I almost killed myself a few years ago, just to try and escape the mess in my head over covid I lost almost every friend I had or that’s how I saw it I left church and school hiding from the world then felt abandoned by it. I made a promise to myself that day that I’d live for others if not myself. I’ve done my best to help my friends and not let anyone go unheard I always try to text back immediately and pick up the phone whenever they call because I know how hard it is to have no one to hear you when your crying out in silence. I’ve since gotten better I met an amazing girl and have reconnected with many friends as well as making many new ones. I’m not really sure why I’m saying all this into the random internet but if anyone’s reading this remember your never as alone as you may think there’s always those who do care and if nothing else I care. Keep fighting life can and will get better no matter how dark it may seem sometimes.
i'm so glad you're still here. it's amazing to see how you've turned your experience into something beautiful. keep living and changing lives, there's many more wonderful things coming your way, i know it
I constantly despise so many attributes of myself. My pale face, my voice that keeps yapping, the way I stand, the things wrong with my brain, etc. I tried hanging myself so many times. I almost jumped off parking lots so many times. I want to die and every single time I reach out, it does nothing. Just an awkward talk and more feelings like no one gives a fuck. The only two reasons I am even alive and typing this is because A, I am a fucking coward. And B, I have a few friends who I don't want to see crying. But they might just move on in life after I'm gone.
i know what you're going through. that feeling to escape that only eats away at you day after day, where every morning feels like nothing but a chore. that the only way to free yourself from it is to end it all. but please know, that pain will go away. it may take time, energy, and flare up occasionally but it will go away. you will grow into a stronger person, you will be surrounded by people that care about you, you will come to love yourself, you will discover how much you matter. because you do matter. your life is invaluable. it's a gift. if you're ever feeling like taking your life please continue to reach out to those close to you. i promise you, they care far more than you could ever know. if not them then reach out to me, because everyone deserves to have their voice heard.
@@hamiinthehoodie As much as I wish I could, I just can't believe stuff like that. I've heard it over and over and over again. But every time I take that advice, it gets me nowhere and I just feel more alone. More detached from myself. Wanting more and more to just sleep and do nothing else.
you're never alone. in all things there is someone with you, watching over you, caring for you. i found peace of mind through His word. before coming to Him i pushed myself to excel in school in hopes of finding a purpose that wasn't there. i beat myself, cut myself, and almost convinced myself it was better to not exist entirely because i hated who i was becoming. but that's not true. everyone is born with a purpose, it just sometimes takes a while longer to discover it. czcams.com/video/07NouHICUHM/video.html if you feel drawn to watch this video, and know that God loves you. you may not believe it or feel it, but He does. there is so much you can do with this life He's given to you, it's just up to you to decide what to do.
nothing has been going well lately and i feel so lonely. i've expressed these emotions that i dread, i asked for help and instead had doors close on me again and again. i feel lonely. so lonely. I am sorry for dumping my mess in here, it is only here that i find the courage to share a part of me that i hate very much. but atleast your kind words have guaranteed me another day. thank you.
it's okay, that's what these videos are for. a way to open up and reach out. things will get better, the pain of isolation only lasts for a moment in a lifetime of happy memories to come. it may not seem like it now, but everlasting joy and peace is just around the corner. it's just hard to find sometimes but it's there, on it's way to uplift and remind you of how valuable you are. i promise.
Why dont you make longer videos like an hour or more i wanna see gardens,mountains fields. yt algo just knows what i want when i having anxiety sometimes its just too much to handle
That was the most beautiful thing I've heard all day
I almost killed myself a few years ago, just to try and escape the mess in my head over covid I lost almost every friend I had or that’s how I saw it I left church and school hiding from the world then felt abandoned by it. I made a promise to myself that day that I’d live for others if not myself. I’ve done my best to help my friends and not let anyone go unheard I always try to text back immediately and pick up the phone whenever they call because I know how hard it is to have no one to hear you when your crying out in silence. I’ve since gotten better I met an amazing girl and have reconnected with many friends as well as making many new ones. I’m not really sure why I’m saying all this into the random internet but if anyone’s reading this remember your never as alone as you may think there’s always those who do care and if nothing else I care. Keep fighting life can and will get better no matter how dark it may seem sometimes.
i'm so glad you're still here. it's amazing to see how you've turned your experience into something beautiful. keep living and changing lives, there's many more wonderful things coming your way, i know it
Know that you're loved. ❤
This is gonna blow up bro! Great cinematography and message. Keep it up🙏
i really needed this. this was so incredible and beautiful
this is beautiful
This is art. This is beautiful. This is truth. And I thank you for it, bc my demons really had it out for me the last few months
ur such a kind soul , ur loved. thank you
sounds great, nice job
just amazing, thank you for this
wow
thank you for posting this
I constantly despise so many attributes of myself. My pale face, my voice that keeps yapping, the way I stand, the things wrong with my brain, etc. I tried hanging myself so many times. I almost jumped off parking lots so many times. I want to die and every single time I reach out, it does nothing. Just an awkward talk and more feelings like no one gives a fuck. The only two reasons I am even alive and typing this is because A, I am a fucking coward. And B, I have a few friends who I don't want to see crying. But they might just move on in life after I'm gone.
i know what you're going through. that feeling to escape that only eats away at you day after day, where every morning feels like nothing but a chore. that the only way to free yourself from it is to end it all. but please know, that pain will go away. it may take time, energy, and flare up occasionally but it will go away. you will grow into a stronger person, you will be surrounded by people that care about you, you will come to love yourself, you will discover how much you matter. because you do matter. your life is invaluable. it's a gift. if you're ever feeling like taking your life please continue to reach out to those close to you. i promise you, they care far more than you could ever know. if not them then reach out to me, because everyone deserves to have their voice heard.
@@hamiinthehoodie As much as I wish I could, I just can't believe stuff like that. I've heard it over and over and over again. But every time I take that advice, it gets me nowhere and I just feel more alone. More detached from myself. Wanting more and more to just sleep and do nothing else.
you're never alone. in all things there is someone with you, watching over you, caring for you. i found peace of mind through His word. before coming to Him i pushed myself to excel in school in hopes of finding a purpose that wasn't there. i beat myself, cut myself, and almost convinced myself it was better to not exist entirely because i hated who i was becoming. but that's not true. everyone is born with a purpose, it just sometimes takes a while longer to discover it. czcams.com/video/07NouHICUHM/video.html if you feel drawn to watch this video, and know that God loves you. you may not believe it or feel it, but He does. there is so much you can do with this life He's given to you, it's just up to you to decide what to do.
❤❤
evil lana del rey:
nothing has been going well lately
and i feel so lonely.
i've expressed these emotions that i dread, i asked for help and instead had doors close on me again and again.
i feel lonely.
so lonely.
I am sorry for dumping my mess in here, it is only here that i find the courage to share a part of me that i hate very much.
but atleast your kind words have guaranteed me another day. thank you.
it's okay, that's what these videos are for. a way to open up and reach out. things will get better, the pain of isolation only lasts for a moment in a lifetime of happy memories to come. it may not seem like it now, but everlasting joy and peace is just around the corner. it's just hard to find sometimes but it's there, on it's way to uplift and remind you of how valuable you are. i promise.
Why dont you make longer videos like an hour or more i wanna see gardens,mountains fields.
yt algo just knows what i want when i having anxiety sometimes its just too much to handle
might just have to