Im 33 years old i have nothing to show for it no friends nobody but me and my dog thats like my the daughter i never had i have nothing to live for other than my dog so this song hits very deep and hard
Someone needs you and your experiences so stay I know what its like your future friends need you miracles happen ill be praying for miracles only through Jesus can make it possible you can do miracles to if you didn't know I have seen them small but still big I healed my soon to die cat wouldn't eat or nothing just layer there I prayed over it for like ten seconds and next day it was fine but it died about two weeks later but I think god showed me that if I have faith all things are possible through Jesus Christ your saviour mine and your savior if you have faith you can tell a mountain cast yourself into the sea and it will obey you just have to have faith in Jesus he died on the cross to take your sin away so you don't have to eternaly suffer in torment in he'll he did it for you he can forgive you. Its not the end of your story, I love you and god does too
This song hit me so hard. When I was a teen I never thought I'd live past high school and it's been over a decade since I graduated and I'm still here despite trying to end it so many times. And things are finally okay and sometimes it still gets dark (like lately) and just... I was a victim of csa and other abuses from most of the adults in my life. It never occurred to me just burn it down. Thank you.
This song fits perfectly for my life. Ever since I’ve been losing my favorite interests in things that made me happy in my comfort zone, I’ve been depressed for weeks wanting to end my life for everything that I’ve lost. This song wants me to continue my life for what has happened to me back in the past. Room changes, favorite things starting to break, COVID, etc. I just wish I felt more excited in the future rather than focusing on the past. I was born with autism, and suicidal thoughts are what made me feel depressed and more anxious than I could’ve ever imagined before in my life. I try to think of something else besides self harm, but it usually comes back to haunt me later in the future. The older I get, the more depressed and emotionally sensitive I become. Ever since new things came in the future, the past had been better to me back then. I remember when the food used to be way better back then. Now they make it nearly tasteless, and cheap. I hate it when society cuts corners just so they can make more money than ever. There’s a saying for the world about money. And that saying is that it cannot buy you happiness. Many people commit suicide in my generation because they take everything too seriously. I just wish that the future would be a better place for everyone to live their lives to the fullest potential.
Shoot, this hit hard... I know my PTSD is caused by past trauma, but someday, I do hope to let it burn. I'm working on it. Every week, every day, every minute, I'm letting the past go. Slowly...
how come everytime i get the courage up to end all this pain that i hold inside i have to run across something like this i just dont wanna hurt anymore 😭
I know how you feel too. 😢 I'm sorry you are hurting. 🫂 It's tough, I have grown to resent my inner self saving me. It always ends in more pain. Often greater than I feared but I have also been around to experience moments of joy (like finding Citizen Solider music) that I wouldn't have had. That doesn't change how you feel but I hope it gives you hope and feel like you are not entirely alone. Take care 🫂
To everyone reading this; I'm here if you need to talk🤍I may not know you but I care about you. You're worthy, you're amazing, strong, and incredibly brave for still fighting this battle. I'm proud of you and I can assure you, even if you haven't met someone who loves you, they're still out there. Sending so much love & positivity your way. I know you're terrified and you're most likely sick of hearing this but just try one more day, it might be better than this current day💙keep your chin up darl, I'm extremely proud of you for getting up and just being here. I know it's hard to see when you're drowning in your own pain but if you need to vent or even cry to someone, I'm here for you. Please don't hesitate to reach out for help. I don't know what you're going through or how you're feeling but I would rather hear your problems and hear you vent to me than have the mental health system fail another person because they've lost their life. I know that battling mental health is so difficult when you're fighting against your own mind every day and just trying to keep your head above water to survive. You're an amazing human being, I see you, I hear you. I won't judge you, I also battle with my own mind every day but just know, there is someone who is willing to do what they can to help you. You deserve to live, to truly live, not just exist. I'm only a message away for anyone that needs someone to just listen to them
Hey... I know it´s weird, that I talk to a stranger on the internet. (I´m born in Germany, so please excuse my bad english) but I just needed someone that listens to me. It´so hard this time, to not give everything up. I trie to compansate my pain in fanfictions, drawings and stories, but it kinda feels like this is the end. I just want to stop this..
@@Aiko-chan23467 @galaxiegirl6013 Hey darlin'! It's not weird at all that you're venting to some people on the internet, just be careful with who you do talk to. Make sure that they're not someone dangerous or anything. I understand that you want the pain to stop hunny but ending your life definitely isn't the way to go. That way you're never going to have a chance to try to become an incredible artist and/or storyteller, you're never going to have a chance to be genuinely happy and have a family. Trust me, one day this will all change, I know that life doesn't feel great right now but there's always a storm to get through before you see the sun, and then there's more rain to get through before you start to see a rainbow. Everything's going to get worse before it gets better, I know that's hard to hear but it will eventually get better. I'm here if you need someone, you can vent to me about whatever you want. Do you have a doctor or therapist? Or even family members or friends that you can also talk to about these things? Maybe, if you do, they can help you out too. I'm happy to find links and FREE helplines if needed. There are also most definitely more things that you can try to shock your nervous system back to reality if you feel things get way too overwhelming, there are other ways to cope
@galaxiegirl6013 HI, I'm Raven, and I have the same coping skills where I write fanfiction and draw to get stuff out, and it's usually very dark stuff, but I know it's not enough without another human being to talk to. I'm here if you ever need me. I can't put my phone number on the internet for obvious reasons, but if it would be helpful I could put my Facebook here so we could talk through messenger if it would help you. I thank God in heaven that I am alive because I've been in the lowest lows and I know sometimes life is so much hell that we just need to say it to someone 💙
@@Aiko-chan23467 Dont wanna butt -in but its not weird at all like she said. Sometimes it's easier to talk to strangers cause they are non bias. They will not judge you on your history; just whats "at-hand". Dont give up. When your down and out the only place to go is up. 😃👍 Go out and enjoy a nice walk. Trails or the beach. Sorry but I read about your coping methods. Please try getting fresh air. And maybe something a bit more social. Ive told others this. And they have gotten better. Exercising releases endorphins/ serotonin which helps you feel happiness!!! Stay safe
@lyssa2681 your message will stand here.forever a beacon of hope and help.while at the same time proving that even though most of us wander in darkness searching for anything or anyone to make it ok,you make it reality.the world is better because you are in it
This reaches me hard I have alot of misery the only person that gave a damn about me had to walk away addiction takes the pain away for so long next day that pain is with you but worse been clean 10 yrs now and I feel great please never give up if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you are not alone promise god is great and heals god bless you guys stay safe and clean if I can do it you you can do be positive and please stay alive you are worth it no matter what anyone thinks you are loved
18 years and I never knew that these were the words I was needing to hear (for context I'm only 27) I've been fighting those thoughts for 18 years and I hear this song and the words that I never thought I would ever hear it's enough to make me cry
I wish Heaven had visiting hours so I could see my dad again I miss him so much. I wish I could tell him that he could see me now and make it a proper goodbye. and asked him if he can see me My dad died to a ATV accident me and my mom and my second brother were at the cabin. My oldest brother was at home and gave us the news the last time I said goodbye. It was like I see you later. Goodbye. I didn’t know it would be the last goodbye and if I did, I would’ve asked him if he was proud of me. I miss you so much, Dad. I wish you were still here.😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷💗💗💗💖💖💖
i did pull the trigger, i didnt rack the slide. i was a bottle and half deep of jim bean. i didnt know why i just screamed and screamed for hours. that was 2020. i tried to bash my head in 4 months ago. the battle never stops. i have a great support network but it doesnt matter. i still broke a second time. i live in fear every day of the third time being the one that sticks...... fuck life, and fuck the people who keep it this way.
Hey, I'm here if you need to talk🤍I may not know you but I care about you. You're worthy, you're amazing, strong, and incredibly brave for still fighting this battle. I'm proud of you and I can assure you, even if you haven't met someone who loves you, they're still out there. Sending so much love & positivity your way. I know you're terrified and you're most likely sick of hearing this but just try one more day, it might be better than this current day💙keep your chin up darl, I'm extremely proud of you for getting up and just being here. I know it's hard to see when you're drowning in your own pain but if you need to vent or even cry to someone, I'm here for you. Please don't hesitate to reach out for help. I don't know what you're going through or how you're feeling but I would rather hear your problems and hear you vent to me than have the mental health system fail another person because they've lost their life. I know that battling mental health is so difficult when you're fighting against your own mind every day and just trying to keep your head above water to survive. You're an amazing human being, I see you, I hear you. I won't judge you, I also battle my own mind every day but just know, there is someone who is willing to do what they can to help you. You deserve to live
I tried to off myself yesterday, but I got a last minute message from someone close, they don’t know it, but it’s the reason I type this rn instead of the alternative..
Awh thank you, I appreciate that. It truly means the world to me. Sending love, light, positivity, hope and happiness your way. If you're ever struggling please don't hesitate to reach out. I'm here if you need someone🤍
Im 33 years old i have nothing to show for it no friends nobody but me and my dog thats like my the daughter i never had i have nothing to live for other than my dog so this song hits very deep and hard
God bless you man. 🙏 I am very sorry for you and pray you get better days.
@@snas1686 thanks bro
@@Grimzta np bro, stay strong. I'm not gonna pretend I know whatcha going through but stay strong. 🤙💪
World is full of Fake peoples...no One wants to help Alone and Poor People...but they really act like they do..
Someone needs you and your experiences so stay I know what its like your future friends need you miracles happen ill be praying for miracles only through Jesus can make it possible you can do miracles to if you didn't know I have seen them small but still big I healed my soon to die cat wouldn't eat or nothing just layer there I prayed over it for like ten seconds and next day it was fine but it died about two weeks later but I think god showed me that if I have faith all things are possible through Jesus Christ your saviour mine and your savior if you have faith you can tell a mountain cast yourself into the sea and it will obey you just have to have faith in Jesus he died on the cross to take your sin away so you don't have to eternaly suffer in torment in he'll he did it for you he can forgive you. Its not the end of your story, I love you and god does too
This song hit me so hard. When I was a teen I never thought I'd live past high school and it's been over a decade since I graduated and I'm still here despite trying to end it so many times. And things are finally okay and sometimes it still gets dark (like lately) and just... I was a victim of csa and other abuses from most of the adults in my life. It never occurred to me just burn it down. Thank you.
This song has kept me alive twice by now
This song fits perfectly for my life. Ever since I’ve been losing my favorite interests in things that made me happy in my comfort zone, I’ve been depressed for weeks wanting to end my life for everything that I’ve lost. This song wants me to continue my life for what has happened to me back in the past. Room changes, favorite things starting to break, COVID, etc. I just wish I felt more excited in the future rather than focusing on the past. I was born with autism, and suicidal thoughts are what made me feel depressed and more anxious than I could’ve ever imagined before in my life. I try to think of something else besides self harm, but it usually comes back to haunt me later in the future. The older I get, the more depressed and emotionally sensitive I become. Ever since new things came in the future, the past had been better to me back then. I remember when the food used to be way better back then. Now they make it nearly tasteless, and cheap. I hate it when society cuts corners just so they can make more money than ever. There’s a saying for the world about money. And that saying is that it cannot buy you happiness. Many people commit suicide in my generation because they take everything too seriously. I just wish that the future would be a better place for everyone to live their lives to the fullest potential.
Shoot, this hit hard... I know my PTSD is caused by past trauma, but someday, I do hope to let it burn. I'm working on it. Every week, every day, every minute, I'm letting the past go. Slowly...
The Fact Is, Jake Wrote This Song On A Napkin While He Was Recovering.
I know 😢
❤❤❤❤❤
Awesome song
As the tears run down my face😭 listening to this and my heart shatters.💔💔
Much Love and Hugs.💖💖💖
1:05 something everyone needs to hear once In a while
how come everytime i get the courage up to end all this pain that i hold inside i have to run across something like this i just dont wanna hurt anymore 😭
I know how you feel too. 😢
I'm sorry you are hurting. 🫂
It's tough, I have grown to resent my inner self saving me. It always ends in more pain. Often greater than I feared but I have also been around to experience moments of joy (like finding Citizen Solider music) that I wouldn't have had.
That doesn't change how you feel but I hope it gives you hope and feel like you are not entirely alone.
Take care 🫂
To everyone reading this;
I'm here if you need to talk🤍I may not know you but I care about you. You're worthy, you're amazing, strong, and incredibly brave for still fighting this battle. I'm proud of you and I can assure you, even if you haven't met someone who loves you, they're still out there. Sending so much love & positivity your way. I know you're terrified and you're most likely sick of hearing this but just try one more day, it might be better than this current day💙keep your chin up darl, I'm extremely proud of you for getting up and just being here. I know it's hard to see when you're drowning in your own pain but if you need to vent or even cry to someone, I'm here for you. Please don't hesitate to reach out for help.
I don't know what you're going through or how you're feeling but I would rather hear your problems and hear you vent to me than have the mental health system fail another person because they've lost their life. I know that battling mental health is so difficult when you're fighting against your own mind every day and just trying to keep your head above water to survive. You're an amazing human being, I see you, I hear you.
I won't judge you, I also battle with my own mind every day but just know, there is someone who is willing to do what they can to help you. You deserve to live, to truly live, not just exist. I'm only a message away for anyone that needs someone to just listen to them
Hey... I know it´s weird, that I talk to a stranger on the internet. (I´m born in Germany, so please excuse my bad english) but I just needed someone that listens to me. It´so hard this time, to not give everything up. I trie to compansate my pain in fanfictions, drawings and stories, but it kinda feels like this is the end. I just want to stop this..
@@Aiko-chan23467 @galaxiegirl6013 Hey darlin'! It's not weird at all that you're venting to some people on the internet, just be careful with who you do talk to. Make sure that they're not someone dangerous or anything. I understand that you want the pain to stop hunny but ending your life definitely isn't the way to go. That way you're never going to have a chance to try to become an incredible artist and/or storyteller, you're never going to have a chance to be genuinely happy and have a family. Trust me, one day this will all change, I know that life doesn't feel great right now but there's always a storm to get through before you see the sun, and then there's more rain to get through before you start to see a rainbow. Everything's going to get worse before it gets better, I know that's hard to hear but it will eventually get better. I'm here if you need someone, you can vent to me about whatever you want. Do you have a doctor or therapist? Or even family members or friends that you can also talk to about these things? Maybe, if you do, they can help you out too. I'm happy to find links and FREE helplines if needed. There are also most definitely more things that you can try to shock your nervous system back to reality if you feel things get way too overwhelming, there are other ways to cope
@galaxiegirl6013 HI, I'm Raven, and I have the same coping skills where I write fanfiction and draw to get stuff out, and it's usually very dark stuff, but I know it's not enough without another human being to talk to. I'm here if you ever need me. I can't put my phone number on the internet for obvious reasons, but if it would be helpful I could put my Facebook here so we could talk through messenger if it would help you. I thank God in heaven that I am alive because I've been in the lowest lows and I know sometimes life is so much hell that we just need to say it to someone 💙
@@Aiko-chan23467
Dont wanna butt -in but its not weird at all like she said. Sometimes it's easier to talk to strangers cause they are non bias. They will not judge you on your history; just whats "at-hand".
Dont give up. When your down and out the only place to go is up. 😃👍 Go out and enjoy a nice walk. Trails or the beach. Sorry but I read about your coping methods. Please try getting fresh air. And maybe something a bit more social. Ive told others this. And they have gotten better. Exercising releases endorphins/ serotonin which helps you feel happiness!!!
Stay safe
@lyssa2681 your message will stand here.forever a beacon of hope and help.while at the same time proving that even though most of us wander in darkness searching for anything or anyone to make it ok,you make it reality.the world is better because you are in it
The past is just lessons learned.
Thank u 👍
This reaches me hard I have alot of misery the only person that gave a damn about me had to walk away addiction takes the pain away for so long next day that pain is with you but worse been clean 10 yrs now and I feel great please never give up if you ever need someone to talk to I'm here for you are not alone promise god is great and heals god bless you guys stay safe and clean if I can do it you you can do be positive and please stay alive you are worth it no matter what anyone thinks you are loved
Very beautiful lyrics and video. What a stunning background
18 years and I never knew that these were the words I was needing to hear (for context I'm only 27) I've been fighting those thoughts for 18 years and I hear this song and the words that I never thought I would ever hear it's enough to make me cry
This song helped me through some really hard shit..
wow glad I came across this... straight talent!
I wish Heaven had visiting hours so I could see my dad again I miss him so much. I wish I could tell him that he could see me now and make it a proper goodbye. and asked him if he can see me My dad died to a ATV accident me and my mom and my second brother were at the cabin. My oldest brother was at home and gave us the news the last time I said goodbye. It was like I see you later. Goodbye. I didn’t know it would be the last goodbye and if I did, I would’ve asked him if he was proud of me. I miss you so much, Dad. I wish you were still here.😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷💗💗💗💖💖💖
Listening to this while smoking a blunt love the lyrics
NO FRIEND NO LOVE
JUST ME AND MY DATK THOUGHT
Sad fffkkknnn lonely broken 😢
CS is a W Band
There a really good band listen to them all the time, god bless you
Thanks for this btw
This song remenber me to katsumi orochi
This is so relatable in so many ways. That's why I love citizen soldier.
I love it please do more songs
i did pull the trigger, i didnt rack the slide. i was a bottle and half deep of jim bean. i didnt know why i just screamed and screamed for hours.
that was 2020. i tried to bash my head in 4 months ago.
the battle never stops. i have a great support network but it doesnt matter. i still broke a second time. i live in fear every day of the third time being the one that sticks...... fuck life, and fuck the people who keep it this way.
Hey, I'm here if you need to talk🤍I may not know you but I care about you. You're worthy, you're amazing, strong, and incredibly brave for still fighting this battle. I'm proud of you and I can assure you, even if you haven't met someone who loves you, they're still out there. Sending so much love & positivity your way. I know you're terrified and you're most likely sick of hearing this but just try one more day, it might be better than this current day💙keep your chin up darl, I'm extremely proud of you for getting up and just being here. I know it's hard to see when you're drowning in your own pain but if you need to vent or even cry to someone, I'm here for you. Please don't hesitate to reach out for help.
I don't know what you're going through or how you're feeling but I would rather hear your problems and hear you vent to me than have the mental health system fail another person because they've lost their life. I know that battling mental health is so difficult when you're fighting against your own mind every day and just trying to keep your head above water to survive. You're an amazing human being, I see you, I hear you.
I won't judge you, I also battle my own mind every day but just know, there is someone who is willing to do what they can to help you. You deserve to live
I tried to off myself yesterday, but I got a last minute message from someone close, they don’t know it, but it’s the reason I type this rn instead of the alternative..
@lyssa2618 you are a saint and a person who deserves to go to heaven.
Awh thank you, I appreciate that. It truly means the world to me. Sending love, light, positivity, hope and happiness your way. If you're ever struggling please don't hesitate to reach out. I'm here if you need someone🤍
🖤🖤
I’m here if anyone need to talk.
I need talk
I don’t want to live anymore
My man will my Los belowe my alles voel ekke Kan skree
In the past i hate this kind of songs
But know i just 😢😢
Hits A bit too deep and hard... 💔😫
0:26
I was thinking to die , and shot myself at the end I was going to this direction by giving up and don't do anything and just die
My.mum doesn't know that I tried ending myself several