IDONTLIKETHISLEVEL

i know it's been a while since I've done anything on here, my mental health hasn't been the greatest. This level is something I know I will regret posting, but I'm just going to have to live with that. It's an imperfect level, there are so many flaws within it, but I'm keeping them in here. I know I'm going to probably get some hate for this, for trying too hard to be a "story" level or whatever but I don't know, I don't know why i built this. I don't gain anything from building this or posting this but yet I'm here doing just that. Fuck mental health...
I wasn't able to express everything I wanted in this level. But I want to say that I am not happy with who I am as a creator, but I want to try and change that. I've struggled to build anything, with only glimpses of motivation every now and then to post some 6* I'll end up hating 2 days later anyway. I know that some people know this, but there isn't a single level of mine I can say with full confidence that I am proud of, and that's not a good thing. I regret everything I upload and its been bubbling up and getting worse in the recent few months to the point where I've deleted levels I've uploaded as I hated them THAT much.
I want to be a better creator, one that is happy with what they make and can say they are proud of their work. I... I am not even remotely close to that. If I want to achieve that goal, it will take a lot of time and effort. I most likely wont do this, I know who I am. I'll end back up where I was a few months ago, unhappy with anything and putting barely any effort into what I create. But oh well, I guess that's life, we'll see where I end up in the future.
Thanks for listening...