Ultra-ultra rapid cycling in bipolar disorder (first person testimony)
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- čas přidán 8. 09. 2024
- I know it's hard to go through ultra-ultra rapid cycling in bipolar disorder. It's been a difficult time full of anxiety, depression, mania, and more. I've been doing research on ultradian/ultra-ultra rapid cycling and I wanted to share what I learned as well as my personal testimony with you all. This is the rarest type of bipolar disorder cycle.
Let me know in the comments if you've also experienced ultra-ultra rapid cycling before or if you want to learn more about it. It's definitely been one of the harder bipolar cycles I've lived through.
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First of all, I want to thank you for your video; it helps a lot of people. I'm bipolar too and I have ADHD. I've used several medications; today I'm doing well, but there are some things I've stopped doing: I love coffee (here in my country, Brazil, we have great coffee), however, coffee is very bad for us bipolars. I've never used drugs, and I've always liked beers, but I don't drink beer because it triggers us and interferes with the medications. I see the psychologist every week and the psychiatrist every month. We're bipolar, but that's not the end of the world. Yes, it's possible to live a normal life. What we have to do is never drink coffee, never use drugs, never consume alcohol, and we must do physical exercises or walk at least six days a week (never fail to ask your doctor if you can exercise). All of this was recommended by the psychiatrist and also by the psychologist. I'm a lawyer and I work hard. My advice: don't let the disease take over you; you should be the one in control. Trust in God always, and trust in yourself. Everything will be fine. You are not alone. Hugs from Brazil
Yes!! I stopped drinking alcohol years ago because it made me depressed. I used to drink coffee everyday but now I only drink it if I’m really tired. I definitely recommend cutting those things out too. I’ve never been a drug user, I’ve only ever taken my prescriptions. It takes time but I’m glad you’re in a better place too! 🩷 God bless ✨
@@CreateCompassionCC Congratulations on your channel, it's excellent. I've been watching your videos, congratulations, it helps a lot. You're a warrior, doing everything right, with the medications and the psychologist, you manage to be okay. How are the treatments there in America? Do you have to pay or is there public treatment? Do you have to buy the medications or does the government provide them? Here in Brazil, we have both public and private systems. The health plan covers all treatment, and some medications are paid for by the Brazilian government. I use my health plan, which covers the psychiatrist and also weekly sessions with the psychologist. I have to buy the medications because I use the health plan. Big hug, may God always be with you
@@jonesilvasilva we have to pay for health insurance & medications here in the US, but insurance covers most of my meds. I meet with my psychiatrist every 3 months so it isn’t too bad usually. It’s interesting to see what other countries offer in terms of mental health care! I feel like we have a lot to learn from other countries right now, healthcare costs are becoming kind of ridiculous here 😓
I was also diagnosed with ultra ultra rapid cycling type 2 last year. It was a double edge sword getting the diagnosis- it was super helpful to have something to pin all of this “crazy” behavior I have been experiencing. But it also just plain sucks having such a debilitating & exhausting condition.
Thanks so much for sharing your experience.
I've been feeling empty, and despair and then I would feel normal or feel kinda good not as intense ad the lows, the lows make me feel suicidal, I searched up to see maybe if I'm bipolar but they said cycles last days or months so I just assumed they were extreme mood swings now I'm discovering there our other people that feel the same way I do and the reason I didn't hear ultra ultra is because of how rare it is
I feel your pain. I go through this as well. It’s so confusing and exhausting, but your honesty provides strength to those of us in the same boat.
Thank you. 🙏🕊️✨
May peace and joy be with you sustainably.
You as well 🩷
Indeed, but it is possible to create balance. Perhaps not simply or easily, but possible.
Morality, ethics and compassion is a higher form of living as a human, but makes the world more intense because it is not necessarily a moral, ethical or compassionate world so far as humanity is concerned. Yet there are truly good and kind people here, but they tend to suffer most. We go through inner wars, in order to have the skills and empathy to mitigate and stop outer wars.
So far as bipolar is concerned, it can be a fine line between illness and self absorption and I find that part the most difficult.
It can very difficult to distinguish between what is ego and what is illness.
Desire is often times a trigger.
The feeling of lack always results in lack of gratitude.
Being grateful seems to be the best medicine, but is not an easy medicine to take when one is cycling through the ups and downs of fear, anxiety, insomnia, depression and confusion.
Going through this darkness can lead to the light. The light we learn to shine in the darkness.
There may be no light at the end of the tunnel, so we must shine a light inside the tunnel in order to see what is hidden inside the darkness and find our way out, but we will go back into the darkness out of compassion to assist our sisters and brothers out of the hole we learned how to transcend.
The gift is often the curse, the curse is often the gift and you seem to be someone who is walking the path of transmuting the curse into the gift.
Much respect and appreciation to you, you will shine the light that helps others see their own light and be a light unto this world. In this world, but not of this world. 😇🙏✨💡🌍🕊️✨
Keep well and safe and I commend and respect your bravery and courage to speak your truth to the world. 🙏✨
I completely understand what you're talking about. I used to be really impacted by emotional thoughts (desires, accusations, etc) but then God taught me to take every thought captive. Now, I can completely separate my emotions, bipolar depression/mania, anxiety, from my thoughts. I let the emotions come and I allow myself to feel them and/or pray on them. My mind isn't captive anymore to the desires or thoughts that are "brought on" by mental illness. For example, I will often feel anxiety but not anymore blame it on people or situations. I'll just be like, ope, I'm anxious. Better pray on it. It's so freeing! I highly recommend taking every thought captive and learn to separate your emotions from your other thoughts. It is possible and it's so much easier now to experience emotions without skewed desires or thoughts. Sending love and peace to you!@@SleepyJoeOmniversal
I can totally relate. Thinking of you. Hope life becomes easier for us both xx
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with this disorder. ❤ I have it too and it's refreshing finding somene who is also open to talk about it and too explain it. 😇
praying the rosary helps me calm down!!!because its a very meditative prayer
I will pray for you sister, and it sounds like you've been through a War.
I had similar episodes during late high school. Later got much longer cycles and now I’m back on rapid cycling, episodes are days to week now so not as fast as I had before or as long as last. My meds suck and still waiting the psychiatrist to contact me.
Praying for you 💕
I really understand what you going through,coz am also facing same
praying during mania sounds interesting since there seems to be an element of spiritual awakening to it or at least the higher vibrations that everyone's trying to get to 😅
I’ve never lost touch with reality like that lol 🥲 I’m usually just anxious, talkative, & insomnia-ridden. I suppose it’s different though for others.
I always thought I just had ADHD, Anxiety, and depression. I have days where I am super excited about life, then I will have days where I can barley get through work, then I just have some days where I am even. If I am manic, its usually not super high manic. I just get motivated to go out and live. I have found in my addiction issues, I normally would drink when I feel that deep depression, or I would drink when I feel excited about life. Then the binge drinking sends me into a week of depression lol.... my grandmother was a true manic to the most extreme, my dad was more bipolar 2.
One therapist thought I might be bipolar, one didn't I never got a hard answer. I defiantly struggle with the depression and anxiety aspect o it all. I try to exercise everyday which helps with all symptoms. All my friends think I am Bi Polar to some degree just because my constant mind changing ect.
I am just curious what kind of medication for bipolar 2 works well?
Definitely talk to your psychiatrist 🩷 I’m on two atypical antipsychotics (geodon has been my favorite bc it has had the least side effects for me, small dose of seroquel for sleep, but they can sometimes react with each other so exercise caution!), two anti anxiety meds (one is buspar, Ativan as needed), and a mood stabilizer (lamictal). It’s really hard to find the right blend. Some I take merely for sleep when I’m manic. And I agree about alcohol - I stopped drinking in 2021 (was never a big drinker) because it made me depressed. I also don’t drink caffeine which sometimes caused anxiety. Exercise helps with anxiety for me as well. I’ve found that most of my anxiety comes from being manic. My psychiatrist is really cool about trying out new meds if the ones I’m on aren’t helping me live to the fullest. Wishing you the best of luck on your journey!
Im exeperiecing ultradian today hypomania in afternoon now depression is again here this is hell
Prayers going out to you 🩷 I’m sorry it’s hard right now. You’re not alone in what you’re going through
@@CreateCompassionCC thank you lovely
You have my deepest sympathies, I've been trying to get the mental health clinic to diagnose my 74 year old mother who is in mid stage dementia as having ultra rapid cycling and they don't want to try because they say it's too complicated to accurately diagnose and it's much easier for them to label it as a complex dementia (although not easier for me as her sole carer 24 hours a day for almost two years).
She is on a weekly cycle like clockwork and won't sleep for almost 2-3 days while in her hypomanic state and only passes out for short 20 minute naps from physical or mental exhaustion during the second day onwards, no sleeping medication affects her in the slightest (melatonin, promazine hydrochloride, zopiclone) in her in this state but I have noticed that lorazepam slows her cognition enough for her to get 2-3 hours sleep.
I have gotten her on risperidone for the crippling anxiety she suffers during her depressive state most of the week but I am fighting with the mental health clinic to try to get her onto a mood stabiliser as well to try to break the cycling.
Have you tried anything to break the cycling or are you just living with it?
I’m so sorry you’re going though this. My prayers go out to you and your family. Risperidone worked like a tranquilizer when I was on it as a child, it made me feel like a zombie. Lorazepam is the only med I can take for insomnia, that and I switch it out for seroquel during this ultra ultra rapid cycle. Personally, I recommend to take the lorazepam as much as your doctor allows for her sleep. I’m on Geodon during the day for mania and take seroquel about and hour or two before bed for sleep. You’re technically not supposed to take those two together because of a rare side affect, but I definitely suggest seeing if you can try some new antipsychotics. Geodon has been one of my favorite meds so far for mania. It takes about 7 hours to reach its full effect for me so I take it with lunch. I don’t know if either of those recommendations can help but I pray your doctors help. If you can, pray to see what solutions God can lead you to as well. He helped me figure out my medication routine and this season has been a lot easier because of it.
Also, to answer your question, I’m not sure if you can break a bipolar cycle. I’ve never been able to control mine, they just happen.
YEAH I literally feel elevated in the beginning of the afternoon usually and then I go down into the dungeons of depression...I also feel like crying my doctor says it's bpd but I think it's bipolar ultradian.Im not being well medicated.what do you suggest?:( the drop from hypomania to depression at night is the worst since im usually depressed at night I am able to sleep well though
I made a video on the medications I take fairly recently if you’d like to check that out. I’m grateful you’re able to sleep. I typically handle depressive cycles better than manic cycles. If the lowest of lows is too much, I know some people with bipolar disorder who take antidepressants for when they’re depressed. I can see the implications with an ultradian cycle though. I will pray that you can find treatment that works as best as possible 💕
@@CreateCompassionCC thank you for your support and prayers.I wish you healing and love.9
My doctor refuses to tell me wether I have bpd or bipolar 2.For a while I would have ultradian cycles from depression to hypomania in a day it was hell.
Now its still hell one day hypomania(energy dacing) next day depressed(can't move my body feels like I HAVE WEIGHT on my legs).All my sympathy to you you are very strong I finally decided to start a mood stabilizer yesterday in your experience do they help? f
or 2 years Ive never been in remission I never got mania only hypomania or maybe its euphoria since still not sure If I have bpd or bp2 but I think bp2 because my body reacts differently (energy hypomania) and zombie(depression).I do remember one time in my life having so much energy I danced my life away and didn't sleep for a whole month then I developed psychosis.I also pray I pray the rosary it helps because its a meditative prayer
I am on a mood stabilizer too, but my doctor said they only work to stabilize your mood and not bring it up/down. If you’re already manic, then they won’t help very much. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know which type of bipolar disorder I have too because my mania gets so severe. I literally can’t sleep at all when I’m manic. I take antipsychotics to help bring down mania. I’m more comfortable being depressed than some so I don’t take antidepressants, I just endure it. I’m sorry you’ve been going through this, but working with your doctor to get on the right meds helps make it so manageable. Keep praying & keep asking God to guide you to the right treatment, He will guide you and help you 🙏 sometimes it just takes time. I was on trial and error with meds for over a decade before I found a blend I feel good on.
@@CreateCompassionCC Thank you so much I believe in God hopefully he helps me:)
i relate to you sooo much right now except my psychologist told me i have bp2 but i have been questioning if i actually do because my mood switches too fast so then i started questioning if i have bpd until today when i found out about ultra ultra rapid cycling
@@CreateCompassionCC Hi I found out I have pmdd which is pre menstrual dysphoric disorder during the month Im okay but a week before my period I get severe depression and I can't imagine me being ok again
@@user-oc8oq8bl4b hormones can be rough 😖 I had pmdd for years and it was volatile. I’m sorry you’re going through this 💔
How are you doing now ? I’ve been rapid cycling for 2 years
I’m still rapid cycling but I’m well-medicated. I take smaller doses when I’m not manic and larger doses when I am, all within my doctor’s guidelines. I do wonder if this cycle will end. It seems to be very long term for me as well. 💜