You are not crazy. You are not alone.
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- You want more from your life than an ordinary existence. You want to live, chase dreams, take risks. You want to laugh, spread love, spread joy. You have ideas. You have passions. But everyone says you're weird because you won't conform. You aren't weird, and you definitely aren't alone!
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Most of my adventures have been solo because I can't find anyone willing to live a little. I stopped looking decades ago. You're correct; many people live their lives based on other people's expectations. I call it the friends and family plan. In my experience, those are the folks that will hold you back more than your worst enemy...if you let them. Even though they feel they are looking out for your best interests. You're better off reading books authored by explorers, adventurers, and trusting your instinct.
Paul Theroux - do you like his works?
@@rubyparchment5523 As crazy as it sounds, my favorite book that opened my eyes to the benefit of reading about adventure was the bio of Teddy Roosevelt. He was the president that started the process of creating the national park system, formally established by President Wilson.
Also, his book introduced me to John Muir, who by any measure, is the father of the conservation movement in America His quotes alone make me want to get hit the road and go someplace every time I read them.
My favorite is: "I only went out for a walk, and finally concluded to stay out till sundown, for going out, I found, was really going in." This is how I think today I'm not going out, I'm going in; and I love the feeling every time I do.
Fact
I like how you think
True!
Many people who tell you that you are strange or crazy are actually jealous of you, your freedom and your nonconformism
We all awaken at a different ages. I'm 64 years old and I was married for 37 years. My wife passed in April of this year. The day after she died I went and bought a Travel Trailer, the next day I went and bought a new SUV to tow it. I quit my job and started cleaning out the house. I had already decided during the past 12 years of being a caregiver to my wife what was going to happen when that day came. My new purpose is to live a minimalist lifestyle and travel with my best friend Patrick, my 100lb retriever. I remember the feelings of wonderment and curiosity about the world and life that I had as a child and I want to revive those feelings once more before my time to depart this world arrives. My family thinks I'm crazy and my friends all say they envy me and that they too would like to do the same thing. So who knows maybe we all will meet at some time and someplace. We are not alone.
Hope you're well
@@jasonodell79er doing well in St.George UT. Thanks
I have felt this way every since I was a child. The world seemed so ass backwards to me. When I got closer to adulthood it became more and more apparent to me that what the world/society deemed normal was not gonna work for me. Fast forward to the present, I am more confident and at peace now because I was able to create my own space where I can do what I want, when I want, with anyone I want, as much as I want.
Sounds like the dream life!
Because the world is ass backwards lol especially america
Yip... sounds like Osho.
I experienced the same thing. I just haven’t gotten up the nerve to leave the matrix.
free
I quit my job in January. I love my life. I know people with wonderful jobs and horrible debt. I like not having to take orders.
Thank you! Got fired from my job today but it’s a blessing because I don’t think normal and thank god for that! Perfect timing Tim! I needed this exactly now !❤
Subscribed Allie. I wanna see your story. I'm right behind you .
Bless you!
@@Filthy_Rich_556 Thank you I’m actually going to work on my channel here -making videos daily now about this process)- haven’t posted it yet cause I’m editing and trying to make some sense of it, but I plan to post the whole story from being just a pile of ashes and then how I will use that to find my destiny and my place in this world. I’ve been knocked down too many times to give up now -and this time I’m gonna take a punch in the gut and turn it into the biggest push to my purpose that I have ever had.
I believe that’s what’s happening now that’s what I’m going through -and I’m filming . Once I put it together bit by bit I’ll begin posting here about it..starting soon. I don’t know where this will lead.. but I know it will be way better than where I’m at now :-)
@@adventureallie7683 you got this....
you’re free!!!
I'm definitely misread and misunderstood. Most of my life has been surrounded by others happiness and wants. 47 yrs later I'm choosing Me. Mental Peace & Freedom. Another day closer. I appreciate all the comments here, especially your videos 💫
Perfect....
Hi - I hope you’ve got the peace you deserve and I love you! ❤️
Boy, can I relate to that Ghetto flower!
Amen sis, I feel it
@@relisbetrelGod bless you
You be preachin'! Yes, I have been feeling "crazy" and "alone " for years. The people I know would never believe the life I really want for myself.
Same. It's mostly family members for me saying that negative crap
@@Lisa-AA Same here Lisa...the amount of negativity from family members these days is HIGH. Most people have these problems right now with family. It's biblical prophecy being fulfilled in these last days. Matthew 10:36
Low vibrational mundane logistical considerations are domesticated humanoid's cage.
Them greedy-sadistic corporate cattlerancher state pharmers have the vast majority believing conforming to evil is just being practical.
Culture shock eh ?
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Conform or be cast oot eh?
Attention all planets
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WEF has 'ASSumed' control .
So now we know how jolly old Satan Klaus knows if you been naughty or nice --- and how he knows how to push all the right buttons to get folks to do his dirty bidding.
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'Woke' is a bad joke.
The 'Left's' best selling points used to be Compassion and Liberty . Something must be clogging our compassion . and we do know now WHO is retarding our liberties. 🔎 Who is WHO ? in any Legitimate SCIENTIFIC EXPERIMENT there has to be a CONTROL GROUP ---
Guess the control-group in this case (of corona) must be them greedy-sadistic control-freak AUTHORITARIAN Billionaire$ $ponsoring the BLIND OBEDIENCE to authority tests.
Check out Stanley Milgram's 'Blind Obedience to Assumed Authority' Experiments :
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where unsuspecting test subjects were paid $100 by an actor in a Lab Coat to deliver electric shocks to actors if they did not answer questions correctly. 80% overlooked the fact that the actors were screaming and pleading for their lives,
and still went through with the test untill there was only silence from the pressumed dead actor.
Only a few refused to continue --- and very few actually attacked the sadistic scientists for being so sick and evil.
i guess them evil masterminds figure us humanoid life forms are too schmuck to resist --- no wonder they act so blatantly high and mighty.
Time to remove the fraternity of greedy-sadistic pig-raping motherfrackers from thee equation entirely...
Hold fast and stay vigilant --- and
Goddesspeed yawl ...
People who allready have compromised immune systems are even more likely to have adverse reactions to both 5G oppression technology and the quick 'fix' injections. TOXIC chemicals and (greedy-sadistic logic) are what compromized our immune systems in the first place.
What the 'Whax' does is 'COMPROMISE' our natural immune systems further.
Natural immunity is REFUSING to compromise with devils hellbent on TOTAL WORLD DOMINATION.
Let's Not let ANYTHING Compromize our most cherished earthly divine inspired principals.
Purity of intention is the primary most vital virtue.
Then Peace.
To all yawl sworn to serve and protect --- Don't worry about compromising them 'covert operations' to hijack humanity' .
(COMPROMISED INTEGRITY is basically the grave sin of bending over to please greedy-sadistic authoritarian assholes)
And no matter what they say --- Conforming to evil is in no way just being practical.
Viruses are the way our bodies remove harmful toxins from our cells naturally . become the virally spread natural immunity that wipes out corruption !
if you think the wages for deliberately schmucking the whole (istic) world into going to war against everything pure and natural and good are astronomically enormous --- yer darn friggin right --- but you definitely got another thing coming . the wages of sin (that grave) is worse than death.
They who diggeth thee pit deserve to barbeque themselves in it . . .
(it's up to them to confess and be 'Saved'. . .)
So hold fast and stay vigilant. (with intermittent fasting from the compromised food and information supply)
Goddesspeed yawl !
Reguardless of impeding negative public perception --- them perpe-traitors of crimes against humanity and nature best get removed from thee equation by any means necessary BEFORE any more diabolically retarded damnage is done. Those cowardly sleepwalking zombies who still support our corporate cattlerancher's power structure --- deserve a RUDE awakening for thinking conforming to evil is just being practical...
Simply Obeying judicially corrupt orders makes you more than just an accessory to genocide and worse .
Blissful ignorance is certainly no excuse at this point .
The poi-zionist polluted mainstream media narrative IS the big bad joke --- and when the proverbial shit hits the fan --- the genetically molested zombies seeking revenge are gonna go right for the 'expert' celebutards and authortarians that sold humanity out first ---
So let them laugh while they still can ...
i haven't laughed this hard in a long time !
Do the friggin right thing yawl --- thank you G-Zeus !
Yes Sharon, I do feel alone and crazy! I live a very different life, I’m vegan, Hebrew, and want to create generational wealth for my children. I have lofty goals and ambitions even though …!
@@christinestephens37 I understand . My family unit is very toxic. Kudos on living your life your way moving forward !
I totally agree with your philosophy. I spent my entire life pushing to achieve the American Dream. What I didn't realize is that the American Dream is nonexistent. I became exhausted from trying to keep all the balls in the air. Six years ago I resigned from a tenured professor job in Colorado and moved to a small southern town. I now live on 1/3 of what I used to make. I realize I need very little to be happy. Be well. Sending you a virtual hug!
wonderfull story, thanks for sharing. Sending you love and wish you a happy healthy long fulfilled life
Awesome
You are not crazy. You are simply going through a spiritual awakening.
Always remember, don’t follow the crowd unless they’re going your way!
You're speaking the truth man. I always knew i don't want the "normal" life a.k.a get a "good" job, get married, buy a house in the suburbs, have kids and what not. Nothing wrong with that if it's really what you want, but something tells me a lot of people do all that not because they really want it but because they think it's the only way. Or at least the only "respectable" way or smth like that. It may work just fine for a lot of people but it doesn't work for everyone. Idk but slaving away at some job for like 45-50 years just to barely be able to pay a bunch of loans for things i don't really need just don't seem like a good life from my perspective. They tell you that you need to have this and this and this in order to be happy but it's really just "the market" talking. What's the point of having a fancy house and a bmw and 2 kids and yada yada if you have to work like crazy to afford all that? Absolutely nothing, not for you unless it's your idea of a good life of course. But it makes your company happy, and the car dealer, and the bank, and the minister of finance in whatever country you live in. But their happiness ain't necessarily your happiness. Sure, simple living, minimalism and all those things ain't for everyone either but it's nothing crazy about not wanting the mainstream. The crazy thing is this idea that everyone should fit in the same mold and if you don't it's smth wrong with you. As long as you don't hurt anyone, follow your own dreams and wishes, don't live just to look good in other peoples eyes. Sorry for the novel, peace.
I appreciated the novel bro well written 10/10
@@Strangepete Thank you
Well written and I totally agree with you on everything I was just speaking of all this yesterday and its devastating the people you will lose on the way because of the way society has set up for us to be carbon copies of one another and if we don't comply we're ridiculed and outcasted....oh well may we all truly live freely 🥂
Right on. The so called "Anerican Dream" is the consumer, the follower, monkey see monkey do, jump in a river and everyone will jump in too. Not everyone realizes or sees it in life. We are awake because life gave us a better chance, better opportunity, and a specific reason and purpose within us ready to be released. A better person, a better life, and a better environment where we can be happy. It's up to each one of us to find that moment.
Don't apologize for the novel. You're spittin.
As a child, the woods really sustained me. I've not forgotten and am making my way back. Blessings, brother.
Hello. I ended up in an asylum when I was 15 years old. I was diagnosed with chronic depression. I was locked up for 4 months. My problem was that my mind got stuck on sadness. My mother hit me a lot, and she drank a lot. I was stuck in a state of mind of pure sadness since I was 5 years old. Lost my childhood from that moment on. I had to find my way out. I couldn't get out until 1996. This is when I started to live life the way I wanted. Had my own place, and felt better. I stopped listening to people.
I'm glad that you made it out of that sadness. I'm sorry for your experience as a child 😔
Glad you found a way to survive and finally thrive Norma! Thanks for sharing your story!
I constantly hear that I'm crazy for wanting to live in a van..or camper...for saying I don't want to work any more. Everyone around me has ideal jobs and lives so I'm definitely odd man out. I hear I'm not going to like it. I can you this I don't like the life I'm living now. Constantly working a job I hate to pay rent....bottom line.
I live in my truck camper for 7 months now. I love it. I still work as usual. I'm thinking of how I can make money without the 6 am to 3;30 pm job, every other Friday off. My total bills are cellphone, truck insurance, gasoline and food. I'm thinking that this will really be fun if I start traveling at least part of the year.
@@scottnorris5683 Hi. This is exactly the set up I had in mind as I get ready to go thru eviction this week. Of course I'll have go through finding both pieces under precarious situations but its ironically the set up i want. Also don't want the day job while I'm in it. Have racked my brain how to get around this or find something that will work with the life style
@@christinamerritt9669 Hi Christina. I love my setup but I will mention one thing. In my truck camper it does appear I'm living in it to the police in San Diego. They are really going after people living in campers, parking at the beaches or other places. They put no parking signs from 2 to 4 am throughout the entire city so I have to move during that time and stealth for 2 hours. I have spent quite a few of the 7 months staying at my work when everybody left so I didn't have to move. I also recently found a spot that the cops aren't making people move. A nice camper van is much more stealthly for parking anywhere you can, side of road, several different 24 hour businesses etc. I don't know if other cities are like San Diego. Probably not. I have also stayed at campgrounds here that don't cost that much. I like Tim's ideas about making money and traveling. Living in my camper is definitely worth it to me. No question about it. The 6 parking tickets I've received in 7 months amount to less than $100 a month and like I mentioned, my total monthly bills now are very low. I would say, do it, if you figure out a good setup for you! 😀
Vanlife is great! 🌟
I realized this during college. Nearly everybody was partying, drinking, doing drugs, buying lots of useless expensive shit. I had the urge to fit in but never did fit in. I gave up trying to fit in when I was 19 and just carved my own path in life. In my first job, people always encouraged me to fit in, especially one boss who told me that drinking was a necessary social thing. I'm allergic to alcohol, its not my loss. I don't want to be surrounded by people who are as shallow as that. I've always felt alone and crazy, but I realized that fitting in is not the best thing in the world. Today, I just be who I am, stand up for it and never impose it on anybody but myself. Whatever floats your boat. Thanks for this video, man! I love your ideas.
Slightly envious of those who have reasonably close access to mountains (nobody's holding me hostage, making me live in the city though). They really are therapeutic. That's a gorgeous location.
I lived in the mountains for years and they're sweet, but later in life I've found that a barren plain or desert under clear skies at night, or a dense forest canopy all have their own trip. That covers almost any geographical area. Enjoy!
Play youtube videos recorded in the wilderness as a form of meditation, if you are in the city and want to experience some of it.
Have you ever thought that everyone having a mailbox is strange? Even more strange is you are required to have one and wade through and sort it daily. Who made this up for us? What if I don't want to do it?
I hear you when I was living in Seattle I had a box at my apartment when I moved out of there I never forwarded my address just left and get this my new place has a mailbox on the road and as if by magic mail started to arrive there addressed to me.
why is having a Mailbox strange?
Why is there a need for one anymore when everything is digital?
I love this comment so much!
never knew this was such a big thing? 😃
Been doing a lot of soul searching at age 26. Your videos have definitely opened my eyes to other ways of living. Life in the U.S especially in the city can be incredibly materialistic everyone is just following others, but when you're living life to your own tune you'll find the right path.
At first I read your sentence as: "everyone is just following orders" kinda the same I guess. 😅
I've been different all of my life. And there was a time I thought I was crazy or strange because I didn't fit in. Years ago, I didn't have the internet explaining what introverts or what extroverts or other personality types are. But with that and studying astrology, it helped me to understand myself and my relationships with people. Now I embrace the fact that I'm different and it's okay to be that way. I take being called "crazy" as a compliment because it means I'm not like everyone else. Some of the greatest minds, even prophets were deemed as crazy.
Exactly! They call you crazy while you are alive, but once you die you are a 'visionary' lol
100k coming . We all think we are alone but we are never alone 🌻keep going Tim.
So glad you made this video. I spent 34 years of my life in a cubicle on this treadmill and woke up at 54. Again was told by my parents you buy house constantly work etc. I wish I knew then what I know now. I have always felt alone in my perception of life. I do not voice it to many ppl. Aka they think you are crazy in the Western world if you don't work 50 hours a week which I did. I am glad the millennials are questioning this. Good job. Peace to everyone and I am glad I'm not alone❤
You're definitely not alone Sara!
I've been riding solo for so long lol especially since covid started! My view points were completely different then my friends and family about all that stuff and they took a very different path then I did. Def sometimes has felt so isolating. Yes the fact we have to work to make money to go home and do it again is crazy. We are traveler beings we love to travel and meet new souls it's how we are built bro we got hot feet.
My feet are kinda cold 🤔
This video really hit me. I have suppressed these feeling for a long time. I'm not like many other people but for years I've pretended to be like them. I've been grinding away working for over 45 years. I traveled to Thailand this spring because one of my friends moved there. I think he felt much the same way I feel. There's gotta be more to life than work. This video has given me more incentive to live my dreams and not pretend to be this robot. I will quit my job this year and live the freedom lifestyle I've been craving my whole life. My buddy is happy living his life modestly, and last week, married his girlfriend there. I promised him I would be back to find myself there and live the way I should have years ago. Yes I'm walking away from a lot of money (job) but it would be a sin not to live my dreams. Life is short. The clock is ticking people live your dreams now.
Good luck with your plans for the future Charles!
At the end of the day, it's your life you gotta live with so you might as well enjoy it.
Totally agree 💯
I dont know how to enjoy it. Alone for the rest of my life. Scared of getting old. Wish i never been born.
@@mitch5222 Oh honey, it hurts to hear someone feeling that bad... Please try to seek some help - a supportive group or friend, or counsellor... We ALL need love and we all hurt.... It is better to keep trying....
@@mitch5222 Pessimistic thinking like that doesn't get you anywhere and wastes a precious life. Instead of wishing you'd never been born and fearing old age, admire the beautiful opportunity that is life, and be at peace with the fact that it will all be over soon and you won't have to worry about it after that. Take advantage while you're here! As for being alone, everyone feels alone at some point. In that sense, you're not alone at all. Learn to accept your current condition, flaws and all, and you'll find that your sense of lack goes away, which conversely makes you enjoy life a whole lot more and allows you to see opportunities you were previously blind to. Best of luck to you.
Great stuff. I got saved 60 years ago when I was 6 years old, I have been a stranger in a strange land. This world is not my home. We are being lied to on a massive scale.
It is our home, but when it is at the 5D level (where it is heading back now).
@@truthseeker3536 Right 5D or maybe like DEFCON 6?
Thats lame
Yes absolutely and about everything. Being apart gives you more freedom. The key is to control your time because we are never going to become rich. Take care.
I am in this space as well! Right now, I feel trapped paying rent every month for a place I don’t even want to be anymore. I feel like Im just wasting money at this place and wasting time at my job that I have become resentful about coming in everyday but trying to stick it out until my lease is up so I can travel full time through the trucking industry and live a life more aligned with my ideas and am considering if that doesn’t work out just working for the necessities and what I’d like to do with my life. It’s becoming more and more difficult each day and I’m ready to be done and give up the American dream! This video came at exactly the right time for me as I’m now thinking about just breaking the lease for my freedom. Thank you Tim for being so open here! For the first time, I don’t feel crazy for pursuing the life I’d like to live although those around me don’t seem to understand where I’m coming from. I accept that they may or may not ever get it but regardless I need a new life so I can finally be happy and content with my life.
I am 25 and after high school I decided to travel. I worked odd jobs and travelled around. I felt truly alive. Now I am graduating from Uni after working in consulting and a tech start up. I’m not cut out for this. Sitting in an office 9-5 (at best), handing my time over to other people. I don’t care about any of this. Glad I found your channel
Dear Timothy this was truly an inspirational monologue. I consider myself a fringe of society because I do or say things that majority of my peers don't associate with.
The only times I’ve felt lonely in my life were when I was around other people. I’m not psychic, but I think I’m sensitive to all that repressed stuff people are generally carrying around. Looks like you’re going to get a CZcams Play Button soon. Great channel! Great job!
Thanks Tim! I guess I've been "crazy" all my 50+ life! Have always been the square plug in round hole environments, suspected I was wired differently, but never really gave myself permission to embrace me because of how I was raised to hush down my uniqueness. But recently, I found the beginning of my path to self discovery and its awesome - flaws and all. I can't wait to see the rest of this journey - with God's help - I know I'm going to to go it FULL CRAZY, ALONE OR NOT and will have a blast.....Yipeeee!!!
Have a blast Sasha!
@@TimothyWard Thanks dear. Will definitely do that! The guidance and advice from your personal experiences that you share with us on your vlogs is so much on point and truly encouraging. Blessings and continue doing you.... with a blast as well!!🤩🤩
Tim, I basically live alone out in the farm lands, lost my job, I have maybe two friends who I barely see, and have little to no connection with anyone. Every single person I have ever known has either disappeared, died, incarcerated, etc..( not an exaggeration.) I truly believe that connection and love heals anyone willing, especially those folks who have a mental health condition, suffering from addiction, or suffering from a traumatic event, etc and it's exactly what I need, but, how? I don't have transportation except for my feet and the unreliable transit system that comes this way each hour and a half. There's people out there that share this issue and there's folks who are like me but I'm terrified I will never find them and I will remain alone (remain in my current mental state) with no hope to connect although I hold a device in my hands now to connect me to anyone in the world. I enjoy my time alone, but damn, it would be nice to have connections to enjoy life and laugh and be... loved. There's two people who love me, I hear the words but don't feel any love at all anymore. I feel like I can trust you, Tim, enough to get this off my chest and I appreciate your message in your videos. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Any advice from anyone would be great. Thank you and Be Well 💚 #bewell
What farm lands are you living in now? Sounds like you’re in the middle or Europe
I resonate so much with what you’re going through and hope one day you’re able to find the connection you’re looking for with someone. It’s very hard to find genuine love and connection in a society that seems to care more about monetary gain than about people.
Sorry to hear about this. I went through a very lonely time where I basically had to get out of town and immerse myself in a whole other city many miles away. I was lucky to have one family friend help out - I'm not sure I would have managed as well without that.
Sarah, i just read yr comment and it disturbs me as i am struggling as well and desperation is high. I hate to hear yr struggle as i want people to be fulfilled and my state of mind is not good. job and money is keeping us enslaved and i don't know a way out, but for sure, "it is not a sign of health to be well adjusted to a sick society" Big hug, Sarah i do care for you and pray for yr well being, i truly care
Hi Sarah D.! I can relate to a great part of what you said. It gave my heart a flash of ache. One difference between us is I think I would love living in the country on a farm! Or even in a shack or tiny house. I love nature so much, and being in it, or as close to it as I can possibly be. Even on my half acre plot I feel like I have a little chunk of country, which I love. I love growing my little plants and flowers and vegetables, having the birds and the bees. It's also created a conflict about my cats though (5), so I'm trying to design a good sized contained area for them, to protect the birds and lizards. That's one thing which can be both a blessing and a burden, pets, as they are a responsibility which can tie one down, as well as a comfort, companionship, etc. I want a dog again, but. I also hesitate as I know what a responsibility it is. I too am car-less, which I learned to appreciate in some ways as I learned how to adapt. But I anticipate being able to get one soon. I think I understand your feeling of being alone as in every one I have ever known I've either lost contact with, is dead or?. Who knows. Within the past 4 years my mom, brother, sister, and best friend from Jr. High - high school have all died. My dad passed in 1983. I have had numerous friends over the years who I've fallen out of touch with. I was born in 1960, so I'm at "that age"... And I thought turning "40" was gonna be challenging. My daughter had graduated HS and moved out and I suddenly had a sort of mid life/"empty nest" crisis. Was not prepared for or expecting. So I then fell into a substance abuse-addiction problem for the past nearly 20 years. It's made for misadventures - enough to write a book. I worked for a good part of my adult life, was somewhat self employed over the last 10 or 15 years. Now consider myself "retired"! But then you assess your life and long for connection... I find the thought of the vagabond/hobo (I say that with greatest affection and respect) lifestyle fascinating and kind of romantic. But I also have a deep longing for that sense of home, the archetype of "home". I still have my daughter and my cousin, and I do have a boyfriend I live with. When you mentioned having two people in the world who love you, I felt that zinger in the heart. I'm not sure what the answer is, either. I guess the best I can say or do at this point, I've decided, is to try to intentionally be as kind to others, to everyone and everything, as I can. To try to give back here and there along the line, whenever and wherever I can. That's probably the best I'll be able to do with the time I've got left.... Take care and ❤️ to you. Cathy from Ca.
I've been feeling extremely dissatisfied and dissolution with modernity lately. Ever since I got sober I have realized how many years I spent drinking just to mask and hide this dissatisfaction. I spent months after my last drink focusing on just staying sober as a way to distract myself from the ever clawing dissolution. I realize I have spent an entire adulthood chasing my perception other people's expectations. I bought the lie of conspicuous consumerism hook, line, and sinker. I am feeling the overwhelming sense of disappointment in my life as I realize more every day how much of it I have not lived for myself. I have no idea how to be happy, I have no idea what my interests are, and I have no idea what goals I should pursue.
I am still struggling, but I am glad I am sober. I don't have any debt anymore, I was able to pay it off this year. I should be grateful. I have a new job that is going well, and I'm making more money than I ever have in my life. I am still alone, and rely on my relationship with my parent's for a great deal of meaning in my life. I am very lonely.
I am trying to accept the reality of my situation without becoming nihilistic. I struggle with self-pity and self-hate. I "should be farther along" and "should have a girlfriend by now" or at least "own a house by now." I struggle with feeling very behind. I feel crazy, and I do feel alone.
Maybe I'm not. Maybe there's somebody out there that can, and will, relate to me. Maybe someone out there that could love me one day. I just know I need to find meaning in my life. Material possessions, wealth, and status are all fickle goals. Fleeting and capriciously Pavlovian.
I don't know, maybe tomorrow will be better.
Just read your comment and honestly teared up. I can relate to you. Please be well.
I can relate as well... I'm two weeks sober today and life is....bleh lol... but at least we're in our right state of mind... keep your head up-- things HAVE to get better ❤
The “shoulds”will make you unhappy. When I let go of them, freedom of thought began. A good therapist might help you with a framework to move forward. Good luck & truly, you can do it. 😍
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Stay strong and stay sober. We have to hang on better days are ahead, be open to accept these blessings when the arrive.
lol I'm so glad I'm not crazy. Being alone sometimes is really peaceful. But friendships /family is such an added bonus 🍀
i love you, i hug you, we all want love , compassion and care and tenderness
Thank you Tim I'm staring into a concrete wall every day at work got a promotion and i hate it the money doesn't fulfill me at all makes me more miserable. I'm going to get one more check and quit live my life the way I want, thank you Tim
yes when i was making a lot of money i was miserable, cause i had no life. i was actually the happiest when i was broke.
@@baldeagle4710 exactly
I left the hustle life 4 years ago and would never go back. I went from working 80 hours a week to now only casually working 4 months out of the year for a small festival. I went from managing 70 employees to now only 15. My old employers never understood me when I told them to give my employees a raise instead of me so I don't have to work so hard. I finally found one and now have a waiting list to be on my crew and never suffer employee shortages. I now live a simple debt-free life in paradise where I can do the things I never had time for. I am a happier, healthier, and kinder person now.
My fam calls me crazy 😛
I know am not.
I just don’t get into drama.
They always say. Listen Listen Listen.
Nah…. I just say. Good Good Good
I just feel better being away from drama.
I surf 🏄♂️.
If you ever caught a wave 🌊
You would feel free.
Sometimes while paddling out. I save a life.
It’s a natural thing. 💪🏽🤙👍✌️
When I was 19 I left college for a semester and worked in a national park for a couple months. When I came back I got this vibe from other people that I was crazy for leaving. And I really bought into this narrative that leaving was this really "crazy" thing to do. ... Now, many years later, I think maybe I was crazy for coming back. All that was back here were everyone's expectations.
“We’re all crazy and we’re gonna be crazy together”. So true, I look forward to that.
I feel happier and more alive too. I don’t want to live in a house again.
Tell that homeless people...🤦
@@mirabella2154 I am houseless, not homeless
I was in a class in elementary school and the kids were teasing a kid and laughing. I remember thinking there was something wrong with these kids. I had the exact thought maybe I'm the only real person. I never heard any one else say they had that realization as a kid. Thank you for this video.
What a peaceful place to be!
I was thinking about this today, actually. I've been down in the dumps lately because I can't get anyone that I know to do anything. Everyone wants to hide at home with their families. I've decided that I am just going to go where I want and interact with people who are already doing what I want to do. It doesn't matter if I know them or not. I'm going to try it this weekend and see what happens.
good luck, you are wonderfull beautifull creature
Even more frustrating when physically disabled, relying on individuals who do nothing...an dont even want to do anything except shop, eat, sleep & moan they're broke! Escaping to the woods or anywhere alone isnt an option! It's a dream that can never be fulfilled....Anyone who can, should just do whatever they feel drawn to, alone or not, life is for living not just existing. Timothy Shipley GO FOR IT!! Great video 🤘🏻
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@@SuperLammens You, too!
@@3SeveredHeads Thank you for your kind words. I'm sorry that you're physically disabled.
How did it go?? 💖
Thanks for the hug! Love you my beautiful brother!
It’s been hard not feeling like I’m the problem for seeing through the system at a young age but being surround by people who have tried convincing me otherwise that their ways of living is the only way, when I innately knew deep down that it wasn’t meant for me. I’m thankful to know there’s others who think the same for it makes me feel less insane. Appreciate your videos Tim!♡
I became severely depressed in my first job after graduating because it didn't make sense that we all had to work 35+ hours a week for the 40 years in jobs we hate just to have housing, food, warmth, clothes. There's no reason any of that should cost that much, it does so to make those at the top massive profits. I didn't understand how people could work on those jobs and not want to die. I figured that they just accept it as normal and necessary rather than questioning it, and that's where the problem is. Is most people questionned it it wouldn't continue.
Ok Tim its been a while since I have been able to click on a video and I can't believe this guy. Who is this man with this salt and peppered beard??🤔 looks good bro.😁. So glad I'm in your tribe and I'm not alone. 🥰
To be honest i've never considered myself crazy to think and act the way i am. Being a free soul it feels more like the world is crazy...
THANK YOU FOR THIS... i am not alone and i am not crazy.... i have to get past the fact that I AM NOT ALONE AND I AM NOT CRAZY!
Am 27, child free,a biker, atheist and a minimalist from a very conservative African society. My family thinks am crazy because of my orientation to life but this life style saved from a severe depression years ago until I realised what I needed to do with my life. My dreams are to travel around the world on my motorcycle not to save up for someone's university fees. Am semi retired at the moment and will fully retire at 40 years and ride around the world. I couldn't retire at 65 when I can't even climb a motorcycle. But thanks for reminding me that am not crazy.
You re so right about waiting till your 60's to retire when you might not be able to enjoy it. Glad to see you are already heading towards a much better plan!
With all do respect, use some of that additional time to be SURE you're certain about Atheism, just from a logical perspective.
The only thing thata crazy is you don't believe in our Creator .
I pray that you would really research and seek the lord God almighty (Jehovah)
We didn't make ourselves or the universe and everything in it.
@@3minutestospare Are you a Jehovah's witness?
@@jgbecker24 Exodus 6:1-3
King James Version
6 Then the Lord said unto Moses, Now shalt thou see what I will do to Pharaoh: for with a strong hand shall he let them go, and with a strong hand shall he drive them out of his land.
2 And God spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am the Lord:
3 And I appeared unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, by the name of God Almighty, but by my name Jehovah was I not known to them.
No I have a holy faith. The holy faith of God. I read the holy scriptures. I
I can so relate to this. I remember as a child that things just didn't feel real. I couldn't explain it but just felt it was like everyone was actors just playing a role.
Well said Tim. I’m fortunate enough that my wife (married at 18) and kids (5 and 7) and going to buy a small property this summer and will start our road towards homesteading/self reliance. We look forward to the memories we’ll build together.
Since I’ve left my work, a lot of anxiety has popped up over not being accepted as a man without a typical job. I have a bachelors in Mech. Eng. and realized I did everything to fit in and make others happy. At the cost of my own happiness and time with my family. I spent more time at school and work than with my kids
So glad your realizing now then after your children are grown.💛👍
I became homeless a few years ago and discovered it was a way to not play the game everyone else plays. I rarely ever have money. I have no car. Only bicycles. And I've never been more fulfilled,...an inner contentment unobtained while having a "normal" life.
My family has almost organized interventions for me. Bc I’m always questioning the matrix.
When I was young I asked “is this real?”… and my heart goes out to them bc this was scary for them to hear me ask.
They think I’m crazy! simply put.
They would be happy to see me on painkillers and antipsychotics if that meant I could be a good 9-5’er.
…I’m trying to let go of the hurt and the resentment and I’m trying to drop all expectations of my loved ones seeing what I call the truth.
I’m just doing the “soft quitting” of my job and I’m going to quietly exit out the back door.
No more explaining myself.
I’m letting that go.
It’s heart breaking.
But I’m prioritizing lessening the amount of conflict as much as I can. And that means letting go of understanding, of justice, of vindication. To my most treasured loved ones I say goodbye, maybe I’ll see you around some time… 🥺
Two quotes that speak to your point here, and bolstered my choice to go nomad:
"No one on their deathbed ever said 'I wish I'd spent more time at the office'."
"You never regret the chances you take... Only the ones that you miss."
Yes!!! This is the video I needed. I am planning to do long-term world travel with my kid, but I already know I am going to get so much criticism from certain loved ones in my life. It is an uphill battle, but we deserve to live fully and authentically. This is who we are. Like you said, if we're crazy, let's all be crazy together. I love the community you've created here.
For the longest time I thought there was something wrong with me on a deep level. Thankfully I've accepted that society is sick and broken, not me.
This was spot on. Been feeling like this for years since I was a kid, never felt like I fit in with society (Sheep) .
I was always confused about this world. Then I realized that my existence as well as yours was us stepping in on situations and circumstances that already had a vibratory element to them before we came and those involved acted how they acted and treated people how they treated them because of things that happened long before we came into the picture. You are now left to put pieces of a puzzle together. People don’t present their true selves to you most of the time, they present what they want you to see and it’s only after time goes on you realize you’ve been deceived in many ways. That cooperation you applied to isn’t what it appears on the outside and that couple you hold in high regard have their issues they don’t talk about. People’s suicide attempts often stem from them being forced to give up the beautiful lies they’ve been told which is tough for the ego to let go. Let us live in clarity.
You are becoming more spiritual. And accepting you for who you are. Such a cool journey. 😊
Amazing video! I have been feeling crazy and alone for a few years now. I’m soooooooo glad I found your channel because you have put into words what I have been feeling and thinking. I’m getting so excited to start creating a life I actually want to live!!! This 9-5 life is crap! I love when you say if were aren’t enjoying our life then what’s the point. So true!!!!!!
Exactly Melissa!
@@TimothyWard thanks Timothy, wishing you well Melissa. we all deserve to be loved and cared for
I needed to hear this in my 20's....I literally felt like I was crazy because I was young....had a "good" job that paid very well but I was miserable.....and I couldn't figure out why I couldn't be happy with what everyone else seemed to want....I eventually unplugged and found my path but it took time ...I hope this message reaches someone in that same place.....great video....your message is more than appreciated...
I love comments like these cause they show a side of things that many people don’t see. 💯
Tim uploaded a video! A great way to end the day
I have been saying this a lot lately, but thank God for the internet, because I am able to meet people I wouldn't normally be able to because the average person doesn't think like us, but with the internet I am able to meet those people
Thanks! Keep up the movement bro!
" You can't wait until life is not hard anymore, before you decide to be happy " Love this quote " Now I decided to be happy no matter what anyone says .
I like how you referenced the Matrix, because in my opinion that movie is a direct parallel to the way life is. We are all programmed as we grow up, to be part of the system to fuel the wealthy. To serve them, and not ourselves. Those of us who choose another path are often looked down upon as someone less than, because we have woken up to the fact that there is more to life than work. That old saying, time is money, I see that differently. Time is life, and once it's gone you can't get it back. No amount of money is worth my life, sorry. I've always felt this way, and no one around me has ever understood it and just think something is wrong with me. My parents worked every day of thier lives, and both passed not long after retiring. Never getting to do the things they wanted to, never getting to enjoy life. To me, there is nothing more tragic than a life unlived. We only get one life, enjoy it while you can.
Ever since I was a kid I thought I was crazy. I’m not even 30 yet and I’m trying to figure out what’s next. Thanks for the reassurance.
Tim, i think you have a lot to offer….way more than just a CZcams channel. You are very insightful. I appreciate your videos and the message you are conveying.
happy seeing you live your best life out in nature, 100k comin soon. got a feeling this vid will pop off
i dont share my thoughts with coworkers cause they all want me to have a cookie cutter life with a wife, 2.5 kids, etc....i would never ever go that route.
im so glad i took a different route than others. i don't really have any friends anymore, and that's fine with me. i would much rather be alone than with people trying to pressure me. im busy and working toward my goals.
Crazy together ❤️
Thank you for sharing this, at the age of 54 I did Van Life for over a year. Being an AA female, my family thought I was crazy. Let me tell you it was the best year of my adult life. My mother had a stroke so I moved back to assist, but I can't wait to got back out. I have always felt like there is just so much more out there, I hate working coming home same routine. I'm not crazy, I'm just finally getting others out of my head so I can live the life I want. You are awesome.
Props to you for taking care of your mother Lisa even though it meant deferring your dream for a bit. I know you will be back out on those roads soon!
@@TimothyWard ❤
the society minded people think they have to work more to make more to get more bigger, better or more it's crazy
I was born to parents who loved to travel. I can feel at home almost anywhere. But alas, I don't have the money to travel so for over a decade I've been homeless much of the time. The only thing I've never found is true community. Here I have a sense of belonging. My heart is warm and I feel welcomed.
Thanks for the video BIG T. Lololol. LITERALLY, we are brothas from another mother. Same name. I’m a mental health survivor, and everyone the last 20 years called me crazy, while I am not.
I’ll touch base with you everyday.
You gots to know who I am by now.
It’s a race to see who can get more subscribers on CZcams Lolol.
You the lead horse right now, but I’m gonna dust you within 3 years Lolol😂😂
-White Timothy Ward of Pittsburgh lol
I enjoy being alone....my views on life is so different from society...the reasons I don't have friends
Thank you Tim...I live about 40 mins. Away from Estes Park . I love it there,it's so beautiful :)
YOU ARE 100 PERCENT CORRECT!!! I am convinced my childhood dreams were constantly ridiculed resulted in my severe depressions. Free now, though, but 64 years old!
That lake looks and sounds amazing…I’m glad I found you.
Last year was my darkest moment. I had the same thoughts and really thought I was alone. Then I came across videos similar to your videos and I slowly realized that I'm no longer alone. Thank you for these video vlogs. It really helps my mental. Maybe one day I can break free of my own chains and live a life that is no longer critized by society.
I think it’s not your business what other people/society thinks about you and what you’re doing. Do what YOU want to do and like and that’s the greatest gift you can give yourself.
Everyone tends to follow like sheep. And if you're the one that strays from the flock you're deemed as crazy and weird. I don't care or look to others for acceptance or approval. It's my life. I'm living the life I had long to do for a long time. We need not look to others to make us feel good about ourselves. You just have to live like there's no tomorrow and do what makes you happy.
Chilling in the Rockies is one of the best activities to do. Enjoy. 😎 BK
Awe, so relaxing and calming 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽
U have to take risks in life and not be afraid of failure
"And if we are crazy, we'll all be crazy together." I so love that quote! Great message. I read something many, many years ago where the author commented that "normal is only a setting on you dryer". I don't try to be "normal", I just try to be me.
I get it!!! 100% I have been Locked in the System. For the first time in my 52years, I figured it out. Crazy world. I am " In" the World , but not "Of" it. So No one can Control my thoughts or Feelings. I make My life Happy, no matter what!
You are on point, Tim. I feel like I'm, trippin, bro. How come it so difficult to manifest what we see in our imagination? I am not even talking about trying to get rich. We all have creative endeavors within. I appreciate your reminder. I am not crazy. I am not alone. I needed to hear this message. Many thanks for your insightful wisdom.
My family is suffocating, emotional instability of other people is draining, and working the 9-5 gig is soul crushing. I want to paint, draw, and write poetry. Run in the woods, sleep under tree's, live in a nice little house with ivy growing along the side and not deal with humanity. 😑🎭☺️✨
But till then I'm saving for a cruise and going to visit Ireland sometime next year. Cause why the fuck not! No one wants to travel or do anything different then smoke weed, drink and party at clubs. I always understood the world was crazy when I was little. We're living in a matrix that's meant to crush and limit any real authentic expression, but we're striving to bloom despite that. I'd rather be out of step and odd then a living zombie on a cavayor belt. I need to breathe. My inner child is dying....I'm depressed and well....things need to change. If it means pissing people off then, oh well. Lololol
Seriously, appreciated this video man. Blessings and love to all us who are yearning for adventures, mystery, magic and the divine.
Rock on, brother! Everybody has a right to choose their own path in life, so long as we don't harm others. If others condemn or judge us for that, they are trapped in unconscious patterns.. forgive them, they know not what they do...
Man some dude at my work came in all drama (a co worker) and literally cared way way way too much about his job. He has apparently 30 years at this company and feels super unappreciated. I’m so happy with my life but man this one co worker came in so angry all over someone not doing their job. On one hand it was funny because I was caught in the drama but on the other hand not so funny because the owner was of course baby him and the manager called him the angry dude. 🤷♀️ I mean how many times have people been there? I’m sure we all get annoyed and angry. I’m 37 years old and finally at a point where I’m happy. But yes I agree more their needs to be more then work.
Most of my life I knew this system was not fit me I have been banging my head against the wall for years now trying to fit in but coming across your channel I’ve realised that it doesn’t have to make sense to anyone else but me on how I live my life
Tim your so relatable brother 💯 . Thank you for your knowledge blessings 🤙🏼🤙🏼
This is exactly how I feel. Being 54 years old and feeling so lost and alone, I recently unexpectedly lost my 2 best friends, one was my very much loved dog of 15 years. I’m struggling because everyone else has abandoned me because I’m so sad. Thank you for this video.
I’m so sorry for your losses. Yeah, grief makes people uncomfortable, so be maybe check out a grief support group. It DOES help to talk to people. I’m pulling for ya, Nancy! ❤️
@@jenl3162 Thank you so much for your kind words. You have no idea how badly I needed that!! I’m gonna check it out.
I wanted to add that 15 years is a good long life for a dog. That’s a testament to how well you took care of him/her and how much love you gave. ❤️
I ran that trail you were walking on by Estes Lake on my wedding morning. I am now alone and crazy but to myself it all seems to make sense. Good hearing from Timothy.
Thank you bro ✊🏾
Tim, thank you 🙏🏾
Absolutely agree and thank you so much!!!
I work in sales/customer service, and I was speaking to a customer just yesterday about why we travel alone. When you try to include family or friends they’re either not interested or afraid. So, we exchanged numbers and plan on traveling together both in the States and abroad!
That's awesome!
Yesss! ❤️🔥
Thank you!!!
Thank you Tim!
Yep my mind is growing at a huge rate and I don’t know what to do with it lol