Sean Talks About His COLONOSCOPY | Brain Leak Ep. 10
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- čas přidán 6. 08. 2024
- It’s time for a brand new, fun-filled episode of Brain Leak. This week on the show, ETHAN SAW SPIDER-MAN!!! Next, the guys get real by discussing health, including the ins and outs (get it) of a colonoscopy before an important conversation about mental health. Finally, it’s a mega-sized installment of BAD ADVICE!
Also included in this episode…Apple Vision Pro, more Spider-Man, Nic Cage? Central AC and so much more!
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Timecodes:
00:00:00 - Intro
00:15:55 - Babbel
00:18:44 - Medical Exams
00:29:06 - Apple Vision Pro
00:41:56 - Let's Get Real...
01:03:40 - BAD ADVICE
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#jacksepticeye #ethannestor #brainleakpodcast
hearing Sean and Ethan talk about how they’ve been dealing with depression and spiraling makes me feel less alone in my fight against those feelings
I wish that Seán and Ethan could stop giving themselves a hard time about feeling… well… _human._
I said _“could”_ instead of _“would,”_ because I don’t believe Seán or Ethan is fully capable of cutting themselves some slack in this instance.
I’m very glad their discussion was comforting to you, as well as countless others. But just because they’re both successful doesn’t mean they’re not susceptible to the same (or similar) mental and physical afflictions as the rest of us.
It kinda broke my heart seeing the both of them lambasting themselves that way.
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@@Lesley_RedRhodythat's what I was thinking when they talked about Tom Holland. Yeah, he's successful, and privileged in the sense that he *can* take that time off. But he is human. His bank balance doesn't diminish his feelings, and how burned out he is. Rather than laying into him, we should lay into the people who are making it so that the common folk can't take time off when we need to without worrying whether we'll be homeless because of it.
@@turtlesandwich77 It’s comforting to see solidarity in the comments. Makes my Little Babble Heart swell!
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I know right. I am going through the same thing right now.
I'm going through the same thing! I hope we all get better soon :)
BRAIN LAND IS MY FAVORITE PODCAST I love Evan and Shane so much
This has no business being this funny pls
its ethen and sean
@@beckingston.it was a joke genius
@@beckingston.bro 😂
@@beckingston.r/woosh
Petition to have Sean temporarily change his channel name to JackSepticArse
Seán just casually talking about the colonoscopy and info dumping, while Ethan is laughing at every single thing, amazing 😂😂
For the colonoscopy video, they need to have Mark as a special guest commentating along with Séan
It'd be like a sequel to the Unus Annus wax video.
omfg, as hype as they were for his fight 💀
I bet he'd want to join too (to prove he has the guts to take it)
@@pedrostormragedefinitely not because he's a masochist or anything
@anironsidh given his struggles with his own gut issues, odds are he's already had one. Also, it's strange you mention Mark and masochism in the same sentence. He is by far the least masochistic person on the planet. 😂
@nataliegray8019 the masochist thing was a joke from unus annus
i was put under for my colonoscopy. right before i fell asleep i said “be gentle it’s my first time” and i heard the nurses chuckle as i faded out 🤣
My favourite part of watching Spiderverse in theatres was at the end when my stepdad shouted “NO”, a stranger in front of me said “you can’t blue ball a movie” and when I turned to my mother fearfully and said “I forgot to tell you it’s part one”
Seeing them talk about their lives seriously was so relaxing and calming IDK why?
It's calming to hear that struggles like these are normal and there's nothing wrong with feeling this way.
I feel so bad for Sean about him dealing with all of this. He has talked about so many things that I can relate to. I have generalized anxiety, health anxiety, and clinical depression. And I would compare myself to others as well, and be really hard on myself. It’s heartbreaking to hear him talk about this, but I appreciate him being open about it. I wish him the best and I hope he finds more things to do outside of the internet. He has been a great ally to me helping me through my day to day life, his energy, teaching moments, and closure is contagious! On the funny side, the water up the ass, never want to experience that again! XD
In hindsight the podcast easily could have been named Ass Leak with the amount of stories so far
Was just thinking this 😂🤣
Bowel leak 😂
@@lyndiwilson2334 butt leak hahahaha
haha HIND-sight
@@Zelig_Shaine 🧍🏻♀️
touché
Dudes I’ve been mentally rolling on the floor for the day waiting for this episode, my patience’s been leaking out my boots.
Not your brain?
Patience is stored in the toes
Hearing Ethan and Sean talking about not feeling allowed to feel sad or burn out because they think they are privileged with what they do made me think that it's all the same for all kinds of jobs in some ways...as I see it I could never put myself out there in front of the whole internet every other day recording myself, trying to entertain people or speak about what I think...I get that this is time consuming and stressful many times. The same as any other job takes responsibility and you need to be creative, funny or focused and precise. Everyone can have a hard time with their job because it's a part of your life..and life it's not always easy.
I'm on a patreon for another CZcamsr. Yesterday they made a post and somebody said something rude and the creator politely ask them to not be so negative next time. And the person proceeded to go on a tirade with like 40 messages making themselves the victim and calling the creator all kinds of things. When other patreons were trying to get the person to calm down they started attacking us. I could never deal with the stuff that these guys have to deal with
Sean saying "I just want to see how much my body can take" killed me 😂 you guys are so hilarious I love you
Sean spent too much time with Markiplier 😂
I don't think I've watched this many episodes of any podcast before. But when it's Ethan and Seán, how could I not watch them
I never knew Sean had so many impressions nailed down. Every time he does one it's spot on.
I was worried that my Bad Advice question wouldn’t be interesting enough…
Thank you, Seán and Ethan!!
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Oh it’s you!
@@WillBinge Hi!! 👋😁
I won't self diagnose, but hearing Ethan say there is a term for not being able to express your feelings in words really hit something in me.
1:00:11 alexithymia yes, i have this!!!
It's so nice hearing them talk seriously about the hard stuff they've been going through. Its very reassuring to know that yes they are human too, and feel the same shit we do.
I always get happy when they post this because all it is is just sean and ethan talking about random stuff and it is very entertaining lol
Listening to them talk about their mental health is honestly so inspiring and reassuring. I relate to it so much. and SAME, I just want to have hobbys that aren't on the screen or sitting at my desk. it's so calming and somehow validating that even they have these same problems. I love you guys
As someone with Major Depressive Disorder, (yes, diagnosed), I felt so seen when the boys talked about their depression and talked about their spirals. I have daily spirals and very frequent episodes, and I’m happy that they were so open with their mental illness
im 24 and a trans man, had to have a colonoscopy at 23, and ended up having a precancerous polyp. one not usually found in afab people, let alone people under 40. gender affirming but scary. they put me on fentanyl and said i wouldnt remember it (i remember all of it)
I'm 27 and had it last year, I'm nb and had nothing but the fact we had to have a colonoscopy at our age is just wild. I hope you're feeling better!
@@pennyaldente There are an estimated 10 million people in the world living with IBD (Crohn's and Ulcerative Colitis), I'm afraid Colonoscopy's in the young is far more common than you may think. I'm 33, and since I was diagnosed at 22 I've had 4 colonoscopy's and a hand full of sigmoidoscopy's. Also had multiple polyps removed, they're fairly standard with certain conditions.
I'm in no way trying to undermine anyones experience and it's not a pleasant procedure I know. Just more common than most people think.
Damn fentanyl???
it's been a while, but i hope you're doing well. 🌻 that must've been hard, so i am proud you were able to get medical help. you're very strong
As difficult as it must be for them to talk about depression, spiraling, etc... it's *so* healing to hear about Ethan and Sean's experiences. It makes me feel much less alone in my day to day struggles.
Remember: colonoscopies are done in the fetal position and not the fecal position.
mwahaha
Dear Seán & Ethan,
I REALLY hope you both see this.
*TAKES A DEEP BREATH*
Your Fanbase is NOT Worth "YOUR LIVES!!!"
I understand that given your Jobs as CZcamsrs you feel you owe us and to SOME degree You should definitely appreciate everyone/thing that got yall to where you are BUT IT STOPS THERE.
YOU ARE ALLOWED TO NOT BE HAPPY WITH SITUATIONS IN YOUR LIFE THAT ARENT GOING WELL & UPSET YOU.
Yes You're Speaking from Places of Privilege BUT YOU'RE STILL HUMAN BEINGS!!
YOUR FEELINGS ARE F*CKING VALID!!!
The Fans & People in general who Genuinely care about you would LITERALLY rather you guys take YEARS away from CZcams OR Quit Altogether to Find Happiness/Peace & Live Your Lives in whatever Capacity that means for you two individually RATHER THAN Continue to burn yourselves out & grow more Miserable for Your Channels.
PLEASE. GO. LIVE. Even if living for a while means doing F*ck All! The important thing is its YOUR time to do what yoi want with it.
People will ALWAYS Complain. People will ALWAYS Judge. & People will ALWAYS Misunderstand Looking from the Outside In.
NO MATTER HOW CONSIDERATE & SELF SACRiFICING YOU ARE!!
So F*CK IT. You Both have done MORE THAN ENOUGH to solidify where Your Moral Standings are with all things & If people STILL dont get it? Dude they can honestly Go F*ck Themselves.
ALSO DESPITE YOUR BRAINS TRICKING YOU, YOU BOTH ARE DOING SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU GIVE YOURSELVES CREDIT FOR. I AM PROUD OF YOU & YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURSELVES!!
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THIS THIS THIS!!! ♥️♥️♥️
All of this^^
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To hear people being so open about mental health struggles makes me feel so good inside. I have been struggling with my mental health since 5th grade, and I always felt so alone and like I was completely different from everyone else. Now every time people are open about their struggles I feel less alone. I also am struggling with depression right now, and to hear others are also struggling gives me a feeling of comfort, like if they can do it so can I.
As someone who literally has the follow up appointment for my colonoscopy/endoscopy today, the timing is insane. Glad everything went okay on Sean's end. Or perhaps in it-
I hope everything goes well for you!
Lol "Sean's end."
I just have to say the boys looked nice in this episode, Seán's hair is magnificent and Ethan looks very good in his lil Steve Jobs fit lol. Excited for the in person episode(s)! Glad to hear both of you are trying to take care of yourselves and that therapy seems to be helping you work through those feelings. 💜
sounds like when my bf was on ''auto pilot'' when he was younger. for context, he had un- diagnosed autism, and throughout his school years he learned certain behaviors he would repeat everyday to just be ''normal'' or to just get through the day, he would describe to me that, it felt almost out of body, because he couldn't express what he really felt or thought, but was aware of what he wanted to feel and do, but just couldn't get passed what his brain basically learned to do automatically. he says he felt like he was watching a machine work without actually having the control of it. its kinda like dissociation, but you're aware the whole time. now, i'm not saying y'all have autism lol, i just wanted to share a similar experience that maybe helps explain what to call that lol.
I love that I’m at work every week at 1am and the episode drops during my shift so I get to laugh by myself as loud as I want in a store alone 😂
If you ever want a copy of the video of a surgery or medical procedure, you can always ask the place you're going to if they can do that for you. Just be sure to discuss it before hand because not all clinics have recording gear set up. I have a CD with a copy of my MRI records because I wanted to see my own brain and they were on board lol.
NEWWWW EPISODEEE YESSSSSS
53:56 Just that whole bit. You have no idea how relatable that is to so many people, including myself. Even more so for us neurodivergent folks. ❤
I've had a lack of leakage lately but this just made me leak everywhere. 🤯
I love this podcast so much. I’ve been feeling really depressed lately without knowing whats wrong. I also notice my friends are all doing so much and its going so well for them and then i dont even feel like i’m living life. I dont hear anyone talk about having these struggles, so hearing you guys talk about exactly that makes me feel so validated and seen. Huge respect to these legends for being able to talk openly about this and help so many people
I switched from another video to this one ...sooo quick 😂😂😂😂
Every job comes with positives and negatives. Being a CZcamsr is no different. And I personally feel like it’s important to acknowledge the negatives, so people aren’t disillusioned into thinking it’s a perfect career and perfect life, because it’s NOT. These boys have their mental, emotional, and physical struggles, just like the rest of us, and I’m glad they’re willing to discuss their mental health issues with the audience.
I wish i had something good to say. But i cant really think of anything. So ill just say:
If anyone is going through a tough time, with depression, anxiety, stress, ED, whatever it may be, just know that you're not alone. Those who you hold close to you are proud of you. They love you. They miss you. They're happy to have you in their lives. And if all you did today was get out of bed and shower, youre doing great. If youve just eaten for the first time today, good job, youve got this. If you brushed your teeth the first time this week, youre doing great. I hope everyone has an amazing day. Even if that day is just laying in bed watching videos. Youre doing good. And youre trying. Thats all that matters
Brain leak is the only video podcast where I don’t skip the sponsorships
When Sean mentioned sci fi tropes but we are not what we are suppose to be doing. This is so true for disabled people. It immediately reminded me of A woman had a chip implanted in her brain for her seizures and it worked wonders, it gave her her life back, but because the company went bankrupt she was forced to have the chip removed and had to go back to the debilitating state, which was extremely traumatic. Disabled people have to pay exorbitant prices for new medical technology that we need to live or pay for upgrades. Augmented humans already exist, people with basically computers in their bodies already exist, thus cyborgs exist.... its not fiction, problem is we need this shit to survive and we are at the mercy of for profit companies that could be greedy bastards or entirely flop and cease to exist. There is a whole branch of ethics still forming around the idea of giving people medical technology that becomes an integral part of them and then taking it away, but those ethical debates are so new their is no way they have any baring on current medical trials. Its one reason I never want any implanted technology even if it would be helpful I'll take the older treatments its just too scary.
I know thats a little deep to come out of his comment but its so true
Just listening to Sean & Ethan talk about their experiences with handling mental health really does feel so reassuring for my journey with mental health. Knowing that someone else to this extent is feeling similar or dealing with the same battle of emotions is just so validating for me. I love that these two feel comfortable enough to open up about it because it really has helped me and I'm sure many others.
I love how good listeners they are when they're talking about deep stuff
It’s crazy, the night Sean painted something was the night I actually painted something and it came out way better than I thought, it’s just awesome to try new things and explore, and what’s crazier is hearing them talk and finding out how just relatable their lives can be even though we live completely different lives
I feel like I needed to hear them talk about their feelings and privilage because i have been dealing with the same thing, i've been trying to make content for youtube but whenever I playback my videos it feels so terrible to see that it does not meet my expectations (if that makes sense).
I never thought I'd ever get into painting miniatures, but once I got some D&D figures and gave it a try, I felt so fulfilled by the activity. People really should try out different hobbies if they don't have any of their own, there's so much to explore and learn about. :3
the amount of joy this podcast brings me is unreal. i love listening to it on long car rides and also just sitting down and watching the entire yt video ❤
"Comparison is the thief of joy", a phrase ive held close for a long time since recognizing my own depressive issues. Also, I for one welcome our new A.I. overlords lol.
currently 9am where i live, great thing to wake up to and listen while going to therapy
I heard some advice and I think it really applies well here. "Do not compare yourself to anyone else. If you must, then compare to your past self and reflect on how far you've come, how much you've grown. To compare yourself to any other person doesn't make sense, because you can never BE that other person. It's unfair to compare pain or suffering that you've gone through with someone else, because each person experiences pain differently. We've all gone through different things in our lives, each moment leading up to the next. How can we possibly compare to anyone but ourselves?"
It's not that we shouldn't empathize with others, but comparing pain or saying that our suffering matters less than because there are others who have gone through something worse is foolish. That doesn't mean we should focus on it. Rather, we should feel it, truly feel it, and then let it go. It's not an easy thing to do, but it does help.
I struggle with anxiety and depression, it's been at least twenty years. There are days where I don't even know if I can leave my bed, let alone the house. I'm literally the worst enemy for myself. No one else can defeat that monster that stands in my way. Only I can do it. That being said, it doesn't mean I have to walk alone. As a wise person once said, "Burdens are lighter when carried by two, or more." We can be there for each other, sometimes just having another person to listen can help. I hope whomever is reading this, I want you to know that you aren't alone. You are beautiful. You are so much stronger than you know. And most of all, you are loved. And this world really is a much better place with you in it.
You legit upload this on the day I'm prepping for my colonoscopy. Lord help me😂
Hey man, good luck, I wish you well.
Hope its nothing serious
Idk Sean made it sound like a rollercoaster butthole adventure! Good luck though and stay checked before you get butt-wrecked, homie!
good luck!
Haha Same!!!
As a nurse, I'm gonna guess that they absolutely would NOT let you film E's colonoscopy. US docs would be way too concerned about the risk for lawsuits in case there was a complication during procedure. You might be able to get a copy of the actual bowel footage, just not a real-time filming of the procedure and process.
Ethan, i think youre thinking of an incentive spirometer
LETS GO! love the late night leaking
It’s so interesting and comforting to hear Ethan and Sean talk about how much they compare themselves to others, when I feel like they seem like the pinnacle of ‘success.’ I never would have thought that about them. I’m constantly comparing myself as an illustrator, designer, and creator. It’s like there’s just this long line of comparison happening amongst creatives all of the time.
1:01:00 i was introduced to the emotion wheel during therapy some years ago and its helped me quite a bit because i used to just say i was feeling sad or like the most basic feelings or just saying "i don't know". In fact, my no-no phrase in therapy was "i don't know" lol
genuinely love this podcast so much. the VIBES are IMMACULATE.
also very excited for the in person episodes :D
I just woke up and checked my phone, and saw Brain Leak.
Oh boy! 3am!!!
this is the podcast that never makes me anxious and makes me feel relaxed and laugh and the topics flow and change so well for me and you guys are doing a really good job
This was a very fun episode! Looking forward to the next one!
I can relate with Seán I’ve had asthma since I was 3 and I was in the icu a lot and I had to see allergists and other doctors to have check ups. I’m glad I haven’t had a flare up for some time, during the pandemic it was really scary because I’m compromised.
I’m so grateful to have people that I look up to be able to have a healthy and open conversation about physical health and mental health.
thanks for always uploading in time for me to get ready for work 🖤
"Money doesn't buy happiness, but it sure affords a lot of necessities," should be the new extension of that quote. Holy shit, that's good.
You guys are super awesome
I'm so grateful to hear the guys talk about their own struggles with mental health because I think it's important to destigmatise it, especially in men but also especially in people who put so much of themselves out in the public like content creators, actors, musicians, etc. because sure... some of the issues they face with their jobs aren't the same as folks like me and many others who have to do that grind, but that doesn't LESSEN the problems. everyone's problems are relative only to themselves. and I do hope that they both have the help they need with their therapy (again, super thrilled to hear them promote going to therapy!) to ease back out of these spirals.
Lmaooo Im always smoking a bowl when you guys upload w podcast.
Frr
I’ve had a really hard week, and I suffer from similar things to Sean. This was really comforting for me today. Thanks ❤
It's so nice to listen to this podcast. These are conversations I have with my close friends and it's great to hear others talking about real stuff.
I’m glad Ethan and Sean had a moment of reflection on their life, I hope the best for both of you 💙💚
I was literally crying in the kitchen at work trying not to get tears on the eggs you guys have me laughing so hard 😂
Glad to know I'm not the only one who's been going through really bad depression lately. I had the same thing happen where a few weeks ago, I was feeling perfectly fine and then I just woke up one day feeling mentally awful and haven't felt better since. Still have no clue where it came from but hopefully it goes away soon because it's made it hard to even get out of bed some days. I already have generalized anxiety disorder so that on top of this has just been horrible
I'm always so hype when i get a notification that it's Leaky day!
Its really nice hearing Ethan and jack talk about getting a hobby and then not. I really relate to that, as someone who works in the medical field and who is also going to school, all I do is eat and sleep those things. I remember when I used to draw and paint all the time and was so good, now it sister does that and I told her “I wish I had time to flex that muscle again.” and realized I don't even have time to read a book I want 😢 but anyways thanks Ethan and jack for sharing that cause I definitely relate
the mental health conversation was incredibly important and both of you are very valid in how you're expressing your emotions. This assumption that privileged people aren't allowed to complain stems from our belief that once we reach a certain amount of success, sadness and depression won't affect us anymore. Culture sells us this idea to keep us hustling and grinding because we believe that if we invest enough, we eventually reach this point of ''stuff is just good now'' but thats not how mental health works. no matter where you're at in life, your pain is valid. and if someone is fortunate enough to be able to take the necessary breaks to take care of what really matters: their own health! we shouldn't be bitter. its not their fault that the system doesn't offer this for everyone. stress and depression cant be measured by life goals or achievements. do whats good for you. take care of yourself as best as you can and seek out support. express how you're feeling. its all valid.
this year i’ve been particularly enjoying keeping up tot date watching all of sean’s videos as they come out and even made a playlist of horror games hes played that actually help me relax and sleep. but since it’s been a while without videos i’ve really craved new content like the horror games again but at the same time i could see he was starting to have not as much fun with videos. absolutely seemed burnt out. just want my favourite online creator to relax and figure out what is best. but it’s difficult, having become so used to the spiking dopamine fixes and constant rewarding nature of the internet, to be conscious of the fact these things come from really people.
Keep opening up and talking about your struggles, guys. It’s honestly good to hear.
I love this podcast so much 😅
I find myself comparing my ability to do things to everyone as well. I am SO anxious and have panic attacks, and I hate myself for being unable to like think normally or be normal. I feel so seen in this episode
The most important thing to realize is no matter who you are, what job you have, or how much money you have. Your problems are still problems, even if someone has it “worse” in your eyes. Your problems are still worth talking about and feeling. Youre feeling are valid Yall! We love you so much ❤️
Thank you for being candid about your dealings with depression, feels better to know others also struggle with how it interferes with their creativity
You guys are wonderfully tackling themes that should be talked about way more!
Let’s give brain leak 1m subscribers for Sean and ethan!
Its really fun seeing Ethan and Sean talk about asthma test and what not and recognizing them (as an felmow asthmatic)
It’s funny that Ethan says he feels like he can’t complain, when just a minutes ago they made fun of people who say they have a harsher weather than them. Just like hot weather, your problems are relative, Ethan. Just yesterday I was feeling bad so I googled if anybody felt the same in my particular situation. Turns out there were people out there that had a better reason than I did for feeling that way. But that doesn’t invalidate my feelings. So it’s ok, Ethan. Your problems, even when you’re a privileged person, are yours and no one else has them. You can feel bad about it, and that’s fine.
I love painting minis too; I'm just learning. Some of the ones I finish I end up leaving in weird places in friends' houses for them to find later.
I truly believe that guys also have their time of the month. Where you just feel like crap and depression sets in. And after a couple weeks you feel so much better.
boys i am very proud of both of you. you make me feel less alone in my struggles, and your humility and openness is so refreshing to see. came for the funny, stayed for the relatability. take care of yourselves! also eef your money tree looks very happy and that gives me serotonin
Thanks for opening up about stuff guys, it was nice to hear your genuine states of mental health. Hearing about the therapy process is always cool too, I have never been and always considered it.
Would live an Ask a Mortician style video with mortuary training please, my morbid ass loves to learn about the death industry.
i love how this podcast just feels like 2 friend's inna discord call just being silly goosers. thats basically what it is hahah
Please consider DBT as an option for therapy, Ethan! When I was diagnosed with ADHD at 22yrs old, I genuinely didn’t realize how bad I was at identifying emotions and categorizing them into anything other than ‘upset’. Dialectical Behaviour Therapy taught me a lot about reading/labelling those emotions and what they’re telling you, so you can choose how to respond and serve yourself better.
Sean, if you do want AC downstairs you could get a "Ductless Mini-Split" system. It goes on your wall and they would need cut a hole in the wall for it. People in the US often install these in places not designed to accommodate air conditioning like work sheds and garages. My father is in the process of replacing his old ducted central air system in his home with a Ductless Mini-Split system as it is much less expensive and he can do the installation himself.
bran leak is such a great podcast. There's so much interesting that they talk about, from something ridiculous like a colonoscopy to being serious and poignant. And that ability to be so varied and emotionally dynamic and mature, it's that that really catches me with this podcast. And I think it's rare that people on the internet have this sense of self and still be positive and interesting enough to actually listen to. Its a cool podcast. very leaky. Good/10.
I've spiraled a couple times during my high school senior year and for the first time felt anxiety and existential dread the past month from a breakup, things just feel weird and I appreciated hearing Ethan and Sean's experiences.
I am also going through a major depressive episode. I feel like im being hit with shit all at once and it's been really hard to find the meaning of living. I am so grateful to hear my role models going through the same stuff I am
I'm glad they decided to be open and honest about what they're going through with mental health and I can't helk but somewhat relate to some of it with procrastinating and telling myself I should do things and I find it really hard to get myself to do stuff. I also relate to wanting to have some sort of hobby outside of a screen because all I do is watch content creators pretty much or some of the artists I'm a fan of came out with new albums this year but that's also looking at my phone. I find it so hard to get myself to do something different despite that I want to. Feels good to know I'm not the only person who has that struggle. But I also want yall to know it's ok to take a break and work on yourselves or bigger projects. I can't help but think of Mark because he didn't upload for 3 months while filming his movie, and fans understand that. Even just taking care of yourself we understand that too. Love you guys and hope you're well 💙
Oh my god, you guys. I have a shitty 9-5 with the joy decades of therapy and diagnosed borderline, anxiety and depression. I still think it would be a worse thing to be recognized plus having so many ppl/anybody have expectations of me of any kind.
Do you want you want! Sean, if you left for 6 months, the fan base would just be so thrilled to see you again.
You'll always have the fans, no matter how long you're not creating, you won't always have the money and energy to fulfill your dreams. Fucking get off your ass and do what makes you happy bro!
late to watch but i cannot express how much i can relate to what sean is going through especially with the whole comparison and asking why can't i? idk i could probably go on a whole thing about it but i hope one day it can all come together
I would totally watch a video of you two going to a mortuary and learning about all that lol
the title differences between spotify and youtube are JARRING
Sean I'm right there with you I really appreciated this real talk
I usually don't comment at all on CZcams or at least it happens rarely (but always leave a like)
But this in parts really hits home, having diagnosed clinical depression, asd (autism) and adhd
Living with that constant war within myself (with both diagnoses being on opposite ends of the spectrum in a lot of things) I just related so much to a lot of this
I can spend a whole day doing nothing and my brain is still passively exhaust me so I'm still exhausted at the end of the day
And it's all just invisible to everyone else so talking about the struggles to most allistic people I always end up feeling like I need to defend myself cause most things just sounds like laziness and not wanting to do things when it's either adhd paralysis or executive dysfunction
My asthma's been acting up the last few days and I almost died when Sean was talking about denying the weed. I was wheeze laughing so hard