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Holly E
Registrace 15. 11. 2008
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My journey with finally learning to love myself with all the crazy ups and downs.
My body dysmorphia video: czcams.com/video/-9Vvr16Zkjc/video.html
You can find me on
Instagram - hllylzbth
Twitter - holz105
Snapchat - holz105
My body dysmorphia video: czcams.com/video/-9Vvr16Zkjc/video.html
You can find me on
Instagram - hllylzbth
Twitter - holz105
Snapchat - holz105
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Eating Disorder Recovery - expectations VS reality
zhlédnutí 16KPřed 6 lety
What happens when you’re sick and tired of your eating disorder?? Probably not what you expect. Breaking down the expectations I had of recovery and talking about the reality. You can find my old video on this topic here: czcams.com/video/h-E5kQcf2wo/video.html And you can find me: On Instagram - hllylzbth On Twitter - holz105 On snapchat - holz105
Gym Attitude unboxing and try on!
zhlédnutí 1,5KPřed 6 lety
Unboxing a mini haul from Gym Attitude (gymattitude.co.uk) Jungle print sports bra : gymattitude.co.uk/collections/sports-bras/products/jungle-print-padded-sports-bra Mica sports bra : gymattitude.co.uk/collections/sports-bras/products/mica-sports-bra-orange Black star sports bra : gymattitude.co.uk/collections/sports-bras/products/black-star-sports-bra Short sleeved backless tshirt : gymattitu...
Q&A - returning to YouTube
zhlédnutí 2KPřed 6 lety
I’m FINALLY back on CZcams! If you’re a new friend... WELCOME! If you’re and old friend.... WELCOME BACK! As always you can find me.... On Instagram - hllylzbth On Twitter - holz105 On snapchat - holz105
#realrecovery
zhlédnutí 8KPřed 8 lety
Let's be honest, the early stages of recovery are rubbish, really rubbish. But not going to the toilet for two weeks seems to be a taboo subject despite the fact that it is very real. Maybe I'm jaded after so long going round and round but I think all this positivity is hugely detrimental. Find me Here: hollygriffiths.co.uk Here: holz105 Here: hllylzbth (tw) Here: tw...
My skincare routine
zhlédnutí 2,9KPřed 8 lety
What I'm using on my face now after my first breakout in my (almost) twenty five years. Products: - 9 to 5 cleanser (Lush) - Cosmetic Warrior mask (Lush) - Mask of Magnamity mask (Lush) - Full of Grace serum bar (Lush) - Grease Lightening (Lush) - Cup o Coffee cleanser (Lush) - Dark Angels cleaner (Lush) - Vanishing cream moisturiser (Lush) You can find me Here: hollygriffiths.co.uk Here: insta...
Anxiety - my fears and worries and some uncomfortable truths
zhlédnutí 2,8KPřed 8 lety
There are so many levels to anxiety that I got anxious just making this video! I've struggled with anxiety for longer than I can remember, from anxiety about friends, holidays and my appearance in primary school to very embarrassing and over the top panic attacks in pubs aged 24. It's been a long road that I'm still trying to understand. For more information look Here: www.anxietyuk.org.uk Here...
Body Dysmorphic Disorder - what I see, what I don't and what we need to know
zhlédnutí 48KPřed 8 lety
What do you do when you can't trust what you see? (Trigger Warning) Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is an anxiety disorder that causes a person to have a distorted view of how they look. It's more than low self confidence and it is absolutely not vanity. For more support check out these links: bddfoundation.org/helping-you/getting-help-in-the-uk/#support-groups www.ocduk.org/support-groups www.m...
Depression - my journey, dark times and straightforward facts
zhlédnutí 2,9KPřed 8 lety
Mental health problems affects 1 in 4 people in the uk. The most common of all the disorders is depression with about 3 in every 100 people suffering soley from depression and 1 in 10 from depression mixed with anxiety. So I'm talking about how depression has affected me from my darkest days to the everyday for inexperience and how I've been learning to fight back.. Some helpful resources www.d...
Anorexia Nervosa - my ups and downs and some simple ins and outs
zhlédnutí 7KPřed 8 lety
Back again shouting about mental health. Today I'm talking about anorexia, a disorder I've been fighting for seventeen years. Look out for my upcoming videos on anxiety, depression, OCD and body dysmorphia. You can find me Here: holz105 Here: instagram.com/ hllylzbth (tw) Here: hollygriffiths.co.uk Here: holz105
Borderline personality disorder - my life, my experiences and some simple facts
zhlédnutí 17KPřed 8 lety
It's Mental health awareness month. I've suffered from mental health problems since childhood and my final yet most prevalent diagnosis was Borderline Personality Disorder. I still struggle to eloquently describe what it's like living with borderline but here's a snippet of my experience and my life. And most importantly some simple facts about this disorder. Look out for my MHAM videos on anor...
Dylan's birthday surprise
zhlédnutí 4,4KPřed 8 lety
Today is Dylan's 5th birthday and the Power Rangers picked him up from school! Everyone was super excited because who doesn't love the Power Rangers? I'd say we pulled off a pretty epic birthday surprise. You can find us Here: hollygriffiths.co.uk Here: holz105 Here: hllylzbth (tw) Here: holz105
Wow! I'm back (again.. Ugh)
zhlédnutí 2,1KPřed 8 lety
Jeez this video is a MESS, I absolutely blame iMovie for allowing me to piece things together instead of being organised (this may become a recurring theme) I attempted to give you the low down on what's been going on but I've been away for SO LONG that that was impossible and this was the result. You can keep up with me Here: hollygriffiths.co.uk Here: holz105 Here: instagram.com...
Why are we so scared of holding people accountable?
zhlédnutí 2,3KPřed 9 lety
This is a badly put together video in response to a post on Instagram that didn't get the response is expected. It reopened my eyes to a culture we have online where we don't hold people accountable for their actions or for the things they do in order to protect their mental illness. You can find me Here: holz105 Here: hllylzbth (tw) Here: childofthe-universe.tumblr....
Five unhelpful things to say to a person with an eating disorder
zhlédnutí 10KPřed 9 lety
Five unhelpful things to say to a person with an eating disorder
Losing make up and finding a little bit of self acceptance
zhlédnutí 4,9KPřed 9 lety
Losing make up and finding a little bit of self acceptance
Talking publicaly about eating disorders
zhlédnutí 7KPřed 10 lety
Talking publicaly about eating disorders
Eating Disorder Recovery - expectations vs reality
zhlédnutí 57KPřed 10 lety
Eating Disorder Recovery - expectations vs reality
managing food intolerances during anorexia recovery
zhlédnutí 4KPřed 10 lety
managing food intolerances during anorexia recovery
This is incredibly helpful thank you ❤
Hope you're doing well
Hi, due to health reasons, I was not able to eat enough protein during pregnancy and unfortunately I did not take any vitamin D supplements. In addition, they were twins, so my need increased. Now that I'm worried about whether this could have harmed my children in the long term (especially from a cognitive point of view), so I wanted to ask you. What was it like for you? Have you taken vitamin D and zinc? Did you take extra proteins? If not: are your children really completely healthy and can they concentrate well in school? I hope for an honest yet reassuring answer. A heartfelt thank you.
I like your hair relaxed better
How much did you weigh before the pregnancy?
Hi. Just dropping a comment here to say. I love and miss your videos and really appreciate them. If this channel is still open, please know you are beautiful and creative and I love everything you post. You shine so much and are a great voice in all of this.
You have a glow! I hope everything is going well 🤩
How do you guys feel about BDD and the camera ?
Its always the naturally and extremely beautiful ones who are so hard on themselves. You're extremely beautiful.
I can relate so much i get insecure with my asymmetrical eyes and small pretty flat nose and my height
This video came to me at the right time. Everything you said is what I was searching for.
At least you don't have loose skin like me..everyday is horrible.. and I can totally relate about the blacksheep..
Myself with BPD... I’m underwater, I’m drowning! Also me... it’s Ok, just breath. Tiny part of me... you both are fucking nuts.
Cuanto pesas , mides y imc tenías cuando te quedaste . Yo no tengo trastorno pero me cuenta engordar yo mido 1.58 peso 39.800 y imc 15.8 me cuesta quedarme embarazada que debo hacer
I wonder how you're doing today...
how u got pregnant with eating desorder ? u got ur period??
I know it doesn’t help but I think you are very pretty and can’t find anything I would want to change ❤️ I would love to look like you ❤️
I don't understand, what do you ladies mean when you say you don't see yourself in the mirror? If you can put on makeup and do your hair , obviously you can see yourself? Do you actually hallucinate and see yourself fatter than you are? Or do you just not like what you see and feel very upset at some of the fat in undesired places?
Wow u look amazing .. you are tall? I'm tall I only 7 lbs I'm 31 weeks I was 186 before pregnant I'm now 193 baby is good @4 lbs 2oz .. thank you for sharing,🥰🥰
You are one of the only reasonable girls on youtube
Like listening to myself!
You’ve come such a long way and I’m so happy you look beautiful and happy
It’s been so long since I’ve seen your channel
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I feel like this myself but what really hurts is when people you know feed into this by stupid little comments that stick with you forever
I just found this video.. I can relate so much to what you are saying. Thank you for posting it and being honest and open . You are very beautiful
Your skin is glowing . 37 weeks is amazing. Your birthday ring is cool , losing one pound is a lot. Don't be nervous and contraction is always a little bit pain. Let's be positive. New friend here. Hope you visit us too
One of the best BPD videos.
Boy do I relate to this . I’m pregnant now 20 weeks. I’m doing better and everyday I just try to get through the thoughts and try to hold on to the idea of my baby. And just thankful that I’ve done better for my self and the baby .
This woman’s recovery story is so inspirational! It’s also one relate to. I suffered from an eating disorder since I was 13/14, I’m now 20 and better than ever. I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl several months ago and she makes me determined to stay healthy so I can be there for her ❤️ I hope you too are still doing well as it’s been a year since you’ve posted ❤️
I have severe BDD, I am 13 kg underweight just to slim down my thighs but I see them HUGE. My mom is worried and everyone is but I just want to see what they see..
Thank you for making this. You described my life for the last 30+ years although there are times of being at normal weight but all the thoughts and rituals are still there and the desperation to lose weight. As the years go by, it’s harder and harder especially because the body destroys itself. I have many permanent damaged parts to my health, and yet, it doesn’t end. This video is 5 yrs old so I really hope you’ve found recovery finally. I wouldn’t wish my life on anyone. Thank you for your videos and I look forward to seeing more.
This is so important, and so well articulated. Please keep making content - you are so helpful for bringing light to these internal thoughts.
Just found this fantastic channel today and watching back, I was just wondering if you were still planning on coming back to you tube?
omg your hair is literallllllllllly sooooooooooo cute
Omg, I saw the video by taff about you and then I search you in Google. I have respect about this whats happend with you. ❤
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GIRL U ARE THE MOST GEORGEOUS BEING EVER
Sexy collarbones
Vc quebrou uma costela??
Dont ever tell someone your insecurities! Trust me!
Holly - this is interesting, honest and open, sincere and well put. Makes one think. DAVID
As a woman of color suffering from BPD, disordered eating, anxiety, depression (self harm in the past) and trichotillomania, I relate to your channel a lot. I’m sorry you struggle with so many disorders at once. I can tell you’re a really strong person though and I’m inspired by your channel! Thanks for making these video
Well I think you’re very pretty if that helps you, I have bdd too. You’re honestly pretty enough to be a model or something. I hope you get some effective help to deal with this. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
I was diagnosed with BDD two years ago. Still struggling beyond words. Never let anyone take photos of me or anything. And feel an immense sense of disconnection from who I percieve myself to be - i don't know who i am anymore or what i look like. Sometimes I miss when i was younger and more innocent and didn't even think about how i looked at all. Its an awful disorder and causes so much anxiety its debilitating. Its comforting to know people like you exist who also struggle with it. Thankyou for posting this❤️
“You look worse at this weight than you did at your weight before anorexia” - this is BRUTAL! I KNOWWW I don’t look good with my bones sticking out. Even though my body dysmorphia has me thinking differently, in my mind, I see different and that different is FAT! “Eating isn’t that hard. Just put food in your mouth and chew, then swallow the food” - Yeah I’m not an idiot you ass. I know HOW to eat, I just can’t MAKE myself eat against my ED thoughts! “I wish I was anorexic cuz then I’d be able to lose weight without effort” - oh really...?! Yeah okay. Did anybody forget to mention to you the hell you’re put through during anorexia? Migraines, orthostatic hypotention, amenorrhea, anemia, gastroparesis, just to name a few....It’s not like we chill, relax, and sit back while pounds melt off of us y’know “You look sick and gross being really underweight” - thanks for telling me and adding more depression to my life. It’s not like I already didn’t feel guilty enough for having this problem for years... “You wear an XS/S? You don’t look like you wear that size” - yeah neither do you but guess what? I happen to be those sizes so shut up “I think you should GAIN 10 more pounds” - well I think you should LOSE at least 10 more pounds. How does it feel to hear that? “You’ve has this mental problem for how many years already. Just get over it for god sake” - excuse me? Last time I heard, mental health doesn’t come with an ‘expiration’ or ‘best before’ date when in recovery or trying for remission “You know anorexia is dangerous, right” - no shit sherlock! I ain’t going through this for the fun of it. Clearly I’m aware of my issue and I don’t need you pointing out the obvious “Have you even tried stopping/getting better/talking to a counsellor??” - noooo, neverrrrr. Why in the world would I, someone who’s dealt with this for x amount of years, wanna do that? Having the chance to live a decent life without all the shit that goes on with anorexia? Pftttt you utterly inconsiderate and unintellectual twat. Like DUH I’ve tried and STILL AM!!!! Ughhhh!!! There are so many more hurtful and harmful things I could list that I have been told throughout my 3 years of having anorexia. However, these seem to be the most recurring of them all. But in all honesty, since mental health tends to thrive off of secrecy and silence, recovery seems to do the same (or at least that’s how mine works). The less you talk about it to me, whether you have good intentions with it or not, and you just simply leave me be, the better chance I have at actually making decent and somewhat linear progress!
I think you’re beautiful but i feel your pain especially in a world of social media and looking ‘perfect’. I take 10000 pics everyday and i dont even have social media i just want to see what other people see in my face and see how ugly i am. I have awful skin with expression lines awful small eyes and a wonky nose, wonky eyes. Its on my mind all day everyday. But i see everyone else as prettier and more beautiful than me and think im not good enough.
I don’t really get the black and white and not much grey thing....
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You are so amazing!