First Time Hearing The Poet & The Pendulum by Nightwish | Suicide Survivor Reacts
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Today I reacted to The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish from the Dark Passion Play album. This is my first time hearing this band and song. I don't even know what genre this is! I was SO pleasantly surprised. Incredible talent. I think you'll enjoy my jaw hitting the floor in this reaction.
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To balance this song, I would recommend you listen to a newer piece of theirs, from their latest album "Human :||: Nature". The song is called "How's The Heart?". There are two videos for it, one the official "lyric" video featuring the full band, and the other a stripped-down version featuring just vocals and acoustic guitar. It speaks of supporting one another when support is most desperately needed.
@@n5iln I am so excited to listen to other music of their now. Especially having been so warmly welcomed by their community 💖 Thanks for the recommendations!
@@n5iln This this, 100% this. How's the Heart is all about reaching out to people in need, whether they be strangers or loved ones.
@@n5iln great suggestion!! I thought about suggesting Dead Boy's Poem but i'm somehow hesitant...
No ... your's is better! :)
Will be great your double reaction of "How's The Heart".
# LINK (Official Lyric Video): czcams.com/video/F8vuyd9M2LU/video.html
# LINK (Acoustic Session at Planet Rock): czcams.com/video/yYtkPpFYzOo/video.html
Started with The Poet and the Pendulum and knocked it out of the park! Amazing display of empathy, welcome to the army!
For someone who never listened to Nightwish before or knew the history behind this song, you are remarkably perceptive to the meaning! I usually recommend that folks do a little research into the backstory before listening to this song, but you are already on the right track. I'd still recommend reading into the story a little more just for your own benefit, and you might pick up on more things throughout the song, but truly, excellent reaction and interpretation.
Hello Amanda Webster ! Nightwish fans here, your musical quest summoned us.
Welcome to the world of symphonic metal! And thank you for checking this legendary band, performing here at Wembley Arena in 2015, together with Floor Jansen, the 3rd and present female singer of the band, in front of a wild audience.
Also a recent sad news - these days Marco Hietala, the bass player and male singer of the band, announced his retirement both from the band and the public life for the next year at least - we'll see what the future brings to us.
About the instrumental and vocal added parts - it's good to know they recorded their orchestral and vocal back tracks with prestigious institutions as London Philharmonic Orchestra. London's The Metro Voices choir group and London's Young Musicians Children's Choir as their regular partners.
As I saw, you enjoyed the powerful performance of the band, together with the stellar vocals of our Dutch metal queen, Floor Jansen. This is also a rare thing, to start your Nightwish personal journey with this heavy emotional song. Even you didn't knew the back-story, you understood / felt very well the meaning. Subscribed for that. Hope you'll continue on this path.
Since this is your first Nightwish reaction, it is my duty to give you the short history of the band concentrated by Ann Waychoff, one of the biggest Nightwish fan who has since passed away (and I am doing this in her memory):
" Nightwish was started in 1996.They are considered a Symphonic Metal band, with a female main singer. They are from Finland.
Tuomas Holopainen, the keyboard player, composes and writes the lyrics for 95% of their music. Marco Hietala is the Bassist and vocals .And there is the guitarist Emppu Vuorinen . Then there is Troy Donockley from UK who is a multi-instrumentalist and vocals. Jukka Nevalainen is the drummer. In 2015 due to Jukka's health issues Kai Hahto became the drummer and as of now is a permanent addition.
Nightwish has had three singers. 1st one was Tarja Turunen (Operatic vocals). She was with them until 2005. The 2nd one was Anette Olzon from Sweden (Poppy, strong vocals). She was with them until 2012.The 3rd and current singer is Floor Jansen, from Netherlands (power, operatic, soprano.....most versatile) - you just heard her.
There are live concerts that you should use depending on what era. From Wishes to Eternity and End of an Era (Tarja), Montreux Festival live 2012 and Exit Festival (Anette), Live at Wacken 2013, Live at Wembley, Live at Tampere, Vehicle of Spirit, Decades live (Floor). I hope this helps.
I want to welcome you to the Nightwish community. I hope you like them enough to continue the journey. Believe me Nightwish will surprise you with their songs. You will never know what to expect. They are unbelievable live. I want to warn you that Nightwish fans are hard core. So be prepared. lol "
Hoping you'll continue this journey with us, I'll drop here a list of songs (with links) with the current lineup of the band you may like (please consider this list of links only as "a tip of the iceberg", an indication that they have a vast and very diverse repertoire, and not as something mandatory):
"Ghost Love Score" live at Wacken 2013 (epic score) czcams.com/video/JYjIlHWBAVo/video.html
"Storytime" live at Wacken 2013 (uplifting vocals) czcams.com/video/pvkYwOJZONU/video.html
"Romanticide" live at Wacken 2013 (metal) czcams.com/video/zz_7OCCQlXs/video.html
"Ever Dream" live at Wacken 2013 (uplifting vocals) czcams.com/video/1Xi4n8dJcF8/video.html
"Song Of Myself" live at Wacken 2013 (dark/metal) czcams.com/video/lQu5QjidHWg/video.html
"Dead Boy's Poem" - live Buenos Aires 2018 (soulful ballad) czcams.com/video/S8E3L7ggLMM/video.html
"Ghost River" live at Wacken 2013 (metal) czcams.com/video/05eitd-EA6I/video.html
"Dark Chest Of Wonders" live at Wacken 2013 (metal, the greatest show opener ever) czcams.com/video/OvOD6xecph4/video.html
"My Walden" live at Wembley 2015 (celtic / folk) czcams.com/video/knqeI807ZlY/video.html
"Sleeping Sun" live at Vizovice Masters of Rock festival 2016 (ballad) czcams.com/video/pVPTUEW1PEM/video.html
"The Islander" live at Tampere 2015 (Marco in charge..) czcams.com/video/Zo8ncK_5kzc/video.html
"Stargazer" live at Tampere 2015 (operatic vocals / metal) czcams.com/video/NhEuAPYm_Ug/video.html
"Alpenglow" live at Wembley 2015 (uplifting / metal) czcams.com/video/FrJvKZNEh7g/video.html
"Sahara" live at Tampa 2016 (middle eastern vibe) czcams.com/video/lTvYfLa4Wlk/video.html
"Slaying The Dreamer" live at Buenos Aires 2018 (metal) czcams.com/video/wA44tjaP5n0/video.html
"I Want My Tears Back" live at Buenos Aires 2018 (celtic / folk vibe) czcams.com/video/TBOdgxjb0kM/video.html
"Devil & The Deep Dark Ocean" live In Buenos Aires 2018 (metal) czcams.com/video/t26r_vAYQ0Q/video.html
"Weak Fantasy" live at Tampere 2015 (dark metal) czcams.com/video/AN239Pbqbjo/video.html
"7 Days To The Wolves" live at Wembley 2015 (dark metal) czcams.com/video/XvsfwAPbWXc/video.html
And if you want to hear Floor growling :) then try "Yours Is An Empty Hope" live at Mexico City in 2015 czcams.com/video/DuwY1d-KIss/video.html
Last but not the least - they just released their 9th studio album on April 10th 2020 named "Human :||: Nature" - just take a peek to their official playlist: czcams.com/play/PLihZ3gi5Yvzc0pfH2cbNKUUX8o3pb8eVg.html (for example: "Shoemaker", the 3rd track from this album, tells the story of Eugene Shoemaker, one of the founders of planetary science, whose ash was sent on the Moon after his death, as a tribute from the scientific community ..)
The links presented above are with the current singer of the band, Floor Jansen, since I'm a fan of the recent era of the band, with Floor as the singer. I have nothing against previous singers, but I do not consider myself the most suitable person to give specific recommendations from their repertoires.
** I think it's your place, fans of previous Nightwish eras, to present to the reactors the best recommendations with Tarja Turunen and Anette Olzon, because you know and appreciate them directly. I encourage you to add the best recommendations in the comments. **
That being said, I will add here the message left the other days by an old fan of the band, @Fabrizio Gorla: " To be fair to the old fanbase, you may want to include also some of these songs. Just be fair and don’t make a comparison if you don’t want an open war in your comment section.
* The Tarja era *:
The power of Tarja - Nightwish - Wishmaster [Live] - czcams.com/video/eJTlH521E6w/video.html
The lyrics of this song are a treasure of citations from fantasy books.
The power of Tarja II - Nightwish - End Of All Hope Live at the Summer Breeze festival (2002) - czcams.com/video/ESlyjQl90p0/video.html
A classic revisited - NIGHTWISH - The Phantom Of The Opera (OFFICIAL LIVE) - czcams.com/video/tL25rbnvM4o/video.html
The old school - Nightwish - 01 Dark Chest Of Wonder (Live End Of An Era 2005 HD) - czcams.com/video/ROdKrGVVuI8/video.html
Mesmerizing - Nightwish - The Siren (DVD End Of An Era) HD - czcams.com/video/LUy8T_3kieI/video.html
@DeeDee80: Gabriel, would be good to add in the Tarja list "Pharaoh Sails To Orion" czcams.com/video/ZpkH187t5Mk/video.html . It's one of the best.
@NicholasCorvin: And in the Tarja era you could also mention "Nemo" [LIVE "End of an Era"] czcams.com/video/ww2f4PPprSc/video.html
@Fabrizio Gorla: * The Anette era *:
NIGHTWISH: "Scaretale" (OFFICIAL LIVE) - czcams.com/video/5EmpS8E7d30/video.html
Nightwish - Storytime (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) - czcams.com/video/09MTDBb8qro/video.html
NIGHTWISH - Bye Bye Beautiful (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) - czcams.com/video/hTdhXxxWREo/video.html
NIGHTWISH - Amaranth (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) - czcams.com/video/GdZn7k5rZLQ/video.html
@NicholasCorvin: The list could include in the "Anette era" "The Islander" [Official Music Video] (it's maybe their best videoclip) - czcams.com/video/--tFFz44zvc/video.html
* Bonus tracks *:
Tarja Turunen & Floor Jansen 'Over the hills' MFVF XI Wieze, Belguim 20/10/13 - czcams.com/video/57WsNYItbSU/video.html
"High Hopes" - Pink Floyd cover / tribute 2005 (Marco in charge..) czcams.com/video/4oEDnVeYYyM/video.html "
You can also react to Floor Jansen "tapping" other musical genres in Beste Zangers 2019 (TV show from Netherlands) here is a playlist made by Floor herself (start listen it in reverse order..): czcams.com/play/PL8iSYWeQhlimgUnWw1FDdiJN0msPzqpLo.html
For entire episodes of the show with En subtitles, you should check Denise Hofs's DM channel: dailymotion_dot_com/xpinkeu/videos
In these pandemic times, Floor Jansen has decided to make covers for us, which you can find on her YT channel - there are already 6 covers there, the first is "Let It Go" from "Frozen" (25 weeks ago, already over 2.435M views), the second - "Alone" from "Heart" , released 23 weeks ago - 1.233M and counting. Then 21 weeks ago she dropped the third cover, in Dutch: "Is Dit Nou Later" from Stef Bos - already 283K views. Just before Christmas she made a powerful cover of "Ave Maria" - already 314K views. 18 weeks ago she added a remastered / remixed version of the first one, "Let It Go" - already 220K. 16 weeks ago she added to the list a powerful cover of "Adagio" by Lara Fabian (!!!) - 453K views now. Then, just 11 weeks ago she gave us the last one so far: "Oblivion" by M83 - 563K views in 11 weeks..
!!! A last moment update: 2 weeks ago Floor did a cover of "Euphoria" for Beste Zangers Songfestival czcams.com/video/FOBgrpkOIVE/video.html - 840K views already !!!
Thank you! Waiting for more Nightwish reactions. All the best from RO. Stay safe.
Dude, you are starting to scare me. Don't you ever sleep or go offline? :)
A soldier on guard duty never sleeps! 😉
Hey Gabriel :)
@@umutbirbilen4078 It's a task I've taken seriously to give the welcome message to all the new reactors to Nightwish. I'm not infallible, you know. But I'm still trying.
@@danutnita1965 Multumesc.
"Be still my son, you're home, oh when did you become so cold" i cry every time i hear that line
that line hits me really hard too.
Agreed....Everytime it hits hard...first time I heard the song I called my mom just to tell her I love her. That last section always gets me.
I thought i was the only one... That last part always gets me
I've heard this song many many times and have been a Nightwish fan for years, but I've never _seen_ this before. From Tuomas's finger across his throat until the dying heartbeat until the start of the vocals in the last song it's just too much. Too much.
yes i cry to search for beauty find your shore!
To understand the story you need to know the backstory.
Nightwish was started by Tuomas, Emppu, and Tarja, their first singer. In 2005, after the recording of the "End of an era" dvd Tarja was fired thru a letter given to her by Tuomas, but it was a band decision. The letter was also posted on the bands homepage at the same time. Marko had told Tuomas "It's me or her". This song is about the aftermath thru Tuomas eyes. A piece in five parts.
1. White lands of Empathica.: Boy soprano (Guy Elliot). "The end, the songwriter's dead, the blade fell upon him" It's the end of an era, Tuomas feels dead inside, he was the one that handed Tarja the letter. The white lands of Emphatica is a place in Stephen Kings "Dark Tower" series.
2. Home: "A poet without a rime, a widowed writer torn apart by the chains of hell" Tuomas got writers block, he's lost his musical "wife", his muse, and was fighting depression and doubt. "My home was there and then, those meadows of heaven. Adventure filled days one with every smiling face" The bands beginning, before the troubles started.
3 The Pacific: "On the shore, se sat and hoped under the same pale moon who's guiding light chose you, chose you all" If I remember it right Tuomas, Emppu, and Tarja was having a barbecue at night when they decided to start a band together. The operatic part Floor sings was originally sung by the same boy soprano who sings the intro. When Floor joined she told Tuomas that she could sing that. He decided to keep the intro but let Floor sing that part.
The spoken words are read by a boy named Tom Williams. Both him and Guy Elliot were members of Reigate St Mary's Choir School.
4. Dark passion play: This is about the reactions from fans and media where everyone blamed Tuomas even tho it was a band decision. He was ripped apart, even the Finnish prime minister had an opinion.
5. Mother and Father: Tuomas took refuge at his parents house for a while, these are some of the things they told him during that time.
Tuomas was inspired by the short story "The pit and the pendulum" by Edgar Allen Poe when he wrote this masterpiece.
The first words are "The end", the last words are "The beginning". It's the end of an era and the start of a new.
When you see Marko and Emppu close to Tuomas at the end it's a thing they have thet started when this song was new. Tuomas feelings where still raw so they supported him at the end of the song. Tuomas had chosen to have Anettes song cut out of the mix in his earpiece at the shows. This was 11 years after the events, so he's mostly over it now.
Thanks for this amazing recap! I know this masterpiece and the band for about 12 years, and I knew about the letter... yet was not aware of the details.
Stop on pal
Wow, you managed to dissect this song better than a lot of folks who know the back story. Welcome to the wonderful world of Nightwish. Every song is an adventure, every song a beautifully crafted roller coaster of emotions. Nice reaction. Hope you do some more.
I'm used to a roller coaster of emotions. Bring it on!
@@MentalAmanda I can tell you're absolutely going to love this band!!!! My bet is you become a member of the NW Army immediately. I see our "official Herald" Gabriel has been here...so you're in great hands to start your journey!
P.S. forgot to mention how stunned I was to see you pick up on the overall meaning and overarching feeling with *no knowledge* of the backstory at all. Wow!!! Anybody who can do that gets a sub, and I can't wait to see the rest of your journey.
@@MentalAmanda You should react to Babymetal. They're a blend of Japanese pop and metal. Very unique. Invented their own genre of music. They're both heavier and more poppy than Nightwish. It's heavy instruments with pop vocals and dancing. The contrast between the two things is very interesting. Maybe start with 'Doki Doki Morning' official it's their first ever song recorded over 10 years ago and it's super cute they're like 12. But awesome. Oh yeah, it's 3 girls but they are joined in concerts with the best male session musicians in Japan to back them.
@@MentalAmanda You want know more about the vocalist Floor Jansen , she does have her own YT channel .
You could be interested in ... Mental Health & Music ft. Tom Englund - FLOOR FINDS #6 czcams.com/video/PRlHz42atiY/video.html
Tom Englund is vocalist in Evergray , but hes also a mental health professional .
Amen. I was amazed by the deep meanings she found.. just going in like blindfolded..
Generally this is not suggested as a first song by nightwish and it is recommended to know the backstory. You did incredibly well without that background. It is about the suicide of Tuomas the keyboard player and composer. I think you missed it by pausing at the wrong moment. It happens at 17:53 in your video, although the last part is how his loved ones, mother and father, prevented him from actually doing it. Somebody will explain the full background but this song is written after him having to fire the first singer and his childhood friend from the band. Nightwish was already a big band in Finland , so everybody, even the prime minister, was commenting on this break up, possibly without fully understanding the background. Tuomas felt bullied and depressed as a result. The mood swings in the song mirror those in real life as do the ebb and flow and the swinging of the pendulum. IMHO this song should be broadcasted every year on a day we think about mental health, depression and bullying. Not sure if that day exists but if it doesn't, we should have one and play this song.
If you really want to enter this rabbit hole, wait for the message from Gabriel
Gabriel’s comin! Haha
Not the suicide of Tuomas, as Tuomas did not commit suicide. He only contemplated it and wrote a song about it. He did not actually do it.
@@treintje1001 I think I said that. As far as I know it is also very difficult to compose while dead.
We have a mental health day and month here. May happens to be the month so lovely timing :D I agree though, this would be a great song to share even to high school students to raise awareness about mental health. Thank you so much for the backstory. I went in blind! Glad I wasn't TOO lost!
@@MentalAmanda Hi Amanda , this is a song we recommend a reactor do once they have a decent amount of NW reactions behind them and some knowledge on the back story as this is possibly the most personal & emotional song for the composer/keyboardist Tuomas, it is however a masterpiece, but you perceived it pretty well,but we would have told you there is a lyric version, the beginning is not opera just a boy soprano singing in English,
there are several numbered sections to this piece denoting the different stages of his depression, The song that is legendary & the most reacted to on YT ever is Ghost Love Score - Wacken 2013 ,Floor Jansen you will find out is one of the most talented and versatile female singers of our time,
Welcome aboard the NW & Floor Journey :
NW is Symphonic Metal (also called Beautiful Metal )the Symphonic elements are from the London Philharmonic composed by the keyboardist Tuomas, be warned it's an addiction, :) Wacken 2013 is perfection ,a seminal event where every song is GOLD & better than the originals ,82,000 in attendance for Nightwish, considering Floor Jansen (who is the 3rd,current and final vocalist) had only been 10months in singing with the band at this point,but few singers and I have seen many live are this great live,and yet the song GLS -( 3rd from the end of a 15 song set) is but a small taste of what this band and singer has to experience.GLS is most reacted to song on YT right now and possibly ever,some vocal coach reactors have over 2.5 Million views,so the fan base is massive,very passionate & active on YT.
I suggest staying with this Wacken 2013 before moving on to the other outstanding concerts, yes NW is best Live, then there is Floor's continued vocal versatility on the Dutch tv show
Beste Zangers 2019 on YT ,she sings Shallow,Phantom of The Opera,Vilja Lied & more ,then her
recent YT covers of Alone-Heart,Adagio-Lara Fabian,AveMaria,Oblivion,etc.
so much to discover ,so welcome aboard this NW journey,it's an exceptional ride. cheers
****from this concert : while GLS is the ultimate example of the symphonic metal ,some of these other songs are a bit heavier & melodic.
NIGHTWISH - Ghost Love Score (OFFICIAL LIVE) : Wacken 2013
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*Nightwish - Bless the Child (Wacken 2013)
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NIGHTWISH - Storytime (OFFICIAL LIVE VIDEO-Wacken 2013)
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Ghost River (Wacken 2013)
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NIGHTWISH - Ever Dream (OFFICIAL LIVE-Wacken 2013)
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Nightwish - Song of Myself LIVE-Wacken 2013-
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NIGHTWISH - Romanticide (OFFICIAL LIVE VIDEO-Wacken 2013)
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Nightwish - Nemo (Wacken 2013) :
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Nightwish - Amaranth (Wacken 2013) :
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Nightwish - Last Ride Of The Day (Live Wacken 2013 - ShowtimeStorytime):
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Nightwish - Wish I Had an Angel (Wacken 2013):
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You at the beginning: "Is this opera?"
Me thinking with a big grin: "Just wait....." :-)
Yea lol I been a fan since once
Welcome to the nightwish army! I honestly started crying way earlier in the song than I usually do just because you *got it*, like with no context you 100% understood the exact pain the song was about. Amazing reaction 💙
Thank you. I felt myself going "yup, I feel that" in my head a lot.
@@MentalAmanda This song epitomizes the sadness and chaos of consideration of suicide. I'd really forgotten how powerful this is. This whole album is a masterpiece.
This song was written by Tuomas Holopainen, the keyboard player and metal mozart of Nightwish. It was his way of dealing with the grief over splitting with the original vocalist of Nightwish. There are a lot of people who can and im sure will explain this better than I can, but you understood a lot of the emotions without even knowing the background, which was impressive to say the least. Nightwish is an amazing band, they never disappoint.
Yep Traja Turunen
Tarja. ❤️ (The name)
All oh their songs are wrote by Tuomas.
What we Nightwish army soldiers have witnessed here is a beautiful sensitive creature ready to enter our world of pure excellence that this band represents. Next should be one of their optimistic creations such as "shudder before the beautiful". Greetings from Greece.
This can NOT have been easy for you...Being a survivor, listening to somebody do just that in his music... I could see you recognized it..... maybe more than you would have liked.
I hope you still got to really enjoy the music for the masterpiece that it is ;)
Thank you for reacting to this, and posting the reaction....
Those moments where the guitarist and bassist go to the keyboardplayer (the writer, but you probably know that by now) is to check on him... After all these years, you can see that it still hurts....
There are still certain songs I can't hear or scenes that upset me. I actually had a breakdown the other day with someone close to me while watching Lucifer. I try to embrace my emotions now so I still VERY much enjoyed this masterpiece.
OMG, I can’t believe you first exposure to NightWish starts with Poet & The Pendulum. This song is powerful enough to the uneducated to the history of this band.
Once you understand the backstory, this song can reallly grab you by the heart strings.
Welcome to our beloved NightWish Army
More so than any other Nightwish reaction, your’s is important and informative in a way that we all need to pay attention to. I hope the rightly named Nightwish Army gives your channel a boost to get your message out to those that need to hear it.
They very much did and I am exploding with love and gratitude. Will definitely be planning something special in response!
Omg you have found the Nightwish Family to support you in your mental health.
Tuomas and Floor are both empaths and display and project emotions incredibly.
Floor is an astonishing human being keeping us all safe from mental anguish by producing covers for her fans q and a fan fridays giving master classes and interviews to connect with us all.
Gabriel will guide you on your journey along and down the rabbithole that is nightwish.
The Nightwish Army will descend on you shortly but dont be scared Nightwish is ALL LOVE and Positivity.
Welcome aboard and be part of the most uplifting society .
I literally can't remember the last time I have seen SO much positivity and compassion. I cannot express in words how grateful I am to have all of you here now.
@@MentalAmanda we are a friendly lot, but a terrible "fighting force" lol 😂 enjoy your upcoming manoeuvres in the world of Nightwish....
@@MentalAmanda tuomas has another even more personal song which floor absolutely masters.
It is about his younger self growing up without the skills and confidence to talk about his feelings.
It is called dead boys poem and the best version is with floor in buenos aries 2018
I just stumbled across your video and I have to say your analysis is unreal, especially for this being your introduction to the musical experience known as Nightwish. I'm sure by now you already know the history of the band and that Tuomas composes most of the music, but in this song specifically, there is a part in the song that really speaks to the musical geniusness of Tuomas. From the line where it says "I only have 3 minutes and counting" to the physical movement he makes where he kills himself in the song, is exactly 3 minutes. I hope you have enjoyed getting to know this band.
I'm blown away by your reaction. At first I see an innocent blond girl with a pink, cat-eary headphone. But then she explains about the Pit and the Pendulum in the context of this dark, deep musicpiece. And unprepaired she can relate to the lyrics that come by. And now in the first person; you are amazing! Subscribed...
She did an amazing job, didn't she?! She is incredibly empathic just like Tuomas and Floor. This is the BEST reaction to TP&TP I have ever seen, and she did it with no background on the band or backstory of the song. Truly incredible!!🌹
My deeper layers tend to shock people. Like a slightly darker Elle Woods 🧡 I'm weird, what can I say?
@@MentalAmanda You've got the layers. Just like Nightwish. I wonder what you see in the mental context, unprepaired, of Dead Boys Poem. And weird is wonderfull!
True - after "personalized monthly pictures" I started expecting an OnlyFans plug.
@@ViolosD2I If I ever make an OnlyFans, y'all have permission to take me out and shoot me. Lol.
Swedish Nightwish army is reporting in. Welcome to a wonderful world.
Wow, what a great reaction. This song is written (as almost every Nightwish song) by the keyboardist Tuomas Holopainen after the band fired their first singer and childhood friend Tarja Turunen, with whom Tuomas founded the band in 1996. After a show in 2005 she was given an open letter. The whole band signed the letter but Tuomas was blamed for the firing of Tarja and he got a lot of backlash from fans. This put him in a deep depression and he had suicidal thoughts back then, but he decided to write a song about it and rather kill himself in the song than to do it in real life. The last part is called "Mother and Father" and relates to Tuomas' time with his parents where he found comfort and the lines are what his mother said to him. You can see him singing along with the singer (Floor Jansen, 3rd singer of te band who joined them in 2012). In the past he often told the tech to cut off the vocals from his in-ear monitors because it was to hard for him to listen (that changed over time, and he said in an interview that he is not that person anymore, but they still don't perform the song very often).
I have seen many reactions to this song where the reactor didn't get the deep meaning behind it, because she/he got into this song blind and whithout checking the backstory before reacting, even when the Nightwish fans told them. Usually it is suggested to wait and listen to other NW songs first to get a feeling for the band. I am so glad that you got the meaning and atmosphere of the song right from the first notes/lines. I am suffering from depression myself (for different reasons) and this song makes me cry every time. Sometimes I think that you have to be in a similar situation like Tuomas was, to really "feel" this song, even if you don't know the whole story behind it. I feel sorry that you had to make such an expierience and have been at a such a severe point in your life.
It is a very bold move to start your Nightwish journey with the most impactful song in their catalog. But you did really well. Most of the reactors start with "Ghost Love Score" from Wacken Open Air 2013 (a metal festival where Nightwish were headliners that year), which is epic too in a different way and shows (part of) the vocal skills of Floor (she had one year of opera training and several years of musical theater training at the conservaturium and worked as a vocal coach for a couple of years).
As a next reaction I would suggest something different like "Storytime", "Everdream", "Song of myself" or "Amaranth" from Wacken Open Air 2013. Actually you could pick any song from that Wacken 2013 show. The whole concert is awesome and when someone invents time travel, my first trip would be back to 2013 so I can expierience that concert live and not only via a recording.
Oh, a little warning: the Nightwish army will be here soon and our general (commander, chief communication officer) Gabriel Bardac will provide you some more great recommendations and background info about the band in his welcome speech. Subbed to follow your Nightwish journey.
"When you have such oceans within, search for beauty and find your shore" my absolute favorite musical quote!
You did a really good job in the understanding of this hard song. Seriously, I'm impressed. A new subscriber here. Depression was one of the reasons my mom passed away, today makes 7 months of it. I nursed her during the 10 years she suffered and I also was depressed too but I had to keep being strong for her.
Today is 16 years since my dad passed. Losing my parents was the worst thing I ever went through. I understand. Here if you ever need to talk and thanks for the support!
Floor Jansen, with this song, was instrumental in saving my life. A deep downward swing of my own pendulum was making me wish for the water to take me to the deep. I related to this song on a deep level and I felt every drum beat and every strum of the guitar; but it was Floor at the end singing the words of Tuomases mother and father which I heard as my own mother singing to me that communicated powerfully to my pained soul. She sings as an angel in that last part, truly. Here are the words for that part:
"Be still, my son
You're home
Oh when did you become so cold?
The blade will keep on descending
All you need is to feel my love
Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end I will always love you..."
That ending always makes me weep. It's so beautiful in both sound and meaning.
Tuomas has said these lines that helped him overcome the depression he was going through, which made him write this song, were told to him by his own mother. Tuomas probably re-arranged the words a little to make them rhyme, but I wonder if his mother is aware of how many people her words have helped...
Nightwish army from Italy reporting from duty. You really nailed the meaning of this song, not knowing the backstory. Personally, this song helped me through one of the most terrible times of my life after being sexually assaulted by someone I knew and trusted. Today helping my best friend getting out of a terrible situation, it brings back some terrible memories so i still listen to this masterpiece to help cope when I get overwhelmed.
On a more positive note, i'm really glad you found this amazing band, this is symphonic metal (i know, sounds like a dichotomy but it works as you can see) and Nightwish is the front face of this genre. If you want to you can react to the holy trinity of NW videos, this is not where most people start but who cares. The other two songs are Ghost love score live at Wacken and Greatest show on earth (either the official video or live at Tampere are both amazing shows). The first one is a 9-minute song and the other one is their longest so far as a 20-minute song and I promise both of them will feel like a couple of minutes. NW doesn't do songs in my opinion, they build a sound experience and it's fucking amazing
I was sexually assaulted as well 20 years ago. I JUST in April went back to where it happened and chronicled that experience here on the channel. We can't let ugly people destroy our beauty. Message me if you ever need to talk!
It's really fitting how she chose this song to start with considering it's meaning and the fact that she's promoting mental health awareness
what a beautiful response from you and my respect for how you described this song. I hope you like their other songs too. The Greatest Show On Earth from them is about the evolution of earth and is also intense to listen to. greetings from a Nightwish fan from the Netherlands
Pretty much a pitch perfect blind interpretation of the story behind the song! Great job!
I burst into tears when you dissected the first part of the chorus, "I cannot cry 'cause the shoulder cries more". That is EXACTLY what hit me about it, and one of the reasons I would often play this song on repeat on my hour long commute during the worst parts of my wife's illness and her struggle with her mental health issues (she's alive and doing better now). This song kept me going, because SOMEONE UNDERSTOOD and put into lyrics and music what I was feeling, about that and having "two faces", one for the public face and the other between me, myself, and I.
The last interview I did here on the channel was about helping loved ones who are struggling while taking care of yourself. I'm glad she is doing better and hope you both grow together and flourish!
@@MentalAmanda Thank you, we're working on it! We've been married 30 years this coming August!
Sithspit Your post hit my heart.
@@Rancid-Jane I'm not sure what else to say but thank you for that. The Internet is one of the few places I can open up because I am no one, and yet, sometimes, what we say still matters. *hugs*
@@Sithspit_Rogue All the best to you and your wife. It is good she has someone who cares for her.
Welcome to the Nightwish family. We are here for each other and that includes you. Greetings from Alabama 😎
Amazing reaction. You have never heard of the band or the story behind this song, but still you felt all the emotions. Before you relisten to it I want to tell you that this is the most personal song of Tuomas (keyboard player and the main composer of the band) where he literally kills himself in the song and talks about his thoughts and emotions prior to it and then his parents' words after it. This song saved him from severe depression and real suicide. In short, that's the story behind the song.
For me, personally, this is the best song ever composed and I have attended hundreds of suicides along with it during my worst days. I can say it kinda saved me too, although the pain never really goes away. I let myself get into the music and lyrics and feel them on my skin and in my soul and it gives me a little bit of comfort and peace, at least for a short time.
Thank you for this reaction and for being such a beautiful person. And welcome to the Nightwish army! Love from Serbia!
As someone who was also saved from suicide by a song (mine was Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park), maybe he and I are just on the same wavelength!
@@MentalAmanda Breaking the Habit has helped me stay sober.
Straight to the deep End. Well, that's the sport. This is so far from the "standard" music. And you did a fine job, especially as a newcomer. Welcome to the wonderful world of symphonic metal and Nightwish and greetings from Finland! ⛄👍
In my opinion nightwish has to be the best symphonic metal band out there. I was up in Finland in 2016 for my brother's wedding it was my first time leaving the United States, and Finland is a beautiful country 👍 my great grandparents on both sides of my family came from Finland down to Michigan and Canada. I definitely have to come back to Finland sometime soon!
We would be pleased and spoiled to have you take a 2nd take on this masterpiece once you've digged into it and have heard other masterpieces of Nightwish. You're welcome.
I have seen reactions to this song by people who have experienced many Nightwish performances that are nowhere near as insightful and considered as yours. I am so impressed. Now you have found Floor, our glorious singer, and Tuomas, our master composer, you will find songs to cater for every emotion! My best wishes to you and I look forward to the next one!
To break this down so well without knowing the backstory is quite remarkable and testament to both the writing of Tuomas and your intelligence. To know the references of the Pit and the pendulum and the story of the crucifixion so well - wow! So glad to see you doing so well after what seems to have been some seriously hard experiences in life. I wish you nothing but the best and hope you continue to enjoy happier times going forwards. x
I'm a bookworm nerd for sure. I remember dating a guy who was shocked that I was reading Dante Alighieri for fun. You can imagine why that didn't work out. HAHA.
Rich Franklin, I totally agree what you wrote there. Amanda's reaction just shows that this song can reach your heart and mind just as it is. I thank Tuomas to make this song, and obviously he continued his life after this. He said once, that this album saved his life. It might have saved some others too, I believe. When you research the Nightwish, please, do it carefully. It is a fantastic journey, and please, do more reactions. You can find the whole variety of emotions. And don't be ashamed to show them. I have tear in my eye everytime when I hear this song. And big smile, when I hear something else. In the end, I am always on better mood.
@@MentalAmanda if you want a excellent song about surviving suicide do Going Down by Five Finger Death Punch it'll make you get your tissues
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What a shame, I would be intrigued. Education and inteligence isn't for everyone, I guess...
@@Nazdreg1 He did have a very wonderful adventurous side though! Was always up to go do something daring and fun.
Even Tuomas himself has said that nowadays he asks to turn off vocals in his monitors when they play this song live because he doesnt relate with the lyrics anymore. It's about what happened in 2005.
He said he used to. he doesn't anymore.
@@paulriddle7818 They don't play this song anymore either :P From what i understood, they haven't played this since around 2015 or so because "It's not them anymore" ^^
@@Xaranthos He's said he's still open to play it again if it fits a tour.
Nightwish are the most incredible band I have ever come across. Tuomas the composer is a genius. Floor Jansen is the most amazing singer I have heard too. She has the most beautiful colours to her voice and I always get goosebumps and tears from listening to them. This song was particularly important for me as I was once a whore for the cold world. I now live my life with much more purpose and with gratefulness and positivity. Living with a chronic illness made that difficult before but somehow Nightwish and the beautiful voice of Floor has opened up my emotions and allowed me to see the world as a beautiful place. Your reaction to this song is maybe the best I have ever seen. Thanks so much :)
I live with chronic illness / pain, too. I truly understand the power of the music of Nightwish. Not sure where I'd be right now without it, to be honest. All my best to you, Friend. Stay strong....🌹
@@cinderellsworth Thanks for the kind comment. It´s nice to know others out there have a similar affinity to Nightwish. All the best to you too :)
It's funny what can lift us up and give us strength. Next year is 3 years in recovery from cocaine and self harm for me all because I met Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park for 30 seconds.
@@MentalAmanda Wow Amanda, I must say I am extremely impressed with what you are doing, being open and being a strong voice with your channel. That special moment when you met Mike briefly , I can relate to the first time I seen Nightwish. I cried for the first time in 10 years as I watched Floor sing Ghost love score at Wacken. It was my true inflection point in my life and it was a key to allow me to start seeing beauty in this world. I am so happy that you had that experience and I wish you all the best going forward. Lots of love to you
@@MentalAmanda Human nature is incredibly resilient, isn't it?! We all have a "spark of the divine" within us, but it usually only combusts in the face of adversity. Where we allow our selves to go from there can depend on something as simple as hearing Nightwish for the first time, or as serendipitous as meeting a "hero" for an eternity of 30 seconds. I wish you all the best, Amanda. And I hope and pray this channel will change many lives and attitudes for the better...🌟💫💛
You don't just listen to Nightwish - you EXPERIENCE Nightwish. Every song and every performance is a journey. Please check out the Nightwish live performances from the Wacken Festival in 2013. Look at Gabriel Bardac's recommended list in the comments to this video and you will take an amazing journey down the Nightwish rabbit hole. You will not regret it! I look forward to your future Nightwish reactions (by the way, as your enter the Nightwish rabbit hole I predict your subscriber list will grow a lot - the Nightwish Army is large and very passionate).
Beautiful reaction, love it 👍And so much to the people that always say you first need to know all the story behind it to react to it. Just that she didn't knew it made this reaction even more beautiful i think.
Thank you so much. I like to go in blind so my reaction is as raw as possible.
UK Nightwish army reporting in, and down the Nightwish rabbit whole we go, I would wait for Gabriel’s post as I’m sure he will be will be along at some point to give you all the Nightwish story, a really nice reaction.
I don't know if it's been mentioned yet, but this is probably Tuomas Holopainen's (the keyboardist) most emotional song. He's the one that had the idea of Nightwish, brought together the original lineup, and started the whole thing. He writes about 90% of the songs, and composes 99.9% of them. He is a one in a million, one in ten million composer, because he has a sixth sense about exactly what a song needs to have the most impact. Sometimes it's a soft, ballad like structure (Ever Dream, many parts of this Song, even a touch of jazz with Slow, Love, Slow) or a raging, galloping, thundering, angry track (like Romanticide or Ghost River). He literally speaks every language in the world with the notes that flow from his pen.
This song is extremely painful for Tuomas to play, because in October of 2005, after the End Of An Era concert in Finland, the original singer for the band, Tarja Turunen, was dismissed from the band due to her growing a bit of a diva complex, disagreements about the music, the fact that she was saying things like "I don't need Nightwish, but this band is nothing without me," and the like. Tuomas and Tarja grew up best of friends, so it literally tore Tuomas' heart into tiny pieces to have to dismiss one of his best friends. It also led to some extremely dark days for Tuomas, and one night, he had the thought that the damage that had been done, that he had been forced to perform, was too much and for about a minute, he actually considered ways to end his life.
This is why, throughout the song, you will see Emppu (guitarist) go over to chat with Tuomas, to make sure he knows he's supported and if they need to stop the song, they can. At the end, around 20:45 in your reaction above, you'll see Marko join Emppu up on the keyboard riser, as that last stanza is the most emotionally difficult for Tuomas, and it's to show their loyalty and support for him.
That's the important part said, what is below is a copy-paste from an email I sent a reactor that wanted to know a bit more indepth what all the lyrics meant:
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...Tuomas immediately channeled that depression, sadness, anger, even rage, into the music. He also knew he needed to figuratively cut the strings between "old" Nightwish and "new" Nightwish, and the only way he could do that was to "die." The first movement, with the soprano singing, "White Lands of Empathica" is the figurative perfection before the split, which happens when the first real attack note hits, leading into movement two, "Home." Movement II also has one of the most misunderstood lyrics that Tuomas has ever written, "Forgive me, I have but two faces/One for the world, and one for God, save me!"
Most people take it as face value that you bear your soul to god, but shield yourself from others. What it is intended to mean, as per Tuomas himself, is to describe how he felt in the time between the dismissal and his writing the song, because he had to keep a professional face on, had to keep searching for a new singer, keep the band going, all that, while also feeling this unbearable pain in his heart for what he felt was a betrayal of one of his best friends, being forced to dismiss her, and if those two lines don't describe depression in a nutshell, there are no better words.
Movement III is "The Pacific," which is the calm that settled over Tuomas after he got Movement II out of his system. This is his realization that it was okay to kill off the part of himself that was unable to let go of the pain and sorrow of firing his friend. The specific lines about that in the lyrics are "Tuck me in / Beneath the blue / Beneath the pain / Beneath the rain." At the end of Movement III is the monologue of the "boy I had been" (figuratively), and there are a ton of metaphors in that monologue.
Tuomas' absolute genius shines through here too, because if you take a stopwatch and press the start button the instant the line "Now I only have three minutes and counting" ends, Movement IV (titled Dark Passion Play) is the shortest movement, which is the chaotic, angry release of energy that is Tuomas figuratively building himself up to "kill himself." If you stop the stopwatch when the music stops suddenly after "a pen and 1000 pages of erased text," it is precisely three minutes elapsed time.
Movement V is "Mother and Father," and is Tuomas reflecting back on his life after he has "died." The first stanza is about himself "Be still, my son/you're home." Where the song goes extremely emotional is with the second stanza of the verse, "Search for beauty, find your shore," because that is Tuomas literally and figuratively encouraging Tarja to continue on her chosen path and excel at it. In the video, you'll see him lean his head back and sing "Try to save them all, bleed no more" with the pain visible in his face, because this is him saying that he couldn't save the first lineup of the band, and "In the end/I will always love you" is him speaking to Tarja as if they were face to face again.
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As others have said, all in all, you picked up on the background of the song really well, without knowing the full details of it before hand. There is a reason it is no longer played live, as that part of both Tuomas' life, and Nightwish's history, is truly and completely buried. It also took quite a few years of silence, but Tuomas and Tarja did make up, and have resumed being friends, but to avoid any issues, they both agreed that they'd never collaborate professionally again.
I'm not sure if the following detail is at all accurate (it came from a comment on a different reaction video), but if anybody can correct me it sounds like you can. Marko's first harsh vocal line is "Second robber to the right of Christ," most clearly refers to the second of the two criminals crucified with Christ, with the first being on his left. Linguistically "second to the right" can also be used to indicate a position, but there was only one person on the right side of Jesus at the cruxifiction. However, if you look at da Vinci's "Last Supper" painting, the second person to the right of Christ is Judas. It's enough of a stretch that I doubt it's what Thuomas meant, but I find the idea interesting enough to be worth mentioning.
I have to say I'm very impressed with your breakdown of this song, especially since you didn't research it beforehand :) Well done!
Nightwish's music is like therapy for me, having come from issues with depression and anxiety. Their music helped me through it, and they are and will for always be my no. 1 band :D
Thank you so much for your reaction/breakdown, and spreading awareness of mental health. I hope to see you do some more Nightwish songs in the future :)
Wunderful reaction . Gabriel will be here soon and give you all you need to know about nightwish . Prepare yourself for the nightwish army .
Coming in blank and doing such a beautiful and reflective reaction, I lift my hat. This is a masterpiece of a composition and have a factual backstory. But I really am surprised hav you dived in to this song, which is a emotional rollercoaster. Thänx and if you like to react to something completely else by Nightwish, react to Meadows of Heaven. Greetings from FI 🇫🇮.
I am actually glad that I went in blank and had my own emotions before also taking on the emotional meaning. It's beautiful. Thank you!
@@MentalAmanda To my mind there is no good live version to this song, so I think the fan made video with beautiful landscapes is the best there is. I guess it is a swan in the thumbnail.
Usually Nightwish is best live.
This is the most assertive analysis I’ve seen of the lyrics of this song, congratulations for a GREAT Nightwish reaction!
The Widowed Writer (Tuomas - the keyboard player) forcing the departure of friend and the groups first lead singer from the band and his feelings of despair and regret after its occurrence. This song is his metaphoric suicide. You did a fantastic job without knowing the history of the band...very impressive. Not a song most reviewers with start with. You have a beautiful soul young lady. You won over a new subscriber.
This was a superb reaction. Your take and analysis of the song along with your stories of mental health and talking about the song in light of that was incredible. Definitely not a dry eye anywhere for me. Thankyou.
Edit: You should definitely react to more Nightwish and even symphonic metal in general. The commenters will help with that!
I have some great Nightwish suggestions in here for more songs I will be doing! What other bands should I check out?
@@MentalAmanda You won't need any other bands for a while. The rabbit hole you just fell in is deep and filled with enough music to keep those pink ears happy for many weeks!!
@@keithspillman After Nightwish there is still Epica, Kamelot, Dream Theater, ..... und for me the most importend Arjen Anthony Luccason with Ayreon.
@@MentalAmanda The one and only Beth Hart. Hart has struggled with drug addiction and bi-polar disorder. Her speech before performing the song explains how she survived. Leave The Light On (Live At The Royal Albert Hall) czcams.com/video/ETj8kXNAtuE/video.html
There is a whole backstory on this song that is worth checking out. Others will fill you in. Floor Jansen is the third and present singer of the Symphonic Metal band Nightwish and widely considered the best and most versatile female singer of our time. As I am a Flooraholic from Utrecht, The Netherlands, here is some background information on our Dutch Valkyrie Queen. She joined the band 'After Forever' in 1997 at the age of 16. My favourite song is 'Energize Me'. They made a very beautiful music video out of this. 'After Forever' disbanded in 2009 and Floor started her own band 'Revamp' from scratch. Here she experimented with different vocal styles within one song, such as from full operatic to serious growls in seconds. The songs 'Disdain' and 'Wild Card' are good examples. September 2012 came the call from Nightwish to fill in for the remainder of the American Tour as their second singer Annette got ill. Floor had just 48 hours to learn the whole setlist. There is a documentary made of this world tour ('Please learn the setlist in 48 hours'). The lyrics of the songs of Nightwish are very poetic and the music as a whole is challenging, but Floor pulled it off and she stayed for the whole world tour, culminating in the iconic Wacken 2013 Open Air festival. It was obvious that the combination Nightwish and Floor Jansen was made in Walhalla, so she became a permanent member of the band in 2013 as the relationship with Annette and the band was strained even before she became ill. Floor continued to perform with 'Revamp' for a couple of years, but it became clear that she could not combine the two for much longer, so Revamp disbanded in 2016. Floor did a side project called 'Northward' where she dived into the Hard Rock scene. The song 'While Love Died' is a must see. Her stunning performances on the Dutch TV show 'Beste Zangers 2019' gave her at last some more recognition in her home country where she was relatively unknown until then. There are numerous guest appearances with other bands to find on CZcams. To see how to get a crowd of metalheads silenced and in awe, watch her featuring with the band 'Epica' and the song 'Stabat Mater Dolorosa'. And to see her in full opera mode watch her rendition of 'O Mio Babbino Caro' from Puccini. As live concerts were cancelled and home isolation due to the Covid situation, Floor discovered CZcams in the last year and uploaded many interesting videos on her channel. Mindblowing covers, chats with her idols and other singers, vocal masterclasses and so much more. Also her 'Fan Friday' videos are hilarious. Just unpack some of the presents she left there. Floorgasm alert! Floor is a high sensitive person, so peace and quiet is as important for her. Living by the woods in Sweden with her husband Hannes Van Dahl (drummer of the band 'Sabaton'); daughter Freja (just turned 4 years); a horse and pony; a dog and a bunch of cats, she found this.
Jesus, kind of missed the mark in this comment eh?
You describing her life at the end sounds like paradise to me!
@@pro-v7500 no negativity please, thank you.
@@corneliusantonius3108 there was no negativity in my comment. Just critique regarding his comment that disregards the subject matter at hand: Metal health, Tuomas’s composition, and Nightwish as a musical experience. I love me some Floor and 100% endorsing her as part of Nightwish and her pre-NW music and her solo stuff. But I just don’t really see how talking about her personal life is relevant to NW, this song, and it’s subject matter.
@@MentalAmanda DOCU TIME: Floor Jansen - (English&Finnish Subtitles) Interview and Reportage From Tampere [De Reunie](NPO 1) : czcams.com/video/B3NIfu0qvtg/video.html 😍😍😍
Floor tells the story and she is the one Tuomas can rely on to bring this song to sound as it should
the talented man you talkt about is the composer of this song. that man is the keyboardplayer Tuomas. it's a true story from him. in the final part called "Mother and Father"you see the other two band members standing around him for support.
Plus, through several parts you see Empuu checking on him because it hits so hard. They are such a wonderful band with an incredibly close bond 💖
Betrayal and picking up pieces.
Yep.
Picking up the pieces and glueing life back together at age 54.
I was there at 36. I feel like life is kind of like a puzzle and once you get most the pieces together, someone comes along, throws them back in the box, shakes them up and you start over. I'm learning to enjoy puzzles more and accepting that the picture can be beautiful even if a piece or two (or twenty) are missing 💖💖💖💖💖
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Still a struggle but I appreciate your input, of course. The song made me weep for the day and hour i know my own father's demise from this earth will happen, and knowing he was one of the few people who truly loved me and gave a damn, and tried, however imperfectly, to ease the rocks and briars of life.
@@WakefieldTolbert Ironically today marks 16 years since my dad passed. It's a loss I will never truly get over. Best man that I will ever know (except hopefully one day my 10 year old son.) I'm sending love to you and your dad.
@@MentalAmanda I'm 64 yrs old. I've been physically disabled since 1999. My Life Puzzle was completely destroyed at that time and I've spent the last two decades trying to create a new Life Puzzle for myself. I was and will always be a Daddy's girl. I lost him to cancer two years ago. He was always my greatest advocate and friend and I miss him dearly every day. Discovering Nightwish last year has helped me so much. Their music instantly made them my favorite band EVER, which is really saying something since I grew up in the '60s and '70s when the best bands of all time were taking over the world. I have struggled daily with severe depression ever since becoming disabled, but I know I can always count on the musical talents and graces of Nightwish to uplift my spirits. They have become a constant companion to me. I hope you and your community here can find the same comfort.
You had me at "Suicide Survivor"....subscribed...🌹...
@@cinderellsworth Losing my parents was the most awful thing I've ever been through. It turned my life upside down and set it on fire. I'm here if you ever just want to talk about your dad. He sounds like he was a great man.
Nightwish army Romanian 🇷🇴 division salutes you. Great reaction Amanda. You understand a lot of what it's about with this song. Stay safe and rock on.🤘
Amanda...A moving reaction, thank you. The irony of your insight ( not knowing the songs back story ) was quite amazing. First time I have ever gotten goose bumps from a reactor and not Floor's voice. The Nightwish Army will welcome you with open arms. Enjoy your journey and be well.
Great, great, great reaction and excellent understanding of the song! Hoping for more Nightwish and beautifull reactions!!
More Nightwish to come, no question! I do have a few other reactions on a playlist (there's an Indian folk metal song in there too!)
Nightwish Army coming in 1....2.....3.... enjoy the ride your gonna love it. Great reaction.
Wow, what an inspired and empathic reaction. I would have never recommended this song as your introduction to Nightwish, the depth and meaning behind it is better understood after experiencing a couple of their other compositions, but you handled it with grace and intelligence. You've earned my subscription and like. Others have done a wonderful job of explaining the meaning of the song and the turmoil Tuomas suffered. As a writer myself, I know the methodology of writing your pain into poetry to purge it from your soul. You were so credibly good at detecting this and I applaud you for your perception. Nightwish has become the flag bearer for Symphonic Metal. My favorite is "Ghose Love Score" and I recommend it as the followup. You would also love Within Temptation, another AMAZING female singer, Sharon den Adel - (I recommend Mother Earth as a starting point). There seems to be something in the water in the Netherlands, they have the pipes, as they also produced Floor Jensen, the brilliant lady you just heard.
You are a beautiful young lady, from the inside out - it radiates from you. I'll be back to hear more from you! Well done!
What do you write? I'd love to read something!
Honest, amazing, heartfelt, and beautiful reaction to a very powerful song from one of the greatest bands in the World. 🙂🤘🏻👍🏻 Nightwish fans are so excited to share our love for this awesome band with you. Please continue to discover more of their incredible and powerful music. We will always be here to listen and share along with you. Side note... isn’t Floor Jansen (the lead singer) incredible? She has the voice of an angel. Her range and her control are nearly limitless. She has some great solo songs and covers on her personal CZcams Channel as well. Thank you again Amanda for your great reaction. 🙂❤️🤘🏻👍🏻
I have one of her personal ones starred for a special and emotional day coming up in a few weeks❤️
Brilliant reaction! Well done! Welcome to the world of Symphonic metal Gods Nightwish. Not all of their songs are this dark, so enjoy - there is much to explore.
This is a very personal song for Tuomas (the keyboardist and composer). When you watch again you see Emmpu (guitarist) and Marko (bassist) walk up and check in on their friend to make sure he is still holding it together.
I like to suggest to you the channel of the leadsinger in this masterpiece, Floor Jansen. She is diagnosed an empath at a later age. I understand this is not a common reaction channel and you had already 114 reactions from the Nightwish fans giving so much background nollidge, it is breathtaking. My suggestion is related to the maincore of your channel mental health and in the world of metal and music/art there a lot of sensitive people and stories. In her series Floor Finds she talks with Tom Englund from the Swedish band Evergrey about the relationship between mental health and music. It helped a lot of people and stunningly they posted it shortly after the shocking news (for all fans) that Marco, the bassist and great vocalist stepped out of the band. Floor stated later that this was not a reaction on that news. It would have bin the perfect reaction imo. For me Floor is a rolemodel. First her history, the sadbacks, the emotinal roallercoaster. In lots of interviews she talks about it and that helped a lot of people not feeling so alone and out of place. Just read the reactions as i did a lot. It surely connected and touched a lot in me.
awesome from you that your listened to this song without the backstory of it. but you nailed it. got the feeling you have been there too.thanx for sharing a part of your story as wel. please stay strong. react more to Nightwish, you won't regret it. I promise. Nightwish Army embrace you. greets from the netherlands.
What a great reaction, without knowing the backstory for this.. I will not go into details, since Gabriel will probably be around soon for all the info, I will just say this - try Everdream next from the Wacken 2013 live concert.
Subscribed and looking forward to following your journey with Nightwish and the epic Floor Jansen !
Loved your reaction. It was amazing. Very deep. I would love to see more reactions to them. Nightwish has saved me in so many ways. I really hope you feel welcomed by the Nightwish Army.
I don't even have words for the joy you are all giving me with your kindness and positivity!
@@MentalAmanda I am very glad, you will find that there are many of us from many different places.
All of us are passionate about this band, we all have been saved, moved or at least inspired by them... It was beautiful to see what this song meant to you. Please keep them coming!!!
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Holy crap I've never heard Floor sing this song before. This isn't her song it was their original singer. I LOVE floor. And HOLY CRAP the difference. I was not expecting her to make her own like that (just 4 minutes in I haven't heard the whole thing yet) BTW Floor is my favorite of the 3 singers they've had. I do like Tarja and she was known for the more opera type singing, but Floor is their best singer for live performances.
I`m gonna miss the harmonies of Floor and Marco.... If u hear them seperate u would never guess how good they are together
Greetings from Austria. subscribed. Nightwish is always an emotional roller coaster (not always dark), but at the end is always hope or something positive. Stay safe and hope to see more reactions to Nightwish.
and btw. Nightwish Army will be here soon and give you the links to the story behind that master piece
So very excited to delve deeper in!
What a beautiful and insightful reaction.... Many say you need to be prepared to listen to this song, do the research, read the back story etc.... Ordinarily I'd agree, but you have lived your version of all the preparation, respect to you.....
Im a 60 year old man from the UK, been through quite a bit of stuff in that time, nearly ended it all, but came back. When I found Nightwish recently and heard this song all I could really say to myself was "yep.... Someone understands, someone cares" although my "troubles" were in my teens and twenties" I felt that this song just cleared me.... Sorry if I'm unclear I'm not a brilliant wordsmith.... Liked and subbed, I'm sure you will enjoy falling down this magical rabbit hole, exploring their amazing word like I have done. It'll be an experience that's for sure.
Stay strong, stay healthy, and most importantly... Stay the calm beautiful soul I've seen in this reaction.
There was a lot of that "yup, I get it" while I listened as well. So glad you are still here with us! Always here if you need to talk.
Wow! Your insight to the meaning of this song was great considering you knew nothing of the backstory. The singer Floor Jansen is an empath. She can imbue incredible emotion into anything she sings. She is worth checking out on her own as well as with Nightwish.
As a war veteran this gets me" long enough to hear the sounds of guns. Long enough to find yourself screaming every night. I like you am a survivor all the best Amanda
Thank you Amanda for your beautiful reaction !! Please continue with your journey into Nightwish Wolrd, you won't be disappointed, and be sure you won't be alone on the road, I'm convinced many of us loved your first steps with this out of this world band...
Hi Amanda. First off, I want to give you a huge virtual hug for everything that has happened to you in your past. I cannot even imagine your pain. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger though. Stand tall.
As for Nightwish, and Floor, welcome aboard the Nightwish Army! She is amazing and they are phenomenal.
"Ghost Love Score", live at Wachen 2013 is the usual gateway drug to Nightwish. You dove into the deep end with this one, which isn't a bad thing at all.
Have fun with this rabbit hole! I will subscribe you to follow this journey. BTW, they have a "virtual" concert next week you might want to join. Covid 19-84 sucks, so this is the first chance to see them "live" in a long time.
Peace and love from Calgary AB!
*big hug back*
A genuine reaction to Nightwish . Hadn’t seen one like that in a long time. Thank you.
Nightwish army minnesota division reporting for duty! I'm very pleasantly surprised that you started with this song, but you dissected it pretty dang fantastically! This song has helped me through more dark days and sad times than I can explain. Mental health is definitely something not to be taken lightly. Thank you so much for a fabulous review and can't wait to see more from you! Much love! ❤️🤘
Welcome to the wonderful world, and very deep rabbit hole that is Nightwish (albeit from a very different angle!!)
This song is about Tuomas, the keyboard player and founding member, and the backlash and fallout he faced after the band sacked their first singer and this song was ultimately how he dealt with the pressure - he commits suicide in the song to save himself from doing it in real life. At 6:50 it was so interesting to hear you talk about your mom's strength and being there as the last part of the song (where they all start sitting in front of the drum kit) reflects the words that Tuomas's parents said to him and at the end you can see Marko and Emppu go over to him to check he's okay. He very often didn't have the vocal feed in his earpieces as it was to painful for him to hear Floor sing.
Just to add - the betrayal line is interesting as the reason they ultimately sacked the original singer was because of her husband and the pressure he was exerting on her and the band. There is a song on the album Dark Passion Play called "Master Passion Greed" which is a direct barb at him and his actions and "Bye Bye Beautiful" is directed at Tarja who was sacked.
"He commits suicide in the song to save himself from doing it in real life." That is one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard in my life.
@@MentalAmanda he actually said that in an interview, I really do recommend watching that interview to get a clearer understanding of Tuomas's feelings at that time!
@@MentalAmanda czcams.com/video/v65-ErfUyVM/video.html 9:30 is where he talks about it!
great reaction! this song has so many layers. not just the lyrics, but also the melodies of the various parts describe the emotions the writer had going through this, and of course the vocalist Floor's powerful emotions she portrays in the various parts. most Nightwish songs also come with captions that you can turn on, makes it easier to follow along with the lyrics :)
Didn't know if that was cheating. HAHA
Hello Amanda. I know this vid is 2 yrs old, but I just found you. real quick, I'm a 58yr old Nana/metal head. All though I hate labels & I'm so much more than that. This song is my DAILY anthem to keep going through the pain. I'm a 7 time grateful failure at suicide. I can't be good at everything. Somehow I connected to you & your show of real reaction & emotions to this song. I will actually pray for peace , love & joy in your life. Not just say the words & don't bend the knee. Isn't it funny how we can be worlds apart in age, but still come together as woman struggling to find our way
I've never seen anyone analyze this song like this before. Thank you for this.
Don't EVER forget that you are strong. And that there always is someone somewhere who loves you and cares for you, no matter what.
I have a mantra very close to that on a note in my closet 🧡
Wow girl spot on. Welcome to the familie of nightwish. Hope you wil dive in the wonderful world of music that nightwish brings to the stage. Always go for the life performances,they are the best.
Loved your reaction. Greetings from the Netherlands 🇾🇪🧡🤘🤘🤘
Reactors usually comment floors voice. First time I hear someone who understands the words
Hi buddy! These lyrics took me a few times to learn. Now they’ll never leave my mind.
Exactly what I thought!!! Was expecting her to react to the music, but got a great psychoanalysis!
The genre is called Symphonic Metal. It has roots in the Prog Rock from the 1970's. Since you're a quick runner up in understanding the thematics of Nightwish, I'd suggest you continue with The Greatest Show on Earth, live in Tampere
Or from Wembley as it features a special guest.
Also, I was in the crowd for that one 🙂
Welcome in the Nighwish World. Hello from Italy:)
At last a real rocksong won!
wow. stunning understanding of the lyrics for a first time reactor to this song as well as to Nightwish. Really impressive. Congratulations. Still sorry for all the things you went through in your life. Hopefully you'll continue the journey of discovering Nightwish, the messaging is largely very positive and optimistic and not as dark as this specific song.
GreeZ from Germany
I think «Dead Boy’s Poem» would be an interesting song for you to look at next from Nightwish.
Checkout "Ghost Love Score", "Storytime, "Everdream" & "Song of Myself" live at Wacken 2013 by Nightwish.
With all the well meant and legit suggestions of other songs you are getting now (please do them all), I think my suggestion to you at this point is: "How's the Heart" from their latest album. there is heaps to explore, I wish you lots of fun!
I support this suggestion, as lyrics from this song "you know where, you've been there" came to my mind, as I was amazed by your insight without knowing the back story... but you've been there... and welcome to the rabbit hole 😄🐰🐰🐰
You will absolutely love the journey you are about to embark on. Nightwish is the best band to come along in decades.
Welcome to the Nightwish family. For someone who doesn't know the backstory of this song, you are extremely on point. The story behind this song is that Tuomas the keyboard player is the founder and composer of Nightwish. They had 2 singers previous to Floor (the singer in this video). But the song is about the first singer Tarja Turunen. They were friends and after many years she decided to leave the band, in a middle of a tour, but she became very shallow, obsessed with money fame, and many other things (you can find online the public letter that the Nightwish members wrote to her before kicking her off the band). Tuomas loved her very much and it was painful for him to let her go, but she became unbearable not only to him but to the rest of the members of the band. So they decided to let her go. They gave her a letter after their last show called "End of an Era". After that, Tuomas was judged very harshly by the media and the fans for letting her go, so he became depressed, almost to suicide. But instead of committing suicide, he wrote this song. So he put his feelings on paper. Us fans we understand what he felt during this rough time. But you were very close to the story because he mentioned that the song is inspired by Edgar Allen Poe. So thank you for reacting
I see the nightwish army helped with that 1k subs!! Amazing reaction! In fact, in the reacticide discord someone said it was, hands down, the best they've ever seen.
I'm so humbled beyond words. So much love out of nowhere! I already love you all for the support and enormous amount of positivity.
This is Symphonic Metal and this was Tuomas' (keyboard, komposer) suizid song. He couldn't take his own life, so he killed himself on stage. This song deals with depression and his way out. The last lines Floor Jansen sang were the words Tuomas got from his parents.
And the associated stages. That's why the song changes the mood several times.
Perhaps a dual betrayal comes into play in this song. The band felt betrayed by Tarja, the original Nightwish singer, when her fiancee tried to take control over the band, and then there was the betrayal felt by many fans towards the band when they decided to part ways with Tarja.
Hello! Happy my love for seeing people appreciate nightwish for the first time brought me to such a wholesome channel.
If I may put a suggestion forward for another good song you can react to: A Reason to Fight by Disturbed was very powerful to listen to.
Added to my list!
Your breakdown of this song was exceptionally spot on considering you knew nothing of the backstory. You have an incredible gift in your ability to be able to read a situation and be so emphatic. As for the reaction you get 10 thumbs up. That's the equivalent of the golden buzzer. Great reaction. you will love them. I guarantee it.
Wow, loved your reaction. I'd recommend checking out "Dead Boy's Poem" live in Buenos Aires. It's an amazing and emotional song. The lyrics are just beautiful and heartwrenching.
Was about to suggest the same. Dead Boys Poem was something I used to listen to in a loop as a teenager when I was suffering from suicidal thoughts
Absolutely, I think thats my absolute favorite song/performance of theirs, esp after seeing the 2018 live performance which just got me on a whooole different level than the others ya know lol just from Floor’s insane ability to make u FEEL every single note and emotion, plus obv those vocals duh lol plus this one was all about the visuals for me, it was the only time I can remember Emppu delivering such an intense emotional solo like that ya know, just WOW he looked soo amazing and so intense I really loved to see that side of him too!!
So yea I really hope she does watch that live performance as well, I think it brings such emotion that anyone can feel, doesn’t matter where u are in life, EVERYONE CAN BENEFIT FROM IT!!
OH and I almost forgot.. those of us here from the Nightwish Army would like to personally thank u and officially WELCOME U TO THE NIGHTWISH ARMY!! We all hope u will continue your journey down the rabbit hole that is Nightwish!!! :)
Such a great reaction. Even better without all the history of Nightwish so you starten with a clean slate. Please watch and listen to Nightwish - Ghost Love Score from Wacken 2013.
This is by far the most genuine first time reaction to a song, most people have to listen to multiple times to even grasp what it's all about. Amanda!............great props to you hon. Simply lovely!
I suffer from mental abuse from my father at a young age. I'm 53 and I suffer from it still. Stay strong.
I'm so sorry. Trauma never goes away. I was sexually assaulted 20 years ago (I made a video going back to the place it happened) and I'm just recently coming to terms with it. Please message me if you ever need to talk. Sending love and healing.
Quite the choice for mental health awareness.
It describes what Tuomas went through in the past, when the band parted ways with a former lead vocalist and people took that out on him.
Very nice interpretation of the song, you were pretty right about all the things. This song is about, and written by, Tuomas Holopainen (keyboardist), theres alot of backstory about this song you can look up and im sure people in the comments will write it down. The female singer is called Floor Jansen and she is an amazing artist as you have seen. The genre they are playing is called symphonic metal.
Great reaction and interpretation of the song. Interesting channel too. Glad to hear you've overcome some hurdles in life yourself, and hope that you'll find more of the Nightwish repertoire to your liking ;). It's one of the most uplifting bands ever imho.
Thank you. Beautiful reaction. I've never seen a better one by someone with absolutely no knowledge of Nightwish or the band's history (and I've seen quite a few). Tuomas (the keyboardist and songwriter) used this song as a catharsis...an outlet for the pain and suicidal thoughts he was feeling after firing Tarja from the band. Seen in that light, it is a beautiful way to give outlet to those feelings, process them, and begin again. Floor, as Tuomas' "voice" in the song, never fails to bring me to tears with her empathetic storytelling...and the way the band gathers around Tuomas at the end is touching and makes me proud to be a Nightwish supporter. If you do choose to react to more Nightwish, enjoy your journey.
Nightwish Army will be rolling in heavy. I LOVE that you heard this song first without knowing the backstory. Such a perfect song for mental health discussion! I first heard it without knowing the background, and the mystery gripped me, so I HAD to dig deeper. Then learning the background was to experience the song again for the first time.
Honestly one of my favorite reactions to this (I’ve watched many), because you had no idea what you were getting into, and also how appropriate it is to the mental health topic.
You just found an amazing band. Much more to love!
I am actually happy I didn't know the backstory too because it gave me the opportunity to have a raw reaction BEFORE have the emotional reaction of the story itself as well.