I let my x wife see me dressed up. And she asked me why so I told her I love to be dressed up as a woman all the time and go to work dressed up and I told her I love to be her wife or girlfriend but she get mad and left me
@@user-jc8cc4ch6w to be honest back when I got married I didn't even know what transgender was so I just live with it four years until it became unbearable
I find a lot of parallels here in my experience, We've been married 13 years, and I came out 3 years ago and started on hormones the year after. She used to be 100% an LGBTQ ally, had trans friends, went to school for it, but once finding out her partner is trans, she stopped coming to pride events, felt uncomfortable talking about it, and her initial reaction to me was "that's great you discovered yourself, now can you go back in the closet??" I know she tries to be more and more supportive and get used to me, but she's not a lesbian. She doesn't want to be married to a girl. She finally stopped deadnaming and misgendering me in public, but she still deadnames me at home and calls me her "husband" to her close friends. I started hormones even though she didn't want me to, though now she's accepted it. But she really doesn't want me to get surgeries..... Problem is, my dysphoria's getting worse. It's become so consuming, it's really hard to focus on everyday life and I've had to see therapists and call Trans Lifelines, because I've been considering suicide. Face, top, and bottom surgery are essential for my journey, and they're a long wait and expensive process, and an added barrier is a partner who doesn't support it. But I really need to do this, or I'm dead. I can't live in this body anymore. I'll find a way, and as far as the two of us being together is concerned, the future is a big question mark. I love her, but either way, one of us will be unhappy and in pain.
@@ebonyatropus7367 it will continue to eat away at you let's hope you can at least remain friends I think you need to do this and go all the way get all the surgeries and be authentic as you can unfortunately it will hurt her and hurt you but because you will be fulfilled and happy it will ease the pain don't let anyone hold you back even if it is your loved one because it's your life and you only get one chance don't let people talk you into not getting surgeries you're in your body 24/7 they will never understand
@@ChloeDaniels-dn5ve Thank you so much!! You are 100% right...... it eats at me every day. And both of us are suffering in different ways right now. It's funny how just a few days ago I saw that movie "I Saw the TV Glow", and it just hit me like a ton of bricks, with a lot of my emotional response being real feelings of grief, and how relatable the story is to my own life. Because even though I'm out and presenting, am on HRT, have a somewhat passing voice, and people have given me compliments on my looks, I still do feel that empty dying feeling of "incompleteness" that I really do feel only those three surgeries will be able to heal, a feeling getting worse by the day. And though we're both in a lot of pain, I've at least made a step yesterday in contacting my local Transcare to put me in contact with some surgeons. Breast augmentation and bottom surgery are covered by the government but are a lengthy wait, and while FFS has much shorter wait times, there is the problem that it's not covered and can be quite expensive, so I'm looking into funding options. I guess knowing that I've set the ball rolling, even though I may not be able to get surgeries in a couple years, brings me some relief, and she knows I need to do this. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement ❤
There aren't many women who have stayed with their spouses who have transitioned fully because they are essentially not lesbians. There are a few of them but usually they live as sisters for the most part and never have a sexual life again so those people are usually older. In my case my spouse thought we could stay together and even promise me that that would be the case but when push came to shove and she saw the results of the surgery she knew in her heart she would never be a lesbian and eventually asked if it would be okay if she dated man for some male companionship which I understood. She ended up dating one of those men and marrying him afterwards and life Carries On... 🤗💖🙋♀️
I went on hormones for 6 years but the side effects were horrendous because of interactions with other medications im on my partner love's the person who i am on the HRT but time will tell how long it will last iv tried to get answers from plenty of other dr's but they can't give me the answer's i so desperately need i just don't believe enough research has been done on HRT and the interactions between other medications even plenty of biological female's have lots of issues taking estrogen and progesterone which is basically just birth control pills or patches capsules cream's everyone's body's are different and some just can't stomach something others find doesn't bother them to badly
It's a difficult part when you know deep inside that you want to be different but don't know how to tell. You've struggled a lot Chloe but happely you can be now who you are deep inside. Life isn't easy,there'll always be things that make you sad or mad or even afraid....but no matter what happens always be you're self. The thruth is always hard and painfull but honesty lesst forerever. You're a great woman and I'm sure you'll be a happy and great wife in future!! I'm already jealous at the men you'll getting married with.😂😂❤
beautiful woman be blessed
I let my x wife see me dressed up. And she asked me why so I told her I love to be dressed up as a woman all the time and go to work dressed up and I told her I love to be her wife or girlfriend but she get mad and left me
@@mikepage2709 Awww sorry it happens 😔
I also was married at a young age only lasted 3 hours that same night.I new it wasn't for me.We got it annuald.Now post op and happy
@@connie-1984 wow! 3 hours lol. Good on you for finding yourself
@@ChloeDaniels-dn5ve yes you can see me on my u tube community section with my new niece and my transition story 😁
Why didn't you tell her you're secret before you got married
@@user-jc8cc4ch6w to be honest back when I got married I didn't even know what transgender was so I just live with it four years until it became unbearable
I find a lot of parallels here in my experience, We've been married 13 years, and I came out 3 years ago and started on hormones the year after. She used to be 100% an LGBTQ ally, had trans friends, went to school for it, but once finding out her partner is trans, she stopped coming to pride events, felt uncomfortable talking about it, and her initial reaction to me was "that's great you discovered yourself, now can you go back in the closet??"
I know she tries to be more and more supportive and get used to me, but she's not a lesbian. She doesn't want to be married to a girl. She finally stopped deadnaming and misgendering me in public, but she still deadnames me at home and calls me her "husband" to her close friends. I started hormones even though she didn't want me to, though now she's accepted it. But she really doesn't want me to get surgeries..... Problem is, my dysphoria's getting worse. It's become so consuming, it's really hard to focus on everyday life and I've had to see therapists and call Trans Lifelines, because I've been considering suicide. Face, top, and bottom surgery are essential for my journey, and they're a long wait and expensive process, and an added barrier is a partner who doesn't support it. But I really need to do this, or I'm dead. I can't live in this body anymore.
I'll find a way, and as far as the two of us being together is concerned, the future is a big question mark. I love her, but either way, one of us will be unhappy and in pain.
@@ebonyatropus7367 it will continue to eat away at you let's hope you can at least remain friends I think you need to do this and go all the way get all the surgeries and be authentic as you can unfortunately it will hurt her and hurt you but because you will be fulfilled and happy it will ease the pain don't let anyone hold you back even if it is your loved one because it's your life and you only get one chance don't let people talk you into not getting surgeries you're in your body 24/7 they will never understand
@@ChloeDaniels-dn5ve Thank you so much!! You are 100% right...... it eats at me every day. And both of us are suffering in different ways right now. It's funny how just a few days ago I saw that movie "I Saw the TV Glow", and it just hit me like a ton of bricks, with a lot of my emotional response being real feelings of grief, and how relatable the story is to my own life. Because even though I'm out and presenting, am on HRT, have a somewhat passing voice, and people have given me compliments on my looks, I still do feel that empty dying feeling of "incompleteness" that I really do feel only those three surgeries will be able to heal, a feeling getting worse by the day.
And though we're both in a lot of pain, I've at least made a step yesterday in contacting my local Transcare to put me in contact with some surgeons. Breast augmentation and bottom surgery are covered by the government but are a lengthy wait, and while FFS has much shorter wait times, there is the problem that it's not covered and can be quite expensive, so I'm looking into funding options.
I guess knowing that I've set the ball rolling, even though I may not be able to get surgeries in a couple years, brings me some relief, and she knows I need to do this.
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement ❤
@@ebonyatropus7367 you're welcome good luck keep me posted
There aren't many women who have stayed with their spouses who have transitioned fully because they are essentially not lesbians. There are a few of them but usually they live as sisters for the most part and never have a sexual life again so those people are usually older. In my case my spouse thought we could stay together and even promise me that that would be the case but when push came to shove and she saw the results of the surgery she knew in her heart she would never be a lesbian and eventually asked if it would be okay if she dated man for some male companionship which I understood. She ended up dating one of those men and marrying him afterwards and life Carries On...
🤗💖🙋♀️
Yeah well said your story is intriguing
What when did we get married darling 💕💕
2004 2014
Dam I missed it lol so wanna try again 😉😈❤❤
I went on hormones for 6 years but the side effects were horrendous because of interactions with other medications im on my partner love's the person who i am on the HRT but time will tell how long it will last iv tried to get answers from plenty of other dr's but they can't give me the answer's i so desperately need i just don't believe enough research has been done on HRT and the interactions between other medications even plenty of biological female's have lots of issues taking estrogen and progesterone which is basically just birth control pills or patches capsules cream's everyone's body's are different and some just can't stomach something others find doesn't bother them to badly
It's a difficult part when you know deep inside that you want to be different but don't know how to tell. You've struggled a lot Chloe but happely you can be now who you are deep inside. Life isn't easy,there'll always be things that make you sad or mad or even afraid....but no matter what happens always be you're self. The thruth is always hard and painfull but honesty lesst forerever. You're a great woman and I'm sure you'll be a happy and great wife in future!! I'm already jealous at the men you'll getting married with.😂😂❤
@@leendertcalvis541 Aww don't know what to say other than thanks so much. Mush love to you x