.”
-2 people when seeing me have a panic attack. Both of which have known people with anxiety, one who has it themself and should know how it feels
I feel ya. Anxiety is the worst. Some days it's hard just to breathe
My mom has always been emotionally unavailable and I never felt loved or cared for growing up. When I was around 10 she called me useless because I didn’t want to do something she told me to do only because I felt manipulated always. I didn’t want to be “useless” so I went out of my way to please others and put my needs aside. It stuck to me for a while.
My mom is the exact same way, I hope you were able to get out of there or can soon
“You were a commodity” Holy shit that one stuck with me for a few years, come from nowhere and I cried for months
''We aren't coming''. I hadn't seen my family in years and planned a trip to see them. I prepped everything and told my friends how excited I was to finally see them again. On the day we were supposed to meet they didn't show up. When I called I was told they weren't coming, cause they couldn't make it. They knew for months but everyone kept it from me. It's still something that springs to the front of my mind whenever my depression kicks up.
It hurts when your dad says bad things about you. I feel you.
Yesterday I was told by my mom after my grades being mentioned: “I should’ve made you work for my affection” and then she laughed...yeah I think she beat her own record with the most hurtful thing she’s said to me, and it makes me dread how she’s gonna raise my sister whose 13 years younger than me since she has such clear regrets with how she raised me...
I resonated so strongly with the first person. The most painful thing I’ve ever been told was from my father “your mother tried to hurt herself today “
It was painful because it made me feel that my mom would choose not to be in my life anymore .
Aw I’m so sorry. I know what you mean. It’s definitely nothing to do with you though, she is clearly battling depression at the minimum. I’m so sorry, that’s so scary in multiple ways 😞
I agree. That first person hit the nail on the head with that confession.
To have your parents tell you hurtful and spiteful truthism in their eyes is the most devastating thing to hear..and to hear from someone that you have had feelings for tell you.." Your stupid "..is also a devastating thing to hear but if you take note that it's not true then it's time for you to move on..take solace in that you are a human being and you have self worth..you can be more than you ever imagined to become !!!!
An Anti Bullying motivational speaker came to my school and said "When we say sticks and stone say break my bones but. words will never hurt me, we never look at the fact that certain words will stick with someone for the rest of their lives, so really Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will always hurt me."
Most painful thing I’ve been told was by mother, when she had to tell me that my grandma died when I was just 10.
I have been told extremely hurtful things all my life. Mostly from people I trusted.
The most resent was sitting in the front row in a high school class. Someone behind me said "No one wants to sit with them." And the entire class laughed and the teachers in the room just looked at me then continued on with the day.
I'm so sorry to read that. School years can be so awful. Kids don't really understand what they are doing, there are big gaps in their empathy, and so many teachers are clueless, too. Sometimes I wish I could show my old the self the future, so I could have adult awareness of how childish people were around me. Maybe you could realize that. Most of those kids are going to look back with regret.
Hey, sorry to hear that. I hope you find good people.
Same 😟
In middle school one time, in art class I went to sit with some kids and they all simotaneusly got up and walked to a different table. I was bullied a lot but that was probably the thing that I remember the most. It was over 10 years ago now I think it was the day after Obama won the 2008 election. I was in 7th grade
You do so much for people Thoraya your an amazing person so kind, respectfull, and a great listener, and you ask good questions in return if someone pour out theire lifes or problems. I can relate to so many of alot of the people, in some of your videoes. I been true all kind of shit myself so my heart goes out for for all the ones struggeling out there. I recently had myself a break down where i just could not stop crying. I was watching the video how are you doing,really? And i tought to myself as someone asked me that, and i broke out in tears. My life is a mess right now, struggling with depression. I'm sorry i wrote alot, but i wish i could give some of these people a big hug ... cause i can relate in some cases and it sucks.
Three main things come to mind.
“You asked for it.”
My dad in regards to the only two serious relationships I’ve been in they were abusive relationships I struggled with for 10 years and still to this day have not recovered from.
“Go back where you came from.”
My dad and my brother, in regards to the very first abusive relationship I’d been in. I’d gotten out of it and had moved back home for only a month, and later that same day I ended up going back.
“You can’t stay here our personalities clash.”
My mom in regards to an argument she’d started over my uncleaned room when I was in 11th grade that resulted in her choking me for yelling at her to stop screaming at me. After my entire childhood of trying to leave home to go live with my grandma because of my mom and dads nonstop physical and mental abuse and my mom not allowing me to leave because “I was her child and not my grandmas” she finally decided to kick me out a year before I graduated. So I spent my senior year finally living with my grandma. It was after I left my grandmas when I’d graduated that I moved in with the man I would find out years later was physically and mentally abusive as well only after we’d gotten engaged and had a daughter together.
These are only a few of the things that have haunted me since they happened. I think the most painful thing for me to even realize in this moment specifically is that there is so much more they’ve told me that people have told me that hurt just as much and the fact that I can’t forget.. I just want to be free from the pain and guilt of my existence. I’ve never been able to feel like I’m loved and belong here. Every day I struggle to cope and every day not a single person would even know unless I told them because I feel so guilty for feeling so much pain that I feel a constant need to hide it and pretend that I am happy and that I am okay.
I don’t know if anyone will read this.. but if you do thank you for listening. Peace be with you.
I hope your doing much better now ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️your are in my prayers ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Peace be with you too sister🙏♥️