Man, when they'd put me in the ambulance, they'd be like "I think it's time for a little ride" and they'd smile devilishly, and I kept thinking they were driving me to some warehouse in the middle of nowhere to beat me to death. That was during a psychotic episode.
Lmfaoooo Im schizophrenic and I find this hilarious. I had my same experience on an ambulance. She looked so happy for no reason while I was literally terrified. I thought they were driving me to a grave to bury me alive
Listening to music is very relaxing and helps me ignore the voices, but i couldn't have music. So i constantly could only focus on the voices. Ive been in mental hospitals 4 times, all for schizophrenia and suicide. Everytime was horrible, the nurses were rude and when i would get scared by my visual hallucinations, they said to 'suck it up'. It was so rude. Thank you for sharing your experiences, its helpful to know im not alone.
I was in a mental hospital twice once in 1988 and once in 1989 at ages 14 and 15. Have bipolar disorder but can relate to a person with Schizophrenia. First time was very disconcerting and I ended up bulking at it. I was threatened with a baker act but ended up getting discharged AMA. Second time I went in, I had completely crashed. I ended up sleeping for 3 days in 12 hour shifts of sleep with like 10 or 15 minutes of being awake between sleep. I believe they call it secondary hypersomnia. I was in for about a month and was placed on mellaril (thioridazone) 25mg. After discharge I was soon placed on Carbamazipine 100mg. I ended up running away from this around age 17. I use music myself love heavy metal, power metal, symphonic metal, black metal, metal, metal, metal and more metal, I am now 44 years old and slowing down to the point that I think what I ran from is now catching back up to me. :-( the meds I was on before made it where if I felt humiliation I would bottle up and not talk at all.
my friend/ex roommate has schizophrenia. she doesn't get a lot of support from her family. a few weeks after i moved out, she went to the hospital, got kicked out of the house because of missed rent with no explanation, and ended up missing. apparently the police did find her, but i don't know what happened after that. her mother hasn't kept in contact with me. so thank you for these videos, they're helping to understand her a lot better.
Hahaha....20, getting old.... dude, I'm 39, gonna be 40 this year. Now, that scares me. That also means, I've been dealing with this illness for 24 years now, that's most of my life... But, I understand the sentiment: When there a new first digit in you age, that takes some getting used to. Also, I like your look without a beard more. You have a beautiful jawline, it's a waste to hide that.
Wow, first comment. Great idea with FB page, too bad I don't use it anymore, last time I used it was like 6-7 years ago I think. Maybe I did some updates since, but it was basically a waste of time, that's the reason I stopped using it. EDIT: I think they put people in silenced room to establish diagnosis easier. Someone who doesn't have schizophrenia would remain still, probably or will look bored or something. EDIT2: believe me, time passes slowly in every hospital for every kind of patient. Thanks for the video man! Keep up the good work :) EDIT3: I can tell you you're doing awesome, totally different person, happy, focused, talking without losing focus. I know this because I watched probably all of your videos, including old ones when you were hallucinating and losing thoughts and focus. You're definitely doing great.
I have the same sickness as you, but I think I have an ok life. Have been once in a long term hospital, and I loved it. It was for over a year. My room was nice, and I could have a laptop computer. Played games on it. Then there was two living rooms, one with TV, and the other one for playing board games or cards. The hospital had table tennis, a gym for basket or other sport, billiards. And very friendly nurses that were dressed normally. This is in Norway. I had always something to do, and the people were awesome. I was in another place for two weeks, but there was nothing to do. So that sucked. I think I was lucky with the long term stay. Now i live in my own flat. Even though I have schizofrenia, I'm not like you. I like to socialize and meet new people.
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test. If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
I was in mental hospital 2 years ago when I was 18. I was diagnosed with bordeline personality dissorder and anxiety. As you said, I also hated groups the most. Groups drove me crazy. I never really had panic attacks often but while I was in the group I had it almost every second day. I get easily hurt by other people behaviours and on the top of that I get really scared whenever someone raise their voice. I also had really bad experience with psychiatrist and nurses, almost everyone was like "you just pretending to get some attention", thats what most psychiatrist think about bordelines. Doctors was mean to me and didn´t care about my depression and panic attacks at all. I was just waiting for them to finally relase me from it. I was forced to be there for 3 months. I share the opinion that psychiatrics and employees should be more aware of what the really do and don´t judge their pacients just by their diagnosis. Most doctors just lack interest in their work and most of times don´t care about their patiens. In the end I learned to control my emotions a little bit but I still suffer by massive anxiety sometimes and also can´t build any stable relationship. Hospital was useful in one thing - they taught me than no one will save me, no one really cares about my problems so I need to solve it myslef. And I´m happy for this knowlege now because I feel like I can control my life better when I only depend on myslef.
I was in war at your age. In the first Gulf war. Been having issue's for 30 years. I hope you get better and don't have to deal with this all your life.
I just found the channel today and have just watched a couple of videos so far, I just wanted to let you know that I think your channel is really informative and you are truly inspiring and very brave
I work at a mental hospital and personally understand the struggle of having a mental illness. Just working at different hospitals I've seen how different the staff is and how positive staff can really make the stay easier on patients. All of the rules that are made as a safety precaution (yes people can harm themselves with a piece of string). Some hospitals are more relaxed about what you can have with you (like hygiene products) but all places won't let you have any kind of string, rope or shoelace :/. Glad you're feeling somewhat better though!🙌🏽
having a room by yourself would suck. for me i had a roommate every time. Also when I was in the hospital once I was taste blood the whole time, i thought blood was coming up my lungs or something or my tongue was coming off or some shit.
the groups all day thing and the empty rooms reallllly got to me when i was in a mental hospital as well. nice to hear someone with the same experiences
I used to have a phobia of being locked away forever in a psych ward. Over the years as my illness gets worse, I realize I have a high probability of ending up there for a short stay. You don't get locked away forever. And I have read so many times it's a welcome escape from the real world and daily life when it gets to that point.
Thank you for sharing your story with us! I've been in a mental hospital for three months when I was 12 years old. It was so so awful. The other patients were nice and I liked the horse stable there, but that's about it.
ur on the road to recovery,n im only 14 and i havnt been diagnosed with anything but ive been having so much issues for the past couple years, keep staying strong.
I think you are going to help people with these videos. So sorry for what you're going through. You are very good looking\ try to stay well. Thanks for sharing.
Id love to see some videos with your parents (I'm totally assuming sorry if im wrong) on how they have dealt with and helped you and what they've learned.
thank you for your videos. I know a lot about schizophrenia but whenever I watch your videos, I still learn new things. it's a great idea to bring the community together. you have a big heart! keep doing this!!
I was in the hospital for 4 months after what can best be described as severe depression, I went to class like only 4 times the last year and luckily my friends were able to intervene when I was going to crash my car into a concrete wall. I did like the group therapies and I could have a tv in my room if I asked for, but I didn't. Tv in the communal room was fine for me, otherwise I would only seclude myself again and I tried actively to get better. What made me quit early (they wanted me to stay longer, but I thought I was ready, now I regret) was the strict regiment. 7:30 breakfast, too late = less time out in the weekend, skip therapy = don't go out for the day, only tv after 18:00. No wifi, I could have computer time like a couple houres a week at most. Always be proper dressed, pyjama's only allowed for sleeping. And although the fixed schedule really helped me to get back a sense of time, I hated it so much. The food was acceptable, but a little low on variation. At the end, I craved for internet, being able to choose what to eat and plan my day myself. Oh and they checked on you every night, I don't miss that, being able to sleep without someone walking in on you is the best thing ever.
Hi Jacob! Get this: I am wearing stereo headphones as I am watching this video. When that noise happened, I thought it was coming from outside MY window. At the same time, YOU looked up like you were hearing what I THOUGHT I was hearing out of my window. It was surreal for a couple of seconds until you asked us if we heard it on YOUR end. XD Anyway I'm getting close to catching up on your exceptionally done video catalogue. You have the strength of an Egyptian Pyramid. You're AWESOME! I'm learning a lot. (Do you even see comments on your old videos...?) :/
When I was 12 I was in a hospital for kids, later 3 times in hospitals for adults. They are scary. My last visit wasn't that bad to be honest, we had 4-people rooms and we could use our phones. Sorry for my English and take care!
Yes being in groups in the circus as me and my doctor call it, is very unhelpful. Personally i've been in there more than 8 times if not 10 and they always had us in groups weather we felt, the way we felt was irrelevant. The whole being in a dead silent room was always terrible i had to sit there and listen to it all. Luckily for me there were more patient coming in and they could talk with me when we were ready........sadly it was a certain individual that had done things like push his grandma down stairs and a man who eventually spit on face, yeah terrible place.
They have made some improvements ECT (electro convuslive therapy) is being replaced with TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation) which seems to do the same as ECT without the brutal nature of shocks.
Does it bother you when movies/books/etc portray mentally ill people as dangerous? The new movie "Split" seemed to cause a bit of an uproar, but my mom who has DID and schizophrenia loved it. What are your thoughts?
Bryn Shadow I have DID and CSD as well as other illnesses. I agree with your mom, I did enjoy that movie. Although, they portray people with mental illnesses in a way to please the public eye or to get a rising out of people, there is still truth behind them. It's incredibly hard to explain, sort of like if you experienced them like we do you would know, but at the same time it's different for each and every single person. Sorry if this is hard to understand, having a bit of an off day but saw this and wanted to reply. Pointless now because I'm not sure if I even made the point or not. But have a great day
My doctor thought I had schizofrenia, it turned out I got paranoid and hallucinated becuse the mix of marijuana and Rispedal, but before and after they knew about the mix I was given a high dose of Abilify and Rispedal. I like your videos man, It's really interesting to hear someone talking about these kind of things, keep up the good work :)
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test. If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
what medication are you on for schizophrenia? does it work well for you? I've been on Abilify, Seroquel, and Latuda but the only one that I've liked and have not quit taking is Thorazine.
I have a question. Did you happen to go to kingwood pines hospital? I’m sorry if it seems personal, but I’m looking for a friend that I met while I was there.
It felt like being in prison for me. They took the curtain and all the equipment out of the room since I heard voices telling me to kill myself in the ER. They gave me scrubs that were too big for me to wear. There’s nothing in your room which sucks. I made some good friends though while I was there who I talk to now if I have a psychotic episode.
Did you go to alternative school or regular school just wondering? Iv been sent twice for suicide attempts and self harm. I had a horrible experience with mental hospitals I have bladder problems and emotional distress is a huge trigger and I was always get locked up in this rubber room and have accidents and I wasn't allowed out to change myself.
Where i went we had a day room with a tv, markers to draw, and playing card and une. But are nurses didn’t care at all about us. I made friends which was nice, they were funny and understanding. I did meet some angry ass people tho.
seroquel really... how can u handle that shit? doesnt it make u eat every thing in sight? I took it for a while and it was horrible. I constantly felt like i was starving and had to eat even straight after eating. i felt like i'd die if i didnt keep on eating, i had to get off of it, it was awful
Ive been in an abusive mental hospital the guards beat me at night and bloodied my face, i also have schizophrenia I noticed you have it Color in your Smoke Rrright?
I hated the hospitals psych ward and I hated the groups, I was in the psych ward for 3 months and I went to one group that entire time... I have schizophrenia too man I’m planning on doing my own video on my hallucinations. I had very rare hallucinations with a pretty crazy story behind them
i actually came here because of Legion. But i'm very interested in the subject schizophrenic. my father had a different illness. when he was 19 he was psychotic and in 2013 he was manic deppresive. i didn't knew you could just get schizophrenia at such a young age, i dont know where im going with this comment XD
omg you watch that show too? I love the comics and the t.v. show. I pretty much love anything marvel mutants. I had a couple of visual and auditory hallucinations over the course of my teenage life (around 4) and I've had a lot of delusions too. It wasn't schizophrenia, probably stress-induced psychosis from my bad depression episodes. Or at least I hope it wasn't. I started searching up about schizophrenia at 13 from curiosity because I wanted to go into neuroscience and psychology. And then I got diagnosed with depression and saw stuff a couple of times which kinda freaked me out.
Literally everything you're saying is like my story except I was there supposedly for an attempt- but was actually a manic episode. It's a vary confusing story haha
Do you think you'll start drinking at 21? I don't think it would be good for your schizophrenia but I dunno the affects of drinking on mental illnesses. btw I love your videos and your gf 💗 and I scream when you upload thanksssss
hang in there bro stay stablized i been in the mental hospital before not because of schizophrea but anger issues which i no longer and i did have anxiety until i started on klonopin went away for a month come back had to up the dose now im going through the mental and physical torment from this medication ive taken many anti depressents before never ever had any trouble stopping or changing but this poison pill i call it yeah im having all kinds of problems with this but im hanging in there i want you to do the same
Tanner Peek Sometimes I'll think that a slenderman-like figure is following me at night, but it's probably because I have night blindness and because I've always been slightly paranoid about monsters.
When I was in, the schedule said 2-3 groups a day, but we really only had 1 or 2 (HOURS apart) and I really hoped for groups bc it was so boring and quiet and isolated.
lol one time I was in the back of an ambulance while I was on 5 tabs of acid and I thought I was gonna be taken away forever, prisoner of the government.
Holy shit as a fellow acid user I feel you. Even on 1 tab something horrible can often happen, like when I was with a friend but I actually thought it was someone wearing a mask of my friend to try and kill me. Or when I had 2 tabs and had some talking monkey follow me everywhere, knowing it was there even when I couldn't see it.
I don't know if that's a weird question so please don't hate me but I smell sometimes things that I can't smell in my room. Like... I can't even describe it but I smell things that aren't there. I never really thought about it a lot but I wanted to ask if someone here does have this too and is it ordinary or strange?
Man, when they'd put me in the ambulance, they'd be like "I think it's time for a little ride" and they'd smile devilishly, and I kept thinking they were driving me to some warehouse in the middle of nowhere to beat me to death. That was during a psychotic episode.
I mean I don't have schizophrenia or anything and I would find that terrifying as well.
Lmfaoooo Im schizophrenic and I find this hilarious. I had my same experience on an ambulance. She looked so happy for no reason while I was literally terrified. I thought they were driving me to a grave to bury me alive
Jamie&friends they told me I hope you don’t get in a car crash lol
Just found your channel and even though I can't relate to anything you say, I find your videos very insightful. Thanks and best of luck
I hope you enjoy your stay!
thanks buddy
Listening to music is very relaxing and helps me ignore the voices, but i couldn't have music. So i constantly could only focus on the voices. Ive been in mental hospitals 4 times, all for schizophrenia and suicide. Everytime was horrible, the nurses were rude and when i would get scared by my visual hallucinations, they said to 'suck it up'. It was so rude. Thank you for sharing your experiences, its helpful to know im not alone.
I was in a mental hospital twice once in 1988 and once in 1989 at ages 14 and 15. Have bipolar disorder but can relate to a person with Schizophrenia. First time was very disconcerting and I ended up bulking at it. I was threatened with a baker act but ended up getting discharged AMA. Second time I went in, I had completely crashed. I ended up sleeping for 3 days in 12 hour shifts of sleep with like 10 or 15 minutes of being awake between sleep. I believe they call it secondary hypersomnia. I was in for about a month and was placed on mellaril (thioridazone) 25mg. After discharge I was soon placed on Carbamazipine 100mg. I ended up running away from this around age 17. I use music myself love heavy metal, power metal, symphonic metal, black metal, metal, metal, metal and more metal, I am now 44 years old and slowing down to the point that I think what I ran from is now catching back up to me. :-( the meds I was on before made it where if I felt humiliation I would bottle up and not talk at all.
Always clicking on his videos ASAP.
my friend/ex roommate has schizophrenia. she doesn't get a lot of support from her family. a few weeks after i moved out, she went to the hospital, got kicked out of the house because of missed rent with no explanation, and ended up missing. apparently the police did find her, but i don't know what happened after that. her mother hasn't kept in contact with me. so thank you for these videos, they're helping to understand her a lot better.
my experience with mental hospitals is theyre abit like jail and they dont have any pajamas.
the first hospital i stayed in they lost my clothes.
Hahaha....20, getting old.... dude, I'm 39, gonna be 40 this year. Now, that scares me. That also means, I've been dealing with this illness for 24 years now, that's most of my life... But, I understand the sentiment: When there a new first digit in you age, that takes some getting used to. Also, I like your look without a beard more. You have a beautiful jawline, it's a waste to hide that.
if 40 scares you what about 60 and what about 80?
They're probably gonna scare me too, though I'll probably never reach 60.
Wow, first comment. Great idea with FB page, too bad I don't use it anymore, last time I used it was like 6-7 years ago I think. Maybe I did some updates since, but it was basically a waste of time, that's the reason I stopped using it.
EDIT: I think they put people in silenced room to establish diagnosis easier. Someone who doesn't have schizophrenia would remain still, probably or will look bored or something.
EDIT2: believe me, time passes slowly in every hospital for every kind of patient.
Thanks for the video man! Keep up the good work :)
EDIT3: I can tell you you're doing awesome, totally different person, happy, focused, talking without losing focus. I know this because I watched probably all of your videos, including old ones when you were hallucinating and losing thoughts and focus. You're definitely doing great.
I have the same sickness as you, but I think I have an ok life. Have been once in a long term hospital, and I loved it. It was for over a year. My room was nice, and I could have a laptop computer. Played games on it. Then there was two living rooms, one with TV, and the other one for playing board games or cards. The hospital had table tennis, a gym for basket or other sport, billiards. And very friendly nurses that were dressed normally. This is in Norway. I had always something to do, and the people were awesome. I was in another place for two weeks, but there was nothing to do. So that sucked. I think I was lucky with the long term stay. Now i live in my own flat. Even though I have schizofrenia, I'm not like you. I like to socialize and meet new people.
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test.
If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
I was in mental hospital 2 years ago when I was 18. I was diagnosed with bordeline personality dissorder and anxiety. As you said, I also hated groups the most. Groups drove me crazy. I never really had panic attacks often but while I was in the group I had it almost every second day. I get easily hurt by other people behaviours and on the top of that I get really scared whenever someone raise their voice. I also had really bad experience with psychiatrist and nurses, almost everyone was like "you just pretending to get some attention", thats what most psychiatrist think about bordelines. Doctors was mean to me and didn´t care about my depression and panic attacks at all. I was just waiting for them to finally relase me from it. I was forced to be there for 3 months. I share the opinion that psychiatrics and employees should be more aware of what the really do and don´t judge their pacients just by their diagnosis. Most doctors just lack interest in their work and most of times don´t care about their patiens. In the end I learned to control my emotions a little bit but I still suffer by massive anxiety sometimes and also can´t build any stable relationship. Hospital was useful in one thing - they taught me than no one will save me, no one really cares about my problems so I need to solve it myslef. And I´m happy for this knowlege now because I feel like I can control my life better when I only depend on myslef.
u look a lot younger without your beard :D
Yeah I know, it's ridiculous. I look at least 5 years younger hahaha.
kupa kowalski yeah xD I thought I clicked on the wrong video. You look great Jacob 💟 and happy Valentine's day
what's the name of the cigarette vapor?
ikr lol
I want you to check this out : en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Simulation_hypothesis
I was in war at your age. In the first Gulf war. Been having issue's for 30 years. I hope you get better and don't have to deal with this all your life.
Thanks for sharing your story. You're awesome, man.
I just found the channel today and have just watched a couple of videos so far, I just wanted to let you know that I think your channel is really informative and you are truly inspiring and very brave
It's the realness of people in mental hospitals that I like. You're all dealing with/working on things
I work at a mental hospital and personally understand the struggle of having a mental illness. Just working at different hospitals I've seen how different the staff is and how positive staff can really make the stay easier on patients. All of the rules that are made as a safety precaution (yes people can harm themselves with a piece of string). Some hospitals are more relaxed about what you can have with you (like hygiene products) but all places won't let you have any kind of string, rope or shoelace :/. Glad you're feeling somewhat better though!🙌🏽
having a room by yourself would suck. for me i had a roommate every time. Also when I was in the hospital once I was taste blood the whole time, i thought blood was coming up my lungs or something or my tongue was coming off or some shit.
I wasn't allowed to have a roommate the last time, and I love being by myself so I'd hate to have a roommate.
the groups all day thing and the empty rooms reallllly got to me when i was in a mental hospital as well. nice to hear someone with the same experiences
I used to have a phobia of being locked away forever in a psych ward. Over the years as my illness gets worse, I realize I have a high probability of ending up there for a short stay. You don't get locked away forever. And I have read so many times it's a welcome escape from the real world and daily life when it gets to that point.
Good video. Thanks for making it. Having nothing to do is a real problem, and it was my experience too.
Thank you for sharing your story with us!
I've been in a mental hospital for three months when I was 12 years old. It was so so awful.
The other patients were nice and I liked the horse stable there, but that's about it.
ur on the road to recovery,n im only 14 and i havnt been diagnosed with anything but ive been having so much issues for the past couple years, keep staying strong.
how are you now?
I think you are going to help people with these videos. So sorry for what you're going through. You are very good looking\ try to stay well. Thanks for sharing.
Id love to see some videos with your parents (I'm totally assuming sorry if im wrong) on how they have dealt with and helped you and what they've learned.
thank you for your videos. I know a lot about schizophrenia but whenever I watch your videos, I still learn new things. it's a great idea to bring the community together. you have a big heart! keep doing this!!
I was in the hospital for 4 months after what can best be described as severe depression, I went to class like only 4 times the last year and luckily my friends were able to intervene when I was going to crash my car into a concrete wall. I did like the group therapies and I could have a tv in my room if I asked for, but I didn't. Tv in the communal room was fine for me, otherwise I would only seclude myself again and I tried actively to get better. What made me quit early (they wanted me to stay longer, but I thought I was ready, now I regret) was the strict regiment. 7:30 breakfast, too late = less time out in the weekend, skip therapy = don't go out for the day, only tv after 18:00. No wifi, I could have computer time like a couple houres a week at most. Always be proper dressed, pyjama's only allowed for sleeping. And although the fixed schedule really helped me to get back a sense of time, I hated it so much. The food was acceptable, but a little low on variation. At the end, I craved for internet, being able to choose what to eat and plan my day myself. Oh and they checked on you every night, I don't miss that, being able to sleep without someone walking in on you is the best thing ever.
Hi Jacob! Get this: I am wearing stereo headphones as I am watching this video. When that noise happened, I thought it was coming from outside MY window. At the same time, YOU looked up like you were hearing what I THOUGHT I was hearing out of my window. It was surreal for a couple of seconds until you asked us if we heard it on YOUR end. XD
Anyway I'm getting close to catching up on your exceptionally done video catalogue. You have the strength of an Egyptian Pyramid. You're AWESOME! I'm learning a lot.
(Do you even see comments on your old videos...?) :/
Hope you feel good and at peace and happy valentines day for you and your lovely girlfriend🎉
When I was hospitalized I didn’t feel like myself either and when my parents visited me they said I was completely out of it
HI JACOBB !!!!!GREAT VIDEO !!!!!NICE HAIR !!!!!
When I was 12 I was in a hospital for kids, later 3 times in hospitals for adults. They are scary. My last visit wasn't that bad to be honest, we had 4-people rooms and we could use our phones. Sorry for my English and take care!
Did you ever find out what that noise was?
We heard it too..
No idea what it was, was really odd though.
Yes being in groups in the circus as me and my doctor call it, is very unhelpful. Personally i've been in there more than 8 times if not 10 and they always had us in groups weather we felt, the way we felt was irrelevant. The whole being in a dead silent room was always terrible i had to sit there and listen to it all. Luckily for me there were more patient coming in and they could talk with me when we were ready........sadly it was a certain individual that had done things like push his grandma down stairs and a man who eventually spit on face, yeah terrible place.
They have made some improvements ECT (electro convuslive therapy) is being replaced with TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation) which seems to do the same as ECT without the brutal nature of shocks.
"You're on a n1 hold for 3 days." A week later you walk out.
I miss your mutton chops you actually one of the few guys who are able to pull them off
Does it bother you when movies/books/etc portray mentally ill people as dangerous? The new movie "Split" seemed to cause a bit of an uproar, but my mom who has DID and schizophrenia loved it. What are your thoughts?
Bryn Shadow
I have DID and CSD as well as other illnesses. I agree with your mom, I did enjoy that movie.
Although, they portray people with mental illnesses in a way to please the public eye or to get a rising out of people, there is still truth behind them. It's incredibly hard to explain, sort of like if you experienced them like we do you would know, but at the same time it's different for each and every single person.
Sorry if this is hard to understand, having a bit of an off day but saw this and wanted to reply. Pointless now because I'm not sure if I even made the point or not. But have a great day
I laughed uncomfortably hard when you said you were smelling blood so you must be internally bleeding XD
My doctor thought I had schizofrenia, it turned out I got paranoid and hallucinated becuse the mix of marijuana and Rispedal, but before and after they knew about the mix I was given a high dose of Abilify and Rispedal.
I like your videos man, It's really interesting to hear someone talking about these kind of things, keep up the good work :)
After several years of research, here is how I cured my brother's mental illness. Decades ago he was was given the labels of paranoid schizophrenic, bi polar, manic depressive and given handfuls of pills to take, that had horrific side effects. When I asked his psychiatrists if he could ever be cured, they all said no, that schizophrenia couldn't be cured only treated. Don't believe the psychiatrists that tell you there is no cure. Don't be intimidated by their title or college degrees. I have several graduate degrees and can tell you that they are just pieces of paper that mean absolutely nothing. We now have the internet and the collective knowledge of the world at our fingertips. I finally had enough of these morons that were too stupid to cure my brother, and asked God in the name of Jesus to show me what was causing my brother's problems, and here is what he showed me. I started searching for all things known to cause psychosis and also started learning how the brain operates. Then I started running my own blood tests on my brother through online labs such as request a test, to determine the imbalances in his brain and body. Here is what was causing his problems. 1. an elevated free copper level. 2. a low B12, which was causing an elevated methylmalonic acid level and this elevated methylmalonic acid was blocking enzymes that convert ammonia to urea in the urea cycle. An elevated ammonia causes psychosis, hallucinations, paranoia, depression, insomnia, and many other things. An elevated methylmalonic acid causes a host of problems too, and eventually eats the myelin sheaths off the nerves that contain the electrical signals. Once the B12 is brought back to normal, the myelin sheaths will reform within 2 years. As for the elevated free copper, it also causes psychosis, paranoia, hallucinations, and insomnia. The free copper also enters the brain, oxidizes neurotransmitters and short circuits the brain. Free or unbound copper is toxic, and a conductor of electricity, and the brain is an electrochemical organ, so it wreaks havoc on brain signals. Copper bound to ceruloplasmin protein is non toxic and actually used by the brain and body to properly function. Where did the free copper come from? He has a defective ATP7B gene, which doesn't properly bind copper. Anyway, get these 4 tests done. 1. direct measurement of free copper (test number 279071 at lab corp). This is not a serum copper test, so make sure you get the direct measurement of free copper. I use lab corp in Oklahoma, so the test number may be different in your state or country. Normal free copper level should be 0-10 mcg/dl. Anything over that and you have a problem. 2. Methylmalonic acid test, which will show the B12 at the tissue level. 3. serum B12. 4. Ammonia blood test.
If your free copper is elevated only take zinc or ammonium tetrathiomolybdate (TM)to lower it. Don't take the old copper chelating drug penacillimine, because it is too aggressive at mobilizing the copper and can flood the brain with even more copper, leaving a person in a vegetative state. If a doctor tries to use this copper chelating drug, just say no. Zinc or TM are much safer and more effective. TM can be obtained from a compounding pharmacist and you will need a doctor's prescription to get it. Zinc is slower at chelating the copper and may take 2 or 3 years, but it will get the copper level down. Zinc needs to be taken without food one hour before or 2 hours after meals. If you take zinc with food it binds it up and renders it inactive. Zinc pulls copper from the blood through intestinal cells and also blocks the absorption of copper. Also stop eating high copper foods, such as liver and shellfish. Get your free copper level down to 10 mcg/dl or lower and you will say bye bye to those voices in your head and paranoia. Also if your methylmalonic acid is high, this is due to a low B12 at the tissue level, so have your doctor give you B12 injections until the M acid drops back down. You may have an intrinsic factor protein defect in your stomach that won't allow you to absorb B12 if taken orally, so go with the shots, or take it sublingually, which means under the tongue. If the M acid is high, the ammonia will be high too, and there are drugs to lower ammonia. The ammonia and M acid will eventually go down on their own once the B12 problem is corrected. Once your B12 normalizes this will make you feel like a new person. According to my research, these 2 things, a high free copper and low B12 are causing most of the mental illness in the world. I have learned that this cure for schizophrenia has been around since the 1960's when Dr. Carl C, Pfeiffer discovered copper was causing schizophrenia and he wound up curing 20,000 schizophrenics over his lifetime. According to him, once he started curing patients and getting them off their meds, big pharma spent millions to block his cure from getting into medical schools. Big pharma doesn't want anything cured, because they make billions treating diseases. Another thing I forgot to mention, I have tested several brands and types of zinc and found the least upsetting to the stomach is "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. I'm not being paid to promote anything, but found this zinc was effective at lowering free copper and also easy on the stomach. You can buy this zinc online and find it by googling "now foods" brand zinc picolinate. Take 50 mg of zinc 3 times a day, one hour before or two hours after meals. Once your free copper is lowered and your schizophrenia cured, which may take a few years with zinc, you will need to still take at least 50 mg once a day for the rest of your life to prevent the copper from building back up and causing a relapse. You can take TM and be decoppered in 8 weeks so you might wanna get a prescription for this. Also what I did for my brother was left him on his medication while I was decoppering him and bringing his B12 up. Once I corrected what was causing his problems I started gradually weaning him off his medications and today he lives a normal life free of medication and cured of schizophrenia, bi polar and manic depressive. Anyway good luck, and please share this cure with others on the internet so we can get rid of this needless suffering. God Bless
How do you know if someone has schizophrenia or psychosis?
You look like a million bucks w/o the facial hair!!
what medication are you on for schizophrenia? does it work well for you? I've been on Abilify, Seroquel, and Latuda but the only one that I've liked and have not quit taking is Thorazine.
I have a question. Did you happen to go to kingwood pines hospital? I’m sorry if it seems personal, but I’m looking for a friend that I met while I was there.
It felt like being in prison for me. They took the curtain and all the equipment out of the room since I heard voices telling me to kill myself in the ER. They gave me scrubs that were too big for me to wear. There’s nothing in your room which sucks. I made some good friends though while I was there who I talk to now if I have a psychotic episode.
When u look back at it, do you feel better today?
I was wondering a while ago you said that you had a hallucination in which you could smell blood. What do you think triggered that?
How do you stay so skinny being on meds I gained so much weight on my meds
what happens when someone refuses to get out of bed in psycatric hospitals is there some sort punishment for not listening
Did you go to alternative school or regular school just wondering?
Iv been sent twice for suicide attempts and self harm.
I had a horrible experience with mental hospitals I have bladder problems and emotional distress is a huge trigger and I was always get locked up in this rubber room and have accidents and I wasn't allowed out to change myself.
Where i went we had a day room with a tv, markers to draw, and playing card and une. But are nurses didn’t care at all about us. I made friends which was nice, they were funny and understanding. I did meet some angry ass people tho.
seroquel really... how can u handle that shit? doesnt it make u eat every thing in sight? I took it for a while and it was horrible. I constantly felt like i was starving and had to eat even straight after eating. i felt like i'd die if i didnt keep on eating, i had to get off of it, it was awful
Ive been in an abusive mental hospital the guards beat me at night and bloodied my face, i also have schizophrenia I noticed you have it Color in your Smoke Rrright?
Have you ever read the book "Sanity and Madness in the Family" from author R.D. Laing?
I hated the hospitals psych ward and I hated the groups, I was in the psych ward for 3 months and I went to one group that entire time... I have schizophrenia too man I’m planning on doing my own video on my hallucinations. I had very rare hallucinations with a pretty crazy story behind them
i actually came here because of Legion. But i'm very interested in the subject schizophrenic. my father had a different illness. when he was 19 he was psychotic and in 2013 he was manic deppresive. i didn't knew you could just get schizophrenia at such a young age, i dont know where im going with this comment XD
omg you watch that show too? I love the comics and the t.v. show. I pretty much love anything marvel mutants. I had a couple of visual and auditory hallucinations over the course of my teenage life (around 4) and I've had a lot of delusions too. It wasn't schizophrenia, probably stress-induced psychosis from my bad depression episodes. Or at least I hope it wasn't. I started searching up about schizophrenia at 13 from curiosity because I wanted to go into neuroscience and psychology. And then I got diagnosed with depression and saw stuff a couple of times which kinda freaked me out.
Omg I take seroquel too! But ive had 2 psychosis x
Literally everything you're saying is like my story except I was there supposedly for an attempt- but was actually a manic episode. It's a vary confusing story haha
I loved the nurses but the doctor nor therapist talked to me only the social worker
I can't believe they only locked you up for a week at a time. I'm not even schizophrenic and they held me captive for 6 weeks.
Do you think you'll start drinking at 21? I don't think it would be good for your schizophrenia but I dunno the affects of drinking on mental illnesses. btw I love your videos and your gf 💗 and I scream when you upload thanksssss
No, I dislike alcohol a lot, always have.
hang in there bro stay stablized i been in the mental hospital before not because of schizophrea but anger issues which i no longer and i did have anxiety until i started on klonopin went away for a month come back had to up the dose now im going through the mental and physical torment from this medication ive taken many anti depressents before never ever had any trouble stopping or changing but this poison pill i call it yeah im having all kinds of problems with this but im hanging in there i want you to do the same
Do you contour? People would kill for that naturally! Lmao
i always thought being in an ambulance for getting admitted in a psych ward is really weird.
I swear I know you. Is your real name Robert? Did you use to go to warren east middle school?
Have u ever had delusions of video games, like that the gods from skyrim exist, or people are omnics from overwatch.
That's actually an extremely interesting question, but honestly I have no idea if I have had delusions like that.
Tanner Peek I have, or like the characters voices become the voices in my head and like narrate my life
Tanner Peek
Sometimes I'll think that a slenderman-like figure is
following me at night, but it's probably because I have night blindness and because I've always been slightly paranoid about monsters.
I think I'd like to believe that I'm an X Men mutant
I think of that when I'm bored
Similar to my experience but there was only one group per day...
When I was in, the schedule said 2-3 groups a day, but we really only had 1 or 2 (HOURS apart) and I really hoped for groups bc it was so boring and quiet and isolated.
I'm not even a social person.
at 13 seconds you can see an orb fly across the left side of you.
✨⚡💙🌩
Stretcher? I was in the back of a car for 3 hours and my driver bought me food
A person with depression can’t relate with schizophrenia but also suffers from mental illness
i thought mental hospitals were suposed to help but it sounds like they actauly make it worse...
Saraqel killed me man lost 2 yrs of
Life
lol one time I was in the back of an ambulance while I was on 5 tabs of acid and I thought I was gonna be taken away forever, prisoner of the government.
Holy shit as a fellow acid user I feel you. Even on 1 tab something horrible can often happen, like when I was with a friend but I actually thought it was someone wearing a mask of my friend to try and kill me.
Or when I had 2 tabs and had some talking monkey follow me everywhere, knowing it was there even when I couldn't see it.
Never got ego death though thankfully.
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Autumn Likes Elephants hello!
Great Video ..(: Do a morning and night video. On your daily Life (~:
I don't know if that's a weird question so please don't hate me but I smell sometimes things that I can't smell in my room. Like... I can't even describe it but I smell things that aren't there. I never really thought about it a lot but I wanted to ask if someone here does have this too and is it ordinary or strange?
goryteeth it's called olfactory hallucinations. I was diagnosed with it when I was in hospital actually
goryteeth it's spirits. I smell. " them" too.
Thelizardking1 thank you for answering! Sounds really interesting
Heyy.. Jacob, you are so handsome.. 😊🤗🤤
have you ever gone out into nature and let your symptoms free?
that is the absolute dumbest thing I've ever read in my life
You look HOT without beard, please keep it like that!
Was your yoga class co-ed? If so, mystery solved.
bro have you tried cbd?
you finally shaved lol. i need a shave myself.
Look up the Kundalini ... That's why you smelled blood
lol dude you look like that Luke magnotta kid or however you spell his name
Delete the facebook page... its a trap. :(
you look like Andy black lol
They are lying to you