Reacting to a Schizophrenia Simulation!!
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- čas přidán 23. 06. 2024
- My name is Kody, and I am diagnosed with undifferentiated schizophrenia. In this video I blind react to a "Simulation" of schizophrenic symptoms, specifically, auditory hallucinations. Check out my video and be sure to like and subscribe for more content!
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My 2 sons had schizophrenia. They did take their own lives. Thank you for showing me what they went through.
I am so sorry to hear that! Thank you for sharing! I wish you the best!
Im sorry for your loss ❤
Oh, I'm so sorry. :(
Hi Kody! I'm actually the person that uploaded that video. I too suffer from schizophrenia and I came across this simulation a couple of years ago while on CZcams and was shocked by how similar it was to my own experiences. A few months later when I tried to show it to a family member to help educate them on my condition I noticed that the original was blocked because it used some copyrighted music at the end of the video. I tried finding the original publisher but when I couldn't find them I eventually found the video on a news article, so I downloaded it and removed the part with the music. I originally planned to add some commentary to the video, but I was just too nervous in front of a camera and afraid that people I knew might find the video and recognize me and find out about my diagnosis that way that I ultimately decided to just upload it alone in the hopes that it could educate friends and family of others with schizophrenia and help raise empathy and awareness. I never expected it to have the reach it has had, I certainly never expected to see you, an advocate that I follow on social media to react to it! I hope you are doing well, thank you for all the work that you do to better the lives of people like me. You really are an inspiration.
Holy shit. That is brutal… my heart literally pours out to anyone and everyone suffering..
I feel like these are all subconscious thoughts I have and honestly i don’t know if I’d be able to cope if I was actually hearing them I think this video had actually opened my eyes to how bad schizophrenia can be
Mine will accuse me of things and command me to do or say things constantly, tell me to kms, etc. They absolutely don't feel like anything I think and often seem so disjointed. It may be things I fear people thinking/saying but it's not my integrated self. The whole thing seems entrenched in fear/anxiety and I can see how the amygdala would be involved.
Also, trauma is associated with accusatory voices and the experience of trauma may prime the amygdala to be hyper stimulated at the expense of the prefrontal cortex. There are many complicated risks for schizophrenia including genetics, environment and trauma.
You're on the right track, have a read of Carl Jung and Internal Family Systems
Hi Kody, my 34 yr old son has this. He just tried taking his own
Life in September. Now he’s locked himself in his apartment after getting out of the crisis center. No meds and he’s getting worse. I am at a loss. Thank you for bringing awareness to this. It’s be a life long struggle for my son😢
I have been following you on TikTok for quite some time. I have watched you when you were having hallucinations and wondered what you were experiencing. This was an excellent video. I am glad you are going to be on CZcams more now. I am very glad your treatments are helping you. Best wishes. 🥰
Thank you! 🙏
Thanks for sharing this! I have SchizoAffective and my therapist desperately wants to help me but finds it difficult as it's hard to relate when you don't have experiences like this. I suggested him your channel and this video in particular. He is very interested and grateful. Please keep up the content to spread awareness!
Oh, Kody! I have negative self-image and have a problem with negative thoughts about myself, but I know it's my own thinking. I can't imagine trying to deal with these voices telling you bad things. Who needs that validation? I'm so sorry. I have friends who are schizophrenic and I've seen simulations, but to have someone give their insights while listening to this is incredibly helpful. I'm glad you're able to control it with medication. Thank you for your information. I've always appreciated your content!
Hi Kody. Thank you for sharing this. I lost my brother to schizophrenia and bipolar depression five years ago. He was an amazing person and I miss him so much! Watching/listening to this video really helped me understand what he battled for twenty plus years. This must be exhausting to deal with.
Best wishes to you and thanks again for being a voice for all those who can no longer speak up.
Thanks for reacting to this! I found that vid awhile back and it's definitely the one that most trips me out in its realism.
Thank you for showing us more of a inside of whats it like!
Thank you for always educating us!
Your narration and explanations are sooooo eye opening
Thank you for sharing your experiences with us for us to better understand these things. Greatly appreciated
Thanks for coming over here to CZcams. I stay on here. I found you on TikTok but rarely get over there. It’s good to see you again!
That was hard to watch, I can't imagine having episodes like that. I find your content so fascinating, thanks for putting yourself out there.
As a person with depression and bipolar my inner thoughts are so similar it’s freaky. My mind constantly telling me to end me. Or how to. Etc.
same here, not other voices, only my inner thoughts that take many places and telling me to do/end things
I completely empathize with you, @Erica Sherwin. It’s exhausting to battle those thoughts and survive them. One moment at a time adds up quickly. We are all warriors.❤
Yep, that was OCD for me. At least it was an inner dialogue though. I don’t know if I would be strong enough to withstand auditory ones. This is so heartbreaking.
Thank you, Kody, for sharing the simulation and your thoughts and reactions. This helps me understand more fully what schizophrenics battle.
Ooof. This is so rough. Kudos to you for educating people while also struggling with this stuff yourself, and my heart goes out to everyone who has to deal with this, I can't imagine how difficult that must be.
Holy cow. I was skeptical of a schizophrenia simulation , but as someone who has schizoaffective this is scary accurate. Like you said, everyone’s experiences are different, I just wasn’t expecting this to be so similar to what I go through
As someone who deals with a multiple of mental health issues, I find it so fascinating that my depression gives me similar delusions as your audio hallucinations. It's very different hearing someone say "you're worthless" instead of my own mind shouting it. Both are distracting and display so similarly sometimes that I find it hard to accept that many of us may be misdiagnosed if someone explains their mental symptoms improperly.
This helps so much because you are framing it with what you experience. My daughter sometimes has auditory hallucinations at night that wake her. She hears voices in the distance but can't make out what they are saying. It helps that you explain it's not voices in the head. I appreciate you greatly.
I’m schizoaffective (blend of bipolar and schizophrenia) and my voices rarely are negative, one time one told me “there’s always hope, pretty lady!” When I had weight loss surgery 3 years ago they stopped for a month immediately afterwards. And I actually missed them. Sometimes if I’m around a lot of people that I don’t much care for I’ll go inside my mind and listen to the voices, which tend to converse with each other although sometimes they don’t make sense, but they’re a great distraction from situations I’m not sure how to handle.
hey, love the vid man, genuine question; when you visually hallucinate a person who you dont know/havent seen before is their face a completely new face you have never seen before (or atleast dont remember seeing) or is it a repeated person or something completely different? - much love from NZ :))
Omg I knew it was hard because I've listened to you b4.. but.. damn! I hate this for you.. or anybody. I just can't imagine. That's awful and having someone scare u that's inside ur own head, that's so upsetting.. I'm so sorry. I'm glad ur doing better now.
I was wondering if you've heard of Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice, and if you've thought of giving it a try. It's a game with a main character that has audio hallucinations similar to this. I don't know if it would be up your alley, but it seems like something you could check out nonetheless.
Uffda.
I would agree the tones and words used in the hallucinations could reflect on feelings which often snowballs. Giving into the paranoia is so easy to do. This took guts.
Hi Kody, I would love to learn more about what factors trigger hallucinations you can influence, like stress, hunger, being uncomfortable etc.!
Sleep deprivation and stress will always trigger psychosis when they get extreme enough.
These jump cuts that cut you off when you're talking give me more anxiety than the simulator did. I find it interesting that you loaded a simulator to see if it was accurate, and then listened to the voices. I literally only caught some of what the voices were saying, because I was focused on what "we" were buying. I'm glad to know that you're going to be doing more YT vids. I watched a video on the TikTok pay scale (you can find it over on the Vlogbrothers channel) that I was outraged over, on behalf of the TT creators. At least YT is more willing to pay you fairly for your work. Also... I tried starting at the beginning of your TT page, and watching the videos one by one, but their site is just broken. When I'd be on another page for too long, it would go back to the beginning of your page, and then I'd have to scroll back to the bottom for 10 minutes because it loads so slowly, and I just wanted to tear my hair out. Very frustrating. Also almost impossible to search for certain videos there, unless you remember the tag the creator used. Just not user friendly at all. So two thumbs up for a YT transition!!
My heart goes out to anyone with this. Does watching this trigger your symptoms.
He said in a previous one that these usually do not trigger symptoms but they can upset him.
I should not have watched this before going to sleep. That was scary to me. Do you ever get used to that level of fear/hallucinations? Or is it always this frightening?
I literally have voices just like this as an inner monologue a lot of the time, especially when I'm around other people, but it never rises to the level of being an actual hallucination that I feel like I can hear outside of my head. I'm also quite paranoid and prone to delusional thinking. I know it's nothing like schizophrenia due to that key difference of not doubting my actual perception of physical reality, but there are interesting similarities. I wonder if it's only a few key differences in brain chemistry that differentiates people with severe depression and paranoia from people experiencing full schizophrenia.
I might do this with an ocd simulation but I’m also gonna do a day in my life or something else to do with ocd because it’s hard to live with, my major depression is to cause I have some hallucinations
Love you kody
Hey I had a question. I experienced auditory hallucinations when I took shrooms recently. I tried it one more time, and the same thing happened. Is this directly drug related or should I get checked by someone? I am a fairly paranoid person. Mild schizophrenia does run in one side of my family, the other side were heavy drug addicts and I know nothing about them. Thanks!
I'm not an expert, but I am an applied psychologist.
Drugs, particularly weed, is a huge risk factor for developing schizophrenia. If it runs in your family, I suggest staying off them for good. Another risk factor is stress, so keep an eye on that, too.
Shrooms can make you hallucinate. It doesn't necessarily mean you have schizophrenia, at least I don't think so. But you should probably stop doing drugs, especially weed.
As for whether or not you should get checked out for mental health issues, generally speaking, you should definitely get checked out if you're thinking about it. Worst case scenario, you'll find out there's no cause for alarm.
I have a friend. I really do think he has schizophrenia. I really want to help him but it's like he doesn't want my help, even if he suffer a lot. He told me about the voices and allucinations. I really don't know what to do, he lives in another country and can't help him a lot... also he doesn't answer to my messages anymore.
Hope you are doing better now, thanks for the video
Hello! Are you planning on keep uploading short on this account?
Yes! I will be doing both full length videos AND shorts on this page! 😁
Kody, would you say that auditory hallucinations are a manifestation of the person's subconscious thoughts? I hear voices too sometimes, but they're usually always subconscious thoughts that's going on in my head.
How do you know when an auditory hallucination is actually that vs just your conscious mind? I hope that makes sense
"Don't touch that" makes me laugh
Can you let me know why you reacted that way to the little girl singing?
I’m not sure what I have. I might try and get a diagnosis because I hear voices in my mind. Like thoughts are so loud and sound like other people but I don’t hear them as if they are really happening. Im just really scared and confused
can the paranoia from the voices cause symptoms of ocd in some situations?
Scitzoaffective bipolar type here. My voices convince me someone will murder me and what they will do to me. It’s pretty dark and scary. I wish it was that I was told I was worthless.
I don't know how common this is so I'll just put it out there- I am pretty much diagnosed with schizophrenia however it took over a decade to do so. Mostly because I don't have auditory or visual hallucinations. So for anyone who doesn't have that just know you can still have schizophrenia- it's the paranoia that's a killer for me but my paranoia likes to stem from real events.
Why is it that you hear specific words like "worthless" as you said? Are those specific voices from people you know?
My voices are similar and especially negative like that. They always come over my right shoulder from above. Does anyone else have voices that they hear from a specific place like that? I'm wondering if I'm weird? My original voices in my 20's were more friendly and I actually relied on them to tell me what to do. Now they just harass me.
This simulation is literally what I hear everyday and I don't know what's wrong with me. :(
You should get help and seek therapy. Not sure how that works in your country. I live in Holland. In Holland, you typically go to your GP, who can give you a referral for a therapist.
It might be a lot of things. Maybe it's schizophrenia or something close to it. I myself had auditory hallucinations that were temporary and brought on by a lot of stress. I didn't hear voices, but I heard my phone's notification sounds and ringtone, my doorbell, the landline at my internship, those kinds of things. Once my stress level decreased (which took a lot of time and effort), the hallucinations went away. I'm not saying your hallucinations are also temporary, though. I don't know.
One tip for you in the meantime that might help. The way I learned to differentiate hallucinations from real life was that hallucinations never came from a specific direction, kind of like when you're wearing headphones and the audio is mono. The sounds kind of came from everywhere. When the doorbell actually did ring, I could hear it ringing from a specific direction. I still made mistakes here and there, but that realization helped a lot. I'm not sure if your hallucinations also don't come from a specific direction. If they do, you can use this trick. As for visual hallucinations, I never had them, but I do know one trick for that, too. If you're not sure whether or not what you're seeing is real, open up the camera app on your phone and point it at the thing you think might be a hallucination. If it doesn't show up in the camera, it's a hallucination. If it does, it's probably real.
What do you mean by you haven’t had any symptoms for the past couple of days, does that mean you don’t hear any voices at all, and if so what do you use to not hear them at all? I find this really interesting! Let me know when you can!
What happens if you put in AirPods to snuff out the voices
You shall know the truth and truth shall set you free John 8:32.
Ephesians 6:10-13
Have you ever had to take meds?
Of course I'm not watching this even tho I was already having bad hallucinations today...
That was sarcasm, I am watching the video.
Mine don’t tell me to kill myself, Instead they want me to do things to other people. Like, pranking them but rather cruel pranks
This isn't acceptable 99 cents for that granola i wish 😢
people should show this to those fakers on tiktok, see how quirky they think it is after that
Early
I'm very lucky my voices are nothing like this . I have experienced one that liked to tell me I'm going to hell and and it's gonna suck on many levels for me it was just recent and rare. I outsmarted it for the time being . I'm not very smart I didn't do well in school and my vocabulary you is extremely poor. So basically I finally thought 90 percent of people are smarter then me so it must have a much bigger vocabulary so I said your full of shit f your real tell me a word I've never heard before or I can't define. I heard some words pop into my mind and they were ones i never would have came up with but I did feel like I was also thinking a bit not a 100 percent listening tbh but like maybe 5 words came through that I googled like I heard manning and I was like that's a last name nope then it came back manning tool and so I googled it and I was like nope I know that from the military manning pools so I was like uhm did it call me a tool after manning or did it mean manning pool. So this was the last one where I said I know the word manning but I'll admit that I said it was a last name I had forgot about manning pools in the military so I said what did I do to deserve to ho to hell according to you. And it said I burned 100 baby's which was kinda like ok didn't know what to expect but not that. The strange thing is like a day later the luxury brand bal something came out and I was interested and I ggogled alot of stuff about it and it turned out that people assume it was related to ball a demon or satanic being who apparently is a God who sacrifices baby and children by burning so that was weird. But it hasn't bothered me since
Hi Kody! I am a recovering addict as well. And while I am not schizophrenic, I did have a few episodes of drug induced psychosis. My main drug of choice was heroin or meth so when I did the meth I would be up for days, having not ate or drank anything except maybe alcohol and combined with the drug it would cause me to go into really intense psychosis. It always started after about 5 days of no sleep on meth but I've had them from alcohol mixed with pills too. And they seem so real. I still have memories of some of the hallucinations and they seemed so vivid. So I understand to an extent. I'm sure what you deal with is alot more difficult. You're such a strong person. I really admire how well you've been able to manage and over come this disease.