Chronic Stress, Anxiety? - You Are Your Best Doctor! | Dr. Bal Pawa | TEDxSFU
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Going from physician to patient following an accident on the same day, Dr. Bal Pawa realized the gap in our current medical system: The vital role of the mind-body connection and self-regulation.
Her story teaches us the importance of taking control of our health and instilling techniques for self-care. One of Canada's leading Integrative physicians and co-founder of the Westcoast Women's Clinic, Dr. Pawa is also an author and speaker. She has been in practice for over 30 years using a unique, combined training as a Pharmacist, Medical Doctor, and Integrative Medicine practitioner which was instrumental in recognizing the need for Holistic Healthcare and disease prevention. Dr. Pawa obtained certification from Harvard Medical School in Mind-Body Medicine and also completed training under the direction of Dr. Deepak Chopra. She has made it her personal mission to empower, educate and inspire people to take charge of their health by cultivating a healthy, proactive mindset and bridging that gap. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx
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What I discovered about anxiety is groundbreaking. At the heart of all anxiety is a desperate need to CONTROL. What I mean is behind any anxious thought there is a need to control other people's thoughts, reactions, actions etc. To further explain by an example, say someone is anxious about a certain situation, in their mind there is this game going on where the outcome is to be determined by the anxious person. The only way out of this game is to release control of the what the outcome should be. The anxious person will say "ok I will give up control or give up my projections, but what about controlling my own side of the thought game". Well as I discovered the minute you give up your projections and allow external situations(people, events etc) to determine their own outcomes, immediately your own mind starts to rest. Give up control!!!!
Omg! This is me and right now I am suffering.
Best answer so far!! Also this two words will help with your symptoms and racing thoughts: Accept and Surrender. No need to change anything, be kind to yourself and relase control ☺️
I agree so much!
It worked for me for a week where giving up control just made me alive and happy again, like a dream state for a week where I saw everything positively, it really felt good. But it also felt almost too good to be true and a week later some thoughts/situation/person triggered me back into the spiral of chronic anxiety…
I hope next time it’ll last more than week.. any tip is welcome ;)
Omg you are so right. I get bad anxiety when I get sick. If I don’t recover in a certain amount of time I become full of anxiety and start to get panic attacks. That’s definitely a control issue. I have to lose that control I think I have over the illness.
@@zephirlorne happened same with me.
This is so true! Whenever an anxiety hit me I used to say 'God is with me' while breathing mindfully. It was the only weapon I had against the spiritual war I had with myself.
I have started speaking to the physival manifeststioms of my anxiety. "Why are we fearful? What are fearing? Calm down. I feel you and i understand you but we are safe. We are not being rationale...etc".
Is there a version of that but for atheist?
@@FaintClover I am the master of my own universe, I am the master of my own mind, I am the master of my own emotions. All completely true statements you can try
@@natures1joy425 I like that tip a lot
They are difficult experiences to face
To those, who are suffering - my heart with you. It WILL get better soon. This video and Voicely helped me a lot. Remember, you are not alone!
Thank you it means so much
I am so stressed
@@jhumurrani2506 I am too... At some days it is very hard. I am no doubt going to try this BMW meditation method...
Waking up feeling panicky for a long time until I started my day with deep breathing saying to myself "Come holy Spirit" over and over. It was an amazing transformation in my life.
She is such a courageous person, reliving this trauma in front of audience takes a person of steel . God bless!
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“Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.”
Amen
@@seasington Take action. If anxiety affects internal physical health visit a psychologist. Practical action is needed to reduce negative thoughts. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety-stress. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, hands on lap with palms upwards, eyes closed, be still and observe your natural incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10 minutes or more. Be as still as possible. Slowly negative thoughts will reduce and relax the mind. Patience is needed. During your daily activity keep observing your breath consciously. Do the above meditation daily to feel relaxed. Positive affirmations for 5-10 minutes before sleep also gives quick relief. Best wishes. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
@@shyaaammeneen63 thank you
@@shyaaammeneen63 Awesome. Thank you!
@@seasington Ultimately we are all responsible for our own health and happiness. Best wishes.
Anxious person listening: "stress causes serious problems, heart attacks, cancer..." 😳😳 anxiety retriggered and the cycle starts all over again
Man😭 i almost panicked bad
What about BMW? You didn't mention any of what you did to help yourself!
Did you practise deep breathing? Or think of a beautifully calming word?
Do you want to change your life, or keep complaining about this thing that so many people have got.
As a man thinketh, so is he.
Your thoughts are very powerful.
You do not need to believe your thoughts.
Most of what we worry about never happens.
Anyway, even if it did, it might be the best think that happened to us.
This talk is a great example of this.
You could let everyone here know how you are progressing with your BMW some time after you have put some real effort in.
I'm just trying to help.
My comment is for Gina. Good luck, Sister.
mee too, luckily she mentioned the breathing exercise with the chosen word, it calmed it afterwords hhh
😂😂😂😂 and she calls herself a doctor
KEY POINTS:
Chronic stress/pain triggers the autonomic nervous system, and you live in constant fight-or-flight mode.
VEGAS NERVE(brain-body connection) helps us calm down.
Relaxation technique: BMW
B- Breath (and relax muscles)
M- Mind (slow down your thoughts; be present)
W- Word (repeat a word)
Thank you 🙏 so much . I am writing in my notes to take better care of myself
Her voice is so calming :) who is here after having a panic attack or a mental break down? Same here
Me …. Scary yes? I have PTSD to have a hard time relaxing right now I should be asleep and my whole body’s clenched up and fight or flight and my doctor won’t give me enough Anxiety meds So I run out early and Feel beyond horrible.
@@KaylaJ8827 I’m sorry I hope you feel better and that you can find peace in your life :)
I am doing BMW technique from last few months and 50% of my health issues had gone.And the best thing is i feel happy all day❤️
So it works. Lately I've had to deal with a difficult person at work and all of a sudden I've gone into full blown panic attack mode 3 days in and now I'm second guessing my job and thinking more about how this is going to ruin my life then anything else
Was with my wife and family last night all I thought about was this difficult person that I now have to deal with
Hello,
What steps are you following?
@@dimitardimov85 i am doing rhythmic breathing exercises , mindfulness meditation, and some aerobic exercises..you can find these videos on youtube
Great
@@taochi100 I've been there, dealing with a very difficult, unprofessional boss. Being in that situation for years,take a tool on my health. Before I resigned, I already experienced anxiety. It's been a year now from experiencing anxiety. Somehow I was able to handle it. And I will do this, BMW, hope to be totally healed.
This is an amazing TED talk. I love when physicians empower their patients to take their own health into their hands.
“State of mind = state of body.”
That hits differently -
God Bless this Lady. This speech has inspired me so much. I will kick out Anxiety and acid reflux !!!
I have same problm..
Me too! 💪
I have the same thing...
i have the same too
Exactly 💯
My husband passed away in 2009 at age 45, it was my birthday. I have relived that day so many times since then. I don’t know how to turn it off. I often think how much would be different in my life had the love of my life not died that day. It is so hard. I really need this as I am getting older and have horrible insomnia and anxiety.
I'm so sorry you are going through such a heartbreaking situation. You are in my prayers. Love to you. Stay strong. One moment at a time. 💜
It is almost impossible to stop thinking about something. Instead force yourself to think about something else each morning and night for 10 minutes. Find something that requires a lot of focus like learning to say the alphabet backwards, or studying a new language. Each day increase the amount of time you think of something else. Eventually the thought your trying to stop, will be replaced. Good luck hope this helps at least a little.
Follow the path as the Dr described. Breath. Listen to your breathing, let that be your focus. Find one word and repeat it.
The key is to persist at it every day. In time it will get easier and become more effective.
Peace, love and calmness to you ✌🏿💗🙌🏿
Do deep breathing,yoga excercises,
In india ,you tube swami baba ramdev,
Take medawati 2 tabs herbals,
It has cured 100s of people with out side effects,
Pranayama breathing cures😇
@@auntyshanti. where do you buy medawati from? tia
I have chronic illness. My anxiety is so bad that I can't even leave the house anymore. 😫 I have prayed and called out to God to help me. I know our loving God will help. I just want to be happy again.
Me too I am scared
Did you seek for help yet? Please do
Mental health is horrible, wish you all the best 🙏✌
I waited for 7 years for God to help me with my anxiety. I cut everyone out of my life, stopped leaving the house and started sinking tons of hours into things like video games to distract myself from my anxiety. Except the amount of time I put into games made me even more anxious. The things that seem easy for everyone else seemed so far out of reach for myself. I let anxiety get in such a bad spot I lost all my muscle and weight til I physically look sick. The worst part about all of this is my constant telling myself that it’s just anxiety and I should be able to handle it on my own. I’ve lost everything that mattered to me in my life… and it took that for me to realize that I have a mental illness and I need help. Don’t let your anxiety do to you what I let it do to me.
@@ricksobania8725 your not on your own, your strong for getting though it, wish you all the best 👊🙏✌
Humans have never been this separated with each other through all history, there's a why for your anxiety and you're not alone! it's a hard path but this worrying is not something that makes u different from other people, it connects u with people that are going through the same, don't give up!
2 min breathe diafragma, relax all muscles. Relax mind, just be in the moment. Total of 10 minutes morning and 10 min evening. Say your word
What are you doing today
after watching this, i laid under some blankets (it’s v drafty up in here) with my eyes closed and silently said “forgive” with each long exhale. i’m thankful i didn’t fall asleep, because i can’t even describe how that ten minutes just actually helped me as a person that has been quietly plagued with anxiety her entire life.
From the moment we wake up to the minute we go to bed, we're bombarded with impressions and notifications. Don't forget to turn everything off a couple of minutes per day and allow yourself to let your thoughts come from the inside as opposed to them being reactions to the outside.
Deep.
The Information Age is what is at the root of all these issues.
@@sudhiriyer5118 Take action. If anxiety affects internal physical health visit a psychologist. Practical action is needed to reduce negative thoughts. The best time to meditate is between 3.30 am and 5.30 am known in India as the brahma muhurat time --the time of miracles. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts-anxiety-stress. For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, hands on lap with palms upwards, eyes closed, be still and observe your natural incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10 minutes or more. Be as still as possible. Slowly negative thoughts will reduce and relax the mind. Patience is needed. During your daily activity keep observing your breath consciously. Do the above meditation daily to feel relaxed. Positive affirmations for 5-10 minutes before sleep also gives quick relief. Best wishes. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.
Thanks for this truth! When I became so sick from stress that I thought I might die, doctors couldn't help me. So I helped myself by learning for to care for myself. Powerful medicine!
I will be trying this today! I’m claiming my home again!!! This stress and anxiety hit me out of nowhere once I recently found out that my dream as a nurse was put on hold… but I will reclaim my life because you only get 1
I have been consumed by stress and anxiety, as i imagine many of us have been in recent years. This talk brought me to tears; i feel like I'm on full throttle all the time. Was most noticeable after taking a staycation for a few weeks, where I was able to relax. Going back to work I feel all the stresses seeping back in. I need to try this technique.
I took deep breath while listening this speech on earphones. Almost felt like meditation. I suffered chronic stress from few months now my mind is completely calm because of single speech. Just imagine how 10 minutes BMW meditation will improve brain and body health.
🙏 Thanks Ma'am. OM Shanti 😌
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OM Shanti.
You have done a wonderful thing.
Love from New Zealand.
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B= breathe (focus on being present)
M= mind (clear mind of past and future thoughts)
W= word (choose a word like ohum)
Useful video. In life there are only 2 problems--mind and the body. Be careful what you feed your mind. Avoid comparing yourself with others, reduce watching negative social media and avoid constipation as it affects the mind instantly. Your breathing is closely related to the brain [mind] and gives relief from stress-anxiety. For a relaxed mind observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for 10-15-20 minutes or more. You can sit or lay down anywhere-anytime. No deep breathing. Don’t fight your thoughts. With practice the mind will relax. Keep a reminder to observe your breath sensations throughout the day and night at home, at work, when travelling etc with eyes open or closed. One more tip is to sit on a chair without moving, be still and observe your breath. Stillness reduces thoughts and brings relief. Like me make this a lifetime habit to have a better life. Best wishes--Counsellor.
Absolutely true!!!!
7:19 I can understand the pain of a mother! Rip to that little soul who died before even experiencing this world. :(
I was feeling everything she was explaining, wonderful speech wonderful personality
Great line, "nothing to lose, only to gain"..
TedX often has really good talks, but this one is astonishing👏
Thank you for your kind words
Agreed. Also, very likeable lady
@@balpawa1159 Great talk, Bal !
What a speech yaar...I respect you madam from the bottom of my Heart 💓
technologies and social media kill us little by little... we really need to meditate and calm our minds. thks Dr. Bal
This is a compelling and profoundly meaningful speech.
Im 34 and just today figuring out the key to my depression, its my stress. My stress feeds my anxiety and has turned into depression as a result, like severe to the point I become irrational and cannot think at all. Then i carry it with me so today I've decided to make a change for my health and for my family. Im going to start doing this every day before I do anything else. Thank you for the TED talk needed this very much
I'm 34 and watched this today too. Have had vertigo and anxiety attacks. Desperately need to control my stress instead of seeking out 10 different doctors and treatments.
HERE'S JON
You're amazing. You're only 34 and understanding yourself. That is wonderful.
@@steamynoodle2010 Both of you touch my heart. It's hard to work things out sometimes.
You have a cool name, quite unique.
@@barbsmart7373 thank you!!
@@heresjonny.
I thought of some things that might be useful here.
Firstly, our thoughts are not really a part of us. They often are not true.
I have tried also Byron Katie's "Worksheet". I have read and listened to ideas for a long time now. But this is the most simple way I have found to really reach enormous amounts of truth, compassion and transcendance. The results are incredible.
Another thing that might interest people is
to do with differences between how men and women think.
My partner is 60. He is a very intelligent man.
But in the days when we argued frequently, I noticed he would really
speak nonsensically.
I really couldn't have a logical discussion at all!!
I then learned that men see these conversations as very threatening.
I was always trying to resolve issues. He ALWAYS thought I was criticizing him. This was never the case.
The brain is very fascinating.
The fight-flight response my partner can gets into is a response to something he sees as a threat. He behaves as if he is being attacked, quite literally.
I have heard that men's pulses increase rapidly during verbal conflicts, and that what I found is quite common.
I just read something yesterday, that a man's complaint is commonly women's tactics in arguments.
It is not surprising that the ability to express logical thoughts verbally is hard for men. Men have much less areas of their brains for language.
It makes sense, also because biologically, men once evolved to hunt and protect others from predators and danger.
Men are truly amazing how they react so instantly, and are so focused.
My partner loves riding motorbikes... fast.
He can avoid situations when riding and driving in an instant.
All these amazing skills that men have are incredible!! Focus, strength, stamina, protectiveness, and a lot more. Men are able to be very stable and consistent. It will all increase with age. My partner, and a lot of guys probably got angry or hot tempered more when younger. Hormones are a fascinating topic also.
I wish you people all the best with BMW and anything else you discover along your journeys and wonderful lives.
PS Women are very complex, so remember they might be more happy to "argue". We evolved to be experts in getting on in groups. That means a lot of talking, listening to different views and coming to a consensus, or resolution. Maturity takes a while for all people, and relationships are often a challenge, especially when you really can't understand how others think.
Sometimes girlfriends and mothers are hard to cope with.
The main relationship is the one we have with ourselves. From this acceptance we can tolerate others who falter, as we do. We cannot be hard on ourselves. We are doing okay!! Life is all about learning.
I was talking to an 88year old lady who I have befriended. She is another generation older than me. With a heart trying to accept and forgive all things, I am far behind her wisdom. She is closer to "God" I think. She said "In the end you love everybody."
Whenever is feel distressed and emotionally weak. Tedtalk always cure me ❤️
The lady is so calming & seems so calm as a person. It obviously worked for her so I'll be trying this. Thank you🙏
One of the best stories I've ever heard. Very inspiring. THANKS!
Dr. Bal, I loved the way you delivered your message. It was touching and I loved every moment of it.
With her speech, she transmits totally positive energy, peace and spiritual heal.
OMG, what a brave lady. I feel so sad for her to lose the baby, but she is very happy healthy now. Brilliant.
The what happens in Vegas joke really got me 😂😂😂 what a sweet woman with a wonderful message! ❤️
Amazing, wonderful lady! May God bless her and everyone reading this! ❤️❤️
This is an amazing TED Talk! God bless Dr. Pawa for all what she is doing to help to the people who need professional medical assistance and help.
Wonderful speech, very inspiring, million thanks from a chronic /helpless panic attack sufferer here in Hong Kong
What a beautiful speech from a dignified authentic presenter! Very inspiring & insightful
Thank you for your speech ! It calmed me down and empowered me after a few days of Tunnel-Feeling of anger and sadness. Thank you Dr. !
I'm already in love with you Dr.Pawa ,your peaceful way of explaining things surely puts an impact on what you have achieved through BMW.Will surely start this from today.
Dr Bal You are an inspiration to all & I am so glad that my daughter had me watch your presentation! Blessings to you!
What an amazing storyteller, kept my attention and felt relaxed and motivated!
Bless you for your courage and honesty. You make the world a better place. Thank you. ❤
She's one of the best!
I studied voice when i was young, i apply my breathing excercise everytime i experience stress. I inhale slowly, hold it in my diaprghm, then releasing the air slowly.. i think of the people who cares and love me everytime i do this excercise.
Excellent video, may all your anxiety go away and live a happy life.
This talk revealed to me, that I am Possible
My life has received new meaning 🥺🙏🧘🙌
The instant cure for anxiety is to understand the fact that there are infinite amount of possible outcomes in this universe and our brain only thinks of a handful . A bad outcome can become the means of a good outcome in the future. Just like that a good outcome can become the means of a bad outcome. For example, you lost your job (bad thing). But then you got a new job which is better ( bad thing led to a good outcome.) It's an endless cycle. So just go with the flow and don't think about it . 😄 Goodluck.
Exactly what happened to me. Lost my job during Covid. Unemployed and depressed. After months of stress and depression I landed a job paying me more than I’ve ever made. Though the outcome was a positive, the journey to that positive wasn’t pleasant.
Amazing glad to know we are not alone. We are right there with Doctors 👍👍👍🙏🙏. This really does work
This was extremely helpful and timely for me. My mother is a doctor, and she is always operating under stress/anxiety. I just sent this to her. Thank you, Doctor.
No one will help you..only you can do it trusting yourself ❤️
This was such a well laid out presentation! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
your energy and life experience are so honest,sincere...thank you.
Great talk. You inspired me to use my word again. Thank you🙏🏽
Lovely lady! Thank you for this one. Really appreciate it and helps a lot 🙏
Thank you very much for this beautiful, sensitive, and interesting explanation!
Amazing talk, loved this so much, so many takeaways and so beautifully explained. Thank you Dr Pawa for sharing your personal journey with us. God bless you 🙏
Not only did this video make me cry it was life changing. Thank you for sharing your story!
Lindsay in Ontario 🇨🇦
I’m from Ottawa. So much stress. Please help
Such a pleasant person!!!great speech and tips.Many thanks, I need those in my life👏
It does work - My anxiety caused excessive reflux symptoms that made it hard for me to even breathe. I’ve been meditating daily and been off my stomach meds for over a year as a result. Be patient. Pair it with healthy eating. And most importantly, consult a doc because everyone is different and you shouldn’t take medical advice from CZcams strangers 🤣
Try to write it on a paper whatever your thought you think maybe it will help to reduce your anxiety..
So true I have anxiety so bad that I cannot breathe and I feel like I am choking all the time. I so scared to go to the hospital because of the current situation. I cook good healthy food for myself, no process foods, I try to meditate but I am still not feeling better. I am praying that I will get over this soon!
@@NansGlobalKitchen I hope you feel better soon! I know you’ll get there. ❤️
@@candykandy Thankyou very much!❤❤❤
Yes meditation is helpful and it is good to be reminded to do it, especially in dealing with PTSD and much of it from the healthcare system but a lot of other systemic policies. The online advice is more helpful than what I get from professionals, which was costly in hardship, time and money, leaving me broke and worse off than before. Taking care of myself is needed so I can care for others.
I have enjoyed your presentation! I am so very sorry about the loss of your baby! I wish my mind would take control over my body.Good for you that you were able to avail yourself to help!
What a great testimony, I cried @ 13:18 watching this! So I’m dealing with stress & depression now for 5 months and I agree, BMW helped! And I think I just have to do my routine to get better and better❤️❤️❤️ Thank you so much for this💕
I love her personality and warming smile 😊
So amazing, thank you so much for your speech. Very sure this will change many lives for the better! 🙏🙏🙏
God Bless you Doc. Your talk has bought so much light to my dark tunnel.
God bless her, what a beautiful person0, classy lady. She has inspired me beyond my ability to even explain. All I can say is, WOW!!!
I need help.. i cant sleep cant relax. Mind goes 10000000 mph . Sad part is so many people dont listen when you tell them you need help. Hearing this makes me feel better. ❤ gonna start now
It's really crazy... Just yesterday my fiancee and I were coming back home and a little white dog ran out in front of my car and I slammed on my brakes just in time to tap him but to me it sounded like I killed him. I just froze until the owner ran over and picked up his dog that was ok. He apologized profusely and so did I and parted ways but as soon as I got back into my car I broke down. I've been dealing with anxiety issues for a year now and never thought something like that would break me so easily but it showed me that I really was on the edge emotionally. Luckily my fiancee was there to calm me down and we were a block away from my house but I'll never forget it. I'm watching videos like these to try and help myself get better and thought it was crazy that I found this video right after that happened to me.
I really found this TED talk helpful. Thank You.
Best Tedx speech i have heard so inspiring and honest thank you
Thank you Dr. Pawa for this wonderful and inspiring speech and good luck everybody in riding the BMW ❤
Thank you Dr Bal, what a lesson and no one pays anything for a medical bill, thank you!
Wow. Awesome. I starting driving a BMW 2 years and ago it's not ready to be parked yet. Thank you for sharing
Brautiful! Many Thanks and Much Love to you
That's the most help full advice I have ever got , Thank you so much ma'am
Dr.Bal Pawa, Namaskar and thank you.
Best speech on mental health i ever heard on Ted ex Talks, May Allah bless you more mam!
Thank you for sharing; Gid bless you and give strength 🙏
so full of experience and knowledge.
Thank you so much. I have begun my day with prayer and try to relax before I start my busy day. Going through a very difficult time trying not to get too overwhelmed. Glad I took a meditation class when I was going to yoga.Happy New year, Blessings … Namaste❤✨🙏🕊🌎😇
What a lovely person she is. That was a nice presentation.
How beautiful is humanity and people like her are flowers among us.
How inspiring is your story. Thank you for sharing it with us
That was amazing! True, we should not just rely on medicine but also on meditation, exercising or anything that brings joy to us. All these bring good hormones to our body and the body tries to heal itself. I also find listening to calming and soothing music very relaxing. My favorite these days is The Journey by Roundglass music.
by watching the video I already felt better, thank you
It sounds so easy and simple right? what is missing discipline. For me my word is words "this too shall pass" it takes an actual effort and discipline for this to work but the beauty is that is does!!!!
How are you doing today?
What an amazing WOMAN!! Thank you.
Superb delivery, hard-hitting content, effective dress up,appropriate slides. Kudos Bal. Bakul Dalal
You are adorable! What a beautiful Ted Talk dearest Doctor! Thanks
Amazing!!! Amazing!!!! Amazing!!!’
Thank you so much beautiful soul for importing message 💕
Thank you so much.
Thank you so much for your valuable advice. I am gonna use it.
Awesome ...BMW...Breath, Mind and Word
So glad it finished with hope
God bless this lady, I love her soul