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- čas přidán 10. 07. 2016
- Let's be honest, the early stages of recovery are rubbish, really rubbish.
But not going to the toilet for two weeks seems to be a taboo subject despite the fact that it is very real.
Maybe I'm jaded after so long going round and round but I think all this positivity is hugely detrimental.
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THANK YOU. The recovery community on Instagram actually makes me less inclined to recover. Because I know #pintpartys or eating like a three course meal for a snack will trigger me into binging, then relapsing and restricting and taking lax straight again. I'm scared it will even cause me to purge, which is something I don't want to do because I like restricting and the control it gives me.
Plus I can see through most of the lies in the pictures. No way someone can eat 3000+ calories and only look slightly different from their LW without extreme exercise. It sends a false message to those who are still suffering.
That's why I look up to you, Holly. You're real about recovery and how it's like.
This is the most genuine explanation of true recovery! I lost track of you shortly after Isla was born and suddenly today I received an email from an old instagram account and it included you. I was STUNNED to see you now and truly happy to know about your continuing recovery. You are LIVING proof that it's possible despite the absolute nightmare that it is to endure. I love everything you said in this video but the thing that struck me hardest was the point that you don't want to start over with the reseeding process. As much as it sucks 3 months in, that's 3 months checked off and closer to not-complete-shit. This is the number 1 reason keeping me from falling back to my eating disorder.
This is the first video I landed on and I look forward to catching up with you! 😘
I didn't really understand this till I saw the insta types you meant and God everything you said is so true!!X
i know you are 25 but you look younger and i just see you as so smart with so much understanding and knowlege about so many things
as soon as you started ranting about pint party i had to stop watching. i understand that different people are at different stages of recovery but i don't think it is fair to try to describe what recovery is to people who may be facing it or who need to face it because everyone's recovery is different. This video almost gave me a sense of not wanting to be in recovery. Have you ever considered that maybe pint party is more of a challenge, who knows maybe these people want a whole pint of ice cream? good on them. After one admission to an open unit my recovery was pretty positive and this video kind of makes me feel embarrassed/guilty for that.
I can appreciate the message here. Recovery doesn't happen overnight, and it's easy to get caught up in the idea that you're 'cured'. But you don't cure anorexia; you manage it, day to day.
Also, when people actually state how many grams of cereal or whatever they use and #recoverywin. NO. That's not recovery.
A huge part of my ED is weighing everything to track the calories and not go over a certain amount a day. If you're actually weighing your food, even if it is a regular portion size, every time you eat that meal (which shows up like at least 1x a week on their feed) that isn't recovery. NOBODY I know measures their cereal with a weighing scale, unless they are on a diet. Portion sizes give a good estimate to the calorie content, which indeed is a disordered habit.
I don't feel worthy to recover yet until I've lost another few lbs so I'm under 65lbs. But when I choose to, I know my first step will be to stop weighing out food crazily. Because that is a very disordered habit.
I think the idea behind the recovery win for eating a pint of ice cream has more to do with not feeling GUILTY for doing so. Its ok to feel ok with eating a pint of ice cream. No it's not "normal eating". But it's all about getting past the mindset of being afraid of food. The hunger will return to normal eventually but for now I think eating that much is ok when you are recovering.
I love your videos btw but I just wanted to put in my 2 cents
+MJ Murphy I agree with this, eating guilt free is super important but you can get past that mindset without eating a pint of ice cream once a week. A variety of desserts would actually be more beneficial.
Eating vast amounts is generally very detrimental unless you're being closely monitored and following an ever changing diet plan.. It's a difficult thing to find balance with when recovery but when your mental health is vulnerable it's far too easy to slip into another disorder (bulimia/binge eating) if you're recovery diet is full of binges.
+Holly Griffiths very true. Variety is very important because of the wide range of fears one has in an Ed mindset. Getting in a comfortable routine isn't challenging your Ed at all even if what you are eating complete crap. I totally see where your coming from👌🏼 I was just confused at first I guess because I really believe giving into real cravings while in recovery because you have deprived yourself for so long. But you are 100% right. Challenging yourself is so important and if all you're doing to challenge yourself is eating a pint once a week then that's not going to help in the long run.
Thanks for responding :)
Please come back 😭😩❤️
100% true :)
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Hashtag poptarts and ensure..oh .man Holly,im so glad i dont have social media or are a youtuber,im just an old,almost fourty actually,recovering from a type of e.d. Called anorexia miribilis since 1989 that i discovered by accident that not eating for a few days caused a spiritual(non religious)uplift...ouch,my bones...genetic spinal abnoemality like my late father and extreamly breakable bones and most of my teeth gone or broken it ended with four years of lying in bed most of the day and night,i actually fell in love with a man whos also pushing fourty never married or with kids like me and knew my deal from the day we met thru mutual friends,i retired at thirty due to chronic bone pain/sciatica and epilepsy and am a year into our relationship and got out of bed and have gone from a liquid diet to eating whatever i can chew with no teeth so poptarts and ensure is like a soft milk and cereal plus all kinds of specailly prescribed vitamins,its 529 am now on 1/7/18 and ive been up for the past two days,day one,no idea,last night,awoke with a stomach flu so its back and forth to the bathroom,anyway,gonna get more poptarts and ensure today as i lost two packs and two ensure already,BUT in the horrable winter cold,and we just trudged thru a blizzard the other day,i can actually make it out by bus and walking,to see him and reup my food and some pediasure or gatorade..numbers?eh no clue.was never a number person in my life as A.miribilis is like fasting to attain spiritual enlightenment so i know not my wheigh but just an idea from my most recent doctors visit.....eeehhhhh..ok,another day,nice video Holly,best wishes to u and yours :)
40 isn't old. Don't make excuses. And retiring at 30 for spine pain and epilepsy ( the latter can be controlled by meds) plus you can work a desk job. Im 33 and my back hurts daily plus i have depression. If I stop work I spiral. Having no accountability or responsibility is terrible. Your only obligations shouldn't be to go buy pop tarts each day. I know this comment is a year old but come on man. We can do better.
Hi ,I keep comming
Back to bdd I hope
You're doing okay you are
Such a kind sweet person.I know how bdd causes suicidal thoughts,they come up here and there.I am so greatful you made videos,you are the reason I know what's up with me.Its all that's to you
Or I would go through life thinking I was alone,but we are in this together and so many others,I love your
I also am biracial like you
I have hair like yours although you look beautiful with your hair through my eyes! 💖
I hate my hair through my own eyes.Maybe you can buy a steam pod ,it's 140 £ but if it helps you get ready and go out and feel better it's worth it,I will buy one when I get money for my birthday.Its straightenes your hair without any damage because it only uses steam but still straightening it.Maybe you struggle with this like me but,this is only about myself.I look at you and I see someone beautiful who can't see it.I can't speak because I can't see it in myself.I am 15 years old,I had this since I was 12.Its so horrible because we are beautiful,you are beautiful are you are the most person I can relate to out of all the videos ,even on all of CZcams,I hope you are doing okay I love you you are amazing and you have such a beautiful cute smile,I love you💖
I have a lot of friends who eat a pint of ice cream at a time... and they do not have eating disorders.
+Emily Charlotte oh for sure people do it. But a huge issue in eating disorder recovery is that portion control is something that has been so warped that we need to relearn it. And eating an entire pint of icecream once a week isn't 'normal' in terms of having to relearn portion control. Pint party's seem to have stemmed from Minnie Maud culture and that's even more of a reason why it's just a mess.
Why no videos more?
Will you ever come back?
Do you habe Facebook ? I cant find you on there?
You are so beautiful
ur beautiful
i want to be skinny ._.