I am autistic and I really love the way you perceive reality. You literally explain how my perception works down to synaesthesia. The special thing is that you can describe it in such detail, which is proof that you are really very self-aware and reflected.
I just found your channel because I was looking for personal experiences with Gateway. And now I hear you explain roughly how my mind works, which I didn’t know had a name, even though I’m a psychomotor therapist. I just thought I had very very vivid visual skills, and was wired a bit diffrently than my friends, as every colour has a taste, texture and so on 😅 I also see time as cirular, just with shapes and textures connected to a feeling, more than colours. I think of it all as a super power, but it’s not always convenient - especially when being able to see how things relate and how they’re connected, that doesn’t make sense to others, beause they see it more linear than I do. When I was younger it made me insecure, however I Iearned how to explain things more clearly - and to stop when I can see people start to dissociate 🤪 Do you also have hightened body awareness? My friend who works on his phd on healing sound frequencies uses me as his guinea pig, as I’m able to locate which organ or bodypart the sound is affecting, without him telling me when he changes it. For me, this is especially connected to textures, colours and feelings. It’s the same when I get acupuncture. Do you recognize that? I just think it’s so incredibly interesting, and hearing you telling about your way of percieving things, just makes me wanna know so much more about synesthesia - and myself. Thank you so much for sharing😊🙏🏼💚
I like to write movies in my half awake/asleep state and then when I'm asleep I watch and edit them. When I think about food I am going to create I can see the raw ingredients and can taste and smell the different blends according to the recipes. I am from Tasmania and my grandparents were Scots so I love your accent. Great vids...thank you
Thanks for explaining it more, Ash. That is really enlightening as to how your brain-scape works. And, that's even something you could forever talk about on your channel, because it is so interesting. And, it's really neat to learn that your brain has developed and organized itself differently than most people. Similarly, I think that I've realized (and/or accepted) that I am somewhat neurodivergent too. Originally, I thought that I was just normal, because I do things (in my mind) in my own way; but, now, I realize I am a different-minded person. Here's what I learned over last few years and/or watching CZcams and seeing some other people have this condition. I'll have to look up the term for it, but I think it's aphasia. Aphasia ... Nope, sorry, that's not my condition. That's the condition that Bruce Willis was recently diagnosed with. No, mine is aphantasia. And, no, I haven't been diagnosed, but I can 100% almost guarantee that I have this. Here's what it (basically) is (or as I will describe it), "no inner monologue". For me, I have not inner voice in my head saying anything or telling me anything. [And, that's something that you didn't cover / answer in your video, but that might be something you could discuss in future -- if you talk more about Synesthesia and in how you interact mentally with yourself.] What, I found is that I have had good friends in past (and now) that have a type of inner discussion within themselves. But, for me, it's silent, totally silent. No one tells me anything inside, and I have no inner communications in my mind.
This all sounds very familiar. From early childhood I had always accociated numbers with colors. Basic arithmetic was done with colors in my head, so quantities were always colors. I became a software geek, of course.
I have always been interested in the human mind, its function and how diverse it seems to be. I first came across you on the Gateway Experience videos you shared. I am curious if Synesthesia would bring a different experience. Thank you for sharing your life, I had never heard of this.
I had synesthesia. I experienced so much as a kid (and lots of lucid dreaming) as a young adult but later in life, it sort of went a way. That is also the time I was misdiagnosed with a major mental illness and was on like 5 different major mental health meds for about 20 years….with least one med being an antipsychotic med. About 4 years ago, I got the correct diagnosis (finally) and have been medication free for about two years. The synesthesia and lucid dreaming have not returned but have developed some Claircognizent traits. That has been interesting. My intuition is just off the charts. But I miss my synesthesia….
I am assuming it was the medications that I was taking that caused the synesthesia to go away, but I don't have confirmation. I was taking mood stabilizers, antidepressants, and an antipsychotic. If you think about it, those medications alter dopamine and serotonin levels and affect brain chemistry in various ways! I am so glad I got the correct diagnosis several years ago and am no longer on medications like that!@@AshOnFilm
FASCINATING! You’re so interesting! I’m wondering if I have any of those things you have, because I feel some sounds. I’m sensitive to vibrations. I’d love to see your documentary.
Great video Ash, I feel I understand the experience of synesthesiamuch better after watching this😊 I’d love to know what my POWA track ‘Good Girls’ looked like for you, hopefully something nice ❤
[Part #2 ... I'm posting the comments because it's storming here on Sunday, and we're supposed to have massive rain. So, I don't want to lose my typing -- if the power goes off, which it does frequently here in Houston, Texas, if the storms do come.] Okay, I talked about one of the main differences that I have (first-off) with aphantasia. Next, what I have also found out, is that I don't really have mental imagery in my mind. And, I really do think that I used to have it. I read sci-fi when I was younger, and I had a math teacher (in say 9th grade, when I sucked at math and had a friend that I kept "borrowing" math solutions ... if ya know what I mean). That teacher (whom I really love and treasure now, who has probably passed on by now) ... [Sorry, my dog is interrupting me, she is arching herself from the bed to my Lazyboy, seemingly wanting to go poo-poo. I'll discuss more, uniqueness that I found, after a Doggie-Break.]
Hi, very interesting video. May I ask if your okay with this do you see Auras around two legs four legs plant life etc. With tarot, giving a reading or taking one. How do the pictures or colours front of cards or patterns on back of cards assist you, do you get a deeper connection. Or how would various paint colours dropped on to paper, paper folded so their squished together to create a reading effect you? Hope that’s not to out there, thank you.
I am autistic and I really love the way you perceive reality. You literally explain how my perception works down to synaesthesia. The special thing is that you can describe it in such detail, which is proof that you are really very self-aware and reflected.
Thanks for sharing! I have synesthesia too so it’s cool to hear that you experience the world in a similar way.
I just found your channel because I was looking for personal experiences with Gateway. And now I hear you explain roughly how my mind works, which I didn’t know had a name, even though I’m a psychomotor therapist. I just thought I had very very vivid visual skills, and was wired a bit diffrently than my friends, as every colour has a taste, texture and so on 😅 I also see time as cirular, just with shapes and textures connected to a feeling, more than colours. I think of it all as a super power, but it’s not always convenient - especially when being able to see how things relate and how they’re connected, that doesn’t make sense to others, beause they see it more linear than I do. When I was younger it made me insecure, however I Iearned how to explain things more clearly - and to stop when I can see people start to dissociate 🤪
Do you also have hightened body awareness? My friend who works on his phd on healing sound frequencies uses me as his guinea pig, as I’m able to locate which organ or bodypart the sound is affecting, without him telling me when he changes it. For me, this is especially connected to textures, colours and feelings. It’s the same when I get acupuncture. Do you recognize that?
I just think it’s so incredibly interesting, and hearing you telling about your way of percieving things, just makes me wanna know so much more about synesthesia - and myself. Thank you so much for sharing😊🙏🏼💚
I like to write movies in my half awake/asleep state and then when I'm asleep I watch and edit them. When I think about food I am going to create I can see the raw ingredients and can taste and smell the different blends according to the recipes. I am from Tasmania and my grandparents were Scots so I love your accent. Great vids...thank you
Thanks for explaining it more, Ash. That is really enlightening as to how your brain-scape works. And, that's even something you could forever talk about on your channel, because it is so interesting. And, it's really neat to learn that your brain has developed and organized itself differently than most people. Similarly, I think that I've realized (and/or accepted) that I am somewhat neurodivergent too. Originally, I thought that I was just normal, because I do things (in my mind) in my own way; but, now, I realize I am a different-minded person. Here's what I learned over last few years and/or watching CZcams and seeing some other people have this condition. I'll have to look up the term for it, but I think it's aphasia.
Aphasia ... Nope, sorry, that's not my condition. That's the condition that Bruce Willis was recently diagnosed with. No, mine is aphantasia. And, no, I haven't been diagnosed, but I can 100% almost guarantee that I have this. Here's what it (basically) is (or as I will describe it), "no inner monologue". For me, I have not inner voice in my head saying anything or telling me anything. [And, that's something that you didn't cover / answer in your video, but that might be something you could discuss in future -- if you talk more about Synesthesia and in how you interact mentally with yourself.] What, I found is that I have had good friends in past (and now) that have a type of inner discussion within themselves. But, for me, it's silent, totally silent. No one tells me anything inside, and I have no inner communications in my mind.
Our brains are a fascinating mystery. Thanks for sharing yours with us!
This all sounds very familiar. From early childhood I had always accociated numbers with colors. Basic arithmetic was done with colors in my head, so quantities were always colors. I became a software geek, of course.
No wonder you are always smiling. Trippin all day long😁
❤ this always fascinates me
Interesting video. Never heard about this! ❤
I have always been interested in the human mind, its function and how diverse it seems to be. I first came across you on the Gateway Experience videos you shared. I am curious if Synesthesia would bring a different experience. Thank you for sharing your life, I had never heard of this.
I had synesthesia. I experienced so much as a kid (and lots of lucid dreaming) as a young adult but later in life, it sort of went a way. That is also the time I was misdiagnosed with a major mental illness and was on like 5 different major mental health meds for about 20 years….with least one med being an antipsychotic med. About 4 years ago, I got the correct diagnosis (finally) and have been medication free for about two years. The synesthesia and lucid dreaming have not returned but have developed some Claircognizent traits. That has been interesting. My intuition is just off the charts. But I miss my synesthesia….
I didn’t realise antipsychotics would have that effect. Hope you’re doing well now.
I am assuming it was the medications that I was taking that caused the synesthesia to go away, but I don't have confirmation. I was taking mood stabilizers, antidepressants, and an antipsychotic. If you think about it, those medications alter dopamine and serotonin levels and affect brain chemistry in various ways! I am so glad I got the correct diagnosis several years ago and am no longer on medications like that!@@AshOnFilm
FASCINATING! You’re so interesting! I’m wondering if I have any of those things you have, because I feel some sounds. I’m sensitive to vibrations. I’d love to see your documentary.
Great video Ash, I feel I understand the experience of synesthesiamuch better after watching this😊
I’d love to know what my POWA track ‘Good Girls’ looked like for you, hopefully something nice ❤
I can taste certain metals when I touch them with my hand. I guess that's synesthesia too? Our brains are so interesting.
Thanks for sharing , I taste the color green. I have tried to explain this to people but they all look at me funny.
Thank you for sharing something so personal about yourself ❤
[Part #2 ... I'm posting the comments because it's storming here on Sunday, and we're supposed to have massive rain. So, I don't want to lose my typing -- if the power goes off, which it does frequently here in Houston, Texas, if the storms do come.]
Okay, I talked about one of the main differences that I have (first-off) with aphantasia. Next, what I have also found out, is that I don't really have mental imagery in my mind. And, I really do think that I used to have it. I read sci-fi when I was younger, and I had a math teacher (in say 9th grade, when I sucked at math and had a friend that I kept "borrowing" math solutions ... if ya know what I mean). That teacher (whom I really love and treasure now, who has probably passed on by now) ...
[Sorry, my dog is interrupting me, she is arching herself from the bed to my Lazyboy, seemingly wanting to go poo-poo. I'll discuss more, uniqueness that I found, after a Doggie-Break.]
Gosh this is so interesting. Also no, I am not still with you, never was, but it's fascinating nonetheless. :3
Hi, very interesting video. May I ask if your okay with this do you see Auras around two legs four legs plant life etc. With tarot, giving a reading or taking one. How do the pictures or colours front of cards or patterns on back of cards assist you, do you get a deeper connection. Or how would various paint colours dropped on to paper, paper folded so their squished together to create a reading effect you? Hope that’s not to out there, thank you.
Do you think it’s hereditary?