My struggles with alcoholism and how I finally quit.
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- čas přidán 4. 06. 2024
- Amputees often struggle with substance abuse and alcoholism. This is the general full story behind my alcoholism, and how I finally managed to get sober. I’m sharing this in hopes it helps someone else do the same.
My Name is Hans. A German. Dealing with amputation stuff... Thats why i followed your channel here first.
Then for your outragius sense of humour!
Now . . . I have to look and listen again (very carefully) to all what you opened up to us. Hopefully to grateful and humble People.
In a certain way, YES, I'm drinking. Socially. And i had Jobs where one is supposed to drink to make money. In between i was homeless without a Job...
I made my way out of this.
Long story short:
You may have no clue, how beneficiant and calming your describing of all these situations is. To choose and make ones own way out.
I am VERY GRATEFUL!!!
May i share your Video to some close people struggling with Alcohol?
Dumb question, for its on YT, but i rarely found someone here who got out of the Dumbster by himself and TALKS about it!
From the BOTTOM OF MY HEART:
God's Speed and blessings to you, your Family and all your loved ones❤🌻🌻🌻
THANK YOU SO MUCH !
Brother, It was July 22, 2018 when I hit bottom. My higher power is the Lord. I begged and pleaded to stop me from drinking. It was immediate; after 10 days in ICU due to internal bleeding from the alcohol. My urge to drink was taken away immediately. I am alone and was never a social drinker. Allergic to practically every pain medication known. I was self medicating due to broken vertebrae from car accident. Am with you 100% about how the stories in meetings helped. I won't go on, but I appreciate your honesty and your words are mine. Congratulations on 6 years! 🙏🏻✝️☮️💪
Amen, you are a New creation in Christ, the former things have passed away. I totally relate with all my reconstructive surgeries as I self medicated and DOS Sept 1/2006.
Took me a while to understand that the Lord set me free and nailed my sins to the cross at Calvery. I just had to reach out to Him and let Him guide my steps.
I wish I knew the love of Christ and deliverance when I attended AA. Honesty is key and I no longer attend AA as a Christian as they have masonic roots. I urge everyone struggling to seek Jesus...pray and meditate on the Gospel of John. GB
John 8:36 If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.
Congratulations on coming up on 6 years 😊 Be proud you deserve it! Just a stranger on the internet letting you know someone is thinking about you and am proud of you.
I've never known anyone that has gone thru what you have gone thru and ended up with a loving and supportive family. God has His hand on your shoulder. Thank Him everyday
Your worst day sober will always be better than your best day plastered. Thanks for sharing your story
I was a young Marine in Okinawa, Japan, sometime in 1997. In the middle of an addiction rehab program, we called "level 3". This was my last chance, my third strike. One more alcohol related incident, and I would be discharged from the Marine Corps under "other than honorable" conditions. We were writing down past regrets while under the influence in a workbook, and I was really enjoying it. It was relieving getting these things off my chest. The very next workbook exercise was a question. "If you continue to use, will your list of regrets increase?" It hit me like a ton of bricks, and at that moment, I knew if I continued to drink alcohol my regret list would continue to grow and get much, much worse. That night in an old empty barracks all alone, I cried out to God, not even sure if He was real. I said I can't do this, I'm going to fail and I need your help. The only way I can describe what happened is "He took it from me." I felt His presence in the room, and He took the addiction from me. Years later, I found out his name is Jesus, and I believed on him on October 19th, 2010, and I was born again. God is Good
Amen 🙏🏻✝️
If it were not for Jesus, I would not be here today. It's a wonderful feeling to know that we are never really alone.
I had no off switch. The meetings help you see you’re not alone in it. I had several relapses before I finally quit. 5/25/24 will be 3yrs for me. Keep fighting the good fight. God is so Good 😊 Bless You Brother, so worth it!
And we all need to understand it's not just alcohol or drugs. It's ANYTHING that controls us. ...it might be food. ...it might be gambling. ...it might be shopping. ...it's anything over which we have lost control. Some addictions are easier to hide. Some addictions are "acceptable" in our society. But an addiction is an addiction. One of my sons is an alcoholic ... who grew up being raised by sn alcoholic dad; my husband. ...who quit 3 years ago. ...who now has Advanced Lung & Brain Cancer. My husband now sees the harm he caused in the family. ...in this one son, specifically. But, we also realize that son is now drinking for reasons of his own that don't partain to his Dad. And in this video I heard a few things I've heard from that son. I'm sending this to him. Praying he'll hear the compassion and honesty. Thank you for being transparent. God bless you, Sir!
We call them white collar addictions, the ones where people overlook their impact.
I self medicate with caffeine. No one looks twice as I drink that coffee, the 7th one for the day and it's not even noon.
I'm a double below knee amputee due to a failed suicide attempt involving a train in 2019. I struggle with alcohol as well and as well I prefer to be alone. I understand everything you are saying deeply. I am currently working with my therapist to find the right kind of help. I saw another video of you switching out legs and I was kind of in awe. I have state insurance and the prosthetics I have are big and bulky and painful. So I rarely use them and I can't afford more natural feeling ones at the moment. I'm saving up though. I wonder so much who I could be if I got out of my own way during all this emotional healing. I thank you for this video and for sharing this journey and for sharing all these things in general. It's appreciated.
I hope that your therapist can help get what you need. Usually when folks take on a train they don't win. You were saved for a reason. I hope you do well. Please take care if yourself and that's for sharing.
You met God in the basement. He was just waiting for you to reach out and say "save me". And He did. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼💕💕💕
My Dad past away May 2020. He had 45 yrs sobriety and up to his death was faithful attendance to AA. He had help 1,000 of people through his years in AA. He always said “ AA only ask 1 thing from ya and that is to change everything about yourself” and he didn’t get there for singing to loud in church. He was 39 yrs old when he decided to go to AA. I miss his one liners and his passion to help others, for it keep him sober just one more day.
One of my favorite 1 liner from late “ Pain is a great motivator, misery is optional “ Don Morrow
Wow incredible I’m so happy for you Brother 🙏My Name is Tara from New Jersey and I’m a alcoholic I have 307 days ❤hearing your share and the strength and will power you have just motivates me more to keep Going ❤thank you
I wish my x husband could see the light of sobriety in every way. It has destroyed his life. Though we have been apart for over 20 years I have tried many times when he claimed to want and need to get sober to be their to help him. I fear his addictions will be the death of him. He has gone deeper then just alcohol at this point much much deeper. Our children are now grown but they suffer do to what they have witnessed and it hurts. I pray he finds peace again even if I never get to be a part of it. I tried to be there but he chose to leave me and our young children. Honestly, it probably saved my life, because he is a very violent addict. Thank you for sharing I know it will help other's even if your not there to witnesses it know it helps. God Bless ❤🙏💪❤️
Thank you for your incredible rawness. Your story will resignate with someone and change their lives. God bless you and your family!
I cried a lot while listening to your story about your problem with alcohol. Your frankness and sincerity are deeply touching, and you are incredibly strong and human to see how far you have come. Your wife is an angel by your side, and you have adorable children, so now enjoy your life, you deserved it! the best is yet to come 👍☺️😙!!
Thank you for this! I wish addiction wasn't a taboo subject, and people felt comfortable talking about it and asking for help. Generations are being wiped out because people would rather point fingers than extend a hand and help someone find resources. Thank God for your wife and for your sobriety! Ive got 5 years July 19th. ❤
Powerful testimony! Please keep sharing it. There are people you will meet in your travels that need to hear it and to know it’s possible for them as well.
3½ years sober and still going. Your story definitely resonated with me!
What a powerful story you shared with us. Thank you so much! I grew up in a home with an angry alcoholic for a father which as you can guess wasn’t very easy. The mental scars will be with me for life but I’ve learned and understand what caused them so I can say I’m not affected by them as I once was. I didn’t drink at all until I was about 40 years old since I had such a fear of becoming an alcoholic too. When I say I drink now, I have maybe a glass of wine when I go out for dinner which isn’t often anymore, maybe 1 glass a month. Seeing what alcohol can do to normally very bright and competent people is what causes me to keep alcohol at a big distance to my life. YOU are now the perfect husband and father!! Your family must love having such a clear-headed, loving and compassionate man in their lives. It’s wonderful to hear how you were able to turn your life around as it will give hope to so many others out there in our world. Bless you!!
Man, I follow you & your brothers on a couple of platforms. It has taken me a while to actually sit down and watch this video. I've lost many I care about to the evil of addiction, and I have those still that I care about fighting that devil. I'm supporting a friend whose son is in that hole, and he currently has no 'need' to fight it. Yes he is still in the hiding, denial process. He's keeping hold of the few 'friends' who tell him he is who he is, and screw those who tell you you shouldn't live your life how you want. It's a mess.
What I really want to say to you, and your brothers, from the first short video I saw of you, I could see you were a survivor of so much more than now being 2ft shorter.
Addiction is addiction. Be it food, sadness, alcohol, drugs, or even the adrenalin of stress that fuels your absence. Breaking the denial is such a strong force.
Now here you are, strong enough to lay your soul bare to the world, even if it saves just one other soul from the self destruction of lying to themselves.
Massive, eternal respect for you mate.
Stand proud, even in stubbies & cowboy boots! You are saving more than that just one from that deep dark hole that swallows so many!
And best of all, for every individual that thinks twice about continuing to dig, instead of climbing, you empower another who has made the climb out to speak of their journey, which saves, in turn, another, who thought their only choice was to dig deeper instead of climbing.
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Thank you for reminding me why I am drinking a cold Pellegrino water and not a cold Heineken beer. I am 56. Been battling since junior high, been sober 8 plus years. Life is good.Thank you for sharing.
"Our suits may be different but our fabric is the same". ~Cowan
11 years clean and sober here. Love your share. People need to know they aren't alone and that there is a solution.
Your a good man, I'm proud of you. So many people want transformation, but they don't want to embrace change. God can do anything, if we just ask him. Believe me I know all to well where your coming from. Bless you😊
Congrats on all you have accomplished! Getting sober is very hard. Even just accepting the suggestion to go to meetings is very hard. We all have a problem, but by working together and being as one, we can all stay sober together! Keep sharing your story! It always amazes me when I share my story when people come up after the meeting to congratulate me and say how they felt moved by it. And your story moved me.
Congrats on 6 years! I got nearly 1 1/2 years myself coming up in June. Sober since 12-12-2022 (Same date as my dad!)
God blessed me with my sobriety date on March 11, 1985. I have never looked back. Love you bro!!!
I am so happy that you beat this most powerful addiction. My God is your God and He loves to help His children. You have an amazing wife who loves you very much and she was sent to you by God because you needed her. Take good care of her and always protect her. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us. God bless you.
Thank you for this. I'm in the exact same spot in my life with alcohol. I hate myself the day after because I don't have control. This happened yesterday so thank you for this video I needed it
Hey Boss,
Have you ever thought about starting a branch of self-defense karate for amputees?
Call it the Partial Arts Society.
You are such an inspiration. I had no idea you went through all of this. I know my struggles aren't anywhere near what you've gone through, but you, sharing this, makes me reflect. I've had 5 years of heartbreak and stress. I'm just going through the motions. Alcohol isn't my vice, food has wrecked havoc on my health. You sharing your story has given me hope that I CAN control eating my emotions and stress. That I deserve to be healthy. "What would Hayden do". That's what I'll ask myself going forward, so Thank You.
Your story is such a beautiful example for people to learn from! Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being a positive influence on our society!
Thank you for sharing. I know too well that you can't get what we have without rigid honesty.
My sober date is 10/30. First meeting i ever went to was on Halloween! I was still really foggy and here i am with a cow, Chuckie, a couple of strippers, a doctor and a bunch of other regulars happy to be meeting. It was a trip! Thank you for sharing. Its a great explanation, especially for sober family and friends to help them understand.
I'm addicted....its really good see someone like you ...thank you man to share yours
12-08-08 is my sobriety date I used drugs and alcohol I was more of a drug user then a drinker I lost everything sold everything I owned I had Noone I had nothing I had overdosed once and would use daily from the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep if I did sleep I thank the lord every day I was able to get help and get myself clean and now with my wife and kids rooting for me I can recover I can make it without drugs or alcohol some days are still tough but I think about my kids and my wife and pray to God to help guide me and I make it through take it one day at a time slowly but surely it will get a little easier especially after you get some sobriety time under your belt thank you for sharing your story
Congratulations on your sobriety. I have the same story.
I'm so glad you got the help you needed. ❤😊 Wishing you the best life has to offer.
Thank you for sharing! Hopefully this will help and encourage others who are struggling! Call on Jesus, you won't regret it! God is Good!
Man I'm so excited about your story! It sounds like God has given you strength and love through your journey ❤️
I'm so proud of you 🥲love you man ! This video makes me a follower ❤
Brother I'm proud of you for quitting drinking I'm very proud of you and you quit drinking for your family that says alot about you because family is everything I'd like to meet you my story isn't like yours I was beaten by my dad downstairs and he beat me with a belt because I was handicapped with a learning disability and at the age of 64 I was diagnosed with prostate cancer I took 6 weeks of radiation treatments and it was hell and after the second day I wanted to quit but I didn't quit I went the full distance and after I had my first blood test it was 0.00 it wasn't even on the charts and I had my second blood test and it was 0.05 still not on the charts and I thank God for being there with me and I thank God for you for beating alcoholism and I support people who win the race and I'll say it again I'm very proud of you my friend you went though alot and I went though alot as well 👍👍👍
Thanks for sharing. God bless you brother....🤔...He has!!
Thank you for your testimony sir!
Keep up the good fight! 💪🏼
Very inspiring thank you for sharing and God bless brother
Any tips on getting a parent to start going to meetings? It sounds like your mindset around alcohol when you were drinking as my father is.
I am so proud of you. I know its not easy. I watch my father struggle and he almost got sober after his last single car accident. But that lasted less than a month. My large family enables him and makes excuses for him. "We just have to keep him off the whiskey", "he just gets tired after he drinks and thats why he falls asleep behind the wheel. So we just have to get him to park before he falls asleep.", "hes down to three beers a day."
Its one of many reasons why im about to leave my parents and 4 out of 5 of my siblings behind. I guess i needed the therapy of saying this to a bunch of strangers more than an answer.
You can't change a parent. 🥺 I know it hurts, but only THEY can change themselves. My dad is .. 66 today, and still battles. 🫂
@@Tropicalpisces mine is 61 🫂
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You're an amazing person for sharing this.
Hey Boss, I was cocaine, MDMA, X and alcohol addicted. My life was miserable. I was still young. Two times I took soo much drugs that it was a cocktail: Cocaïne, thc drops, alcohol, Mdma. I almost died. I had my dog besides me. And I thought how in the f.cking mind can I help this boy feel good. I sought help. Went into quitting alcohol, drugs, caffeine, porn and sigs. It was f.cking sh.t. I broke down. I found help with my ex. Now, I am doing better. I work at a big firm. I am doing my masters degree (together with working for said company) these years in my 30’s. It’s been a ride. Man! Thank you dude for this story! Care for your wife/gf and children man! Grow up. Be ready for what comes. Once you were an alcoholic you always will be. If these feelings come back. Find yourself surrounded by loved ones, or seek help! Or call a help line
32 days sober today. I've ruined my whole life. It will never be the same agian. But i tell you now it is eternally worth it. I dont drink in my sleep anymore. I dont shake anymore. I can remember things now. I enjoy the days now. I miss my kids mother and i miss them. But i did this to me. Its only up from here.
Thank you for your bravery and openness to share. This helped remind me why I fight my own struggle. May God Bless you.
Thank you for sharing. You are so loved. And i hope your story continues to reach ppl. 🫶🏼 god bless you and your family
Didnt think id be leaving a second comment but you unlocked a straight up repressed memory for me.... the most important day of my life and it wasnt when my daughter was born it was the day i saved her life it was the only time ive been sober completely since i was 13 your comment about the sobriety around your wedding just brought it all back i miss the man i was then i wasnt even broken i was just a drunk and those few minths were amazing till that day i saved her but it broke me she turned so purple almost lost her
So proud of you!🎉
Dec. 18th 2020...
Thanks for sharing. It takes a lot to be that honest with yourself.
Thank you for being you ❤
God bless! You are right. It really is better on the other side.
Hey keep ur head up ur doing great!
Thanks for sharing your journey
You remind me of my dad you look like him and act like him. He was sweet and tried to stop drinking but he couldn’t. He tried all the classed even my mom helped but it was never enough it got the best of him and then he didn’t make it the depression and bipolar got to him he thought it was best tho he wasn’t a great father and brought apon terrible terror and constant fear so he thought it would be better. And I appreciate it.
Thank you for sharing.❤
I tried AA & NA & they both didnt work for me but when i finally was done.. there wasnt anything that could make me keep going. The greatest gift god ever gave me was the realization that i couldn't keep it up one more day.. being truly tired ia the only thing that helped me because i couldnt stop until i was ready.. idk. Its true though its worth it & anyone can do it
You are amazing GOD bless 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing.
Well done bro... ✌️😊👍
Thks for testimony❤good luck god bless
In 2003 I realized I was an alcohol abuser, I wasn’t an alcoholic. I wasn’t drinking everyday nor did I need to have alcohol everyday. I just liked to drink and get drunk when I’d go out to the bar and I’d be an idiot. One weekend night I drank 2 fifths of rum, as well as whatever mixed drinks I had when we all went out to the bar after leaving a friends house. My GF(wife now) had to clean me up in the middle of the night after I had threw up and defecated all over myself, It took 3 days to recover from that hangover. I’m pretty sure I nearly drank myself to death that night. After that I realized that hangovers aren’t fun anymore and I couldn’t drink like that anymore. I’ve grown up and now when I do drink I have a 3 mixed drink maximum and a 3 beer maximum. I’ve realized that’s my happy place where I relax and can enjoy the moment with the people around me and enjoy the drink I’m having. and enjoy the
Good for you!
God Bless you.
Thank you for sharing 🤗
God Bless you!
13 years sober. It is really worth it.
I wish the meetings in my area were not like mean girls and click in hs but maybe I’ve meet the wrong ppl which I tend to meet always right away but ….. u make me feel like I should give them another chance….
You just described me to a T it's a wake up call Thanks😢
You made me cry because i need to stop
24 going on 24 years sober, some people like me have to lose everything first to see the light
Coming up on 15yrs 🤛🏻🤛🏻🤛🏻
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Pusiste tu vida en orden, primero Dios, tú, esposa, hijos..... padres,hermanos, familiares,amigos, personas que vas conociendo en la vida😊, Dios te bendiga!❤
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One day at a time bro. I have 18 years myself.
How did you and your wife meet, and it was before your accident correct?
Hey boss,
Maybe you should write yourself a Ulysses Contract.
"If I don't quit __ by _/_/_, I'll donate a blank check to a known hate group".
Im in the boat currently brother i have a ancient mans back in a 30 yr old body im in pain no pain meds drs wont help but the biggest pain i face is the pain of being a useless man i can only stabd for about 10 to 20 minutes before my legs fail due to back nerves 4 years unable to work the bottle is the only thing i got besides family but i cant even pick up my daughter again due to the back shit i took her to a daddy daughter dance and i couldnt hold her to dance to short to bend over to heavy to carry for one slow dance that was the first time in my life where i started to have the bad thoughts if i dont drink i dont move im nit crazy as fuck just 2 24 white claws and ahalf pint of 100 proof vodka a day but its miserable id rather a dr any dr do their damn job and fix me
Keep on your robot legs and keep them on stubby
I drank since middle school. Went full in at high school. I ended up quitting cold turkey. I was in a bar fight. Not my fault but because I was not thinking clearly I hurt 2 people pretty bad. If I was sober I know I would have walked away instead of engaging. When the dust settled and I woke up in the morning I found out what happened. I had almost no memory of it. What made me stop was I put myself and my wife in great harm without even knowing what happened. Luckily someone held her back for the fight. I been thinking about drinking but I know its a trick. Whats bad about being an alcoholic is there are literally signs for it everywhere. Now when I wanna drink I buy Jeep parts or fishing gear. Been clean since 2014 and will be till my death.