"Through Our Eyes: Living with Asperger's" (FULL Documentary) 50-Minute Extended Version
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Seven young adults with Asperger's Syndrome (now Autism Spectrum Disorder) share their stories to show life from their perspective. They discuss their everyday experiences and difficulties they face, and their hopes for the future. The film was produced by Alyssa Huber, a filmmaker and autism self-advocate who also has Asperger’s.
The production of this film took about two years, though it began as a idea for a school project. The goal of the project was simple: to tell a story. So I interviewed my friend Katie, and learned so much about her journey with Asperger's. I told her story in a short trailer-style film. Watch the result here!--Trailer #1 ➤ tinyurl.com/asperger-doc-film-1
It expanded beyond what I planned initially, since I decided to produce it as a full-length film. I told not only Katie's story, but my own (Alyssa's), and the stories of many others on the autism spectrum. I interviewed about seven other young adults on the spectrum who were friends and acquaintances of mine, and I also interviewed three experts in the area of psychology. I made a second trailer to spread the word--Trailer #2 ➤ tinyurl.com/asperger-doc-film-2
I loved this project so much, but the tough part was that I was still in college. I cannot work or do any extracurricular activities while I'm in school due to my Asperger's, and yet I chose to produce an entire film on my own on top of my normal workload. That'd be tough for a normal person! I worked very hard through the murky waters of anxiety, depression, and perfectionism (that comes with my AS) to complete it, but I'm glad I did.
I wanted to help others understand Asperger's, but this project helped me, too. I learned a lot from it, and it gave me a reason to stay motivated in spite of my difficulties. Life is tough when you feel different and isolated, but filmmaking gives me a way to stay connected with the world. Plus, I love every aspect of making films, so I had fun with it!
NOTE: While Asperger's Syndrome is no longer a diagnosis in the DSM, it remains legitimate for individuals diagnosed before 2013 (including those featured in this film, which began production before 2013). Asperger's is currently associated with Autism Spectrum Disorder, meaning those who meet the DSM-IV criteria for Asperger's (but didn't get a diagnosis of Asperger's before 2013) would now likely be diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder.
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we need to start a worldwide support group for us aspies so many of is are isolated alone with no support :(
Very moving and at times joltingly relatable to this "old man," 66 years old. My autism discovery was a bit over a year ago. And a whole lifetime suddenly made astounding sense.
iT WAS REALLY COMFORTING TO KNOW THAT THERE IS AN EXPLANATION FOR THE WAY WE BEHAVE. i LOVED THIS DOCUMENTARY.
yes I felt his too. it was like massive revelation to me. like.my whole life finally made sense and the more I learn the more I'm fascinated and feeling comforted for the answers and explanations to certain situations throughout my lifetime.
Agreed 😊😊😊
Alyssa is like a big sister to other autistics shes just so awesome :)
I can say her videos this documentary in particular saved my life at a time when Inwas ready to end it.. It showed me im not alone.. And I have another family worldwide ❤
Thank you Alyssa and everyone in this documentary from the bottom of my heart thank you ❤
You are loved and accepted here just the way you are. I'm happy my film has helped you. :)
Me thoo i'm not alone thx
Wow, this film is so good on so many levels. Alyssa is giving everyone a special gift by producing this inside look at what it is like to have Aspergers or autism. It's so personal and also really professionally done. I hope this gets a huge reach so everyone can learn about this perspective.
I used to hate school so much. nobody understood me, the teachers labeled me a naughty child. I used to put my fingers in my ears when doing prayer or timetables because I hated the sound of everyone talking at once and I'd pray to be sent outside but then worried about the price I'd have to pay for it (being told off) I was way more productive outside of a classroom but even then I'd still spend my time looking out the nearest window just wanting to be outside with the bugs and animals. Or wanting to be at home in my safe space with my mum. I'd often pretend to be unwell so I didn't have to go and I hated Sundays, knowing that after a weekend of peace I would have to go out and do it all again. I was ignored for years, and eventually got very extremely anxious and depressed and tried so hard to be like other girls my age. All I had was laughter that made me happy. I used to go home and I'd play with my Barbies, this was right up until being about 16. I only stopped playing because my brother told everyone and utterly embarrassed me. Since I was diagnosed everything made so much more sense. People still don't always understand me and I try really hard to not have to tell them I'm not like most people but honestly I have such a good level of empathy and I connect with others so well as long as they don't piss me off with a lack of empathy toward me or others. I often have to stop myself from talking to people because I know I'll just say anything in efforts to avoid small talk and they just won't get it 😂😂 there's so much more I could tell you but I will be here for days !
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Thank you for this documentary. My late husband was diagnosed with Asperger's in the tenth year of our marriage. It explained many of the marital issues that plagued us. We worked so hard to maintain our union. We managed to remain together until Anthony's death from renal failure.
You are an inspiration to me. 🌻
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It definitely helps knowing someone's brain wiring! I'm happy that my documentary helped somehow. I'm so sorry to hear about Anthony's death.
sorry for your loss. I'm an aspie but unfortunately I haven't had any partner for over 18 years luckily he had you so he was one of the lucky ones.
I'm sorry you and your husband went thru this suffering. I was not diagnosed Aspie until late in life, because it hadn't been "discovered" yet, so I've much empathy for you. Peace. ✌
this documentary is so spot on.
As an Aspie, I approve of this full length documentary! Abandoned the shorter, less informative version within a quarter of a heartbeat upon discovering this option. As opposed to the million+ who’ve watched the shorter version, the few thousand who’ve watched the longer version are probably just about representative of the proportion of Aspies to NTs out there...we’ll, not precisely but generally, maybe.
What a terrific video. Fantastic talent with filmmaking, really enjoyed this, thank you.
Thanks for watching! I released this one online years after the 30 minute documentary so that's why it has less views. Also I think it was needed more in 2015 as opposed to nowadays.
I don't have an official diagnosis, but this... explains so much. I mean it was like a documentary about me!
I've been meaning to say this for a while, the example you use of airplanes, IS ME! I build them, work on them (when I can), and have always loved them.
This was a very beautiful and wonderful experience to watch this documentary. It's well put together and has a lot of personality and emotion in it. I do personally have Asperger's (I learnt that from my perants this morning), and it's wonderful to see other people who are more or less like me. Thank you for all your advice and all the things I can relate with other aspies. This video really changed a lot of things for me, thank you 😊
Thank you for this film❤️
I’m a 47 year old woman about to get Asperger diagnosis and i can’t believe i have been masking my whole life 😞. For some reason there is not a lot of research on Asperger and woman😞🤷🏻♀️
Lots of love from 🇳🇴 Norway
Sweet, Nice to see more of what we didn’t get to see
This is a wonderlul documentary. My son is 7 and has been diagnosed with "provisional autism" due to his preematurity, born at 24 weeks gestation. My husband and I always felt he also has Asberger traits as well- sensory and socially. He was reading by age 3, always has had an obsession with letters words, logos, commercials, music, music videos and books. Sometimes he refferences to music and commercials that may be appropriate for the situation. He can memorize things that he is interested very quickly. He also has trouble with learning things that might be new and things he may not understand right away. like all of you, he is unique and can offer the world so much! I am doing everything I can to help him grow happy and healthy, understanding that he may be unique to many typicals, but embracing his gifts. How can I learn more? What tips, or advice can you offer a parent with a child that has Asbergers, Autism, and SPD. I almost feel like he is not completely aware of his differences, or at the beginning stages of understanding his differences. Suggestions from this supportive community will definently help my growing little boy. Lastly, thank you so much for all the effort in putting this documentary together. Boy, what an eye opener!
I highly recommend following my page on Facebook for helpful info on autism, and other autistic self advocates as well (some should be listed on my FB page, under pages I follow). facebook.com/lifeofaspie
There are also helpful groups on Facebook where you can ask autistic people questions, like Neurodiversity Allies facebook.com/groups/neurodiversityAllies/
This also seems like a helpful one! facebook.com/groups/2138776736451241/
It all makes sense now.
Omg this is an amazing quality documentary (the editing and the research👌) how is your channel not way more popular??😂
Because all my other videos are boring? XD (kidding)
My sensory issues are strange because I'm a professional musician and I genuinely don't mind loud, bassy music at all. I love it. BUT.. that music has to be perfect. Everything has to be balanced just right. A few weeks ago, I had a meltdown because our rehearsal space was more crowded than usual and I had to setup about 4-5 feet closer to the drums. That little bit of unbalance was enough to turn my brain into mush. I totally freaked out. Because I have a sensitive musician's ear, I actually can talk to someone while the TV is on in the background. I can mentally turn down the volume on the TV and tune it out. ...but that's a learned skill, not a natural ability. My biggest trigger is loud, sudden noises. If someone slams a door or honks a horn, it's a huge source of anxiety that can last for quite a while.
I'm also highly empathetic and understand social cues _very_ well. The problem is that I understand them _too_ well and I get completely overwhelmed by every little facial expression and word choice. Even though I understand social interaction internally, to the outside world, I still react like a "normal" Aspie. I ramble, can't make eye contact, and have an impossible time with small talk. If I'm talking about a subject I love and I'm comfortable around the person, I have no issues whatsoever. I'm a verbal thinker (unless I'm being creative - then I'm almost entirely visual).
I didn't get diagnosed until I was 39, so I learned to be a very good masker without even knowing it. For the longest time, I thought I was just an introverted guy with PTSD and a high IQ. I definitely do have PTSD, but that's just a byproduct of being undiagnosed for so long and not knowing "what's wrong with me". Now that I have answers, I can finally address the trauma issues MUCH more easily. I try to focus on this aspect rather than get upset over my lost years. Most of the time, I do pretty well with that.
I have Asperger's and I can tell you from my own personal experience that coping with it is harder than it sounds.
It can definitely be very difficult. I try to be a positive person but definitely have hard days people don't see
Thank you🎈
Bravo Alyssa👏👏👏
I’m 68 years old diagnosed HS Asperger’s two years ago and now misdiagnosed as bipolar-that’s what brought me here! If the shoe fits, I wear it.
My gosh, once diagnosed I understood all my childhood memories and struggles, like a movie. I was unable to pass 9th grade yet told by teachers:
“…what’s the matter with you? You are obviously brilliant…”
I’m HS under genius, I had to have two IQ tests to be convinced, lol.
The irony? Now that I stopped all head meds, got my brain back; one psychiatrist told me I intimidate doctors! Lol
Awareness is the beginning, keep up your tenacity, the squeaky wheel gets the grease.
Loved your first documentary and I Loved this one a whole lot too 😄
Thanks for watching both of them! :)
I'm lucky enough the sensory... high pitched sounds(squeaky doors and shoes... and kids high pitched screams... (excluding music related content) I actually love concerts ....
and a little bit of sunlight issues when its directly in my face
Okay AND chewing.. I don't about when I'm doing it but .. if my dads fastforwarding a show and mom decides to chew ... not everyone bothers me it can
Katie you took the words out of my mouth on how I felt
I shared this on my Discord and I might do a watch and reaction commentary video to this! Thank you so much for taking the time to make this and share all your experiences and the ppl in the documentary 👍🤗
Awesome, thanks! If you post your commentary anywhere I'd like to see it ^^
It was wonderfull. I learned a lot with the video. I am researcher and recently I have a young person wth autism in my group. I am glad to meet him. This video gave me a better understand from point of view from a person with asperger.
One of the best documentaries I’ve ever watched, especially for an aspie like me! This will always have a special place in my heart!
This is a great documentary you made about people who have Asperger's Syndrome! I'm also on the Spectrum myself and I could identify a lot of the traits among the fellow Aspie's such as emotions, getting loud when talking sometimes, and the imagination part to name a few! I have had those same experiences being on the Autism spectrum!
I love the nice music in this
Is that Kerbal space program @ 3:23?
Very understandable...inspiring...visually interesting...mentally stimulating...
Thank you for sharing! I'm in my 40's and can relate to most of what you shared.
Alyssa, thank you so much for this excellent production. As a fellow Aspie, I appreciate someone who can convey a positive message about people with Aspergers. I look forward to your next project. 🙏🏼💞
Hey! Thank you for sharing your experience. This has been able to help me understand my 8 year old son a bit better.
Wow I don’t have autism/Asperger’s but I get auditory overload all the time and the description of sitting in a classroom is so accurate. I had accommodations all through school, including college and grad school, because it was so difficult to learn and take exams in classrooms. If I couldn’t wear earplugs in college lectures to drown out the typing, clicking, and background chatter overlapping with the professor’s voice, I would have to leave.
Great job, Alyssa!
Excellent.
Thank you for this documentary! Amazing work and great insight for those who have a loved one on the spectrum.
Before I got my diagnosis last month, I thought that how I saw the world was the way everyone did as well. I thought I was a falure because everyone seemed to get through life with very little effort. I on the other hand struggled a Lot. I feel that we are all like fish. Fish cannot see water, or imagine that any other experience is even possible. The NT's walk on land,... How am I supposed t make contact with these weird creatures?? I want to thank you for making this video. It helps me to see what water looks like.
Thank you, this helps me understand my friend better.
Incredible documentary 👏
As a fellow aspir I think it’s so funny we grew up quite near each other (I live in Illinois too currently in Batavia) but never crossed paths. But maybe we will cross paths one day :) I also happen to live on my own in an apartment with my fiancé and am working in graphic design (one of my passions) so I’m doing very well
Hi. My name is Gavin from Indonesia.
I am so very inspired and blessed that you share your testimonies as an Arpie.
According to my mom, I was diagnosed as an Asperger when I was a toddler. I had very hard and severe difficulties to make a friends during my high school and I was considered as hyperactive when I was in Kindergarden. That's why until now I'm speaking to nobody like a strange human, such as in my personal room (that makes my father often was so annoyed because of that).
Funny is, that I'm also interested for the aeroplanes, especially when I see the wings :D I wonder how it opens and closes, and it has sound! :)
God bless,
Gavin
This is awesome Lushia. Thank you so much for sharing! I grew up with Aspergers and the huge creative worlds (mine was an alien planet called Zitovia) and I used to love to write stories. I havent been doing a ton of writing lately but I honestly do want to get back into it. Thankfully I am working for a computer refurbishment company with other Aspies and I know that they appreciate me and the talents that I have to offer with my computer knowledge and that's what keeps me going. Would love to meet everyone in that video one of these days!
This truly blessed my heart. My 11 year old has Aspergers. He is intelligent, awesome and has a heart of gold. This video helped me understand more. I hope you do more videos on this subject. Thank you, and God bless you.
From an old Aspie that lives nearby: well done Alyssa. 👏
I like the title. I have 2 kids on spectrum (who are unrelated by blood) and I wanted to see through their eyes, what they (may) experience, bcuz I have no reference point for it and I want to understand better, so I can help them succeed. So grateful for this wonderful, honest and thorough movie!
Such excellent work...I think you should spread the word to the professionals who work with aspies. Your film should be seen. Show it around....
Great movie😊😊😊
I described my brain as being rigidly constructed like it's made with Legos, while other people's brains are made like a Nerf football. It might even be accurate.
amazing documentary, thank you for sharing this. I have Asperger's Syndrome and a lot of the things that these teenagers were describing that they deal with, I also deal with too. I have been working hard every day to improve my social skills. I am hoping once I am an adult, things will improve for me. For my sensory issues, mine is more geared towards the taste, smells,, and texture of clothing and food. Certain foods like oatmeal, casserole, peas, cooked carrots, fish, stir fry, I can't do any of these foods because of the taste, smell, and texture. I have a hard time understanding social cues and body language. Things that other teenagers pick up on social situations, I have a hard time picking upon. I take things very literally and do not understand sarcasm. I don't do well in crowds of people, especially if everyone is standing around inside. I also have a sensitivity to sound if there are a bunch of people all standing up and talking to each other inside or outside. I tend to do better in smaller groups of people which consists of 1-4 people. I have a hard time starting conversations with people, I am not the one that just goes up to people. I want them to come up with me. I have a hard time understanding people's facial expressions sometimes. I also struggle with social filters, sometimes I have a hard time controlling my emotions. Sometimes, I laugh at the wrong times because I think something is funny but to other people, it is not. I have a hard time keeping things to myself. I tend to overshare and very honest with people. I will tell people on the point what I exactly think, I think over time, these things will improve for me.
3:17 I approve of that bow! It looks super pretty~
Please don't take this wrong. You put a lot of time and effort into this and brought up many important and interesting points. But the title is misleading. If I wanted to make a documentary on men who die from breast cancer, (yes it does happen), that is what I would call it. I wouldn't make a breast cancer documentary where half the victims are male and give the men two thirds of the face time. I've seen gender ratios of 12:1 or higher for males diagnosed as Aspies. For me, the most difficult part of coping with the condition has been its impact on my social life. While there is a lot of overlap, men and women by their nature have significantly different problems in this area.
I loved the documentary but I agree with the comment above. There needs to be more of a voice for women with Asbergers since we have a whole other layers of challenges and social expectations. As we have seen in recent days with the discourse around Miss Thunberg. I have Asbergers diagnosed at 7 so this topic is dear to me. Continue your work and thank you for being brave and putting this out there :)
@@lesliea.6440 I also agree with what you are saying. Being a female with Asperger's syndrome, I completely understand. There definitely needs to be more input on women who struggle with this. That is very true, men and women can have Asperger's syndrome but may show their problems differently. Women tend to be more sensitive than men and tend to show more of how they feel than men typically do. We do, I totally agree! As women, we face challenges that men don't even face. These are challenges I cannot describe in words, but I am sure the women out there know what I am trying to say. We as women, need more help bringing out our voices that need to be heard by others.
30:28 pool party looks awesome
This is very hepful thank you. Does anyone know of any other Documentaries-videos that have more BIPOC young people-Spectrum-NeuroDivergent traits like this video?
The new documentary from Chris Packham includes one out of the four aspies. It is on dailymotion, recommended. But not much on the Bipoc perspective, and also it’s from England
I always felt different,like a weirdo from society, like I wasn't like anyone else. I had texture issues and people who were ignorant to what I was facing said I was "picky" or what not. And when I was finally diagnosed with being a aspie as well as generalized anxiety and a disability. It made me finally understand myself and accept on how god made me and now I don't feel as ashamed💖
Are you still involved with filmmaking? Have you ever considered doing it for a living?
I actually did have an interest in filming to some extent. I did at some point try to major in the filmmaking but I felt wary about salary for University and had my limitations apparently due to autism this whole time. I never got so far.
I did dilemma and try other majors like auto and cooking, but just before I can dig deeper after scratching the surface I always feel so unsure with how I’m gonna go further future wise.
I currently work as a back stocker in Walmart and I feel very uncertain if I’ll ever get anywhere else in life.
We were planning to get a degree with automotive major, but after missing to enroll for a couple of classes due to limited seats I missed that(even though there were some parts in auto that were tricky). I even feel so unsure on how to manage my finance, unsure if earning more than $1000 like every two weeks in enough ratio wise incase I ever do move out(fearing that the savings will be eaten up gradually overtime compared to how much money will be replenished every month).
Autism really makes life so stressful and downright scary…
Woow
Those paper orchids are amazing. Namaste 🙏🏻
I'm really interested in the idea of people with aspergers not getting social cues. Do you think this is because people with aspergers can pick up on the subtleties of a persons subconscious more so than neurotypical people? I can see that people are expecting me to behave in a certain way a lot of the time, but I just can't be bothered to do it most of the time because I know it's just a facade to appear socially acceptable. A lot of the time I feel like I can read people _better_ than the vast majority of other people I know because I feel I'm picking up what's going on in their subconscious more than others.
That's really interesting! Since I made this documentary, my views on autism have changed a lot. I really think autism/aspergers is a communication difference rather than "social deficits," or a lack of ability to pick up social cues. Communicating with other autistics is easier for me overall, while I have a harder time with NT's.
I know some autistics are skilled socially in ways that NT's are not. Perhaps you're one of those. :)
@@NeuroLushia - Thanks Alyssa, an analogy I can think of is that it's like people communicating using different computer coding languages. Thanks for the documentary, it was very well done.
I am autistic in sweden 😊😊😊
Portuguese (Brasil) please!!!
I'm both thought processes ... 34:22
I'm an aspie in Illinois 😁
Im in sweden 😊😊
Can someone help me? I am tutor of Rhamon, he is marvelous person. He is autistics , and he does not have REM sleep. Someone with autism suffer on it? How to deal with it?
I think that it’s basic manners to turn off/mute a tv or radio when someone wants to talk to you - the fact that people see it as acceptable to make you compete with another audio stream is, frankly, extremely rude of them, even if unintentional.
I would like my younger brother to put me with other Aspies but he'd rather put me with people not even like me just to test me himself he's a freaking physical therapist! What do they possibly know about me? My brother would use every emotion I act out against me. He's so mean to me but yet treats his wife and kids and my family better than myself
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lol it took me years to talk in a group chat kusa jk i am still not good about it if its not an interest that we are talking about one of the reason why most discord groups is mostly anime because that`s the only thing where i am good at talking even though i do know a lot of mental illness too since they are a very interesting to read but the moment i started to chat more in a group chat was in 2017 still remember it
me and my friend riona both have aspergers we have had bad experiences at a place called aspirations with some of the men with aspergers syndrome assaulting us calling us handicapped saying our mums didn't want us and saying they would put or lifes in danger that's why we hate them men but by the way isn't aspergers for females when there desperate for friends badly but no aspergers people wont be there friends and say there crowding them so me and riona are upset that aspergers men who were suppose to be like us were nasty to us
Oki
Piano was overwhelming
Aspertypical
To whom it may concern. My name is David Burgin. I write song lyrics, record them a capella and post them on my youtube channel. I'm not a singer or musician, just love the process.
I used a clip from your movie (it is @ the 21:36 mark and is rain dripping on a window). I found the clip online, and it was listed as free to use with the appropriate link backs, etc.
My song, The Window Shatters, can be seen here
czcams.com/video/Z_XNtUG3OKo/video.html
The reason I'm posting, besides to say thank you for the wonderful movie, is to let you know there is a band, I believe from India, Bristy By Tausif | Bangla New Song 2017, which is claiming your rain on the window content.
Just thought I would give you a heads up. They do use your rain on window clip in their video, and their video has a lot of views, over a million and does not credit back to you in the meta data section.
Again, thank for the beautiful movie, Through Our Eyes: Living with Asperger's.
All the best love,
David
Everyone has social issues.
42:45 this!!! She couldn’t explain it better 🥹❤️
My daughter is on the spectrum. Clinicians & psychiatrists stopped using the term Asperger's about 10 years ago.
pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28953765/#:~:text=Background%3A%20In%202013%2C%20the%20American,5%20diagnosis%3A%20Autism%20Spectrum%20Disorder.